CHAPTER ELEVEN
DAVE’S STORY
1
“I wasn’t always Dirty Dave Duncan,” he began. “In
the early fifties I was just plain old Dave Duncan, and people
liked me just fine. I was a member of that same Rotary Club you
talked to the other night, Sam. Why not? I had my own business, and
it made money. I was a sign-painter, and I was a damned good one. I
had all the work I could handle in Junction City and Proverbia, but
I sometimes did a little work up in Cedar Rapids, as well. Once I
painted a Lucky Strike cigarette ad on the right-field wall of the
minor-league ballpark all the way to hell and gone in Omaha. I was
in great demand, and I deserved to be. I was good. I was just the
best sign-painter around these parts.
“I stayed here because serious painting was what I
was really interested in, and I thought you could do that anywhere.
I didn’t have no formal art education—I tried but I flunked out—and
I knew that put me down on the count, so to speak, but I knew that
there were artists who made it without all that speed-shit
bushwah—Gramma Moses, for one. She didn’t need no driver’s license;
she went right to town without one.
“I might even have made it. I sold some canvases,
but not many—I didn’t need to, because I wasn’t married and I was
doing well with my sign-painting business. Also, I kept most of my
pitchers so I could put on shows, the way artists are supposed to.
I had some, too. Right here in town at first, then in Cedar Rapids,
and then in Des Moines. That one was written up in the
Democrat, and they made me sound like the second coming of
James Whistler.”
Dave fell silent for a moment, thinking. Then he
raised his head and looked out at the empty, fallow fields
again.
“In AA, they talk about folks who have one foot in
the future and the other in the past and spend their time pissin
all over today because of it. But sometimes it’s hard not to wonder
what might have happened if you’d done things just a little
different.”
He looked almost guiltily at Naomi, who smiled and
pressed his hand.
“Because I was good, and I did come
close. But I was drinkin heavy, even back then. I didn’t think much
of it—hell, I was young, I was strong, and besides, don’t all great
artists drink? I thought they did. And I still might have
made it—made something, anyway, for awhile—but then Ardelia Lortz
came to Junction City.
“And when she came, I was lost.”
He looked at Sam.
“I recognize her from your story, Sam, but that
wasn’t how she looked back then. You expected to see an old-lady
librarian, and that suited her purpose, so that’s just what you
did see. But when she came to Junction City in the summer of
’57, her hair was ash-blonde, and the only places she was plump was
where a woman is supposed to be plump.
“I was living out in Proverbia then, and I used to
go to the Baptist Church. I wasn’t much on religion, but there were
some fine-looking women there. Your mom was one of em,
Sarah.”
Naomi laughed in the way women do when they are
told something they cannot quite believe.
“Ardelia caught on with the home folks right away.
These days, when the folks from that church talk about her—if they
ever do—I bet they say things like ‘I knew from the very start
there was somethin funny about that Lortz woman’ or ‘I never
trusted the look in that woman’s eye,’ but let me tell you, that
wasn’t how it was. They buzzed around her—the women as well as the
men—like bees around the first flower of spring. She got a job as
Mr. Lavin’s assistant before she was in town a month, but she was
teachin the little ones at the Sunday School out there in Proverbia
two weeks before that.
“Just what she was teachin em I don’t like to
think—you can bet your bottom dollar it wasn’t the Gospel According
to Matthew—but she was teachin em. And everyone swore on how much
the little ones loved her. They swore on it, too, but there
was a look in their eyes when they said so ... a far-off look, like
they wasn’t really sure where they were, or even who they
were.
“Well, she caught my eye . . . and I caught hers.
You wouldn’t know it from the way I am now, but I was a pretty
good-lookin fella in those days. I always had a tan from workin
outdoors, I had muscles, my hair was faded almost blonde from the
sun, and my belly was as flat as your ironin board, Sarah.
“Ardelia had rented herself a farmhouse about a
mile and a half from the church, a tight enough little place, but
it needed a coat of paint as bad as a man in the desert needs a
drink of water. So after church the second week I noticed her
there—I didn’t go often and by then it was half-past August—I
offered to paint it for her.
“She had the biggest eyes you’ve ever seen. I guess
most people would have called them gray, but when she looked right
at you, hard, you would have sworn they were silver. And she looked
at me hard that day after church. She was wearin some kind
of perfume that I never smelled before and ain’t never smelled
since. Lavender, I think. I can’t think how to describe it, but I
know it always made me think of little white flowers that only
bloom after the sun has gone down. And I was smitten. Right there
and then.
“She was close to me—almost close enough for our
bodies to touch. She was wearin this dowdy black dress, the kind of
dress an old lady would wear, and a hat with a little net veil, and
she was holdin her purse in front of her. All prim and proper. Her
eyes weren’t prim, though. Nossir. Nor proper. Not a
bit.
“ ‘I hope you don’t want to put advertisements for
bleach and chewing tobacco all over my new house,’ she says.
“ ‘No ma’am,‘ I says back. ’I thought just two
coats of plain old white. Houses aren’t what I do for a livin,
anyway, but with you bein new in town and all, I thought it would
be neighborly—‘
“ ‘Yes indeed,’ she says, and touches my
shoulder.”
Dave looked apologetically at Naomi.
“I think I ought to give you a chance to leave, if
you want to. Pretty soon I’m gonna start tellin some dirty stuff,
Sarah. I’m ashamed of it, but I want to clean the slate of my doins
with her.”
She patted his old, chapped hand. “Go ahead,” she
told him quietly. “Say it all.”
He fetched in a deep breath and went on
again.
“When she touched me, I knew I had to have her or
die tryin. Just that one little touch made me feel better—and
crazier—than any woman-touch ever made me feel in my whole life.
She knew it, too. I could see it in her eyes. It was a sly look. It
was a mean look, too, but somethin about that excited me more than
anything else.
“ ‘It would be neighborly, Dave,’ she says,
‘and I want to be a very good neighbor.’
“So I walked her home. Left all the other young
fellows standin at the church door, you might say, fumin and no
doubt cursin my name. They didn’t know how lucky they were. None of
them.
“My Ford was in the shop and she didn’t have no
car, so we were stuck with shank’s mare. I didn’t mind a bit, and
she didn’t seem to, neither. We went out the Truman Road, which was
still dirt in those days, although they sent a town truck along to
oil it every two or three weeks and lay the dust.
“We got about halfway to her place, and she
stopped. It was just the two of us, standin in the middle of Truman
Road at high noon on a summer’s day, with about a million acres of
Sam Orday’s corn on one side and about two million of Bill Humpe’s
corn on the other, all of it growin high over our heads and rustlin
in that secret way corn has, even when there’s no breeze. My
granddad used to say it was the sound of the corn growin. I dunno
if that’s the truth or not, but it’s a spooky sound. I can tell you
that.
“ ‘Look!’ she says, pointin to the right. ‘Do you
see it?’
“I looked, but I didn’t see nothing—only corn. I
told her so.
“ ‘I’ll show you!’ she says, and runs into the
corn, Sunday dress and high heels and all. She didn’t even take off
that hat with the veil on it.
“I stood there for a few seconds, sorta stunned.
Then I heard her laughin. I heard her laughin in the corn. So I ran
in after her, partly to see whatever it was she’d seen, but mostly
because of that laugh. I was so randy. I can’t begin to tell
you.
“I seen her standin way up the row I was in, and
then she faded into the next one, still laughin. I started to
laugh, too, and went on through myself, not carin that I was bustin
down some of Sam Orday’s plants. He’d never miss em, not in all
those acres. But when I got through, trailin cornsilk off my
shoulders and a green leaf stuck in my tie like some new kind of
clip, I stopped laughin in a hurry, because she wasn’t there. Then
I heard her on the other side of me. I didn’t have no idea how she
could have got back there without me seein her, but she had. So I
busted back through just in time to see her runnin into the next
row.
“We played hide n seek for half an hour, I guess,
and I couldn’t catch her. All I did was get hotter and randier. I’d
think she was a row over, in front of me, but I’d get there and
hear her two rows over, behind me. Sometimes I’d see her
foot, or her leg, and of course she left tracks in the soft dirt,
but they weren’t no good, because they seemed to go every which way
at once.
“Then, just when I was startin to get mad—I’d sweat
through my good shirt, my tie was undone, and my shoes was full of
dirt—I come through to a row and seen her hat hangin off a
corn-plant with the veil flippin in the little breeze that got down
there into the corn.
“ ‘Come and get me, Dave!’ she calls. I grabbed her
hat and busted through to the next row on a slant. She was gone—I
could just see the corn waverin where she’d went through—but both
her shoes were there. In the next row I found one of her silk
stockins hung over an ear of corn. And still I could hear her
laughin. Over on my blind side, she was, and how the bitch got
there, God only knows. Not that it mattered to me by then.
“I ripped off my tie and tore after her, around and
around and dosey-doe, pantin like a stupid dog that don’t know
enough to lie still on a hot day. And I’ll tell you somethin—I
broke the corn down everywhere I went. Left a trail of trampled
stalks and leaners behind me. But she never busted a one.
They’d just waver a bit when she passed, as if there was no more to
her than there was to that little summer breeze.
“I found her dress, her slip, and her garter-belt.
Then I found her bra and step-ins. I couldn’t hear her laughin no
more. There wasn’t no sound but the corn. I stood there in one of
the rows, puffin like a leaky boiler, with all her clothes bundled
up against my chest. I could smell her perfume in em, and it was
drivin me crazy.
“ ‘Where are you?’ I yelled, but there wasn’t no
answer. Well, I finally lost what little sanity I had left . . .
and of course, that was just what she wanted. ‘Where the fuck
are you?’ I screamed, and her long white arm reached through
the corn-plants right beside me and she stroked my neck with one
finger. It jumped the shit out of me.
“ ‘I’ve been waiting for you,’ she said. ‘What took
you so long? Don’t you want to see it?’ She grabbed me and drawed
me through the corn, and there she was with her feet planted in the
dirt, not a stitch on her, and her eyes as silver as rain on a
foggy day.”
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Dave took a long drink of water, closed his eyes,
and went on.
“We didn’t make love there in the corn—in all the
time I knew her, we never made love. But we made somethin. I
had Ardelia in just about every way a man can have a woman, and I
think I had her in some ways you’d think would be impossible. I
can’t remember all the ways, but I can remember her body, how white
it was; how her legs looked; how her toes curled and seemed to feel
along the shoots of the plants comin out of the dirt; I can
remember how she pulled her fingernails back and forth across the
skin of my neck and my throat.
