CHAPTER SIX
THE LIBRARY (II)
11
Halfway to the library, an idea suddenly struck
him—it was so obvious he could hardly believe it hadn’t occurred to
him already. He had lost a couple of library books; he had since
discovered they had been destroyed; he would have to pay for
them.
And that was all.
It occurred to him that Ardelia Lortz had been more
successful in getting him to think like a fourth-grader than he had
realized. When a kid lost a book, it was the end of the world;
powerless, he cringed beneath the shadow of bureaucracy and waited
for the Library Policeman to show up. But there were no
Library Police, and Sam, as an adult, knew that perfectly well.
There were only town employees like Ms. Lortz, who sometimes got
overinflated ideas of their place in the scheme of things, and
taxpayers like him, who sometimes forgot they were the dog which
wagged the tail, and not the other way around.
I’m going to go in, I’m going to apologize, and
then I’m going to ask her to send me a bill for the replacement
copies, Sam thought. And that’s all. That’s the
end.
It was so simple it was amazing.
Still feeling a little nervous and a little
embarrassed (but much more in control of this teapot tempest), Sam
parked across the street from the Library. The carriage lamps which
flanked the main entrance were on, casting soft white radiance down
the steps and across the building’s granite facade. Evening lent
the building a kindness and a welcoming air it had definitely been
lacking on his first visit—or maybe it was just that spring was
clearly on the rise now, something which had not been the case on
the overcast March day when he had first met the resident dragon.
The forbidding face of the stone robot was gone. It was just the
public library again.
Sam started to get out of the car and then stopped.
He had been granted one revelation; now he was suddenly afforded
another.
The face of the woman in Dirty Dave’s poster came
back to him, the woman with the platter of fried chicken. The one
Dave had called Sarah. That woman had looked familiar to Sam, and
all at once some obscure circuit fired off in his brain and he knew
why.
It had been Naomi Higgins.
2
He passed two kids in JCHS jackets on the steps
and caught the door before it could swing all the way closed. He
stepped into the foyer. The first thing that struck him was the
sound. The reading room beyond the marble steps was by no means
rowdy, but neither was it the smooth pit of silence which had
greeted Sam on Friday noon just over a week ago.
Well, but it’s Saturday evening now, he
thought. There are kids here, maybe studying for their midterm
exams.
But would Ardelia Lortz condone such chatter, muted
as it was? The answer seemed to be yes, judging from the sound, but
it surely didn’t seem in character.
The second thing had to do with that single mute
adjuration which had been mounted on the easel.
was gone. In its place was a picture of Thomas Jefferson. Below it
was this quotation:
SILENCE!
“I cannot live without books. ” —Thomas
Jefferson (in a letter to John Adams) June 10th, 1815
Sam studied this for a moment, thinking that it
changed the whole flavor in one’s mouth as one prepared to enter
the library.
induced feelings of trepidation and disquiet (what if one’s belly
was rumbling, for instance, or if one felt an attack of not
necessarily silent flatulence might be imminent?).
on the other hand, induced feelings of pleasure and anticipation—it
made one feel as hungry men and women feel when the food is finally
arriving.
SILENCE!
“I cannot live without books, ”
Puzzling over how such a small thing could make
such an essential difference, Sam entered the Library ... and
stopped dead.
3
It was much brighter in the main room than it had
been on his first visit, but that was only one of the changes. The
ladders which had stretched up to the dim reaches of the upper
shelves were gone. There was no need of them, because the ceiling
was now only eight or nine feet above the floor instead of thirty
or forty. If you wanted to take a book from one of the higher
shelves, all you needed was one of the stools which were scattered
about. The magazines were placed in an inviting fan on a wide table
by the circulation desk. The oak rack from which they had hung like
the skins of dead animals was gone. So was the sign reading
RETURN ALL MAGAZINES TO THEIR PROPER PLACES!
The shelf of new novels was still there, but the
7-DAY RENTALS sign had been replaced with one which said READ A
BEST SELLER—JUST FOR THE FUN OF IT!
People—mostly young people—came and went, talking
in low tones. Someone chuckled. It was an easy, unselfconscious
sound.
Sam looked up at the ceiling, trying desperately to
understand what in hell had happened here. The slanted skylights
were gone. The upper reaches of the room had been hidden by a
modern suspended ceiling. The old-fashioned hanging globes had been
replaced by panelled fluorescent lighting set into the new
ceiling.
A woman on her way up to the main desk with a
handful of mystery novels followed Sam’s gaze up to the ceiling,
saw nothing unusual there, and looked curiously at Sam instead. One
of the boys sitting at a long desk to the right of the magazine
table nudged his fellows and pointed Sam out. Another tapped his
temple and they all snickered.
Sam noticed neither the stares nor the snickers. He
was unaware that he was simply standing in the entrance to the main
reading room, gawking up at the ceiling with his mouth open. He was
trying to get this major change straight in his mind.
Well, they’ve put in a suspended ceiling since
you were here last. So what? It’s probably more
heat-efficient.
Yes, but the Lortz woman never said anything
about changes.
