CHAPTER TWO
THE LIBRARY (1)
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Sam had gone by the Library hundreds of times
during his years in Junction City, but this was the first time he
had really looked at it, and he discovered a rather amazing
thing: he hated the place on sight.
The Junction City Public Library stood on the
corner of State Street and Miller Avenue, a square granite box of a
building with windows so narrow they looked like loopholes. A slate
roof overhung all four sides of the building, and when one
approached it from the front, the combination of the narrow windows
and the line of shadow created by the roof made the building look
like the frowning face of a stone robot. It was a fairly common
style of Iowa architecture, common enough so Sam Peebles, who had
been selling real estate for nearly twenty years, had given it a
name: Midwestern Ugly. During spring, summer, and fall, the
building’s forbidding aspect was softened by the maples which stood
around it in a kind of grove, but now, at the end of a hard Iowa
winter, the maples were still bare and the Library looked like an
oversized crypt.
He didn’t like it; it made him uneasy; he didn’t
know why. It was, after all, just a library, not the dungeons of
the Inquisition. Just the same, another acidic burp rose up through
his chest as he made his way along the flagstone walk. There was a
funny sweet undertaste to the burp that reminded him of something
... something from a long time ago, perhaps. He put a Tum in his
mouth, began to crunch it up, and came to an abrupt decision. His
speech was good enough as it stood. Not great, but good enough.
After all, they were talking Rotary Club here, not the United
Nations. It was time to stop playing with it. He was going to go
back to the office and do some of the correspondence he had
neglected that morning.
He started to turn, then thought: That’s dumb.
Really dumb. You want to be dumb? Okay. But you agreed to give the
goddam speech; why not give a good one?
He stood on the Library walk, frowning and
undecided. He liked to make fun of Rotary. Craig did, too. And
Frank Stephens. Most of the young business types in Junction City
laughed about the meetings. But they rarely missed one, and Sam
supposed he knew why: it was a place where connections could be
made. A place where a fellow like him could meet some of the
not-so-young business types in Junction City. Guys like Elmer
Baskin, whose bank had helped float a strip shopping center in
Beaverton two years ago. Guys like George Candy—who, it was said,
could produce three million dollars in development money with one
phone call ... if he chose to make it.
These were small-town fellows, high-school
basketball fans, guys who got their hair cut at Jimmy’s, guys who
wore boxer shorts and strappy tee-shirts to bed instead of pajamas,
guys who still drank their beer from the bottle, guys who didn’t
feel comfortable about a night on the town in Cedar Rapids unless
they were turned out in Full Cleveland. They were also Junction
City’s movers and shakers, and when you came right down to it,
wasn’t that why Sam kept going on Friday nights? When you came
right down to it, wasn’t that why Craig had called in such a sweat
after the stupid acrobat broke his stupid neck? You wanted to get
noticed by the movers and shakers ... but not because you had
fucked up. They’ll all be drunk, Craig had said, and Naomi
had seconded the motion, but it now occurred to Sam that he had
never seen Elmer Baskin take anything stronger than coffee. Not
once. And he probably wasn’t the only one. Some of them might be
drunk ... but not all of them. And the ones who weren’t might well
be the ones who really mattered.
Handle this right, Sam, and you might do
yourself some good. It’s not impossible.
No. It wasn’t. Unlikely, of course, but not
impossible. And there was something else, quite aside from the
shadow politics which might or might not attend a Friday-night
Rotary Club speaker’s meeting: he had always prided himself on
doing the best job possible. So it was just a dumb little speech.
So what?
Also, it’s just a dumb little small-town
library. What’s the big deal? There aren’t even any bushes growing
along the sides.
Sam had started up the walk again, but now he
stopped with a frown creasing his forehead. That was a strange
thought to have; it seemed to have come right out of nowhere. So
there were no bushes growing along the sides of the Library-what
difference did that make? He didn’t know ... but he did know
it had an almost magical effect on him. His uncharacteristic
hesitation fell away and he began to move forward once more. He
climbed the four stone steps and paused for a moment. The place
felt deserted, somehow. He grasped the door-handle and thought,
I bet it’s locked. I bet the place is closed Friday
afternoons. There was something strangely comforting in this
thought.
But the old-fashioned latch-plate depressed under
his thumb, and the heavy door swung noiselessly inward. Sam stepped
into a small foyer with a marble floor in checkerboard black and
white squares. An easel stood in the center of this antechamber.
There was a sign propped on the easel; the message consisted of one
word in very large letters.
SILENCE!
it read. Not
SILENCE IS GOLDEN
or
QUIET, PLEASE
but just that one staring, glaring word:
SILENCE!
“You bet,” Sam said. He only murmured the words,
but the acoustics of the place were very good, and his low murmur
was magnified into a grouchy grumble that made him cringe. It
actually seemed to bounce back at him from the high ceiling. At
that moment he felt as if he was in the fourth grade again, and
about to be called to task by Mrs. Glasters for cutting up rough at
exactly the wrong moment. He looked around uneasily, half-expecting
an ill-natured librarian to come swooping out of the main room to
see who had dared profane the silence.