“We went on and on and on. I don’t know how many
times, but I know I didn’t never get tired. When we started I felt
horny enough to rape the Statue of Liberty, and when we finished I
felt the same way. I couldn’t get enough of her. It was like the
booze, I guess. Wasn’t any way I could ever get enough of
her. And she knew it, too.
“But we finally did stop. She put her hands
behind her head and wriggled her white shoulders in the black dirt
we was layin in and looked up at me with those silvery eyes of hers
and she says, ‘Well, Dave? Are we neighbors yet?’
“I told her I wanted to go again and she told me
not to push my luck. I tried to climb on just the same, and she
pushed me off as easy as a mother pushes a baby off’n her tit when
she don’t want to feed it no more. I tried again and she swiped at
my face with her nails and split the skin open in two places. That
finally damped my boiler down. She was quick as a cat and twice as
strong. When she saw I knew playtime was over, she got dressed and
led me out of the corn. I went just as meek as Mary’s little
lamb.
“We walked the rest of the way to her house. Nobody
passed us, and that was probably just as well. My clothes were all
covered with dirt and cornsilk, my shirttail was out, my tie was
stuffed into my back pocket and flappin along behind me like a
tail, and every place that the cloth rubbed I felt raw. Her,
though—she looked as smooth and cool as an ice-cream soda in a
drugstore glass. Not a hair out of place, not a speck of dirt on
her shoes, not a strand of cornsilk on her skirt.
“We got to the house and while I was lookin it
over, tryin to decide how much paint it would take, she brought me
a drink in a tall glass. There was a straw in it, and a sprig of
mint. I thought it was iced tea until I took a sip. It was straight
Scotch.
“ ‘Jesus!’ I says, almost chokin.
“ ‘Don’t you want it?’ she asks me, smilin in that
mockin way she had. ‘Maybe you’d prefer some iced coffee.’
“ ‘Oh, I want it,’ I says, but it was more than
that. I needed it. I was tryin not to drink in the middle of
the day back then, because that’s what alcoholics do. But that was
the end of that. For the rest of the time I knew her, I drank
pretty near all day, every day. For me, the last two and a half
years Ike was President was one long souse.
“While I was paintin her house—and doin everything
she’d let me do to her whenever I could—she was settlin in at the
Library. Mr. Lavin hired her first crack outta the box, and put her
in charge of the Children’s Library. I used to go there every
chance I got, which was a lot, since I was self-employed. When Mr.
Lavin spoke to me about how much time I was spendin there, I
promised to paint the whole inside of the Library for free. Then he
let me come and go as much as I wanted. Ardelia told me it would
work out just that way, and she was right—as usual.
“I don’t have any connected memories of the time I
spent under her spell—and that’s what I was, an enchanted man livin
under the spell of a woman who wasn’t really a woman at all. It
wasn’t the blackouts that drunks sometimes get; it was wantin to
forget things after they were over. So what I have is memories that
stand apart from each other but seem to lie in a chain, like those
islands in the Pacific Ocean. Archie Pelligos, or whatever they
call em.
“I remember she put the poster of Little Red Ridin
Hood up on the door to the Children’s Room about a month before Mr.
Lavin died, and I remember her takin one little boy by the hand and
leadin him over to it. ‘Do you see that little girl?’ Ardelia asked
him. ‘Yes,’ he says. ‘Do you know why that Bad Thing is getting
ready to eat her?’ Ardelia asks. ‘No,’ the kid says back, his eyes
all big and solemn and full of tears. ‘Because he forgot to bring
back his library book on time,’ she says. ‘You won’t ever do that,
Willy, will you?’ ‘No, never,’ the little boy says, and Ardelia
says, ‘You better not.’ And then she led him into the Children’s
Room for Story Hour, still holdin him by the hand. That kid—it was
Willy Klemmart, who got killed in Vietnam—looked back over his
shoulder at where I was, standin on my scaffold with a paintbrush
in my hand, and I could read his eyes like they were a newspaper
headline. Save me from her, his eyes said. Please, Mr.
Duncan. But how could I? I couldn’t even save myself.”
Dave produced a clean but badly wrinkled bandanna
from the depths of one back pocket and blew a mighty honk into
it.
“Mr. Lavin began by thinkin Ardelia just about
walked on water, but he changed his mind after awhile. They got
into a hell of a scrap over that Red Ridin Hood poster about a week
before he died. He never liked it. Maybe he didn’t have a very good
idea of what went on durin Story Hour—I’ll get to that pretty
soon—but he wasn’t entirely blind. He saw the way the kids
looked at that poster. At last he told her to take it down. That
was when the argument started. I didn’t hear it all because I was
on the scaffold, high above them, and the acoustics were bad, but I
heard enough. He said somethin about scaring the children, or maybe
it was scarring the children, and she said somethin back
about how it helped her keep ‘the rowdy element’ under control. She
called it a teachin tool, just like the hickory stick.
“But he stuck to his guns and she finally had to
take it down. That night, at her house, she was like a tiger in the
zoo after some kid has spent all day pokin it with a stick. She
went back and forth in great big long strides, not a stitch on, her
hair flyin out behind her. I was in bed, drunk as a lord. But I
remember she turned around and her eyes had gone from silver to
bright red, as if her brains had caught afire, and her mouth looked
funny, like it was tryin to pull itself right out of her face, or
somethin. It almost scared me sober. I hadn’t ever seen nothin like
that, and never wanted to see it again.
“ ‘I’m going to fix him,’ she said. ‘I’m going to
fix that fat old whoremaster, Davey. You wait and see.’
“I told her not to do anything stupid, not to let
her temper get the best of her, and a lot of other stuff that
didn’t stand knee-high to jack shit. She listened to me for awhile
and then she ran across the room so fast that ... well, I don’t
know how to say it. One second she was standin all the way across
the room by the door, and the next second she was jumpin on top of
me, her eyes red and glaring, her mouth all pooched out of her face
like she wanted to kiss me so bad she was stretchin her skin
somehow to do it, and I had an idea that instead of just scratchin
me this time, she was gonna put her nails into my throat and peel
me to the backbone.
“But she didn’t. She put her face right down to
mine and looked at me. I don’t know what she saw—how scared I was,
I guess—but it must have made her happy, because she tipped her
head back so her hair fell all the way down to my thighs, and she
laughed. ‘Stop talking, you damned souse,’ she said, ‘and stick it
in me. What else are you good for?’
“So I did. Because stickin it in her—and
drinkin—was all I was good for by then. I surely wasn’t
paintin pitchers anymore, I lost my license after I got clipped for
my third OUI—in ‘58 or early ’59, that was—and I was gettin bad
reports on some of my jobs. I didn’t care much how I did them
anymore, you see; all I wanted was her. Talk started to circulate
about how Dave Duncan wasn’t trustworthy no more ... but the
reason they said I wasn’t was always the booze. The word of
what we were to each other never got around much. She was careful
as the devil about that. My reputation went to hell in a
handbasket, but she never got so much as a splash of mud on the hem
of her skirts.
“I think Mr. Lavin suspected. At first he thought I
just had a crush on her and she never so much as knew I was makin
calf’s eyes at her from up on my scaffold, but I think that in the
end he suspected. But then Mr. Lavin died. They said it was a heart
attack, but I know better. We were in the hammock on her back porch
that night after it happened, and that night it was her that
couldn’t get enough of it. She screwed me until I hollered uncle.
Then she lay down next to me and looked at me as content as a cat
that’s had its fill of cream, and her eyes had that deep-red glow
again. I am not talking about something in my imagination; I could
see the reflection of that red glow on the skin of my bare arm. And
I could feel it. It was like sittin next to a woodstove
that’s been stoked and then damped down. ‘I told you I’d fix him,
Davey,’ she says all at once in this mean, teasin voice.
“Me, I was drunk and half killed with fuckin—what
she said hardly registered on me. I felt like I was fallin asleep
in a pit of quicksand. ‘What’d you do to him?’ I asked, half in a
doze.
“ ‘I hugged him,’ she said. ‘I give special hugs,
Davey—you don’t know about my special hugs, and if you’re lucky,
you never will. I got him in the stacks and put my arms around him
and showed him what I really looked like. Then he began to cry.
That’s how scared he was. He began to cry his special tears, and I
kissed them away, and when I was done, he was dead in my
arms.’
“ ‘His special tears.’ That’s what she called them.
And then her face ... it changed. It rippled, like it was
underwater. And I seen something ... ”
Dave trailed off, looking out into the flatlands,
looking at the grain elevator, looking at nothing. His hands had
gripped the porch rail. They flexed, loosened, flexed again.
“I don’t remember,” he said at last. “Or maybe I
don’t want to remember. Except for two things: it had red
eyes with no lids, and there was a lot of loose flesh around its
mouth, lyin in folds and flaps, but it wasn’t skin. It looked ...
dangerous. Then that flesh around its mouth started to move somehow
and I think I started to scream. Then it was gone. All of it was
gone. It was only Ardelia again, peepin up at me and smilin like a
pretty, curious cat.
“ ‘Don’t worry,’ she says. ‘You don’t have to see,
Davey. As long as you do what I tell you, that is. As long as
you’re one of the Good Babies. As long as you behave. Tonight I’m
very happy, because that old fool is gone at last. The Town Council
is going to appoint me in his place, and I’ll run things the way I
want.’
“God help us all, then, I thought, but I
didn’t say it. You wouldn‘t’ve, either, if you’d looked down and
seen that thing with those starin red eyeballs curled up next to
you in a hammock way out in the country, so far out nobody would
hear you screamin even if you did it at the top of your
lungs.
“A little while later she went into the house and
come back out with two of those tall glasses full of Scotch, and
pretty soon I was twenty thousand leagues under the sea again,
where nothing mattered.
“She kept the Library closed for a week ... ‘out of
respect for Mr. Lavin’ was how she put it, and when she opened up
again, Little Red Ridin Hood was back on the door of the Children’s
Room. A week or two after that, she told me she wanted me to make
some new posters for the Children’s Room.”
He paused, then went on in a lower, slower
voice.
“There’s a part of me, even now, that wants to
sugarcoat it, make my part in it better than it was. I’d like to
tell you that I fought with her, argued, told her I didn’t want
nothin to do with scarin a bunch of kids ... but it wouldn’t be
true. I went right along with what she wanted me to do. God help
me, I did. Partly it was because I was scared of her by then. But
mostly it was because I was still besotted with her. And there was
something else, too. There was a mean, nasty part of me—I don’t
think it’s in everyone, but I think it’s in a lot of us—that liked
what she was up to. Liked it.
