CHAPTER SIX
“Well, and here you are, father and son,” Pop
said, giving them an admiring, grandfatherly smile. His eyes
twinkled behind a haze of pipe-smoke and for a moment, although he
was clean-shaven, Kevin thought Pop looked like Father Christmas.
“You’ve got a fine boy, Mr. Delevan. Fine.”
“I know,” Mr. Delevan said. “I was upset when I
heard he’d been dealing with you because I want him to stay that
way.”
“That’s hard,” Pop said, with the faintest touch of
reproach. “That’s hard comin from a man who when he had nowhere
else to turn—”
“That’s over,” Mr. Delevan said.
“Ayuh, ayuh, that’s just what I mean to say.”
“But this isn’t.”
“It will be,” Pop said. He held a hand out to Kevin
and Kevin gave him the Sun camera. “It will be today.” He held the
camera up, turning it over in his hands. “This is a piece of work.
What kind of piece I don’t know, but your boy wants to smash
it because he thinks it’s dangerous. I think he’s right. But I told
him, ‘You don’t want your daddy to think you’re a sissy, do you?’
That’s the only reason I had him ho you down here, John—”
“I liked ‘Mr. Delevan’ better.”
“All right,” Pop said, and sighed. “I can see you
ain’t gonna warm up none and let bygones be bygones.”
“No.”
Kevin looked from one man to the other, his face
distressed.
“Well, it don’t matter,” Pop said; both his voice
and face went cold with remarkable suddenness, and he didn’t look
like Father Christmas at all. “When I said the past is the past and
what’s done is done, I meant it ... except when it affects what
people do in the here and now. But I’m gonna say this, Mr. Delevan:
I don’t bottom deal, and you know it.”
Pop delivered this magnificent lie with such flat
coldness that both of them believed it; Mr. Delevan even felt a
little ashamed of himself, as incredible as that was.
“Our business was our business. You told me what
you wanted, I told you what I’d have to have in return, and you
give it to me, and there was an end to it. This is another thing.”
And then Pop told a lie even more magnificent, a lie which was
simply too towering to be disbelieved. “I got no stake in this, Mr.
Delevan. There is nothing I want but to help your boy. I like
him.”
He smiled and Father Christmas was back so fast and
strong that Kevin forgot he had ever been gone. Yet more than this:
John Delevan, who had for months worked himself to the edge of
exhaustion and perhaps even death between the rollers in order to
pay the exorbitant price this man demanded to atone for a momentary
lapse into insanity—John Delevan forgot that other expression,
too.
Pop led them along the twisting aisles, through the
smell of dead newsprint and past the tick-tock clocks, and he put
the Sun 660 casually down on the worktable a little too near the
edge (just as Kevin had done in his own house after taking that
first picture) and then just went on toward the stairs at the back
which led up to his little apartment. There was a dusty old mirror
propped against the wall back there, and Pop looked into it,
watching to see if the boy or his father would pick the camera up
or move it further away from the edge. He didn’t think either
would, but it was possible.
They spared it not so much as a passing glance and
as Pop led them up the narrow stairway with the ancient eroded
rubber treads he grinned in a way it would have been bad business
for anyone to see and thought, Damn, I’m good!
He opened the door and they went into the
apartment.
Neither John nor Kevin Delevan had ever been in
Pop’s private quarters, and John knew of no one who had. In a way
this was not surprising; no one was ever going to nominate Pop as
the town’s number-one citizen. John thought it was not
impossible that the old fuck had a friend or two—the world
never exhausted its oddities, it seemed—but if so, he didn’t know
who they were.
And Kevin spared a fleeting thought for Mr. Baker,
his favorite teacher. He wondered if, perchance, Mr. Baker had ever
gotten into the sort of crack he’d need a fellow like Pop to get
him out of. This seemed as unlikely to him as the idea of Pop
having friends seemed to his father ... but then, an hour ago the
idea that his own father—
Well. It was best let go, perhaps.
Pop did have a friend (or at least an
acquaintance) or two, but he didn’t bring them here. He didn’t want
to. It was his place, and it came closer to revealing his true
nature than he wanted anyone to see. It struggled to be neat and
couldn’t get there. The wallpaper was marked with water-stains;
they weren’t glaring, but stealthy and brown, like the phantom
thoughts that trouble anxious minds. There were crusty dishes in
the old-fashioned deep sink, and although the table was clean and
the lid on the plastic waste-can was shut, there was an odor of
sardines and something else—unwashed feet, maybe—which was almost
not there. An odor as stealthy as the water-stains on the
wallpaper.
The living room was tiny. Here the smell was not of
sardines and (maybe) feet but of old pipe-smoke. Two windows looked
out on nothing more scenic than the alley that ran behind Mulberry
Street, and while their panes showed some signs of having been
washed—at least swiped at occasionally—the corners were bleared and
greasy with years of condensed smoke. The whole place had an air of
nasty things swept under the faded hooked rugs and hidden beneath
the old-fashioned, overstuffed easy-chair and sofa. Both of these
articles were light green, and your eye wanted to tell you they
matched but couldn’t, because they didn’t. Not quite.
The only new things in the room were a large
Mitsubishi television with a twenty-five-inch screen and a VCR on
the endtable beside it. To the left of the endtable was a rack
which caught Kevin’s eye because it was totally empty. Pop had
thought it best to put the better than seventy fuck-movies he owned
in the closet for the time being.
One video cassette rested on top of the television
in an unmarked case.
“Sit down,” Pop said, gesturing at the lumpy couch.
He went over to the TV and slipped the cassette out of its
case.
Mr. Delevan looked at the couch with a momentary
expression of doubt, as if he thought it might have bugs, and then
sat down gingerly. Kevin sat beside him. The fear was back,
stronger than ever.
