CHAPTER NINE
GOODBYE TO BANGOR. HEADING WEST THROUGH DAYS
AND NIGHTS. SEEING THROUGH THE EYES OF OTHERS. THE ENDLESS GULF.
THE RIP. THE WARNING. BRIAN’S DECISION. THE LANDING. SHOOTING STARS
ONLY.
1
The plane banked heavily east, throwing the man
with the black beard into a row of empty seats three-quarters of
the way up the main cabin. He looked around at all the other empty
seats with a wide, frightened gaze, and squeezed his eyes shut.
“Jesus,” he muttered. “DTs. Fucking DTs. This is the worst they’ve
ever been.” He looked around fearfully. “The bugs come next . . .
where’s the motherfuckin bugs?”
No bugs, Albert thought, but wait till
you see the balls. You’re going to love those.
“Buckle yourself in, mate,” Nick said, “and shut
u—”
He broke off, staring down incredulously at the
airport ... or where the airport had been. The main buildings were
gone, and the National Guard base at the west end was going. Flight
29 overflew a growing abyss of darkness, an eternal cistern that
seemed to have no end.
“Oh dear Jesus, Nick,” Laurel said unsteadily, and
suddenly put her hands over her eyes.
As they overflew Runway 33 at 1,500 feet, Nick saw
sixty or a hundred parallel lines racing up the concrete, cutting
the runway into long strips that sank into emptiness. The strips
reminded him of Craig Toomy:
Rii-ip.
On the other side of the aisle, Bethany pulled down
the windowshade beside Albert’s seat with a bang.
“Don’t you dare open that!” she told him in a
scolding, hysterical voice.
“Don’t worry,” Albert said, and suddenly remembered
that he had left his violin down there. Well . . . it was
undoubtedly gone now. He abruptly put his hands over his own
face.
2
Before Brian began to turn west again, he saw what
lay east of Bangor. It was nothing. Nothing at all. A titanic river
of blackness lay in a still sweep from horizon to horizon under the
white dome of the sky. The trees were gone, the city was gone, the
earth itself was gone.
This is what it must be like to fly in outer
space, he thought, and he felt his rationality slip a cog, as
it had on the trip east. He held onto himself desperately and made
himself concentrate on flying the plane.
He brought them up quickly, wanting to be in the
clouds, wanting that hellish vision to be blotted out. Then Flight
29 was pointed west again. In the moments before they entered the
clouds, he saw the hills and woods and lakes which stretched to the
west of the city, saw them being cut ruthlessly apart by thousands
of black spiderweb lines. He saw huge swatches of reality go
sliding soundlessly into the growing mouth of the abyss, and Brian
did something he had never done before while in the cockpit of an
airplane.
He closed his eyes. When he opened them again they
were in the clouds.
3
There was almost no turbulence this time; as Bob
Jenkins had suggested, the weather patterns appeared to be running
down like an old clock. Ten minutes after entering the clouds,
Flight 29 emerged into the bright-blue world which began at 18,000
feet. The remaining passengers looked around at each other
nervously, then at the speakers as Brian came on the
intercom.
“We’re up,” he said simply. “You all know what
happens now: we go back exactly the way we came, and hope that
whatever doorway we came through is still there. If it is, we’ll
try going through.”
He paused for a moment, then resumed.
“Our return flight is going to take somewhere
between four and a half and six hours. I’d like to be more exact,
but I can’t. Under ordinary circumstances, the flight west usually
takes longer than the flight east, because of prevailing wind
conditions, but so far as I can tell from my cockpit instruments,
there is no wind.” Brian paused for a moment and then added,
“There’s nothing moving up here but us.” For a moment the intercom
stayed on, as if Brian meant to add something else, and then it
clicked off.
4
“What in God’s name is going on here?” the man
with the black beard asked shakily.
Albert looked at him for a moment and then said, “I
don’t think you want to know.”
“Am I in the hospital again?” The man with the
black beard blinked at Albert fearfully, and Albert felt sudden
sympathy for him.
“Well, why don’t you believe you are, if it will
help?”
The man with the black beard continued to stare at
him for a moment in dreadful fascination and then announced, “I’m
going back to sleep. Right now.” He reclined his seat and closed
his eyes. In less than a minute his chest was moving up and down
with deep regularity and he was snoring under his breath.
Albert envied him.
5
Nick gave Laurel a brief hug, then unbuckled his
seatbelt and stood up. “I’m going forward,” he said. “Want to
come?”
Laurel shook her head and pointed across the aisle
at Dinah. “I’ll stay with her.”
“There’s nothing you can do, you know,” Nick said.
“It’s in God’s hands now, I’m afraid.”
“I do know that,” she said, “but I want to
stay.”
“All right, Laurel.” He brushed at her hair gently
with the palm of his hand. “It’s such a pretty name. You deserve
it.”
She glanced up at him and smiled. “Thank
you.”
“We have a dinner date—you haven’t forgotten, have
you?”
“No,” she said, still smiling. “I haven’t and I
won’t.”
He bent down and brushed a kiss lightly across her
mouth. “Good, he said. ”Neither will I.”
He went forward and she pressed her fingers lightly
against her mouth, as if to hold his kiss there, where it belonged.
Dinner with Nick Hopewett—a dark, mysterious stranger. Maybe with
candles and a good bottle of wine. More kisses afterward—real
kisses. It all seemed like something which might happen in one of
the Harlequin romances she sometimes read. So what? They were
pleasant stories, full of sweet and harmless dreams. It didn’t hurt
to dream a little, did it?
Of course not. But why did she feel the dream was
so unlikely to come true?
She unbuckled her own seatbelt, crossed the aisle,
and put her hand on the girl’s forehead. The hectic heat she had
felt before was gone; Dinah’s skin was now waxy-cool.
I think she’s going, Rudy had said shortly
before they started their headlong take-off charge. Now the words
recurred to Laurel and rang in her head with sickening validity.
Dinah was taking air in shallow sips, her chest barely rising and
falling beneath the strap which cinched the tablecloth pad tight
over her wound.
Laurel brushed the girl’s hair off her forehead
with infinite tenderness and thought of that strange moment in the
restaurant, when Dinah had reached out and grasped the cuff of
Nick’s jeans. Don’t you kill him . . . we need him.
Did you save us, Dinah? Did you do something to
Mr. Toomy that saved us? Did you make him somehow trade his life
for ours?
She thought that perhaps something like that had
happened ... and reflected that, if it was true, this little girl,
blind and badly wounded, had made a dreadful decision inside her
darkness.
She leaned forward and kissed each of Dinah’s cool,
closed lids. “Hold on,” she whispered. “Please hold on,
Dinah.”
6
Bethany turned to Albert, grasped both of his
hands in hers, and asked: “What happens if the fuel goes
bad?”
Albert looked at her seriously and kindly. “You
know the answer to that, Bethany.”
“You can call me Beth, if you want.”
“Okay.”
She fumbled out her cigarettes, looked up at the NO
SMOKING light, and put them away again. “Yeah,” she said. “I know.
We crash. End of story. And do you know what?”
He shook his head, smiling a little.
“If we can’t find that hole again, I hope Captain
Engle won’t even try to land the plane. I hope he just picks out a
nice high mountain and crashes us into the top of it. Did you see
what happened to that crazy guy? I don’t want that to happen to
me.”
She shuddered, and Albert put an arm around her.
She looked up at him frankly. “Would you like to kiss me?”
“Yes,” Albert said.
“Well, you better go ahead, then. The later it
gets, the later it gets.”
Albert went ahead. It was only the third time in
his life that the fastest Hebrew west of the Mississippi had kissed
a girl, and it was great. He could spend the whole trip back in a
lip-lock with this girl and never worry about a thing.
“Thank you,” she said, and put her head on his
shoulder. “I needed that.”
“Well, if you need it again, just ask,” Albert
said.
She looked up at him, amused. “Do you need
me to ask, Albert?”
“I reckon not,” drawled The Arizona Jew, and went
back to work.
7
Nick had stopped on his way to the cockpit to
speak to Bob Jenkins—an extremely nasty idea had occurred to him,
and he wanted to ask the writer about it.
“Do you think there could be any of those things up
here?”
Bob thought it over for a moment. “Judging from
what we saw back at Bangor, I would think not. But it’s hard to
tell, isn’t it? In a thing like this, all bets are off.”
“Yes. I suppose so. All bets are off.” Nick thought
this over for a moment. “What about this time-rip of yours? Would
you like to give odds on us finding it again?”
Bob Jenkins slowly shook his head.
Rudy Warwick spoke up from behind them, startling
them both. “You didn’t ask me, but I’ll give you my opinion just
the same. I put them at one in a thousand.”
Nick thought this over. After a moment a rare,
radiant smile burst across his face. “Not bad odds at all,” he
said. “Not when you consider the alternative.”
8
Less than forty minutes later, the blue sky
through which Flight 29 moved began to deepen in color. It cycled
slowly to indigo, and then to deep purple. Sitting in the cockpit,
monitoring his instruments and wishing for a cup of coffee, Brian
thought of an old song: When the deep purple falls . . . over
sleepy garden walls ...
No garden walls up here, but he could see the first
ice-chip stars gleaming in the firmament. There was something
reassuring and calming about the old constellations appearing, one
by one, in their old places. He did not know how they could be the
same when so many other things were so badly out of joint, but he
was very glad they were.
“It’s going faster, isn’t it?” Nick said from
behind him.
Brian turned in his seat to face him. “Yes. It is.
After awhile the ‘days’ and ‛nights’ will be passing as fast as a
camera shutter can click, I think.”
Nick sighed. “And now we do the hardest thing of
all, don’t we? We wait to see what happens. And pray a little bit,
I suppose.”
“It couldn’t hurt.” Brian took a long, measuring
look at Nick Hopewell. “I was on my way to Boston because my
ex-wife died in a stupid fire. Dinah was going because a bunch of
doctors promised her a new pair of eyes. Bob was going to a
convention, Albert to music school, Laurel on vacation. Why were
you going to Boston, Nick? ’Fess up. The hour groweth late.”
Nick looked at him thoughtfully for a long time and
then laughed. “Well, why not?” he asked, but Brian was not so
foolish as to believe this question was directed at him. “What does
a Most Secret classification mean when you’ve just seen a bunch of
killer fuzzballs rolling up the world like an old rug?”
He laughed again.
“The United States hasn’t exactly cornered the
market on dirty tricks and covert operations,” he told Brian. “We
Limeys have forgotten more nasty mischief than you johnnies ever
knew. We’ve cut capers in India, South Africa, China, and the part
of Palestine which became Israel. We certainly got into a pissing
contest with the wrong fellows that time, didn’t we? Nevertheless,
we British are great believers in cloak and dagger, and the fabled
MI5 isn’t where it ends but only where it begins. I spent eighteen
years in the armed services, Brian—the last five of them in Special
Operations. Since then I’ve done various odd jobs, some innocuous,
some fabulously nasty.”
It was full dark outside now, the stars gleaming
like spangles on a woman’s formal evening gown.
