STRAIGHT UP MIDNIGHT
A N INTRODUCTORY NOTE
Well, look at this—we’re all here. We
made it back again. I hope you’re half as happy to be here as I am.
Just saying that reminds me of a story, and since telling stories
is what I do for a living (and to keep myself sane), I’ll pass this
one along.
Earlier this year—I’m writing this in late July
of 1989—I was crashed out in front of the TV, watching the Boston
Red Sox play the Milwaukee Brewers. Robin Yount of the Brewers
stepped to the plate, and the Boston commentators began marvelling
at the fact that Yount was still in his early thirties. “Sometimes
it seems that Robin helped Abner Doubleday lay down the first set
of foul lines,” Ned Martin said as Yount stepped into the box to
face Roger Clemens.
“Yep,” Joe Castiglione agreed. “He came to the
Brewers right out of high school, I think—he’s been playing for
them since 1974.”
I sat up so fast I nearly spilled a can of
Pepsi-Cola all over myself. Wait a minute! I was thinking.
Wait just a goddam minute! I published my first book in 1974!
That wasn’t so long ago! What’s this shit about helping Abner
Doubleday put down the first set of foul lines?
Then it occurred to me that the perception of how
time passes—a subject which comes up again and again in the stories
which follow—is a highly individual thing. It’s true that the
publication of Carrie in the spring of 1974 (it was
published, in fact, just two days before baseball season began and
a teenager named Robin Yount played his first game for the
Milwaukee Brewers) doesn’t seem like a long time ago to me
subjectively—just a quick glance back over the shoulder, in
fact—but there are other ways to count the years, and some of them
suggest that fifteen years can be a long time, indeed.
In 1974 Gerald Ford was President and the Shah
was still running the show in Iran. John Lennon was alive, and so
was Elvis Presley. Donny Osmond was singing with his brothers and
sisters in a high, piping voice. Home video cassette recorders had
been invented but could be purchased in only a few test markets.
Insiders predicted that when they became widely available, Sony’s
Beta-format machines would quickly stomp the rival format, known as
VHS, into the ground. The idea that people might soon be renting
popular movies as they had once rented popular novels at lending
libraries was still over the horizon. Gasoline prices had risen to
unthinkable highs: forty-eight cents a gallon for regular,
fifty-five cents for unleaded.
The first white hairs had yet to make their
appearance on my head and in my beard. My daughter, now a college
sophomore, was four. My older son, who is now taller than I am,
plays the blues harp, and sports luxuriant shoulder-length Sammy
Hagar locks, had just been promoted to training pants. And my
younger son, who now pitches and plays first base for a
championship Little League team, would not be born for another
three years.
Time has this funny, plastic quality, and
everything that goes around comes around. When you get on the bus,
you think it won’t be taking you far—across town, maybe, no further
than that—and all at once, holy shit! You’re halfway across the
next continent. Do you find the metaphor a trifle naive? So do I,
and the hell of it is just this: it doesn’t matter. The essential
conundrum of time is so perfect that even such jejune observations
as the one I have just made retain an odd, plangent
resonance.
One thing hasn’t changed during those years—the
major reason, I suppose, why it sometimes seems to me (and probably
to Robin Yount as well) that no time has passed at all. I’m still
doing the same thing: writing stories. And it is still a great deal
more than what I know; it is still what I love. Oh, don’t get me
wrong—I love my wife and I love my children, but it’s still a
pleasure to find these peculiar side roads, to go down them, to see
who lives there, to see what they’re doing and who they’re doing it
to and maybe even why. I still love the strangeness of it, and
those gorgeous moments when the pictures come clear and the events
begin to make a pattern. There is always a tail to the tale. The
beast is quick and I sometimes miss my grip, but when I do get it,
I hang on tight ... and it feels fine.
When this book is published, in 1990, I will have
been sixteen years in the business of make-believe. Halfway through
those years, long after I had become, by some process I still do
not fully understand, America’s literary boogeyman, I published a
book called Different Seasons. It was a collection of four
previously unpublished novellas, three of which were not horror
stories. The publisher accepted this book in good heart but, I
think, with some mental reservations as well. I know I had some. As
it turned out, neither of us had to worry. Sometimes a writer will
publish a book which is just naturally lucky, and Different
Seasons was that way for me.
One of the stories, “The Body,” became a movie
(Stand By Me) which enjoyed a successful run ... the first
really successful film to be made from a work of mine since
Carrie (a movie which came out back when Abner Doubleday and
you-know-who were laying down those foul lines). Rob Reiner, who
made Stand By Me, is one of the bravest, smartest filmmakers
I have ever met, and I’m proud of my association with him. I am
also amused to note that the company Mr. Reiner formed following
the success of Stand By Me is Castle Rock Productions ... a
name with which many of my long-time readers will be
familiar.