“Now, you’re wonderin what I did do, and I
can’t really tell you all of it. I really don’t remember. Those
times is all jumbled up, like the broken toys you send to the
Salvation Army just to get the damned things out of the
attic.
“I didn’t kill anyone. That’s the only thing I’m
sure of. She wanted me to ... and I almost did ... but in the end I
drew back. That’s the only reason I’ve been able to go on livin
with myself, because in the end I was able to crawl away. She kept
part of my soul with her—the best part, maybe—but she never kept
all of it.”
He looked at Naomi and Sam thoughtfully. He seemed
calmer now, more in control; perhaps even at peace with himself,
Sam thought.
“I remember going in one day in the fall of 1959—I
think it was ‘59—and her telling me that she wanted me to
make a poster for the Children’s Room. She told me exactly what she
wanted, and I agreed willingly enough. I didn’t see nothing wrong
with it. I thought it was kind of funny, in fact. What she wanted,
you see, was a poster that showed a little kid flattened by a
steamroller in the middle of the street. Underneath it was supposed
to say HASTE MAKES WASTE! GET YOUR LIBRARY BOOKS BACK IN PLENTY OF
TIME!
“I thought it was just a joke, like when the coyote
is chasing the Road Runner and gets flattened by a freight train or
something. So I said sure. She was pleased as Punch. I went into
her office and drew the poster. It didn’t take long, because it was
just a cartoon.
“I thought she’d like it, but she didn’t. Her brows
drew down and her mouth almost disappeared. I’d made a cartoon boy
with crosses for eyes, and as a joke I had a word-balloon comin out
of the mouth of the guy drivin the steamroller. ‘If you had a
stamp, you could mail him like a postcard,’ he was saying.
“She didn’t even crack a smile. ‘No, Davey,’ she
says, ‘you don’t understand. This won’t make the children
bring their books back on time. This will only make them
laugh, and they spend too much time doing that as it is.’
“ ‘Well,’ I says, ‘I guess I didn’t understand what
you wanted.’
“We were standin behind the circulation desk, so
nobody could see us except from the waist up. And she reached down
and took my balls in her hand and looked at me with those big
silver eyes of hers and said, ‘I want you to make it
realistic.’
“It took me a second or two to understand what she
really meant. When I did, I couldn’t believe it. ‘Ardelia,’ I says,
‘you don’t understand what you’re sayin. If a kid really did
get run over by a steamroller—’
“She gave my balls a squeeze, one that hurt—as if
to remind me just how she had me—and said: ‘I understand, all
right. Now you understand me. I don’t want them to
laugh, Davey; I want them to cry. So why don’t you go
on back in there and do it right this time?’
“I went back into her office. I don’t know what I
meant to do, but my mind got made up in a hurry. There was a fresh
piece of posterboard on the desk, and a tall glass of Scotch with a
straw and a sprig of mint in it, and a note from Ardelia that said
’D.—Use a lot of red this time.‘ ”
He looked soberly at Sam and Naomi. “But she’d
never been in there, you see. Never for a minute.”
3
Naomi brought Dave a fresh glass of water, and
when she came back, Sam noticed that her face was very pale and
that the corners of her eyes looked red. But she sat down very
quietly and motioned for Dave to go on.
“I did what alcoholics do best,” he said. “I drank
the drink and did what I was told. A kind of ... of frenzy, I
suppose you’d say ... fell over me. I spent two hours at her desk,
workin with a box of five-and-dime watercolors, sloppin water and
paint all over her desk, not givin a shit what flew where. What I
came out with was somethin I don’t like to remember ... but I do
remember. It was a little boy splattered all over Rampole Street
with his shoes knocked off and his head all spread out like a pat
of butter that’s melted in the sun. The man drivin the steamroller
was just a silhouette, but he was lookin back, and you could see
the grin on his face. That guy showed up again and again in the
posters I did for her. He was drivin the car in the poster you
mentioned, Sam, the one about never takin rides from
strangers.
“My father left my mom about a year after I was
born, just left her flat, and I got an idea now that was who I was
tryin to draw in all those posters. I used to call him the dark
man, and I think it was my dad. I think maybe Ardelia prodded him
out of me somehow. And when I took the second one out, she liked it
fine. She laughed over it. ‘It’s perfect, Davey!’ she said.
‘It’ll scare a whole mountain of do-right into the little
snotnoses! I’ll put it up right away!’ She did, too, on the front
of the checkout desk in the Children’s Room. And when she did, I
saw somethin that really chilled my blood. I knew the little
boy I’d drawn, you see. It was Willy Klemmart. I’d drawn him
without even knowin it, and the expression on what was left of his
face was the one I’d seen that day when she took his hand and led
him into the Children’s Room.
“I was there when the kids came in for Story Hour
and saw that poster for the first time. They were scared. Their
eyes got big, and one little girl started to cry. And I
liked it that they were scared. I thought, ‘That’ll pound
the do-right into em, all right. That’ll teach em what’ll happen if
they cross her, if they don’t do what she says.’ And part of me
thought, You’re gettin to think like her, Dave. Pretty soon
you’ll get to be like her, and then you’ll be lost. You’ll be lost
forever.
“But I went on, just the same. I felt like I had a
one-way ticket and I wasn’t goin to get off until I rode all the
way to the end of the line. Ardelia hired some college kids, but
she always put em in the circulation room and the reference room
and on the main desk. She kept complete charge of the kids
... they were the easiest to scare, you see. And I think they were
the best scares, the ones that fed her the best. Because
that’s what she lived on, you know—she fed on their fright. And I
made more posters. I can’t remember them all, but I remember the
Library Policeman. He was in a lot of them. In one—it was called
LIBRARY POLICEMEN GO ON VACATION, Too—he was standin on the edge of
a stream and fishin. Only what he’d baited his hook with was that
little boy the kids called Simple Simon. In another one, he had
Simple Simon strapped to the nose of a rocket and was pullin the
switch that would send him into outer space. That one said LEARN
MORE ABOUT SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY AT THE LIBRARY—BUT BE SURE TO DO
RIGHT AND GET YOUR BOOKS BACK ON TIME.
“We turned the Children’s Room into a house of
horrors for the kids who came there,” Dave said. He spoke slowly,
and his voice was full of tears. “She and I. We did that to the
children. But do you know what? They always came back. They always
came back for more. And they never, never told. She saw to
that.”
“But the parents!” Naomi exclaimed suddenly, and so
sharply that Sam jumped. “Surely when the parents saw—”
“No!” Dave told her. “Their parents never saw
nothing. The only scary poster they ever saw was the one of
Little Red Ridin Hood and the wolf. Ardelia left that one up all
the time, but the others only went up during Story Hour—after
school, on Thursday nights, and Saturday mornings. She wasn’t a
human bein, Sarah. You’ve got to get that straight in your mind.
She was not human. She knew when grownups was comin,
and she always got the posters I’d drawn off the walls and other
ones—regular posters that said things like READ BOOKS JUST FOR THE
FUN OF IT—up before they came.
“I can remember times when I’d be there for Story
Hour—in those days I never left her if I could stay close, and I
had lots of time to stay close, because I’d quit paintin pictures,
all my regular jobs had fell through, and I was livin on the little
I’d managed to save up. Before long the money was gone, too, and I
had to start sellin things—my TV, my guitar, my truck, finally my
house. But that don’t matter. What matters is that I was there a
lot, and I saw what went on. The little ones would have their
chairs drawn up in a circle with Ardelia sittin in the middle. I’d
be in the back of the room, sittin in one of those kid-sized chairs
myself, wearing my old paint-spotted duster more often than not,
drunk as a skunk, needin a shave, reekin of Scotch. And she’d be
readin—readin one of her special Ardelia-stories—and then she’d
break off and cock her head to one side, like she was listenin. The
kids would stir around and look uneasy. They looked another way,
too—like they was wakin out of a deep sleep she’d put em
into.
“ ‘We’re going to have company,’ she’d say,
smiling. ‘Isn’t that special, children? Do I have some Good-Baby
volunteers to help me get ready for our Big People company?’ They’d
all raise their hands when she said that, because they all
wanted to be Good Babies. The posters I’d made showed em what
happened to Bad Babies who didn’t do right. Even I’d raise my hand,
sittin drunk in the back of the room in my filthy old
duster, lookin like the world’s oldest, tiredest kid. And then
they’d get up and some would take down my posters and others would
take the regular posters out of the bottom drawer of her desk.
They’d swap em. Then they’d sit down and she’d switch from whatever
horrible thing she’d been tellin em to a story like ‘The Princess
and the Pea,’ and sure enough, a few minutes later some mother’d
poke her head in and see all the do-right Good Babies listenin to
that nice Miss Lortz readin em a story, and they’d smile at
whatever kid was theirs, and the kid would smile back, and things
would go on.”
“What do you mean, ‘whatever horrible thing she’d
been telling them’?” Sam asked. His voice was husky and his mouth
felt dry. He had been listening to Dave with a mounting sense of
horror and revulsion.
“Fairy tales,” Dave said. “But she’d change em into
horror stories. You’d be surprised how little work she had to do on
most of em to make the change.”
“I wouldn’t,” Naomi said grimly. “I remember those
stories.”
“I’ll bet you do,” he said, “but you never heard em
like Ardelia told em. And the kids liked them—part of them
liked the stories, and they liked her, because she drew on them and
fascinated them the same way she drew on me. Well, not
exactly, because there was never the sex thing—at least, I
don’t think so—but the darkness in her called to the darkness in
them. Do you understand me?”
And Sam, who remembered his dreadful fascination
with the story of Bluebeard and the dancing brooms in
Fantasia, thought he did understand. Children hated
and feared the darkness ... but it drew them, didn’t it? It
beckoned to them,
(come with me, son)
didn’t it? It sang to them,
(I’m a poleethman)
didn’t it?
Didn’t it?
“I know what you mean, Dave,” he said.
He nodded. “Have you figured it out yet, Sam? Who
your Library Policeman was?”
“I still don’t understand that part,” Sam said, but
he thought part of him did. It was as if his mind was some deep,
dark body of water and there was a boat sunk at the bottom of
it—but not just any boat. No—this was a pirate schooner, full of
loot and dead bodies, and now it had begun to shift in the muck
which had held it so long. Soon, he feared, this ghostly, glaring
wreck would surface again, its blasted masts draped with black
seaweed and a skeleton with a million-dollar grin still lashed to
the rotting remains of the wheel.
“I think maybe you do,” Dave said, “or that you’re
beginning to. And it will have to come out, Sam. Believe me.”
“I still don’t really understand about the
stories,” Naomi said.