Stop it, for Christ’s sake. You’re forty years
old. Fourth grade was a long time ago, buddy.
Except it didn’t seem like a long time ago. Not in
here. In here, fourth grade seemed almost close enough to reach out
and touch.
He crossed the marble floor to the left of the
easel, unconsciously walking with his weight thrown forward so the
heels of his loafers would not click, and entered the main lobby of
the Junction City Library.
There were a number of glass globes hanging down
from the ceiling (which was at least twenty feet higher than the
ceiling of the foyer), but none of them were on. The light was
provided by two large, angled skylights. On a sunny day these would
have been quite enough to light the room; they might even have
rendered it cheery and welcoming. But this Friday was overcast and
dreary, and the light was dim. The comers of the lobby were filled
with gloomy webs of shadow.
What Sam Peebles felt was a sense of
wrongness. It was as if he had done more than step through a
door and cross a foyer; he felt as if he had entered another world,
one which bore absolutely no resemblance to the small Iowa town
that he sometimes liked, sometimes hated, but mostly just took for
granted. The air in here seemed heavier than normal air, and did
not seem to conduct light as well as normal air did. The silence
was thick as a blanket. As cold as snow.
The library was deserted.
Shelves of books stretched above him on every side.
Looking up toward the skylights with their crisscrosses of
reinforcing wire made Sam a little dizzy, and he had a momentary
illusion: he felt that he was upside down, that he had been hung by
his heels over a deep square pit lined with books.
Ladders leaned against the walls here and there,
the kind that were mounted on tracks and rolled along the floor on
rubber wheels. Two wooden islands broke the lake of space between
the place where he stood and the checkout desk on the far side of
the large, high room. One was a long oak magazine rack.
Periodicals, each encased in a clear plastic cover, hung from this
rack on wooden dowels. They looked like the hides of strange
animals which had been left to cure in this silent room. A sign
mounted on top of the rack commanded :
RETURN ALL MAGAZINES TO THEIR PROPER PLACES!
To the left of the magazine rack was a shelf of
brand-new novels and nonfiction books. The sign mounted on top of
the shelf proclaimed them to be seven-day rentals.
Sam passed down the wide aisle between the
magazines and the seven-day bookshelf, his heels rapping and
echoing in spite of his effort to move quietly. He found himself
wishing he had heeded his original impulse to just turn around and
go back to the office. This place was spooky. Although there was a
small, hooded micro-film camera alight and humming on the desk,
there was no one manning—or womaning—it. A small plaque reading
stood on the desk, but there was no sign of A. Lortz or anyone
else.
A. LORTZ
Probably taking a dump and checking out the new
issue of Library Journal.
Sam felt a crazy desire to open his mouth and yell,
“Everything coming out all right, A. Lortz?” It passed quickly. The
Junction City Public Library was not the sort of place that
encouraged amusing sallies.
Sam’s thoughts suddenly spun back to a little rhyme
from his childhood. No more laughing, no more fun; Quaker
meeting has begun. If you show your teeth or tongue, you may pay a
forfeit.
If you show your teeth or tongue in here, does
A. Lortz make you pay a forfeit? he wondered. He looked around
again, let his nerve endings feel the frowning quality of the
silence, and thought you could make book on it.
No longer interested in obtaining a joke-book or
Best Loved Poems of the American People, but fascinated by the
library’s suspended, dreamy atmosphere in spite of himself, Sam
walked toward a door to the right of the seven-day books. A sign
over the door said this was the Children’s Library. Had he used the
Children’s Library when he had been growing up in St. Louis? He
thought so, but those memories were hazy, distant, and hard to
hold. All the same, approaching the door of the Children’s Library
gave him an odd and haunting feeling. It was almost like coming
home.
The door was closed. On it was a picture of Little
Red Riding Hood, looking down at the wolf in Grandma’s bed. The
wolf was wearing Grandma’s nightgown and Grandma’s nightcap. It was
snarling. Foam dripped from between its bared fangs. An expression
of almost exquisite horror had transfixed Little Red Riding Hood’s
face, and the poster seemed not just to suggest but to actually
proclaim that the happy ending of this story—of all fairy tales—was
a convenient lie. Parents might believe such guff, Red Riding
Hood’s ghastly-sick face said, but the little ones knew better,
didn’t they?
Nice, Sam thought. With a poster like
that on the door, I bet lots of kids use the Children’s Library. I
bet the little ones are especially fond of it.
He opened the door and poked his head in.
His sense of unease left him; he was charmed at
once. The poster on the door was all wrong, of course, but what was
behind it seemed perfectly right. Of course he had used the
library as a child; it only took one look into this scale-model
world to refresh those memories. His father had died young; Sam had
been an only child raised by a working mother he rarely saw except
on Sundays and holidays. When he could not promote money for a
movie after school—and that was often—the library had to do, and
the room he saw now brought those days back in a sudden wave of
nostalgia that was sweet and painful and obscurely
frightening.