Pop turned on the VCR, slid the cassette in, and
then pushed the carriage down. “I know a fellow up the city,” he
began (to residents of Castle Rock and its neighboring towns, “up
the city” always meant Lewiston), “who’s run a camera store for
twenty years or so. He got into this VCR business as soon as it
started up, said it was going to be the wave of the future. He
wanted me to go halves with him, but I thought he was nuts. Well, I
was wrong on that one, is what I mean to say, but—”
“Get to the point,” Kevin’s father said.
“I’m tryin,” Pop said, wide-eyed and injured. “If
you’ll let me.”
Kevin pushed his elbow gently against his father’s
side, and Mr. Delevan said no more.
“Anyway, a couple of years ago he found out rentin
tapes for folks to watch wasn’t the only way to make money with
these gadgets. If you was willin to lay out as little as eight
hundred bucks, you could take people’s movies and snapshots and put
em on a tape for em. Lots easier to watch.”
Kevin made a little involuntary noise and Pop
smiled and nodded.
“Ayuh. You took fifty-eight pitchers with that
camera of yours, and we all saw each one was a little different
than the last one, and I guess we knew what it meant, but I wanted
to see for myself. You don’t have to be from Missouri to say show
me, is what I mean to say.”
“You tried to make a movie out of those snapshots?”
Mr. Delevan asked.
“Didn’t try,” Pop said. “Did. Or
rather, the fella I know up the city did. But it was my
idea.”
“Is it a movie?” Kevin asked. He understood what
Pop had done, and part of him was even chagrined that he hadn’t
thought of it himself, but mostly he was awash in wonder (and
delight) at the idea.
“Look for yourself,” Pop said, and turned on the
TV. “Fifty-eight pitchers. When this fella does snapshots for
folks, he generally videotapes each one for five seconds—long
enough to get a good look, he says, but not long enough to get
bored before you go on to the next one. I told him I wanted each of
these on for just a single second, and to run them right together
with no fades.”
Kevin remembered a game he used to play in grade
school when he had finished some lesson and had free time before
the next one began. He had a little dime pad of paper which was
called a Rain-Bo Skool Pad because there would be thirty pages of
little yellow sheets, then thirty pages of little pink sheets, then
thirty pages of green, and so on. To play the game, you went to the
very last page and at the bottom you drew a stick-man wearing baggy
shorts and holding his arms out. On the next page you drew the same
stick-man in the same place and wearing the same baggy shorts, only
this time you drew his arms further up ... but just a little bit.
You did that on every page until the arms came together over the
stick-man’s head. Then, if you still had time, you went on drawing
the stick-man, but now with the arms going down. And if you flipped
the pages very fast when you were done, you had a crude sort of
cartoon which showed a boxer celebrating a KO: he raised his hands
over his head, clasped them, shook them, lowered them.
He shivered. His father looked at him. Kevin shook
his head and murmured, “Nothing.”
“So what I mean to say is the tape only runs about
a minute,” Pop said. “You got to look close. Ready?”
No, Kevin thought.
“I guess so,” Mr. Delevan said. He was still trying
to sound grumpy and put-out, but Kevin could tell he had gotten
interested in spite of himself.
“Okay,” Pop Merrill said, and pushed the PLAY
button.
Kevin told himself over and over again that it was
stupid to feel scared. He told himself this and it didn’t do a
single bit of good.
He knew what he was going to see, because he and
Meg had both noticed the Sun was doing something besides simply
reproducing the same image over and over, like a photocopier; it
did not take long for them to realize that the photographs were
expressing movement from one to the next.
“Look,” Meg had said. “The dog’s moving!”
Instead of responding with one of the
friendly-but-irritating wisecracks he usually reserved for his
little sister, Kevin had said, “It does look like it ... but you
can’t tell for sure, Meg.”
“Yes, you can,” she said. They were in his room,
where he had been morosely looking at the camera. It sat on the
middle of his desk with his new schoolbooks, which he had been
meaning to cover, pushed to one side. Meg had bent the goose-neck
of his study-lamp so it shone a bright circle of light on the
middle of his desk blotter. She moved the camera aside and put the
first picture—the one with the dab of cake-frosting on it—in the
center of the light. “Count the fence-posts between the dog’s
behind and the righthand edge of the picture,” she said.
“Those are pickets, not fence-posts,” he told her.
“Like what you do when your nose goes on strike.”
“Ha-ha. Count them.”
He did. He could see four, and part of a fifth,
although the dog’s scraggly hindquarters obscured most of that
one.
“Now look at this one.”
She put the fourth Polaroid in front of him. Now he
could see all of the fifth picket, and part of the sixth.
So he knew—or believed—he was going to see a cross
between a very old cartoon and one of those “flip-books” he used to
make in grammar school when the time weighed heavy on his
hands.
The last twenty-five seconds of the tape were
indeed like that, although, Kevin thought, the flip-books he had
drawn in the second grade were really better ... the perceived
action of the boxer raising and lowering his hands smoother. In the
last twenty-five seconds of the videotape the action moved in rams
and jerks which made the old Keystone Kops silent films look like
marvels of modern filmmaking in comparison.
Still, the key word was action, and it held
all of them—even Pop—spellbound. They watched the minute of footage
three times without saying a word. There was no sound but
breathing: Kevin’s fast and smooth through his nose, his father’s
deeper, Pop’s a phlegmy rattle in his narrow chest.
And the first thirty seconds or so ...
