
Secret Window, Secret Garden
THIS IS FOR CHUCK VERRILL.
TWO PAST MIDNIGHT
A NOTE ON “SECRET WINDOW, SECRET
GARDEN”
I’m one of those people who believe that
life is a series of cycles—wheels within wheels, some meshing with
others, some spinning alone, but all of them performing some
finite, repeating function. I like that abstract image of life as
something like an efficient factory machine, probably because
actual life, up close and personal, seems so messy and strange.
It’s nice to be able to pull away every once in awhile and say,
“There’s a pattern there after all! I’m not sure what it means, but
by God, I see it!”
All of these wheels seem to finish their cycles at
roughly the same time, and when they do—about every twenty years
would be my guess—we go through a time when we end things.
Psychologists have even lifted a parliamentary term to describe
this phenomenon—they call it cloture.
I’m forty-two now, and as I look back over the last
four years of my life I can see all sorts of cloture. It’s as
apparent in my work as anywhere else. In It, I took an
outrageous amount of space to finish talking about children and the
wide perceptions which light their interior lives. Next year I
intend to publish the last Castle Rock novel, Needful Things
(the last story in this volume, “The Sun Dog,” forms a prologue to
that novel). And this story is, I think, the last story about
writers and writing and the strange no man’s land which exists
between what’s real and what’s make-believe. I believe a good many
of my long-time readers, who have borne my fascination with this
subject patiently, will be glad to hear that.
A few years ago I published a novel called
Misery which tried, at least in part, to illustrate the
powerful hold fiction can achieve over the reader. Last year I
published The Dark Half, where I tried to explore the
converse: the powerful hold fiction can achieve over the writer.
While that book was between drafts, I started to think that there
might be a way to tell both stories at the same time by approaching
some of the plot elements of The Dark Half from a totally
different angle. Writing, it seems to me, is a secret act—as secret
as dreaming—and that was one aspect of this strange and dangerous
craft I had never thought about much.
I knew that writers have from time to time revised
old works—John Fowles did it with The Magus, and I have done
it myself with The Stand—but revision was not what I had in
mind. What I wanted to do was to take familiar elements and put
them together in an entirely new way. This I had tried to do at
least once before, restructuring and updating the basic elements of
Bram Stoker’s Dracula to create ’Salem’s Lot, and I
was fairly comfortable with the idea.
One day in the late fall of 1987, while these
things were tumbling around in my head, I stopped in the laundry
room of our house to drop a dirty shirt into the washing machine.
Our laundry room is a small, narrow alcove on the second floor. I
disposed of the shirt and then stepped over to one of the room’s
two windows. It was casual curiosity, no more. We’ve been living in
the same house for eleven or twelve years now, but I had never
taken a good hard look out this particular window before. The
reason is perfectly simple; set at floor level, mostly hidden
behind the drier, half blocked by baskets of mending, it’s a hard
window to look out of.
I squeezed in, nevertheless, and looked out. That
window looks down on a little brick-paved alcove between the house
and the attached sunporch. It’s an area I see just about every day
. . . but the angle was new. My wife had set half a dozen
pots out there, so the plants could take a little of the
early-November sun, I suppose, and the result was a charming little
garden which only I could see. The phrase which occurred to me was,
of course, the title of this story. It seemed to me as good a
metaphor as any for what writers—especially writers of fantasy—do
with their days and nights. Sitting down at the typewriter or
picking up a pencil is a physical act; the spiritual analogue is
looking out of an almost forgotten window, a window which offers a
common view from an entirely different angle . . . an angle which
renders the common extraordinary. The writer’s job is to gaze
through that window and report on what he sees.
But sometimes windows break. I think that, more
than anything else, is the concern of this story: what happens to
the wide-eyed observer when the window between reality and
unreality breaks and the glass begins to fly?
1
“You stole my story,” the man on the doorstep
said. “You stole my story and something’s got to be done about it.
Right is right and fair is fair and something has to be
done.”
Morton Rainey, who had just gotten up from a nap
and who was still feeling only halfway into the real world, didn’t
have the slightest idea what to say. This was never the case when
he was at work, sick or well, wide awake or half asleep; he was a
writer, and hardly ever at a loss when it became necessary to fill
a character’s mouth with a snappy comeback. Rainey opened his
mouth, found no snappy comeback there (not even a limp one, in
fact), and so closed it again.
He thought: This man doesn’t look exactly real.
He looks like a character out of a novel by William
Faulkner.
This was of no help in resolving the situation, but
it was undeniably true. The man who had rung Rainey’s doorbell out
here in the western Maine version of nowhere looked about
forty-five. He was very thin. His face was calm, almost serene, but
carved with deep lines. They moved horizontally across his high
brow in regular waves, cut vertically downward from the ends of his
thin lips to his jawline, and radiated outward in tiny sprays from
the corners of his eyes. The eyes were bright, unfaded blue. Rainey
couldn’t tell what color his hair was; he wore a large black hat
with a round crown planted squarely on his head. The underside of
the brim touched the tops of his ears. It looked like the sort of
hat Quakers wore. He had no sideburns, either, and for all Morton
Rainey knew, he might be as bald as Telly Savalas under that
round-crowned felt hat.
He was wearing a blue work-shirt. It was buttoned
neatly all the way to the loose, razor-reddened flesh of his neck,
although he wore no tie. The bottom of the shirt disappeared into a
pair of blue-jeans that looked a little too big for the man who was
wearing them. They ended in cuffs which lay neatly on a pair of
faded yellow work-shoes which looked made for walking in a furrow
of played-out earth about three and a half feet behind a mule’s
ass.
“Well?” he asked when Rainey continued to say
nothing.
“I don’t know you,” Rainey said finally. It was the
first thing he’d said since he’d gotten up off the couch and come
to answer the door, and it sounded sublimely stupid in his own
ears.
“I know that,” said the man. “That
doesn’t matter. I know you, Mr. Rainey. That’s what
matters.” And then he reiterated: “You stole my story.”
He held out his hand, and for the first time Rainey
saw that he had something in it. It was a sheaf of paper. But not
just any old sheaf of paper; it was a manuscript. After you’ve been
in the business awhile, he thought, you always recognized the look
of a manuscript. Especially an unsolicited one.
And, belatedly, he thought: Good thing for you
it wasn’t a gun, Mort old kid. You would have been in hell before
you knew you were dead.
And, even more belatedly, he realized that he was
probably dealing with one of the Crazy Folks. It was long overdue,
of course; although his last three books had been best-sellers,
this was his first visit from one of that fabled tribe. He felt a
mixture of fear and chagrin, and his thoughts narrowed to a single
point: how to get rid of the guy as fast as possible, and with as
little unpleasantness as possible.
“I don’t read manuscripts—” he began.
“You read this one already,” the man with the
hard-working sharecropper’s face said evenly. “You stole it.” He
spoke as if stating a simple fact, like a man noting that the sun
was out and it was a pleasant fall day.
All of Mort’s thoughts were belated this afternoon,
it seemed; he now realized for the first time how alone he was out
here. He had come to the house in Tashmore Glen in early October,
after two miserable months in New York; his divorce had become
final just last week.
It was a big house, but it was a summer place, and
Tashmore Glen was a summer town. There were maybe twenty cottages
on this particular road running along the north bay of Tashmore
Lake, and in July or August there would be people staying in most
or all of them... but this wasn’t July or August. It was late
October. The sound of a gunshot, he realized, would probably drift
away unheard. If it was heard, the hearers would simply
assume someone was shooting at quail or pheasant—it was the
season.
“I can assure you—”
“I know you can,” the man in the black hat
said with that same unearthly patience. “I know that.”
Behind him, Mort could see the car the man had come
in. It was an old station wagon which looked as if it had seen a
great many miles, very few of them on good roads. He could see that
the plate on it wasn’t from the State of Maine, but couldn’t tell
what state it was from; he’d known for some time now that he
needed to go to the optometrist and have his glasses changed, had
even planned early last summer to do that little chore, but then
Henry Young had called him one day in April, asking who the fellow
was he’d seen Amy with at the mall—some relative, maybe?—and the
suspicions which had culminated in the eerily quick and quiet
no-fault divorce had begun, the shitstorm which had taken up all
his time and energy these last few months. During that time he had
been doing well if he remembered to change his underwear, let alone
handle more esoteric things like optometrist appointments.
“If you want to talk to someone about some
grievance you feel you have,” Mort began uncertainly, hating the
pompous, talking-boilerplate sound of his own voice but not knowing
how else to reply, “you could talk to my ag—”
“This is between you and me,” the man on the
doorstep said patiently. Bump, Mort’s tomcat, had been curled up on
the low cabinet built into the side of the house—you had to store
your garbage in a closed compartment or the raccoons came in the
night and pulled it all over hell—and now he jumped down and twined
his way sinuously between the stranger’s legs. The stranger’s
bright-blue eyes never left Rainey’s face. “We don’t need any
outsiders, Mr. Rainey. It is strictly between you and me.”
“I don’t like being accused of plagiarism, if
that’s what you’re doing,” Mort said. At the same time, part of his
mind was cautioning him that you had to be very careful when
dealing with people of the Crazy Folks tribe. Humor them? Yes. But
this man didn’t seem to have a gun, and Mort outweighed him by at
least fifty pounds. I’ve also got five or ten years on him,
by the look, he thought. He had read that a bona-fide Crazy
Guy could muster abnormal strength, but he was damned if he was
simply going to stand here and let this man he had never seen
before go on saying that he, Morton Rainey, had stolen his story.
Not without some kind of rebuttal.
“I don’t blame you for not liking it,” the man in
the black hat said. He spoke in the same patient and serene way. He
spoke, Mort thought, like a therapist whose work is teaching small
children who are retarded in some mild way. “But you did it. You
stole my story.”
“You’ll have to leave,” Mort said. He was fully
awake now, and he no longer felt so bewildered, at such a
disadvantage. “I have nothing to say to you.”
“Yes, I’ll go,” the man said. “We’ll talk more
later.” He held out the sheaf of manuscript, and Mort actually
found himself reaching for it. He put his hand back down to his
side just before his uninvited and unwanted guest could slip the
manuscript into it, like a process server finally slipping a
subpoena to a man who has been ducking it for months.
“I’m not taking that,” Mort said, and part of him
was marvelling at what a really accommodating beast a man was: when
someone held something out to you, your first instinct was to take
it. No matter if it was a check for a thousand dollars or a stick
of dynamite with a lit and fizzing fuse, your first instinct was to
take it.
“Won’t do you any good to play games with me, Mr.
Rainey,” the man said mildly. “This has got to be settled.”
“So far as I’m concerned, it is,” Mort said, and
closed the door on that lined, used, and somehow timeless
face.
He had only felt a moment or two of fear, and those
had come when he first realized, in a disoriented and
sleep-befogged way, what this man was saying. Then it had been
swallowed by anger—anger at being bothered during his nap, and more
anger at the realization that he was being bothered by a
representative of the Crazy Folks.
Once the door was closed, the fear returned. He
pressed his lips together and waited for the man to start pounding
on it. And when that didn’t come, he became convinced that the man
was just standing out there, still as a stone and as patient as
same, waiting for him to reopen the door... as he would have to do,
sooner or later.
Then he heard a low thump, followed by a series of
light steps crossing the board porch. Mort walked into the master
bedroom, which looked out on the driveway. There were two big
windows in here, one giving on the driveway and the shoulder of
hill behind it, the other providing a view of the slope which fell
away to the blue and agreeable expanse of Tashmore Lake. Both
windows were reflectorized, which meant he could look out but
anyone trying to look in would see only his own distorted image,
unless he put his nose to the glass and cupped his eyes against the
glare.
He saw the man in the work-shirt and cuffed
blue-jeans walking back to his old station wagon. From this angle,
he could make out the license plate’s state of issue—Mississippi.
As the man opened the driver’s-side door, Mort thought: Oh shit.
The gun’s in the car. He didn’t have it on him because he believed
he could reason with me ... whatever his idea of “reasoning” is.
But now he’s going to get it and come back. It’s probably in the
glove compartment or under the seat—
But the man got in behind the wheel, pausing only
long enough to take off his black hat and toss it down beside him.
As he slammed the door and started the engine, Mort thought,
There’s something different about him now. But it wasn’t
until his unwanted afternoon visitor had backed up the driveway and
out of sight behind the thick screen of bushes Mort kept forgetting
to trim that he realized what it was.
When the man got into his car, he had no longer
been holding the manuscript.
2
It was on the back porch. There was a rock on it
to keep the individual pages from blowing all over the little
dooryard in the light breeze. The small thump he’d heard had been
the man putting the rock on the manuscript.
Mort stood in the doorway, hands in the pockets of
his khaki pants, looking at it. He knew that craziness wasn’t
catching (except maybe in cases of prolonged exposure, he
supposed), but he still didn’t want to touch the goddam thing. He
supposed he would have to, though. He didn’t know just how long he
would be here—a day, a week, a month, and a year all looked equally
possible at this point—but he couldn’t just let the fucking thing
sit there. Greg Carstairs, his caretaker, would be down early this
afternoon to give him an estimate on how much it would cost to
reshingle the house, for one thing, and Greg would wonder what it
was. Worse, he would probably assume it was Mort’s, and that would
entail more explanations than the damned thing was worth.
He stood there until the sound of his visitor’s
engine had merged into the low, slow hum of the afternoon, and then
he went out on the porch, walking carefully in his bare feet (the
porch had needed painting for at least a year now, and the dry wood
was prickly with potential splinters), and tossed the rock into the
juniper-choked gully to the left of the porch. He picked up the
little sheaf of pages and looked down at it. The top one was a
title page. It read:
SECRET WINDOW, SECRET GARDEN
By John Shooter
Mort felt a moment’s relief in spite of himself. He
had never heard of John Shooter, and he had never read or written a
short story called “Secret Window, Secret Garden” in his
life.
He tossed the manuscript in the kitchen wastebasket
on his way by, went back to the couch in the living room, lay down
again, and was asleep in five minutes.
He dreamed of Amy. He slept a great lot and he
dreamed of Amy a great lot these days, and waking up to the sound
of his own hoarse shouts no longer surprised him much. He supposed
it would pass.
3
The next morning he was sitting in front of his
word processor in the small nook off the living room which had
always served as his study when they were down here. The word
processor was on, but Mort was looking out the window at the lake.
Two motor-boats were out there, cutting broad white wakes in the
blue water. He had thought they were fishermen at first, but they
never slowed down—just cut back and forth across each other’s bows
in big loops. Kids, he decided. Just kids playing games.
They weren’t doing anything very interesting, but
then, neither was he. He hadn’t written anything worth a damn since
he had left Amy. He sat in front of the word processor every day
from nine to eleven, just as he had every day for the last three
years (and for about a thousand years before that he had spent
those two hours sitting in front of an old Royal office model), but
for all the good he was doing with it, he might as well have traded
it in on a motor-boat and gone out grab-assing with the kids on the
lake.
Today, he had written the following lines of
deathless prose during his two-hour stint:
Four days after George had confirmed to his own
satisfaction that his wife was cheating on him, he confronted
her.
“I have to talk to you, Abby,” he said.
It was no good.
It was too close to real life to be good.
He had never been so hot when it came to real life.
Maybe that was part of the problem.
He turned off the word processor, realizing just a
second after he’d flicked the switch that he’d forgotten to save
the document. Well, that was all right. Maybe it had even been the
critic in his subconscious, telling him the document wasn’t worth
saving.
Mrs. Gavin had apparently finished upstairs; the
drone of the Electrolux had finally ceased. She came in every
Tuesday to clean, and she had been shocked into a silence very
unlike her when Mort had told her two Tuesdays ago that he and Amy
were quits. He suspected that she had liked Amy a good deal more
than she had liked him. But she was still coming, and Mort supposed
that was something.
He got up and went out into the living room just as
Mrs. Gavin came down the main staircase. She was holding the
vacuum-cleaner hose and dragging the small tubular machine after
her. It came down in a series of thumps, looking like a small
mechanical dog. If I tried to pull the vacuum downstairs that
way, it’d smack into one of my ankles and then roll all the way to
the bottom, Mort thought. How does she get it to do that, I
wonder?
“Hi there, Mrs. G.,” he said, and crossed the
living room toward the kitchen door. He wanted a Coke. Writing shit
always made him thirsty.
“Hello, Mr. Rainey.” He had tried to get her to
call him Mort, but she wouldn’t. She wouldn’t even call him Morton.
Mrs. Gavin was a woman of her principles, but her principles had
never kept her from calling his wife Amy.
Maybe I should tell her I caught Amy in bed with
another man at one of Derry’s finer motels, Mort thought as he
pushed through the swing door. She might go back to calling her
Mrs. Rainey again, at the very least.
This was an ugly and mean-spirited thought, the
kind of thinking he suspected was at the root of his writing
problems, but he didn’t seem to be able to help it. Perhaps it
would also pass... like the dreams. For some reason this idea made
him think of a bumper sticker he’d seen once on the back of a very
old VW beetle. CONSTIPATED—CANNOT PASS, the sticker had read.
As the kitchen door swung back, Mrs. Gavin called:
“I found one of your stories in the trash, Mr. Rainey. I thought
you might want it, so I put it on the counter.”
“Okay,” he said, having no idea what she might be
talking about. He was not in the habit of tossing bad manuscripts
or frags in the kitchen trash. When he produced a stinker—and
lately he had produced more than his share—it went either directly
to data heaven or into the circular file to the right of his
word-processing station.
The man with the lined face and round black Quaker
hat never even entered his mind.
He opened the refrigerator door, moved two small
Tupperware dishes filled with nameless leftovers, discovered a
bottle of Pepsi, and opened it as he nudged the fridge door closed
with his hip. As he went to toss the cap in the trash, he saw the
manuscript—its title page was spotted with something that looked
like orange juice, but otherwise it was all right—sitting on the
counter by the Silex. Then he remembered. John Shooter,
right. Charter member of the Crazy Folks, Mississippi Branch.
He took a drink of Pepsi, then picked up the
manuscript. He put the title page on the bottom and saw this at the
head of the first page:
John Shooter
General Delivery
Dellacourt, Mississippi
General Delivery
Dellacourt, Mississippi
30 pages
Approximately 7500 words
Selling 1st serial rights, North America
Approximately 7500 words
Selling 1st serial rights, North America
SECRET WINDOW, SECRET GARDEN By John
Shooter
The manuscript had been typed on a good grade of
bond paper, but the machine must have been a sad case—an old office
model, from the look, and not very well maintained. Most of the
letters were as crooked as an old man’s teeth.
He read the first sentence, then the second, then
the third, and for a few moments clear thought ceased.
Todd Downey thought that a woman who would steal
your love when your love was really all you had was not much of a
woman. He therefore decided to kill her. He would do it in the deep
corner formed where the house and barn came together at an extreme
angle—he would do it where his wife kept her garden.
“Oh shit,” Mort said, and put the manuscript back
down. His arm struck the Pepsi bottle. It overturned, foaming and
fizzing across the counter and running down the cabinet facings.
“Oh SHIT!” he yelled.
Mrs. Gavin came in a hurry, surveyed the situation,
and said: “Oh, that’s nothing. I thought from the sound that maybe
you’d cut your own throat. Move a little, can’t you, Mr.
Rainey?”
He moved, and the first thing she did was to pick
the sheaf of manuscript up off the counter and thrust it back into
his hands. It was still okay; the soda had run the other way. He
had once been a man with a fairly good sense of humor—he had
always thought so, anyway—but as he looked down at the little pile
of paper in his hands, the best he could manage was a sour sense of
irony. It’s like the cat in the nursery rhyme, he thought.
The one that kept coming back.
“If you’re trying to wreck that,” Mrs. Gavin said,
nodding at the manuscript as she got a dishrag from under the sink,
“you’re on the right track.”
“It’s not mine,” he said, but it was funny, wasn’t
it? Yesterday, when he had almost reached out and taken the script
from the man who had brought it to him, he’d thought about what an
accommodating beast a man was. Apparently that urge to accommodate
stretched in all directions, because the first thing he’d felt when
he read those three sentences was guilt ... and wasn’t that just
what Shooter (if that was really his name) had wanted him to feel?
Of course it was. You stole my story, he’d said, and weren’t
thieves supposed to feel guilty?
“Pardon me, Mr. Rainey,” Mrs. Gavin said, holding
up the dishrag.
He stepped aside so she could get at the spill.
“It’s not mine,” he repeated—insisted, really.
“Oh,” she said, wiping up the spill on the counter
and then stepping to the sink to wring out the cloth. “I thought it
was.”
“It says John Shooter,” he said, putting the title
page back on top and turning it toward her. “See?”
Mrs. Gavin favored the title page with the shortest
glance politeness would allow and then began wiping the cabinet
faces. “Thought it was one of those whatchacallums,” she said.
“Pseudonames. Or nyms. Whatever the word is for pen names.”
“I don’t use one,” he said. “I never have.”
This time she favored him with a brief
glance—country shrewd and slightly amused—before getting down on
her knees to wipe up the puddle of Pepsi on the floor. “Don’t
s’pose you’d tell me if you did,” she said.
“I’m sorry about the spill,” he said, edging toward
the door.
“My job,” she said shortly. She didn’t look up
again. Mort took the hint and left.
He stood in the living room for a moment, looking
at the abandoned vacuum cleaner in the middle of the rug. In his
head he heard the man with the lined face saying patiently, This
is between you and me. We don’t need any outsiders, Mr. Rainey. It
is strictly between you and me.
Mort thought of that face, recalled it carefully to
a mind which was trained to recall faces and actions, and thought:
It wasn’t just a momentary aberration, or a bizarre way to meet
an author he may or may not consider famous. He will be
back.
He suddenly headed back into his study, rolling the
manuscript into a tube as he went.
4
Three of the four study walls were lined with
bookshelves, and one of them had been set aside for the various
editions, domestic and foreign, of his works. He had published six
books in all: five novels and a collection of short stories. The
book of short stories and his first two novels had been well
received by his immediate family and a few friends. His third
novel, The Organ-Grinder’s Boy, had been an instant
best-seller. The early works had been reissued after he became a
success, and had done quite well, but they had never been as
popular as his later books.
The short-story collection was called Everybody
Drops the Dime, and most of the tales had originally been
published in the men’s magazines, sandwiched around pictures of
women wearing lots of eye make-up and not much else. One of the
stories, however, had been published in Ellery Queen’s Mystery
Magazine. It was called “Sowing Season,” and it was to this
story he now turned.
A woman who would steal your love when your love
was all you had wasn’t much of a woman—that, at least, was Tommy
Havelock’s opinion. He decided to kill her. He even knew the place
he would do it, the exact place: the little patch of garden she
kept in the extreme angle formed where the house and the barn came
together.
Mort sat down and worked his way slowly through the
two stories, reading back and forth. By the time he was halfway
through, he understood he really didn’t need to go any further.
They varied in diction in some places; in many others even that was
the same, word for word. Diction aside, they were exactly
the same. In both of them, a man killed his wife. In both of them,
the wife was a cold, loveless bitch who cared only for her garden
and her canning. In both of them, the killer buried his spousal
victim in her garden and then tended it, growing a really
spectacular crop. In Morton Rainey’s version, the crop was beans.
In Shooter’s, it was corn. In both versions, the killer eventually
went crazy and was discovered by the police eating vast amounts of
the vegetable in question and swearing he would be rid of her, that
in the end he would finally be rid of her.
Mort had never considered himself much of a
horror-story writer—and there was nothing supernatural about
“Sowing Season”—but it had been a creepy little piece of work all
the same. Amy had finished it with a little shiver and said, “I
suppose it’s good, but that man’s mind... God, Mort, what a can of
worms.”
That had summed up his own feelings pretty well.
The landscape of “Sowing Season” wasn’t one he would care to travel
through often, and it was no “Tell-Tale Heart,” but he thought he
had done a fair job of painting Tom Havelock’s homicidal breakdown.
The editor at EQMM had agreed, and so had the readers—the
story had generated favorable mail. The editor had asked for more,
but Mort had never come up with another story even remotely like
“Sowing Season.”
“I know I can do it,” Todd Downey said, helping
himself to another ear of corn from the steaming bowl. “I’m sure
that in time all of her will be gone.”
That was how Shooter’s ended.
“I am confident I can take care of this business,”
Tom Havelock told them, and helped himself to another portion of
beans from the brimming, steaming bowl. “I’m sure that, in time,
her death will be a mystery even to me.”
That was how Mort Rainey’s ended.
Mort closed his copy of Everybody Drops the
Dime and replaced it thoughtfully on his shelf of first
editions.
He sat down and began to rummage slowly and
thoroughly through the drawers of his desk. It was a big one, so
big the furniture men had had to bring it into the room in
sections, and it had a lot of drawers. The desk was solely his
domain; neither Amy nor Mrs. G. had ever set a hand to it, and the
drawers were full of ten years’ worth of accumulated rick-rack. It
had been four years since Mort had given up smoking, and if there
were any cigarettes left in the house, this was where they would
be. If he found some, he would smoke. Just about now, he was crazy
for a smoke. If he didn’t find any, that was all right, too; going
through his junk was soothing. Old letters which he’d put aside to
answer and never had, what had once seemed so important now looking
antique, even arcane; postcards he’d bought but never mailed;
chunks of manuscript in varying stages of completion; half a bag of
very elderly Doritos; envelopes; paper-clips; cancelled checks. He
could sense layers here which were almost geological—layers of
summer life frozen in place. And it was soothing. He
finished one drawer and went on to the next, thinking all the while
about John Shooter and how John Shooter’s story—his story,
goddammit!—had made him feel.