It had been a small world, and this was a
small world; it had been a well-lighted world, even on the
grimmest, rainiest days, and so was this one. No hanging glass
globes for this room; there were shadow-banishing fluorescent
lights behind frosted panels in the suspended ceiling, and all of
them were on. The tops of the tables were only two feet from the
floor; the seats of the chairs were even closer. In this world the
adults would be the interlopers, the uncomfortable aliens. They
would balance the tables on their knees if they tried to sit at
them, and they would be apt to crack their skulls bending to drink
from the water fountain which was mounted on the far wall.
Here the shelves did not stretch up in an unkind
trick of perspective which made one giddy if one looked up too
long; the ceiling was low enough to be cozy, but not low enough to
make a child feel cramped. Here were no rows of gloomy bindings but
books which fairly shouted with raucous primary colors: bright
blues, reds, yellows. In this world Dr. Seuss was king, Judy Blume
was queen, and all the princes and princesses attended Sweet Valley
High. Here Sam felt all that old sense of benevolent after-school
welcome, a place where the books did all but beg to be touched,
handled, looked at, explored. Yet these feelings had their own dark
undertaste.
His clearest sense, however, was one of almost
wistful pleasure. On one wall was a photograph of a puppy with
large, thoughtful eyes. Written beneath the puppy’s anxious-hopeful
face was one of the world’s great truths: IT is HARD TO BE GOOD. On
the other wall was a drawing of mallards making their way down a
riverbank to the reedy verge of the water. MAKE WAY FOR DUCKUNGS!
the poster trumpeted.
Sam looked to his left, and the faint smile on his
lips first faltered and then died. Here was a poster which showed a
large, dark car speeding away from what he supposed was a school
building. A little boy was looking out of the passenger window. His
hands were plastered against the glass and his mouth was open in a
scream. In the background, a man—only a vague, ominous shape—was
hunched over the wheel, driving hell for leather. The words beneath
this picture read:
NEVER TAKE RIDES FROM STRANGERS!
Sam recognized that this poster and the Little Red
Riding Hood picture on the door of the Children’s Library both
appealed to the same primitive emotions of dread, but he found this
one much more disturbing. Of course children shouldn’t accept rides
from strangers, and of course they had to be taught not to do so,
but was this the right way to make the point?
How many kids, he wondered, have had a week’s
worth of nightmares thanks to that little public-service
announcement?
And there was another one, posted right on the
front of the checkout desk, that struck a chill as deep as January
down Sam’s back. It showed a dismayed boy and girl, surely no older
than eight, cringing back from a man in a trenchcoat and gray hat.
The man looked at least eleven feet tall; his shadow fell on the
upturned faces of the children. The brim of his 1940s-style fedora
threw its own shadow, and the eyes of the man in the trenchcoat
gleamed relentlessly from its black depths. They looked like chips
of ice as they studied the children, marking them with the grim
gaze of Authority. He was holding out an ID folder with a star
pinned to it—an odd sort of star, with at least nine points on it.
Maybe as many as a dozen. The message beneath read:
AVOID THE LIBRARY POLICE! GOOD BOYS AND GIRLS
RETURN THEIR BOOKS ON TIME!
That taste was in his mouth again. That sweet,
unpleasant taste. And a queer, frightening thought occurred to him:
I have seen this man before. But that was ridiculous, of
course. Wasn’t it?
Sam thought of how such a poster would have
intimidated him as a child—of how much simple, unalloyed pleasure
it would have stolen from the safe haven of the library—and felt
indignation rise in his chest. He took a step toward the poster to
examine the odd star more closely, taking his roll of Tums out of
his pocket at the same time.
He was putting one of them into his mouth when a
voice spoke up from behind him. “Well, hello there!”
He jumped and turned around, ready to do battle
with the library dragon, now that it had finally disclosed
itself.
2
No dragon presented itself. There was only a
plump, white-haired woman of about fifty-five, pushing a trolley of
books on silent rubber tires. Her white hair fell around her
pleasant, unlined face in neat beauty-shop curls.
“I suppose you were looking for me,” she said. “Did
Mr. Peckham direct you in here?”
“I didn’t see anybody at all.”
“No? Then he’s gone along home,” she said. “I’m not
really surprised, since it’s Friday. Mr. Peckham comes in to dust
and read the paper every morning around eleven. He’s the
janitor—only part-time, of course. Sometimes he stays until
one-one-thirty on most Mondays, because that’s the day when both
the dust and the paper are thickest—but you know how thin Friday’s
paper is.”
Sam smiled. “I take it you’re the librarian?”
“I am she,” Mrs. Lortz said, and smiled at him. But
Sam didn’t think her eyes were smiling; her eyes seemed to be
watching him carefully, almost coldly. “And you are ... ?”
“Sam Peebles.”
“Oh yes! Real estate and insurance! That’s
your game!”
“Guilty as charged.”
“I’m sorry you found the main section of the
library deserted—you must have thought we were closed and someone
left the door open by mistake.”
“Actually,” he said, “the idea did cross my
mind.”