The critics, by and large, also liked
Different Seasons. Almost all of them would napalm one
particular novella, but since each of them picked a different story
to scorch, I felt I could disregard them all with impunity ... and
I did. Such behavior is not always possible; when most of the
reviews of Christine suggested it was a really dreadful
piece of work, I came to the reluctant decision that it probably
wasn’t as good as I had hoped (that, however, did not stop
me from cashing the royalty checks). I know writers who claim not
to read their notices, or not to be hurt by the bad ones if they
do, and I actually believe two of these individuals. I’m one of the
other kind—I obsess over the possibility of bad reviews and brood
over them when they come. But they don’t get me down for long; I
just kill a few children and old ladies, and then I’m right as a
trivet again.
Most important, the readers liked
Different Seasons. I don’t remember a single correspondent
from that time who scolded me for writing something that wasn’t
horror. Most readers, in fact, wanted to tell me that one of the
stories roused their emotions in some way, made them think, made
them feel, and those letters are the real payback for
the days (and there are a lot of them) when the words come hard and
inspiration seems thin or even nonexistent. God bless and keep
Constant Reader; the mouth can speak, but there is no tale unless
there is a sympathetic ear to listen.
1982, that was. The year the Milwaukee Brewers
won their only American League pennant, led by—yes, you got
it—Robin Yount. Yount hit .331 that year, bashed twenty-nine home
runs, and was named the American League’s Most Valuable
Player.
It was a good year for both us old geezers.
Different Seasons was not a planned book;
it just happened. The four long stories in it came out at odd
intervals over a period of five years, stories which were too long
to be published as short stories and just a little too short to be
books on their own. Like pitching a no-hitter or batting for the
cycle (getting a single, double, triple, and home run all in the
same ball game), it was not so much a feat as a kind of statistical
oddity. I took great pleasure in its success and acceptance, but I
also felt a clear sense of regret when the manuscript was finally
turned in to The Viking Press. I knew it was good; I also knew that
I’d probably never publish another book exactly like it in my
life.
If you’re expecting me to say Well, I was
wrong, I must disappoint you. The book you are holding is quite
different from the earlier book. Different Seasons consisted
of three “mainstream” stories and one tale of the supernatural; all
four of the tales in this book are tales of horror. They are, by
and large, a little longer than the stories in Different
Seasons, and they were written for the most part during the two
years when I was supposedly retired. Perhaps they are different
because they came from a mind which found itself turning, at least
temporarily, to darker subjects.
Time, for instance, and the corrosive effects it
can have on the human heart. The past, and the shadows it throws
upon the present—shadows where unpleasant things sometimes grow and
even more unpleasant things hide ... and grow fat.
Yet not all of my concerns have changed, and most
of my convictions have only grown stronger. I still believe in the
resilience of the human heart and the essential validity of love; I
still believe that connections between people can be made and that
the spirits which inhabit us sometimes touch. I still believe that
the cost of those connections is horribly, outrageously high ...
and I still believe that the value received far outweighs the price
which must be paid. I still believe, I suppose, in the coming of
the White and in finding a place to make a stand ... and defending
that place to the death. They are old-fashioned concerns and
beliefs, but I would be a liar if I did not admit I still own them.
And that they still own me.
I still love a good story, too. I love hearing
one, and I love telling one. You may or may not know (or care) that
I was paid a great deal of money to publish this book and the two
which will follow it, but if you do know or care, you should also
know that I wasn’t paid a cent for writing the stories in
the book. Like anything else that happens on its own, the act of
writing is beyond currency. Money is great stuff to have, but when
it comes to the act of creation, the best thing is not to think of
money too much. It constipates the whole process.
The way I tell my stories has also changed a
little, I suppose (I hope I’ve gotten better at it, but of course
that is something each reader should and will judge for himself),
but that is only to be expected. When the Brewers won the pennant
in 1982, Robin Yount was playing shortstop. Now he’s in center
field. I suppose that means he’s slowed down a little ... but he
still catches almost everything that’s hit in his direction.
That will do for me. That will do just
fine.
Because a great many readers seem curious about
where stories come from, or wonder if they fit into a wider scheme
the writer may be pursuing, I have prefaced each of these with a
little note about how it came to be written. You may be amused by
these notes, but you needn’t read them if you don’t want to; this
is not a school assignment, thank God, and there will be no pop
quiz later.
Let me close by saying again how good it is to be
here, alive and well and talking to you once more ... and how good
it is to know that you are still there, alive and
well and waiting to go to some other place—a place where, perhaps,
the walls have eyes and the trees have ears and something
really unpleasant is trying to find its way out of the attic
and downstairs, to where the people are. That thing still interests
me ... but I think these days that the people who may or may not be
listening for it interest me more.
Before I go, I ought to tell you how that
baseball game turned out. The Brewers ended up beating the Red Sox.
Clemens struck Robin Yount out on Yount’s first at-bat ... but the
second time up, Yount (who helped Abner Doubleday lay out the first
foul lines, according to Ned Martin) banged a double high off the
Green Monster in left field and drove home two runs.
Robin isn’t done playing the game just yet, I
guess.
Me, either.
Bangor, Maine July, 1989