He had expected action, he supposed; there was
action in the flip-books, and there was action in the
Saturday-morning cartoons, which were just a slightly more
sophisticated version of the flip-books, but what he had not
expected was that for the first thirty seconds of the tape it
wasn’t like watching notebook pages rapidly thumbed or even a
primitive cartoon like Possible Possum on TV: for thirty
seconds (twenty-eight, anyway), his single Polaroid photographs
looked eerily like a real movie. Not a Hollywood movie, of course,
not even a low-budget horror movie of the sort Megan sometimes
pestered him to rent for their own VCR when their mother and father
went out for the evening; it was more like a snippet of home movie
made by someone who has just gotten an eight-millimeter camera and
doesn’t know how to use it very well yet.
In those first twenty-eight seconds, the black
no-breed dog walked with barely perceptible jerks along the fence,
exposing five, six, seven pickets; it even paused to sniff a second
time at one of them, apparently reading another of those canine
telegrams. Then it walked on, head down and toward the fence,
hindquarters switched out toward the camera. And, halfway through
this first part, Kevin noted something else he hadn’t seen before:
the photographer had apparently swung his camera to keep the dog in
the frame. If he (or she) hadn’t done so, the dog would have simply
walked out of the picture, leaving nothing to look at but the
fence. The pickets at the far right of the first two or three
photographs disappeared beyond the righthand border of the picture
and new pickets appeared at the left. You could tell, because the
tip of one of those two rightmost pickets had been broken off. Now
it was no longer in the frame.
The dog started to sniff again ... and then its
head came up. Its good ear stiffened; the one which had been
slashed and laid limp in some long-ago fight tried to do the same.
There was no sound, but Kevin felt with a certainty beyond
repudiation that the dog had begun to growl. The dog had sensed
something or someone. What or who?
Kevin looked at the shadow they had at first
dismissed as the branch of a tree or maybe a phone-pole and
knew.
Its head began to turn ... and that was when the
second half of this strange “film” began, thirty seconds of
snap-jerk action that made your head ache and your eyeballs hot.
Pop had had a hunch, Kevin thought, or maybe he had even read about
something like this before. Either way, it had proved out and was
too obvious to need stating. With the pictures taken quite closely
together, if not exactly one after another, the action in the
makeshift “movie” almost flowed. Not quite, but almost. But when
the time between photographs was spaced, what they were watching
became something that nauseated your eye because it wanted to see
either a moving picture or a series of still photographs and
instead it saw both and neither.
Time was passing in that flat Polaroid world. Not
at the same speed it passed in this
(real?)
one, or the sun would have come up (or gone down)
over there three times already and whatever the dog was going to do
would be done (if it had something to do), and if it did
not, it would just be gone and there would be only the moveless and
seemingly eternal eroded picket fence guarding the listless patch
of lawn, but it was passing.
The dog’s head was coming around to face the
photographer, owner of the shadow, like the head of a dog in the
grip of a fit: at one moment the face and even the shape of the
head was obscured by that floppy ear; then you saw one black-brown
eye enclosed by a round and somehow mucky corona that made Kevin
think of a spoiled egg-white; then you saw half the muzzle with the
lips appearing slightly wrinkled, as if the dog were getting ready
to bark or growl; and last of all you saw three-quarters of a face
somehow more awful than the face of any mere dog had a right to be,
even a mean one. The white spackles along its muzzle suggested it
was no longer young. At the very end of the tape you saw the dog’s
lips were indeed pulling back. There was one blink of white Kevin
thought was a tooth. He didn’t see that until the third
run-through. It was the eye that held him. It was homicidal. This
breedless dog almost screamed rogue. And it was nameless; he knew
that, as well. He knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that no Polaroid
man or Polaroid woman or Polaroid child had ever named that
Polaroid dog; it was a stray, born stray, raised stray, grown old
and mean stray, the avatar of all the dogs who had ever wandered
the world, unnamed and un-homed, killing chickens, eating garbage
out of the cans they had long since learned to knock over, sleeping
in culverts and beneath the porches of deserted houses. Its wits
would be dim, but its instincts would be sharp and red. It—
When Pop Merrill spoke, Kevin was so deeply and
fundamentally startled out of his thoughts that he nearly
screamed.
“The man who took those pictures,” he said. “If
there was a person, is what I mean to say. What do you
suppose happened to him?”
Pop had frozen the last frame with his remote
control. A line of static ran through the picture. Kevin wished it
ran through the dog’s eye, but the line was below it. That eye
stared out at them, baleful, stupidly murderous—no, not stupidly,
not entirely, that was what made it not merely frightening but
terrifying—and no one needed to answer Pop’s question. You needed
no more pictures to understand what was going to happen next. The
dog had perhaps heard something: of course it had, and Kevin knew
what. It had heard that squidgy little whine.
Further pictures would show it continuing to turn,
and then beginning to fill more and more of each frame until there
was nothing to see but dog—no listless patchy lawn, no fence, no
sidewalk, no shadow. Just the dog.
Who meant to attack.
Who meant to kill, if it could.
Kevin’s dry voice seemed to be coming from someone
else. “I don’t think it likes getting its picture taken,” he
said.
Pop’s short laugh was like a bunch of dry twigs
broken over a knee for kindling.
“Rewind it,” Mr. Delevan said.
“You want to see the whole thing again?” Pop
asked.
“No—just the last ten seconds or so.”
Pop used the remote control to go back, then ran it
again. The dog turned its head, as jerky as a robot which is old
and running down but still dangerous, and Kevin wanted to tell
them, Stop now. Just stop. That’s enough. Just stop and let’s
break the camera. Because there was something else, wasn’t
there? Something he didn’t want to think about but soon would, like
it or not; he could feel it breaching in his mind like the broad
back of a whale.
“Once more,” Mr. Delevan said. “Frame by frame this
time. Can you do that?”
“Ayuh,” Pop said. “Goddam machine does everything
but the laundry.”