“I was in Los Angeles—on vacation, actually—when I
was contacted and told to fly to Boston. Extremely short notice,
this was, and after four days spent backpacking in the San
Gabriels, I was falling-down tired. That’s why I happened to be
sound asleep when Mr. Jenkins’s Event happened.
“There’s a man in Boston, you see . . . or was . .
. or will be (time-travel plays hell on the old verb tenses,
doesn’t it?) ... who is a politician of some note. The sort of
fellow who moves and shakes with great vigor behind the scenes.
This man—I’ll call him Mr. O’Banion, for the sake of
conversation—is very rich, Brian, and he is an enthusiastic
supporter of the Irish Republican Army. He has channelled millions
of dollars into what some like to call Boston’s favorite charity,
and there is a good deal of blood on his hands. Not just British
soldiers but children in schoolyards, women in laundrettes, and
babies blown out of their prams in pieces. He is an idealist of the
most dangerous sort: one who never has to view the carnage at first
hand, one who has never had to look at a severed leg lying in the
gutter and been forced to reconsider his actions in light of that
experience.”
“You were supposed to kill this man
O’Banion?”
“Not unless I had to,” Nick said calmly. “He’s very
wealthy, but that’s not the only problem. He’s the total
politician, you see, and he’s got more fingers than the one he uses
to stir the pot in Ireland. He has a great many powerful American
friends, and some of his friends are our friends . . . that’s the
nature of politics; a cat’s cradle woven by men who for the most
part belong in rooms with rubber walls. Killing Mr. O’Banion would
be a great political risk. But he keeps a little bit of fluff on
the side. She was the one I was supposed to kill.”
“As a warning,” Brian said in a low, fascinated
voice.
“Yes. As a warning.”
Almost a full minute passed as the two men sat in
the cockpit, looking at each other. The only sound was the sleepy
drone of the jet engines. Brian’s eyes were shocked and somehow
very young. Nick only looked weary.
“If we get out of this,” Brian said at last, “if we
get back, will you carry through with it?”
Nick shook his head. He did this slowly, but with
great finality. “I believe I’ve had what the Adventist blokes like
to call a soul conversion, old mate of mine. No more midnight
creeps or extreme-prejudice jobs for Mrs. Hopewell’s boy Nicholas.
If we get out of this—a proposition I find rather shaky just now—I
believe I’ll retire.”
“And do what?”
Nick looked at him thoughtfully for a moment or two
and then said, “Well . . . I suppose I could take flying
lessons.”
Brian burst out laughing. After a moment, Mrs.
Hopewell’s boy Nicholas joined him.
9
Thirty-five minutes later, daylight began to seep
back into the main cabin of Flight 29. Three minutes later it might
have been mid-morning; fifteen minutes after that it might have
been noon.
Laurel looked around and saw that Dinah’s sightless
eyes were open.
Yet were they entirely sightless? There was
something in them, something just beyond definition, which made
Laurel wonder. She felt a sense of unknown awe creep into her, a
feeling which almost touched upon fear.
She reached out and gently grasped one of Dinah’s
hands. “Don’t try to talk,” she said quietly. “If you’re awake,
Dinah, don’t try to talk—just listen. We’re in the air. We’re going
back, and you’re going to be all right—I promise you that.”
Dinah’s hand tightened on hers, and after a moment
Laurel realized the little girl was tugging her forward. She leaned
over the secured stretcher. Dinah spoke in a tiny voice that seemed
to Laurel a perfect scale model of her former voice.
“Don’t worry about me, Laurel. I got . . . what I
wanted.”
“Dinah, you shouldn’t—”
The unseeing brown eyes moved toward the sound of
Laurel’s voice. A little smile touched Dinah’s bloody mouth. “I
saw,” that tiny voice, frail as a glass reed, told her. “I saw
through Mr. Toomy’s eyes. At the beginning, and then again at the
end. It was better at the end. At the start, everything looked mean
and nasty to him. It was better at the end.”
Laurel looked at her with helpless wonder.
The girl’s hand let go of Laurel’s and rose
waveringly to touch her cheek. “He wasn’t such a bad guy, you
know.” She coughed. Small flecks of blood flew from her
mouth.
“Please, Dinah,” Laurel said. She had a sudden
sensation that she could almost see through the little blind girl,
and this brought a feeling of stifling, directionless panic.
“Please don’t try to talk anymore.”
Dinah smiled. “I saw you,” she said. “You
are beautiful, Laurel. Everything was beautiful . . . even
the things that were dead. It was so wonderful to ... you know . .
. just to see.”
She drew in one of her tiny sips of air, let it
out, and simply didn’t take the next one. Her sightless eyes now
seemed to be looking far beyond Laurel Stevenson.
“Please breathe, Dinah,” Laurel said. She took the
girl’s hands in hers and began to kiss them repeatedly, as if she
could kiss life back into that which was now beyond it. It was not
fair for Dinah to die after she had saved them all; no God could
demand such a sacrifice, not even for people who had somehow
stepped outside of time itself. “Please breathe, please, please,
please breathe.”
But Dinah did not breathe. After a long time,
Laurel returned the girl’s hands to her lap and looked fixedly into
her pale, still face. Laurel waited for her own eyes to fill up
with tears, but no tears came. Yet her heart ached with fierce
sorrow and her mind beat with its own deep and outraged protest:
Oh, no! Oh, not fair! This is not fair! Take it back, God! Take
it back, damn you, take it back, you just take it BACK!
But God did not take it back. The jet engines
throbbed steadily, the sun shone on the bloody sleeve of Dinah’s
good travelling dress in a bright oblong, and God did not take it
back. Laurel looked across the aisle and saw Albert and Bethany
kissing. Albert was touching one of the girl’s breasts through her
tee-shirt, lightly, delicately, almost religiously. They seemed to
make a ritual shape, a symbolic representation of life and that
stubborn, intangible spark which carries life on in the face of the
most dreadful reversals and ludicrous turns of fate. Laurel looked
hopefully from them to Dinah . . . and God had not taken it
back.
God had not taken it back.
Laurel kissed the still slope of Dinah’s cheek and
then raised her hand to the little girl’s face. Her fingers stopped
only an inch from her eyelids.
I saw through Mr. Toomy’s eyes. Everything was
beautiful ... even the things that were dead. It was so wonderful
to see.
“Yes,” Laurel said. “I can live with that.”
She left Dinah’s eyes open.
10
American Pride 29 flew west through the days and
nights, going from light to darkness and light to darkness as if
flying through a great, lazily shifting parade of fat clouds. Each
cycle came slightly faster than the one before.
A little over three hours into the flight, the
clouds below them ceased, and over exactly the same spot where they
had begun on the flight east. Brian was willing to bet the front
had not moved so much as a single foot. The Great Plains lay below
them in a silent roan-colored expanse of land.
“No sign of them over here,” Rudy Warwick said. He
did not have to specify what he was talking about.
“No,” Bob Jenkins agreed. “We seem to have outrun
them, either in space or in time.”
“Or in both,” Albert put in.
“Yes—or both.”
But they had not. As Flight 29 crossed the Rockies,
they began to see the black lines below them again, thin as threads
from this height. They shot up and down the rough, slabbed slopes
and drew not-quite-meaningless patterns in the blue-gray carpet of
trees. Nick stood at the forward door, looking out of the bullet
porthole set into it. This porthole had a queer magnifying effect,
and he soon discovered he could see better than he really wanted
to. As he watched, two of the black lines split, raced around a
jagged, snow-tipped peak, met on the far side, crossed, and raced
down the other slope in diverging directions. Behind them the
entire top of the mountain fell into itself, leaving something
which looked like a volcano with a vast dead caldera at its
truncated top.
“Jumping Jiminy Jesus,” Nick muttered, and passed a
quivering hand over his brow.
As they crossed the Western Slope toward Utah, the
dark began to come down again. The setting sun threw an orange-red
glare over a fragmented hellscape that none of them could look at
for long; one by one, they followed Bethany’s example and pulled
their windowshades. Nick went back to his seat on unsteady legs and
dropped his forehead into one cold, clutching hand. After a moment
or two he turned toward Laurel and she took him wordlessly in her
arms.
Brian was forced to look at it. There were no
shades in the cockpit.
Western Colorado and eastern Utah fell into the pit
of eternity piece by jagged piece below him and ahead of him.
Mountains, buttes, mesas, and cols one by one ceased to exist as
the crisscrossing langoliers cut them adrift from the rotting
fabric of this dead past, cut them loose and sent them tumbling
into sunless endless gulfs of forever. There was no sound up here,
and somehow that was the most horrible thing of all. The land below
them disappeared as silently as dust-motes.
Then darkness came like an act of mercy and for a
little while he could concentrate on the stars. He clung to them
with the fierceness of panic, the only real things left in this
horrible world: Orion the hunter; Pegasus, the great shimmering
horse of midnight; Cassiopeia in her starry chair.
11
Half an hour later the sun rose again, and Brian
felt his sanity give a deep shudder and slide closer to the edge of
its own abyss. The world below was gone; utterly and finally gone.
The deepening blue sky was a dome over a cyclopean ocean of
deepest, purest ebony.
The world had been torn from beneath Flight
29.
Bethany’s thought had also crossed Brian’s mind; if
push came to shove, if worse came to worst, he had thought, he
could put the 767 into a dive and crash them into a mountain,
ending it for good and all. But now there were no mountains to
crash into.
Now there was no earth to crash into.
What will happen to us if we can’t find the rip
again? he wondered. What will happen if we run out of fuel? Don’t
try to tell me we’ll crash, because I simply don’t believe it—you
can’t crash into nothing. I think we’ll simply fall . . . and fall
. . . and fall. For how long? And how far? How far can you fall
into nothing?
Don’t think about it.
But how, exactly, did one do that? How did one
refuse to think about nothing?
He turned deliberately back to his sheet of
calculations. He worked on them, referring frequently to the INS
readout, until the light had begun to fade out of the sky again. He
now put the elapsed time between sunrise and sunset at about
twenty-eight minutes.
He reached for the switch that controlled the cabin
intercom and opened the circuit.
“Nick? Can you come up front?”
Nick appeared in the cockpit doorway less than
thirty seconds later.
“Have they got their shades pulled back there?”
Brian asked him before he could come all the way in.
“You better believe it,” Nick said.
“Very wise of them. I’m going to ask you not to
look down yet, if you can help it. I’ll want you to look out
in a few minutes, and once you look out I don’t suppose you’ll be
able to help looking down, but I advise you to put it off as long
as possible. It’s not . . . very nice.”
“Gone, is it?”
“Yes. Everything.”
“The little girl is gone, too. Dinah. Laurel was
with her at the end. She’s taking it very well. She liked that
girl. So did I.”
Brian nodded. He was not surprised—the girl’s wound
was the sort that demanded immediate treatment in an emergency
room, and even then the prognosis would undoubtedly be cloudy—but
it still rolled a stone against his heart. He had also liked Dinah,
and he believed what Laurel believed—that the girl was somehow more
responsible for their continued survival than anyone else. She had
done something to Mr. Toomy, had used him in some strange way . . .
and Brian had an idea that, somewhere inside, Toomy would not have
minded being used in such a fashion. So, if her death was an omen,
it was one of the worst sort.