“One of her favorites, Sarah—and it was a favorite
of the children, too; you have to understand that, and believe
it—was ‘Goldilocks and the Three Bears.’ You know the story, but
you don’t know it the way some people in this town—people who are
grown-ups now, bankers and lawyers and big-time farmers with whole
fleets of John Deere tractors—know it. Deep in their hearts, it’s
the Ardelia Lortz version they keep, you see. It may be that some
of them have told those same stories to their own children, never
knowing there are other ways to tell them. I don’t like to think
that’s so, but in my heart I know it is.
“In Ardelia’s version, Goldilocks is a Bad Baby who
won’t do right. She comes into the house of the Three Bears and
wrecks it on purpose—pulls down Mamma Bear’s curtains and drags the
washin through the mud and tears up all of Papa Bear’s magazines
and business papers and uses one of the steak-knives to cut holes
in his favorite chair. Then she tears up all their books. That was
Ardelia’s favorite part, I think, when Goldilocks spoiled the
books. And she don’t eat the porridge, oh no! Not when Ardelia told
the story! The way Ardelia told it, Goldilocks got some rat poison
off a high shelf and shook it all over the porridge like powdered
sugar. She didn’t know anything about who lived in the house, but
she wanted to kill them anyway, because that’s the kind of Bad Baby
she was.”
“That’s horrible!” Naomi exclaimed. She had
lost her composure—really lost it—for the first time. Her hands
were pressed over her mouth, and her wide eyes regarded Dave from
above them.
“Yes. It was. But it wasn’t the end. Goldilocks was
so tired from wreckin the house, you see, that when she went
upstairs to tear their bedrooms apart, she fell asleep in Baby
Bear’s bed. And when the Three Bears came home and saw her, they
fell upon her—that was just how Ardelia used to say it—they fell
upon her and ate that wicked Bad Baby alive. They ate her from the
feet up, while she screamed and struggled. All except for her head.
They saved that, because they knew what she had done to their
porridge. They smelled the poison. ‘They could do that, children,
because they were bears,’ Ardelia used to say, and all the
children—Ardelia’s Good Babies—would nod their heads, because they
saw how that could be. ‘They took Goldilocks’ head down to the
kitchen and boiled it and ate her brains for their breakfast. They
all agreed it was very tasty ... and they lived happily ever
after.’ ”
4
There was a thick, almost deathly silence on the
porch. Dave reached for his glass of water and almost knocked it
off the railing with his trembling fingers. He rescued it at the
last moment, held it in both hands, and drank deeply. Then he put
it down and said to Sam, “Are you surprised that my boozing got a
little bit out of control?”
Sam shook his head.
Dave looked at Naomi and said, “Do you understand
now why I was never able to tell this story? Why I put it in that
room?”
“Yes,” she said in a trembling, sighing voice that
was not much more than a whisper. “And I think I understand why the
kids never told, either. Some things are just too ... too
monstrous.”
“For us, maybe,” Dave said. “For kids? I don’t
know, Sarah. I don’t think kids know monsters so well at first
glance. It’s their folks that tell em how to recognize the
monsters. And she had somethin else goin for her. You remember me
tellin you about how, when she told the kids a parent was comin,
they looked like they were wakin up from a deep sleep? They
were sleepin, in some funny way. It wasn’t hypnosis—at
least, I don’t think it was—but it was like hypnosis. And
when they went home, they didn’t remember, in the top part of their
minds, anyway, about the stories or the posters. Down underneath, I
think they remembered plenty ... just like down underneath Sam
knows who his Library Policeman is. I think they still remember
today—the bankers and lawyers and big-time farmers who were once
Ardelia’s Good Babies. I can still see em, wearin pinafores and
short pants, sittin in those little chairs, lookin at Ardelia in
the middle of the circle, their eyes so big and round they looked
like pie-plates. And I think that when it gets dark and the storms
come, or when they are sleepin and the nightmares come, they go
back to bein kids. I think the doors open and they see the
Three Bears—Ardelia’s Three Bears—eatin the brains out of
Goldilocks’ head with their wooden porridge-spoons, and Baby Bear
wearin Goldilocks’ scalp on his head like a long golden wig. I
think they wake up sweaty, feelin sick and afraid. I think that’s
what she left this town. I think she left a legacy of secret
nightmares.
“But I still haven’t got to the worst thing. Those
stories, you see—well, sometimes it was the posters, but mostly it
was the stories—would scare one of them into a crying fit, or
they’d start to faint or pass out or whatever. And when that
happened, she’d tell the others, ‘Put your heads down and rest
while I take Billy ... or Sandra ... or Tommy ... to the bathroom
and make him feel better.’
“They’d all drop their heads at the same instant.
It was like they were dead. The first time I seen it happen, I
waited about two minutes after she took some little girl out of the
room, and then I got up and went over to the circle. I went to
Willy Klemmart first.
“ ‘Willy!’ I whispered, and poked him in the
shoulder. ‘You okay, Will?’
“He never moved, so I poked him harder and said his
name again. He still didn’t move. I could hear him breathin—kinda
snotty and snory, the way kids are so much of the time, always
runnin around with colds like they do—but it was still like he was
dead. His eyelids were partway open, but I could only see the
whites, and this long thread of spit was hangin off his lower lip.
I got scared and went to three or four of the others, but wouldn’t
none of them look up at me or make a sound.”
“You’re saying she enchanted them, aren’t you?” Sam
asked. “That they were like Snow White after she ate the poisoned
apple.”
“Yes,” Dave agreed. “That’s what they were like. In
a different kind of way, that’s what I was like, too. Then, just as
I was gettin ready to take hold of Willy Klemmart and shake the
shit out of him, I heard her comin back from the bathroom. I ran to
my seat so she wouldn’t catch me. Because I was more scared of what
she might do to me than anything she might have done to them.
“She came in, and that little girl, who’d been as
gray as a dirty sheet and half unconscious when Ardelia took her
out, looked like somebody had just filled her up with the finest
nerve-tonic in the world. She was wide awake, with roses in her
cheeks and a sparkle in her eye. Ardelia patted her on the bottom
and she ran for her seat. Then Ardelia clapped her hands together
and said, ‘All Good Babies lift your heads up! Sonja feels much
better, and she wants us to finish the story, don’t you,
Sonja?’
“ ‘Yes, ma’am,‘ Sonja pipes up, just as pert as a
robin in a birdbath. And their heads all came up. You never would
have known that two seconds before that room looked like it was
full of dead kids.
“The third or fourth time this happened, I let her
get out of the room and then I followed her. I knew she was scarin
them on purpose, you see, and I had an idea there was a reason for
it. I was scared almost to death myself, but I wanted to see what
it was.
“That time it was Willy Klemmart she’d taken down
to the bathroom. He’d started havin hysterics during Ardelia’s
version of ‘Hansel and Gretel.’ I opened the door real easy and
quiet, and I seen Ardelia kneelin in front of Willy down by where
the washbasin was. He had stopped cryin, but beyond that I couldn’t
tell anything. Her back was to me, you see, and Willy was so short
she blocked him right out of my view, even on her knees. I could
see his hands were on the shoulders of the jumper she was wearin,
and I could see one sleeve of his red sweater, but that was all.
Then I heard somethin—a thick suckin sound, like a straw makes when
you’ve gotten just about all of your milkshake out of the glass. I
had an idea then she was ... you know, molestin him, and she was,
but not the way I thought.
“I walked in a little further, and slipped over to
the right, walkin high up on the toes of my shoes so the heels
wouldn’t clack. I expected her to hear me just the same, though ...
she had ears like goddam radar dishes, and I kept waitin for her to
turn around and pin me with those red eyes of hers. But I couldn’t
stop. I had to see. And little by little, as I angled over
to the right, I began to.
“Willy’s face came into my sight over her shoulder,
a little piece at a time, like a moon coming out of a ‘clipse. At
first all I could see of her was her blonde hair—there was masses
of it, all in curls and ringlets—but then I began to see her
face, as well. And I seen what she was doin. All the strength ran
out of my legs just like water down a pipe. There was no way they
were goin to see me, not unless I reached up and started hammerin
on one of the overhead pipes. Their eyes were closed, but that
wasn’t the reason. They were lost in what they were doin, you see,
and they were both lost in the same place, because they were hooked
together.
“Ardelia’s face wasn’t human anymore. It had run
like warm taffy and made itself into this funnel shape that
flattened her nose and pulled her eyesockets all long and Chinese
to the sides and made her look like some kind of insect ... a fly,
maybe, or a bee. Her mouth was gone again. It had turned into that
thing I started to see just after she killed Mr. Lavin, the night
we were layin in the hammock. It had turned into the narrow part of
the funnel. I could see these funny red streaks on it, and at first
I thought it was blood, or maybe veins under her skin, and then I
realized it was lipstick. She didn’t have lips anymore, but
that red paint marked where her lips had been.
“She was usin that sucker thing to drink from
Willy’s eyes.”
Sam looked at Dave, thunderstruck. He wondered for
a moment if the man had lost his mind. Ghosts were one thing; this
was something else. He didn’t have the slightest idea what
this was. And yet sincerity and honesty shone on Dave’s face
like a lamp, and Sam thought: If he’s lying, he doesn’t know
it.
“Dave, are you saying Ardelia Lortz was drinking
his tears?” Naomi asked hesitantly.
“Yes ... and no. It was his special tears
she was drinkin. Her face was all stretched out to him, it was
beatin like a heart, and her features were drawn out flat. She
looked like a face you might draw on a shoppin bag to make a
Halloween mask.
“What was comin out of the comers of Willy’s eyes
was gummy and pink, like bloody snot, or chunks of flesh that have
almost liquefied. She sucked it in with that slurpin sound. It was
his fear she was drinkin. She had made it real, somehow, and
made it so big that it had to come out in those awful tears or kill
him.”
“You’re saying that Ardelia was some kind of
vampire, aren’t you?” Sam asked.
Dave looked relieved. “Yes. That’s right. When I’ve
thought of that day since—when I’ve dared to think of it—I
believe that’s just what she was. All those old stories
about vampires sinking their teeth into people’s throats and
drinkin their blood are wrong. Not by much, but in this business,
close is not good enough. They drink, but not from the neck; they
grow fat and healthy on what they take from their victims, but what
they take isn’t blood. Maybe the stuff they take is redder,
bloodier, when the victims are grownups. Maybe she took it
from Mr. Lavin. I think she did. But it’s not blood.
“It’s fear.”
5
“I dunno how long I stood there, watchin her, but
it couldn’t have been too long—she was never gone much more than
five minutes. After awhile, the stuff comin from the corners of
Willy’s eyes started to get paler and paler, and there was less and
less of it. I could see that ... you know, that thing of hers ...