The most obvious thing, of course, was that it had
made him feel like he needed a cigarette. This wasn’t the first
time he’d felt that way in the last four years; there had been
times when just seeing someone puffing away behind the wheel of a
car next to his at a stoplight could set off a raging momentary
lust for tobacco. But the key word there, of course, was
“momentary.” Those feelings passed in a hurry, like fierce
rain-squalls—five minutes after a blinding silver curtain of rain
has dropped out of the sky, the sun is shining again. He’d never
felt the need to turn in to the next convenience store on his way
for a deck of smokes ... or go rummaging through his glove
compartment for a stray or two as he was now rummaging through his
desk.
He felt guilty, and that was absurd.
Infuriating. He had not stolen John Shooter’s story, and he knew he
hadn’t—if there had been stealing (and there must have been; for
the two stories to be that close without prior knowledge on the
part of one of the two players was impossible for Mort to believe),
then it had been Shooter who had stolen from
him.
Of course.
It was as plain as the nose on his face... or the
round black hat on John Shooter’s head.
Yet he still felt upset, unsettled, guilty... he
felt at a loss in a way for which there was perhaps no word.
And why? Well—because ...
At that moment Mort lifted up a Xerox of The
Organ-Grinder’s Boy manuscript, and there, beneath it, was a
package of L & M cigarettes. Did they even make L &
M’s anymore? He didn’t know. The pack was old, crumpled, but
definitely not flat. He took it out and looked at it. He reflected
that he must have bought this particular pack in 1985, according to
the informal science of stratification one might call—for want of a
better word—Deskology.
He peered inside the pack. He saw three little
coffin nails, all in a row.
Time-travellers from another age, Mort
thought. He stuck one of the cigarettes in his mouth, then went out
into the kitchen to get a match from the box by the stove.
Time-travellers from another age, riding up through the years,
patient cylindrical voyagers, their mission to wait, to persevere,
to bide until the proper moment to start me on the road to lung
cancer again finally arrives. And it seems the time has finally
come.
“It’ll probably taste like shit,” he said aloud to
the empty house (Mrs. Gavin had long since gone home), and set fire
to the tip of the cigarette. It didn’t taste like shit, though. It
tasted pretty good. He wandered back toward his study, puffing away
and feeling pleasantly lightheaded. Ah, the dreadful patient
persistence of addiction, he thought. What had Hemingway said?
Not this August, nor this September—this year you have to do what
you like. But the time comes around again. It always does. Sooner
or later you stick something back in your big dumb old mouth again.
A drink, a smoke, maybe the barrel of a shotgun. Not this August,
nor this September...
... unfortunately, this was October.
At an earlier point in his prospecting, he had
found an old bottle half full of Planter’s Peanuts. He doubted if
the nuts would be fit to eat, but the lid of the bottle made a fine
ashtray. He sat behind his desk, looked out at the lake (like Mrs.
G., the boats which had been out there earlier were gone), relished
his old, vile habit, and found he could think about John Shooter
and John Shooter’s story with a little more equanimity.
The man was one of the Crazy Folks, of
course; that was now proven in brass if any further proof had been
needed. As to how it had made him feel, finding that the similarity
actually existed ...
Well, a story was a thing, a real thing—you could
think of it like that, anyway, especially if someone had paid you
for it—but in another, more important, way, it wasn’t a thing at
all. It wasn’t like a vase, or a chair, or an automobile. It was
ink on paper, but it wasn’t the ink and it wasn’t the paper. People
sometimes asked him where he got his ideas, and although he scoffed
at the question, it always made him feel vaguely ashamed, vaguely
spurious. They seemed to feel there was a Central Idea Dump
somewhere (just as there was supposed to be an elephant graveyard
somewhere, and a fabled lost city of gold somewhere else), and he
must have a secret map which allowed him to get there and back, but
Mort knew better. He could remember where he had been when
certain ideas came to him, and he knew that the idea was often the
result of seeing or sensing some odd connection between objects or
events or people which had never seemed to have the slightest
connection before, but that was the best he could do. As to why he
should see these connections or want to make stories out of them
after he had ... to that he hadn’t a clue.
If John Shooter had come to his door and said “You
stole my car” instead of “You stole my story,” Mort would have
scotched the idea quickly and decisively. He could have done it
even if the two cars in question had been the same year, make,
model, and color. He would have shown the man in the round black
hat his automobile registration, invited him to compare the number
on the pink slip to the one on the doorpost, and sent him
packing.
But when you got a story idea, no one gave you a
bill of sale. There was no provenance to be traced. Why would there
be? Nobody gave you a bill of sale when you got something for free.
You charged whoever wanted to buy that thing from you—oh
yes, all the traffic would bear, and a little more than that, if
you could, to make up for all the times the bastards shorted
you—magazines, newspapers, book publishers, movie companies. But
the item came to you free, clear, and unencumbered. That was it, he
decided. That was why he felt guilty even though he knew he hadn’t
plagiarized Farmer John Shooter’s story. He felt guilty because
writing stories had always felt a little bit like stealing,
and probably always would. John Shooter just happened to be the
first person to show up on his doorstep and accuse him of it right
out loud. He thought that, subconsciously, he had been expecting
something like this for years.
Mort crushed out his cigarette and decided to take
a nap. Then he decided that was a bad idea. It would be better,
healthier both mentally and physically, to eat some lunch, read for
half an hour or so, and then go for a nice long walk down by the
lake. He was sleeping too much, and sleeping too much was a sign of
depression. Halfway to the kitchen, he deviated to the long
sectional couch by the window-wall in the living room. The hell
with it, he thought, putting a pillow under his neck and
another one behind his head. I AM depressed.
His last thought before drifting off was a repeat:
He’s not done with me yet. Oh no, not this guy. He’s a
repeater.
5
He dreamed he was lost in a vast cornfield. He
blundered from one row to the next, and the sun glinted off the
watches he was wearing—half a dozen on each forearm, and each watch
set to a different time.
Please help me! he cried. Someone please help
me! I’m lost and afraid!
Ahead of him, the corn on both sides of the row
shook and rustled. Amy stepped out from one side. John Shooter
stepped out from the other. Both of them held knives.
I am confident I can take care of this
business, Shooter said as they advanced on him with their
knives raised. I’m sure that, in time, your death will be a
mystery even to us.
Mort turned to run, but a hand—Amy’s, he was
sure—seized him by the belt and pulled him back. And then the
knives, glittering in the hot sun of this huge secret garden—
6
It was the telephone which woke him an hour and a
quarter later. He struggled out of a terrible dream—someone had
been chasing him, that was all he could clearly remember—to a
sitting position on the couch. He was horribly hot; every inch of
his skin seemed to be running with sweat. The sun had crept around
to this side of the house while he was sleeping and had shone in on
him through the window-wall for God knew how long.
Mort walked slowly toward the telephone table in
the front hall, plodding like a man in a diver’s suit walking in
the bed of a river against the current, his head thumping slowly,
his mouth tasting like old dead gopher-shit. For every step he took
forward, the entrance to the hall seemed to retreat a step, and it
occurred to Mort, not for the first time, that hell was probably
like the way you felt after sleeping too long and too hard on a hot
afternoon. The worst of it wasn’t physical. The worst was that
dismaying, disorienting sense of being outside yourself,
somehow—just an observer looking through dual TV cameras with
blurry lenses.
He picked up the phone thinking it would be
Shooter.
Yeah, it’ll be him, all right—the one person in
the whole wide world I shouldn’t be talking to with my guard down
and one half of my mind feeling unbuttoned from the other half.
Sure it’ll be him—who else?
“Hello?”
It wasn’t Shooter, but as he listened to the voice
on the other end of the line reply to his greeting, he discovered
there was at least one other person to whom he had no business
talking while in a psychically vulnerable state.
“Hello, Mort,” Amy said. “Are you all right?”
7
Some time later that afternoon, Mort donned the
extra-large red flannel shirt he used as a jacket in the early fall
and took the walk he should have taken earlier. Bump the cat
followed him long enough to ascertain that Mort was serious, then
returned to the house.
He walked slowly and deliberately through an
exquisite afternoon which seemed to be all blue sky, red leaves,
and golden air. He walked with his hands stuffed into his pockets,
trying to let the lake’s quiet work through his skin and calm him
down, as it had always done before—he supposed that was the reason
he had come here instead of staying in New York, as Amy had
expected him to do, while they trundled steadily along toward
divorce. He had come here because it was a magic place, especially
in autumn, and he had felt, when he arrived, that if there was a
sad sack anywhere on the planet who needed a little magic, he was
that person. And if that old magic failed him now that the writing
had turned so sour, he wasn’t sure what he would do.
It turned out that he didn’t need to worry about
it. After a while the silence and that queer atmosphere of
suspension which always seemed to possess Tashmore Lake when fall
had finally come and the summer people had finally gone began to
work on him, loosening him up like gently kneading hands. But now
he had something besides John Shooter to think about; he had Amy to
think about as well.
“Of course I’m all right,” he’d said, speaking as
carefully as a drunk trying to convince people that he’s sober. In
truth, he was still so muzzy that he felt a little bit drunk. The
shapes of words felt too big in his mouth, like chunks of soft,
friable rock, and he had proceeded with great care, groping his way
through the opening formalities and gambits of telephone
conversation as if for the first time. “How are you?”
“Oh, fine, I’m fine,” she said, and then trilled
the quick little laugh which usually meant she was either flirting
or nervous as hell, and Mort doubted that she was flirting with
him—not at this point. The realization that she was nervous, too,
set him a little more at ease. “It’s just that you’re alone down
there, and almost anything could happen and nobody would know—” She
broke off abruptly.
“I’m really not alone,” he said mildly. “Mrs. Gavin
was here today and Greg Carstairs is always around.”
“Oh, I forgot about the roof repairs,” Amy said,
and for a moment he marvelled at how natural they sounded, how
natural and undivorced. Listening to us, Mort thought,
you’d never guess there’s a rogue real-estate agent in my bed
... or
what used to be my bed. He waited for the
anger to come back—the hurt, jealous, cheated anger—but only a
ghost stirred where those lively if unpleasant feelings had
been.
“Well, Greg didn’t forget,” he assured her.
“He came down yesterday and crawled around on the roof for an hour
and a half.”
“How bad is it?”
He told her, and they talked about the roof for the
next five minutes or so, while Mort slowly woke up; they talked
about that old roof as if things were just the same as they always
had been, talked about it as if they would be spending next summer
under the new cedar shingles just as they had spent the last nine
summers under the old cedar shingles. Mort thought: Gimme a
roof, gimme some shingles, and I’ll talk to this bitch
forever.
As he listened to himself holding up his side of
the conversation, he felt a deepening sense of unreality settling
in. It felt as if he were returning to the half-waking,
half-sleeping zombie state in which he had answered the phone, and
at last he couldn’t stand it anymore. If this was some sort of
contest to see who could go the longest pretending that the last
six months had never happened, then he was willing to concede. More
than willing.
She was asking where Greg was going to get the
cedar shakes and if he would be using a crew from town when Mort
broke in. “Why did you call, Amy?”
There was a moment’s silence in which he sensed her
trying on responses and then rejecting them, like a woman trying on
hats, and that did cause the anger to stir again. It was one
of the things—one of the few things, actually—that he could
honestly say he detested in her. That totally unconscious
duplicity.
“I told you why,” she said at last. “To see
if you were all right.” She sounded flustered and unsure of herself
again, and that usually meant she was telling the truth. When Amy
lied, she always sounded as if she was telling you the world was
round. “I had one of my feelings—I know you don’t believe in them,
but I think you do know that I get them, and that I believe
in them... don’t you, Mort?” There was none of her usual posturing
or defensive anger, that was the thing—she sounded almost as if she
were pleading with him.
“Yeah, I know that.”
“Well, I had one. I was making myself a sandwich
for lunch, and I had a feeling that you... that you might not be
all right. I held off for awhile—I thought it would go away, but it
didn’t. So I finally called. You are all right, aren’t you?”
“Yes,” he said.
“And nothing’s happened?”
“Well, something did happen,” he said, after
only a moment of interior debate. He thought it was possible, maybe
even likely, that John Shooter (if that’s really his name,
his mind insisted on adding) had tried to make contact with him in
Derry before coming down here. Derry, after all, was where he
usually was at this time of year. Amy might even have sent him down
here.
“I knew it,” she said. “Did you hurt
yourself with that goddam chainsaw? Or—”
“Nothing requiring hospitalization,” he said,
smiling a little. “Just an annoyance. Does the name John Shooter
ring a bell with you, Amy?”
“No, why?”
He let an irritated little sigh escape through his
closed teeth like steam. Amy was a bright woman, but she had always
had a bit of a dead-short between her brain and her mouth. He
remembered once musing that she should have a tee-shirt reading
SPEAK NOW, THINK LATER. “Don’t say no right off the bat. Take a few
seconds and really think about it. The guy is fairly tall, about
six feet, and I’d guess he’s in his mid-forties. His face looked
older, but he moved like a man in his forties. He has a
country kind of face. Lots of color, lots of sun-wrinkles. When I
saw him, I thought he looked like a character out of Faulk—”
“What’s this all about, Mort?”
Now he felt all the way back; now he could
understand again why, as hurt and confused as he had been, he had
rejected the urges he felt—mostly at night—to ask her if they
couldn’t at least try to reconcile their differences. He
supposed he knew that, if he asked long enough and hard enough, she
would agree. But facts were facts; there had been a lot more wrong
with their marriage than Amy’s real-estate salesman. The drilling
quality her voice had taken on now—that was another symptom of what
had killed them. What have you done now? the tone under the
words asked... no, demanded. What kind of a mess have you gotten
yourself into now? Explain yourself.
He closed his eyes and hissed breath through his
clenched teeth again before answering. Then he told her about John
Shooter, and Shooter’s manuscript, and his own short story. Amy
clearly remembered “Sowing Season,” but said she had never heard of
a man named John Shooter—it wasn’t the kind of name you forget, she
said, and Mort was inclined to agree—in her life. And she certainly
hadn’t seen him.
“You’re sure?” Mort pressed.
“Yes, I am,” Amy said. She sounded faintly
resentful of Mort’s continued questioning. “I haven’t seen anyone
like that since you left. And before you tell me again not to say
no right off the bat, let me assure you that I have a very clear
memory of almost everything that’s happened since then.”
She paused, and he realized she was speaking with
an effort now, quite possibly with real pain. That small, mean part
of him rejoiced. Most of him did not; most of him was disgusted to
find even a small part of him happy about any of this. That had no
effect on the interior celebrant, however. That guy might be
outvoted, but he also seemed impervious to Mort‘s—the larger
Mort’s—attempts to root him out.
“Maybe Ted saw him,” he said. Ted Milner was the
real-estate agent. He still found it hard to believe she had tossed
him over for a real-estate agent, and he supposed that was part of
the problem, part of the conceit which had allowed things to
progress to this point in the first place. He certainly wasn’t
going to claim, especially to himself, that he had been as innocent
as Mary’s little lamb, was he?
“Is that supposed to be funny?” Amy sounded angry,
ashamed, sorrowful, and defiant all at the same time.
“No,” he said. He was beginning to feel tired
again.
“Ted isn’t here,” she said. “Ted hardly ever comes
here. I... I go to his place.”
Thank you for sharing that with me, Amy, he
almost said, and choked it off. It would be nice to get out of at
least one conversation without a swap of accusations. So he didn’t
say thanks for sharing and he didn’t say that’ll change and most of
all he didn’t ask what in the hell’s the matter with you,
Amy?
Mostly because she might then have asked the same
thing of him.
8
She had suggested he call Dave Newsome, the
Tashmore constable—after all, the man might be dangerous. Mort told
her he didn’t think that would be necessary, at least not yet, but
if “John Shooter” called by again, he would probably give Dave a
jingle. After a few more stilted amenities, they hung up. He could
tell she was still smarting over his oblique suggestion that Ted
might currently be sitting in Mortybear’s chair and sleeping in
Mortybear’s bed, but he honestly didn’t know how he could have
avoided mentioning Ted Milner sooner or later. The man had become a
part of Amy’s life, after all. And she had called
him, that was the thing. She had gotten one of her funny
feelings and called him.
Mort reached the place where the lakeside path
forked, the righthand branch climbing the steep bank back up to
Lake Drive. He took that branch, walking slowly and savoring the
fall color. As he came around the final curve in the path and into
sight of the narrow ribbon of blacktop, he was somehow not
surprised to see the dusty blue station wagon with the Mississippi
plates parked there like an oft-whipped dog chained to a tree, nor
the lean figure of John Shooter propped against the right front
mudguard with his arms folded across his chest.
Mort waited for his heartbeat to speed up, for the
surge of adrenaline into his body, but his heart went on
maintaining its normal beat, and his glands kept their own
counsel—which, for the time being, seemed to be to remain
quiet.
The sun, which had gone behind a cloud, came out
again, and fall colors which had already been bright now seemed to
burst into flame. His own shadow reappeared, dark and long and
clearcut. Shooter’s round black hat looked blacker, his blue shirt
bluer, and the air was so clear the man seemed scissored from a
swatch of reality that was brighter and more vital than the one
Mort knew as a rule. And he understood that he had been wrong about
his reasons for not calling Dave Newsome—wrong, or practicing a
little deception—on himself as well as on Amy. The truth was that
he wanted to deal with this matter himself. Maybe just to prove
to myself that there are things I still CAN deal with, he
thought, and started up the hill again toward where John Shooter
was leaning against his car and waiting for him.
9
His walk along the lake path had been both long
and slow, and Amy’s call hadn’t been the only thing Mort had
thought about as he picked his way over or around the occasional
downed tree or paused to skip the occasional flat stone across the
water (as a boy he had been able to get a really good one—what they
called “a flattie”—to skip as many as nine times, but today four
was the most he’d been able to manage). He had also thought about
how to deal with Shooter, when and if Shooter turned up
again.
It was true he had felt a transient—or maybe
not-so-transient—guilt when he saw how close to identical the two
stories were, but he had worked that one out; it was only the
generalized guilt he guessed all writers of fiction felt from time
to time. As for Shooter himself, the only feelings he had were
annoyance, anger... and a kind of relief. He was full of an
unfocussed rage; had been for months. It was good to finally have a
donkey to pin this rotten, stinking tail on.
Mort had heard the old saw about how, if four
hundred monkeys banged away on four hundred typewriters for four
million years, one of them would produce the complete works of
Shakespeare. He didn’t believe it. Even if it were true, John
Shooter was no monkey and he hadn’t been alive anywhere near that
long, no matter how lined his face was.
So Shooter had copied his story. Why he had picked
“Sowing Season” was beyond Mort Rainey’s powers of conjecture, but
he knew that was what had happened because he had ruled out
coincidence, and he knew damned well that, while he might have
stolen that story, like all his others, from The Great Idea Bank of
the Universe, he most certainly had not stolen it from Mr. John
Shooter of the Great State of Mississippi.
Where, then, had Shooter copied it from?
Mort thought that was the most important question; his chance to
expose Shooter as a fake and a cheat might lie buried within the
answer to it.
There were only two possible answers, because
“Sowing Season” had only been published twice—first in Ellery
Queen’s Mystery Magazine, and then in his collection,
Everybody Drops the Dime. The dates of publication for the
short stories in a collection are usually listed on the copyright
page at the front of the book, and this format had been followed in
Everybody Drops the Dime. He had looked up the
acknowledgment for “Sowing Season” and found that it had been
originally published in the June, 1980, issue of EQMM. The
collection, Everybody Drops the Dime, had been issued by St.
Martin’s Press in 1983. There had been subsequent printings since
then—all but one of them in paperback—but that didn’t matter. All
he really had to work with were those two dates, 1980 and 1983 ...
and his own hopeful belief that, aside from agents and
publishing-company lawyers, no one paid much attention to those
lines of fine print on the copyright page.
Hoping that this would prove true of John Shooter,
hoping that Shooter would simply assume—as most general readers
did—that a story he had read for the first time in a collection had
no prior existence, Mort approached the man and finally stood
before him on the edge of the road.
10
“I guess you must have had a chance to read my
story by now,” Shooter said. He spoke as casually as a man
commenting on the weather.
“I did.”
Shooter nodded gravely. “I imagine it rang a bell,
didn’t it?”
“It certainly did,” Mort agreed, and then, with
studied casualness: “When did you write it?”
“I thought you’d ask that,” Shooter said. He smiled
a secret little smile, but said no more. His arms remained crossed
over his chest, his hands laid against his sides just below the
armpits. He looked like a man who would be perfectly content to
remain where he was forever, or at least until the sun sank below
the horizon and ceased to warm his face.
“Well, sure,” Mort said, still casually. “I have
to, you know. When two fellows show up with the same story, that’s
serious.”
“Serious,” Shooter agreed in a deeply meditative
tone of voice.
“And the only way to sort a thing like that out,”
Mort continued, “to decide who copied from whom, is to find out who
wrote the words first.” He fixed Shooter’s faded blue eyes with his
own dry and uncompromising gaze. Somewhere nearby a chickadee
twittered self-importantly in a tangle of trees and was then quiet
again. “Wouldn’t you say that’s true?”
“I suppose I would,” Shooter agreed. “I suppose
that’s why I came all the way up here from Miss’ippi.”
Mort heard the rumble of an approaching vehicle.
They both turned in that direction, and Tom Greenleaf’s Scout came
over the nearest hill, pulling a little cyclone of fallen leaves
behind it. Tom, a hale and healthy Tashmore native of
seventy-something, was the caretaker for most of the places on this
side of the lake that Greg Carstairs didn’t handle. Tom raised one
hand in salute as he passed. Mort waved back. Shooter removed one
hand from its resting place and tipped a finger at Tom in a
friendly gesture which spoke in some obscure way of a great many
years spent in the country, of the uncountable and unrecollected
number of times he had saluted the passing drivers of passing
trucks and tractors and tedders and balers in that exact same
casual way. Then, as Tom’s Scout passed out of sight, he returned
his hand to his ribcage so that his arms were crossed again. As the
leaves rattled to rest on the road, his patient, unwavering, almost
eternal gaze came back to Mort Rainey’s face once more. “Now what
were we saying?” he asked almost gently.
“We were trying to establish provenance,” Mort
said. “That means—”
“I know what it means,” Shooter said, favoring Mort
with a glance which was both calm and mildly contemptuous. “I know
I am wearing shitkicker clothes and driving a shitkicker car, and I
come from a long line of shitkickers, and maybe that makes me a
shitkicker myself, but it doesn’t necessarily make me a
stupid shitkicker.”
“No,” Mort agreed. “I don’t guess it does. But
being smart doesn’t necessarily make you honest, either. In fact, I
think it’s more often apt to go the other way.”
“I could figure that much out from you, had I not
known it,” Shooter said dryly, and Mort felt himself flush. He
didn’t like to be zinged and rarely was, but Shooter had just done
it with the effortless ease of an experienced shotgunner popping a
clay pigeon.
His hopes of trapping Shooter dropped. Not all the
way to zero, but quite a considerable way. Smart and sharp were not
the same things, but he now suspected that Shooter might be both.
Still, there was no sense drawing this out. He didn’t want to be
around the man any longer than he had to be. In some strange way he
had looked forward to this confrontation, once he had become sure
that another confrontation was inevitable—maybe only because it was
a break in a routine which had already become dull and unpleasant.
Now he wanted it over. He was no longer sure John Shooter was
crazy—not completely, anyway—but he thought the man could be
dangerous. He was so goddam implacable. He decided to take his best
shot and get it over with—no more dancing around.
“When did you write your story, Mr.
Shooter?”
“Maybe my name’s not Shooter,” the man said,
looking faintly amused. “Maybe that’s just a pen name.”
“I see. What’s your real one?” “I didn’t say it
wasn’t; I only said maybe. Either way, that’s not part of our
business.” He spoke serenely, appearing to be more interested in a
cloud which was making its way slowly across the high blue sky and
toward the westering sun.
“Okay,” Mort said, “but when you wrote that story
is.”
“I wrote it seven years ago,” he said, still
studying the cloud—it had touched the edge of the sun now and had
acquired a gold fringe. “In 1982.”
Bingo, Mort thought. Wily old bastard or
not, he stepped right into the trap after all. He got the story out
of the collection, all right. And since Everybody Drops the
Dime was published in 1983, he thought any date before then had
to be safe. Should have read the copyright page, old son.
He waited for a feeling of triumph, but there was
none. Only a muted sense of relief that this nut could be sent on
his merry way with no further fuss or muss. Still, he was curious;
it was the curse of the writing class. For instance, why that
particular story, a story which was so out of his usual run, so
downright atypical? And if the guy was going to accuse him of
plagiarism, why settle for an obscure short story when he could
have cobbled up the same sort of almost identical manuscript of a
best-seller like The Organ-Grinder’s Boy? That would have
been juicy; this was almost a joke.
I suppose knocking off one of the novels would
have been too much like work, Mort thought.
“Why did you wait so long?” he asked. “I mean, my
book of short stories was published in 1983, and that’s six years
ago. Going on seven now.”