“She never got her operation,” he said.
“No. ”
“But Laurel is okay?”
“More or less.”
“You like her, don’t you?”
“Yes,” Nick said. “I have mates who would laugh at
that, but I do like her. She’s a bit dewy-eyed, but she’s got
grit.”
Brian nodded. “Well, if we get back, I wish you the
best of luck.”
“Thanks.” Nick sat down in the co-pilot’s seat
again. “I’ve been thinking about the question you asked me before.
About what I’ll do when and if we get out of this mess . . .
besides taking the lovely Laurel to dinner, that is. I suppose I
might end up going after Mr. O’Banion after all. As I see it, he’s
not all that much different from our friend Toomy.”
“Dinah asked you to spare Mr. Toomy,” Brian pointed
out. “Maybe that’s something you should add into the
equation.”
Nick nodded. He did this as if his head had grown
too heavy for his neck. “Maybe it is.”
“Listen, Nick. I called you up front because if
Bob’s time-rip actually exists, we’ve got to be getting close to
the place where we went through it. We’re going to man the crow’s
nest together, you and I. You take the starboard side and right
center; I’ll take port and left center. If you see anything that
looks like a time-rip, sing out.”
Nick gazed at Brian with wide, innocent eyes. “Are
we looking for a thingumabob-type time-rip, or do you think it’ll
be one of the more or less fuckadelic variety, mate?”
“Very funny.” Brian felt a grin touch his lips in
spite of himself. “I don’t have the slightest idea what it’s going
to look like or even if we’ll be able to see it at all. If we
can’t, we’re going to be in a hell of a jam if it’s drifted to one
side, or if its altitude has changed. Finding a needle in a
haystack would be child’s play in comparison.”
“What about radar?”
Brian pointed to the RCA/TL color radar monitor.
“Nothing, as you can see. But that’s not surprising. If the
original crew had acquired the damned thing on radar, they never
would have gone through it in the first place.”
“They wouldn’t have gone through it if they’d seen
it, either,” Nick pointed out gloomily.
“That’s not necessarily true. They might have seen
it too late to avoid it. Jetliners move fast, and airplane crews
don’t spend the entire flight searching the sky for bogies. They
don’t have to; that’s what ground control is for. Thirty or
thirty-five minutes into the flight, the crew’s major outbound
tasks are completed. The bird is up, it’s out of L.A. airspace, the
anti-collision honker is on and beeping every ninety seconds to
show it’s working. The INS is all programmed—that happens before
the bird ever leaves the ground—and it is telling the autopilot
just what to do. From the look of the cockpit, the pilot and
co-pilot were on their coffee break. They could have been sitting
here, facing each other, talking about the last movie they saw or
how much they dropped at Hollywood Park. If there had been a flight
attendant up front just before The Event took place, there would at
least have been one more set of eyes, but we know there wasn’t. The
male crew had their coffee and Danish; the flight attendants were
getting ready to serve drinks to the passengers when it
happened.”
“That’s an extremely detailed scenario,” Nick said.
“Are you trying to convince me or yourself?”
“At this point, I’ll settle for convincing anyone
at all.”
Nick smiled and stepped to the starboard cockpit
window. His eyes dropped involuntarily downward, toward the place
where the ground belonged, and his smile first froze, then dropped
off his face. His knees buckled, and he gripped the bulkhead with
one hand to steady himself.
“Shit on toast,” he said in a tiny dismayed
voice.
“Not very nice, is it?”
Nick looked around at Brian. His eyes seemed to
float in his pallid face. “All my life,” he said, “I’ve thought of
Australia when I heard people talk about the great bugger-all, but
it’s not. That’s the great bugger-all, right down
there.”
Brian checked the INS and the charts again,
quickly. He had made a small red circle on one of the charts; they
were now on the verge of entering the airspace that circle
represented. “Can you do what I asked? If you can‘t, say so. Pride
is a luxury we can’t—”
“Of course I can,” Nick murmured. He had torn his
eyes away from the huge black socket below the plane and was
scanning the sky. “I only wish I knew what I was looking
for.”
“I think you’ll know it when you see it,” Brian
said. He paused and then added, “If you see it.”
12
Bob Jenkins sat with his arms folded tightly
across his chest, as if he were cold. Part of him was cold,
but this was not a physical coldness. The chill was coming out of
his head.
Something was wrong.
He did not know what it was, but something was
wrong. Something was out of place . . . or lost . . . or forgotten.
Either a mistake had been made or was going to be made. The feeling
nagged at him like some pain not quite localized enough to be
identified. That sense of wrongness would almost crystallize into a
thought . . . and then it would skitter away again like some small,
not-quite-tame animal.
Something wrong.
Or out of place. Or lost.
Or forgotten.
Ahead of him, Albert and Bethany were spooning
contentedly. Behind him, Rudy Warwick was sitting with his eyes
closed and his lips moving. The beads of a rosary were clamped in
one fist. Across the aisle, Laurel Stevenson sat beside Dinah,
holding one of her hands and stroking it gently.
Wrong.
Bob eased up the shade beside his seat, peeked out,
and slammed it down again. Looking at that would not aid
rational thought but erase it. What lay below the plane was utter
madness.
I must warn them. I have to. They are going
forward on my hypothesis, but if my hypothesis is somehow
mistaken—and dangerous—then I must warn them.
Warn them of what?
Again it almost came into the light of his focussed
thoughts, then slipped away, becoming just a shadow among shadows .
. . but one with shiny feral eyes.
He abruptly unbuckled his seatbelt and stood
up.
Albert looked around. “Where are you going?”
“Cleveland,” Bob said grumpily, and began to walk
down the aisle toward the tail of the aircraft, still trying to
track the source of that interior alarm bell.
13
Brian tore his eyes away from the sky—which was
already showing signs of light again—long enough to take a quick
glance first at the INS readout and then at the circle on his
chart. They were approaching the far side of the circle now. If the
time-rip was still here, they should see it soon. If they didn’t,
he supposed he would have to take over the controls and send them
circling back for another pass at a slightly different altitude and
on a slightly different heading. It would play hell on their fuel
situation, which was already tight, but since the whole thing was
probably hopeless anyway, it didn’t matter very—
“Brian?” Nick’s voice was unsteady. “Brian? I think
I see something.”
14
Bob Jenkins reached the rear of the plane, made an
about-face, and started slowly back up the aisle again, passing row
after row of empty seats. He looked at the objects that lay in them
and on the floor in front of them as he passed: purses . . . pairs
of eyeglasses . . . wristwatches . . . a pocket-watch . . . two
worn, crescent-shaped pieces of metal that were probably heel-taps
. . . dental fillings . . . wedding rings . . .
Something is wrong.
Yes? Was that really so, or was it only his
overworked mind nagging fiercely over nothing? The mental
equivalent of a tired muscle which will not stop twitching?
Leave it, he advised himself, but he
couldn’t.
If something really is amiss, why can’t you see
it? Didn’t you tell the boy that deduction is your meat and drink?
Haven’t you written forty mystery novels, and weren’t a dozen of
those actually quite good? Didn’t Newgate Callendar call The
Sleeping Madonna “a masterpiece of logic” when he—
Bob Jenkins came to a dead stop, his eyes widening.
They fixed on a portside seat near the front of the cabin. In it,
the man with the black beard was out cold again, snoring lustily.
Inside Bob’s head, the shy animal at last began to creep fearfully
into the light. Only it wasn’t small, as he had thought. That had
been his mistake. Sometimes you couldn’t see things because they
were too small, but sometimes you ignored things because they were
too big, too obvious.
The Sleeping Madonna.
The sleeping man.
He opened his mouth and tried to scream, but no
sound came out. His throat was locked. Terror sat on his chest like
an ape. He tried again to scream and managed no more than a
breathless squeak.
Sleeping madonna, sleeping man.
They, the survivors, had all been
asleep.
Now, with the exception of the bearded man, none
of them were asleep.
Bob opened his mouth once more, tried once more to
scream, and once more nothing came out.
15
“Holy Christ in the morning,” Brian
whispered.
The time-rip lay about ninety miles ahead, off to
the starboard side of the 767’s nose by no more than seven or eight
degrees. If it had drifted, it had not drifted much; Brian’s guess
was that the slight differential was the result of a minor
navigational error.
It was a lozenge-shaped hole in reality, but not a
black void. It cycled with a dim pink-purple light, like the aurora
borealis. Brian could see the stars beyond it, but they were also
rippling. A wide white ribbon of vapor was slowly streaming either
into or out of the shape which hung in the sky. It looked like some
strange, ethereal highway.
We can follow it right in, Brian thought
excitedly. It’s better than an ILS beacon!
“We’re in business!” he said, laughed idiotically,
and shook his clenched fists in the air.
“It must be two miles across,” Nick whispered. “My
God, Brian, how many other planes do you suppose went
through?”
“I don’t know,” Brian said, “but I’ll bet you my
gun and dog that we’re the only one with a shot at getting
back.”
He opened the intercom.
“Ladies and gentlemen, we’ve found what we were
looking for.” His voice crackled with triumph and relief. “I don’t
know exactly what happens next, or how, or why, but we have sighted
what appears to be an extremely large trapdoor in the sky. I’m
going to take us straight through the middle of it. We’ll find out
what’s on the other side together. Right now I’d like you all to
fasten your seatbelts and—”
That was when Bob Jenkins came pelting madly up the
aisle, screaming at the top of his lungs. “No! No! We’ll all die
if you go into it! Turn back! You’ve got to turn back!”
Brian swung around in his seat and exchanged a
puzzled look with Nick.
Nick unbuckled his belt and stood up. “That’s Bob
Jenkins,” he said. “Sounds like he’s worked himself up to a good
set of nerves. Carry on, Brian. I’ll handle him.”
“Okay,” Brian said. “Just keep him away from me.
I’d hate to have him grab me at the wrong second and send us into
the edge of that thing.”
He turned off the autopilot and took control of the
767 himself. The floor tilted gently to the right as he banked
toward the long, glowing slot ahead of them. It seemed to slide
across the sky until it was centered in front of the 767’s nose.
Now he could hear a sound mixing with the drone of the jet
engines—a deep throbbing noise, like a huge diesel idling. As they
approached the river of vapor—it was flowing into the hole, he now
saw, not out of it—he began to pick up flashes of color travelling
within it: green, blue, violet, red, candy pink. It’s the first
real color I’ve seen in this world, he thought.
Behind him, Bob Jenkins sprinted through the
first-class section, up the narrow aisle which led to the service
area . . . and right into Nick’s waiting arms.
“Easy, mate,” Nick soothed. “Everything’s going to
be all right now.”
“No!” Bob struggled wildly, but Nick held him as
easily as a man might hold a struggling kitten. “No, you don’t
understand! He’s got to turn back! He’s got to turn back before
it’s too late!”