This time one frame, one picture, at a time. It was
not like a robot now, or not exactly, but like some weird clock,
something that belonged with Pop’s other specimens downstairs.
Jerk. Jerk. Jerk. The head coming around. Soon they would be faced
by that merciless, not-quite-idiotic eye again.
“What’s that?” Mr. Delevan asked.
“What’s what?” Pop asked, as if he didn’t know it
was the thing the boy hadn’t wanted to talk about the other day,
the thing, he was convinced, that had made up the boy’s mind about
destroying the camera once and for all.
“Underneath its neck,” Mr. Delevan said, and
pointed. “It’s not wearing a collar or a tag, but it’s got
something around its neck on a string or a thin rope.”
“I dunno,” Pop said imperturbably. “Maybe your boy
does. Young folks have sharper eyes than us old fellas.”
Mr. Delevan turned to look at Kevin. “Can you make
it out?”
“I—” He fell silent. “It’s really small.”
His mind returned to what his father had said when
they were leaving the house. If she never asks you, you never
have to tell her.... That’s just the way we do things in the
grown-up world. Just now he had asked Kevin if he could make
out what that thing under the dog’s neck was. Kevin hadn’t really
answered that question; he had said something else altogether.
It’s really small. And it was. The fact that he knew what it
was in spite of that... well ...
What had his father called it? Skating up to the
edge of a lie?
And he couldn’t actually see it. Not
actually. Just the same, he knew. The eye only suggested;
the heart understood. Just as his heart understood that, if he was
right, the camera must be destroyed. Must be.
At that moment, Pop Merrill was suddenly struck by
an agreeable inspiration. He got up and snapped off the TV. “I’ve
got the pitchers downstairs,” he said. “Brought em back with the
videotape. I seen that thing m‘self, and ran my magnifying glass
over it, but still couldn’t tell ... but it does look familiar, God
cuss it. Just let me go get the pitchers and m’glass.”
“We might as well go down with you,” Kevin said,
which was the last thing in the world Pop wanted, but then Delevan
stepped in, God bless him, and said he might like to look at the
tape again after they looked at the last couple of pictures under
the magnifying glass.
“Won’t take a minute,” Pop said, and was gone,
sprightly as a bird hopping from twig to twig on an apple tree,
before either of them could have protested, if either had had a
mind to.
Kevin did not. That thought had finally breached
its monstrous back in his mind, and, like it or not, he was forced
to contemplate it.
It was simple, as a whale’s back is simple—at least
to the eye of one who does not study whales for a living—and it was
colossal in the same way.
It wasn’t an idea but a simple certainty. It had to
do with that odd flatness Polaroids always seemed to have, with the
way they showed you things only in two dimensions, although all
photographs did that; it was that other photographs seemed to at
least suggest a third dimension, even those taken with a
simple Kodak 110.
The things in his photographs, photographs which
showed things he had never seen through the Sun’s viewfinder or
anywhere else, for that matter, were that same way: flatly,
unapologetically two-dimensional.
Except for the dog.
The dog wasn’t flat. The dog wasn’t
meaningless, a thing you could recognize but which had no emotional
impact. The dog not only seemed to suggest three dimensions but to
really have them, the way a hologram seems to really have them, or
one of those 3-D movies where you had to wear special glasses to
reconcile the double images.
It’s not a Polaroid dog, Kevin thought,
and it doesn’t belong in the world Polaroids take pictures of.
That’s crazy, I know it is, but I also know it’s true. So what does
it mean? Why is my camera taking pictures of it over and over . . .
and what Polaroid man or Polaroid woman is snapping pictures of it?
Does he or she even see it? If it is a three-dimensional dog in a
two-dimensional world, maybe he or she doesn’t see it ... can’t see
it. They say for us time is the fourth dimension, and we know it’s
there, but we can’t see it. We can’t even really feel it pass,
although sometimes, especially when we’re bored, I guess, it seems
like we can.
But when you got right down to it, all that might
not even matter, and the questions were far too tough for him,
anyway. There were other questions that seemed more important to
him, vital questions, maybe even mortal ones.
Like why was the dog in his camera?
Did it want something of him, or just of
anybody? At first he had thought the answer was anybody, anybody
would do because anybody could take pictures of it and the movement
always advanced. But the thing around its neck, that thing that
wasn’t a collar ... that had to do with him, Kevin Delevan, and
nobody else. Did it want to do something to him? If the answer to
that question was yes, you could forget all the other ones,
because it was pretty goddamned obvious what the dog wanted to do.
It was in its murky eye, in the snarl you could just see beginning.
He thought it wanted two things.
First to escape.
Then to kill.
There’s a man or woman over there with a camera
who maybe doesn’t even see that dog, Kevin thought, and if the
photographer can’t see the dog, maybe the dog can’t see the
photographer, and so the photographer is safe. But if the dog
really is three-dimensional, maybe he sees out—maybe he sees
whoever is using my camera. Maybe it’s still not me, or not
specifically me; maybe whoever is using the camera is its
target.
Still—the thing it was wearing around its neck.
What about that?
He thought of the cur’s dark eyes, saved from
stupidity by a single malevolent spark. God knew how the dog had
gotten into that Polaroid world in the first place, but when its
picture was taken, it could see out, and it wanted to get out, and
Kevin believed in his heart that it wanted to kill him first, the
thing it was wearing around its neck said it wanted to kill
him first, proclaimed that it wanted to kill him first, but
after that?
Why, after Kevin, anyone would do.
Anyone at all.
In a way it was like another game you played when
you were a little kid, wasn’t it? It was like Giant Step. The dog
had been walking along the fence. The dog had heard the Polaroid,
that squidgy little whine. It turned, and saw ... what? Its own
world or universe? A world or universe enough like its own so it
saw or sensed it could or at least might be able to live and hunt
here? It didn’t matter. Now, every time someone took a picture of
it, the dog would get closer. It would get closer and closer until
... well, until what? Until it burst through, somehow?
