CHAPTER TWELVE
Pop dredged his key-ring up from his pocket,
unlocked the “special” drawer, and took out the camera, once again
being careful to hold it by the strap only. He looked with some
hope at the front of the Polaroid, thinking he might see that the
lens had been smashed in its latest tumble, hoping that the goddam
thing’s eye had been poked out, you might say, but his father had
been fond of saying that the devil’s luck is always in, and that
seemed to be the case with Kevin Delevan’s goddamned camera. The
chipped place on the thing’s side had chipped away a little more,
but that was all.
He closed the drawer and, as he turned the key, saw
the one picture he’d taken in his sleep lying face-down on the
floor. As unable not to look at it as Lot’s wife had been unable
not to turn back and look at the destruction of Sodom, he picked it
up with those blunt fingers that hid their dexterity from the world
so well and turned it over.
The dog-creature had begun its spring. Its forepaws
had barely left the ground, but along its misshapen backbone and in
the bunches of muscle under the hide with its hair like the stiff
filaments sticking out of black steel brushes he could see all that
kinetic energy beginning to release itself. Its face and head were
actually a little blurred in this photograph as its mouth yawned
wider, and drifting up from the picture, like a sound heard under
glass, he seemed to hear a low and throaty snarl beginning to rise
toward a roar. The shadow-photographer looked as if he were trying
to stumble back another pace, but what did it matter? That was
smoke jetting from the holes in the dog-thing’s muzzle, all right,
smoke, and more smoke drifting back from the hinges of its
open jaws in the little space where the croggled and ugly
stake-wall of its teeth ended, and any man would stumble back from
a horror like that, any man would try to turn and run, but
all Pop had to do was look to tell you that the man (of
course it was a man, maybe once it had been a boy, a teenage
boy, but who had the camera now?) who had taken that picture in
mere startled reflex, with a kind of wince of the finger ... that
man didn’t have a nickel’s worth of chances. That man could keep
his feet or trip over them, and all the difference it would make
would be as to how he died: while he was on his feet or while he
was on his ass.
Pop crumpled the picture between his fingers and
then stuck his key-ring back into his pocket. He turned, holding
what had been Kevin Delevan’s Polaroid Sun 660 and was now his
Polaroid Sun 660 by the strap and started toward the back of the
store; he would pause on the way just long enough to get the
sledge. And as he neared the door to the back shed, a shutterflash,
huge and white and soundless, went off not in front of his eyes but
behind them, in his brain.
He turned back, and now his eyes were as empty as
the eyes of a man who has been temporarily blinded by some bright
light. He walked past the worktable with the camera now held in his
hands at chest level, as one might carry a votive urn or some other
sort of religious offering or relic. Halfway between the worktable
and the front of the store was a bureau covered with clocks. To its
left was one of the barnlike structure’s support beams, and from a
hook planted in this there hung another clock, an imitation German
cuckoo clock. Pop grasped it by the roof and pulled it off its
hook, indifferent to the counterweights, which immediately became
entangled in one another’s chains, and to the pendulum, which
snapped off when one of the disturbed chains tried to twine around
it. The little door below the roofpeak of the clock sprang ajar;
the wooden bird poked out its beak and one startled eye. It gave a
single choked sound—kook!—as if in protest of this rough
treatment before creeping back inside again.
Pop hung the Sun by its strap on the hook where the
clock had been, then turned and moved toward the back of the store
for the second time, his eyes still blank and dazzled. He clutched
the clock by its roof, swinging it back and forth indifferently,
not hearing the cluds and clunks from inside it, or the occasional
strangled sound that might have been the bird trying to escape, not
noticing when one of the counterweights smacked the end of an old
bed, snapped off, and went rolling beneath, leaving a deep trail in
the undisturbed dust of years. He moved with the blank mindless
purpose of a robot. In the shed, he paused just long enough to pick
up the sledgehammer by its smooth shaft. With both hands thus
filled, he had to use the elbow of his left arm to knock the hook
out of the eyebolt so he could push open the shed door and walk
into the backyard.
He crossed to the chopping block and set the
imitation German cuckoo clock on it. He stood for a moment with his
head inclined down toward it, both of his hands now on the handle
of the sledge. His face remained blank, his eyes dim and dazzled,
but there was a part of his mind which not only thought clearly but
thought all of him was thinking—and acting—clearly. This part of
him saw not a cuckoo clock which hadn’t been worth much to begin
with and was now broken in the bargain; it saw Kevin’s Polaroid.
This part of his mind really believed he had come downstairs,
gotten the Polaroid from the drawer, and proceeded directly out
back, pausing only to get the sledge.
And it was this part that would do his remembering
later ... unless it became convenient for him to remember some
other truth. Or any other truth, for that matter.
Pop Merrill raised the sledgehammer over his right
shoulder and brought it down hard—not as hard as Kevin had done,
but hard enough to do the job. It struck squarely on the roof of
the imitation German cuckoo clock. The clock did not so much break
or shatter as splatter; pieces of plastic wood and little
gears and springs flew everywhere. And what that little piece of
Pop which saw would remember (unless, of course, it became
convenient to remember otherwise) were pieces of camera
splattering everywhere.
He pulled the sledge off the block and stood for a
moment with his meditating, unseeing eyes on the shambles. The
bird, which to Pop looked exactly like a film-case, a Polaroid Sun
film-case, was lying on its back with its little wooden feet
sticking straight up in the air, looking both deader than any bird
outside of a cartoon ever looked and yet somehow miraculously
unhurt at the same time. He had his look, then turned and headed
back toward the shed door.
“There,” he muttered under his breath. “Good
’nuff.”
Someone standing even very close to him might have
been unable to pick up the words themselves, but it would have been
hard to miss the unmistakable tone of relief with which they were
spoken.
“That’s done. Don’t have to worry about
that anymore. Now what’s next? Pipe-tobacco, isn’t
it?”
But when he got to the drugstore on the other side
of the block fifteen minutes later, it was not pipe-tobacco he
asked for (although that was what he would remember asking
for). He asked for film.
Polaroid film.