Nick pulled the writer away from the cockpit door
and back into first class. “We’ll just sit down here and belt up
tight, shall we?” he said in that same soothing, chummy voice. “It
may be a trifle bumpy.”
To Brian, Nick’s voice was only a faint blur of
sound. As he entered the wide flow of vapor streaming into the
time-rip, he felt a large and immensely powerful hand seize the
plane, dragging it eagerly forward. He found himself thinking of
the leak on the flight from Tokyo to L.A., and of how fast air
rushed out of a hole in a pressurized environment.
It’s as if this whole world—or what is left of
it—is leaking through that hole, he thought, and then that
queer and ominous phrase from his dream recurred again: SHOOTING
STARS
ONLY.
The rip lay dead ahead of the 767’s nose now,
growing rapidly.
We’re going in, he thought. God help us,
we’re really going in.
16
Bob continued to struggle as Nick pinned him in
one of the first-class seats with one hand and worked to fasten his
seatbelt with the other. Bob was a small, skinny man, surely no
more than a hundred and forty pounds soaking wet, but panic had
animated him and he was making it extremely hard for Nick.
“We’re really going to be all right, matey,” Nick
said. He finally managed to click Bob’s seatbelt shut. “We were
when we came through, weren’t we?”
“We were all asleep when we came through, you
damned fool!” Bob shrieked into his face. “Don’t you
understand? WE WERE ASLEEP! You’ve got to stop him!”
Nick froze in the act of reaching for his own belt.
What Bob was saying—what he had been trying to say all
along—suddenly struck him like a dropped load of bricks.
“Oh dear God,” he whispered. “Dear God, what were
we thinking of?”
He leaped out of his seat and dashed for the
cockpit.
“Brian, stop! Turn back! Turn back!”
17
Brian had been staring into the rip, nearly
hypnotized, as they approached. There was no turbulence, but that
sense of tremendous power, of air rushing into the hole like a
mighty river, had increased. He looked down at his instruments and
saw the 767’s airspeed was increasing rapidly. Then Nick began to
shout, and a moment later the Englishman was behind him, gripping
his shoulders, staring at the rip as it swelled in front of the
jet’s nose, its play of deepening colors racing across his cheeks
and brow, making him look like a man staring at a stained-glass
window on a sunny day. The steady thrumming sound had become dark
thunder.
“Turn back, Brian, you have to turn
back!”
Did Nick have a reason for what he was saying, or
had Bob’s panic been infectious? There was no time to make a
decision on any rational basis; only a split-second to consult the
silent tickings of instinct.
Brain Engle grabbed the steering yoke and hauled it
hard over to port.
18
Nick was thrown across the cockpit and into a
bulkhead; there was a sickening crack as his arm broke. In the main
cabin, the luggage which had fallen from the overhead compartments
when Brian swerved onto the runway at BIA now flew once more,
striking the curved walls and thudding off the windows in a vicious
hail. The man with the black beard was thrown out of his seat like
a Cabbage Patch Kid and had time to utter one bleary squawk before
his head collided with the arm of a seat and he fell into the aisle
in an untidy tangle of limbs. Bethany screamed and Albert hugged
her tight against him. Two rows behind, Rudy Warwick closed his
eyes tighter, clutched his rosary harder, and prayed faster as his
seat tilted away beneath him.
Now there was turbulence; Flight 29 became a
surfboard with wings, rocking and twisting and thumping through the
unsteady air. Brian’s hands were momentarily thrown off the yoke
and then he grabbed it again. At the same time he opened the
throttle all the way to the stop and the plane’s turbos responded
with a deep snarl of power rarely heard outside of the airline’s
diagnostic hangars. The turbulence increased; the plane slammed
viciously up and down, and from somewhere came the deadly shriek of
overstressed metal.
In first class, Bob Jenkins clutched at the arms of
his seat, numbly grateful that the Englishman had managed to belt
him in. He felt as if he had been strapped to some madman’s
jet-powered pogo stick. The plane took another great leap, rocked
up almost to the vertical on its portside wing, and his false teeth
shot from his mouth.
Are we going in? Dear Jesus, are we?
He didn’t know. He only knew that the world was a
thumping, bucking nightmare . . . but he was still in it.
For the time being, at least, he was still in
it.
19
The turbulence continued to increase as Brian
drove the 767 across the wide stream of vapor feeding into the rip.
Ahead of him, the hole continued to swell in front of the plane’s
nose even as it continued sliding off to starboard. Then, after one
particularly vicious jolt, they came out of the rapids and into
smoother air. The time-rip disappeared to starboard. They had
missed it ... by how little Brian did not like to think.
He continued to bank the plane, but at a less
drastic angle. “Nick!” he shouted without turning around. “Nick,
are you all right?”
Nick got slowly to his feet, holding his right arm
against his belly with his left hand. His face was very white and
his teeth were set in a grimace of pain. Small trickles of blood
ran from his nostrils. “I’ve been better, mate. Broke my arm, I
think. Not the first time for this poor old fellow, either. We
missed it, didn’t we?”
“We missed it,” Brian agreed. He continued to bring
the plane back in a big, slow circle. “And in just a minute you’re
going to tell me why we missed it, when we came all this way
to find it. And it better be good, broken arm or no broken
arm.”
He reached for the intercom toggle.
20
Laurel opened her eyes as Brian began to speak and
discovered that Dinah’s head was in her lap. She stroked her hair
gently and then readjusted her position on the stretcher.
“This is Captain Engle, folks. I’m sorry about
that. It was pretty damned hairy, but we’re okay; I’ve got a green
board. Let me repeat that we’ve found what we were looking for,
but—”
He clicked off suddenly.
The others waited. Bethany Simms was sobbing
against Albert’s chest. Behind them, Rudy was still saying his
rosary.
21
Brian had broken his transmission when he realized
that Bob Jenkins was standing beside him. The writer was shaking,
there was a wet patch on his slacks, his mouth had an odd, sunken
look Brian hadn’t noticed before . . . but he seemed in charge of
himself. Behind him, Nick sat heavily in the co-pilot’s chair,
wincing as he did so and still cradling his arm. It had begun to
swell.
“What the hell is this all about?” Brian asked Bob
sternly. “A little more turbulence and this bitch would have broken
into about ten thousand pieces.”
“Can I talk through that thing?” Bob asked,
pointing to the switch marked INTERCOM.
“Yes, but—”
“Then let me do it.”
Brian started to protest, then thought better of
it. He flicked the switch. “Go ahead; you’re on.” Then he repeated:
“And it better be good.”
“Listen to me, all of you!” Bob shouted.
From behind them came a protesting whine of
feedback. “We—”
“Just talk in your normal tone of voice,” Brian
said. “You’ll blow their goddam eardrums out.”
Bob made a visible effort to compose himself, then
went on in a lower tone of voice. “We had to turn back, and we did.
The captain has made it clear to me that we only just managed to do
it. We have been extremely lucky . . . and extremely stupid, as
well. We forgot the most elementary thing, you see, although it was
right in front of us all the time. When we went through the
time-rip in the first place, everyone on the plane who was awake
disappeared.”
Brian jerked in his seat. He felt as if someone had
slugged him. Ahead of the 767’s nose, about thirty miles distant,
the faintly glowing lozenge shape had appeared again in the sky,
looking like some gigantic semi-precious stone. It seemed to mock
him.
“We are all awake,” Bob said. (In the main
cabin, Albert looked at the man with the black beard lying out cold
in the aisle and thought, With one exception.) “Logic
suggests that if we try to go through that way, we will
disappear.” He thought about this and then said, “That is
all.”
Brian flicked the intercom link closed without
thinking about it. Behind him, Nick voiced a painful, incredulous
laugh.
“That is all? That is bloody all? What do we
do about it?”
Brian looked at him and didn’t answer. Neither did
Bob Jenkins.
22
Bethany raised her head and looked into Albert’s
strained, bewildered face. “We have to go to sleep? How do we do
that? I never felt less like sleeping in my whole
life!”
“I don’t know.” He looked hopefully across the
aisle at Laurel. She was already shaking her head. She wished she
could go to sleep, just go to sleep and make this whole
crazy nightmare gone—but, like Bethany, she had never felt
less like it in her entire life.
23
Bob took a step forward and gazed out through the
cockpit window in silent fascination. After a long moment he said
in a soft, awed voice: “So that’s what it looks like.”
A line from some rock-and-roll song popped into
Brian’s head: You can look but you better not touch. He
glanced down at the LED fuel indicators. What he saw there didn’t
ease his mind any, and he raised his eyes helplessly to Nick’s.
Like the others, he had never felt so wide awake in his life.
“I don’t know what we do now,” he said, “but if
we’re going to try that hole, it has to be soon. The fuel we’ve got
will carry us for an hour, maybe a little more. After that, forget
it. Got any ideas?”
Nick lowered his head, still cradling his swelling
arm. After a moment or two he looked up again. “Yes,” he said. “As
a matter of fact, I do. People who fly rarely stick their
prescription medicine in their checked baggage—they like to have it
with them in case their luggage ends up on the other side of the
world and takes a few days to get back to them. If we go through
the hand-carry bags, we’re sure to find scads of sedatives. We
won’t even have to take the bags out of the bins. Judging from the
sounds, most of them are already lying on the floor . . . what?
What’s the matter with it?”
This last was directed at Bob Jenkins, who had
begun shaking his head as soon as the phrase “prescription
medicines” popped out of Nick’s mouth.
“Do you know anything about prescription
sedatives?” he asked Nick.
“A little,” Nick said, but he sounded defensive. “A
little, yeah.”
“Well, I know a lot,” Bob said dryly. “I’ve
researched them exhaustively—from All-Nite to Xanax. Murder by
sleeping potion has always been a great favorite in my field, you
understand. Even if you happened to find one of the more potent
medications in the very first bag you checked—unlikely in
itself—you couldn’t administer a safe dose which would act quickly
enough.”
“Why bloody not?”
“Because it would take at least forty minutes for
the stuff to work . . . and I strongly doubt it would work
on everyone. The natural reaction of minds under stress to such
medication is to fight—to try to refuse it. There is absolutely no
way to combat such a reaction, Nick . . . you might as well try to
legislate your own heartbeat. What you’d do, always supposing you
found a supply of medication large enough to allow it, would be to
administer a series of lethal overdoses and turn the plane into
Jonestown. We might all come through, but we’d be dead.”
“Forty minutes,” Nick said. “Christ. Are you sure?
Are you absolutely sure?”
“Yes,” Bob said unflinchingly.
Brian looked out at the glowing lozenge shape in
the sky. He had put Flight 29 into a circling pattern and the rip
was on the verge of disappearing again. It would be back shortly .
. . but they would be no closer to it.
“I can’t believe it,” Nick said heavily. “To go
through the things we’ve gone through . . . to have taken off
successfully and come all this way ... to have actually
found the bloody thing ... and then we find out we can’t go
through it and back to our own time just because we can’t go to
sleep?”
“We don’t have forty minutes, anyway,” Brian said
quietly. “If we waited that long, this plane would crash sixty
miles east of the airport.”