“That’s stupid,” he muttered. “It’d never
fit.”
“What?” his father asked, roused from his own
musings.
“Nothing,” Kevin said. “I was just talking to
myse—”
Then, from downstairs, muffled but audible, they
heard Pop Merrill cry out in mingled dismay, irritation, and
surprise: “Well shit fire and save matches!
Goddammit!”
Kevin and his father looked at each other,
startled.
“Let’s go see what happened,” his father said, and
got up. “I hope he didn’t fall down and break his arm, or
something. I mean, part of me does hope it, but ... you
know.”
Kevin thought: What if he’s been taking
pictures? What if that dog’s down there?
It hadn’t sounded like fear in the old man’s voice,
and of course there really was no way a dog that looked as big as a
medium-sized German shepherd could come through either a camera the
size of the Sun 660 or one of the prints it made. You might as well
try to drag a washing machine through a knothole.
Still, he felt fear enough for both of them—for all
three of them—as he followed his father back down the stairs to the
gloomy bazaar below.
Going down the stairs, Pop Merrill was as happy as
a clam at high tide.
He had been prepared to make the switch right in
front of them if he had to. Might have been a problem if it had
just been the boy, who was still a year or so away from thinking he
knew everything, but the boy’s dad—ah, fooling that fine fellow
would have been like stealing a bottle from a baby. Had he told the
boy about the jam he’d gotten into that time? From the way the boy
looked at him—a new, cautious way—Pop thought Delevan probably had.
And what else had the father told the son? Well, let’s see. Does
he let you call him Pop? That means he’s planning to pull a fast
one on you. That was for starters. He’s a lowdown snake in
the grass, son. That was for seconds. And, of course, there was
the prize of them all: Let me do the talking, boy. I know him
better than you do. You just let me handle everything. Men like
Delevan were to Pop Merrill what a nice platter of fried chicken
was to some folks—tender, tasty, juicy, and all but falling off the
bone. Once Delevan had been little more than a kid himself, and he
would never fully understand that it wasn’t Pop who had stuck his
tit in the wringer but he himself. The man could have gone to his
wife and she would have tapped that old biddy aunt of hers whose
tight little ass was lined with hundred-dollar bills, and Delevan
would have spent some time in the doghouse, but she would have let
him out in time. He not only hadn’t seen it that way; he hadn’t
seen it at all. And now, for no reason but idiot time, which came
and went without any help from anyone, he thought he knew all there
was to know about Reginald Marion Merrill.
Which was just the way Pop liked it.
Why, he could have swapped one camera for the other
right in front of the man and Delevan never would have seen a
goddamned thing—that was how sure he was he had old Pop figured
out.
But this was better.
You never ever asked Lady Luck for a date; she had
a way of standing men up just when they needed her the most. But if
she showed up on her own ... well, it was wise to drop whatever it
was you were doing and take her out and wine her and dine her just
as lavishly as you could. That was one bitch who always put out if
you treated her right.
So he went quickly to the worktable, bent, and
extracted the Polaroid 660 with the broken lens from the shadows
underneath. He put it on the table, fished a key-ring from his
pocket (with one quick glance over his shoulder to be sure neither
of them had decided to come down after all), and selected the small
key which opened the locked drawer that formed the entire left side
of the table. In this deep drawer were a number of gold
Krugerrands; a stamp album in which the least valuable stamp was
worth six hundred dollars in the latest Scott Stamp
Catalogue; a coin collection worth approximately nineteen
thousand dollars; two dozen glossy photographs of a bleary-eyed
woman having sexual congress with a Shetland pony; and an amount of
cash totalling just over two thousand dollars.
The cash, which he stowed in a variety of tin cans,
was Pop’s loan-out money. John Delevan would have recognized the
bills. They were all crumpled tens.
Pop deposited Kevin’s Sun 660 in this drawer,
locked it, and put his key-ring back in his pocket. Then he pushed
the camera with the broken lens off the edge of the worktable
(again) and cried out “Well shit fire and save matches!
Goddammit!” loud enough for them to hear.
Then he arranged his face in the proper expression
of dismay and chagrin and waited for them to come running to see
what had happened.
“Pop?” Kevin cried. “Mr. Merrill? Are you
okay?”
“Ayuh,” he said. “Didn’t hurt nothin but my goddam
pride. That camera’s just bad luck, I guess. I bent over to open
the tool-drawer, is what I mean to say, and I knocked the fucking
thing right off onto the floor. Only I guess it didn’t come through
s’well this time. I dunno if I should say I’m sorry or not. I mean,
you was gonna—”
He held the camera apologetically out to Kevin, who
took it, looked at the broken lens and shattered plastic of the
housing around it. “No, it’s okay,” Kevin told him, turning the
camera over in his hands—but he did not handle it in the same
gingerly, tentative way he had before: as if it might really be
constructed not of plastic and glass but some sort of explosive. “I
meant to bust it up, anyhow.”
“Guess I saved you the trouble.”
“I’d feel better—” Kevin began.
“Ayuh, ayuh. I feel the same way about mice. Laugh
if you want to, but when I catch one in a trap and it’s dead, I
beat it with a broom anyway. Just to be sure, is what I mean to
say.”
Kevin smiled faintly, then looked at his father.
“He said he’s got a chopping block out back, Dad—”
“Got a pretty good sledge in the shed, too, if
ain’t nobody took it.”
“Do you mind, Dad?”
“It’s your camera, Kev,” Delevan said. He flicked a
distrustful glance at Pop, but it was a glance that said he
distrusted Pop on general principles, and not for any specific
reason. “But if it will make you feel any better, I think it’s the
right decision.”
