CHAPTER THIRTEEN
“Kevin, I’m going to be late for work if I
don’t—”
“Will you call in? Can you? Call in and say you’ll
be late, or that you might not get there at all? If it was
something really, really, really important?”
Warily, Mr. Delevan asked, “What’s the
something?”
“Could you?”
Mrs. Delevan was standing in the doorway of Kevin’s
bedroom now. Meg was behind her. Both of them were eyeing the man
in his business suit and the tall boy, still wearing only his
Jockey shorts, curiously.
“I suppose I—yes, say I could. But I won’t until I
know what it is.”
Kevin lowered his voice, and, cutting his eyes
toward the door, he said: “It’s about Pop Merrill. And the
camera.”
Mr. Delevan, who had at first only looked puzzled
at what Kevin’s eyes were doing, now went to the door. He murmured
something to his wife, who nodded. Then he closed the door, paying
no more attention to Meg’s protesting whine than he would have to a
bird singing a bundle of notes on a telephone wire outside the
bedroom window.
“What did you tell Mom?” Kevin asked.
“That it was man-to-man stuff.” Mr. Delevan smiled
a little. “I think she thinks you want to talk about
masturbating.”
Kevin flushed.
Mr. Delevan looked concerned. “You don’t, do you? I
mean, you know about—”
“I know, I know,” Kevin said hastily; he was not
about to tell his father (and wasn’t sure he would have been able
to put the right string of words together, even if he had wanted
to) that what had thrown him momentarily off-track was finding out
that not only did his father know about whacking off—which
of course shouldn’t have surprised him at all but somehow did,
leaving him with feelings of surprise at his own surprise—but that
his mother somehow did, too.
Never mind. All this had nothing to do with the
nightmares, or with the new certainty which had locked into place
in his head.
“It’s about Pop, I told you. And some bad dreams
I’ve been having. But mostly it’s about the camera. Because Pop
stole it somehow, Dad.”
“Kevin—”
“I beat it to pieces on his chopping block, I know.
But it wasn’t my camera. It was another camera. And that isn’t even
the worst thing. The worst thing is that he’s still using mine
to take pictures! And that dog is going to get out! When it
does, I think it’s going to kill me. In that other world it’s
already started to j-j-j—”
He couldn’t finish. Kevin surprised himself
again—this time by bursting into tears.
By the time John Delevan got his son calmed down
it was ten minutes of eight, and he had resigned himself to at
least being late for work. He held the boy in his arms—whatever it
was, it really had the kid shook, and if it really was nothing but
a bunch of dreams, Mr. Delevan supposed he would find sex at the
root of the matter someplace.
When Kevin was shivering and only sucking breath
deep into his lungs in an occasional dry-sob, Mr. Delevan went to
the door and opened it cautiously, hoping Kate had taken Meg
downstairs. She had; the hallway was empty. That’s one for our
side, anyway, he thought, and went back to Kevin.
“Can you talk now?” he asked.
“Pop’s got my camera,” Kevin said hoarsely. His red
eyes, still watery, peered at his father almost myopically. “He got
it somehow, and he’s using it.”
“And this is something you dreamed?”
“Yes ... and I remembered something.”
“Kevin ... that was your camera. I’m sorry, son,
but it was. I even saw the little chip in the side.”
“He must have rigged that somehow—”
“Kevin, that seems pretty farf—”
“Listen,” Kevin said urgently, “will you just
listen?”
“All right. Yes. I’m listening.”
“What I remembered was that when he handed me the
camera—when we went out back to crunch it, remember?”
“Yes—”
“I looked in the little window where the camera
keeps count of how many shots there are left. And it said three,
Dad! It said three!”
“Well? What about it?”
“It had film in it, too! Film! I know,
because I remember one of those shiny black things jumping up when
I squashed the camera. It jumped up and then it fluttered back
down.”
“I repeat: so what?”
“There wasn’t any film in my camera when I gave
it to Pop! That’s so-what. I had twenty-eight pictures. He
wanted me to take thirty more, for a total of fifty-eight. I might
have bought more film if I’d known what he was up to, but probably
not. By then I was scared of the thing—”
“Yeah. I was, a little, too.”
Kevin looked at him respectfully. “Were you?”
“Yeah. Go on. I think I see where you’re
heading.”
“I was just going to say, he chipped in for the
film, but not enough—not even half. He’s a wicked skinflint,
Dad.”
John Delevan smiled thinly. “He is that, my boy.