”
“Proboscis,” Naomi said quietly. “I think it must
have been a proboscis.”
“Is it? All right. I could see that probos-thing
stretchin further and further out, not wanting to miss any, wanting
to get every last bit, and I knew she was almost done. And when she
was, they’d wake up and she’d see me. And when she did, I thought
she’d probably kill me.
“I started to back up, slow, one step at a time. I
didn’t think I was going to make it, but at last my butt bumped the
bathroom door. I almost screamed when that happened, because I
thought she’d got behind me somehow. I was sure of that even though
I could see her kneelin there right in front of me.
“I clapped my hand over my mouth to keep the scream
in and pushed out through the door. I stood there while it swung
shut on the pneumatic hinge. It seemed to take forever. When it was
closed, I started for the main door. I was half crazy; all I wanted
to do was get out of there and never go back. I wanted to run
forever.
“I got down into the foyer, where she’d put up that
sign you saw, Sam—the one that just said SILENCE!—and then I caught
hold of myself. If she led Willy back to the Children’s Room and
saw I was gone, she’d know I’d seen. She’d chase me, and she’d
catch me, too. I didn’t even think she’d have to try hard. I kept
rememberin that day in the corn, and how she’d run rings all around
me and never even worked up a sweat.
“So I turned around and walked back to my seat in
the Children’s Room instead. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever
done in my life, but somehow I managed to do it. My ass wasn’t on
the chair two seconds before I heard them coming. And of course
Willy was all happy and smilin and full of beans, and so was she.
Ardelia looked ready to go three fast rounds with Carmen Basilio
and whip him solid.
“ ‘All Good Babies lift your heads up!’ she called,
and clapped her hands. They all raised their heads and looked at
her. ‘Willy feels lots better, and he wants me to finish the story.
Don’t you, Willy?’
“ ‘Yes, ma’am,‘ Willy said. She kissed him and he
ran back to his seat. She went on with the story. I sat there and
listened. And when that Story Hour was done, I started drinkin. And
from then until the end, I never really stopped.”
6
“How did it end?” Sam asked. “What do you
know about that?”
“Not as much as I would have known if I hadn’t been
so dog-drunk all the time, but more than I wish I knew. That last
part of it, I’m not even sure how long it was. About four months, I
think, but it might have been six, or even eight. By then I wasn’t
even noticin the seasons much. When a drunk like me really starts
to slide, Sam, the only weather he notices is inside of a bottle. I
know two things, though, and they are really the only two things
that matter. Somebody did start to catch onto her, that was
one thing. And it was time for her to go back to sleep. To change.
That was the other.
“I remember one night at her house—she never came
to mine, not once—she said to me, ‘I’m getting sleepy, Dave. All
the time now I’m sleepy. Soon it will be time for a long rest. When
that time comes, I want you to sleep with me. I’ve grown fond of
you, you see.’
“I was drunk, of course, but what she said still
gave me a chill. I thought I knew what she was talkin about, but
when I asked her, she only laughed.
“ ‘No, not that,’ she said, and gave me a
scornful, amused kind of look. ‘I’m talking about sleep, not
death. But you’ll need to feed with me.’
“That sobered me up in a hurry. She didn’t think I
knew what she was talkin about, but I did. I’d seen.
“After that, she began to ask me questions about
the kids. About which ones I didn’t like, which ones I thought were
sneaky, which ones were too loud, which ones were the brattiest.
‘They’re Bad Babies, and they don’t deserve to live,’ she’d say.
‘They’re rude, they’re destructive, they bring their books back
with pencil marks in them and ripped pages. Which ones do
you think deserve to die, Davey?’
“That was when I knew I had to get away from her,
and if killin myself was the only way, I’d have to take that way
out. Something was happenin to her, you see. Her hair was gettin
dull, and her skin, which had always been perfect, started to show
up with blemishes. And there was something else—I could see that
thing, that thing her mouth turned into—all the time, just
under the surface of her skin. But it was starting to look all
wrinkled and dewlapped, and there were strings like cobwebs on
it.
“One night while we were in bed she saw me lookin
at her hair and said, ‘You see the change in me, don’t you, Davey?’
She patted my face. ‘It’s all right; it’s perfectly natural. It’s
always this way when I’m getting ready to go to sleep again. I will
have to do it soon, and if you mean to come with me, you will have
to take one of the children soon. Or two. Or three. The more the
merrier!’ She laughed in the crazy way she had, and when she looked
back at me, her eyes had gone red again. ‘In any case, I don’t mean
to leave you behind. All else aside, it wouldn’t be safe. You know
that, don’t you?’
“I said I did.
“ ‘So if you don’t want to die, Davey, it has to be
soon. Very soon. And if you’ve made up your mind not to, you should
tell me now. We can end our time together pleasantly and
painlessly, tonight.’
“She leaned over me and I could smell her breath.
It was like spoiled dogfood, and I couldn’t believe I’d ever kissed
the mouth that smell was coming out of, sober or drunk. But there
was some part of me—some little part—that must have still wanted to
live, because I told her I did want to come with her, but I
needed a little more time to get ready. To prepare my mind.
“ ‘To drink, you mean,’ she said. ‘You ought to get
down on your knees and thank your miserable, unlucky stars for me,
Dave Duncan. If not for me, you’d be dead in the gutter in a year,
or even less. With me, you can live almost forever.’
“Her mouth stretched out for just a second,
stretched out until it touched my cheek. And somehow I managed to
keep from screaming.”
Dave looked at them with his deep, haunted eyes.
Then he smiled. Sam Peebles never forgot the eldritch quality of
that smile; it haunted his dreams ever after.
“But that’s all right,” he said. “Somewhere, down
deep inside of me, I have been screaming ever since.”
7
“I’d like to say that in the end I broke her hold
over me, but that’d be a lie. It was just happenstance—or what
Program people call a higher power. You have to understand that by
1960, I was entirely cut off from the rest of the town. Remember me
tellin you that once I was a member of the Rotary Club, Sam? Well,
by February of ‘60, those boys wouldn’t have hired me to clean the
urinals in their john. As far as Junction City was concerned, I was
just another Bad Baby livin the life of a bum. People I’d known all
my life would cross the street to get out of my way when they saw
me comin. I had the constitution of a brass eagle in those days,
but the booze was rustin me out just the same, and what the booze
wasn’t takin, Ardelia Lortz was.
“I wondered more’n once if she wouldn’t turn to me
for what she needed, but she never did. Maybe I was no good to her
that way ... but I don’t really think that was it. I don’t think
she loved me—I don’t think Ardelia could love anybody—but I do
think she was lonely. I think she’s lived, if you can call what she
does living, a very long time, and that she’s had ...”
Dave trailed off. His crooked fingers drummed
restlessly on his knees and his eyes sought the grain elevator on
the horizon again, as if for comfort.
“Companions seems like the word that comes
closest to fittin. I think she’s had companions for some of her
long life, but I don’t think she’d had one for a very long time
when she came to Junction City. Don’t ask what she said to make me
feel that way, because I don’t remember. It’s lost, like so much of
the rest. But I’m pretty sure it’s true. And she had me tapped for
the job. I’m pretty sure I would have gone with her, too, if she
hadn’t been found out.”
“Who found her out, Dave?” Naomi asked, leaning
forward. “Who?”
“Deputy Sheriff John Power. In those days, the
Homestead County sheriff was Norman Beeman, and Norm’s the best
argument I know for why sheriffs should be appointed rather than
elected. The voters gave him the job when he got back to Junction
City in ’45 with a suitcase full of medals he’d won when Patton’s
army was drivin into Germany. He was a hell of a scrapper, no one
could take that away from him, but as county sheriff he wasn’t
worth a fart in a windstorm. What he had was the biggest, whitest
smile you ever saw, and a load of bullshit two mules wide. And he
was a Republican, of course. That’s always been the most important
thing in Homestead County. I think Norm would be gettin elected
still if he hadn’t dropped dead of a stroke in Hughie’s Barber Shop
in the summer of 1963. I remember that real clear; by then
Ardelia had been gone awhile and I’d come around a little
bit.
“There were two secrets to Norm’s success—other
than that big grin and the line of bullshit, I mean. First, he was
honest. So far as I know, he never took a dime. Second, he always
made sure he had at least one deputy sheriff under him who could
think fast and didn’t have no interest in runnin for the top job
himself. He always played square with those fellows; every one of
them got a rock-solid recommendation when he was ready to move on
and move up. Norm took care of his own. I think, if you looked,
you’d find there are six or eight town police chiefs and State
Police colonels scattered across the Midwest who spent two or three
years here in Junction City, shovelling shit for Norm Beeman.
“Not John Power, though. He’s dead. If you looked
up his obituary, it’d say he died of a heart attack, although he
wasn’t yet thirty years old and with none of the bad habits that
cause people’s tickers to seize up early sometimes. I know the
truth—it wasn’t a heart attack killed John any more than it was a
heart attack that killed Lavin. She killed him.”
“How do you know that, Dave?” Sam asked.
“I know because there were supposed to be
three children killed in the Library on that last
day.”
Dave’s voice was still calm, but Sam heard the
terror this man had lived with so long running just below the
surface like a low-voltage electrical charge. Supposing that even
half of what Dave had told them this afternoon was true, then he
must have lived these last thirty years with terrors beyond Sam’s
capacity to imagine. No wonder he had used a bottle to keep the
worst of them at bay.
“Two did die—Patsy Harrigan and Tom Gibson.
The third was to be my price of admission to whatever circus it is
that Ardelia Lortz is ringmaster of. That third was the one she
really wanted, because she was the one who turned the spotlight on
Ardelia just when Ardelia most needed to operate in the dark. That
third had to be mine, because that one wasn’t allowed to come to
the Library anymore, and Ardelia couldn’t be sure of gettin near
her. That third Bad Baby was Tansy Power, Deputy Power’s
daughter.”
“You aren’t talking about Tansy Ryan, are
you?” Naomi asked, and her voice was almost pleading.
“Yeah, I am. Tansy Ryan from the post office, Tansy
Ryan who goes to meetins with us, Tansy Ryan who used to be Tansy
Power. A lot of the kids who used to come to Ardelia’s Story Hours
are in AA around these parts, Sarah—make of it what you will. In
the summer of 1960, I came very close to killin Tansy Power ... and
that’s not the worst of it. I only wish it were.”
8
Naomi excused herself, and after several minutes
had dragged by, Sam got up to go after her.