“Good,” Kevin said. He felt a tremendous weight go
off his shoulders—no, it was from his heart that the weight
was lifted. With the lens broken, the camera was surely useless ...
but he wouldn’t feel really at ease until he saw it in fragments
around Pop’s chopping block. He turned it over in his hands, front
to back and back to front, amused and amazed at how much he liked
the broken way it looked and felt.
“I think I owe you the cost of that camera,
Delevan,” Pop said, knowing exactly how the man would
respond.
“No,” Delevan said. “Let’s smash it and forget this
whole crazy thing ever hap—” He paused. “I almost forgot—we were
going to look at those last few photos under your magnifying glass.
I wanted to see if I could make out the thing the dog’s wearing. I
keep thinking it looks familiar.”
“We can do that after we get rid of the camera,
can’t we?” Kevin asked. “Okay, Dad?”
“Sure.”
“And then,” Pop said, “it might not be such a bad
idear to burn the pitchers themselves. You could do it right in my
stove.”
“I think that’s a great idea,” Kevin said. “What do
you think, Dad?”
“I think Mrs. Merrill never raised any fools,” his
father said.
“Well,” Pop said, smiling enigmatically from behind
folds of rising blue smoke, “there was five of us, you know.”
The day had been bright blue when Kevin and his
father walked down to the Emporium Galorium; a perfect autumn day.
Now it was four-thirty, the sky had mostly clouded over, and it
looked like it might rain before dark. The first real chill of the
fall touched Kevin’s hands. It would chap them red if he stayed out
long enough, but he had no plans to. His mom would be home in half
an hour, and already he wondered what she would say when she saw
Dad was with him, and what his dad would say.
But that was for later.
Kevin set the Sun 660 on the chopping block in the
little backyard, and Pop Merrill handed him a sledgehammer. The
haft was worn smooth with usage. The head was rusty, as if someone
had left it carelessly out in the rain not once or twice but many
times. Yet it would do the job, all right. Kevin had no doubt of
that. The Polaroid, its lens broken and most of the housing around
it shattered as well, looked fragile and defenseless sitting there
on the block’s chipped, chunked, and splintered surface, where you
expected to see a length of ash or maple waiting to be split in
two.
Kevin set his hands on the sledgehammer’s smooth
handle and tightened them.
“You’re sure, son?” Mr. Delevan asked.
“Yes.”
“Okay.” Kevin’s father glanced at his own watch.
“Do it, then.”
Pop stood to one side with his pipe clamped between
his wretched teeth, hands in his back pockets. He looked shrewdly
from the boy to the man and then back to the boy, but said
nothing.
Kevin lifted the sledgehammer and, suddenly
surprised by an anger at the camera he hadn’t even known he felt,
he brought it down with all the force he could muster.
Too hard, he thought. You’re going to
miss it, be lucky not to mash your own foot, and there it will sit,
not much more than a piece of hollow plastic a little kid
could stomp flat without half trying, and even if you’re lucky
enough to miss your foot, Pop will look at you. He won’t say
anything: he won’t have to. It’ll all be in the way he looks at
you.
And thought also: It doesn’t matter if I hit it
or not. It’s magic, some kind of magic camera, and you can’t break
it. Even if you hit it dead on the money the sledge will just
bounce off it, like bullets off Superman’s chest.
But then there was no more time to think anything,
because the sledge connected squarely with the camera. Kevin really
had swung much too hard to maintain anything resembling control,
but he got lucky. And the sledgehammer didn’t just bounce back up,
maybe hitting Kevin square between the eyes and killing him, like
the final twist in a horror story.
The Sun didn’t so much shatter as detonate. Black
plastic flew everywhere. A long rectangle with a shiny black square
at one end—a picture which would never be taken, Kevin
supposed—fluttered to the bare ground beside the chopping block and
lay there, face down.
There was a moment of silence so complete they
could hear not only the cars on Lower Main Street but kids playing
tag half a block away in the parking lot behind Wardell’s Country
Store, which had gone bankrupt two years before and had stood
vacant ever since.
“Well, that’s that,” Pop said. “You swung
that sledge just like Paul Bunyan, Kevin! I should smile n kiss a
pig if you didn’t.
“No need to do that,” he said, now addressing Mr.
Delevan, who was picking up broken chunks of plastic as prissily as
a man picking up the pieces of a glass he has accidentally knocked
to the floor and shattered. “I have a boy comes in and cleans up
the yard every week or two. I know it don’t look like much as it
is, but if I didn’t have that kid ... Glory!”
“Then maybe we ought to use your magnifying glass
and take a look at those pictures,” Mr. Delevan said, standing up.
He dropped the few pieces of plastic he had picked up into a rusty
incinerator that stood nearby and then brushed off his hands.
“Fine by me,” Pop said.
“Then burn them,” Kevin reminded. “Don’t forget
that.”
“I didn’t,” Pop said. “I’ll feel better when
they’re gone, too.”
“Jesus!” John Delevan said. He was bending over
Pop Merrill’s worktable, looking through the lighted magnifying
glass at the second-to-last photograph. It was the one in which the
object around the dog’s neck showed most clearly; in the last
photo, the object had swung back in the other direction again.
“Kevin, look at that and tell me if it’s what I think it is.”
Kevin took the magnifying glass and looked. He had
known, of course, but even so it still wasn’t a look just for
form’s sake. Clyde Tombaugh must have looked at an actual
photograph of the planet Pluto for the first time with the same
fascination. Tombaugh had known it was there; calculations showing
similar distortions in the orbital paths of Neptune and Uranus had
made Pluto not just a possibility but a necessity. Still, to
know a thing was there, even to know what it was ... that
did not detract from the fascination of actually seeing it for the
first time.