“From two until seven there are three of us on
duty,” said Mrs. Lortz. “Two is when the schools begin to let out,
you know—the grammar school at two, the middle school at
two-thirty, the high school at two-forty-five. The children are our
most faithful clients, and the most welcome, as far as I am
concerned. I love the little ones. I used to have an all-day
assistant, but last year the Town Council cut our budget by eight
hundred dollars and ...” Mrs. Lortz put her hands together and
mimed a bird flying away. It was an amusing charming gesture.
So why, Sam wondered, aren’t I charmed or
amused?
The posters, he supposed. He was still trying to
make Red Riding Hood, the screaming child in the car, and the
grim-eyed Library Policeman jibe with this smiling small-town
librarian.
She put her left hand out—a small hand, as plump
and round as the rest of her—with perfect unstudied confidence. He
looked at the third finger and saw it was ringless; she wasn’t Mrs.
Lortz after all. The fact of her spinsterhood struck him as utterly
typical, utterly small-town. Almost a caricature, really. Sam shook
it.
“You haven’t been to our library before, have you,
Mr. Peebles?”
“No, I’m afraid not. And please make it Sam.” He
did not know if he really wanted to be Sam to this woman or not,
but he was a businessman in a small town—a salesman, when you got
right down to it—and the offer of his first name was
automatic.
“Why, thank you, Sam.”
He waited for her to respond by offering her own
first name, but she only looked at him expectantly.
“I’ve gotten myself into a bit of a bind,” he said.
“Our scheduled speaker tonight at Rotary Club had an accident,
and—”
“Oh, that’s too bad!”
“For me as well as him. I got drafted to take his
place.”
“Oh-oh!” Ms. Lortz said. Her tone was alarmed, but
her eyes crinkled with amusement. And still Sam did not find
himself warming to her, although he was a person who warmed up to
other people quickly (if superficially) as a rule; the kind of man
who had few close friends but felt compelled nonetheless to start
conversations with strangers in elevators.
“I wrote a speech last night and this morning I
read it to the young woman who takes dictation and types up my
correspondence—”
“Naomi Higgins, I’ll bet.”
“Yes—how did you know that?”
“Naomi is a regular. She borrows a great many
romance novels—Jennifer Blake, Rosemary Rogers, Paul Sheldon,
people like that.” She lowered her voice and said, “She says
they’re for her mother, but actually I think she reads them
herself.”
Sam laughed. Naomi did have the dreamy eyes
of a closet romance reader.
“Anyway, I know she’s what would be called an
office temporary in a big city. I imagine that here in Junction
City she’s the whole secretarial pool. It seemed reasonable that
she was the young woman of whom you spoke.”
“Yes. She liked my speech—or so she said—but she
thought it was a bit dry. She suggested—”
“The Speaker’s Companion, I’ll bet!”
“Well, she couldn’t remember the exact title, but
that sure sounds right.” He paused, then asked a little
anxiously: “Does it have jokes?”
“Only three hundred pages of them,” she said. She
reached out her right hand—it was as innocent of rings as her
left—and tugged at his sleeve with it. “Right this way.” She led
him toward the door by the sleeve. “I am going to solve all your
problems, Sam. I only hope it won’t take a crisis to bring you back
to our library. It’s small, but it’s very fine. I think so, anyway,
although of course I’m prejudiced.”
They passed through the door into the frowning
shadows of the Library’s main room. Ms. Lortz flicked three
switches by the door, and the hanging globes lit up, casting a soft
yellow glow that warmed and cheered the room considerably.
“It gets so gloomy in here when it’s
overcast,” she said in a confidential we‘re-in-the-real-Library-now
voice. She was still tugging firmly on Sam’s sleeve. “But of course
you know how the Town Council complains about the electricity bill
in a place like this ... or perhaps you don’t, but I’ll bet you can
guess. ”
“I can,” Sam agreed, also dropping his voice to a
near-whisper.
“But that’s a holiday compared to what they have to
say about the heating expenses in the winter.” She rolled her eyes.
“Oil is so dear. It’s the fault of those Arabs ... and now
look what they are up to—hiring religious hit-men to try and kill
writers.”
“It does seem a little harsh,” Sam said, and for
some reason he found himself thinking of the poster of the tall man
again—the one with the odd star pinned to his ID case, the one
whose shadow was falling so ominously over the upturned faces of
the children. Falling over them like a stain.
“And of course, I’ve been fussing in the Children’s
Library. I lose all track of time when I’m in there.”
“That’s an interesting place,” Sam said. He meant
to go on, to ask her about the posters, but Ms. Lortz forestalled
him. It was clear to Sam exactly who was in charge of this peculiar
little side-trip in an otherwise ordinary day.
“You bet it is! Now, you just give me one minute.”
She reached up and put her hands on his shoulders—she had to stand
on tiptoe to do it—and for one moment Sam had the absurd idea that
she meant to kiss him. Instead she pressed him down onto a wooden
bench which ran along the far side of the seven-day bookshelf. “I
know right where to find the books you need, Sam. I don’t even have
to check the card catalogue.”
“I could get them myself—”
“I’m sure,” she said, “but they’re in the Special
Reference section, and I don’t like to let people in there if I can
help it. I’m very bossy about that, but I always know where
to put my hand right on the things I need ... back there, anyway.