“Let her be,” Dave said. “She’s a wonderful woman,
Sam, but she needs a little time to put herself back in order. You
would, too, if you found out that one of the members of the most
important group in your life once came close to murderin your
closest friend. Let her abide. She’ll be back—Sarah’s
strong.”
A few minutes later, she did come back. She had
washed her face—the hair at her temples was still wet and slick—and
she was carrying a tray with three glasses of iced tea on it.
“Ah, we’re getting down to the hard stuff at last,
ain’t we, dear?” Dave said.
Naomi did her best to return his smile. “You bet. I
just couldn’t hold out any longer.”
Sam thought her effort was better than good; he
thought it was noble. All the same, the ice was talking to the
glasses in brittle, chattery phrases. Sam rose again and took the
tray from her unsteady hands. She looked at him gratefully.
“Now,” she said, sitting down. “Finish, Dave. Tell
it to the end.”
9
“A lot of what’s left is stuff she told me,” Dave
resumed, “because by then I wasn’t in a position to see anything
that went on first hand. Ardelia told me sometime late in ’59 that
I wasn’t to come around the Public Library anymore. If she saw me
in there, she said she’d turn me out, and if I hung around outside,
she’d sic the cops on me. She said I was gettin too seedy, and talk
would start if I was seen goin in there anymore.
“ ‘Talk about you and me?’ I asked. ‘Ardelia, who’d
believe it?’
“ ‘Nobody,’ she said. ‘It’s not talk about you and
me that concerns me, you idiot.’
“ ‘Well then, what does?’
“ ‘Talk about you and the children,’ she said. I
guess that was the first time I really understood how low I’d
fallen. You’ve seen me low in the years since we started goin to
the AA meetins together, Sarah, but you’ve never seen me that low.
I’m glad, too.
“That left her house. It was the only place I was
allowed to see her, and the only time I was allowed to come was
long after dark. She told me not to come by the road any closer
than the Orday farm. After that I was to cut through the fields.
She told me she’d know if I tried to cheat on that, and I believed
her—when those silver eyes of hers turned red, Ardelia saw
everything. I’d usually show up sometime between eleven
o’clock and one in the morning, dependin on how much I’d had to
drink, and I was usually frozen almost to the bone. I can’t tell
you much about those months, but I can tell you that in 1959 and
1960 the state of Iowa had a damned cold winter. There were lots of
nights when I believe a sober man would have frozen to death out
there in those cornfields.
“There wasn’t no problem on the night I want to
tell you about next, though—it must have been July of 1960 by then,
and it was hotter than the hinges of hell. I remember how the moon
looked that night, bloated and red, hangin over the fields. It
seemed like every dog in Homestead County was yarkin up at that
moon.
“Walkin into Ardelia’s house that night was like
walkin under the skirt of a cyclone. That week—that whole month, I
guess—she’d been slow and sleepy, but not that night. That night
she was wide awake, and she was in a fury. I hadn’t seen her that
way since the night after Mr. Lavin told her to take the Little Red
Ridin Hood poster down because it was scarin the children. At first
she didn’t even know I was there. She went back and forth through
the downstairs, naked as the day she was born—if she ever
was born—with her head down and her hands rolled into fists.
She was madder’n a bear with a sore ass. She usually wore her hair
up in an old-maidy bun when she was at home, but it was down when I
let myself in through the kitchen door and she was walkin so fast
it went flyin out behind her. I could hear it makin little crackly
sounds, like it was full of static electricity. Her eyes were red
as blood and glowin like those railroad lamps they used to put out
in the old days when the tracks were blocked someplace up the line,
and they seemed to be poppin right out of her face. Her body was
oiled with sweat, and bad as I was myself, I could smell her; she
stank like a bobcat in heat. I remember I could see big oily drops
rollin down her bosom and her belly. Her hips and thighs shone with
it. It was one of those still, muggy nights we get out here in the
summer sometimes, when the air smells green and sits on your chest
like a pile of junk iron, and it seems like there’s cornsilk in
every breath you pull in. You wish it would thunder and lightnin
and pour down a gusher on nights like that, but it never does. You
wish the wind would blow, at least, and not just because it would
cool you off if it did, but because it would make the sound of the
corn a little easier to bear ... the sound of it pushin itself up
out of the ground all around you, soundin like an old man with
arthritis tryin to get out of bed in the mornin without wakin his
wife.
“Then I noticed she was scared as well as mad this
time—someone had really looped the fear of God into her. And the
change in her was speedin up. Whatever it was that happened to her,
it had knocked her into a higher gear. She didn’t look older,
exactly; she looked less there. Her hair had started to look
finer, like a baby’s hair. You could see her scalp through it. And
her skin looked like it was startin to grow its own skin—this fine,
misty webbing over her cheeks, around her nostrils, at the corners
of her eyes, between her fingers. Wherever there was a fold in the
skin, that was where you could see it best. It fluttered a little
as she walked. You want to hear something crazy? When the County
Fair comes to town these days, I can’t bear to go near the
cotton-candy stands on the midway. You know the machine they make
it with? Looks like a doughnut and goes round and round, and the
man sticks in a paper cone and winds the pink sugar up on it?
That’s what Ardelia’s skin was starting to look like—those
fine strands of spun sugar. I think I know now what I was seein.
She was doin what caterpillars do when they go to sleep. She was
spinnin a cocoon around herself.
“I stood in the doorway for some time, watchin her
go back and forth. She didn’t notice me for a long while. She was
too busy rollin around in whatever bed of nettles it was she’d
stumbled into. Twice she hammered her fist against a wall and
smashed all the way through it—paper, plaster, and lath. It sounded
like breakin bones, but it didn’t seem to do her no hurt at all,
and there was no blood. She screamed each time, too, but not with
pain. What I heard was the sound of a pissed-off she-cat ... but,
like I said, there was fear underneath her anger. And what she
screamed was that deputy’s name.
“ ‘John Power!’ she’d scream, and
whack! Right through the wall her fist would go. ’God
damn you, John Power! I’ll teach you to stay out of my
business! You want to look at me? Fine! But I’ll teach you how to
do it! I’ll teach you, little baby of’ mine!’ Then she’d walk on,
so fast she was almost runnin, and her bare feet’d come down so
hard they shook the whole damn house, it seemed like. She’d be
mutterin to herself while she walked. Then her lip would curl, her
eyes would glare redder’n ever, and whack! would go her
fist, right through the wall and a little puff of plaster dust
comin out through the hole. ’John Power, you don’t dare!’
she’d snarl. ‘You don’t dare cross me!’
“But you only had to look into her face to know she
was afraid he did dare. And if you’d known Deputy Power,
you’d have known she was right to be worried. He was smart, and he
wasn’t afraid of nothing. He was a good deputy and a bad man to
cross.
“She got into the kitchen doorway on her fourth or
fifth trip through the house, and all at once she saw me. Her eyes
glared into mine, and her mouth began to stretch out into that horn
shape—only now it was all coated with those spidery, smoky
threads—and I thought I was dead. If she couldn’t lay hands on John
Power, she’d have me in his place.
“She started toward me and I slid down the kitchen
door in a kind of puddle. She saw that and she stopped. The red
light went out of her eyes. She changed in the wink of an eye. She
looked and spoke as if I’d come into a fancy cocktail party she was
throwin instead of walking into her house at midnight to find her
rammin around naked and smashin holes in the walls.
“ ‘Davey!’ she says. ‘I’m so glad you’re here! Have
a drink. In fact, have two!’
“She wanted to kill me—I saw it in her eyes—but she
needed me, and not just for a companion no more, neither. She
needed me to kill Tansy Power. She knew she could take care of the
cop, but she wanted him to know his daughter was dead before she
did him. For that she needed me.
“ ‘There isn’t much time,’ she said. ‘Do you know
this Deputy Power?’
“I said I ought to. He’d arrested me for public
drunkenness half a dozen times.
“ ‘What do you make of him?’ she asked.
“ ‘He’s got a lot of hard bark on him,’ I
says.
“ ‘Well, fuck him and fuck you, too!’
“I didn’t say nothing to that. It seemed wiser not
to.
“ ‘That goddam squarehead came into the Library
this afternoon and asked to see my references. And he kept asking
me questions. He wanted to know where I’d been before I came to
Junction City, where I went to school, where I grew up. You should
have seen the way he looked at me, Davey—but I’ll teach him the
right way to look at a lady like me. You see if I don’t.’
“ ‘You don’t want to make a mistake with Deputy
Power,’ I said. ‘I don’t think he’s afraid of anything.’
“ ‘Yes, he is—he’s afraid of me. He just doesn’t
know it yet,’ she said, but I caught the gleam of fear in her eyes
again. He had picked the worst possible time to start askin
questions, you see—she was gettin ready for her time of sleeping
and change, and it weakened her somehow.”
“Did Ardelia tell you how he caught on?” Naomi
asked.
“It’s obvious,” Sam said. “His daughter told
him.”
“No,” Dave said. “I didn’t ask—I didn’t dare, not
with her in the mood she was in—but I don’t think Tansy told her
dad. I don’t think she could have—not in so many words, at least.
When they left the Children’s Room, you see, they’d forget all
about what she’d told them ... and done to them in there. And it
wasn’t just forgetting, either—she put other memories, false
memories, into their heads, so they’d go home just as jolly as
could be. Most of their parents thought Ardelia was just about the
greatest thing that ever happened to the Junction City
Library.
“I think it was what she took from Tansy that put
her father’s wind up, and I think Deputy Power must have done a
good deal of investigating before he ever went to see Ardelia at
the Library. I don’t know what difference he noticed in Tansy,
because the kids weren’t all pale and listless, like the people who
get their blood sucked in the vampire movies, and there weren’t any
marks on their necks. But she was takin something from them,
just the same, and John Power saw it or sensed it.”
“Even if he did see something, why did it make him
suspicious of Ardelia?” Sam asked.
“I told you his nose was keen. I think he must have
asked Tansy some questions—nothing direct, all on the slant, if you
see what I mean—and the answers he got must have been just enough
to point him in the right direction.. When he came to the Library
that day he didn’t know anything ... but he suspected
something. Enough to put Ardelia on her mettle. I remember what
made her the maddest—and scared her the most—was how he looked at
her. ‘I’ll teach you how to look at me,’ she said. Over and over
again. I’ve wondered since how long it had been since anyone looked
at her with real suspicion ... how long since anyone got into
sniffin distance of what she was. I bet it scared her in more ways
than one. I bet it made her wonder if she wasn’t finally losin her
touch.”
“He might have talked to some of the other
children, too,” Naomi said hesitantly. “Compared stories and got
answers that didn’t quite jibe. Maybe they even saw her in
different ways. The way you and Sam saw her in different
ways.”