“Surely there are other fields—”
“There are, but none big enough to handle an
airplane of this size.”
“If we went through and then turned back east
again?”
“Vegas. But Vegas is going to be out of reach in
...” Brian glanced at his instruments. “. . . less than eight
minutes. I think it has to be LAX. I’ll need at least thirty-five
minutes to get there. That’s cutting it extremely fine even if they
clear everything out of our way and vector us straight in. That
gives us ...” He looked at the chronometer again. “... twenty
minutes at most to figure this thing out and get through the
hole.”
Bob was looking thoughtfully at Nick. “What about
you?” he asked.
“What do you mean, what about me?”
“I think you’re a soldier ... but I don’t think
you’re an ordinary one. Might you be SAS, perhaps?”
Nick’s face tightened. “And if I was that or
something like it, mate?”
“Maybe you could put us to sleep,” Bob said. “Don’t
they teach you Special Forces men tricks like that?”
Brian’s mind flashed back to Nick’s first
confrontation with Craig Toomy. Have you ever watched Star
Trek? he had asked Craig. Marvellous American program . . . And
if you don’t shut your gob at once, you bloody idiot, I’ll be happy
to demonstrate Mr. Spock’s famous Vulcan sleeper-hold for
you.
“What about it, Nick?” he said softly. “If we ever
needed the famous Vulcan sleeper-hold, it’s now.”
Nick looked unbelievingly from Bob to Brian and
then back to Bob again. “Please don’t make me laugh, gents—it makes
my arm hurt worse.”
“What does that mean?” Bob asked.
“I’ve got my sedatives all wrong, have I? Well, let
me tell you both that you’ve got it all wrong about me. I am
not James Bond. There never was a James Bond in the
real world. I suppose I might be able to kill you with a neck-chop,
Bob, but I’d more likely just leave you paralyzed for life. Might
not even knock you out. And then there’s this.” Nick held up his
rapidly swelling right arm with a little wince. “My smart hand
happens to be attached to my recently re-broken arm. I could
perhaps defend myself with my left hand—against an unschooled
opponent—but the kind of thing you’re talking about? No. No
way.”
“You’re all forgetting the most important thing of
all,” a new voice said.
They turned. Laurel Stevenson, white and haggard,
was standing in the cockpit door. She had folded her arms across
her breasts as if she was cold and was cupping her elbows in her
hands.
“If we’re all knocked out, who is going to fly the
plane?” she asked. “Who is going to fly the plane into L.A.?”
The three men gaped at her wordlessly. Behind them,
unnoticed, the large semi-precious stone that was the time-rip
glided into view again.
“We’re fucked,” Nick said quietly. “Do you know
that? We are absolutely dead-out fucked.” He laughed a little, then
winced as his stomach jogged his broken arm.
“Maybe not,” Albert said. He and Bethany had
appeared behind Laurel; Albert had his arm around the girl’s waist.
His hair was plastered against his forehead in sweaty ringlets, but
his dark eyes were clear and intent. They were focussed on Brian.
“I think you can put us to sleep,” he said, “and I think
you can land us.”
“What are you talking about?” Brian asked
roughly.
Albert replied: “Pressure. I’m talking about
pressure.”
24
Brian’s dream recurred to him then, recurred with
such terrible force that he might have been reliving it: Anne with
her hand plastered over the crack in the body of the plane, the
crack with the words SHOOTING STARS ONLY printed over it in
red.
Pressure.
See, darling? It’s all taken care of.
“What does he mean, Brian?” Nick asked. “I can see
he’s got something—your face says so. What is it?”
Brian ignored him. He looked steadily at the
seventeen-year-old music student who might just have thought of a
way out of the box they were in.
“What about after?” he asked. “What about after we
come through? How do I wake up again so I can land the
plane?”
“Will somebody please explain this?” Laurel
pleaded. She had gone to Nick, who put his good arm around her
waist.
“Albert is suggesting that I use this”—Brian tapped
a rheostat on the control board, a rheostat marked CABIN PRESSURE—“
to knock us all out cold.”
“Can you do that, mate? Can you really do
that?”
“Yes,” Brian said. “I’ve known pilots—charter
pilots ... who have done it, when passengers who’ve had too
much to drink started cutting up and endangering either themselves
or the crew. Knocking out a drunk by lowering the air pressure
isn’t that difficult. To knock out everyone, all I have to do is
lower it some more ... to half sea-level pressure, say. It’s like
ascending to a height of two miles without an oxygen mask. Boom!
You’re out cold.”
“If you can really do that, why hasn’t it been used
on terrorists?” Bob asked.
“Because there are oxygen masks, right?”
Albert asked.
“Yes,” Brian said. “The cabin crew demonstrates
them at the start of every commercial jet-night—put the gold cup
over your mouth and nose and breathe normally, right? They drop
automatically when cabin pressure falls below twelve psi. If a
hostage pilot tried to knock out a terrorist by lowering the air
pressure, all the terrorist would have to do is grab a mask, put it
on, and start shooting. On smaller jets, like the Lear, that isn’t
the case. If the cabin loses pressure, the passenger has to open
the overhead compartment himself.”
Nick looked at the chronometer. Their window was
now only fourteen minutes wide.
“I think we better stop talking about it and just
do it,” he said. “Time is getting very short.”
“Not yet,” Brian said, and looked at Albert again.
“I can bring us back in line with the rip, Albert, and start
decreasing pressure as we head toward it. I can control the cabin
pressure pretty accurately, and I’m pretty sure I can put us all
out before we go through. But that leaves Laurel’s question: who
flies the airplane if we’re all knocked out?”
Albert opened his mouth; closed it again and shook
his head.
Bob Jenkins spoke up then. His voice was dry and
toneless, the voice of a judge pronouncing doom. “I think you can
fly us home, Brian. But someone else will have to die in order for
you to do it.”
“Explain,” Nick said crisply.
Bob did so. It didn’t take long. By the time he
finished, Rudy Warwick had joined the little group standing in the
cockpit door.
“Would it work, Brian?” Nick asked.
“Yes,” Brian said absently. “No reason why not.” He
looked at the chronometer again. Eleven minutes now. Eleven minutes
to get across to the other side of the rip. It would take almost
that long to line the plane up, program the autopilot, and move
them along the forty-mile approach. “But who’s going to do it? Do
the rest of you draw straws, or what?”
“No need for that,” Nick said. He spoke lightly,
almost casually. “I’ll do it.”
“No!” Laurel said. Her eyes were very wide and very
dark. “Why you? Why does it have to be you?”
“Shut up!” Bethany hissed at her. “If he wants to,
let him!”
Albert glanced unhappily at Bethany, at Laurel, and
then back at Nick. A voice—not a very strong one—was whispering
that he should have volunteered, that this was a job for a tough
Alamo survivor like The Arizona Jew. But most of him was only aware
that he loved life very much . . . and did not want it to end just
yet. So he opened his mouth and then closed it again without
speaking.
“Why you?” Laurel asked again, urgently. “Why
shouldn’t we draw straws? Why not Bob? Or Rudy? Why not
me?”
Nick took her arm. “Come with me a moment,” he
said.
“Nick, there’s not much time,” Brian said. He tried
to keep his tone of voice even, but he could hear
desperation—perhaps even panic—bleeding through.
“I know. Start doing the things you have to
do.”
Nick drew Laurel through the door.
25
She resisted for a moment, then came along. He
stopped in the small galley alcove and faced her. In that moment,
with his face less than four inches from hers, she realized a
dismal truth—he was the man she had been hoping to find in Boston.
He had been on the plane all the time. There was nothing at all
romantic about this discovery; it was horrible.
“I think we might have had something, you and me,”
he said. “Do you think I could be right about that? If you do, say
so—there’s no time to dance. Absolutely none.”
“Yes,” she said. Her voice was dry, uneven. “I
think that’s right. ”
“But we don’t know. We can’t know. It all
comes back to time, doesn’t it? Time . . . and sleep . . . and not
knowing. But I have to be the one, Laurel. I have tried to keep
some reasonable account of myself, and all my books are deeply in
the red. This is my chance to balance them, and I mean to take
it.”
“I don’t understand what you mea—”
“No—but I do.” He spoke fast, almost rapping his
words. Now he reached out and took her forearm and drew her even
closer to him. “You were on an adventure of some sort, weren’t you,
Laurel?”
“I don’t know what you’re—”
He gave her a brisk shake. “I told you—there’s no
time to dance! Were you on an adventure?”
“I ... yes.”
“Nick!” Brian called from the cockpit.
Nick looked rapidly in that direction. “Coming!” he
shouted, and then looked back at Laurel. “I’m going to send you on
another one. If you get out of this, that is, and if you agree to
go.”
She only looked at him, her lips trembling. She had
no idea of what to say. Her mind was tumbling helplessly. His grip
on her arm was very tight, but she would not be aware of that until
later, when she saw the bruises left by his fingers; at that
moment, the grip of his eyes was much stronger.
“Listen. Listen carefully.” He paused and then
spoke with peculiar, measured emphasis: “I was going to quit it.
I’d made up my mind.”
“Quit what?” she asked in a small, quivery
voice.
Nick shook his head impatiently. “Doesn’t matter.
What matters is whether or not you believe me. Do you?”
“Yes,” she said. “I don’t know what you’re talking
about, but I believe you mean it.”
“Nick!” Brian warned from the cockpit.
“We’re heading toward it!”
He shot a glance toward the cockpit again, his eyes
narrow and gleaming. “Coming just now!” he called. When he looked
at her again, Laurel thought she had never in her life been the
focus of such ferocious, focussed intensity. “My father lives in
the village of Fluting, south of London,” he said. “Ask for him in
any shop along the High Street. Mr. Hopewell. The older ones still
call him the gaffer. Go to him and tell him I’d made up my mind to
quit it. You’ll need to be persistent; he tends to turn away and
curse loudly when he hears my name. The old I-have-no-son bit. Can
you be persistent?”
“Yes.”
He nodded and smiled grimly. “Good! Repeat what
I’ve told you, and tell him you believed me. Tell him I tried my
best to atone for the day behind the church in Belfast.”
“In Belfast.”
“Right. And if you can’t get him to listen any
other way, tell him he must listen. Because of the daisies.
The time I brought the daisies. Can you remember that, as
well?”
“Because once you brought him daisies.”
Nick seemed to almost laugh—but she had never seen
a face filled with such sadness and bitterness. “No—not to him, but
it’ll do. That’s your adventure. Will you do it?”
“Yes ... but . . .”
“Good. Laurel, thank you.” He put his left hand
against the nape of her neck, pulled her face to his, and kissed
her. His mouth was cold, and she tasted fear on his breath.
A moment later he was gone.
26
“Are we going to feel like we’re—you know,
choking?” Bethany asked. “Suffocating?”
“No,” Brian said. He had gotten up to see if Nick
was coming; now, as Nick reappeared with a very shaken Laurel
Stevenson behind him, Brian dropped back into his seat. “You’ll
feel a little giddy ... swimmy in the head ... then, nothing.” He
glanced at Nick. “Until we all wake up.”