One of the world’s greatest, is what I mean to say. Go on and
finish up. Tempus is fugiting. away
like mad.”
Kevin glanced at the clock. It was almost eight.
Although neither of them knew it, Pop would wake up in just under
two minutes and start about his morning’s business, very little of
which he would remember correctly.
“All right,” Kevin said. “All I’m trying to say is
I couldn’t have bought any more film even if I’d wanted to. I used
up all the money I had buying the three film packs. I even borrowed
a buck from Megan, so I let her shoot a couple, too.”
“Between the two of you, you used up all the
exposures? Every single one?”
“Yes! Yes! He even said it was fifty-eight!
And between the time when I finished shooting all the pictures he
wanted and when we went to look at the tape he made, I never bought
any more film. It was dead empty when I brought it in, Dad!
The number in the little window was a zero! I saw it, I
remember! So if it was my camera, how come it said three in
the window when we went back downstairs?”
“He couldn’t have—” Then his father stopped,
and a queer look of uncharacteristic gloom came over his face as he
realized that Pop could have, and that the truth of it was this:
he, John Delevan, didn’t want to believe that Pop
had; that even bitter experience had not been
sufficient vaccination against foolishness, and Pop might have
pulled the wool over his own eyes as well as those of his
son.
“Couldn’t have what? What are you thinking
about, Dad? Something just hit you!”
Something had hit him, all right. How eager Pop had
been to go downstairs and get the original Polaroids so they could
all get a closer look at the thing around the dog’s neck, the thing
that turned out to.be Kevin’s latest string tie from Aunt Hilda,
the one with the bird on it that was probably a woodpecker.
We might as well go down with you, Kevin had
said when Pop had offered to get the photos, but hadn’t Pop jumped
up himself, chipper as a chickadee? Won’t take a minute, the
old man had said, or some such thing, and the truth was, Mr.
Delevan told himself, I hardly noticed what he was saying or
doing, because I wanted to watch that goddamned tape again. And the
truth also was this: Pop hadn’t even had to pull the old switcheroo
right in front of them—although, with his eyes unwooled, Mr.
Delevan was reluctantly willing to believe the old son of a bitch
had probably been prepared to do just that, if he had to, and
probably could have done it, too, pushing seventy or not. With them
upstairs and him downstairs, presumably doing no more than getting
Kevin’s photographs, he could have swapped twenty cameras,
at his leisure.
“Dad?”
“I suppose he could have,” Mr. Delevan said. “But
why?”
Kevin could only shake his head. He didn’t know
why. But that was all right; Mr. Delevan thought he did, and it was
something of a relief. Maybe honest men didn’t have to learn
the world’s simplest truths over and over again; maybe some of
those truths eventually stuck fast. He’d only had to articulate the
question aloud in order to find the answer. Why did the Pop
Merrills of this world do anything? To make a profit. That was the
reason, the whole reason, and nothing but the reason. Kevin had
wanted to destroy it. After looking at Pop’s videotape, Mr. Delevan
had found himself in accord with that. Of the three of them, who
had been the only one capable of taking a longer view?
Why, Pop, or course. Reginald Marion “Pop”
Merrill.
John Delevan had been sitting on the edge of
Kevin’s bed with an arm about his son’s shoulders. Now he stood up.
“Get dressed. I’ll go downstairs and call in. I’ll tell Brandon
I’ll probably just be late, but to assume I won’t be in at
all.”
He was preoccupied with this, already talking to
Brandon Reed in his mind, but not so preoccupied he didn’t see the
gratitude which lighted his son’s worried face. Mr. Delevan smiled
a little and felt that uncharacteristic gloom first ease and then
let go entirely. There was this much, at least: his son was as yet
not too old to take comfort from him, or accept him as a higher
power to whom appeals could sometimes be directed in the knowledge
that they would be acted upon; nor was he himself too old to take
comfort from his son’s comfort.
“I think,” he said, moving toward the door, “that
we ought to pay a call on Pop Merrill.” He glanced at the clock on
Kevin’s night-table. It was ten minutes after eight, and in back of
the Emporium Galorium, a sledgehammer was coming down on an
imitation German cuckoo clock. “He usually opens around
eight-thirty. Just about the time we’ll get there, I think. If you
get a wiggle on, that is.”
He paused on his way out and a brief, cold smile
flickered on his mouth. He was not smiling at his son. “I think
he’s got some explaining to do, is what I mean to say.”
Mr. Delevan went out, closing the door behind him.
Kevin quickly began to dress.