“Because I didn’t know,” Shooter said. He removed
his gaze from the cloud and studied Mort with that discomfiting
look of faint contempt again. “A man like you, I suppose that kind
of man just assumes that everyone in America, if not everyone in
every country where his books are published, reads what he has
written.”
“I know better than that, I think,” Mort said, and
it was his turn to be dry.
“But that’s not true,” Shooter went on, ignoring
what Mort had said in his scarily serene and utterly fixated way.
“That is not true at all. I never saw that story until the middle
of June. This June.”
Mort thought of saying: Well, guess what,
Johnny-me-boy? I never saw my wife in bed with another man until
the middle of May! Would it knock Shooter off his pace if he
actually did say something like that out loud?
He looked into the man’s face and decided not. The
serenity had burned out of those faded eyes the way mist bums off
the hills on a day which is going to be a real scorcher. Now
Shooter looked like a fundamentalist preacher about to ladle a
large helping of fire and brimstone upon the trembling, downcast
heads of his flock, and for the first time Mort Rainey felt really
and personally afraid of the man. Yet he was also still angry. The
thought he’d had near the end of his first encounter with “John
Shooter” now recurred: scared or not, he was damned if he was just
going to stand here and take it while this man accused him of
theft—especially now that the falsity had been revealed out of the
man’s own mouth.
“Let me guess,” Mort said. “A guy like you is a
little too picky about what he reads to bother with the sort of
trash I write. You stick to guys like Marcel Proust and Thomas
Hardy, right? At night, after the milking’s done, you like to fire
up one of those honest country kerosene lamps, plunk it down on the
kitchen table—which is, of course, covered with a homey
red-and-white-checked tablecloth—and unwind with a little Tess
or Remembrance of Things Past. Maybe on the weekend you let
your hair down a little, get a little funky, and drag out some
Erskine Caldwell or Annie Dillard. It was one of your friends who
told you about how I’d copied your honestly wrought tale. Isn’t
that how the story goes, Mr. Shooter ... or whatever your name
is?”
His voice had taken on a rough edge, and he was
surprised to find himself on the edge of real fury. But, he
discovered, not totally surprised.
“Nope. I don’t have any friends.” Shooter spoke in
the dry tone of a man who is only stating a fact. “No friends, no
family, no wife. I’ve got a little place about twenty miles south
of Perkinsburg, and I do have a checked tablecloth on my kitchen
table—now that you mention it—but we got electric lights in our
town. I only bring out the kerosenes when there’s a storm and the
lines go down.”
“Good for you,” Mort said.
Shooter ignored the sarcasm. “I got the place from
my father, and added to it with a little money that came to me from
my gram. I do have a dairy herd, about twenty milkers, you were
right about that, too, and in the evenings I write stories. I
suppose you’ve got one of those fancy computers with a screen, but
I make do with an old typewriter.”
He fell silent, and for a moment they could both
hear the crisp rustle of the leaves in the light late-afternoon
wind that had sprung up.
“As for your story being the same as mine, I found
that out all on my own hook. You see, I’d been thinking about
selling the farm. Thinking that with a little more money, I could
write days, when my mind’s fresh, instead of just after dark. The
realtor in Perkinsburg wanted me to meet a fellow up in Jackson,
who owns a lot of dairy farms in Miss’ippi. I don’t like to drive
more than ten or fifteen miles at a time—it gives me a headache,
especially when some of it’s city driving, because that’s where
they let all the fools loose—and so I took the bus. I got ready to
get on, and then remembered I hadn’t brought anything to read. I
hate a long bus ride without something to read.”
Mort found himself nodding involuntarily. He also
hated a ride—bus, train, plane, or car—without something to read,
something a little more substantial than the daily paper.
“There isn’t any bus station in Perkinsburg—the
Greyhound just stops at the Rexall for five minutes or so and then
it’s down the road. I was already inside the door of that ‘hound
and starting up the steps when I realized I was empty-handed. I
asked the bus driver if he’d hold it for me and he said he was
damned if he would, he was late already, and he was pulling out in
another three minutes by his pocket-watch. If I was with him, that
would be fine by him, and if I wasn’t, then I could kiss his fanny
when we met up again.”
He TALKS like a storyteller, Mort thought.
Be damned if he doesn’t. He tried to cancel this thought—it
didn’t seem to be a good way to be thinking—and couldn’t quite do
it.
“Well, I ran inside that drugstore. They’ve got one
of those old-fashioned wire paperback racks in the Perkinsburg
Rexall, the ones that turn around and around, just like the one in
the little general store up the road from you.”
“Bowie’s?”
Shooter nodded. “That’s the place, all right.
Anyway, I grabbed the first book my hand happened on. Could have
been a paperback Bible, for all I saw of the cover. But it wasn’t.
It was your book of short stories. Everybody Drops the Dime.
And for all I know, they were your short stories. All but that
one.”
Stop this now. He’s working up a head of steam,
so spike his boiler right now.
But he discovered he didn’t want to. Maybe Shooter
was a writer. He fulfilled both of the main requirements: he
told a tale you wanted to hear to the end, even if you had a pretty
good idea what the end was going to be, and he was so full of shit
he squeaked.
Instead of saying what he should have said—that
even if Shooter was by some wild stretch of the imagination telling
the truth, he, Mort, had beaten him to that miserable story by two
years—he said: “So you read “Sowing Season’ on a Greyhound bus
while you were going to Jackson to sell your dairy farm last
June.”
“No. The way it happened, I read it on the way
back. I sold the farm and went back on the Greyhound with a check
for sixty thousand dollars in my pocket. I’d read the first half a
dozen stories going down. I didn’t think they were any great
shakes, but they passed the time.”
“Thank you.”
Shooter studied him briefly. “Wasn’t offering you
any real compliment.”
“Don’t I know it.”
Shooter thought about this for a moment, then
shrugged. “Anyway, I read two more going back ... and then that
one. My story.”
He looked at the cloud, which was now an airy mass
of shimmering gold, and then back at Mort. His face was as
dispassionate as ever, but Mort suddenly understood he had been
badly mistaken in believing this man possessed even the slightest
shred of peace or serenity. What he had mistaken for those things
was the iron mantle of control Shooter had donned to keep himself
from killing Morton Rainey with his bare hands. The face was
dispassionate, but his eyes blazed with the deepest, wildest fury
Mort had ever seen. He understood that he had stupidly walked up
the path from the lake toward what might really be his own death at
this fellow’s hands. Here was a man mad enough—in both senses of
that word—to do murder.
“I am surprised no one has taken that story up with
you before—it’s not like any of the others. Not a bit.” Shooter’s
voice was still even, but Mort now recognized it as the voice of a
man laboring mightily to keep from striking out, bludgeoning,
perhaps throttling; the voice of a man who knows that all the
incentive he would ever need to cross the line between talking and
killing would be to hear his own voice begin to spiral upward into
the registers of cheated anger; the voice of a man who knows how
fatally easy it would be to become his own lynch-mob.
Mort suddenly felt like a man in a dark room which
is crisscrossed with hair-thin tripwires, all of them leading to
packets of high explosive. It was hard to believe that only moments
ago he had felt in charge of this situation. His problems—Amy, his
inability to write—now seemed like unimportant figures in an
unimportant landscape. In a sense, they had ceased to be problems
at all. He only had one problem now, and that was staying alive
long enough to get back to his house, let alone long enough to see
the sun go down.
He opened his mouth, then closed it again. There
was nothing he dared to say, not now. The room was full of
tripwires.
“I am very surprised,” Shooter repeated in that
heavy even voice that now sounded like a hideous parody of
calmness.
Mort heard himself say: “My wife. She didn’t like
it. She said that it wasn’t like anything I’d ever written
before.”
“How did you get it?” Shooter asked slowly and
fiercely. “That’s what I really want to know. How in hell did a
big-money scribbling asshole like you get down to a little
shitsplat town in Mississippi and steal my goddam story? I’d like
to know why, too, unless you stole all the other ones as well, but
the how of it’ll be enough to satisfy me right now.”
The monstrous unfairness of this brought Mort’s own
anger back like an unslaked thirst. For a moment he forgot that he
was out here on Lake Drive, alone except for this lunatic from
Mississippi.
“Drop it,” he said harshly.
“Drop it?” Shooter asked, looking at Mort
with a kind of clumsy amazement. “Drop it? What in hell do
you mean, drop it?”
“You said you wrote your story in 1982,” Mort said.
“I think I wrote mine in late 1979. I can’t remember the exact
date, but I do know that it was published for the first time in
June of 1980. In a magazine. I beat you by two years, Mr. Shooter
or whatever your name is. If anyone here has got a bitch about
plagiarism, it’s me.”
Mort did not precisely see the man move. At one
moment they were standing by Shooter’s car, looking at each other;
at the next he found himself pressed against the driver’s door,
with Shooter’s hands wrapped around his upper arms and Shooter’s
face pressed against his own, forehead to forehead. In between his
two positions, there was only a blurred sensation of being first
grabbed and then whirled.
“You lie,” Shooter said, and on his breath was a
dry whiff of cinnamon.
“The fuck I do,” Mort said, and lunged
forward against the man’s pressing weight.
Shooter was strong, almost certainly stronger than
Mort Rainey, but Mort was younger, heavier, and he had the old blue
station wagon to push against. He was able to break Shooter’s hold
and send him stumbling two or three steps backward.
Now he’ll come for me, Mort thought.
Although he hadn’t had a fight since a schoolyard
you-pull-me-and-I’ll-push-you scuffle back in the fourth grade, he
was astounded to find his mind was clear and cool. We’re going
to duke it out over that dumb fucking story. Well, okay; I wasn’t
doing anything else today anyhow.
But it didn’t happen. Shooter raised his hands,
looked at them, saw they were knotted into fists... and forced them
to open. Mort saw the effort it took for the man to reimpose that
mantle of control, and felt a kind of awe. Shooter put one of his
open palms to his mouth and wiped his lips with it, very slowly and
very deliberately.
“Prove it,” he said.
“All right. Come back to the house with me. I’ll
show you the entry on the copyright page of the book.”
“No,” Shooter said. “I don’t care about the
book. I don’t care a pin for the book. Show me
the story. Show me the magazine with the story in it, so I
can read it for myself.”
“I don’t have the magazine here.”
He was about to say something else, but Shooter
turned his face up toward the sky and uttered a single bark of
laughter. The sound was as dry as an axe splitting kindling wood.
“No,” he said. The fury was still blazing and dancing in his eyes,
but he seemed in charge of himself again. “No, I bet you
don’t.”
“Listen to me,” Mort said. “Ordinarily, this is
just a place my wife and I come in the summer. I have copies of my
books here, and some foreign editions, but I’ve published in a lot
of magazines as well—articles and essays as well as stories. Those
magazines are in our year-round house. The one in Derry.”
“Then why aren’t you there?” Shooter asked. In his
eyes Mort read both disbelief and a galling satisfaction—it was
clear that Shooter had expected him to try and squirm his way out
of it, and in Shooter’s mind, that was just what Mort was doing. Or
trying to do.
“I’m here because—” He stopped. “How did you
know I’d be here?”
“I just looked on the back of the book I bought,”
Shooter said, and Mort could have slapped his own forehead in
frustration and sudden understanding. Of course—there had been a
picture of him on the back of both the hardcover and paperback
editions of Everybody Drops the Dime. Amy had taken it
herself, and it had been an excellent shot. He was in the
foreground; the house was in the middle distance; Tashmore Lake was
in the background. The caption had read simply, Morton Rainey at
his home in western Maine. So Shooter had come to western
Maine, and he probably hadn’t had to visit too many small-town bars
and/or drugstores before he found someone who said, “Mort Rainey?
Hell, yes! Got a place over in Tashmore. Personal friend of mine,
in fact!”
Well, that answered one question, anyway.
“I’m here because my wife and I got a divorce,” he
said. “It just became final. She stayed in Derry. Any other year,
the house down here would have been empty.”
“Uh-huh,” Shooter said. His tone of voice
infuriated Mort all over again. You’re lying, it said, but in
this case it doesn’t much matter. Because I knew you’d lie. After
all, lying is mostly
what you’re about, isn’t it? “Well, I would
have found you, one place or the other.”
He fixed Mort with a flinty stare.
“I would have found you if you’d moved to
Brazil.”
“I believe that,” Mort said. “Nevertheless, you are
mistaken. Or conning me. I’ll do you the courtesy of believing it’s
only a mistake, because you seem sincere enough—”
Oh God, didn’t he.
“—but I published that story two years before you
say you wrote it.”
He saw that mad flash in Shooter’s eyes again, and
then it was gone. Not extinguished but collared, the way a man
might collar a dog with an evil nature.
“You say this magazine is at your other
house?”
“Yes.”
“And the magazine has your story in it.”
“Yes.”
“And the date of that magazine is June,
1980.”
“Yes.”
Mort had felt impatient with this laborious
catechism (there was a long, thoughtful pause before each question)
at first, but now he felt a little hope: it was as if the man was
trying to teach himself the truth of what Mort had said... a truth,
Mort thought, that part of “John Shooter” must have known all
along, because the almost exact similarity between the two stories
was not coincidence. He still believed that firmly, but he
had come around to the idea that Shooter might have no
conscious memory of committing the plagiarism. Because the man was
clearly mad.
He wasn’t quite as afraid as he had been when he
first saw the hate and fury dancing in Shooter’s eyes, like the
reflection of a barn-fire blazing out of control. When he pushed
the man, he had staggered backward, and Mort thought that if it
came to a fight, he could probably hold his own... or actually put
his man on the ground.
Still, it would be better if it didn’t come to
that. In an odd, backhand sort of way, he had begun to feel a bit
sorry for Shooter.
That gentleman, meanwhile, was stolidly pursuing
his course.
“This other house—the one your wife has now—it’s
here in Maine, too?”
“Yes.”
“She’s there?”
“Yes.”
There was a much longer pause this time. In a weird
way, Shooter reminded Mort of a computer processing a heavy load of
information. At last he said: “I’ll give you three days.”
“That’s very generous of you,” Mort said.
Shooter’s long upper lip drew back from teeth too
even to be anything but mail-order dentures. “Don’t you make light
of me, son,” he said. “I’m trying my best to hold my temper, and
doing a pretty good job of it, but—”
“You!” Mort cried at him. “What about
me? This is unbelievable! You come out of nowhere and make
just about the most serious accusation a man can make against a
writer, and when I tell you I’ve got proof you’re either mistaken
or lying through your damned teeth, you start patting yourself on
the back for holding your temper! Unbelievable!”
Shooter’s eyelids drooped, giving him a sly look.
“Proof?” he said. “I don’t see no proof. I hear you talking, but
talking ain’t proof.”
“I told you!” Mort shouted. He felt
helpless, like a man trying to box cobwebs. “I explained all
that!”
Shooter looked at Mort for a long moment, then
turned and reached through the open window of his car.
“What are you doing?” Mort asked, his voice tight.
Now he felt the adrenaline dump into his body, readying him
for fight or flight ... probably the latter, if Shooter was
reaching for the big handgun Mort suddenly saw in the eye of his
imagination.
“Just gettin m’smokes,” Shooter said. “Hold your
water.” When he pulled his arm out of the car, he had a red package
of Pall Malls in his hand. He had taken them off the dashboard.
“Want one?”
“I have my own,” Mort said rather sulkily, and took
the ancient pack of L & M’s from the pocket beneath the red
flannel overshirt.
They lit up, each from his own pack.
“If we keep on this way, we’re going to have a
fight,” Shooter said finally. “I don’t want that.”
“Well, Jesus, neither do I!”
“Part of you does,” Shooter contradicted. He
continued to study Mort from beneath his dropped lids with that
expression of country shrewdness. “Part of you wants just
that. But I don’t think it’s just me or my story that’s making you
want to fight. You have got some other bee under your blanket
that’s got you all riled up, and that is making this
harder. Part of you wants to fight, but what you don’t understand
is that, if we do start to fight, it’s not going to end
until one or the other of us is dead.”
Mort looked for signs that Shooter was exaggerating
for effect and saw none. He suddenly felt cold along the base of
his spine.
“So I’m going to give you three days. You call your
ex and get her to send down the magazine with your story in it, if
there is such a magazine. And I’ll be back. There isn’t any
magazine, of course; I think we both know that. But you strike me
as a man who needs to do some long, hard thinking.”
He looked at Mort with a disconcerting expression
of stern pity.
“You didn’t believe anybody would ever catch you
out, did you?” he asked. “You really didn’t.”
“If I show you the magazine, will you go away?”
Mort asked. He was speaking more to himself than to Shooter. “I
guess what I really want to know is whether or not it’s even worth
it.”
Shooter abruptly opened his car door and slid in
behind the wheel. Mort found the speed with which the man could
move a little creepy. “Three days. Use it the way you like, Mr.
Rainey.”
He started the engine. It ran with the low wheeze
characteristic of valves which need to be reground, and the tang of
oilsmoke from the old tailpipe polluted the air of the fading
afternoon. “Right is right and fair is fair. The first thing is to
get you to a place where you see I have really got you, and you
can’t wiggle out of this mess the way you’ve probably been wiggling
out of the messes you have made all your life. That’s the first
thing.”
He looked at Mort expressionlessly out of the
driver’s-side window.
“The second thing,” he said, “is the real reason I
come.”
“What’s that?” Mort heard himself say. It was
strange and not a little infuriating, but he felt that sensation of
guilt creeping relentlessly over him again, as if he really had
done the thing of which this rustic lunatic was accusing him.
“We’ll talk about it,” Shooter said, and threw his
elderly station wagon in gear. “Meantime, you think about what’s
right and what’s fair.”
“You’re nuts!” Mort shouted, but Shooter was
already rolling up Lake Drive toward where it spilled out onto
Route
23.
He watched until the wagon was out of sight, then
walked slowly back to the house. It felt emptier and emptier in his
mind as he drew closer and closer to it. The rage and the fear were
gone. He felt only cold, tired, and homesick for a marriage which
no longer was, and which, it now began to seem to him, had never
been at all.
11
The telephone started ringing when he was halfway
along the driveway which ran down the steep hill from Lake Drive to
the house. Mort broke into a run, knowing he wasn’t going to make
it but running anyway, cursing himself for his foolish reaction.
Talk about Pavlov’s dogs!
He had opened the screen door and was fumbling with
the knob of the inside door when the phone silenced. He stepped in,
closed the door behind him, and looked at the telephone, which
stood on a little antique desk Amy had picked up at a flea market
in Mechanic Falls. He could, in that moment, easily imagine that
the phone was looking back at him with studied mechanical
impatience: Don’t ask me, boss—I don’t make the news, I
only report it. He thought that he ought to buy one of those
machines that take messages ... or maybe not. When he thought about
it carefully, he realized that the telephone was hardly his
favorite gadget. If people really wanted you, they eventually
called back.
He made himself a sandwich and a bowl of soup and
then discovered he didn’t want them. He felt lonely, unhappy, and
mildly infected by John Shooter’s craziness. He was not much
surprised to find that the sum of these feelings was sleepiness. He
began to cast longing glances at the couch.
Okay, an interior voice whispered.
Remember, though—you can run but you can’t hide. This shit is
still gonna be here when you wake up.
That was very true, he thought, but in the
meantime, it would all be gone, gone, blessedly gone. The one thing
you could definitely say for short-term solutions was that they
were better than nothing. He decided he would call home (his mind
persisted in thinking of the Derry house as home, and he suspected
that was a circumstance which would not soon change), ask Amy to
pull the copy of EQMM with “Sowing Season” in it and send it
down by express mail. Then he would sack on the couch for a couple
of hours. He would arise around seven or so, go into the study
refreshed, and write a little more shit.
And shit is all you will write, with that
attitude, the interior voice reproached him.
“Fuck you,” Mort told it—one of the few advantages
to living alone, so far as he could see, was that you could talk to
yourself right out loud without having anyone wonder if you were
crazy or what.
He picked up the phone and dialled the Derry
number. He listened to the customary clicks of the long-distance
connection being made, and then that most irritating of all
telephone sounds: the dah-dah-dah of a busy signal. Amy was on the
telephone with someone, and when Amy really got going, a
conversation could go on for hours. Possibly days.
“Oh, fuck, great!” Mort cried, and jacked the
handset back into the cradle hard enough to make the bell jingle
faintly.
So—what now, little man?
He supposed he could call Isabelle Fortin, who
lived across the street, but that suddenly seemed like too much
work and a pain in the ass besides. Isabelle was already so deeply
into his and Amy’s breakup that she was doing everything but taking
home movies. Also, it was already past five o’clock—the magazine
couldn’t actually start to move along the postal channel between
Derry and Tashmore until tomorrow morning no matter what time it
was mailed today. He would try Amy later on this evening, and if
the line to the house was busy again (or if Amy was, perchance,
still on the same call), he would call Isabelle with the message
after all. For the moment, the siren-song of the couch in the
living room was too strong to be denied.
Mort pulled the phone jack—whoever had tried to
call him just as he was coming down the driveway would have to wait
a little longer, please and thank you—and strolled into the living
room.
He propped the pillows in their familiar positions,
one behind his head and one behind his neck, and looked out at the
lake, where the sun was setting at the end of a long and
spectacular golden track. I have never felt so lonely and so
utterly horrible in my whole life, he thought with some
amazement. Then his lids closed slowly over his slightly bloodshot
eyes, and Mort Rainey, who had yet to discover what true horror was
all about, fell asleep.
12
He dreamed he was in a classroom.
It was a familiar classroom, although he couldn’t
have said just why. He was in the classroom with John Shooter.
Shooter was holding a grocery bag in the curve of one arm. He took
an orange out of the bag and bounced it reflectively up and down in
his hand. He was looking in Mort’s direction, but not at Mort; his
gaze seemed fixed on something beyond Mort’s shoulder. Mort turned
and saw a cinderblock wall and a blackboard and a door with a
frosted-glass upper panel. After a moment he could puzzle out the
backward writing on the frosted glass.
WELCOME TO THE SCHOOL OF HARD KNOCKS,
it said. The writing on the blackboard was easier
to read.
SOWING SEASON A Short Story by Morton
Rainey,
it said.
Suddenly something whizzed over Mort’s shoulder,
just missing his head. The orange. As Mort cringed back, the orange
struck the blackboard, burst open with a rotten squashing sound,
and splattered gore across what had been written there.
He turned back to Shooter. Stop that! he
cried in a shaky scolding voice.
Shooter dipped into his bag again. What’s the
matter? Shooter asked in his calm, stern voice. Don’t you
recognize blood oranges when you see them? What kind of writer are
you?
He threw another one. It splattered crimson across
Mort’s name and began to drip slowly down the wall.
No more! Mort screamed, but Shooter dipped
slowly, implacably, into the bag again. His long, callused fingers
sank into the skin of the orange he brought out; blood began to
sweat its way onto the orange’s skin in pinprick droplets.
No more! No more! Please! No more! I’ll admit
it, I’ll admit anything, everything, if you just stop! Anything, if
you’ll just stop! If you’ll—
13
“—stop, if you’ll just stop—”
He was falling.
Mort grabbed at the edge of the couch just in time
to save himself a short and probably painful trip to the
living-room floor. He rolled toward the back of the couch and
simply lay there for a moment, clutching the cushions, shivering,
and trying to grasp at the ragged tails of the dream.
Something about a classroom, and blood oranges, and
the school of hard knocks. Even this was going, and the rest was
already gone. It had been real, whatever it was. Much too
real.
At last he opened his eyes, but there was precious
little to see; he had slept until long past sundown. He was
horribly stiff, especially at the base of his neck, and he
suspected he had been asleep at least four hours, maybe five. He
felt his way cautiously to the living-room light-switch, managing
to avoid the octagonal glass-topped coffee table for a change (he
had an idea the coffee table was semi-sentient, and given to
shifting its position slightly after dark, the better to hack away
at his shins), and then went into the front hall to try Amy again.
On the way, he checked his watch. It was quarter past ten. He had
slept over five hours... nor was this the first time. And he
wouldn’t even pay for it by tossing and turning all night. Judging
by past experience, he would be asleep as soon as his head hit the
pillow in the bedroom.
He picked up the phone, was momentarily puzzled by
the dead silence in his ear, then remembered he had yanked the damn
thing’s fang. He pulled the wire through his fingers until he got
to the jack, turned around to plug it in ... and paused. From here
he could look out the small window to the left of the door. This
gave him an angle of vision on the back porch, where the mysterious
and unpleasant Mr. Shooter had left his manuscript under a rock
yesterday. He could also see the garbage cabinet, and there was
something on it—two some-things, actually. A white something and a
dark something. The dark something looked nasty; for one
frightening second, Mort thought a giant spider was crouched
there.
He dropped the phone cord and turned on the porch
light in a hurry. Then there was a space of time—he didn’t know
just how long and didn’t care to know—when he was incapable
of further movement.
The white thing was a sheet of paper—a perfectly
ordinary 8½″ x 11” sheet of typing paper. Although the garbage
cabinet was a good fifteen feet away from where Mort was standing,
the few words on it were printed in large strokes and he could read
them easily. He thought Shooter must have used either a pencil with
an extremely soft lead or a piece of artist’s charcoal. REMEMBER,
YOU HAVE 3 DAYS, the message read. I AM NOT JOKING.
The black thing was Bump. Shooter had apparently
broken the cat’s neck before nailing him to the roof of the garbage
cabinet with a screwdriver from Mort’s own toolshed.