No, but why would she say anything to him? Sam was
hardly a library regular, was he?
She should have been upset, though. She struck
me as a rock-ribbed traditionalist. She wouldn’t like this. Not at
all.
That was true, but there was something else,
something even more troubling. Putting in a suspended ceiling was a
major renovation. Sam didn’t see how it could have been
accomplished in just a week. And what about the high shelves, and
all the books which had been on them? Where had the shelves gone?
Where had the books gone?
Other people were looking at Sam now; even one of
the library assistants was staring at him from the other side of
the circulation desk. Most of the lively, hushed chatter in the big
room had stilled.
Sam rubbed his eyes—actually rubbed his eyes—and
looked up at the suspended ceiling with its inset fluorescent
squares again. It was still there.
I’m in the wrong libary! he thought wildly.
That’s what it is!
His confused mind first jumped at this idea and
then backed away again, like a kitten that has been tricked into
pouncing on a shadow. Junction City was fairly large by central
Iowa standards, with a population of thirty-five thousand or so,
but it was ridiculous to think it could support two libraries.
Besides, the location of the building and the configuration of the
room were right ... it was just everything else that was
wrong.
Sam wondered for just a moment if he might be going
insane, and then dismissed the thought. He looked around and
noticed for the first time that everyone had stopped what they were
doing. They were all looking at him. He felt a momentary, mad urge
to say, “Go back to what you were doing—I was just noticing that
the whole library is different this week.” Instead, he sauntered
over to the magazine table and picked up a copy of U.S. News
& World Report. He began leafing through it with a show of
great interest, and watched out of the comers of his eyes as the
people in the room went back to what they had been doing.
When he felt that he could move without attracting
undue attention, Sam replaced the magazine on the table and
sauntered toward the Children’s Library. He felt a little like a
spy crossing enemy territory. The sign over the door was exactly
the same, gold letters on warm dark oak, but the poster was
different. Little Red Riding Hood at the moment of her terrible
realization had been replaced by Donald Duck’s nephews, Huey,
Dewey, and Louie. They were wearing bathing trunks and diving into
a swimming pool filled with books. The tag-line beneath read:
COME ON IN! THE READING’S FINE!
“What’s going on here?” Sam muttered. His
heart had begun to beat too fast; he could feel a fine sweat
breaking out on his arms and back. If it had been just the poster,
he could have assumed that La Lortz had been fired ... but it
wasn’t just the poster. It was everything.
He opened the door of the Children’s Library and
peeked inside. He saw the same agreeable small world with its low
tables and chairs, the same bright-blue curtains, the same water
fountain mounted on the wall. Only now the suspended ceiling in
here matched the suspended ceiling in the main reading room, and
all the posters had been changed. The screaming child in the black
sedan (Simple Simon they call him Simple Simon they feel
contempt for him I think that’s very healthy, don’t you)
was gone, and so was the Library Policeman with his
trenchcoat and his strange star of many points. Sam drew back,
turned around, and walked slowly to the main circulation desk. He
felt as if his whole body had turned to glass.
Two library assistants—a college-age boy and
girl—watched him approach. Sam was not too upset himself to see
that they looked a trifle nervous.
Be careful. No ... be NORMAL. They already think
you’re halfway to being nuts.
He suddenly thought of Lukey and a horrible,
destructive impulse tried to seize him. He could see himself
opening his mouth and yelling at these two nervous young people,
demanding at the top of his voice that they give him a few Slim
Fucking Slim Jims, because that was chow, that was chow, that was
chow-de-dow.
He spoke in a calm, low voice instead.
“Perhaps you could help me. I need to speak to the
librarian.”
“Gee, I’m sorry,” the girl said. “Mr. Price doesn’t
come in on Saturday nights.”
Sam glanced down at the desk. As on his previous
trip to the library, there was a small name-plaque standing next to
the microfilm recorder, but it no longer said
A. LORTZ.
Now it said
MR. PRICE.
In his mind he heard Naomi say, Tall man?
About fifty? “No,” he said. “Not Mr. Price. Not Mr. Peckham,
either. The other one. Ardelia Lortz.”
The boy and girl exchanged a puzzled glance. “No
one named Ardelia Lord works here,” the boy said. “You must be
thinking of some other library.”
“Not Lord,” Sam told them. His voice seemed to be
coming from a great distance. “Lortz.”
“No,” the girl said. “You really must be mistaken,
sir.”
They were starting to look cautious again, and
although Sam felt like insisting, telling them of course
Ardelia Lortz worked here, he had met her only eight days
ago, he made himself pull back. And in a way, it all made
perfect sense, didn’t it? It was perfect sense within a framework
of utter lunacy, granted, but that didn’t change the fact that the
interior logic was intact. Like the posters, the skylights, and the
magazine rack, Ardelia Lortz had simply ceased to exist.
Naomi spoke up again inside his head. Oh?
Miss Lortz, was it? That must have been fun.
“Naomi recognized the name,” he muttered.
Now the library assistants were looking at him with
identical expressions of consternation.
“Pardon me,” Sam said, and tried to smile. It felt
crooked on his face. “I’m having one of those days.”