People are so messy, they have so little regard for
order, you know. Children are the worst, but even adults get
up to didos if you let them. Don’t worry about a thing. I’ll be
back in two shakes.”
Sam had no intention of protesting further, but he
wouldn’t have had time even if he had wanted to. She was gone. He
sat on the bench, once more feeling like a fourth-grader ... like a
fourth-grader who had done something wrong this time, who had
gotten up to didos and so couldn’t go out and play with the other
children at recess.
He could hear Ms. Lortz moving about in the room
behind the checkout desk, and he looked around thoughtfully. There
was nothing to see except books—there was not even one old
pensioner reading the paper or leafing through a magazine. It
seemed odd. He wouldn’t have expected a small-town library like
this to be doing a booming business on a weekday afternoon,
but no one at all?
Well, there was Mr. Peckham, he thought,
but he finished the paper and went home. Dreadfully thin paper
on Friday,
you know. Thin dust, too. And then he
realized he only had the word of Ms. Lortz that a Mr. Peckham had
ever been here at all.
True enough—but why would she lie?
He didn’t know, and doubted very much that she had,
but the fact that he was questioning the honesty of a sweet-faced
woman he had just met highlighted the central puzzling fact of this
meeting: he didn’t like her. Sweet face or not, he didn’t like her
one bit.
It’s the posters. You were prepared not to like
ANYBODY that would put up posters like that in a children’s room.
But it doesn’t matter, because a side-trip is all it is. Get the
books and get out.
He shifted on the bench, looked up, and saw a motto
on the wall:
If you would know how a man treats his wife
and his children, see how he treats his books.
—Ralph Waldo Emerson
Sam didn’t care much for that little homily,
either. He didn’t know exactly why ... except that maybe he thought
a man, even a bookworm, might be expected to treat his family a
little better than his reading matter. The motto, painted in gold
leaf on a length of varnished oak, glared down at him nevertheless,
seeming to suggest he better think again.
Before he could, Ms. Lortz returned, lifting a gate
in the checkout desk, stepping through it, and lowering it neatly
behind her again.
“I think I’ve got what you need,” she said
cheerfully. “I hope you’ll agree.”
She handed him two books. One was The Speaker’s
Companion, edited by Kent Adelmen, and the other was Best
Loved Poems of the American People. The contents of this
latter book, according to the jacket (which was, in its turn,
protected by a tough plastic overjacket), had not been edited,
exactly, but selected by one Hazel Felleman. “Poems of
life!” the jacket promised. “Poems of home and mother! Poems of
laughter and whimsey! The poems most frequently asked for by the
readers of the New York Times Book Review!” It further
advised that Hazel Felleman “has been able to keep her finger on
the poetry pulse of the American people.”
Sam looked at her with some doubt, and she read his
mind effortlessly.
“Yes, I know, they look old-fashioned,” she said.
“Especially nowadays, when self-help books are all the rage. I
imagine if you went to one of the chain bookstores in the Cedar
Rapids mall, you could find a dozen books designed to help the
beginning public speaker. But none of them would be as good as
these, Sam. I really believe these are the best helps there are for
men and women who are new to the art of public speaking.”
“Amateurs, in other words,” Sam said,
grinning.
“Well, yes. Take Best Loved Poems, for
instance. The second section of the book—it begins on page
sixty-five, if memory serves—is called ‘Inspiration.’ You can
almost surely find something there which will make a suitable
climax to your little talk, Sam. And you’re apt to find that your
listeners will remember a well-chosen verse even if they forget
everything else. Especially if they’re a little—”
“Drunk,” he said.
“Tight was the word I would have used,” she
said with gentle reproof, “although I suppose you know them better
than I do.” But the gaze she shot at him suggested that she was
only saying this because she was polite.
She held up The Speaker’s Companion. The
jacket was a cartoonist’s drawing of a bunting-draped hall. Small
groups of men in old-fashioned evening dress were seated at tables
with drinks in front of them. They were all yucking it up. The man
behind the podium—also in evening dress and clearly the
after-dinner speaker—was grinning triumphantly down at them. It was
clear he was a roaring success.
“There’s a section at the beginning on the
theory of after-dinner speeches,” said Ms. Lortz, “but since
you don’t strike me as the sort of man who wants to make a
career out of this—”
“You’ve got that right, ” Sam agreed
fervently.
“—I suggest you go directly to the middle section,
which is called ‘Lively Speaking.’ There you will find jokes and
stories divided into three categories: ‘Easing Them In,’ ‘Softening
Them Up,’ and ‘Finishing Them Off.’ ”
Sounds like a manual for gigolos, Sam
thought but did not say.
She read his mind again. “A little suggestive, I
suppose—but these books were published in a simpler, more innocent
time. The late thirties, to be exact.”
“Much more innocent, right,” Sam said, thinking of
deserted dust-bowl farms, little girls in flour-sack dresses, and
rusty, thrown-together Hoovervilles surrounded by police wielding
truncheons.
