CHAPTER SIXTEEN
When there was still no answer, John Delevan went
at the door a third time, hammering so hard he made the glass
rattle loosely in its rotting putty gums and hurt his hand. It was
hurting his hand that made him realize how angry he was. Not that
he felt the anger was in any way unjustified if Merrill had done
what Kevin thought he had done—and yes, the more he thought about
it, the more John Delevan was sure that Kevin was right. But he was
surprised that he hadn’t recognized the anger for what it was until
just now.
This seems to be a morning for learning about
myself, he thought, and there was something schoolmarmish in
that. It allowed him to smile and relax a little.
Kevin was not smiling, nor did he look
relaxed.
“It seems like one of three things has happened,”
Mr. Delevan said to his son. “Merrill’s either not up, not
answering the door, or he figured we were getting warm and he’s
absconded with your camera.” He paused, then actually laughed. “I
guess there’s a fourth, too. Maybe he died in his sleep.”
“He didn’t die.” Kevin now stood with his head
against the dirty glass of the door he mightily wished he had never
gone through in the first place. He had his hands cupped around his
eyes to make blinders, because the sun rising over the east side of
the town square ran a harsh glare across the glass. “Look.”
Mr. Delevan cupped his own hands to the sides of
his face and pressed his nose to the glass. They stood there side
by side, backs to the square, looking into the dimness of the
Emporium Galorium like the world’s most dedicated window-shoppers.
“Well,” he said after a few seconds, “it looks like if he absconded
he left his shit behind.”
“Yeah—but that’s not what I mean. Do you see
it?”
“See what?”
“Hanging on that post. The one by the bureau with
all the clocks on it.”
And after a moment, Mr. Delevan did see it: a
Polaroid camera, hanging by its strap from a hook on the post. He
thought he could even see the chipped place, although that might
have been his imagination.
It’s not your imagination.
The smile faded off his lips as he realized he was
starting to feel what Kevin was feeling: the weird and distressing
certainty that some simple yet terribly dangerous piece of
machinery was running ... and unlike most of Pop’s clocks, it was
running right on time.
“Do you think he’s just sitting upstairs and
waiting for us to go away?” Mr. Delevan spoke aloud, but he was
really talking to himself. The lock on the door looked both new and
expensive ... but he was willing to bet that if one of
them—probably Kevin was in better shape—hit the door hard enough,
it would rip right through the old wood. He mused randomly: A
lock is only as good as the door you put it in. People never
think.
Kevin turned his strained face to look at his
father. In that moment, John Delevan was as struck by Kevin’s face
as Kevin had been by his not long ago. He thought: I wonder how
many fathers get a chance to see what their sons will look like as
men? He won’t always look this strained, this tightly drawn—
God, I hope not—but this is what he will look like. And, Jesus,
he’s going to be handsome!
He, like Kevin, had that one moment in the midst of
whatever it was that was going on here, and the moment was a short
one, but he also never forgot; it was always within his mind’s
reach.
“What?” Kevin asked hoarsely. “What, Dad?”
“You want to bust it? Because I’d go along.”
“Not yet. I don’t think we’ll have to. I don’t
think he’s here ... but he’s close.”
You can’t know any such thing. Can’t even think
it.
But his son did think it, and he believed Kevin was
right. Some sort of link had been formed between Pop and his son.
“Some sort” of link? Get serious. He knew perfectly well what the
link was. It was that fucking camera hanging on the wall in there,
and the longer this went on, the longer he felt that machinery
running, its gears grinding and its vicious unthinking cogs
turning, the less he liked it.
Break the camera, break the link, he
thought, and said: “Are you sure, Kev?”
“Let’s go around to the back. Try the door
there.”
“There’s a gate. He’ll keep it locked.”
“Maybe we can climb over.”
“Okay,” Mr. Delevan said, and followed his son down
the steps of the Emporium Galorium and around to the alley,
wondering as he went if he had lost his mind.
But the gate wasn’t locked. Somewhere along the
line Pop had forgotten to lock it, and although Mr. Delevan hadn’t
liked the idea of climbing over the fence, or maybe falling
over the fence, quite likely tearing the hell out of his balls in
the process, he somehow liked the open gate even less. All the
same, he and Kevin went through it and into Pop’s littered
backyard, which not even the drifts of fallen October leaves could
improve.
Kevin wove his way through the piles of junk Pop
had thrown. out but not bothered to take to the dump, and Mr.
Delevan followed him. They arrived at the chopping block at about
the same time Pop was coming out of Mrs. Althea Linden’s backyard
and onto Mulberry Street, a block west. He would follow Mulberry
Street until he reached the offices of the Wolf Jaw Lumber Company.
Although the company’s pulp trucks would already be coursing the
roads of western Maine and the yowl and yark of the cutters’
chainsaws would have been rising from the area’s diminishing stands
of hardwood since six-thirty or so, no one would come in to man the
office until nine, which was still a good fifteen minutes away. At
the rear of the lumber company’s tiny backyard was a high board
fence. It was gated, and this gate was locked, but Pop had
the key. He would unlock the gate and step through into his own
backyard.