“It could be—any of those things could be. Whatever
it was, he scared her into speedin up her plans.
“ ‘I’ll be at the Library all day tomorrow,’ she
told me. ‘I’ll make sure plenty of people see me there, too. But
you—you’re going to pay a visit to Deputy Power’s house,
Davey. You’re going to watch and wait until you see that child
alone—I don’t think you’ll have to wait long—and then you’re going
to snatch her and take her into the woods. Do whatever you want to
her, but you make sure that the last thing you do is cut her
throat. Cut her throat and leave her where she’ll be found. I want
that bastard to know before I see him.’
“I couldn’t say nothing. It was probably just as
well for me that I was tongue-tied, because anything I said she
would have taken wrong, and she probably would have ripped my head
off. But I only sat at her kitchen table with my drink in my hand,
starin at her, and she must have taken my silence for
agreement.
“After that we went into the bedroom. It was the
last time. I remember thinkin I wouldn’t be able to have it off
with her; that a scared man can’t get it up. But it was fine, God
help me. Ardelia had that kind of magic, too. We went and went and
went, and at some point I either fell asleep or just went
unconscious. The next thing I remember was her pushin me out of bed
with her bare feet, dumpin me right into a patch of early-morning
sun. It was quarter past six, my stomach felt like an acid bath,
and my head was throbbin like a swollen gum with an abscess in
it.
“ ‘It’s time for you to be about your business,’
she said. ‘Don’t let anybody see you on your way back to town,
Davey, and remember what I told you. Get her this morning. Take her
into the woods and do for her. Hide until dark. If you’re caught
before then, there’s nothing I can do for you. But if you get here,
you’ll be safe. I’ll make sure today that there’ll be a couple of
kids at the Library tomorrow, even though it’s closed. I’ve got
them picked out already, the two worst little brats in town. We’ll
go to the Library together ... they’ll come ... and when the rest
of the fools find us, they’ll think we’re all dead. But you and I
won’t be dead, Davey; we’ll be free. The joke will be on them,
won’t it?’
“Then she started to laugh. She sat naked on her
bed with me grovellin at her feet, sick as a rat full of poison
bait, and she laughed and laughed and laughed. Pretty soon her face
started to change into the insect face again, that probos-thing
pushin out of her face, almost like one of those Viking horns, and
her eyes drawin off to the side. I knew everything in my guts was
going to come up in a rush so I beat it out of there and puked into
her ivy. Behind me I could her laughin ... laughin ... and
laughin.
“I was puttin on my clothes by the side of the
house when she spoke to me out the window. I didn’t see her, but I
heard her just fine. ‘Don’t let me down, Davey,’ she said. ‘Don’t
let me down, or I’ll kill you. And you won’t die fast.’
“ ‘I won’t let you down, Ardelia,’ I said, but I
didn’t turn around to see her hangin out of her bedroom window. I
knew I couldn’t stand to see her even one more time. I’d come to
the end of my string. And still ... part of me wanted to go with
her even if it meant goin mad first, and most of me thought I
would go with her. Unless it was her plan to set me up
somehow, to leave me holdin the bag for all of it. I wouldn’t have
put it past her. I wouldn’t have put nothin past her.
“I set off through the corn back toward Junction
City. Usually those walks would sober me up a little, and I’d sweat
out the worst of the hangover. Not that day, though. Twice I had to
stop to vomit, and the second time I didn’t think I was goin to be
able to quit. I finally did, but I could see blood all over the
corn I’d stopped to kneel in, and by the time I got back to town,
my head was achin worse than ever and my vision was doubled. I
thought I was dyin, but I still couldn’t stop thinkin about what
she’d said: Do whatever you want to her, but you make sure that the
last thing you do is cut her throat.
“I didn’t want to hurt Tansy Power, but I thought I
was goin to, just the same. I wouldn’t be able to stand against
what Ardelia wanted ... and then I would be damned forever. And the
worst thing, I thought, might be if Ardelia was tellin the truth,
and I just went on livin ... livin almost forever with that thing
on my mind.
“In those days, there was two freight depots at the
station, and a loading dock that wasn’t much used on the north side
of the second one. I crawled under there and fell asleep for a
couple of hours. When I woke up, I felt a little better. I knew
there wasn’t any way I could stop her or myself, so I set out for
John Power’s house, to find that little girl and snatch her away. I
walked right through downtown, not lookin at anyone, and all I kept
thinkin over and over was, ‘I can make it quick for her—I can do
that, at least. I’ll snap her neck in a wink and she’ll never know
a thing.’ ”
Dave produced his bandanna again and wiped his
forehead with a hand which was shaking badly.
“I got as far as the five-and-dime. It’s gone now,
but in those days it was the last business on O’Kane Street before
you got into the residential district again. I had less than four
blocks to go, and I thought that when I got to the Power house, I’d
see Tansy in the yard. She’d be alone ... and the woods weren’t
far.
“Only I looked into the five-and-dime show window
and what I saw stopped me cold. It was a pile of dead children, all
staring eyes, tangled arms, and busted legs. I let out a little
scream and clapped my hands against my mouth. I closed my eyes
tight. When I looked again, I saw it was a bunch of dolls old Mrs.
Seger was gettin ready to make into a display. She saw me and
flapped one of em at me—get away, you old drunk. But I didn’t. I
kept lookin in at those dolls. I tried to tell myself dolls were
all they were; anyone could see that. But when I closed my
eyes tight and then opened em again, they were dead bodies again.
Mrs. Seger was settin up a bunch of little corpses in the window of
the five-and-dime and didn’t even know it. It came to me that
someone was tryin to send me a message, and that maybe the message
was that it wasn’t too late, even then. Maybe I couldn’t stop
Ardelia, but maybe I could. And even if I couldn’t, maybe I could
keep from bein dragged into the pit after her.
“That was the first time I really prayed, Sarah. I
prayed for strength. I didn’t want to kill Tansy Power, but it was
more than that—I wanted to save them all if I could.
“I started back toward the Texaco station a block
down—it was where the Piggly Wiggly is now. On the way I stopped
and picked a few pebbles out of the gutter. There was a phone booth
by the side of the station—and it’s still there today, now that I
think of it. I got there and then realized I didn’t have a cent. As
a last resort, I felt in the coin return. There was a dime in
there. Ever since that morning, when somebody tells me they don’t
believe there’s a God, I think of how I felt when I poked my
fingers into that coin-return slot and found that ten-cent
piece.
“I thought about calling Mrs. Power, then decided
it’d be better to call the Sheriff’s Office. Someone would pass the
message on to John Power, and if he was as suspicious as Ardelia
seemed to think, he might take the proper steps. I closed the door
of the booth and looked up the number—this was back in the days
when you could sometimes still find a telephone book in a telephone
booth, if you were lucky—and then, before I dialled it, I stuck the
pebbles I’d picked up in my mouth.
“John Power himself answered the phone, and I think
now that’s why Patsy Harrigan and Tom Gibson died ... why John
Power himself died ... and why Ardelia wasn’t stopped then and
there. I expected the dispatcher, you see—it was Hannah Verrill in
those days—and I’d tell her what I had to say, and she’d pass it on
to the deputy.
“Instead, I heard this hard don‘t-fuck-with-me
voice say, ‘Sheriff’s Office, Deputy Power speaking, how can I help
you?’ I almost swallowed the mouthful of pebbles I had, and for a
minute I couldn’t say anything.
“He goes ‘Damn kids,’ and I knew he was gettin
ready to hang up.
“ ‘Wait!’ I says. The pebbles made it sound like I
was talkin through a mouthful of cotton. ‘Don’t hang up,
Deputy!’
“ ‘Who is this?’ he asked.
“ ‘Never mind,’ I says back. ‘Get your daughter out
of town, if you value her, and whatever you do, don’t let
her near the Library. It’s serious. She’s in danger.’
“And then I hung up. Just like that. If Hannah had
answered, I think I would have told more. I would have spoken
names—Tansy‘s, Tom’s, Patsy’s ... and Ardelia’s, too. But he scared
me—I felt like if I stayed on that line, he’d be able to look right
through it and see me on the other end, standin in that booth and
stinkin like a bag of used-up peaches.
“I spat the pebbles out into my palm and got out of
the booth in a hurry. Her power over me was broken—makin the call
had done that much, anyway—but I was in a panic. Did you ever see a
bird that’s flown into a garage and goes swoopin around, bashin
itself against the walls, it’s so crazy to get out? That’s what I
was like. All of a sudden I wasn’t worryin about Patsy Harrigan, or
Tom Gibson, or even Tansy Power. I felt like Ardelia was the
one who was lookin at me, that Ardelia knew what I’d done, and
she’d be after me.
“I wanted to hide—hell, I needed to hide. I
started walkin down Main Street, and by the time I got to the end,
I was almost runnin. By then Ardelia had gotten all mixed up in my
mind with the Library Policeman and the dark man—the one who was
drivin the steamroller, and the car with Simple Simon in it. I
expected to see all three of them turn onto Main Street in the dark
man’s old Buick, lookin for me. I got out to the railway depot and
crawled under the loadin platform again. I huddled up in there,
shiverin and shakin, even cryin a little, waitin for her to show up
and do for me. I kept thinkin I’d look up and I’d see her face
pokin under the platform’s concrete skirt, her eyes all red and
glaring, her mouth turnin into that horn thing.
“I crawled all the way to the back, and I found
half a jug of wine under a pile of dead leaves and old spiderwebs.
I’d stashed it back there God knows when and forgot all about it. I
drank the wine in about three long swallows. Then I started to
crawl back to the front of that space under the platform, but
halfway there I passed out. When I woke up again, I thought at
first that no time at all had gone by, because the light and the
shadows were just about the same. Only my headache was gone, and my
belly was roarin for food.”
“You’d slept the clock around, hadn’t you?” Naomi
guessed.
“No—almost twice around. I’d made my call to
the Sheriff’s Office around ten o’clock on Monday mornin. When I
came to under the loadin platform with that empty jug of wine still
in my hand, it was just past seven on Wednesday morning. Only it
wasn’t sleep, not really. You have to remember that I hadn’t been
on an all-day drunk or even a week-long toot. I’d been roaring
drunk for the best part of two years, and that wasn’t
all—there was Ardelia, and the Library, and the kids, and Story
Hour. It was two years on a merry-go-round in hell. I think the
part of my mind that still wanted to live and be sane decided the
only thing to do was to pull the plug for awhile and shut down. And
when I woke up, it was all over. They hadn’t found the bodies of
Patsy Harrigan and Tom Gibson yet, but it was over, just the same.