He let go of the switch and handed the glass back
to Pop. “Yeah,” he said to his father. “It’s what you think it is.”
His voice was as flat as ... as flat as the things in that Polaroid
world, he supposed, and he felt an urge to laugh. He kept the sound
inside, not because it would have been inappropriate to laugh
(although he supposed it would have been) but because the sound
would have come out sounding ... well... flat.
Pop waited and when it became clear to him they
were going to need a nudge, he said: “Well, don’t keep me hoppin
from one foot to the other! What the hell is it?”
Kevin had felt reluctant to tell him before, and he
felt reluctant now. There was no reason for it, but—
Stop being so goddamned dumb! He helped you when
you needed helping, no matter how he earns his dough. Tell him and
burn the pictures and let’s get out of here before all those clocks
start striking five.
Yes. If he was around when that happened, he
thought it would be the final touch; he would just go completely
bananas and they could cart him away to Juniper Hill, raving about
real dogs in Polaroid worlds and cameras that took the same picture
over and over again except not quite.
“The Polaroid camera was a birthday present,” he
heard himself saying in that same dry voice. “What it’s wearing
around its neck was another one.”
Pop slowly pushed his glasses up onto his bald head
and squinted at Kevin. “I don’t guess I’m followin you, son.”
“I have an aunt,” Kevin said. “Actually she’s my
great-aunt, but we’re not supposed to call her that, because she
says it makes her feel old. Aunt Hilda. Anyway, Aunt Hilda’s
husband left her a lot of money—my mom says she’s worth over a
million dollars—but she’s a tightwad.”
He stopped, leaving his father space to protest,
but his father only smiled sourly and nodded. Pop Merrill, who knew
all about that situation (there was not, in truth, much in Castle
Rock and the surrounding areas Pop didn’t know at least something
about), simply held his peace and waited for the boy to get around
to spilling it.
“She comes and spends Christmas with us once every
three years, and that’s about the only time we go to church,
because she goes to church. We have lots of broccoli when Aunt
Hilda comes. None of us like it, and it just about makes my sister
puke, but Aunt Hilda likes broccoli a lot, so we have it. There was
a book on our summer reading list, Great Expectations, and
there was a lady in it who was just like Aunt Hilda. She got her
kicks dangling her money in front of her relatives. Her name was
Miss Havisham, and when Miss Havisham said frog, people jumped. We
jump, and I guess the rest of our family does, too.”
“Oh, your Uncle Randy makes your mother look like a
piker,” Mr. Delevan said unexpectedly. Kevin thought his dad meant
it to sound amused in a cynical sort of way, but what came through
was a deep, acidic bitterness. “When Aunt Hilda says frog in
Randy’s house, they all just about turn cartwheels over the
roofbeams.”
“Anyway,” Kevin told Pop, “she sends me the same
thing for my birthday every year. I mean, each one is different,
but each one’s really the same.”
“What is it she sends you, boy?”
“A string tie,” Kevin said. “Like the kind you see
guys wearing in old-time country-music bands. It has something
different on the clasp every year, but it’s always a string
tie.”
Pop snatched the magnifying glass and bent over the
picture with it. “Stone the crows!” he said, straightening up. “A
string tie! That’s just what it is! Now how come I didn’t see
that?”
“Because it isn’t the sort of thing a dog would
wear around his neck, I guess,” Kevin said in that same wooden
voice. They had been here for only forty-five minutes or so, but he
felt as if he had aged another fifteen years. The thing to
remember, his mind told him over and over, is that the camera is
gone. It’s nothing but splinters. Never mind all the King’s horses
and all the King’s men; not even all the guys who work making
cameras at the Polaroid factory in Schenectady could put that baby
back together again.
Yes, and thank God. Because this was the end of the
line. As far as Kevin was concerned, if he never encountered the
supernatural again until he was eighty, never so much as
brushed up against it, it would still be too soon.
“Also, it’s very small,” Mr. Delevan pointed out.
“I was there when Kevin took it out of the box, and we all knew
what it was going to be. The only mystery was what would be on the
clasp this year. We joked about it.”
“What is on the clasp?” Pop asked, peering into the
photograph again ... or peering at it, anyway: Kevin would testify
in any court in the land that peering into a Polaroid was
simply impossible.
“A bird,” Kevin said. “I’m pretty sure it’s a
woodpecker. And that’s what the dog in the picture is wearing
around its neck. A string tie with a woodpecker on the
clasp.”
“Jesus!” Pop said. He was in his own quiet way one
of the world’s finer actors, but there was no need to simulate the
surprise he felt now.
Mr. Delevan abruptly swept all the Polaroids
together. “Let’s put these goddam things in the woodstove,” he
said.
When Kevin and his father got home, it was ten
minutes past five and starting to drizzle. Mrs. Delevan’s
two-year-old Toyota was not in the driveway, but she had been and
gone. There was a note from her on the kitchen table, held down by
the salt and pepper shakers. When Kevin unfolded the note, a
ten-dollar bill fell out.
Dear Kevin,
At the bridge game Jane Doyon asked if Meg and I
would like to have dinner with her at Bonanza as her husband is off
to Pittsburgh on business and she’s knocking around the house
alone. I said we’d be delighted. Meg especially. You know how much
she likes to be “one of the girls”! Hope you don’t mind eating in
“solitary splendor.” Why not order a pizza & some soda for
yourself, and your father can order for himself when he gets home.
He doesn’t like reheated pizza & you know he’ll want a couple
of beers.
Luv you,
Mom
They looked at each other, both saying Well,
there’s one thing we don’t have to worry about without having
to say it out loud. Apparently neither she nor Meg had noticed that
Mr. Delevan’s car was still in the garage.