14
He wasn’t aware of breaking the paralysis which
held him. At one moment he was standing frozen in the hall by the
telephone table, looking out at good old Bump, who seemed to have
grown a screwdriver handle in the middle of his chest, where there
was a ruff of white fur—what Amy had liked to call Bump’s bib. At
the next he was standing in the middle of the porch with the chilly
night air biting through his thin shirt, trying to look six
different ways at once.
He forced himself to stop. Shooter was gone, of
course. That’s why he had left the note. Nor did Shooter seem like
the kind of nut who would enjoy watching Mort’s obvious fear and
horror. He was a nut, all right, but one which had fallen from a
different tree. He had simply used Bump, used him on Mort the way a
farmer might use a crowbar on a stubborn rock in his north forty.
There was nothing personal in it; it was just a job that had to be
done.
Then he thought of how Shooter’s eyes had looked
that afternoon and shivered violently. No, it was personal, all
right. It was all kinds of personal.
“He believes I did it,” Mort whispered to the cold
western Maine night, and the words came out in ragged chunks,
bitten off by his chattering teeth. “The crazy son of a bitch
really believes I did it.”
He approached the garbage cabinet and his stomach
rolled over like a dog doing a trick. Cold sweat broke out on his
forehead, and he wasn’t sure he could take care of what needed
taking care of. Bump’s head was cocked far to the left, giving him
a grotesque questioning look. His teeth, small, neat, and
needle-sharp, were bared. There was a little blood around the blade
of the screwdriver at the point where it was driven into his
(bib)
ruff, but not very much. Bump was a friendly cat;
if Shooter had approached him, Bump would not have shied away. And
that was what Shooter must have done, Mort thought, and wiped the
sick sweat off his forehead. He had picked the cat up, snapped its
neck between his fingers like a Popsicle stick, and then nailed it
to the slanting roof of the garbage cabinet, all while Mort Rainey
slept, if not the sleep of the just, that of the unheeding.
Mort crumpled up the sheet of paper, stuffed it in
his back pocket, then put his hand on Bump’s chest. The body, not
stiff and not even entirely cold, shifted under his hand. His
stomach rolled again, but he forced his other hand to close around
the screwdriver’s yellow plastic handle and pull it free.
He tossed the screwdriver onto the porch and held
poor old Bump in his right hand like a bundle of rags. Now his
stomach was in free fall, simply rolling and rolling and rolling.
He lifted one of the two lids on top of the garbage cabinet, and
secured it with the hook-and-eyelet that kept the heavy lid from
crashing down on the arms or head of whoever was depositing trash
inside. Three cans were lined up within. Mort lifted the lid from
the center one and deposited Bump’s body gently inside. It lay
draped over the top of an olive-green Hefty bag like a fur
stole.
He was suddenly furious with Shooter. If the man
had appeared in the driveway at that second, Mort would have
charged him without a second thought—driven him to the ground and
choked him if he could.
Easy—it really is catching.
Maybe it was. And maybe he didn’t care. It wasn’t
just that Shooter had killed his only companion in this lonely
October house by the lake; it was that he had done it while Mort
was asleep, and in such a way that good old Bump had become an
object of revulsion, something it was hard not to puke over.
Most of all it was the fact that he had been forced
to put his good cat in a garbage can like a piece of worthless
trash.
I’ll bury him tomorrow. Right over in that soft
patch to the left of the house. In sight of the lake.
Yes, but tonight Bump would lie in undignified
state on top of a Hefty bag in the garbage cabinet because some
man—some crazy son of a bitch—could be out there, and the man had a
grudge over a story Mort Rainey hadn’t even thought of for
the last five years or so. The man was crazy, and consequently Mort
was afraid to bury Bump tonight, because, note or no note, Shooter
might be out there.
I want to kill him. And if the crazy bastard
pushes me much more, I might just try to do it.
He went inside, slammed the door, and locked it.
Then he walked deliberately through the house, locking all the
doors and windows. When that was done, he went back to the window
by the porch door and stared pensively out into the darkness. He
could see the screwdriver lying on the boards, and the dark round
hole the blade had made when Shooter plunged it into the right-hand
lid of the garbage cabinet.
All at once he remembered he had been about to try
Amy again.
He plugged the jack into the wall. He dialled
rapidly, fingers tapping the old familiar keys which added up to
home, and wondered if he would tell Amy about Bump.
There was an unnaturally long pause after the
preliminary clicks. He was about to hang up when there was one
final click—so loud it was almost a thud—followed by a robot voice
telling him that the number he had dialled was out of
service.
“Wonderful,” he muttered. “What the hell did you
do, Amy? Use it until it broke?”
He pushed the disconnect button down, thinking he
would have to call Isabelle Fortin after all, and while he was
conning his memory for her number, the telephone rang in his
hand.
He hadn’t realized how keyed up he was until that
happened. He gave a screaky little cry and skipped backward,
dropping the telephone handset on the floor and then almost
tripping over the goddam bench Amy had bought and put by the
telephone table, the bench absolutely no one, including Amy
herself, ever used.
He pawed out with one hand, grabbed the bookcase,
and kept himself from falling. Then he snatched up the phone and
said, “Hello? Is that you, Shooter?” For in that moment, when it
seemed that the whole world was slowly but surely turning
topsy-turvy, he couldn’t imagine who else it could be.
“Mort?” It was Amy, and she was nearly screaming.
He knew the tone very well from the last two years of their
marriage. It was either frustration or fury, more likely the
latter. “Mort, is that you? Is it you, for God’s sake? Mort?
M—”
“Yes, it’s me,” he said. He suddenly felt
weary.
“Where in the hell have you been? I’ve been trying
to get you for the last three hours!”
“Asleep,” he said.
“You pulled the jack.” She spoke in the tired but
accusatory tone of one who had been down this road before. “Well,
you picked a great time to do it this time, champ.” “I tried to
call around five—”
“I was at Ted’s.”
“Well, somebody was there,” he said.
“Maybe—”
“What do you mean, someone was there?” she asked,
whiplash quick. “Who was there?”
“How the hell would I know, Amy? You’re the one in
Derry, remember? You Derry, me Tashmore. All I know is that the
line was busy when I tried to call you. If you were over at Ted’s,
then I assume Isabelle—”
“I’m still at Ted’s,” she said, and now her
voice was queerly flat. “I guess I’ll be at Ted’s for quite awhile
to come, like it or not. Someone burned our house down, Mort.
Someone burned it right to the ground.” And suddenly Amy began to
cry.
15
He had become so fixated on John Shooter that his
immediate assumption, as he stood numbly in the hallway of the one
remaining Rainey home with the telephone screwed against his ear,
was that Shooter had burned the house down. Motive? Why, certainly,
officer. He burned the house, a restored Victorian worth about
$800,000, to get rid of a magazine. Ellery Queen’s Mystery
Magazine, to be precise; June of 1980 issue.
But could it have been Shooter? Surely not.
The distance between Derry and Tashmore was over a hundred miles,
and Bump’s body had still been warm and flexible, the blood around
the screwdriver blade tacky but not yet dry.
If he hurried—
Oh, quit it, why don’t you? Pretty soon you’ll
be blaming Shooter for your divorce and thinking you’ve been
sleeping sixteen hours out of every twenty-four because Shooter has
been putting Phenobarb in your food. And after that? You can start
writing letters to the paper saying that America’s cocaine kingpin
is a gentleman from Crow’s Ass Mississippi named John Shooter. That
he killed Jimmy Hoffa and also happened to be the famous second gun
who fired at Kennedy from the grassy knoll in November of 1963. The
man’s crazy, okay... but do you really think he drove a hundred
miles north and massacred your goddam house in order to kill a
magazine? Especially when there must be copies of that magazine
still in existence all across America? Get serious.
But still... if he hurried ...
No. It was ridiculous. But, Mort suddenly realized,
he wouldn’t be able to show the man his goddam proof, would he? Not
unless...
The study was at the back of the house; they had
converted what had once been the loft of the carriage-barn.
“Amy,” he said.
“It’s so horrible!” she wept. “I was at
Ted’s and Isabelle called ... she said there were at least fifteen
fire trucks there ... hoses spraying ... crowds ... rubberneckers
... gawkers ... you know how I hate it when people come and gawk at
the house, even when it’s not burning down ...”
He had to bite down hard on the insides of his
cheeks to stifle a wild bray of laughter. To laugh now would be the
worst thing, the cruellest thing he could possibly do, because he
did know. His success at his chosen trade after the years of
struggle had been a great and fulfilling thing for him; he
sometimes felt like a man who has won his way through a perilous
jungle where most other adventurers perish and has gained a
fabulous prize by so doing. Amy had been glad for him, at least
initially, but for her there had been a bitter downside: the loss
of her identity not only as a private person but as a
separate person.
“Yes,” he said as gently as he could, still biting
at his cheeks to protect against the laughter which threatened. If
he laughed, it would be at her unfortunate choice of phrasing, but
she wouldn’t see it that way. So often during their years together
she had misinterpreted his laughter. “Yes, I know, hon. Tell me
what happened.”
“Somebody burned down our house!” Amy cried
tearily. “That’s what happened!”
“Is it a total loss?”
“Yes. That’s what the fire chief said.” He could
hear her gulping, trying to get herself under control, and then her
tears stormed out again. “It b-b-burned fuh-fuh-flat!”
“Even my study?”
“That’s w-where it st-started,” she
sniffled. “At least, that’s what the fire chief said they thought.
And it fits with what Patty saw.”
“Patty Champion?”
The Champions owned the house next to the Raineys’
on the right; the two lots were separated by a belt of yew trees
that had slowly run wild over the years.
“Yes. Just a second, Mort.”
He heard a mighty honk as she blew her nose, and
when she came back on the line, she seemed more composed. “Patty
was walking her dog, she told the firemen. This was a little while
after it got dark. She walked past our house and saw a car parked
under the portico. Then she heard a crash from inside, and saw fire
in your big study window.”
“Did she see what kind of a car it was?” Mort
asked. He felt sick in the pit of his stomach. As the news sank in,
the John Shooter business began to dwindle in size and importance.
It wasn’t just the goddam June, 1980, issue of EQMM; it was
almost all his manuscripts, both those which had been published and
those which were incomplete, it was most of his first editions, his
foreign editions, his contributors’ copies.
Oh, but that was only the start. They had lost
their books, as many as four thousand volumes. All of Amy’s clothes
would have burned, if the damage was as bad as she said it was, and
the antique furniture she had collected—sometimes with his help,
but mostly on her own—would all be cinders and clinkers now. Her
jewelry and their personal papers—insurance policies and so
on—would probably be okay (the safe hidden at the back of the
upstairs closet was supposed to be fireproof), but the Turkish rugs
would be ash, the thousand or so videotapes melted lumps of
plastic, the audiovisual equipment... his clothes ... their
photographs, thousands of them....
Good Christ, and the first thing he’d thought of
was that goddam magazine.
“No,” Amy was saying, answering the question he had
almost forgotten asking in his realization of how enormous the
personal loss must be, “she couldn’t tell what kind of car it was.
She said she thought somebody must have used a Molotov cocktail, or
something like that. Because of the way the fire came up in the
window right after the sound of breaking glass. She said she
started up the driveway and then the kitchen door opened and a man
ran out. Bruno started to bark at him, but Patty got scared and
pulled him back, although she said he just about ripped the leash
out of her hand.
“Then the man got into the car and started it up.
He turned on the headlights, and Patty said they almost blinded
her. She threw her arm up to shield her eyes and the car just
roared out from under the portico ... that’s what she said ... and
she squeezed back against our front fence and pulled Bruno as hard
as she could, or the man would have hit him. Then he turned out of
the driveway and drove down the street, fast.”
“And she never saw what kind of car it was?”
“No. First it was dark, and then, when the fire
started to shine through your study window, the headlights dazzled
her. She ran back to the house and called the fire department.
Isabelle said they came fast, but you know how old our house is ...
was... and... and how fast dry wood burns... especially if you use
gasoline ...”
Yes, he knew. Old, dry, full of wood, the house had
been an arsonist’s wet dream. But who? If not Shooter, who?
This terrible news, coming on top of the day’s events like a
hideous dessert at the end of a loathsome meal, had almost
completely paralyzed his ability to think.
“He said it was probably gasoline... the
fire chief, I mean... he was there first, but then the police came,
and they kept asking questions, Mort, mostly about you... about any
enemies you might have made ... enemies ... and I said I
didn’t think you h-had any enemies... I tried to answer all his
questions ...”
“I’m sure you did the best job you could,” he said
gently.
She went on as if she hadn’t heard him, speaking in
breathless ellipses, like a telegraph operator relating dire news
aloud just as it spills off the wire. “I didn’t even know how to
tell them we were divorced ... and of course they didn’t
know... it was Ted who had to tell them finally... Mort... my
mother’s Bible... it was on the nightstand in the bedroom ... there
were pictures in it of my family ... and... and it was the only
thing... only thing of hers I h-h-had ...”
Her voice dissolved into miserable sobs.
“I’ll be up in the morning,” he said. “If I leave
at seven, I can be there by nine-thirty. Maybe by nine, now that
there’s no summer traffic. Where will you stay tonight? At
Ted’s?”
“Yes,” she said, sniffling. “I know you don’t like
him, Mort, but I don’t know what I would have done without him
tonight... how I could have handled it... you know... all their
questions ...”
“Then I’m glad you had him,” he said firmly. He
found the calmness, the civilization, in his voice really
astounding. “Take care of yourself. Have you got your pills?” She’d
had a tranquilizer prescription for the last six years of their
marriage, but only took them when she had to fly ... or, he
remembered, when he had some public function to fulfill. One which
required the presence of the Designated Spouse.
“They were in the medicine cabinet,” she said
dully. “It doesn’t matter. I’m not stressed. Just heartsick.”
Mort almost told her he believed they were the same
thing, and decided not to.
“I’ll be there as soon as I can,” he said. “If you
think I could do something by coming tonight—”
“No,” she said. “Where should we meet?
Ted’s?”
Suddenly, unbidden, he saw his hand holding a
chamber-maid’s passkey. Saw it turning in the lock of a motel-room
door. Saw the door swinging open. Saw the surprised faces above the
sheet, Amy’s on the left, Ted Milner’s on the right. His blow-dried
look had been knocked all aslant and asprawl by sleep, and to Mort
he had looked a little bit like Alfalfa in the old Little Rascals
short subjects. Seeing Ted’s hair in sleep corkscrews like that had
also made the man look really real to Mort for the first time. He
had seen their dismay and their bare shoulders. And suddenly,
almost randomly, he thought: A woman who would steal your love
when your love was really all you had—
“No,” he said, “not Ted’s. What about that little
coffee shop on Witcham Street?”
“Would you prefer I came alone?” She didn’t sound
angry, but she sounded ready to be angry. How well I know
her, he thought. Every move, every lift and drop of her voice,
every turn of phrase. And how well she must know me.
“No,” he said. “Bring Ted. That’d be fine.” Not
fine, but he could live with it. He thought.
“Nine-thirty, then,” she said, and he could hear
her standing down a little. “Marchman’s.”
“Is that the name of that place?”
“Yes—Marchman’s Restaurant.”
“Okay. Nine-thirty or a little earlier. If I get
there first, I’ll chalk a mark on the door—”
“—and if I get there first, I’ll rub it
out,” she finished the old catechism, and they both laughed a
little. Mort found that even the laugh hurt. They knew each other,
all right. Wasn’t that what the years together were supposed to be
for? And wasn’t that why it hurt so goddam bad when you discovered
that, not only could the years end, they really had?
He suddenly thought of the note which had been
stuck under one of the garbage cabinet’s shake shingles—REMEMBER,
YOU HAVE 3 DAYS. I AM NOT JOKING. He thought of saying, I’ve had
a little trouble of my own down here, Amy, and then knew he
couldn’t add that to her current load of woe. It was his
trouble.
“If it had happened later, at least you would have
saved your stuff,” she was saying. “I don’t like to think about all
the manuscripts you must have lost, Mort. If you’d gotten the
fireproof drawers two years ago, when Herb suggested them,
maybe—”
“I don’t think it matters,” Mort said. “I’ve got
the manuscript of the new novel down here.” He did, too. All
fourteen shitty, wooden pages of it. “To hell with the rest. I’ll
see you tomorrow, Amy, I—”
(love you)
He closed his lips over it. They were divorced.
Could he still love her? It seemed almost perverse. And even
if he did, did he have any right to say so?
“I’m sorry as hell about this,” he told her
instead.
“So am I, Mort. So very sorry.” She was starting to
cry again. Now he could hear someone—a woman, probably Isabelle
Fortin—comforting her.
“Get some sleep, Amy.”
“You, too.”
He hung up. All at once the house seemed much
quieter than it had on any of the other nights he had been here
alone; he could hear nothing but the night wind whispering around
the eaves and, very far off, a loon calling on the lake. He took
the note out of his pocket, smoothed it out, and read it again. It
was the sort of thing you were supposed to put aside for the
police. In fact, it was the sort of thing you weren’t even supposed
to touch until the police had had a chance to photograph it and
work their juju on it. It was—ruflle of drums and blast of
trumpets, please—EVIDENCE.
Well, fuck it, Mort thought, crumpling it up
again. No police. Dave Newsome, the local constable, probably had
trouble remembering what he’d eaten for breakfast by the time lunch
rolled around, and he couldn’t see taking the matter to either the
county sheriff or the State Police. After all, it wasn’t as though
an attempt had been made on his life; his cat had been killed, but
a cat wasn’t a person. And in the wake of Amy’s devastating news,
John Shooter simply didn’t seem as important anymore. He was one of
the Crazy Folks, he had a bee in his bonnet, and he might be
dangerous... but Mort felt more and more inclined to try and handle
the business himself, even if Shooter was dangerous.
Especially if he was dangerous.
The house in Derry took precedence over John
Shooter and John Shooter’s crazy ideas. It even took precedence
over who had done the deed—Shooter or some other fruitcake with a
grudge, a mental problem, or both. The house, and, he supposed,
Amy. She was clearly in bad shape, and it couldn’t hurt either of
them for him to offer her what comfort he could. Maybe she would
even...
But he closed his mind to any speculation about
what Amy might even do. He saw nothing but pain down that road.
Better to believe that road was closed for good.
He went into the bedroom, undressed, and lay down
with his hands behind his head. The loon called again, desperate
and distant. It occurred to him again that Shooter could be out
there, creeping around, his face a pale circle beneath his odd
black hat. Shooter was nuts, and although he had used his hands and
a screwdriver on Bump, that did not preclude the possibility that
he still might have a gun.
But Mort didn’t think Shooter was out there, armed
or not.
Calls, he thought. I’ll have to make at
least two on my way up to Derry. One to Greg Carstairs and one to
Herb Creekmore. Too early to make them from here if I leave at
seven, but I could use one of the pay phones at the Augusta
tollbooths....
He turned over on his side, thinking it would be a
long time before he fell asleep tonight after all ... and then
sleep rolled over him in a smooth dark wave, and if anyone came to
peer in on him as he slept, he did not know it.
16
The alarm got him up at six-fifteen. He took half
an hour to bury Bump in the sandy patch of ground between the house
and the lake, and by seven he was rolling, just as planned. He was
ten miles down the road and heading into Mechanic Falls, a bustling
metropolis which consisted of a textile mill that had closed in
1970, five thousand souls, and a yellow blinker at the intersection
of Routes 23 and 7, when he noticed that his old Buick was running
on fumes. He pulled into Bill’s Chevron, cursing himself for not
having checked the gauge before setting out—if he had gotten
through Mechanic Falls without noticing how low the gauge had
fallen, he might have had a pretty good walk for himself and ended
up very late for his appointment with Amy.
He went to the pay phone on the wall while the pump
jockey tried to fill the Buick’s bottomless pit. He dug his
battered address book out of his left rear pocket and dialled Greg
Carstairs’s number. He thought he might actually catch Greg in this
early, and he was right.
“Hello?”
“Hi, Greg—Mort Rainey.”
“Hi, Mort. I guess you’ve got some trouble up in
Derry, huh?”
“Yes,” Mort said. “Was it on the news?”
“Channel 5.”
“How did it look?”
“How did what look?” Greg replied. Mort
winced... but if he had to hear that from anybody, he was glad it
had been Greg Carstairs. He was an amiable, long-haired ex-hippie
who had converted to some fairly obscure religious sect—the
Swedenborgians, maybe—not long after Woodstock. He had a wife and
two kids, one seven and one five, and so far as Mort could tell,
the whole family was as laid back as Greg himself. You got so used
to the man’s small but constant smile that he looked undressed on
the few occasions he was without it.
“That bad, huh?”
“Yes,” Greg said simply. “It must have gone up like
a rocket. I’m really sorry, man.”
“Thank you. I’m on my way up there now, Greg. I’m
calling from Mechanic Falls. Can you do me a favor while I’m
gone?”
“If you mean the shingles, I think they’ll be in
by—”
“No, not the shingles. Something else. There’s been
a guy bothering me the last two or three days. A crackpot. He
claims I stole a story he wrote six or seven years ago. When I told
him I’d written my version of the same story before he claims to
have written his, and told him I could prove it, he got wiggy. I
was sort of hoping I’d seen the last of him, but no such luck. Last
evening, while I was sleeping on the couch, he killed my
cat.”
“Bump?” Greg sounded faintly startled, a reaction
that equalled roaring surprise in anyone else. “He killed
Bump?”
“That’s right.”
“Did you talk to Dave Newsome about it?”
“No, and I don’t want to, either. I want to handle
him myself, if I can.”
“The guy doesn’t exactly sound like a pacifist,
Mort.”
“Killing a cat is a long way from killing a man,”
Mort said, “and I think maybe I could handle him better than
Dave.”
“Well, you could have something there,” Greg
agreed. “Dave’s slowed down a little since he turned seventy. What
can I do for you, Mort?”
“I’d like to know where the guy is staying, for one
thing.” “What’s his name?”
“I don’t know. The name on the story he showed me
was John Shooter, but he got cute about that later on, told me it
might be a pseudonym. I think it is—it sounds like a
pseudonym. Either way, I doubt if he’s registered under that name
if he’s staying at an area motel.”
“What does he look like?”
“He’s about six feet tall and forty-something. He’s
got a kind of weatherbeaten face—sun-wrinkles around the eyes and
lines going down from the comers of the mouth, kind of bracketing
the chin.”
As he spoke, the face of “John Shooter” floated
into his consciousness with increasing clarity, like the face of a
spirit swimming up to the curved side of a medium’s crystal ball.
Mort felt gooseflesh prick the backs of his hands and shivered a
little. A voice in his midbrain kept muttering that he was either
making a mistake or deliberately misleading Greg. Shooter was
dangerous, all right. He hadn’t needed to see what the man had done
to Bump to know that. He had seen it in Shooter’s eyes yesterday
afternoon. Why was he playing vigilante, then?
Because, another, deeper, voice answered
with a kind of dangerous firmness. Just because, that’s
all.
The midbrain voice spoke up again, worried: Do
you mean to hurt him? Is that what this is all about? Do you mean
to hurt him?
But the deep voice would not answer. It had fallen
silent.
“Sounds like half the farmers around here,” Greg
was saying doubtfully.
“Well, there’s a couple of other things that may
help pick him out,” Mort said. “He’s Southern, for one thing—got an
accent on him that sticks out a mile. He wears a big black
hat—felt, I think—with a round crown. It looks like the kind of hat
Amish men wear. And he’s driving a blue Ford station wagon, early
or mid-sixties. Mississippi plates.”
“Okay—better. I’ll ask around. If he’s in the area,
somebody’ ll know where. Outta-state plates stand out this time of
year.”
“I know.” Something else crossed his mind suddenly.
“You might start by asking Tom Greenleaf. I was talking to this
Shooter yesterday on Lake Drive, about half a mile north of my
place. Tom came along in his Scout. He waved at us when he went by,
and both of us waved back. Tom must have gotten a damned fine look
at him.”
“Okay. I’ll probably see him up at Bowie’s Store if
I drop by for a coffee around ten.”
“He’s been there, too,” Mort said. “I know, because
he mentioned the paperback book-rack. It’s one of the old-fashioned
ones.”
“And if I track him down, what?”
“Nothing,” Mort said. “Don’t do a thing. I’ll call
you tonight. Tomorrow night I should be back at the place on the
lake. I don’t know what the hell I can do up in Derry, except
scuffle through the ashes.”
“What about Amy?”
“She’s got a guy,” Mort said, trying not to sound
stiff and probably sounding that way just the same. “I guess what
Amy does next is something the two of them will have to work
out.”
“Oh. Sorry.”
“No need to be,” Mort said. He looked over toward
the gas islands and saw that the jockey had finished filling his
tank and was now washing the Buick’s windshield, a sight he had
never expected to witness again in his lifetime.
“Handling this guy yourself ... are you really sure
it’s what you want to do?”
“Yes, I think so,” Mort said.
He hesitated, suddenly understanding what was very
likely going on in Greg’s mind: he was thinking that if he found
the man in the black hat and Mort got hurt as a result, he, Greg,
would be responsible.
“Listen, Greg—you could go along while I talk to
the guy, if you wanted to.”
“I might just do that,” Greg said, relieved.
“It’s proof he wants,” Mort said, “so I’ll just
have to get it for him.”