“Right!” Nick said cheerily. “And who knows? I may
still be right here. Bad pennies have a way of turning up, you
know. Don’t they, Brian?”
“Anything’s possible, I guess,” Brian said. He
pushed the throttle forward slightly. The sky was growing bright
again. The rip lay dead ahead. “Sit down, folks. Nick, right up
here beside me. I’m going to show you what to do ... and when to do
it.”
“One second, please,” Laurel said. She had regained
some of her color and self-possession. She stood on tiptoe and
planted a kiss on Nick’s mouth.
“Thank you,” Nick said gravely.
“You were going to quit it. You’d made up your
mind. And if he won’t listen, I’m to remind him of the day you
brought the daisies. Have I got it right?”
He grinned. “Letter-perfect, my love.
Letter-perfect.” He encircled her with his left arm and kissed her
again, long and hard. When he let her go, there was a gentle,
thoughtful smile on his mouth. “That’s the one to go on,” he said.
“Right enough.”
27
Three minutes later, Brian opened the intercom.
“I’m starting to decrease pressure now. Check your belts,
everyone.”
They did so. Albert waited tensely for some
sound—the hiss of escaping air, perhaps—but there was only the
steady, droning mumble of the jet engines. He felt more wide awake
than ever.
“Albert?” Bethany said in a small, scared voice.
“Would you hold me, please?”
“Yes,” Albert said. “If you’ll hold me.”
Behind them, Rudy Warwick was telling his rosary
again. Across the aisle, Laurel Stevenson gripped the arms of her
seat. She could still feel the warm print of Nick Hopewell’s lips
on her mouth. She raised her head, looked at the overhead
compartment, and began to take deep, slow breaths. She was waiting
for the masks to fall . . . and ninety seconds or so later, they
did.
Remember about the day in Belfast, too, she
thought. Behind the church. An act of atonement, he said. An act .
. .
In the middle of that thought, her mind drifted
away.
28
“You know . . . what to do?” Brian asked again. He
spoke in a dreamy, furry voice. Ahead of them, the time-rip was
once more swelling in the cockpit windows, spreading across the
sky. It was now lit with dawn, and a fantastic new array of colors
coiled, swam, and then streamed away into its queer depths.
“I know,” Nick said. He was standing beside Brian
and his words were muffled by the oxygen mask he wore. Above the
rubber seal, his eyes were calm and clear. “No fear, Brian. All’s
safe as houses. Off to sleep you go. Sweet dreams, and all
that.”
Brian was fading now. He could feel himself going .
. . and yet he hung on, staring at the vast fault in the fabric of
reality. It seemed to be swelling toward the cockpit windows,
reaching for the plane. It’s so beautiful, he thought.
God, it’s so beautiful !
He felt that invisible hand seize the plane and
draw it forward again. No turning back this time.
“Nick,” he said. It now took a tremendous effort to
speak; he felt as if his mouth was a hundred miles away from his
brain. He held his hand up. It seemed to stretch away from him at
the end of a long taffy arm.
“Go to sleep,” Nick said, taking his hand. “Don’t
fight it, unless you want to go with me. It won’t be long
now.”
“I just wanted to say ... thank you.”
Nick smiled and gave Brian’s hand a squeeze.
“You’re welcome, mate. It’s been a flight to remember. Even without
the movie and the free mimosas.”
Brian looked back into the rip. A river of gorgeous
colors flowed into it now. They spiralled . . . mixed . . . and
seemed to form words before his dazed, wondering eyes:
SHOOTING STARS ONLY
“Is that . . . what we are?” he asked curiously,
and now his voice came to him from some distant universe.
The darkness swallowed him.
29
Nick was alone now; the only person awake on
Flight 29 was a man who had once gunned down three boys behind a
church in Belfast, three boys who had been chucking potatoes
painted dark gray to look like grenades. Why had they done such a
thing? Had it been some mad sort of dare? He had never found
out.
He was not afraid, but an intense loneliness filled
him. The feeling wasn’t a new one. This was not the first watch he
had stood alone, with the lives of others in his hands.
Ahead of him, the rip neared. He dropped his hand
to the rheostat which controlled the cabin pressure.
It’s gorgeous, he thought. It seemed to him
that the colors that now blazed out of the rip were the antithesis
of everything which they had experienced in the last few hours; he
was looking into a crucible of new life and new motion.
Why shouldn’t it be beautiful? This is the place
where life—all life, maybe—begins. The place where life is freshly
minted every second of every day; the cradle of creation and the
wellspring of time. No langoliers allowed beyond this
point.
Colors ran across his cheeks and brows in a
fountain-spray of hues: jungle green was overthrown by lava orange;
lava orange was replaced by yellow-white tropical sunshine;
sunshine was supplanted by the chilly blue of Northern oceans. The
roar of the jet engines seemed muted and distant; he looked down
and was not surprised to see that Brian Engle’s slumped, sleeping
form was being consumed by color, his form and features overthrown
in an ever-changing kaleidoscope of brightness. He had become a
fabulous ghost.
Nor was Nick surprised to see that his own hands
and arms were as colorless as clay. Brian’s not the ghost; I
am.
The rip loomed.
Now the sound of the jets was lost entirely in a
new sound; the 767 seemed to be rushing through a windtunnel filled
with feathers. Suddenly, directly ahead of the airliner’s nose, a
vast nova of light exploded like a heavenly firework; in it, Nick
Hopewell saw colors no man had ever imagined. It did not just fill
the time-rip; it filled his mind, his nerves, his muscles, his very
bones in a gigantic, coruscating fireflash.
“Oh my God, so BEAUTIFUL!” he cried,
and as Flight 29 plunged into the rip, he twisted the
cabin-pressure rheostat back up to full.
A split-second later the fillings from Nick’s teeth
pattered onto the cockpit floor. There was a small thump as the
Teflon disc which had been in his knee—souvenir of a conflict
marginally more honorable than the one in Northern Ireland—joined
them. That was all.
Nick Hopewell had ceased to exist.
30
The first things Brian was aware of were that his
shirt was wet and his headache had returned.
He sat up slowly in his seat, wincing at the bolt
of pain in his head, and tried to remember who he was, where he
was, and why he felt such a vast and urgent need to wake up
quickly. What had he been doing that was so important?
The leak, his mind whispered. There’s a leak in
the main cabin, and if it isn’t stabilized, there’s going to be big
tr—
No, that wasn’t right. The leak had been
stabilized—or had in some mysterious way stabilized itself—and he
had landed Flight 7 safely at LAX. Then the man in the green blazer
had come, and—
It’s Anne’s funeral! My God, I’ve
overslept!
His eyes flew open, but he was in neither a motel
room nor the spare bedroom at Anne’s brother’s house in Revere. He
was looking through a cockpit window at a sky filled with
stars.
Suddenly it came back to him . . .
everything.
He sat up all the way, too quickly. His head
screamed a sickly hungover protest. Blood flew from his nose and
splattered on the center control console. He looked down and saw
the front of his shirt was soaked with it. There had been a leak,
all right. In him.
Of course, he thought. Depressurization
often does that. I should have warned the passengers . . . How many
passengers do I have left, by the way?
He couldn’t remember. His head was filled with
fog.
He looked at his fuel indicators, saw that their
situation was rapidly approaching the critical point, and then
checked the INS. They were exactly where they should be, descending
rapidly toward L.A., and at any moment they might wander into
someone else’s airspace while the someone else was still
there.
Someone else had been sharing his airspace just
before he passed out . . . who?
He fumbled, and it came. Nick, of course. Nick
Hopewell. Nick was gone. He hadn’t been such a bad penny after all,
it seemed. But he must have done his job, or Brian wouldn’t be
awake now.
He got on the radio, fast.
“LAX ground control, this is American Pride
Flight—” He stopped. What flight were they? He couldn’t remember.
The fog was in the way.
“Twenty-nine, aren’t we?” a dazed, unsteady voice
said from behind him.
“Thank you, Laurel.” Brian didn’t turn around. “Now
go back and belt up. I may have to make this plane do some
tricks.”
He spoke into his mike again.
“American Pride Flight 29, repeat, two-niner.
Mayday, ground control, I am declaring an emergency here. Please
clear everything in front of me, I am coming in on heading 85 and I
have no fuel. Get a foam truck out and—”
“Oh, quit it,” Laurel said dully from behind him.
“Just quit it.”
Brian wheeled around then, ignoring the fresh bolt
of pain through his head and the fresh spray of blood which flew
from his nose. “Sit down, goddammit!” he snarled. “We’re
coming in unannounced into heavy traffic. If you don’t want to
break your neck—”
“There’s no heavy traffic down there,” Laurel said
in the same dull voice. “No heavy traffic, no foam trucks. Nick
died for nothing, and I’ll never get a chance to deliver his
message. Look for yourself.”
Brian did. And, although they were now over the
outlying suburbs of Los Angeles, he saw nothing but darkness.
There was no one down there, it seemed.
No one at all.
Behind him, Laurel Stevenson burst into harsh,
raging sobs of terror and frustration.
31
A long white passenger jet cruised slowly above
the ground sixteen miles east of Los Angeles International Airport.
767 was printed on its tail in large, proud numerals. Along the
fuselage, the words AMERICAN PRIDE were written in letters which
had been raked backward to indicate speed. On both sides of the
nose was a large red eagle, its wings spangled with blue stars.
Like the airliner it decorated, the eagle appeared to be coming in
for a landing.
The plane printed no shadow on the deserted grid of
streets as it passed above them; dawn was still an hour away. Below
it, no car moved, no streetlight glowed. Below it, all was silent
and moveless. Ahead of it, no runway lights gleamed.
The plane’s belly slid open. The undercarriage
dropped down and spread out. The landing gear locked in
place.
American Pride Flight 29 slipped down the chute
toward L.A. It banked slightly to the right as it came; Brian was
now able to correct his course visually, and he did so. They passed
over a cluster of airport motels, and for a moment Brian could see
the monument that stood near the center of the terminal complex, a
graceful tripod with curved legs and a restaurant in its center.
They passed over a short strip of dead grass and then concrete
runway was unrolling thirty feet below the plane.
There was no time to baby the 767 in this time;
Brian’s fuel indicators read zeros across and the bird was about to
turn into a bitch. He brought it in hard, like a sled filled with
bricks. There was a thud that rattled his teeth and started his
nose bleeding again. His chest harness locked. Laurel, who was in
the co-pilot’s seat, cried out.
Then he had the flaps up and was applying reverse
thrusters at full. The plane began to slow. They were doing a
little over a hundred miles an hour when two of the thrusters cut
out and the red ENGINE SHUTDOWN lights flashed on. He grabbed for
the intercom switch.
“Hang on! We’re going in hard! Hang on!”
Thrusters two and four kept running a few moments
longer, and then they were gone, too. Flight 29 rushed down the
runway in ghastly silence, with only the flaps to slow her now.
Brian watched helplessly as the concrete ran away beneath the plane
and the crisscross tangle of taxiways loomed. And there, dead
ahead, sat the carcass of a Pacific Airways commuter jet.