“Do you want me to—” Kevin began, but there was no
need to finish because his father cut across him: “Yes. Check.
Right now.”
Kevin went up the stairs by twos and into his room.
He had a bureau and a desk. The bottom desk drawer was full of what
Kevin simply thought of as “stuff”: things it would have seemed
somehow criminal to throw away, although he had no real use for any
of them. There was his grandfather’s pocket-watch, heavy, scrolled,
magnificent ... and so badly rusted that the jeweler in Lewiston he
and his mother had brought it to only took one look, shook his
head, and pushed it back across the counter. There were two sets of
matching cufflinks and two orphans, a Penthouse gatefold, a
paperback book called Gross Jokes, and a Sony Walkman which
had for some reason developed a habit of eating the tapes it was
supposed to play. It was just stuff, that was all. There was no
other word that fit.
Part of the stuff, of course, was the thirteen
string ties Aunt Hilda had sent him for his last thirteen
birthdays.
He took them out one by one, counted, came up with
twelve instead of thirteen, rooted through the stuff-drawer again,
then counted again. Still twelve.
“Not there?”
Kevin, who had been squatting, cried out and leaped
to his feet.
“I’m sorry,” Mr. Delevan said from the doorway.
“That was dumb.”
“That’s okay,” Kevin said. He wondered briefly how
fast a person’s heart could beat before the person in question
simply blew his engine. “I’m just ... on edge. Stupid.”
“It’s not.” His father looked at him soberly. “When
I saw that tape, I got so scared I felt like maybe I’d have to
reach into my mouth and push my stomach back down with my
fingers.”
Kevin looked at his father gratefully.
“It’s not there, is it?” Mr. Delevan asked. “The
one with the woodpecker or whatever in hell it was supposed to
be?”
“No. It’s not.”
“Did you keep the camera in that drawer?”
Kevin nodded his head slowly. “Pop—Mr. Merrill—said
to let it rest every so often. That was part of the schedule he
made out.”
Something tugged briefly at his mind, was
gone.
“So I stuck it in there.”
“Boy,” Mr. Delevan said softly.
“Yeah.”
They looked at each other in the gloom, and then
suddenly Kevin smiled. It was like watching the sun burst through a
raft of clouds.
“What?”
“I was remembering how it felt,” Kevin said. “I
swung that sledgehammer so hard—”
Mr. Delevan began to smile, too. “I thought you
were going to take off your own damned—”
“—and when it hit it made this CRUNCH!
sound—”
“—flew every damn whichway—”
“BOOM!” Kevin finished. “Gone!”
They began to laugh together in Kevin’s room, and
Kevin found he was almost—almost—glad all this had happened.
The sense of relief was as inexpressible and yet as perfect as the
sensation one feels when, either by happy accident or by some
psychic guidance, another person manages to scratch that one itchy
place on one’s back that one cannot scratch oneself, hitting it
exactly, bang on the money, making it wonderfully worse for a
single second by the simple touch, pressure, arrival, of those
fingers ... and then, oh blessed relief.
It was like that with the camera and with his
father’s knowing.
“It’s gone,” Kevin said. “Isn’t it?”
“As gone as Hiroshima after the Enola Gay
dropped the A-bomb on it,” Mr. Delevan replied, and then added:
“Smashed to shit, is what I mean to say.”
Kevin gawped at his father and then burst into
helpless peals—screams, almost—of laughter. His father joined him.
They orderd a loaded pizza shortly after. When Mary and Meg Delevan
arrived home at twenty past seven, they both still had the
giggles.
“Well, you two look like you’ve been up to no
good,” Mrs. Delevan said, a little puzzled. There was something in
their hilarity that struck the woman center of her—that deep part
which the sex seems to tap into fully only in times of childbirth
and disaster—as a little unhealthy. They looked and sounded like
men who may have just missed having a car accident. “Want to let
the ladies in on it?”
“Just two bachelors having a good time,” Mr.
Delevan said.
“Smashing good time,” Kevin amplified, to
which his father added, “Is what we mean to say,” and they looked
at each
other and were howling again.
Meg, honestly bewildered, looked at her mother and
said: “Why are they doing that, Mom?”
Mrs. Delevan said, “Because they have penises,
dear. Go hang up your coat.”
Pop Merrill let the Delevans, père et fils,
out, and then locked the door behind them. He turned off all the
lights save for the one over the worktable, produced his keys, and
opened his own stuff-drawer. From it he took Kevin Delevan’s
Polaroid Sun 660, chipped but otherwise undamaged, and looked at it
fixedly. It had scared both the father and the son. That was clear
enough to Pop; it had scared him as well, and still did. But to put
a thing like this on a block and smash it to smithereens? That was
crazy.
There was a way to turn a buck on this goddam
thing.
There always was.
Pop locked it away in the drawer. He would sleep on
it, and by the morning he would know how to proceed. In truth, he
already had a pretty goddam good idea.
He got up, snapped off the work-light, and wove his
way through the gloom toward the steps leading up to his apartment.
He moved with the unthinking surefooted grace of long
practice.
Halfway there, he stopped.
He felt an urge, an amazingly strong urge, to go
back and look at the camera again. What in God’s name for? He
didn’t even have any film for the Christless thing ... not
that he had any intentions of taking any pictures with it.
If someone else wanted to take some snapshots, watch that
dog’s progress, the buyer was welcome. Caveet emperor, as he
always said. Let the goddam emperor caveet or not as it suited
him. As for him, he’d as soon go into a cage filled with lions
without even a goddam whip and chair.
Still ...
“Leave it,” he said roughly in the darkness, and
the sound of his own voice startled him and got him moving and he
went upstairs without another look back.