“But you said you had proof.”
“Yes, but he didn’t exactly take my word for it. I
guess I’m going to have to shove it in his face to get him to leave
me alone.”
“Oh.” Greg thought it over. “The guy really is
crazy, isn’t he?”
“Yes indeed.”
“Well, I’ll see if I can find him. Give me a call
tonight.”
“I will. And thanks, Greg.”
“Don’t mention it. A change is as good as a
rest.”
“So they say.”
He told Greg goodbye and checked his watch. It was
almost seven-thirty, and that was much too early to call Herb
Creekmore, unless he wanted to pry Herb out of bed, and this wasn’t
that urgent. A stop at the Augusta tollbooths would do fine. He
walked back to the Buick, replacing his address book and digging
out his wallet. He asked the pump jockey how much he owed
him.
“That’s twenty-two fifty, with the cash discount,”
the jockey said, and then looked at Mort shyly. “I wonder if I
could have your autograph, Mr. Rainey? I’ve all your books.”
That made him think of Amy again, and how Amy had
hated the autograph seekers. Mort himself didn’t understand them,
but saw no harm in them. For her they had seemed to sum up an
aspect of their lives which she found increasingly hateful. Toward
the end, he had cringed inwardly every time someone asked
that question in Amy’s presence. Sometimes he could almost
sense her thinking: If you love me, why don’t you STOP them?
As if he could, he thought. His job was to write books people like
this guy would want to read... or so he saw it. When he succeeded
at that, they asked for autographs.
He scribbled his name on the back of a credit slip
for the pump jockey (who had, after all, actually washed his
windshield) and reflected that if Amy had blamed him for doing
something they liked—and he thought that, on some level she herself
might not be aware of, she had—he supposed he was guilty. But it
was only the way he had been built.
Right was right, after all, just as Shooter had
said. And fair was fair.
He got back into his car and drove off toward
Derry.
17
He paid his seventy-five cents at the Augusta toll
plaza, then pulled into the parking area by the telephones on the
far side. The day was sunny, chilly, and windy—coming out of the
southwest from the direction of Litchfield and running straight and
unbroken across the open plain where the turnpike plaza lay, that
wind was strong enough to bring tears to Mort’s eyes. He relished
it, all the same. He could almost feel it blowing the dust out of
rooms inside his head which had been closed and shuttered too
long.
He used his credit card to call Herb Creekmore in
New York—the apartment, not the office. Herb wouldn’t actually make
it to James and Creekmore, Mort Rainey’s literary agency, for
another hour or so, but Mort had known Herb long enough to guess
that the man had probably been through the shower by now and was
drinking a cup of coffee while he waited for the bathroom mirror to
unsteam so he could shave.
He was lucky for the second time in a row. Herb
answered in a voice from which most of the sleep-fuzz had departed.
Am I on a roll this morning, or what? Mort thought, and
grinned into the teeth of the cold October wind. Across the four
lanes of highway, he could see men stringing snowfence in
preparation for the winter which lay just over the calendar’s
horizon.
“Hi, Herb,” he said. “I’m calling you from a pay
telephone outside the Augusta toll plaza. My divorce is final, my
house in Derry burned flat last night, some nut killed my cat, and
it’s colder than a well-digger’s belt buckle—are we having fun
yet?”
He hadn’t realized how absurd his catalogue of woes
sounded until he heard himself reciting them aloud, and he almost
laughed. Jesus, it was cold out here, but didn’t it feel good!
Didn’t it feel clean!
“Mort?” Herb said cautiously, like a man who
suspects a practical joke.
“At your service,” Mort said.
“What’s this about your house?”
“I’ll tell you, but only once. Take notes if you
have to, because I plan to be back in my car before I freeze solid
to this telephone.” He began with John Shooter and John Shooter’s
accusation. He finished with the conversation he’d had with Amy
last night.
Herb, who had spent a fair amount of time as Mort
and Amy’s guest (and who had been entirely dismayed by their
breakup, Mort guessed), expressed his surprise and sorrow at what
had happened to the house in Derry. He asked if Mort had any idea
who had done it. Mort said he didn’t.
“Do you suspect this guy Shooter?” Herb asked. “I
understand the significance of the cat being killed only a short
time before you woke up, but—”
“I guess it’s technically possible, and I’m not
ruling it out completely,” Mort said, “but I doubt it like hell.
Maybe it’s only because I can’t get my mind around the idea of a
man burning down a twenty-four-room house in order to get rid of a
magazine. But I think it’s mostly because I met him. He really
believes I stole his story, Herb. I mean, he has no doubts at all.
His attitude when I told him I could show him proof was ‘Go ahead,
motherfucker, make my day.’ ”
“Still ... you called the police, didn’t
you?”
“Yeah, I made a call this morning,” Mort said, and
while this statement was a bit disingenuous, it was not an
out-and-out lie. He had made a call this morning. To Greg
Carstairs. But if he told Herb Creekmore, whom he could visualize
sitting in the living room of his New York apartment in a pair of
natty tweed pants and a strap-style tee shirt, that he intended to
handle this himself, with only Greg to lend a hand, he doubted if
Herb would understand. Herb was a good friend, but he was something
of a stereotype: Civilized Man, late-twentieth-century model, urban
and urbane. He was the sort of man who believed in counselling. The
sort of man who believed in meditation and mediation. The sort of
man who believed in discussion when reason was present, and the
immediate delegation of the problem to Persons in Authority when it
was absent. To Herb, the concept that sometimes a man has got to do
what a man has got to do was one which had its place ... but its
place was in movies starring Sylvester Stallone.
“Well, that’s good.” Herb sounded relieved. “You’ve
got enough on your plate without worrying about some psycho from
Mississippi. If they find him, what will you do? Have him charged
with harassment?”
“I’d rather convince him to take his persecution
act and put it on the road,” Mort said. His feeling of cheery
optimism, so unwarranted but indubitably real, persisted. He
supposed he would crash soon enough, but for the time being, he
couldn’t stop grinning. So he wiped his leaking nose with the cuff
of his coat and went right on doing it. He had forgotten how good
it could feel to have a grin pasted onto your kisser.
“How will you do that?”
“With your help, I hope. You’ve got files of my
stuff, right?”
“Right, but—”
“Well, I need you to pull the June, 1980, issue of
Ellery Queen’s Mystery Magazine. That’s the one with ‘Sowing
Season’ in it. I can’t very well pull mine because of the fire,
so—”
“I don’t have it,” Herb said mildly.
“You don’t?” Mort blinked. This was one thing he
hadn’t expected. “Why not?”
“Because 1980 was two years before I came on board
as your agent. I have at least one copy of everything I sold
for you, but that’s one of the stories you sold yourself.”
“Oh, shit!” In his mind’s eye, Mort could
see the acknowledgment for “Sowing Season” in Everybody Drops
the Dime. Most of the other acknowledgments contained the line,
“Reprinted by permission of the author and the author’s agents,
James and Creekmore.” The one for “Sowing Season” (and two or three
other stories in the collection) read only, “Reprinted by
permission of the author.”
“Sorry,” Herb said.
“Of course I sent it in myself—I remember
writing the query letter before I submitted. It’s just that it
seems like you’ve been my agent forever.” He laughed a little then
and added, “No offense.”
“None taken,” Herb said. “Do you want me to make a
call to EQMM? They must have back issues.”
“Would you?” Mort asked gratefully. “That’d be
great.”
“I’ll do it first thing. Only—” Herb paused.
“Only what?”
“Promise me you’re not planning to confront this
guy on your own once you have a copy of the printed story in
hand.”
“I promise,” Mort agreed promptly. He was being
disingenuous again, but what the hell-he had asked Greg to
come along when he did it, and Greg had agreed, so he
wouldn’t be alone. And Herb Creekmore was his literary
agent, after all, not his father. How he handled his personal
problems wasn’t really Herb’s concern.
“Okay,” Herb said. “I’ll take care of it. Call me
from Derry, Mort—maybe it isn’t as bad as it seems.”
“I’d like to believe that.”
“But you don’t?”
“Afraid not.”
“Okay.” Herb sighed. Then, diffidently, he added:
“Is it okay to ask you to give Amy my best?”
“It is, and I will.”
“Good. You go on and get out of the wind, Mort. I
can hear it shrieking in the receiver. You must be freezing.”
“Getting there. Thanks again, Herb.”
He hung up and looked thoughtfully at the telephone
for a moment. He’d forgotten that the Buick needed gas, which was
minor, but he’d also forgotten that Herb Creekmore hadn’t been his
agent until 1982, and that wasn’t so minor. Too much pressure, he
supposed. It made a man wonder what else he might have
forgotten.
The voice in his mind, not the midbrain voice but
the one from the deep ranges, spoke up suddenly: What about
stealing the story in the first place? Maybe you forgot
that.
He snorted a laugh as he hurried back to his car.
He had never been to Mississippi in his life, and even now, stuck
in a writer’s block as he was, he was a long way from stooping to
plagiarism. He slid behind the wheel and started the engine,
reflecting that a person’s mind certainly got up to some weird shit
every now and again.
18
Mort didn’t believe that people—even those who
tried to be fairly honest with themselves—knew when some things
were over. He believed they often went on believing, or trying to
believe, even when the handwriting was not only on the wall but
writ in letters large enough to read a hundred yards away without a
spyglass. If it was something you really cared about and felt that
you needed, it was easy to cheat, easy to confuse your life with TV
and convince yourself that what felt so wrong would eventually come
right ... probably after the next commercial break. He supposed
that, without its great capacity for self-deception, the human race
would be even crazier than it already was.
But sometimes the truth crashed through, and if you
had consciously tried to think or dream your way around that truth,
the results could be devastating: it was like being there when a
tidal wave roared not over but straight through a dike which had
been set in its way, smashing it and you flat.
Mort Rainey experienced one of these cataclysmic
epiphanies after the representatives of the police and fire
departments had gone and he and Amy and Ted Milner were left alone
to walk slowly around the smoking ruin of the green Victorian house
which had stood at 92 Kansas Street for one hundred and thirty-six
years. It was while they were making that mournful inspection tour
that he understood that his marriage to the former Amy Dowd of
Portland, Maine, was over. It was no “period of marital stress.” It
was no “trial separation.” It was not going to be one of those
cases you heard of from time to time where both parties repented
their decision and remarried. It was over. Their lives together
were history. Even the house where they had shared so many good
times was nothing but evilly smouldering beams tumbled into the
cellar-hole like the teeth of a giant.
Their meeting at Marchman’s, the little coffee shop
on Witcham Street, had gone well enough. Amy had hugged him and he
had hugged her back, but when he tried to kiss her mouth, she
turned her head deftly aside so that his lips landed on her cheek
instead. Kiss-kiss, as they said at the office parties. So good to
see you, darling.
Ted Milner, blow-dried hair perfectly in place this
morning and nary an Alfalfa corkscrew in sight, sat at the table in
the comer, watching them. He was holding the pipe which Mort had
seen clenched in his teeth at various parties over the last three
years or so. Mort was convinced the pipe was an affectation, a
little prop employed for the sole purpose of making its owner look
older than he was. And how old was that? Mort wasn’t sure, but Amy
was thirty-six, and he thought Ted, in his impeccable stone-washed
jeans and open-throated J. Press shirt, had to be at least four
years younger than that, possibly more. He wondered if Amy knew she
could be in for trouble ten years down the tine—maybe even five—and
then reflected it would take a better man than he was to suggest it
to her.
He asked if there was anything new. Amy said there
wasn’t. Then Ted took over, speaking with a faintly Southern accent
which was a good deal softer than John Shooter’s nasal burr. He
told Mort the fire chief and a lieutenant from the Derry Police
Department would meet them at what Ted called “the site.” They
wanted to ask Mort a few questions. Mort said that was fine. Ted
asked if he’d like a cup of coffee—they had time. Mort said that
would also be fine. Ted asked how he had been. Mort used the word
fine again. Each time it came out of his mouth it felt a little
more threadbare. Amy watched the exchange between them with some
apprehension, and Mort could understand that. On the day he had
discovered the two of them in bed together, he had told Ted he
would kill him. In fact, he might have said something about killing
them both. His memory of the event was quite foggy. He suspected
theirs might be rather foggy, too. He didn’t know about the other
two comers of the triangle, but he himself found that foggery not
only understandable but merciful.
They had coffee. Amy asked him about “John
Shooter.” Mort said he thought that situation was pretty much under
control. He did not mention cats or notes or magazines. And after
awhile, they left Marchman’s and went to 92 Kansas Street, which
had once been a house instead of a site.
The fire chief and police detective were there as
promised, and there were questions, also as promised. Most of the
questions were about any people who might dislike him enough to
have tossed a Texaco cocktail into his study. If Mort had been on
his own, he would have left Shooter’s name out of it entirely, but
of course Amy would bring it up if he didn’t, so he recounted the
initial encounter just as it had happened.
The fire chief, Wickersham, said: “The guy was
pretty angry?”
“Yes.”
“Angry enough to have driven to Derry and torched
your house?” the police detective, Bradley, asked.
He was almost positive Shooter hadn’t done it, but
he didn’t want to delve into his brief dealings with Shooter any
more deeply. It would mean telling them what Shooter had done to
Bump, for one thing. That would upset Amy; it would upset her a
great deal ... and it would open up a can of worms he would prefer
to leave closed. It was time, Mort reckoned, to be disingenuous
again.
“He might have been at first. But after I
discovered the two stories really were alike, I looked up
the original date of publication on mine.”
“His had never been published?” Bradley
asked.
“No, I’m sure it hadn’t been. Then, yesterday, he
showed up again. I asked him when he’d written his story, hoping
he’d mention a date that was later than the one I had. Do you
understand?”
Detective Bradley nodded. “You were hoping to prove
you scooped him.”
“Right. ‘Sowing Season’ was in a book of short
stories I published in 1983, but it was originally published
in 1980. I was hoping the guy would feel safe picking a date only a
year or two before 1983. I got lucky. He said he’d written it in
1982. So you see, I had him.”
He hoped it would end there, but Wickersham, the
fire chief, pursued it. “You see and we see, Mr. Rainey, but did he
see?”
Mort sighed inwardly. He supposed he had known that
you could only be disingenuous for so long—if things went on long
enough, they almost always progressed to a point where you had to
either tell the truth or carve an outright lie. And here he was, at
that point. But whose business was it? Theirs or his? His. Right.
And he meant to see it stayed that way.
“Yes,” he told them, “he saw.”
“What did he do?” Ted asked. Mort looked at him
with mild annoyance. Ted glanced away, looking as if he wished he
had his pipe to play with. The pipe was in the car. The J. Press
shirt had no pocket to carry it in.
“He went away,” Mort said. His irritation with Ted,
who had absolutely no business sticking his oar in, made it
easier to lie. The fact that he was lying to Ted seemed to make it
more all right, too. “He muttered some bullshit about what an
incredible coincidence it all was, then jumped into his car like
his hair was on fire and his ass was catching, and took off.”
“Happen to notice the make of the car and the
license plate, Mr. Rainey?” Bradley asked. He had taken out a pad
and a ballpoint pen.
“It was a Ford,” Mort said. “I’m sorry, but I can’t
help you with the plate. It wasn’t a Maine plate, but other than
that . . .” He shrugged and tried to look apologetic. Inside, he
felt increasingly uncomfortable with the way this was going. It had
seemed okay when he was just being cute, skirting around any
outright lies—it had seemed a way of sparing Amy the pain of
knowing that the man had broken Bump’s neck and then skewered him
with a screwdriver. But now he had put himself in a position where
he had told different stories to different people. If they got
together and did a comparison, he wouldn’t look so hot. Explaining
his reasons for the lies might be sticky. He supposed that such
comparisons were pretty unlikely, as long as Amy didn’t talk to
either Greg Carstairs or Herb Creekmore, but suppose there was a
hassle with Shooter when he and Greg caught up to him and shoved
the June, 1980, issue of EQMM in Shooter’s face?
Never mind, he told himself, we’ll burn
that bridge when we come to it, big guy. At this
thought, he experienced a brief return of the high spirits he’d
felt while talking to Herb at the toll plaza, and almost cackled
aloud. He held it in. They would wonder why he was laughing if he
did something like that, and he supposed they would be right to
wonder.
“I think Shooter must be bound for—”
(Mississippi)
“—for wherever he came from by now,” he finished,
with hardly a break.
“I imagine you’re right,” Lieutenant Bradley said,
“but I’m inclined to pursue this, Mr. Rainey. You might have
convinced the guy he was wrong, but that doesn’t mean he left your
place feeling mellow. It’s possible that he drove up here in a rage
and torched your house just because he was pissed off—pardon me,
Mrs. Rainey.”
Amy offered a crooked little smile and waved the
apology away.
“Don’t you think that’s possible?”
No, Mort thought, I don’t. If he’d
decided to torch the house, I think he would have killed
Bump before he left for Derry, just in case I woke up before he got
back. In that case, the blood would have been dry and
Bump would have been stiff when I found him. That isn’t the
way it happened ... but I can’t say so. Not even if I
wanted to. They’d wonder why I held back the stuff about
Bump as long as I did, for one thing. They’d probably
think I’ve got a few loose screws.
“I guess so,” he said, “but I met the guy. He
didn’t strike me as the house-burning type.”
“You mean he wasn’t a Snopes,” Amy said
suddenly.
Mort looked at her, startled—then smiled. “That’s
right,” he said. “A Southerner, but not a Snopes.”
“Meaning what?” Bradley asked, a little
warily.
“An old joke, Lieutenant,” Amy said. “The Snopeses
were characters in some novels by William Faulkner. They got their
start in business burning barns.”
“Oh,” Bradley said blankly.
Wickersham said: “There is no house-burning type,
Mr. Rainey. They come in all shapes and sizes. Believe me.”
“Well—”
“Give me a little more on the car, if you can,”
Bradley said. He poised a pencil over his notebook. “I want to make
the State Police aware of this guy.”
Mort suddenly decided he was going to lie some
more. Quite a lot more, actually.
“Well, it was a sedan. I can tell you that much for
sure.”
“Uh-huh. Ford sedan. Year?”
“Somewhere in the seventies, I guess,” Mort said.
He was fairly sure Shooter’s station wagon had actually been built
around the time a fellow named Oswald had elected Lyndon Johnson
President of the United States. He paused, then added: “The plate
was a light color. It could have been Florida. I won’t swear to it,
but it could have been.”
“Uh-huh. And the man himself?”
“Average height. Blonde hair. Eyeglasses. The round
wire-framed ones John Lennon used to wear. That’s really all I
re—”
“Didn’t you say he was wearing a hat?” Amy asked
suddenly.
Mort felt his teeth come together with a click.
“Yes,” he said pleasantly. “That’s right, I forgot. Dark gray or
black. Except it was more of a cap. With a bill, you know.”
“Okay.” Bradley snapped his book closed. “It’s a
start.”
“Couldn’t this have been a simple case of
vandalism, arson for kicks?” Mort asked. “In novels, everything has
a connection, but my experience has been that in real life, things
sometimes just happen.”
“It could have been,” Wickersham agreed, “but it
doesn’t hurt to check out the obvious connections.” He dropped Mort
a solemn little wink and said, “Sometimes life imitates art, you
know.”
“Do you need anything else?” Ted asked them, and
put an arm around Amy’s shoulders.
Wickersham and Bradley exchanged a glance and then
Bradley shook his head. “I don’t think so, at least not at the
present.”
“I only ask because Amy and Mort will have to put
in some time with the insurance agent,” Ted said. “Probably an
investigator from the parent company, as well.”
Mort found the man’s Southern accent more and more
irritating. He suspected that Ted came from a part of the South
several states north of Faulkner country, but it was still a
coincidence he could have done without.
The officials shook hands with Amy and Mort,
expressed their sympathy, told them to get in touch if anything
else occurred to either of them, and then took themselves off,
leaving the three of them to take another turn around the
house.
“I’m sorry about all of this, Amy,” Mort said
suddenly. She was walking between them, and looked over at him,
apparently startled by something she had heard in his voice. Simple
sincerity, maybe. “All of it. Really sorry.”
“So am I,” she said softly, and touched his
hand.
“Well, Teddy makes three,” Ted said with solemn
heartiness. She turned back to him, and in that moment Mort could
have cheerfully strangled the man until his eyes popped out
jittering at the ends of their optic strings.
They were walking up the west side of the house
toward the street now. Over here had been the deep corner where his
study had met the house, and not far away was Amy’s flower-garden.
All the flowers were dead now, and Mort reflected that was probably
just as well. The fire had been hot enough to crisp what grass had
remained green in a twelve-foot border all around the ruin. If the
flowers had been in bloom, it would have crisped them, as well, and
that would have been just too sad. It would have been—
Mort stopped suddenly. He was remembering the
stories. The story. You could call it “Sowing Season” or you could
call it “Secret Window, Secret Garden,” but they were the same
thing once you took the geegaws off and looked underneath. He
looked up. There was nothing to see but blue sky, at least now, but
before last night’s fire, there would have been a window right
where he was looking. It was the window in the little room next to
the laundry. The little room that was Amy’s office. It was where
she went to write checks, to write in her daily journal, to make
the telephone calls that needed to be made ... the room where, he
suspected, Amy had several years ago started a novel. And, when it
died, it was the room where she had buried it decently and quietly
in a desk drawer. The desk had been by the window. Amy had liked to
go there in the mornings. She could start the wash in the next room
and then do paperwork while she waited for the buzzer which
proclaimed it was time to strip the washer and feed the drier. The
room was well away from the main house and she liked the quiet, she
said. The quiet and the clear, sane morning light. She liked to
look out the window every now and then, at her flowers growing in
the deep corner formed by the house and the study ell. And he heard
her saying, It’s the best room in the house, at least for
me, because hardly anybody ever goes there but me. It’s
got a secret window, and it looks down on a secret
garden.
“Mort?” Amy was saying now, and for a moment Mort
took no notice, confusing her real voice with her voice in his
mind, which was the voice of memory. But was it a true memory or a
false one? That was the real question, wasn’t it? It seemed
like a true memory, but he had been under a great deal of stress
even before Shooter, and Bump, and the fire. Wasn’t it at least
possible that he was having a ... well, a recollective
hallucination? That he was trying to make his own past with Amy in
some way conform to that goddam story where a man had gone crazy
and killed his wife?
Jesus, I hope not. I hope not,
because if I am, that’s too close to
nervous-breakdown territory for comfort.
“Mort, are you okay?” Amy asked. She plucked
fretfully at his sleeve, at least temporarily breaking his
trance.
“Yes,” he said, and then, abruptly: “No. To tell
you the truth, I’m feeling a little sick.”
“Breakfast, maybe,” Ted said.
Amy gave him a look that made Mort feel a bit
better. It was not a very friendly look. “It isn’t
breakfast,” she said a little indignantly. She swept her arm at the
blackened ruins. “It’s this. Let’s get out of here.”
“The insurance people are due at noon,” Ted
said.
“Well, that’s more than an hour from now. Let’s go
to your place, Ted. I don’t feel so hot myself. I’d like to sit
down.”
“All right.” Ted spoke in a slightly nettled
no-need-to-shout tone which also did Mort’s heart good. And
although he would have said at breakfast that morning that Ted
Milner’s place was the last one on earth he wanted to go, he
accompanied them without protest.
19
They were all quiet on the ride across town to the
split-level on the east side where Ted hung his hat. Mort didn’t
know what Amy and Ted were thinking about, although the house for
Amy and whether or not they’d be on time to meet the wallahs from
the insurance company for Ted would probably be a couple of good
guesses, but he knew what he was thinking about. He was trying to
decide if he was going crazy or not. Is it real, or is it
Memorex?
He decided finally that Amy really had said
that about her office next to the laundry room—it was not a false
memory. Had she said it before 1982, when “John Shooter” claimed to
have written a story called “Secret Window, Secret Garden”? He
didn’t know. No matter how earnestly he conned his confused and
aching brain, what kept coming back was a single curt message:
answer inconclusive. But if she had said it, no matter when,
couldn’t the title of Shooter’s story still be simple coincidence?
Maybe, but the coincidences were piling up, weren’t they? He had
decided the fire was, must be, a coincidence. But the memory which
Amy’s garden with its crop of dead flowers had prodded forth ...
well, it was getting harder and harder to believe all of this
wasn’t tied together in some strange, possibly even supernatural
fashion.
And in his own way, hadn’t “Shooter” himself been
just as confused? How did you get it? he had asked; his voice had
been fierce with rage and puzzlement. That’s what I really want
to know. How in hell did a big-money scribbling
asshole like you get down to a little shitsplat town in Mississippi
and
steal my goddam story? At the time, Mort had
thought either that it was another sign of the man’s madness or
that the guy was one hell of a good actor. Now, in Ted’s car, it
occurred to him for the first time that it was exactly the way he
himself would have reacted, had the circumstances been
reversed.
As, in a way, they had been. The one place where
the two stories differed completely was in the matter of the title.
They both fit, but now Mort found that he had a question to ask
Shooter which was very similar to the one Shooter had already asked
him: How did you happen by that title, Mr.
Shooter? That’s what I really want to know. How
did you happen to know that, twelve hundred miles away from
your shitsplat town in Mississippi, the wife of a writer you
claim you never heard of before this year had her own secret
window, looking down on her own secret garden?