The 767 was still doing at least sixty-five. Brian
horsed it to the right, leaning into the dead steering yoke with
every ounce of his strength. The plane responded soupily, and he
skated by the parked jet with only six feet to spare. Its windows
flashed past like a row of blind eyes.
Then they were rolling toward the United terminal,
where at least a dozen planes were parked at extended jetways like
nursing infants. The 767’s speed was down to just over thirty
now.
“Brace yourselves!” Brian shouted into the
intercom, momentarily forgetting that his own plane was now as dead
as the rest of them and the intercom was useless. “Brace
yourselves for a collision! Bra—” American Pride 29 crashed
into Gate 29 of the United Airlines terminal at roughly twenty-nine
miles an hour. There was a loud, hollow bang followed by the sound
of crumpling metal and breaking glass. Brian was thrown into his
harness again, then snapped back into his seat. He sat there for a
moment, stiff, waiting for the explosion ... and then remembered
there was nothing left in the tanks to explode.
He flicked all the switches on the control panel
off—the panel was dead, but the habit ran deep—and then turned to
check on Laurel. She looked at him with dull, apathetic eyes.
“That was about as close as I’d ever want to cut
it,” Brian said unsteadily.
“You should have let us crash. Everything we tried
. . . Dinah . . . Nick . . . all for nothing. It’s just the same
here. Just the same.”
Brian unbuckled his harness and got shakily to his
feet. He took his handkerchief out of his back pocket and handed it
to her. “Wipe your nose. It’s bleeding.”
She took the handkerchief and then only looked at
it, as if she had never seen one before in her life.
Brian passed her and plodded slowly into the main
cabin. He stood in the doorway, counting noses. His
passengers—those few still remaining, that was—seemed all right.
Bethany’s head was pressed against Albert’s chest and she was
sobbing hard. Rudy Warwick unbuckled his seatbelt, got up, rapped
his head on the overhead bin, and sat down again. He looked at
Brian with dazed, uncomprehending eyes. Brian found himself
wondering if Rudy was still hungry. He guessed not.
“Let’s get off the plane,” Brian said.
Bethany raised her head. “When do they come?” she
asked him hysterically. “How long will it be before they come this
time? Can anyone hear them yet?”
Fresh pain stroked Brian’s head and he rocked on
his feet, suddenly quite sure he was going to faint.
A steadying arm slipped around his waist and he
looked around, surprised. It was Laurel.
“Captain Engle’s right,” she said quietly. “Let’s
get off the plane. Maybe it’s not as bad as it looks.”
Bethany uttered a hysterical bark of laughter. “How
bad can it look?” she demanded. “Just how bad can it—”
“Something’s different,” Albert said suddenly. He
was looking out the window. “Something’s changed. I can’t tell what
it is ... but it’s not the same.” He looked first at Bethany, then
at Brian and Laurel. “It’s just not the same.”
Brian bent down next to Bob Jenkins and looked out
the window. He could see nothing very different from BIA—there were
more planes, of course, but they were just as deserted, just as
dead—yet he felt that Albert might be onto something, just the
same. It was feeling more than seeing. Some essential
difference which he could not quite grasp. It danced just beyond
his reach, as the name of his ex-wife’s perfume had done.
It’s L’ Envoi, darling. It’s what I’ve always
worn, don’t you remember?
Don’t you remember?
“Come on,” he said. “This time we use the cockpit
exit.”
32
Brian opened the trapdoor which lay below the jut
of the instrument panel and tried to remember why he hadn’t used it
to offload his passengers at Bangor International; it was a hell of
a lot easier to use than the slide. There didn’t seem to be a why.
He just hadn’t thought of it, probably because he was trained to
think of the escape slide before anything else in an
emergency.
He dropped down into the forward-hold area, ducked
below a cluster of electrical cables, and undogged the hatch in the
floor of the 767’s nose. Albert joined him and helped Bethany down.
Brian helped Laurel, and then he and Albert helped Rudy, who moved
as if his bones had turned to glass. Rudy was still clutching his
rosary tight in one hand. The space below the cockpit was now very
cramped, and Bob Jenkins waited for them above, propped on his
hands and peering down at them through the trapdoor.
Brian pulled the ladder out of its storage clips,
secured it in place, and then, one by one, they descended to the
tarmac, Brian first, Bob last.
As Brian’s feet touched down, he felt a mad urge to
place his hand over his heart and cry out: I claim this land of
rancid milk and sour honey for the survivors of Flight 29 ... at
least until the langoliers arrive!
He said nothing. He only stood there with the
others below the loom of the jetliner’s nose, feeling a light
breeze against one cheek and looking around. In the distance he
heard a sound. It was not the chewing, crunching sound of which
they had gradually become aware in Bangor—nothing like it—but he
couldn’t decide exactly what it did sound like.
“What’s that?” Bethany asked. “What’s that humming?
It sounds like electricity.”
“No, it doesn’t,” Bob said thoughtfully. “It sounds
like . . .” He shook his head.
“It doesn’t sound like anything I’ve ever
heard before,” Brian said, but he wasn’t sure if that was true.
Again he was haunted by the sense that something he knew or should
know was dancing just beyond his mental grasp.
“It’s them, isn’t it?” Bethany asked
half-hysterically. “It’s them, coming. It’s the langoliers Dinah
told us about.”
“I don’t think so. It doesn’t sound the same at
all.” But he felt the fear begin in his belly just the same.
“Now what?” Rudy asked. His voice was as harsh as a
crow’s. “Do we start all over again?”
“Well, we won’t need the conveyor belt, and that’s
a start,” Brian said. “The jetway service door is open.” He stepped
out from beneath the 767’s nose and pointed. The force of their
arrival at Gate 29 had knocked the rolling ladder away from the
door, but it would be easy enough to slip it back into position.
“Come on.”
They walked toward the ladder.
“Albert?” Brian said. “Help me with the lad—”
“Wait,” Bob said.
Brian turned his head and saw Bob looking around
with cautious wonder. And the expression in his previously dazed
eyes . . . was that hope?
“What? What is it, Bob? What do you see?”
“Just another deserted airport. It’s what I
feel.” He raised a hand to his cheek . . . then simply held
it out in the air, like a man trying to flag a ride.
Brian started to ask him what he meant, and
realized that he knew. Hadn’t he noticed it himself while they had
been standing under the liner’s nose? Noticed it and then dismissed
it?
There was a breeze blowing against his face. Not
much of a breeze, hardly more than a puff, but it was a
breeze. The air was in motion.
“Holy crow,” Albert said. He popped a finger into
his mouth, wetting it, and held it up. An unbelieving grin touched
his face.
“That isn’t all, either,” Laurel said.
“Listen!”
She dashed from where they were standing down
toward the 767’s wing. Then she ran back to them again, her hair
streaming out behind her. The high heels she was wearing clicked
crisply on the concrete.
“Did you hear it?” she asked them. “Did you
hear it?”
They had heard. The flat, muffled quality was gone.
Now, just listening to Laurel speak, Brian realized that in Bangor
they had all sounded as if they had been talking with their heads
poked inside bells which had been cast from some dulling
metal—brass, or maybe lead.
Bethany raised her hands and rapidly clapped out
the back-beat of the old Routers instrumental, “Let’s Go.” Each
clap was as clean and clear as the pop of a track-starter’s pistol.
A delighted grin broke over her face.
“What does it m—” Rudy began.
“The plane!” Albert shouted in a
high-pitched, gleeful voice, and for a moment Brian was absurdly
reminded of the little guy on that old TV show, Fantasy
Island. He almost laughed out loud. “I know what’s different!
Look at the plane! Now it’s the same as all the
others!”
They turned and looked. No one said anything for a
long moment; perhaps no one was capable of speech. The Delta 727
standing next to the American Pride jetliner in Bangor had looked
dull and dingy, somehow less real than the 767. Now all the
aircraft—Flight 29 and the United planes lined up along the
extended jetways behind it—looked equally bright, equally new. Even
in the dark, their paintwork and trademark logos appeared to
gleam.
“What does it mean?” Rudy asked, speaking to Bob.
“What does it mean? If things have really gone back to normal,
where’s the electricity? Where are the people?”
“And what’s that noise?” Albert put in.
The sound was already closer, already clearer. It
was a humming sound, as Bethany had said, but there was nothing
electrical about it. It sounded like wind blowing across an open
pipe, or an inhuman choir which was uttering the same open-throated
syllable in unison: aaaaaaa ...
Bob shook his head. “I don’t know,” he said,
turning away. “Let’s push that ladder back into position and go
in—”
Laurel grabbed his shoulder.
“You know something!” she said. Her voice was
strained and tense. “I can see that you do. Let the rest of us in
on it, why don’t you?”
He hesitated for a moment before shaking his head.
“I’m not prepared to say right now, Laurel. I want to go inside and
look around first.”
With that they had to be content. Brian and Albert
pushed the ladder back into position. One of the supporting struts
had buckled slightly, and Brian held it as they ascended one by
one. He himself came last, walking on the side of the ladder away
from the buckled strut. The others had waited for him, and they
walked up the jetway and into the terminal together.
They found themselves in a large, round room with
boarding gates located at intervals along the single curving wall.
The rows of seats stood ghostly and deserted, the overhead
fluorescents were dark squares, but here Albert thought he could
almost smell other people . . . as if they had all trooped
out only seconds before the Flight 29 survivors emerged from the
jetway.
From outside, that choral humming continued to
swell, approaching like a slow invisible wave:
—aaaaaaaaaaaaaa—
“Come with me,” Bob Jenkins said, taking effortless
charge of the group. “Quickly, please.”
He set off toward the concourse. and the others
fell into line behind him, Albert and Bethany walking together with
arms linked about each other’s waists. Once off the carpeted
surface of the United boarding lounge and in the concourse itself,
their heels clicked and echoed, as if there were two dozen of them
instead of only six. They passed dim, dark advertising posters on
the walls: Watch CNN, Smoke Marlboros, Drive Hertz, Read
Newsweek, See Disneyland.
And that sound, that open-throated choral humming
sound, continued to grow. Outside, Laurel had been convinced the
sound had been approaching them from the west. Now it seemed to be
right in here with them, as though the singers—if they were
singers—had already arrived. The sound did not frighten her,
exactly, but it made the flesh of her arms and back prickle with
awe.
They reached a cafeteria-style restaurant, and Bob
led them inside. Without pausing, he went around the counter and
took a wrapped pastry from a pile of them on the counter. He tried
to tear it open with his teeth . . . then realized his teeth were
back on the plane. He made a small, disgusted sound and tossed it
over the counter to Albert.
“You do it,” he said. His eyes were glowing now.
“Quickly, Albert! Quickly!”
“Quick, Watson, the game’s afoot!” Albert said, and
laughed crazily. He tore open the cellophane and looked at Bob, who
nodded. Albert took out the pastry and bit into it. Cream and
raspberry jam squirted out the sides. Albert grinned. “Ith
delicious!” he said in a muffled voice, spraying crumbs as he
spoke. “Delicious!” He offered it to Bethany, who took an
even larger bite.