“But both books still work,” she said,
tapping them for emphasis, “and that’s the important thing in
business, isn’t it, Sam? Results!”
“Yes ... I guess it is.”
He looked at her thoughtfully, and Ms. Lortz raised
her eyebrows—a trifle defensively, perhaps. “A penny for your
thoughts,” she said.
“I was thinking that this has been a fairly rare
occurrence in my adult life,” he said. “Not unheard-of, nothing
like that, but rare. I came in here to get a couple of books
to liven up my speech, and you seem to have given me exactly what I
came for. How often does something like that happen in a world
where you usually can’t even get a couple of good lambchops at the
grocery store when you’ve got your face fixed for them?”
She smiled. It appeared to be a smile of genuine
pleasure ... except Sam noticed once again that her eyes did not
smile. He didn’t think they had changed expression since he had
first come upon her—or she upon him—in the Children’s Library. They
just went on watching. “I think I’ve just been paid a
compliment!”
“Yes, ma’am. You have.”
“I thank you, Sam. I thank you very kindly. They
say flattery will get you everywhere, but I’m afraid I’m still
going to have to ask you for two dollars.”
“You are?”
“That’s the charge for issuing an adult library
card,” she said, “but it’s good for three years, and renewal is
only fifty cents. Now, is that a deal, or what?”
“It sounds fine to me.”
“Then step right this way,” she said, and Sam
followed her to the checkout desk.
3
She gave him a card to fill out—on it he wrote his
name, address, telephone numbers, and place of business.
“I see you live on Kelton Avenue. Nice!”
“Well, I like it.”
“The houses are lovely and big—you should be
married.”
He started a little. “How did you know I wasn’t
married?”
“The same way you knew I wasn’t,” she said.
Her smile had become a trifle sly, a trifle catlike. “Nothing on
the third left.”
“Oh,” he said lamely, and smiled. He didn’t think
it was his usual sparkly smile, and his cheeks felt warm.
“Two dollars, please.”
He gave her two singles. She went over to a small
desk where an aged, skeletal typewriter stood, and typed briefly on
a bright-orange card. She brought it back to the checkout desk,
signed her name at the bottom with a flourish, and then pushed it
across to him.
“Check and make sure all the information’s correct,
please.”
Sam did so. “It’s all fine.” Her first name, he
noted, was Ardelia. A pretty name, and rather unusual.
She took his new library card back—the first one
he’d owned since college, now that he thought about it, and he had
used that one precious little—and placed it under the microfilm
recorder beside a card she took from the pocket of each book. “You
can only keep these out for a week, because they’re from Special
Reference. That’s a category I invented myself for books which are
in great demand.”
“Helps for the beginning speaker are in great
demand?”
“Those, and books on things like plumbing repair,
simple magic tricks, social etiquette ... You’d be surprised what
books people call for in a pinch. But I know.”
“I’ll bet you do.”
“I’ve been in the business a long, long time, Sam.
And they’re not renewable, so be sure to get them back by April
sixth.” She raised her head, and the light caught in her eyes. Sam
almost dismissed what he saw there as a twinkle ... but that wasn’t
what it was. It was a shine. A flat, hard shine. For just a moment
Ardelia Lortz looked as if she had a nickel in each eye.
“Or?” he asked, and his smile suddenly didn’t feel
like a smite—it felt like a mask.
“Or else I’ll have to send the Library Policeman
after you,” she said.
4
For a moment their gazes locked, and Sam thought
he saw the real Ardelia Lortz, and there was nothing
charming or soft or spinster-librarian about that woman at
all.
This woman might actually be dangerous, he
thought, and then dismissed it, a little embarrassed. The
gloomy day—and perhaps the pressure of the impending speech—was
getting to him. She’s about as dangerous as a canned peach ...
and it isn’t the gloomy day or the Rotarians tonight, either. It’s
those goddam posters.
He had The Speaker’s Companion and Best Loved
Poems of the American People under his arm and they were almost
to the door before he realized she was showing him out. He planted
his feet firmly and stopped. She looked at him, surprised.
“Can I ask you something, Ms. Lortz?”
“Of course, Sam. That’s what I’m here for—to answer
questions.”
“It’s about the Children’s Library,” he said, “and
the posters. Some of them surprised me. Shocked me, almost.” He
expected that to come out sounding like something a Baptist
preacher might say about an issue of Playboy glimpsed
beneath the other magazines on a parishioner’s coffee table, but it
didn’t come out that way at all. Because, he thought,
it’s not just a conventional sentiment. I really was shocked. No
almost about it.
“Posters?” she asked, frowning, and then her brow
cleared. She laughed. “Oh! You must mean the Library Policeman ...
and Simple Simon, of course.”
“Simple Simon?”
“You know the poster that says NEVER TAKE RIDES
FROM STRANGERS? That’s what the kids call the little boy in the
picture. The one who is yelling. They call him Simple Simon—I
suppose they feel contempt for him because he did such a foolish
thing. I think that’s very healthy, don’t you?”
“He’s not yelling,” Sam said slowly. “He’s
screaming.”.