And I knew it even before I poked my head out from under the loadin
platform. There was an empty place in me, like an empty socket in
your gum after a tooth falls out. Only that empty place was in my
mind. And I understood. She was gone. Ardelia was
gone.
“I crawled out from under and almost fainted again
from hunger. I saw Brian Kelly, who used to be freightmaster back
in those days. He was countin sacks of somethin on the other loadin
platform and makin marks on a clipboard. I managed to walk over to
him. He saw me, and an expression of disgust came over his face.
There had been a time when we’d bought each other drinks in The
Domino—a roadhouse that burned down long before your time, Sam—but
those days were long gone. All he saw was a dirty, filthy drunk
with leaves and dirt in his hair, a drunk that stank of piss and
Old Duke.
“ ‘Get outta here, daddy-0, or I’ll call the cops,’
he says.
“That day was another first for me. One thing about
bein a drunk—you’re always breakin new ground. That was the first
time I ever begged for money. I asked him if he could spare a
quarter so I could get a cuppa joe and some toast at the Route 32
Diner. He dug into his pocket and brought out some change. He
didn’t hand it to me; he just tossed it in my general direction. I
had to get down in the cinders and grub for it. I don’t think he
threw the money to shame me. He just didn’t want to touch me. I
don’t blame him, either.
“When he saw I had the money he said, ‘Get in the
wind, daddy-0. And if I see you down here again, I will call
the cops.’
“ ‘You bet,’ I said, and went on my way. He never
even knew who I was, and I’m glad.
“About halfway to the diner, I passed one of those
newspaper boxes, and I seen that day’s Gazette inside. That
was when I realized I’d been out of it two days instead of just
one. The date didn’t mean much to me—by then I wasn’t much
interested in catendars—but I knew it was Monday morning when
Ardelia booted me out of her bed for the last time and I made that
call. Then I saw the headlines. I’d slept through just about the
biggest day for news in Junction City’s history, it seemed like.
SEARCH FOR MISSING CHILDREN CONTINUES, it said on one side. There
was pictures of Tom Gibson and Patsy Harrigan. The headline on the
other side read COUNTY CORONER SAYS DEPUTY DIED OF HEART ATTACK.
Below that one there was a picture of John Power.
“I took one of the papers and left a nickel on top
of the pile, which was how it was done back in the days when people
still mostly trusted each other. Then I sat down, right there on
the curb, and read both stories. The one about the kids was
shorter. The thing was, nobody was very worried about em just
yet—Sheriff Beeman was treatin it as a runaway case.
“She’d picked the right kids, all right; those two
really were brats, and birds of a feather flock together.
They was always chummin around. They lived on the same block, and
the story said they’d gotten in trouble the week before when Patsy
Harrigan’s mother caught em smokin cigarettes in the back shed. The
Gibson boy had a no-account uncle with a farm in Nebraska, and Norm
Beeman was pretty sure that’s where they were headed—I told you he
wasn’t much in the brains department. But how could he know? And he
was right about one thing—they weren’t the kind of kids who fall
down wells or get drownded swimmin in the Proverbia River. But
I knew where they were, and I knew Ardelia had beaten the
clock again. I knew they’d find all three of them together, and
later on that day, they did. I’d saved Tansy Power, and I’d saved
myself, but I couldn’t find much consolation in that.
“The story about Deputy Power was longer. It was
the second one, because Power had been found late Monday afternoon.
His death’d been reported in Tuesday’s paper, but not the cause.
He’d been found slumped behind the wheel of his cruiser about a
mile west of the Orday farm. That was a place I knew pretty well,
because it was where I usually left the road and went into the corn
on my way to Ardelia’s.
“I could fill in the blanks pretty well. John Power
wasn’t a man to let the grass grow under his feet, and he must have
headed out to Ardelia’s house almost as soon as I hung up that pay
telephone beside the Texaco station. He might have called his wife
first, and told her to keep Tansy in the house until she heard from
him. That wasn’t in the paper, of course, but I bet he did.
“When he got there, she must have known that I’d
told on her and the game was up. So she killed him. She ... she
hugged him to death, the way she did Mr. Lavin. He had a lot of
hard bark on him, just like I told her, but a maple tree has hard
bark on it, too, and you can still get the sap to run out of it, if
you drive your plug in deep enough. I imagine she drove hers plenty
deep.
“When he was dead, she must have driven him in his
own cruiser out to the place where he was found. Even though that
road—Carson Road—wasn’t much travelled back then, it still took a
heap of guts to do that. But what else could she do? Call
the Sheriff’s Office and tell em John Power’d had a heart attack
while he was talkin to her? That would have started up a lot more
questions at the very time when she didn’t want nobody thinkin of
her at all. And, you know, even Norm Beeman would have been curious
about why John Power had been in such a tearin hurry to talk to the
city librarian.
“So she drove him out Garson Road almost to the
Orday farm, parked his cruiser in the ditch, and then she went back
to her own house the same way I always went—through the
corn.”
Dave looked from Sam to Naomi and then back to Sam
again.
“I’ll bet I know what she did next, too. I’ll bet
she started lookin for me.
“I don’t mean she jumped in her car and started
drivin around Junction City, pokin her head into all my usual
holes; she didn’t have to. Time and time again over those years she
would show up where I was when she wanted me, or she would send one
of the kids with a folded-over note. Didn’t matter if I was sittin
in a pile of boxes behind the barber shop or fishin out at
Grayling’s Stream or if I was just drunk behind the freight depot,
she knew where I was to be found. That was one of her
talents.
“Not that last time, though—the time she wanted to
find me most of all—and I think I know why. I told you that I
didn’t fall asleep or even black out after makin that call; it was
more like goin into a coma, or being dead. And when she turned
whatever eye she had in her mind outward, lookin for me, it
couldn’t see me. I don’t know how many times that day and that
night her eye might have passed right over where I lay, and I don’t
want to know. I only know if she’d found me, it wouldn’t have been
any kid with a folded-over note that showed up. It would have been
her, and I can’t even imagine what she would have done to me
for interfering with her plans the way I did.
“She probably would have found me anyway if she’d
had more time, but she didn’t. Her plans were laid, that was one
thing. And then there was the way her change was speedin up. Her
time of sleep was comin on, and she couldn’t waste time lookin for
me. Besides, she must have known she’d have another chance, further
up the line. And now her chance has come.”
“I don’t understand what you mean,” Sam said.
“Of course you do,” Dave replied. “Who took the
books that have put you in this jam? Who sent em to the pulper,
along with your newspapers? I did. Don’t you think she knows
that?”
“Do you think that she still wants you?” Naomi
asked.
“Yes, but not the way she did. Now she only wants
to kill me.” His head turned and his bright, sorrowful eyes gazed
into Sam’s. “You’re the one she wants now.”
Sam laughed uneasily. “I’m sure she was a
firecracker thirty years ago,” he said, “but the lady has aged.
She’s really not my type.”
“I guess you don’t understand after all,” Dave
said. “She doesn’t want to fuck you, Sam; she wants to
be you.”
10
After a few moments Sam said, “Wait. Just hold on
a second.”
“You’ve heard me, but you haven’t taken it to heart
the way you need to,” Dave told him. His voice was patient but
weary; terribly weary. “So let me tell you a little more.
“After Ardelia killed John Power, she put him far
enough away so she wouldn’t be the first one to fall under
suspicion. Then she went ahead and opened the Library that
afternoon, just like always. Part of it was because a guilty person
looks more suspicious if they swerve away from their usual
routines, but that wasn’t all of it. Her change was right upon her,
and she had to have those children’s lives. Don’t even think
about asking me why, because I don’t know. Maybe she’s like a bear
that has to stuff itself before it goes into hibernation. All I can
be sure of is that she had to make sure there was a Story Hour that
Monday afternoon ... and she did.
“Sometime during that Story Hour, when all the kids
were sittin around her in the trance she could put em into, she
told Tom and Patsy that she wanted em to come to the Library on
Tuesday morning, even though the Library was closed Tuesdays and
Thursdays in the summer. They did, and she did for em, and then she
went to sleep ... that sleep that looks so much like death. And now
you come along, Sam, thirty years later. You know me, and Ardelia
still owes me a settling up, so that is a start ... but there’s
something a lot better than that. You also know about the Library
Police.”
“I don’t know how—”
“No, you don’t know how you know, and that
makes you even better. Because secrets that are so bad that we even
have to hide them from ourselves ... for someone like Ardelia
Lortz, those are the best secrets of all. Plus, look at the
bonuses—you’re young, you’re single, and you have no close friends.
That’s true, isn’t it?”
“I would have said so until today,” Sam said after
a moment’s thought. “I would have said the only good friends I made
since I came to Junction City have moved away. But I consider you
and Naomi my friends, Dave. I consider you very good friends
indeed. The best.”
Naomi took Sam’s hand and squeezed it
briefly.
“I appreciate that,” Dave said, “but it doesn’t
matter, because she intends to do for me and Sarah as well. The
more the merrier, as she told me once. She has to take lives to get
through her time of change ... and waking up must be a time of
change for her, too.”
“You’re saying that she means to possess Sam
somehow, aren’t you?” Naomi asked.
“I think I mean a little more than that, Sarah. I
think she means to destroy whatever there is inside Sam that
makes him Sam—I think she means to clean him out the way a
kid cleans out a pumpkin to make a Halloween jack-o-lantern, and
then she’s going to put him on like you’d put on a suit of new
clothes. And after that happens—if it does—he’ll go on lookin like
a man named Sam Peebles, but he won’t be a man anymore, no
more than Ardelia Lortz was ever a woman. There’s somethin not
human, some it hidin inside her skin, and I think I always
knew that. It’s inside ... but it’s forever an outsider. Where did
Ardelia Lortz come from? Where did she live before she came to
Junction City? I think, if you checked, you’d find that everything
she put on the references she showed Mr. Lavin was a lie, and that
nobody in town really knew. I think it was John Power’s curiosity
about that very thing that sealed his fate. But I think there was a
real Ardelia Lortz at one time ... in Pass Christian,
Mississippi ... or Harrisburg, Pennsylvania ... or Portland, Maine
... and the it took her over and put her on. Now she wants
to do it again. If we let that happen, I think that later this
year, in some other town, in San Francisco, California ... or
Butte, Montana ... or Kingston, Rhode Island ... a man named Sam
Peebles will show up. Most people will like him. Children in
particular will like him ... although they may be afraid of him,
too, in some way they don’t understand and can’t talk about.
“And, of course, he will be a librarian.”