Laurel could smell the raspberry filling, and her
stomach made a goinging, boinging sound. She laughed. Suddenly she
felt giddy, joyful, almost stoned. The cobwebs from the
depressurization experience were entirely gone; her head felt like
an upstairs room after a fresh sea breeze had blown in on a hot and
horribly muggy afternoon. She thought of Nick, who wasn’t here, who
had died so the rest of them could be here, and thought that Nick
would not have minded her feeling this way.
The choral sound continued to swell, a sound with
no direction at all, a sourceless, singing sigh that existed all
around them:
—AAAAAAAAAAAAAA—
Bob Jenkins raced back around the counter, cutting
the corner by the cash register so tightly that his feet almost
flew out from beneath him and he had to grab the condiments trolley
to keep from falling. He stayed up but the stainless-steel trolley
fell over with a gorgeous, resounding crash, spraying plastic
cutlery and little packets of mustard, ketchup, and relish
everywhere.
“Quickly!” he cried. “We can’t be here! It’s going
to happen soon—at any moment, I believe—and we can’t be here when
it does! I don’t think it’s safe!”
“What isn’t sa—” Bethany began, but then
Albert put his arm around her shoulders and hustled her after Bob,
a lunatic tour-guide who had already bolted for the cafeteria
door.
They ran out, following him as he dashed for the
United boarding lobby again. Now the echoing rattle of their
footfalls was almost lost in the powerful hum which filled the
deserted terminal, echoing and reechoing in the many throats of its
spoked corridors.
Brian could hear that single vast note beginning to
break up. It was not shattering, not even really changing, he
thought, but focussing, the way the sound of the langoliers
had focussed as they approached Bangor.
As they re-entered the boarding lounge, he saw an
ethereal light begin to skate over the empty chairs, the dark
ARRIVALS and DEPARTURES TV monitors, and the boarding desks. Red
followed blue; yellow followed red; green followed yellow. Some
rich and exotic expectation seemed to fill the air. A shiver chased
through him; he felt all his body-hair stir and try to stand up. A
clear assurance filled him like a morning sunray: We are on the
verge of something—some great and amazing thing.
“Over here!” Bob shouted. He led them toward the
wall beside the jetway through which they had entered. This was a
passengers-only area, guarded by a red velvet rope. Bob jumped it
as easily as the high-school hurdler he might once have been.
“Against the wall!”
“Up against the wall, motherfuckers!” Albert cried
through a spasm of sudden, uncontrollable laughter.
He and the rest joined Bob, pressing against the
wall like suspects in a police line-up. In the deserted circular
lounge which now lay before them, the colors flared for a moment
... and then began to fade out. The sound, however, continued to
deepen and become more real. Brian thought he could now hear voices
in that sound, and footsteps, even a few fussing babies.
“I don’t know what it is, but it’s
wonderful!” Laurel cried. She was half-laughing,
half-weeping. “I love it!”
“I hope we’re safe here,” Bob said. He had to raise
his voice to be heard. “I think we will be. We’re out of the main
traffic areas.”
“What’s going to happen?” Brian asked. “What do you
know?”
“When we went through the time-rip headed east, we
travelled back in time!” Bob shouted. “We went into the past!
Perhaps as little as fifteen minutes . . . do you remember me
telling you that?”
Brian nodded, and Albert’s face suddenly lit
up.
“This time it brought us into the future!”
Albert cried. “That’s it, isn’t it? This time the rip brought us
into the future!”
“I believe so, yes!” Bob yelled back. He was
grinning helplessly. “And instead of arriving in a dead world—a
world which had moved on without us—we have arrived in a world
waiting to be born! A world as fresh and new as a rose on the
verge of opening! That is what is happening now, I believe.
That is what we hear, and what we sense . . . what has
filled us with such marvellous, helpless joy. I believe we are
about to see and experience something which no living man or woman
has ever witnessed before. We have seen the death of the world; now
I believe we are going to see it born. I believe that the present
is on the verge of catching up to us.”
As the colors had flared and faded, so now the
deep, reverberating quality of the sound suddenly dropped. At the
same time, the voices which had been within it grew louder,
clearer. Laurel realized she could make out words, even whole
phrases.
“—have to call her before she decides—”
“—I really don’t think the option is a
viable—”
“—home and dry if we can just turn this thing over
to the parent company—”
That one passed directly before them through the
emptiness on the other side of the velvet rope.
Brian Engle felt a kind of ecstasy rise within him,
suffusing him in a glow of wonder and happiness. He took Laurel’s
hand and grinned at her as she clasped it and then squeezed it
fiercely. Beside them, Albert suddenly hugged Bethany, and she
began to shower kisses all over his face, laughing as she did it.
Bob and Rudy grinned at each other delightedly, like long-lost
friends who have met by chance in one of the world’s more absurd
backwaters.
Overhead, the fluorescent squares in the ceiling
began to flash on. They went sequentially, racing out from the
center of the room in an expanding circle of light that flowed down
the concourse, chasing the night-shadows before it like a flock of
black sheep.
Smells suddenly struck Brian with a bang: sweat,
perfume, aftershave, cologne, cigarette smoke, leather, soap,
industrial cleaner.
For a moment longer the wide circle of the boarding
lounge remained deserted, a place haunted by the voices and
footsteps of the not-quite-living. And Brian thought: I am going
to see it happen; I am going to see the moving present lock onto
this stationary future and pull it along, the way hooks on moving
express trains used to snatch bags of mail from the Postal Service
poles standing by the tracks in sleepy little towns down south and
out west. I am going to see time itself open like a rose on a
summer morning.
“Brace yourselves,” Bob murmured. “There may be a
jerk.”
A bare second later Brian felt a thud—not just in
his feet, but all through his body. At the same instant he felt as
if an invisible hand had given him a strong push, directly in the
center of his back. He rocked forward and felt Laurel rock forward
with him. Albert had to grab Rudy to keep him from falling over.
Rudy didn’t seem to mind; a huge, goony smile split his face.
“Look!” Laurel gasped. “Oh, Brian—look!”
He looked . . . and felt his breath stop in his
throat.
The boarding lounge was full of ghosts.
Ethereal, transparent figures crossed and
crisscrossed the large central area: men in business suits toting
briefcases, women in smart travelling dresses, teenagers in Levi’s
and tee-shirts with rock-group logos printed on them. He saw a
ghost-father leading two small ghost-children, and through them he
could see more ghosts sitting in the chairs, reading transparent
copies of Cosmopolitan and Esquire and U.S. News
& World Report. Then color dove into the shapes in a series
of cometary flickers, solidifying them, and the echoing voices
resolved themselves into the prosaic stereo swarm of real human
voices.
Shooting stars, Brian thought wonderingly.
Shooting stars only.
The two children were the only ones who happened to
be looking directly at the survivors of Flight 29 when the change
took place; the children were the only ones who saw four men and
two women appear in a place where there had only been a wall the
second before.
“Daddy!” the little boy exclaimed, tugging his
father’s right hand.
“Dad!” the little girl demanded, tugging his
left.
“What?” he asked, tossing them an impatient glance.
“I’m looking for your mother!”
“New people!” the little girl said, pointing at
Brian and his bedraggled quintet of passengers. “Look at the new
people!”
The man glanced at Brian and the others for a
moment, and his mouth tightened nervously. It was the blood, Brian
supposed. He, Laurel, and Bethany had all suffered nosebleeds. The
man tightened his grip on their hands and began to pull them away
fast. “Yes, great. Now help me look for your mother. What a mess
this turned out to be.”
“But they weren’t there before!” the little
boy protested. “They—”
Then they were gone into the hurrying crowds.
Brian glanced up at the monitors and noted the time
as 4:17 A.M.
Too many people here, he thought, and I
bet I know why.
As if to confirm this, the overhead speaker
blared: “All eastbound flights out of Los Angeles International
Airport continue to be delayed because of unusual weather patterns
over the Mojave Desert. We are sorry for this inconvenience, but
ask for your patience and understanding while this safety
precaution is in force. Repeat: all eastbound flights. .
.”
Unusual weather patterns, Brian thought. Oh
yeah. Strangest goddam weather patterns ever.
Laurel turned to Brian and looked up into his face.
Tears streamed down her cheeks, and she made no effort to wipe them
away. “Did you hear her? Did you hear what that little girl
said?”
“Yes.”
“Is that what we are, Brian? The new people? Do you
think that’s what we are?”
“I don’t know,” he said, “but that’s what it feels
like.”
“That was wonderful,” Albert said. “My God, that
was the most wonderful thing.”
“Totally tubular!” Bethany yelled happily,
and then began to clap out “Let’s Go” again.
“What do we do now, Brian?” Bob asked. “Any
ideas?”
Brian glanced around at the choked boarding area
and said, “I think I want to go outside. Breathe some fresh air.
And look at the sky.”
“Shouldn’t we inform the authorities of
what—”
“We will,” Brian said. “But the sky first.”
“And maybe something to eat on the way?” Rudy asked
hopefully.
Brian laughed. “Why not?”
“My watch has stopped,” Bethany said.
Brian looked down at his wrist and saw that his
watch had also stopped. All their watches had stopped.
Brian took his off, dropped it indifferently to the
floor, and put his arm around Laurel’s waist. “Let’s blow this
joint,” he said. “Unless any of you want to wait for the next
flight east?”
“Not today,” Laurel said, “but soon. All the way to
England. There’s a man I have to see in ...” For one horrible
moment the name wouldn’t come to her ... and then it did.
“Fluting,” she said. “Ask anyone along the High Street. The old
folks still just call him the gaffer.”
“What are you talking about?” Albert asked.
“Daisies,” she said, and laughed. “I’m talking
about daisies. Come on—let’s go.”
Bob grinned widely, exposing baby-pink gums. “As
for me, I think that the next time I have to go to Boston, I’ll
take the train.”
Laurel toed Brian’s watch and asked, “Are you sure
you don’t want that? It looks expensive.”
Brian grinned, shook his head, and kissed her
forehead. The smell of her hair was amazingly sweet. He felt more
than good; he felt reborn, every inch of him new and fresh and
unmarked by the world. He felt, in fact, that if he spread his
arms, he would be able to fly without the aid of engines. “Not at
all,” he said. “I know what time it is.”
“Oh? And what time is that?”
“It’s half past now.”
Albert clapped him on the back.
They left the boarding lounge in a group, weaving
their way through the disgruntled clots of delayed passengers. A
good many of these looked curiously after them, and not just
because some of them appeared to have recently suffered nosebleeds,
or because they were laughing their way through so many angry,
inconvenienced people.
They looked because the six people seemed somehow
brighter than anyone else in the crowded lounge.
More actual.
More there.
Shooting stars only, Brian thought, and
suddenly remembered that there was one passenger still back on the
plane—the man with the black beard. This is one hangover that
guy will never forget, Brian thought, grinning. He swept
Laurel into a run. She laughed and hugged him.
The six of them ran down the concourse together
toward the escalators and all the outside world beyond.