Well, there was only one way to find out, of
course. When Greg ran Shooter down, Mort would have to ask
him.
20
Mort passed on the cup of coffee Ted offered and
asked if he had a Coke or a Pepsi. Ted did, and after Mort had
drunk it, his stomach settled. He had expected that just being
here, here where Ted and Amy played house now that they no longer
had to bother with the cheap little town-line motels, would make
him angry and restless. It didn’t. It was just a house, one where
every room seemed to proclaim that the owner was a Swinging Young
Bachelor Who Was Making It. Mort found that he could deal with that
quite easily, although it made him feel a little nervous for Amy
all over again. He thought of her little office with its clear,
sane light and the soporific drone of the drier coming through the
wall, her little office with its secret window, the only one in the
whole place which looked down into the tight little angle of space
formed by the house and the ell, and thought how much she had
belonged there and how little she seemed to belong here. But that
was something she would have to deal with herself, and he thought,
after a few minutes in this other house which was not a dreaded den
of iniquity at all but only a house, that he could live with that
... that he could even be content with it.
She asked him if he would be staying in Derry
overnight. “Uh-uh. I’ll be going back as soon as we finish with the
insurance adjustors. If something else pops, they can get in touch
with me ... or you can.”
He smiled at her. She smiled back and touched his
hand briefly. Ted didn’t like it. He frowned out the window and
fingered his pipe.
21
They were on time for their meeting with the
representatives of the insurance company, which undoubtedly
relieved Ted Milner’s mind. Mort was not particularly crazy about
having Ted in attendance; it had never been Ted’s house, after all,
not even after the divorce. Still, it seemed to ease Amy’s mind to
have him there, and so Mort left it alone.
Don Strick, the Consolidated Assurance Company
agent with whom they had done business, conducted the meeting at
his office, where they went after another brief tour of “the site.”
At the office they met a man named Fred Evans, a Consolidated field
investigator specializing in arson. The reason Evans hadn’t been
with Wickersham and Bradley that morning or at “the site” when
Strick met them there at noon became obvious very quickly: he had
spent most of the previous night poking through the ruins with a
ten-cell flashlight and a Polaroid camera. He had gone back to his
motel room, he said, to catch a few winks before meeting the
Raineys.
Mort liked Evans very much. He seemed to really
care about the loss he and Amy had suffered, while everyone else,
including Mr. Teddy Makes Three, seemed to have only mouthed the
traditional words of sympathy before going on to whatever they
considered the business at hand (and in Ted Milner’s case, Mort
thought, the business at hand was getting him out of Derry and back
to Tashmore Lake as soon as possible). Fred Evans did not refer to
92 Kansas Street as “the site.” He referred to it as “the
house.”
His questions, while essentially the same as those
asked by Wickersham and Bradley, were gentler, more detailed, and
more probing. Although he’d had four hours’ sleep at most, his eyes
were bright, his speech quick and clear. After speaking with him
for twenty minutes, Mort decided that he would deal with a company
other than Consolidated Assurance if he ever decided to burn down a
house for the insurance money. Or wait until this man
retired.
When he had finished his questions, Evans smiled at
them. “You’ve been very helpful, and I want to thank you again,
both for your thoughtful answers and for your kind treatment of me.
In a lot of cases, people’s feathers get ruffled the second they
hear the words ‘insurance investigator.’ They’re already upset,
understandably so, and quite often they take the presence of an
investigator on the scene as an accusation that they torched their
own property.”
“Given the circumstances, I don’t think we could
have asked for better treatment,” Amy said, and Ted Milner nodded
so violently that his head might have been on a string—one
controlled by a puppeteer with a bad case of nerves.
“This next part is hard,” Evans said. He nodded to
Strick, who opened a desk drawer and produced a clipboard with a
computer printout on it. “When an investigator ascertains that a
fire was as serious as this one clearly was, we have to show the
clients a list of claimed insurable property. You look it over,
then sign an affidavit swearing that the items listed still belong
to you, and that they were still in the house when the fire
occurred. You should put a check mark beside any item or items
you’ve sold since your last insurance overhaul with Mr. Strick
here, and any insured property which was not in the house at the
time of the fire.” Evans put a fist to his lips and cleared his
throat before going on. “I’m told that there has been a separation
of residence recently, so that last bit may be particularly
important.”
“We’re divorced,” Mort said bluntly. “I’m living in
our place on Tashmore Lake. We only used it during the summers, but
it’s got a furnace and is livable during the cold months.
Unfortunately, I hadn’t got around to moving the bulk of my things
out of the house up here. I’d been putting it off.”
Don Strick nodded sympathetically. Ted crossed his
legs, fiddled with his pipe, and generally gave the impression of a
man who is trying not to look as deeply bored as he is.
“Do the best you can with the list,” Evans said. He
took the clipboard from Strick and handed it across the desk to
Amy. “This can be a bit unpleasant—it’s a little like a treasure
hunt in reverse.”
Ted had put his pipe down and was craning at the
list, his boredom gone, at least for the time being; his eyes were
as avid as those of any bystander gleeping the aftermath of a bad
accident. Amy saw him looking and obligingly tipped the form his
way. Mort, who was sitting on the other side of her, tipped it back
the other way.
“Do you mind?” he asked Ted. He was angry, really
angry, and they all heard it in his voice.
“Mort—” Amy said.
“I’m not going to make a big deal of this,” Mort
said to her, “but this was our stuff, Amy.
Ours.”
“I hardly think—” Ted began indignantly.
“No, he’s perfectly right, Mr. Milner,” Fred Evans
said with a mildness Mort felt might have been deceptive. “The law
says you have no right to be looking at the listed items at all. We
wink at something like that if nobody minds ... but I think Mr.
Rainey does.”
“You’re damned tooting Mr. Rainey does,”
Mort said. His hands were tightly clenched in his lap; he could
feel his fingernails biting smile-shapes into the soft meat of his
palms.
Amy switched her look of unhappy appeal from Mort
to Ted. Mort expected Ted to huff and puff and try to blow
somebody’s house down, but Ted did not. Mort supposed it was a
measure of his own hostile feeling toward the man that he’d made
such an assumption; he didn’t know Ted very well (although he did
know he looked a bit like Alfalfa when you woke him up suddenly in
a no-tell motel), but he knew Amy. If Ted had been a blowhard, she
would have left him already.
Smiling a little, speaking to her and ignoring Mort
and the others completely, Ted said: “Would it help matters if I
took a walk around the block?”
Mort tried to restrain himself and couldn’t quite
do it. “Why not make it two?” he asked Ted with bogus
amiability.
Amy shot him a narrow, dark stare, then looked back
at Ted. “Would you? This might be a little easier ...”
“Sure,” he said. He kissed her high on her
cheekbone, and Mort had another dolorous revelation: the man cared
for her. He might not always care for her, but right now he did.
Mort realized he had come halfway to thinking Amy was just a toy
that had captivated Ted for a little while, a toy of which he would
tire soon enough. But that didn’t jibe with what he knew of Amy,
either. She had better instincts about people than that ... and
more respect for herself.
Ted got up and left. Amy looked at Mort
reproachfully. “Are you satisfied?”
“I suppose,” he said. “Look, Amy—I probably didn’t
handle that as well as I could have, but my motives are honorable
enough. We shared a lot over the years. I guess this is the last
thing, and I think it belongs between the two of us. Okay?”
Strick looked uncomfortable. Fred Evans did not; he
looked from Mort to Amy and then back to Mort again with the bright
interest of a man watching a really good tennis match.
“Okay,” Amy said in a low voice. He touched her
hand lightly, and she gave him a smile. It was strained, but better
than no smile at all, he reckoned.
He pulled his chair closer to hers and they bent
over the list, heads close together, like kids studying for a test.
It didn’t take Mort long to understand why Evans had warned them.
He thought he had grasped the size of the loss. He had been
wrong.
Looking at the columns of cold computer type, Mort
thought he could not have been more dismayed if someone had taken
everything in the house at 92 Kansas Street and strewn it along the
block for the whole world to stare at. He couldn’t believe all the
things he had forgotten, all the things that were gone.
Seven major appliances. Four TVs, one with a
videotape editing hook-up. The Spode china, and the authentic Early
American furniture which Amy had bought a piece at a time. The
value of the antique armoire which had stood in their bedroom was
listed at $14,000. They had not been serious art-collectors, but
they had been appreciators, and they had lost twelve pieces of
original art. Their value was listed at $22,000, but Mort didn’t
care about the dollar value; he was thinking about the N. C. Wyeth
line-drawing of two boys putting to sea in a small boat. It was
raining in the picture; the boys were wearing slickers and galoshes
and big grins. Mort had loved that picture, and now it was gone.
The Waterford glassware. The sports equipment stored in the
garage—skis, ten-speed bikes, and the Old Town canoe. Amy’s three
furs were listed. He saw her make tiny check marks beside the
beaver and the mink—still in storage, apparently—but she passed the
short fox jacket without checking it off. It had been hanging in
the closet, warm and stylish outerwear for fall, when the fire
happened. He remembered giving her that coat for her birthday six
or seven years ago. Gone now. His Celestron telescope. Gone. The
big puzzle quilt Amy’s mother had given them when they were
married. Amy’s mother was dead and the quilt was now so much ash in
the wind.
The worst, at least for Mort, was halfway down the
second column, and again it wasn’t the dollar value that hurt. 124
BOTS. WINE, the item read. VALUE $4,900. Wine was something they
had both liked. They weren’t rabid about it, but they had built the
little wine room in the cellar together, stocked it together, and
had drunk the occasional bottle together.
“Even the wine,” he said to Evans. “Even
that.”
Evans gave him an odd look that Mort couldn’t
interpret, then nodded. “The wine room itself didn’t burn, because
you had very little fuel oil in the cellar tank and there was no
explosion. But it got very hot inside, and most of the bottles
burst. The few that didn’t ... Well, I don’t know much about wine,
but I doubt if it would be good to drink. Perhaps I’m wrong.”
“You’re not,” Amy said. A single tear rolled down
her cheek and she wiped it absently away.
Evans offered her his handkerchief. She shook her
head and bent over the list with Mort again.
Ten minutes later it was finished. They signed on
the correct lines and Strick witnessed their signatures. Ted Milner
showed up only instants later, as if he had been watching the whole
thing on some private viewscreen.
“Is there anything else?” Mort asked Evans.
“Not now. There may be. Is your number down in
Tashmore unlisted, Mr. Rainey?”
“Yes.” He wrote it down for Evans. “Please get in
touch if I can help.”
“I will.” He rose, hand outstretched. “This is
always a nasty business. I’m sorry you two had to go through
it.”
They shook hands all around and left Strick and
Evans to write reports. It was well past one, and Ted asked Mort if
he’d like to have some lunch with him and Amy. Mort shook his
head.
“I want to get back. Do some work and see if I
can’t forget all this for awhile.” And he felt as if maybe he
really could write. That was not surprising. In tough times—up
until the divorce, anyway, which seemed to be an exception to the
general rule—he had always found it easy to write. Necessary, even.
It was good to have those make-believe worlds to fall back on when
the real one had hurt you.
He half-expected Amy to ask him to change his mind,
but she didn’t. “Drive safe,” she said, and planted a chaste kiss
on the corner of his mouth. “Thanks for coming, and for being so
... so reasonable about everything.”
“Can I do anything for you, Amy?”
She shook her head, smiling a little, and took
Ted’s hand. If he had been looking for a message, this one was much
too clear to miss.
They walked slowly toward Mort’s Buick.
“You keepin well enough down there?” Ted asked.
“Anything you need?”
For the third time he was struck by the man’s
Southern accent—just one more coincidence.
“Can’t think of anything,” he said, opening the
Buick’s door and fishing the car keys out of his pocket. “Where do
you come from originally, Ted? You or Amy must have told me
sometime, but I’ll be damned if I can remember. Was it
Mississippi?”
Ted laughed heartily. “A long way from there, Mort.
I grew up in Tennessee. A little town called Shooter’s Knob,
Tennessee.”
22
Mort drove back to Tashmore Lake with his hands
clamped to the steering wheel, his spine as straight as a ruler,
and his eyes fixed firmly on the road. He played the radio loud and
concentrated ferociously on the music each time he sensed telltale
signs of mental activity behind the center of his forehead. Before
he had made forty miles, he felt a pressing sensation in his
bladder. He welcomed this development and did not even consider
stopping at a wayside comfort-station. The need to take a whizz was
another excellent distraction.
He arrived at the house around four-thirty and
parked the Buick in its accustomed place around the side of the
house. Eric Clapton was throttled in the middle of a
full-tilt-boogie guitar solo when Mort shut off the motor, and
quiet crashed down like a load of stones encased in foam rubber.
There wasn’t a single boat on the lake, not a single bug in the
grass.
Pissing and thinking have a lot in common,
he thought, climbing out of the car and unzipping his fly. You
can put them both off... but not forever.
Mort Rainey stood there urinating and thought about
secret windows and secret gardens; he thought about those who might
own the latter and those who might look through the former. He
thought about the fact that the magazine he needed to prove a
certain fellow was either a lunatic or a con man had just happened
to burn up on the very evening he had tried to get his hands on it.
He thought about the fact that his ex-wife’s lover, a man he
cordially detested, had come from a town called Shooter’s Knob and
that Shooter happened to be the pseudonym of the aforementioned
loony-or-con-man who had come into Mort Rainey’s life at the exact
time when the aforementioned Mort Rainey was beginning to grasp his
divorce not just as an academic concept but as a simple fact of his
life forever after. He even thought about the fact that “John
Shooter” claimed to have discovered Mort Rainey’s act of plagiarism
at about the same time Mort Rainey had separated from his
wife.
Question: Were all of these things
coincidences?
Answer: It was technically possible.
Question: Did he believe all these things
were coincidences?
Answer: No.
Question: Did he believe he was going mad,
then?
“The answer is no,” Mort said. “He does not. At
least not yet.” He zipped up his fly and went back around the
corner to the door.
23
He found his housekey, started to put it in the
lock, and then pulled it out again. His hand went to the doorknob
instead, and as his fingers closed over it, he felt a clear
certainty that it would rotate easily. Shooter had been here ...
had been, or was still. And he wouldn’t have needed to force entry,
either. Nope. Not this sucker. Mort kept a spare key to the
Tashmore Lake house in an old soap-dish on a high shelf in the
toolshed, which was where Shooter had gone to get a screwdriver in
a hurry when the time had come to nail poor old Bump to the garbage
cabinet. He was in the house now, looking around ... or maybe
hiding. He was—
The knob refused to move; Mort’s fingers simply
slid around it. The door was still locked.
“Okay,” Mort said. “Okay, no big deal.” He even
laughed a little as he socked the key home and turned it. Just
because the door was locked didn’t mean Shooter wasn’t in the
house. In fact, it made it more likely that he was in the house,
when you really stopped to think about it. He could have used the
spare key, put it back, then locked the door from the inside to
lull his enemy’s suspicions. All you had to do to lock it, after
all, was to press the button set into the knob. He’s trying to
psych me out, Mort thought as he stepped in.
The house was full of dusty late-afternoon sunlight
and silence. But it did not feel like unoccupied
silence.
“You’re trying to psych me out, aren’t you?” he
called. He expected to sound crazy to himself: a lonely, paranoid
man addressing the intruder who only exists, after all, in his own
imagination. But he didn’t sound crazy to himself. He
sounded, instead, like a man who has tumbled to at least
half the trick. Only getting half a scam wasn’t so great,
maybe, but half was better than nothing.
He walked into the living room with its cathedral
ceiling, its window-wall facing the lake, and, of course, The
World-Famous Mort Rainey Sofa, also known as The Couch of the
Comatose Writer. An economical little smile tugged at his cheeks.
His balls felt high and tight against the fork of his groin.
“Half a scam’s better than none, right, Mr.
Shooter?” he called.
The words died into dusty silence. He could smell
old tobacco smoke in that dust. His eye happened on the battered
package of cigarettes he had excavated from the drawer of his desk.
It occurred to him that the house had a smell-almost a stink—that
was horribly negative: it was an un-woman smell. Then he thought:
No. That’s a mistake. That’s not it. What you smell is
Shooter. You smell the man, and you smell his
cigarettes. Not yours, his.
He turned slowly around, his head cocked back. A
second-floor bedroom looked down on the living room halfway up the
cream-colored wall; the opening was lined with dark-brown wooden
slats. The slats were supposed to keep the unwary from falling out
and splattering themselves all over the living-room floor, but they
were also supposed to be decorative. Right then they didn’t look
particularly decorative to Mort; they looked like the bars of a
jail cell. All he could see of what he and Amy had called the guest
bedroom was the ceiling and one of the bed’s four posts.
“You up there, Mr. Shooter?” he yelled.
There was no answer.
“I know you’re trying to psych me out!”
Now he was beginning to feel just the tinest bit ridiculous.
“It won’t work, though!”
About six years before, they had plugged the big
fieldstone fireplace in the living room with a Blackstone Jersey
stove. A rack of fire-tools stood beside it. Mort grasped the
handle of the ash-shovel, considered it for a moment, then let go
of it and took the poker instead. He faced the barred guest-room
overlook and held the poker up like a knight saluting his queen.
Then he walked slowly to the stairs and began to climb them. He
could feel tension worming its way into his muscles now, but he
understood it wasn’t Shooter he was afraid of; what he was
afraid of was finding nothing.
“I know you’re here, and I know you’re trying to
psyCh me out! The only thing I don’t know is what it’s all about,
Alfie, and when I find you, you better tell me!”
He paused on the second-floor landing, his heart
pumping hard in his chest now. The guest-room door was to his left.
The door to the guest bathroom was to the right. And he suddenly
understood that Shooter was here, all right, but not in the
bedroom. No; that was just a ploy. That was just what Shooter
wanted him to believe.
Shooter was in the bathroom.
And, as he stood there on the landing with the
poker clutched tightly in his right hand and sweat running out of
his hair and down his cheeks, Mort heard him. A faint
shuffle-shuffle. He was in there, all right. Standing in the tub,
by the sound. He had moved the tiniest bit. Peekaboo, Johnny-boy, I
hear you. Are you armed, fuckface?
Mort thought he probably was, but he didn’t think
it would turn out to be a gun. Mort had an idea that the man’s
pen-name was about as close to firearms as he had ever come.
Shooter had looked like the sort of guy who would feel more at home
with instruments of a blunter nature. What he had done to Bump
seemed to bear this out.
I bet it’s a hammer, Mort thought, and wiped
sweat off the back of his neck with his free hand. He could feel
his eyes pulsing in and out of their sockets in time with his
heartbeat. I’m betting it’s a hammer from the
toolshed.
He had no more thought of this before he saw
Shooter, saw him clearly, standing in the bathtub in his black
round-crowned hat and his yellow shitkicker work-shoes, his lips
split over his mail-order dentures in a grin which was really a
grimace, sweat trickling down his own face, running down the deep
lines grooved there like water running down a network of galvanized
tin gutters, with the hammer from the toolshed raised to shoulder
height like a judge’s gavel. Just standing there in the tub,
waiting to bring the hammer down. Next case, bailiff.
I know you, buddy. I got your
number. I got it the first time I saw you. And guess
what? You picked the wrong writer to fuck with. I
think I’ve been wanting to kill somebody since the middle of
May, and you’ll do as well as anybody.
He turned his head toward the bedroom door. At the
same time, he reached out with his left hand (after drying it on
the front of his shirt so his grip wouldn’t slip at the crucial
moment) and curled it around the bathroom doorknob.
“I know you’re in there!” he shouted at the
closed bedroom door. “If you’re under the bed, you
better get out! I’m counting to five! If you’re not
out by the time I get there, I’m coming in ... and
I’ll come in swinging! You hear me?”
There was no answer ... but then, he hadn’t really
expected one. Or wanted one. He tightened his grip on the
bathroom doorknob, but would shout the numbers toward the
guest-room door. He didn’t know if Shooter would hear or sense the
difference if he turned his head in the direction of the bathroom,
but he thought Shooter might. The man was obviously clever.
Hellishly clever.
In the instant before he started counting, he heard
another faint movement in the bathroom. He would have missed it,
even standing this close, if he hadn’t been listening with every
bit of concentration he could muster.
“One!”
Christ, he was sweating! Like a pig!
“Two!”
The knob of the bathroom door was like a cold rock
in his clenched fist.
“Thr-”
He turned the knob of the bathroom door and slammed
in, bouncing the door off the wall hard enough to chop through the
wallpaper and pop the door’s lower hinge, and there he was,
there he was, coming at him with a raised weapon, his teeth
bared in a killer’s grin, and his eyes were insane, utterly insane,
and Mort brought the poker down in a whistling overhand blow and he
had just time enough to realize that Shooter was also swinging a
poker, and to realize that Shooter was not wearing his
round-crowned black hat, and to realize it wasn’t Shooter at all,
to realize it was him, the madman was him, and then the poker
shattered the mirror over the washbasin and silver-backed glass
sprayed every whichway, twinkling in the gloom, and the medicine
cabinet fell into the sink. The bent door swung open like a gaping
mouth, spilling bottles of cough syrup and iodine and
Listerine.
“I killed a goddam fucking mirror!” he
shrieked, and was about to sling the poker away when something
did move in the tub, behind the corrugated shower door.
There was a frightened little squeal. Grinning, Mort slashed
sideways with the poker, tearing a jagged gash through the plastic
door and knocking it off its tracks. He raised the poker over his
shoulder, his eyes glassy and staring, his lips drawn into the
grimace he had imagined on Shooter’s face.
Then he lowered the poker slowly. He found he had
to use the fingers of his left hand to pry open the fingers of his
right so that the poker could fall to the floor.
“Wee sleekit cowerin’ beastie,” he said to the
fieldmouse scurrying blindly about in the tub. “What a panic’s in
thy breastie.” His voice sounded hoarse and flat and strange. It
didn’t sound like his own voice at all. It was like listening to
himself on tape for the first time.
He turned and walked slowly out of the bathroom
past the leaning door with its popped hinge, his shoes gritting on
broken mirror glass.
All at once he wanted to go downstairs and lie on
the couch and take a nap. All at once he wanted that more than
anything else in the world.
24
It was the telephone that woke him up. Twilight
had almost become night, and he made his way slowly past the
glass-topped coffee table that liked to bite with a weird feeling
that time had somehow doubled back on itself. His right arm ached
like hell. His back wasn’t in much better shape. Exactly how hard
had he swung that poker, anyway? How much panic had been driving
him? He didn’t like to think.
He picked up the telephone, not bothering to guess
who it might be. Life has been so dreadfully busy lately, darling,
that it might even be the President. “Hello?”
“How you doin, Mr. Rainey?” the voice asked, and
Mort recoiled, snatching the telephone away from his ear for a
moment as if it were a snake which had tried to bite. He returned
it slowly.
“I’m doing fine, Mr. Shooter,” he said in a dry,
spitless voice. “How are you doing?”
“I’m-a country fair,” Shooter allowed, speaking in
that thick crackerbarrel Southern accent that was somehow as bald
and staring as an unpainted barn standing all by itself in the
middle of a field. “But I don’t think you’re really all that well.
Stealing from another man, that don’t seem to have ever bothered
you none. Being caught up on, though ... that seems to have given
you the pure miseries.”
“What are you talking about?”
Shooter sounded faintly amused. “Well, I heard on
the radio news that someone burned down your house. Your other
house. And then, when you come back down here, it sounded like you
pitched a fit or something once you got into the house. Shouting
... whacking on things ... or maybe it’s just that successful
writers like you throw tantrums when things don’t go the way they
expect. Is that it, maybe?”
My God, he was here. He
was.
Mort found himself looking out the window as if
Shooter still might be out there ... hiding in the bushes,
perhaps, while he spoke to Mort on some sort of cordless telephone.
Ridiculous, of course.
“The magazine with my story in it is on the way,”
he said. “When it gets here, are you going to leave me
alone?”
Shooter still sounded lazily amused. “There isn’t
any magazine with that story in it, Mr. Rainey. You and me, we
know that. Not from 1980, there isn’t. How could there be,
when my story wasn’t there for you to steal until 1982?”
“Goddammit, I did not steal your
st-”
“When I heard about your house,” Shooter said, “I
went out and bought an Evening Express. They had a picture
of what was left. Wasn’t very much. Had a picture of your wife,
too.” There was a long, thoughtful pause. Then Shooter said, “She’s
purty.” He used the country pronunciation purposely, sarcastically.
“How’d an ugly son of a buck like you luck into such a purty wife,
Mr. Rainey?”
“We’re divorced,” he said. “I told you that. Maybe
she discovered how ugly I was. Why don’t we leave Amy out of this?
It’s between you and me.”
For the second time in two days, he realized he had
answered the phone while he was only half awake and nearly
defenseless. As a result, Shooter was in almost total control of
the conversation. He was leading Mort by the nose, calling the
shots.
Hang up, then.
But he couldn’t. At least, not yet.
“Between you and me, is it?” Shooter asked. “Then I
don’t s’pose you even mentioned me to anyone else.”
“What do you want? Tell me! What in the hell do you
want?”
“You want the second reason I came, is that
it?”
“ Yes!”
“I want you to write me a story,” Shooter said
calmly. “I want you to write a story and put my name on it and then
give it to me. You owe me that. Right is right and fair is
fair.”