She shrugged. “Yelling, screaming, what’s the
difference? We don’t hear much of either in here. The children are
very good—very respectful.”
“I’ll bet,” Sam said. They were back in the foyer
again now, and he glanced at the sign on the easel, the sign which
didn’t say
SILENCE IS GOLDEN
or
PLEASE TRY TO BE QUIET
but just offered that one inarguable imperative:
SILENCE!
“Besides—it’s all a matter of interpretation, isn’t
it?”
“I suppose,” Sam said. He felt that he was being
maneuvered—and very efficiently—into a place where he would not
have a moral leg to stand on, and the field of dialectic would
belong to Ardelia Lortz. She gave him the impression that she was
used to doing this, and that made him feel stubborn. “But they
struck me as extreme, those posters.”
“Did they?” she asked politely. They had halted by
the outer door now.
“Yes. Scary.” He gathered himself and said what he
really believed. “Not appropriate to a place where small children
gather.”
He found he still did not sound prissy or
self-righteous, at least to himself, and this was a relief.
She was smiling, and the smile irritated him.
“You’re not the first person who ever expressed that opinion, Sam.
Childless adults aren’t frequent visitors to the Children’s
Library, but they do come in from time to time—uncles, aunts, some
single mother’s boyfriend who got stuck with pick-up duty ... or
people like you, Sam, who are looking for me.”
People in a pinch, her cool blue-gray eyes
said. People who come for help and then, once they HAVE been
helped, stay to criticize the way we run things here at the
Junction City Public Library. The way I run things at the Junction
City Public Library.
“I guess you think I was wrong to put my two cents
in,” Sam said good-naturedly. He didn’t feel good-natured, all of a
sudden he didn’t feel good-natured at all, but it was another trick
of the trade, one he now wrapped around himself like a protective
cloak.
“Not at all. It’s just that you don’t understand.
We had a poll last summer, Sam—it was part of the annual Summer
Reading Program. We call our program Junction City’s Summer
Sizzlers, and each child gets one vote for every book he or she
reads. It’s one of the strategies we’ve developed over the years to
encourage children to read. That is one of our most important
responsibilities, you see.”
We know what we’re doing, her steady gaze
told him. And I’m being very polite, aren’t I? Considering that
you, who have never been here in your life before, have presumed to
poke your head in once and start shotgunning criticisms.
Sam began to feel very much in the wrong. That
dialectical battlefield did not belong to the Lortz woman yet—at
least not entirely—but he recognized the fact that he was in
retreat.
“According to the poll, last summer’s favorite
movie among the children was A Nightmare on Elm Street, Part
5. Their favorite rock group is called Guns n’ Roses—the
runner-up was something named Ozzy Osbourne, who, I understand, has
a reputation for biting the heads off live animals during his
concerts. Their favorite novel was a paperback original called
Swan Song. It’s a horror novel by a man named Robert
McCammon. We can’t keep it in stock, Sam. They read each new copy
to rags in weeks. I had a copy put in Vinabind, but of course it
was stolen. By one of the bad children.”
Her lips pursed in a thin line.
“Runner-up was a horror novel about incest and
infanticide called Flowers in the Attic. That one was the
champ for five years running. Several of them even mentioned
Peyton Place!”
She looked at him sternly.
“I myself have never seen any of the Nightmare
on Elm Street movies. I have never heard an Ozzy Osbourne
record and have no desire to do so, nor to read a novel by Robert
McCammon, Stephen King, or V. C. Andrews. Do you see what I’m
getting at, Sam?”
“I suppose. You’re saying it wouldn’t be fair to
...” He needed a word, groped for it, and found it. “... to usurp
the children’s tastes.”
She smiled radiantly—everything but the eyes, which
seemed to have nickels in them again.
“That’s part of it, but that’s not
all of it. The posters in the Children’s Library—both the
nice, uncontroversial ones and the ones which put you off—came to
us from the Iowa Library Association. The ILA is a member of the
Midwest Library Association, and that is, in turn, a member of The
National Library Association, which gets the majority of its
funding from tax money. From John Q. Public—which is to say from
me. And you.”
Sam shifted from one foot to the other. He didn’t
want to spend the afternoon listening to a lecture on How Your
Library Works for You, but hadn’t he invited it? He supposed so.
The only thing he was absolutely sure of was that he was liking
Ardelia Lortz less and less all the time.
“The Iowa Library Association sends us a sheet
every other month, with reproductions of about forty posters,” Ms.
Lortz continued relentlessly. “We can pick any five free; extras
cost three dollars each. I see you’re getting restless, Sam, but
you do deserve an explanation, and we are finally reaching the nub
of the matter.”
“Me? I’m not restless,” Sam said restlessly.
She smiled at him, revealing teeth too even to be
anything but dentures. “We have a Children’s Library Committee,”
she said. “Who is on it? Why, children, of course! Nine of them.
Four high-school students, three middle-school students, and two
grammar-school students. Each child has to have an overall B
average in his schoolwork to qualify. They pick some of the new
books we order, they picked the new drapes and tables when we
redecorated last fall ... and, of course, they pick the posters.