Kevin reached the chopping block. Mr. Delevan
caught up, followed his son’s gaze, and blinked. He opened his
mouth to ask what in the hell this was all about, then shut
it again. He was starting to have an idea of what in the hell it
was all about without any aid from Kevin. It wasn’t right to
have such ideas, wasn’t natural, and he knew from bitter
experience (in which Reginald Marion “Pop” Merrill himself had
played a part at one point, as he had told his son not so long ago)
that doing things on impulse was a good way to reach the wrong
decision and go flying off half-cocked, but it didn’t matter.
Although he did not think it in such terms, it would be fair to say
Mr. Delevan just hoped he could apply for readmittance to the
Reasonable tribe when this was over.
At first he thought he was looking at the smashed
remains of a Polaroid camera. Of course that was just his mind,
trying to find a little rationality in repetition; what lay on and
around the chopping block didn’t look anything at all like a
camera, Polaroid or otherwise. All those gears and flywheels could
only belong to a clock. Then he saw the dead cartoon-bird and even
knew what kind of clock. He opened his mouth to ask Kevin why in
God’s name Pop would bring a cuckoo clock out back and then
sledgehammer it to death. He thought it over again and decided he
didn’t have to ask, after all. The answer to that was also
beginning to come. He didn’t want it to come, because it
pointed to madness on what seemed to Mr. Delevan a grand scale, but
that didn’t matter; it came anyway.
You had to hang a cuckoo clock on something. You
had to hang it because of the pendulum weights. And what did you
hang it on? Why, a hook, of course.
Maybe a hook sticking out of a beam.
Like the beam Kevin’s Polaroid had been hanging
on.
Now he spoke, and his words seemed to come
from some long distance away: “What in the hell is wrong with him,
Kevin? Has he gone nuts?”
“Not gone,” Kevin answered, and his voice
also seemed to come from some long distance away as they stood
above the chopping block, looking down on the busted timepiece.
“Driven there. By the camera.”
“We’ve got to smash it,” Mr. Delevan said. His
voice seemed to float to his ears long after he had felt the words
coming out of his mouth.
“Not yet,” Kevin said. “We have to go to the
drugstore first. They’re having a special sale on them.”
“Having a special sale on wh—”
Kevin touched his arm. John Delevan looked at him.
Kevin’s head was up, and he looked like a deer scenting fire. In
that moment the boy was more than handsome; he was almost divine,
like a young poet at the hour of his death.
“What?” Mr. Delevan asked urgently.
“Did you hear something?” Alertness slowly changing
to doubt.
“A car on the street,” Mr. Delevan said. How much
older was he than his son? he wondered suddenly. Twenty-five years?
Jesus, wasn’t it time he started acting it?
He pushed the strangeness away from him, trying to
get it at arm’s length. He groped desperately for his maturity and
found a little of it. Putting it on was like putting on a badly
tattered overcoat.
“You sure that’s all it was, Dad?”
“Yes. Kevin, you’re wound up too tight. Get hold of
yourself or ...” Or what? But he knew, and laughed shakily. “Or
you’ll have us both running like a pair of rabbits.”
Kevin looked at him thoughtfully for a moment, like
someone coming out of a deep sleep, perhaps even a trance, and then
nodded. “Come on.”
“Kevin, why? What do you want? He could be
upstairs, just not answering—”
“I’ll tell you when we get there, Dad. Come
on.” And almost dragged his father out of the littered
backyard and into the narrow alleyway.
“Kevin, do you want to take my arm off, or what?”
Mr. Delevan asked when they got back to the sidewalk.
“He was back there,” Kevin said. “Hiding. Waiting
for us to go. I felt him.”
“He was—” Mr. Delevan stopped, then started again.
“Well ... let’s say he was. Just for argument, let’s say he was.
Shouldn’t we go back there and collar him?” And, belatedly:
“Where was he?”
“On the other side of the fence,” Kevin said. His
eyes seemed to be floating. Mr. Delevan liked this less all the
time. “He’s already been. He’s already got what he needs. We’ll
have to hurry.”
Kevin was already starting for the edge of the
sidewalk, meaning to cut across the town square to LaVerdiere’s.
Mr. Delevan reached out and grabbed him like a conductor grabbing a
fellow he’s caught trying to sneak aboard a train without a ticket.
“Kevin, what are you talking about?”
And then Kevin actually said it: looked at him and
said it. “It’s coming, Dad. Please. It’s my life.” He looked at his
father, pleading with his pallid face and his fey, floating eyes.
“The dog is coming. It won’t do any good to just break in and take
the camera. It’s gone way past that now. Please don’t stop me.
Please don’t wake me up. It’s my life.”
Mr. Delevan made one last great effort not to give
in to this creeping craziness ... and then succumbed.
“Come on,” he said, hooking his hand around his
son’s elbow and almost dragging him into the square. “Whatever it
is, let’s get it done.” He paused. “Do we have enough time?”
“I’m not sure,” Kevin said, and then, reluctantly:
“I don’t think so.”