Mort stood in the hallway with the telephone
clutched in his aching fist and a vein pulsing in the middle of his
forehead. For a few moments his rage was so total that he found
himself buried alive inside it and all he was capable of thinking
was So THAT’S it! SO THAT’S it! SO THAT’S it!
over and over again.
“You there, Mr. Rainey?” Shooter asked in his calm,
drawling voice.
“The only thing I’ll write for you,” Mort said, his
own voice slow and syrupy-thick with rage, “is your death-warrant,
if you don’t leave me alone.”
“You talk big, pilgrim,” Shooter said in the
patient voice of a man explaining a simple problem to a stupid
child, “because you know I can’t put no hurtin on you. If you had
stolen my dog or my car, I could take your dog or car. I
could do that just as easy as I broke your cat’s neck. If you tried
to stop me, I could put a hurtin on you and take it anyway. But
this is different. The goods I want are inside your head. You got
the goods locked up like they were inside a safe. Only I can’t just
blow off the door or torch open the back. I have to find me the
combination. Don’t I?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” Mort
said, “but the day you get a story out of me will be the day the
Statue of Liberty wears a diaper. Pilgrim.”
Shooter said meditatively, “I’d leave her out of it
if I could,. but I’m startin to think you ain’t going to leave me
that option.”
All the spit in Mort’s mouth was suddenly gone,
leaving it dry and glassy and hot. “What ... what do you—”
“Do you want to wake up from one of your stupid
naps and find Amy nailed to your garbage bin?” Shooter
asked. “Or turn on the radio some morning and hear she came off
second best in a match with the chainsaw you keep in your garage up
there? Or did the garage burn, too?”
“Watch what you say,” Mort whispered. His wide eyes
began to prickle with tears of rage and fear.
“You still have two days to think about it. I’d
think about it real close, Mr. Rainey. I mean I’d really hunker
down over her, if I were you. And I don’t think I’d talk about this
to anyone else. That’d be like standing out in a thunderstorm and
tempting the lightning. Divorced or not, I have got an idea you
still have some feeling for that lady. It’s time for you to grow up
a little. You can’t get away with it. Don’t you realize that
yet? I know what you did, and I ain’t quitting until I
get what’s mine.”
“You’re crazy!” Mort screamed.
“Good night, Mr. Rainey,” Shooter said, and hung
up.
25
Mort stood there for a moment, the handset sinking
away from his ear. Then he scooped up the bottom half of the
Princess-style telephone. He was on the verge of throwing the whole
combination against the wall before he was able to get hold of
himself. He set it down again and took a dozen deep breaths—enough
to make his head feel swimmy and light. Then he dialled Herb
Creekmore’s home telephone.
Herb’s lady-friend, Delores, picked it up on the
second ring and called Herb to the telephone.
“Hi, Mort,” Herb said. “What’s the story on the
house?” His voice moved away from the telephone’s mouthpiece a
little. “Delores, will you move that skillet to the back
burner?”
Suppertime in New York, Mort thought, and
he wants me to know it. Well, what the hell. A
maniac has just threatened to turn my wife into veal cutlets,
but life has to go on, right?
“The house is gone,” Mort said. “The insurance will
cover the loss.” He paused. “The monetary loss,
anyway.”
“I’m sorry,” Herb said. “Can I do anything?”
“Well, not about the house,” Mort said, “but thanks
for offering. About the story, though—”
“What story is that, Mort?”
He felt his hand tightening down on the telephone’s
handset again and forced himself to loosen up. He doesn’t know what
the situation up here is. You have to remember that.
“The one my nutty friend is kicking sand about,” he
said, trying to maintain a tone which was light and mostly
unconcerned. “ ‘Sowing Season.’ Ellery Queen’s Mystery
Magazine ?”
“Oh, that!” Herb said.
Mort felt a jolt of fear. “You didn’t forget to
call, did you?”
“No—I called,” Herb reassured him. “I just forgot
all about it for a minute. You losing your house and all ...”
“Well? What did they say?”
“Don’t worry about a thing. They’re going to send a
Xerox over to me by messenger tomorrow, and I’ll send it right up
to you by Federal Express. You’ll have it by ten o’clock day after
tomorrow.”
For a moment it seemed that all of his problems
were solved, and he started to relax. Then he thought of the way
Shooter’s eyes had blazed. The way he had brought his face down
until his forehead and Mort’s were almost touching. He thought of
the dry smell of cinnamon on Shooter’s breath as he said, “You
lie.”
A Xerox? He was by no means sure that Shooter would
accept an original copy ... but a Xerox?
“No,” he said slowly. “That’s no good, Herb. No
Xerox, no phone-call from the editor. It has to be an original copy
of the magazine.”
“Well, that’s a little tougher. They have their
editorial offices in Manhattan, of course, but they store copies at
their subscription offices in Pennsylvania. They only keep about
five copies of each issue—it’s really all they can afford to
keep, when you consider that EQMM has been publishing since
1941. They really aren’t crazy about lending them out.”
“Come on, Herb! You can find those magazines at
yard sales and in half the small-town libraries in America!”
“But never a complete run.” Herb paused. “Not even
a phone-call will do, huh? Are you telling me this guy is so
paranoid he’d think he was talking to one of your thousands of
stooges?”
From the background: “Do you want me to pour the
wine, Herb?”
Herb spoke again with his mouth away from the
phone. “Hold on a couple of minutes, Dee.”
“I’m holding up your dinner,” Mort said. “I’m
sorry.”
“It goes with the territory. Listen, Mort, be
straight with me—is this guy as crazy as he sounds? Is he
dangerous?”
I don’t think I’d talk about this to anyone
else. That’d be like standing out in a thunderstorm and
tempting the lightning.
“I don’t think so,” he said, “but I want him off my
back, Herb.” He hesitated, searching for the right tone. “I’ve
spent the last half-year or so walking through a shitstorm. This
might be one thing I can do something about. I just want the doofus
off my back.”
“Okay,” Herb said with sudden decision. “I’ll call
Marianne Jaffery over at EQMM. I’ve known her for a long
time. If I ask her to ask the library curator—that’s what they call
the guy, honest, the library curator—to send us a copy of the June,
1980, ish, she’ll do it. Is it okay if I say you might have a story
for them at some point in the future?”
“Sure,” Mort said, and thought: Tell her it’ll
be under the name John Shooter, and almost laughed aloud.
“Good. She’ll have the curator send it on to you
Federal Express, direct from Pennsylvania. Just return it in good
condition, or you’ll have to find a replacement copy at one of
those yard sales you were talking about.”
“It there any chance all this could happen by the
day after tomorrow?” Mort asked. He felt miserably sure that Herb
would think he was crazy for even asking ... and he surely must
feel that Mort was making an awfully big mountain out of one small
molehill.
“I think there’s a very good chance,” Herb said. “I
won’t guarantee it, but I’ll almost guarantee it.”
“Thanks, Herb,” Mort said with honest gratitude.
“You’re swell.”
“Aw, shucks, ma’am,” Herb said, doing the bad John
Wayne imitation of which he was so absurdly proud.
“Now go get your dinner. And give Delores a kiss
for me.”
Herb was still in his John Wayne mode. “To heck
with that. I’ll give ’er a kiss fer me, pilgrim.”
You talk big, pilgrim.
Mort felt such a spurt of horror and fear that he
almost cried out aloud. Same word, same flat, staring drawl.
Shooter had tapped his telephone line, somehow, and no matter who
Mort tried to call or what number he dialled, it was John Shooter
who answered. Herb Creekmore had become just another one of his pen
names, and—
“Mort? Are you still there?”
He closed his eyes. Now that Herb had dispensed
with the bogus John Wayne imitation, it was okay. It was just Herb
again, and always had been. Herb using that word, that had just
been—
What?
Just another float in the Parade of
Coincidences? Okay. Sure. No problem:
I’ll just stand on the curb and watch it slide past. Why
not? I’ve already watched half a dozen bigger ones go
by.
“Right here, Herb,” he said, opening his eyes. “I
was just trying to figure out how do I love thee. You know,
counting the ways?”
“You’re thilly,” Herb said, obviously pleased. “And
you’re going to handle this carefully and prudently, right?”
“Right.”
“Then I think I’ll go eat supper with the light of
my life.”
“That sounds like a good idea. Goodbye, Herb—and
thanks.”
“You’re welcome. I’ll try to make it the day after
tomorrow. Dee says goodbye, too.”
“If she wants to pour the wine, I bet she does,”
Mort said, and they both hung up laughing.
As soon as he put the telephone back on its table,
the fantasy came back. Shooter. He do the police in different
voices. Of course, he was alone and it was dark, a condition which
bred fantasies. Nevertheless, he did not believe—at least in his
head—that John Shooter was either a supernatural being or a
supercriminal. If he had been the former, he would surely know that
Morton Rainey had not committed plagiarism—at least not on that
particular story—and if he had been the latter, he would have been
off knocking over a bank or something, not farting around western
Maine, trying to squeeze a short story out of a writer who made a
lot more money from his novels.
He started slowly back toward the living room,
intending to go through to the study and try the word processor,
when a thought (at least not that particular story)
struck him and stopped him.
What exactly did that mean, not that
particular story? Had he ever stolen someone else’s work?
For the first time since Shooter had turned up on
his porch with his sheaf of pages, Mort considered this question
seriously. A good many reviews of his books had suggested that he
was not really an original writer; that most of his works consisted
of twice-told tales. He remembered Amy reading a review of The
Organ-Grinder’s Boy which had first acknowledged the book’s
pace and readability, and then suggested a certain derivativeness
in its plotting. She’d said, “So what? Don’t these people know
there are only about five really good stories, and writers just
tell them over and over, with different characters?”
Mort himself believed there were at least six
stories: success; failure; love and loss; revenge; mistaken
identity; the search for a higher power, be it God or the devil. He
had told the first four over and over, obsessively, and now that he
thought of it, “Sowing Season” embodied at least three of those
ideas. But was that plagiarism? If it was, every novelist at work
in the world would be guilty of the crime.
Plagiarism, he decided, was outright theft. And he
had never done it in his life. Never.
“Never,” he said, and strode into his study with
his head up and his eyes wide, like a warrior approaching the field
of battle. And there he sat for the next one hour, and words he
wrote none.
26
His dry stint on the word processor convinced him
that it might be a good idea to drink dinner instead of eat it, and
he was on his second bourbon and water when the telephone rang
again. He approached it gingerly, suddenly wishing he had a phone
answering machine after all. They did have at least one sterling
quality: you could monitor incoming calls and separate friend from
foe.
He stood over it irresolutely, thinking how much he
disliked the sound modem telephones made. Once upon a time they had
rung—jingled merrily, even. Now they made a shrill ululating noise
that sounded like a migraine headache trying to happen.
Well, are you going to pick it up or just
stand here listening to it do that?
I don’t want to talk to him again. He scares me
and he infuriates me, and I don’t know which feeling I
dislike more.
Maybe it’s not him.
Maybe it is.
Listening to those two thoughts go around and
around was even worse than listening to the warbling
beep-yawp of the phone, so he picked it up and said hello
gruffly and it was, after all, no one more dangerous than his
caretaker, Greg Carstairs.
Greg asked the now-familiar questions about the
house and Mort answered them all again, reflecting that explaining
such an event was very similar to explaining a sudden death—if
anything could get you over the shock, it was the constant
repetition of the known facts.
“Listen, Mort, I finally caught up with Tom
Greenleaf late this afternoon,” Greg said, and Mort thought Greg
sounded a little funny—a little cautious. “He and Sonny Trotts were
painting the Methodist Parish Hall.”
“Uh-huh? Did you speak to him about my
buddy?”
“Yeah, I did,” Greg said. He sounded more cautious
than ever.
“Well?”
There was a short pause. Then Greg said, “Tom
thought you must have been mixed up on your days.”
“Mixed up on my ... what do you mean?”
“Well,” Greg said apologetically, “he says he did
swing down Lake Drive yesterday afternoon, and he did see you; he
said he waved to you and you waved back. But, Mort—”
“What?” But he was afraid he already knew
what.
“Tom says you were alone,” Greg finished.
27
For a long moment, Mort didn’t say anything. He
did not feel capable of saying anything. Greg didn’t say
anything, either, giving him time to think. Tom Greenleaf, of
course, was no spring chicken; he was Dave Newsome’s senior by at
least three and perhaps as many as six years. But neither was he
senile.
“Jesus,” Mort said at last. He spoke very softly.
The truth was, he felt a little winded.
“My idea,” Greg said diffidently, “was maybe
Tom was the one who got a little mixed up. You know he’s not
exactly—”
“A spring chicken,” Mort finished. “I know it. But
if there’s anybody in Tashmore with a better eye for strangers than
Tom, I don’t know who it is. He’s been remembering strangers all
his life, Greg. That’s one of the things caretakers do,
right?” He hesitated, then burst out: “He looked at us! He looked
right at both of us!”
Carefully, speaking as if he were only joshing,
Greg said: “Are you sure you didn’t just dream this fella,
Mort?”
“I hadn’t even considered it,” Mort said slowly,
“until now. If none of this happened, and I’m running around
telling people it did, I guess that would make me
crazy.”
“Oh, I don’t think that at all,” Greg said
hastily.
“I do,” Mort replied. He thought: But maybe
that’s what he really wants. To make people think you are
crazy. And, maybe in the end, to make what
people think the truth.
Oh yes. Right. And he partnered up with old Tom
Greenleaf to do the job. In fact, it was probably Tom
who went up to Derry and burned the house, while Shooter
stayed down here and wasted the cat—right?
Now, think about it. Really
THINK. Was he there? Was he REALLY?
So Mort thought about it. He thought about it
harder than he had ever thought about anything in his life; harder,
even, than he had thought about Amy and Ted and what he should do
about them after he had discovered them in bed together on that day
in May. Had he hallucinated John Shooter?
He thought again of the speed with which Shooter
had grabbed him and thrown him against the side of the car.
“Greg?”
“I’m here, Mort.”
“Tom didn’t see the car, either? Old station wagon,
Mississippi plates?”
“He says he didn’t see a car on Lake Drive at all
yesterday. Just you, standing up by the end of the path that goes
down to the lake. He thought you were admiring the view.”
Is it live, or is it Memorex?
He kept coming back to the hard grip of Shooter’s
hands on his upper arms, the speed with which the man had thrown
him against the car. “You lie,” Shooter had said. Mort had seen the
rage chained in his eyes, and had smelled dry cinnamon on his
breath.
His hands.
The pressure of his hands.
“Greg, hold the phone a sec.”
“Sure.”
Mort put the receiver down and tried to roll up his
shirt-sleeves. He was not very successful, because his hands were
shaking badly. He unbuttoned the shirt instead, pulled it off, then
held out his arms. At first he saw nothing. Then he rotated them
outward as far as they would go, and there they were, two yellowing
bruises on the inside of each arm, just above the elbow.
The marks made by John Shooter’s thumbs when he
grabbed him and threw him against the car.
He suddenly thought he might understand, and was
afraid. Not for himself, though.
For old Tom Greenleaf.
28
He picked up the telephone. “Greg?”
“I’m here.”
“Did Tom seem all right when you talked to
him?”
“He was exhausted,” Greg said promptly. “Foolish
old man has got no business crawling around on a scaffold and
painting all day in a cold wind. Not at his age. He looked ready to
fall into the nearest pile of leaves, if he couldn’t get to a bed
in a hurry. I see what you’re getting at, Mort, and I suppose that
if he was tired enough, it could have slipped his mind, but—”
“No, that’s not what I’m thinking about. Are you
sure exhaustion was all it was? Could he have been scared?”
Now there was a long, thinking silence at the other
end of the line. Impatient though he was, Mort did not break it. He
intended to allow Greg all the thinking time he needed.
“He didn’t seem himself,” Greg said at last. “He
seemed distracted ... off, somehow. I chalked it up to plain old
tiredness, but maybe that wasn’t it. Or not all of it.”
“Could he have been hiding something from
you?”
This time the pause was not so long. “I don’t know.
He might have been. That’s all I can say for sure, Mort. You’re
making me wish I’d talked to him longer and pressed him a little
harder.”
“I think it might be a good idea if we went over to
his place,” Mort said. “Now. It happened the way I told you, Greg.
If Tom said something different, it could be because my friend
scared the bejesus out of him. I’ll meet you there.”
“Okay.” Greg sounded worried all over again. “But,
you know, Tom isn’t the sort of man who’d scare easy.”
“I’m sure that was true once, but Tom’s
seventy-five if he’s a day. I think that the older you get, the
easier to scare you get.”
“Why don’t I meet you there?”
“That sounds like a good idea.” Mort hung up the
telephone, poured the rest of his bourbon down the sink, and headed
for Tom Greenleaf’s house in the Buick.
29
Greg was parked in the driveway when Mort arrived.
Tom’s Scout was by the back door. Greg was wearing a flannel jacket
with the collar turned up; the wind off the. lake was keen enough
to be uncomfortable.
“He’s okay,” he told Mort at once.
“How do you know?”
They both spoke in low tones.
“I saw his Scout, so I went to the back door.
There’s a note pinned there saying he had a hard day and went to
bed early.” Greg grinned and shoved his long hair out of his face.
“It also says that if any of his regular people need him,
they should call me.”
“Is the note in his handwriting?”
“Yeah. Big old-man’s scrawl. I’d know it anywhere.
I went around and looked in his bedroom window. He’s in there. The
window’s shut, but it’s a wonder he doesn’t break the damned glass,
he’s snoring so loud. Do you want to check for yourself?”
Mort sighed and shook his head. “But something’s
wrong, Greg. Tom saw us. Both of us. The man got hot under
the collar a few minutes after Tom passed and grabbed me by the
arms. I’m wearing his bruises. I’ll show you, if you want to
see.”
Greg shook his head. “I believe you. The more I
think about it, the less I like the way he sounded when he said you
were all by yourself when he saw you. There was something ... off
about it. I’ll talk to him again in the morning. Or we can talk to
him together, if you want.”
“That would be good. What time?”
“Why not come down to the Parish Hall around
nine-thirty? He’ll have had two-three cups of coffee—you can’t say
boo to him before he’s had his coffee—and we can get him down off
that damned scaffolding for awhile. Maybe save his life. Sound
okay?”
“Yes.” Mort held out his hand. “Sorry I got you out
on a wild goosechase.”
Greg shook his hand. “No need to be. Something’s
not right here. I’m good and curious to find out what it is.”
Mort got back into his Buick, and Greg slipped
behind the wheel of his truck. They drove off in opposite
directions, leaving the old man to his exhausted sleep.
Mort himself did not sleep until almost three in
the morning. He tossed and turned in the bedroom until the sheets
were a battlefield and he could stand it no longer. Then he walked
to the living-room couch in a kind of daze. He barked his shins on
the rogue coffee table, cursed in a monotone, lay down, adjusted
the cushions behind his head, and fell almost immediately down a
black hole.
30
When he woke up at eight o’clock the next morning,
he thought he felt fine. He went right on thinking so until he
swung his legs off the couch and sat up. Then a groan so loud it
was almost a muted scream escaped him and he could only sit for a
moment, wishing he could hold his back, his knees, and his right
arm all at the same time. The arm was the worst, so he settled for
holding that. He had read someplace that people can accomplish
almost supernatural acts of strength while in the grip of panic;
that they feel nothing while lifting cars off trapped infants or
strangling killer Dobermans with their bare hands, only realizing
how badly they have strained their bodies after the tide of emotion
has receded. Now he believed it. He had thrown open the door of the
upstairs bathroom hard enough to pop one of the hinges. How hard
had he swung the poker? Harder than he wanted to think about,
according to the way his back and right arm felt this morning. Nor
did he want to think what the damage up there might look like to a
less inflamed eye. He did know that he was going to put the damage
right himself—or as much of it as he could, anyway. Mort thought
Greg Carstairs must have some serious doubts about his sanity
already, his protestations to the contrary notwithstanding. A look
at the broken bathroom door, smashed shower-stall door, and
shattered medicine cabinet would do little to improve Greg’s faith
in his rationality. He remembered thinking that Shooter might be
trying to make people believe he was crazy. The idea did not seem
foolish at all now that he examined it in the light of day; it
seemed, if anything, more logical and believable than ever.
But he had promised to meet Greg at the Parish Hall
in ninety minutes—less than that, now—to talk to Tom Greenleaf.
Sitting here and counting his aches wasn’t going to get him
there.
Mort forced himself to his feet and walked slowly
through the house to the master bathroom. He turned the shower on
hot enough to send up billows of steam, swallowed three aspirin,
and climbed in.
By the time he emerged, the aspirin had started its
work, and he thought he could get through the day after all. It
wouldn’t be fun, and he might feel as if it had lasted several
years by the time it was over, but he thought he could get through
it.
This is the second day, he thought as he
dressed. A little cramp of apprehension went through him.
Tomorrow is his deadline. That made him think first of Amy,
and then of Shooter saying, I’d leave her out of it if I
could, but I’m startin to think you ain’t going to leave me
that option.
The cramp returned. First the crazy son of a bitch
had killed Bump, then he had threatened Tom Greenleaf (surely he
must have threatened Tom Greenleaf), and, Mort had come to
realize, it really was possible that Shooter could have torched the
Derry house. He supposed he had known this all along, and had
simply not wanted to admit it to himself. Torching the house and
getting rid of the magazine had been his main mission—of course; a
man as crazy as Shooter simply wouldn’t think of all the other
copies of that magazine that were lying around. Such things would
not be a part of a lunatic’s world view.
And Bump? The cat was probably just an
afterthought. Shooter got back, saw the cat on the stoop waiting to
be let back in, saw that Mort was still sleeping, and killed the
cat on a whim. Making a round trip to Derry that fast would have
been tight, but it could have been done. It all made sense.
And now he was threatening to involve Amy.
I’ll have to warn her, he thought, stuffing
his shirt into the back of his pants. Call her up this morning
and come totally clean. Handling the man myself is one
thing; standing by while a madman involves the only woman
I’ve ever really loved in something she doesn’t know anything
about... that’s something else.
Yes. But first he would talk with Tom Greenleaf and
get the truth out of him. Without Tom’s corroboration of the fact
that Shooter was really around and really dangerous, Mort’s own
behavior was going to look suspicious or nutty, or both. Probably
both. So, Tom first.
But before he met Greg at the Methodist Parish
Hall, he intended to stop in at Bowie’s and have one of Gerda’s
famous bacon-and-cheese omelettes. An army marches on its stomach,
Private Rainey. Right you are, sir. He went out to the front
hallway, opened the little wooden box mounted on the wall over the
telephone table, and felt for the Buick keys. The Buick keys
weren’t there.
Frowning, he walked out into the kitchen. There
they were, on the counter by the sink. He picked them up and
bounced them thoughtfully on the palm of his hand. Hadn’t he put
them back in the box when he returned from his run to Tom’s house
last night? He tried to remember, and couldn’t—not for sure.
Dropping the keys into the box after returning home was such a
habit that one drop-off blended in with another. If you ask a man
who likes fried eggs what he had for breakfast three days ago, he
can’t remember—he assumes he had fried eggs, because he has
them so often, but he can’t be sure. This was like that. He had
come back tired, achy, and preoccupied. He just couldn’t
remember.
But he didn’t like it.
He didn’t like it at all.
He went to the back door and opened it. There,
lying on the porch boards, was John Shooter’s black hat with the
round crown.
Mort stood in the doorway looking at it, his car
keys clutched in one hand with the brass key-fob hanging down so it
caught and reflected a shaft of morning sunlight. He could hear his
heartbeat in his ears. It was beating slowly and deliberately. Some
part of him had expected this.
The hat was lying exactly where Shooter had left
his manuscript. And beyond it, in the driveway, was his Buick. He
had parked it around the comer when he returned last night—that he
did remember—but now it was here.
“What did you do?” Mort Rainey screamed suddenly
into the morning sunshine, and the birds which had been twittering
unconcernedly away in the trees fell suddenly silent. “What in
God’s name did you do?”
But if Shooter was there, watching him, he made no
reply. Perhaps he felt that Mort would find out what he had done
soon enough.
31
The Buick’s ashtray was pulled open, and there
were two cigarette butts in it. They were unfiltered. Mort picked
one of them out with his fingernails, his face contorted into a
grimace of distaste, sure it would be a Pall Mall, Shooter’s brand.
It was.
He turned the key and the engine started at once.
Mort hadn’t heard it ticking and popping when he came out, but it
started as if it were warm, all the same. Shooter’s hat was now in
the trunk. Mort had picked it up with the same distaste he had
shown for the cigarette butt, putting only enough of his fingers on
the brim to get a grip on it. There had been nothing under it, and
nothing inside it but a very old sweat-stained inner band. It had
some other smell, however, one which was sharper and more acrid
than sweat. It was a smell which Mort recognized in some vague way
but could not place. Perhaps it would come to him. He put the hat
in the back seat, then remembered he would be seeing Greg and Tom
in a little less than an hour. He wasn’t sure he wanted them to see
the hat. He didn’t know exactly why he felt that way, but this
morning it seemed safer to follow his instincts than to question
them, so he put the hat in the trunk and set off for town.
32
He passed Tom’s house again on the way to Bowie’s.
The Scout was no longer in the driveway. For a moment this made
Mort feel nervous, and then he decided it was a good sign, not a
bad one—Tom must have already started his day’s work. Or he might
have gone to Bowie’s himself—Tom was a widower, and he ate a lot of
his meals at the lunch counter in the general store.