That is, as one of our younger Committeemen once put it, ‘the
funnest part.’ Now do you understand?”
“Yes,” Sam said. “The kids picked out Little Red
Riding Hood, and Simple Simon, and the Library Policeman. They like
them because they’re scary.”
“Correct!” she beamed.
Suddenly he’d had enough. It was something about
the Library. Not the posters, not the librarian, exactly, but the
Library itself. Suddenly the Library was like an aggravating,
infuriating splinter jammed deep in one buttock. Whatever it was,
it was ... enough.
“Ms. Lortz, do you keep a videotape of A
Nightmare on Elm Street, Part 5, in the Children’s Library? Or
a selection of albums by Guns n’ Roses and Ozzy Osbourne?”
“Sam, you miss the point,” she began
patiently.
“What about Peyton Place? Do you keep a copy
of that in the Children’s Library just because some of the kids
have read it?”
Even as he was speaking, he thought, Does
ANYBODY still read that old thing?
“No,” she said, and he saw that an ill-tempered
flush was rising in her cheeks. This was not a woman who was used
to having her judgments called into question. “But we do keep
stories about housebreaking, parental abuse, and burglary. I am
speaking, of course, of ‘Goldilocks and the Three Bears,’ ‘Hansel
and Gretel,’ and ‘Jack and the Beanstalk.’ I expected a man such as
yourself to be a little more understanding, Sam.”
A man you helped out in a pinch is what you
mean, Sam thought, but what the hell, lady—isn’t that what the town
pays you to do?
Then he got hold of himself. He didn’t know exactly
what she meant by “a man such as himself,” wasn’t sure he
wanted to know, but he did understand that this discussion
was on the edge of getting out of hand—of becoming an argument. He
had come in here to find a little tenderizer to sprinkle over his
speech, not to get in a hassle about the Children’s Library with
the head librarian.
“I apologize if I’ve said anything to offend you,”
he said, “and I really ought to be going.”
“Yes,” she said. “I think you ought.” Your
apology is not accepted, her eyes telegraphed. It is not
accepted at all.
“I suppose,” he said, “that I’m a little nervous
about my speaking debut. And I was up late last night working on
this.” He smiled his old good-natured Sam Peebles smile and hoisted
the briefcase.
She stood down—a little—but her eyes were still
snapping. “That’s understandable. We are here to serve, and, of
course, we’re always interested in constructive criticism from the
taxpayers.” She accented the word constructive ever so
slightly, to let him know, he supposed, that his had been anything
but.
Now that it was over, he had an urge—almost a
need—to make it all over, to smooth it down like the coverlet on a
well-made bed. And this was also part of the businessman’s habit,
he supposed ... or the businessman’s protective coloration. An odd
thought occurred to him—that what he should really talk about
tonight was his encounter with Ardelia Lortz. It said more about
the small-town heart and spirit than his whole written speech. Not
all of it was flattering, but it surely wasn’t dry. And it would
offer a sound rarely heard during Friday-night Rotary speeches: the
unmistakable ring of truth.
“Well, we got a little feisty there for a second or
two,” he heard himself saying, and saw his hand go out. “I expect I
overstepped my bounds. I hope there are no hard feelings.”
She touched his hand. It was a brief, token touch.
Cool, smooth flesh. Unpleasant, somehow. Like shaking hands with an
umbrella stand. “None at all,” she said, but her eyes continued to
tell a different story.
“Well then ... I’ll be getting along.”
“Yes. Remember—one week on those, Sam.” She lifted
a finger. Pointed a well-manicured nail at the books he was
holding. And smiled. Sam found something extremely disturbing about
that smile, but he could not for the life of him have said exactly
what it was. “I wouldn’t want to have to send the Library Cop after
you.”
“No,” Sam agreed. “I wouldn’t want that,
either.”
“That’s right,” said Ardelia Lortz, still smiling.
“You wouldn’t.”
5
Halfway down the walk, the face of that screaming
child (Simple Simon, the kids call him Simple Simon I think
that’s very healthy, don’t you)
recurred to him, and with it came a thought—one
simple enough and practical enough to stop him in his tracks. It
was this: given a chance to pick such a poster, a jury of kids
might very well do so ... but would any Library Association,
whether from Iowa, the Midwest, or the country as a whole, actually
send one out?
Sam Peebles thought of the pleading hands plastered
against the obdurate, imprisoning glass, the screaming, agonized
mouth, and suddenly found that more than difficult to believe. He
found it impossible to believe.
And Peyton Place. What about that? He
guessed that most of the adults who used the Library had
forgotten about it. Did he really believe that some of their
children—the ones young enough to use the Children’s Library—had
rediscovered that old relic?
I don’t believe that one, either.
He had no wish to incur a second dose of Ardelia
Lortz’s anger—the first had been enough, and he’d had a feeling her
dial hadn’t been turned up to anything near full volume—but these
thoughts were strong enough to cause him to turn around.
She was gone.
The library doors stood shut, a vertical slot of
mouth in that brooding granite face.
Sam stood where he was a moment longer, then
hurried down to where his car was parked at the curb.