“Yes,” the boy said.
“You bet,” the girl said.
They think I’m crazy, Sam thought, and do
you know what? I don’t blame them a bit.
“Was there anything else?” the boy asked.
Sam opened his mouth to say no—after which he would
beat a hasty retreat—and then changed his mind. He was in for a
penny; he might as well go in for a pound.
“How long has Mr. Price been the head
librarian?”
The two assistants exchanged another glance. The
girl shrugged. “Since we’ve been here,” she said, “but that’s not
very long, Mr.—?”
“Peebles,” Sam said, offering his hand. “Sam
Peebles. I’m sorry. My manners seem to have flown away with the
rest of my mind.”
They both relaxed a little—it was an indefinable
thing, but it was there, and it helped Sam do the same. Upset or
not, he had managed to hold onto at least some of his not
inconsiderable ability to put people at ease. A
real-estate-and-insurance salesman who couldn’t do that was a
fellow who ought to be looking for a new line of work.
“I’m Cynthia Berrigan,” she said, giving his hand a
tentative shake. “This is Tom Stanford.”
“Pleased to meet you,” Tom Stanford said. He didn’t
look entirely sure of this, but he also gave Sam’s hand a quick
shake.
“Pardon me?” the woman with the mystery novels
asked. “Could someone help me, please? I’ll be late for my bridge
game.”
“I’ll do it,” Tom told Cynthia, and walked down the
desk to check out the woman’s books.
She said, “Tom and I go to Chapelton Junior
College, Mr. Peebles. This is a work-study job. I’ve been here
three semesters now—Mr. Price hired me last spring. Tom came during
the summer.”
“Mr. Price is the only full-time employee?”
“Uh-huh.” She had lovely brown eyes and now he
could see a touch of concern in them. “Is something wrong?”
“I don’t know.” Sam looked up again. He couldn’t
help it. “Has this suspended ceiling been here since you came to
work?”
She followed his glance. “Well,” she said, “I
didn’t know that was what it’s called, but yes, it’s been this way
since I’ve been here.”
“I had an idea there were skylights, you
see.”
Cynthia smiled. “Well, sure. I mean, you can see
them from the outside, if you go around to the side of the
building. And, of course, you can see them from the stacks, but
they’re boarded over. The skylights, I mean—not the stacks. I think
they’ve been that way for years.”
For years.
“And you’ve never heard of Ardelia Lortz.”
She shook her head. “Uh-uh. Sorry.”
“What about the Library Police?” Sam asked
impulsively.
She laughed. “Only from my old aunt. She used to
tell me the Library Police would get me if I didn’t bring my books
back on time. But that was back in Providence, Rhode Island, when I
was a little girl. A long time ago.”
Sure, Sam thought. Maybe as long as ten,
twelve years ago. Back when dinosaurs walked the earth.
“Well,” he said, “thanks for the information. I
didn’t mean to freak you out.”
“You didn’t.”
“I think I did, a little. I was just confused for a
second.”
“Who is this Ardelia Lortz?” Tom Stanford asked,
coming back. “That name rings a bell, but I’ll be darned if I know
why.”
“That’s just it. I don’t really know,” Sam
said.
“Well, we’re closed tomorrow, but Mr. Price will be
in Monday afternoon and Monday evening,” he said. “Maybe he can
tell you what you want to know.”
Sam nodded. “I think I’ll come and see him.
Meantime, thanks again.”
“We’re here to help if we can,” Tom said. “I only
wish we could have helped you more, Mr. Peebles.”
“Me too,” Sam said.
4
He was okay until he got to the car, and then, as
he was unlocking the driver’s-side door, all the muscles in his
belly and legs seemed to drop dead. He had to support himself with
a hand on the roof of his car to keep from falling down while he
swung the door open. He did not really get in; he simply collapsed
behind the wheel and then sat there, breathing hard and wondering
with some alarm if he was going to faint.
What’s going on here? I feel like a character in
Rod Serling’s old show. “Submitted for your examination, one Samuel
Peebles, ex-resident of Junction City, now selling real estate and
whole life in ... the Twilight Zone.”
Yes, that was what it was like. Only watching
people cope with inexplicable happenings on TV was sort of fun. Sam
was discovering that the inexplicable lost a lot of its charm when
you were the one who had to struggle with it.
He looked across the street at the Library, where
people came and went beneath the soft glow of the carriage lamps.
The old lady with the mystery novels was headed off down the
street, presumably bound for her bridge game. A couple of girls
were coming down the steps, talking and laughing together, books
held to their blooming chests. Everything looked perfectly normal
... and of course it was. The abnormal Library had been the
one he had entered a week ago. The only reason the oddities hadn’t
struck him more forcibly, he supposed, was because his mind had
been on that damned speech of his.
Don’t think about it, he instructed himself,
although he was afraid that this was going to be one of those times
when his mind simply wouldn’t take instruction. Do a Scarlett
O’Hara and think about it tomorrow. Once the sun is up, all this
will make a lot more sense.
He put the car in gear and thought about it all the
way home.