Most of the Tashmore Public Works Department was at
the counter, drinking coffee and talking about the upcoming deer
season, but Tom was
(dead he’s dead Shooter killed him and guess
whose car he used)
not among them.
“Mort Rainey!” Gerda Bowie greeted him in her usual
hoarse, Bleacher Creature’s shout. She was a tall woman with masses
of frizzy chestnut hair and a great rounded bosom. “Ain’t seen you
in a coon’s age! Writing any good books lately?”
“Trying,” Mort said. “You wouldn’t make me one of
your special omelettes, would you?”
“Shit, no!” Gerda said, and laughed to show she was
only joking. The PW guys in their olive-drab coveralls laughed
right along with her. Mort wished briefly for a great big gun like
the one Dirty Harry wore under his tweed sport-coats.
Boom-bang-blam, and maybe they could have a little order around
here. “Coming right up, Mort.”
“Thanks.”
When she delivered it, along with toast, coffee,
and OJ, she said in a lower voice: “I heard about your divorce. I’m
sorry.”
He lifted the mug of coffee to his lips with a hand
that was almost steady. “Thanks, Gerda.”
“Are you taking care of yourself?”
“Well ... trying.”
“Because you look a little peaky.”
“It’s hard work getting to sleep some nights. I
guess I’m not used to the quiet yet.”
“Bullshit—it’s sleeping alone you’re not used to
yet. But a man doesn’t have to sleep alone forever, Mort, just
because his woman don’t know a good thing when she has it. I hope
you don’t mind me talking to you this way—”
“Not at all,” Mort said. But he did. He thought
Gerda Bowie made a shitty Ann Landers.
“—but you’re the only famous writer this town has
got.”
“Probably just as well.”
She laughed and tweaked his ear. Mort wondered
briefly what she would say, what the big men in the olive-drab
coveralls would say, if he were to bite the hand that tweaked him.
He was a little shocked at how powerfully attractive the idea was.
Were they all talking about him and Amy? Some saying she didn’t
know a good thing when she had it, others saying the poor woman
finally got tired of living with a crazy man and decided to get
out, none of them knowing what the fuck they were talking about, or
what he and Amy had been about when they had been good? Of course
they were, he thought tiredly. That’s what people were best at. Big
talk about people whose names they saw in the newspapers.
He looked down at his omelette and didn’t want
it.
He dug in just the same, however, and managed to
shovel most of it down his throat. It was still going to be a long
day. Gerda Bowie’s opinions on his looks and his love-life wouldn’t
change that.
When he finished, paid for breakfast and a paper,
and left the store (the Public Works crews had decamped en masse
five minutes before him, one stopping just long enough to obtain an
autograph for his niece, who was having a birthday), it was five
past nine. He sat behind the steering wheel long enough to check
the paper for a story about the Derry house, and found one on page
three. DERRY FIRE INSPECTORS REPORT NO LEADS IN RAINEY ARSON, the
headline read. The story itself was less than half a column long.
The last sentence read, “Morton Rainey, known for such best-selling
novels as The Organ-Grinder’s Boy and The Delacourt
Family, could not be reached for comment.” Which meant that Amy
hadn’t given them the Tashmore number. Good deal. He’d thank her
for that if he talked to her later on.
Tom Greenleaf came first. It would be almost twenty
past the hour by the time he reached the Methodist Parish Hall.
Close enough to nine-thirty. He put the Buick in gear and drove
off.
33
When he arrived at the Parish Hall, there was a
single vehicle parked in the drive—an ancient Ford Bronco with a
camper on the back and a sign reading SONNY TROTTS PAINTING
CARETAKING GENERAL CARPENTRY on each of the doors. Mort saw Sonny
himself, a short man of about forty with no hair and merry eyes, on
a scaffold. He was painting in great sweeps while the boom box
beside him played something Las Vegasy by Ed Ames or Tom Jones—one
of those fellows who sang with the top three buttons of their
shirts undone, anyway.
“Hi, Sonny!” Mort called.
Sonny went on painting, sweeping back and forth in
almost perfect rhythm as Ed Ames or whoever it was asked the
musical questions what is a man, what has he got. They were
questions Mort had asked himself a time or two, although without
the horn section.
“Sonny!”
Sonny jerked. White paint flew from the end of his
brush, and for an alarming moment Mort thought he might actually
topple off the scaffold. Then he caught one of the ropes, turned,
and looked down. “Why, Mr. Rainey!” he said. “You gave me a helluva
turn!”
For some reason Mort thought of the doorknob in
Disney’s Alice in Wonderland and had to suppress a violent
bray of laughter.
“Mr. Rainey? You okay?”
“Yes.” Mort swallowed crooked. It was a trick he
had learned in parochial school about a thousand years ago, and was
the only foolproof way to keep from laughing he had ever found.
Like most good tricks that worked, it hurt. “I thought you were
going to fall off.”
“Not me,” Sonny said with a laugh of his own. He
killed the voice coming from the boom box as it set off on a fresh
voyage of emotion. “Tom might fall off, maybe, but not me.”
“Where is Tom?” Mort asked. “I wanted to talk to
him.”
“He called early and said he couldn’t make it
today. I told him that was okay, there wasn’t enough work for both
of us anyways.”
Sonny looked down upon Mort confidentially.
“There is, a’ course, but Tom ladled too much onto
his plate this time. This ain’t no job for a older fella. He said
he was all bound up in his back. Must be, too. Didn’t sound like
himself at all.”
“What time was that?” Mort asked, trying hard to
sound casual.
“Early,” Sonny said. “Six or so. I was just about
to step into the old shitatorium for my morning constitutional.
Awful regular, I am.” Sonny sounded extremely proud of this.
“Course Tom, he knows what time I rise and commence my
doins.”
“But he didn’t sound so good?”
“Nope. Not like himself at all.” Sonny paused,
frowning. He looked as if he was trying very hard to remember
something. Then he gave a little shrug and went on. “Wind off the
lake was fierce yesterday. Probably took a cold. But Tommy’s iron.
Give him a day or two and he’ll be fine. I worry more about him
gettin preoccupated and walkin the plank.” Sonny indicated the
floor of the scaffold with his brush, sending a riffle of white
drops marching up the boards past his shoes. “Can I do anything for
you, Mr. Rainey?”
“No,” Mort said. There was a dull ball of dread,
like a piece of crumpled canvas, under his heart. “Have you seen
Greg, by the way?”
“Greg Carstairs?”
“Yes.”
“Not this morning. Course, he deals with the
carriage trade.” Sonny laughed. “Rises later’n the rest of us, he
does.”
“Well, I thought he was going to come by and see
Tom, too,” Mort said. “Do you mind if I wait a little? He might
show up.”
“Be my guest,” Sonny said. “You mind the
music?”
“Not at all.”
“You can get some wowser tapes off the TV these
days.
All you gotta do is give em your Mastercard
number. Don’t even have to pay for the call. It’s a eight-hundred
number.” He bent toward the boom box, then looked earnestly down at
Mort. ”This is Roger Whittaker,” he said in low and reverent
tones.
“Oh.”
Sonny pushed PLAY. Roger Whittaker told them there
were times (he was sure they knew) when he bit off more than he
could chew. That was also something Mort had done without the horn
section. He strolled to the edge of the driveway and tapped
absently at his shirt pocket. He was a little surprised to find
that the old pack of L & M’s, now reduced to a single hardy
survivor, was in there. He lit the last cigarette, wincing in
anticipation of the harsh taste. But it wasn’t bad. It had, in
fact, almost no taste at all ... as if the years had stolen it
away.
That’s not the only thing the years have
stolen.
How true. Irrelevant, but true. He smoked and
looked at the road. Now Roger Whittaker was telling him and Sonny
that a ship lay loaded in the harbor, and that soon for England
they would sail. Sonny Trotts sang the last word of each line. No
more; just the last word. Cars and trucks went back and forth on
Route 23. Greg’s Ford Ranger did not come. Mort pitched away his
cigarette, looked at his watch, and saw it was quarter to ten. He
understood that Greg, who was almost religiously punctual, was not
coming, either.
Shooter got them both.
Oh, bullshit! You don’t know
that!
Yes I do. The hat. The car. The
keys.
You’re not just jumping to conclusions,
you’re leaping to them.
The hat. The car. The
keys.
He turned and walked back toward the scaffold. “I
guess he forgot,” he said, but Sonny didn’t hear him. He was
swaying back and forth, lost in the art of painting and the soul of
Roger Whittaker.
Mort got back into his car and drove away. Lost in
his own thoughts, he never heard Sonny call after him.
The music probably would have covered it,
anyway.
34
He arrived back at his house at quarter past ten,
got out of the car, and started for the house. Halfway there, he
turned back and opened the trunk. The hat sat inside, black and
final, a real toad in an imaginary garden. He picked it up, not
being so choosy of how he handled it this time, slammed the trunk
shut, and went into the house.
He stood in the front hallway, not sure what he
wanted to do next ... and suddenly, for no reason at all, he put
the hat on his head. He shuddered when he did it, the way a man
will sometimes shudder after swallowing a mouthful of raw liquor.
But the shudder passed.
And the hat felt like quite a good fit,
actually.
He went slowly into the master bathroom, turned on
the light, and positioned himself in front of the mirror. He almost
burst out laughing—he looked like the man with the pitchfork in
that Grant Wood painting, “American Gothic.” He looked like that
even though the guy in the picture was bareheaded. The hat covered
Mort’s hair completely, as it had covered Shooter’s (if Shooter had
hair—that was yet to be determined, although Mort supposed that he
would know for sure the next time he saw him, since Mort now had
his chapeau), and just touched the tops of his ears. It was pretty
funny. A scream, in fact.
Then the restless voice in his mind asked, Why’d
you put it on? Who’d you think you’d look like? Him?
and the laughter died. Why had he put the hat on in the
first place?
He wanted you to, the restless voice said
quietly.
Yes? But why? Why would Shooter want Mort to put on
his hat?
Maybe he wants you to ...
Yes? he prompted the restless voice again. Wants me
to what?
He thought the voice had gone away and was reaching
for the light-switch when it spoke again.
... to get confused, it said.
The phone rang then, making him jump. He snatched
the hat off guiltily (a little like a man who fears he may be
caught trying on his wife’s underwear) and went to answer it,
thinking it would be Greg, and it would turn out Tom was at Greg’s
house. Yes, of course, that was what had happened; Tom had called
Greg, had told him about Shooter and Shooter’s threats, and Greg
had taken the old man to his place. To protect him. It made
such perfect sense that Mort couldn’t believe he hadn’t thought of
it before.
Except it wasn’t Greg. It was Herb Creekmore.
“Everything’s arranged,” Herb said cheerfully.
“Marianne came through for me. She’s a peach.”
“Marianne?” Mort asked stupidly.
“Marianne Jaffery, at EQMM!” Herb said.
“EQMM? ‘Sowing Season’? June, 1980? You understand dese t’ings,
bwana?”
“Oh,” Mort said. “Oh, good! Thanks, Herb! Is
it for sure?”
“Yep. You’ll have it tomorrow—the actual magazine,
not just a Xerox of the story. It’s coming up from PA. Federal
Express. Have you heard anything else from Mr. Shooter?”
“Not yet,” Mort said, looking down at the black hat
in his hand. He could still smell the odd, evocative aroma it
held.
“Well, no news is good news, they say. Did you talk
to the local law?”
Had he promised Herb he would do that? Mort
couldn’t remember for sure, but he might have. Best to play safe,
anyway. “Yes. Old Dave Newsome didn’t exactly burst a gasket. He
thought the guy was probably just playing games.” It was downright
nasty to lie to Herb, especially after Herb had done him such a
favor, but what sense would it make to tell him the truth? It was
too crazy, too complicated.
“Well—you passed it along. I think that’s
important, Mort—I really do.”
“Yes.”
“Anything else?”
“No—but thanks a million for this. You saved my
life.” And maybe, he thought, that wasn’t just a figure of
speech.
“My pleasure. Remember that in small towns, FedEx
usually delivers right to the local post office. Okay?”
“Yeah.”
“How’s the new book coming? I’ve really been
wanting to ask.”
“Great!” Mort cried heartily.
“Well, good. Get this guy off your back and turn to
it. Work has saved many a better man than you or me, Mort.”
“I know. Best to your lady.”
“Thanks. Best to—” Herb stopped abruptly, and Mort
could almost see him biting his lip. Separations were hard to get
used to. Amputees kept feeling the foot which was no longer there,
they said. “—to you,” he finished.
“I got it,” Mort said. “Take care, Herbert.”
He walked slowly out to the deck and looked down at
the lake. There were no boats on it today. I’m one step up,
no matter what else happens. I can show the man the
goddam magazine. It may not tame him... but then
again, it may. He’s crazy, after all,
and you never know what people from the fabled tribe of the
Crazy Folks will or won’t do. That is their dubious charm.
Anything is possible.
It was even possible that Greg was at home after
all, he thought—he might have forgotten their meeting at the Parish
Hall, or something totally unrelated to this business might have
come up. Feeling suddenly hopeful, Mort went to the telephone and
dialled Greg’s number. The phone was on the third ring when he
remembered Greg saying the week before that his wife and kids were
going to spend some time at his in-laws’. Megan starts school next
year, and it’ll be harder for them to get away, he’d said.
So Greg had been alone.
(the hat)
Like Tom Greenleaf.
(the car)
The young husband and the old widower.
(the keys)
And how does it work? Why, as simple as ordering a
Roger Whittaker tape off the TV. Shooter goes to Tom Greenleaf’s
house, but not in his station wagon—oh no, that would be too much
like advertising. He leaves his car parked in Mort Rainey’s
driveway, or maybe around the side of the house. He goes to Tom’s
in the Buick. Forces Tom to call Greg. Probably gets Greg out of
bed, but Greg has got Tom on his mind and comes in a hurry. Then
Shooter forces Tom to call Sonny Trotts and tell Sonny he doesn’t
feel well enough to come to work. Shooter puts a screwdriver
against old Tom’s jugular and suggests that if Tom doesn’t make it
good, he’ll be one sorry old coot. Tom makes it good enough ...
although even Sonny, not too bright and just out of bed, realizes
that Tom doesn’t sound like himself at all. Shooter uses the
screwdriver on Tom. And when Greg Carstairs arrives, he uses the
screwdriver—or something like it—on him. And—
You’ve gone shit out of your mind. This
is just a bad case of the screaming meemies and that’s all.
Repeat: that ... is ... ALL.
That was reasonable, but it didn’t convince him. It
wasn’t a Chesterfield. It didn’t satisfy.
Mort walked rapidly through the downstairs part of
the house, tugging and twirling at his hair.
What about the trucks? Tom’s Scout,
Greg’s Ranger? Add the Buick and you’re thinking about
three vehicles here-four if you count in Shooter’s Ford
wagon, and Shooter is just one man.
He didn’t know ... but he knew that enough was
enough.
When he arrived at the telephone again, he pulled
the phone book out of its drawer and started looking for the town
constable’s number. He stopped abruptly.
One of those vehicles was the Buick. MY
Buick.
He put the telephone down slowly. He tried to think
of a way Shooter could have handled all of the vehicles. Nothing
came. It was like sitting in front of the word processor when you
were tapped for ideas—you got nothing but a blank screen. But he
did know he didn’t want to call Dave Newsome. Not yet. He
was walking away from the telephone, headed toward no place in
particular, when it rang.
It was Shooter.
“Go to where we met the other day,” Shooter said.
“Walk down the path a little way. You impress me as a man who
thinks the way old folks chew their food, Mr. Rainey, but I’m
willing to give you all the time you need. I’ll call back late this
afternoon. Anybody you call between now and then is your
responsibility.”
“What did you do?” he asked again. This time his
voice was robbed of all force, little more than a whisper. “What in
the world did you do?”
But there was only a dead line.
35
He walked up to the place where the path and the
road came together, the place where he had been talking to Shooter
when Tom Greenleaf had had the misfortune to see them. For some
reason he didn’t like the idea of driving the Buick. The bushes on
either side of the path were beaten down and skinned-looking,
making a rough path. He walked jerkily down this path, knowing what
he would find in the first good-sized copse of trees he came to ...
and he did find it. It was Tom Greenleaf’s Scout. Both men
were inside.
Greg Carstairs was sitting behind the wheel with
his head thrown back and a screwdriver—a Phillips, this time—buried
up to the hilt in his forehead, above his right eye. The
screwdriver had come from a cupboard in the pantry of Mort’s house.
The red plastic handle was badly chipped and impossible not to
recognize.
Tom Greenleaf was in the back seat with a hatchet
planted in the top of his head. His eyes were open. Dried brains
had trickled down around his ears. Written along the hatchet’s ash
handle in faded but still legible red letters was one word: RAINEY.
It had come from the toolshed.
Mort stood silently. A chickadee called. A
woodpecker used a hollow tree to send Morse code. A freshening
breeze was producing whitecaps on the lake; the water was a dark
cobalt today, and the whitecaps made a pretty contrast.
There was a rustling sound behind him. Mort wheeled
around so fast he almost fell—would have fallen, if he’d not had
the Scout to lean against. It wasn’t Shooter. It was a squirrel. It
looked down at him with bright hate from where it was frozen
halfway up the trunk of a maple which blazed with red fall fire.
Mort waited for his galloping heart to slow. He waited for the
squirrel to dash up the tree. His heart did; the squirrel did
not.
“He killed them both,” he said at last, speaking to
the squirrel. “He went to Tom’s in my Buick. Then he went to Greg’s
in Tom’s Scout, with Tom driving. He killed Greg. Then he had Tom
drive down here, and killed him. He used my tools to do both
of them. Then he walked back to Tom’s house ... or maybe he jogged.
He looks rugged enough to have jogged. Sonny didn’t think Tom
sounded like himself, and I know why. By the time Sonny got that
call, the sun was getting ready to come up and Tom was already
dead. It was Shooter, ”imitating Tom. And it was probably
easy. From the way Sonny had his music cranked this morning, he’s a
little deaf, anyway. Once he was done with Sonny Trotts, he got in
my Buick again and drove it back to the house. Greg’s Ranger is
still parked in his own driveway, where it’s been all along. And
that’s how—”
The squirrel scurried up the trunk and disappeared
into the blazing red leaves.
“—that’s how it worked,” Mort finished dully.
Suddenly his legs felt watery. He took two steps
back up the path, thought of Tom Greenleaf’s brains drying on his
cheeks, and his legs just gave up. He fell down and the world swam
away for awhile.
36
When he came to, Mort rolled over, sat up
groggily, and turned his wrist to look at his watch. It said
quarter past two, but of course it must have stopped at that time
last night; he had found Tom’s Scout at mid-morning, and this
couldn’t be afternoon. He had fainted, and, considering the
circumstances, that wasn’t surprising But no one faints for three
and a half hours.
The watch’s second hand was making its steady
little circle, however.
Must have jogged it when I sat up, that’s
all.
But that wasn’t all. The sun had changed
position, and would soon be lost behind the clouds which were
filling up the sky. The color of the lake had dulled to a listless
chrome.
So he had started off fainting, or swooning, and
then what? Well, it sounded incredible, but he supposed he must
have fallen asleep. The last three days had been nerve-racking, and
last night he had been sleepless until three. So call it a
combination of mental and physical fatigue. His mind had just
pulled the plug. And—
Shooter! Christ, Shooter said he’d
call!
He tried to get to his feet, then fell back with a
little oof! sound of mingled pain and surprise as his left
leg buckled under him. It was full of pins and needles, all of them
crazily dancing. He must have lain on the goddam thing. Why hadn’t
he brought the Buick, for Christ’s sake? If Shooter called and Mort
wasn’t there to take the call, the man might do anything.
He lunged to his feet again, and this time made it
all the way up. But when he tried to stride on the left leg, it
refused his weight and spilled him forward again. He almost hit his
head on the side of the truck going down and was suddenly looking
at himself in one of the hubcaps of the Scout. The convex surface
made his face look like a grotesque funhouse mask. At least he had
left the goddamned hat back at the house; if he had seen
that on his head, Mort thought he would have screamed. He
wouldn’t have been able to help himself.
All at once he remembered there were two dead men
in the Scout. They were sitting above him, getting stiff, and there
were tools sticking out of their heads.
He crawled out of the Scout’s shadow, dragged his
left leg across his right with his hands, and began to pound at it
with his fists, like a man trying to tenderize a cheap cut of
meat.
Stop it! a small voice cried—it was the last
kernel of rationality at his command, a little sane light in what
felt like a vast bank of black thunderheads between his ears.
Stop it! He said he’d call late in the afternoon,
and it’s only quarter past two! Plenty of time!
But what if he called early? Or what if “late
afternoon” started after two o’clock in the deep-dish,
crackerbarrel South?
Keep beating on your leg like that and you’ll
wind up with a charley horse. Then you can see how you like trying
to crawl back in time to take his call.
That did the trick. He was able to make himself
stop. This time he got up more cautiously and just stood for a
moment (he was careful to keep his back to Tom’s Scout—he did not
want to look inside again) before trying to walk. He found that the
pins and needles were subsiding. He walked with a pronounced limp
at first, but his gait began to smooth out after the first dozen
strides.
He was almost clear of the bushes Shooter had
stripped and beaten down with Tom’s Scout when he heard a car
approaching. Mort dropped to his knees without even thinking about
it and watched as a rusty old Cadillac swept by. It belonged to Don
Bassinger, who owned a place on the far side of the lake.
Bassinger, a veteran alcoholic who spent most of his time drinking
up what remained of his once-substantial inheritance, often used
Lake Drive as a shortcut to what was known as Bassinger Road. Don
was about the only year-round resident down here, Mort
thought.
After the Caddy was out of sight, Mort got to his
feet and hurried the rest of the way up to the road. Now he was
glad he hadn’t brought the Buick. He knew Don Bassinger’s Cadillac,
and Bassinger knew Mort’s Buick. It was probably too early in the
day for Don to be in a blackout, and he might well have remembered
seeing Mort’s car, if it had been there, parked not far from the
place where, before too much longer, someone was going to make an
extremely horrible discovery.
He’s busy tying you to this business, Mort
thought as he limped along Lake Drive toward his house. He’s
been doing it all along. If anyone saw a car near Tom
Greenleaf’s last night, it will almost certainly turn out to
be your Buick. He killed them with your tools—
I could get rid of the tools, he thought
suddenly. I could throw them in the lake. I might
heave up a time or two getting them out, but I think I could
go through with it.
Could you? I wonder. And even if
you did... well, Shooter almost certainly will have
thought of that possibility, too. He seems to have
thought of all the others. And he knows that if you tried to get
rid of the hatchet and the screwdriver and the police dragged the
bottom for them and they were found, things would look even
worse for you. Do you see what he’s done? Do
you?
Yes. He saw. John Shooter had given him a present.
It was a tar baby. A large, glistening tar baby. Mort had smacked
the tar baby in the head with his left hand and it had stuck fast.
So he had whopped that old tar baby in the gut with his right hand
to make it let go, only his right hand had stuck, too. He
had been—what was the word he had kept using with such smug
satisfaction? “Disingenuous,” wasn’t it? Yes, that was it. And all
the time he had been getting more entangled with John Shooter’s tar
baby. And now? Well, he had told lies to all sorts of people, and
that would look bad if it came out, and a quarter of a mile behind
him a man was wearing a hatchet for a hat and Mort’s name was
written on the handle, and that would look even worse.
Mort imagined the telephone ringing in the empty
house and forced himself into a trot.
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Shooter didn’t call.
The minutes stretched out like taffy, and Shooter
didn’t call. Mort walked restlessly through the house, twirling and
pulling at his hair. He imagined this was what it felt like to be a
junkie waiting for the pusher-man.
Twice he had second thoughts about waiting, and
went to the phone to call the authorities—not old Dave Newsome, or
even the county sheriff, but the State Police. He would hew to the
old Vietnam axiom: Kill em all and let God sort em out. Why not? He
had a good reputation, after all; he was a respected member of two
Maine communities, and John Shooter was a—
Just what was Shooter?
The word “phantom” came to mind.
The word “will-o’-the-wisp” also came to
mind.
But it was not this that stopped him. What stopped
him was a horrible certainty that Shooter would be trying to call
while Mort himself was using the line ... that Shooter would hear
the busy signal, hang up, and Mort would never hear from him
again.
At quarter of four, it began to rain—a steady fall
rain, cold and gentle, sighing down from a white sky, tapping on
the roof and the stiff leaves around the house.
At ten of, the telephone rang. Mort leaped for
it.
It was Amy.
Amy wanted to talk about the fire. Amy wanted to
talk about how unhappy she was, not just for herself, but for both
of them. Amy wanted to tell him that Fred Evans, the insurance
investigator, was still in Derry, still picking over the site,
still asking questions about everything from the most recent wiring
inspection to who had keys to the wine cellar, and Ted was
suspicious of his motives. Amy wanted Mort to wonder with her if
things would have been different if they had had children.
Mort responded to all this as best he could, and
all the time he was talking with her, he felt time—prime
late-afternoon time—slipping away. He was half mad with worry that
Shooter would call, find the line busy, and commit some fresh
atrocity. Finally he said the only thing he could think of to get
her off the line: that if he didn’t get to the bathroom soon, he
was going to have an accident.