CHAPTER ELEVEN
Kevin wished his first visit to the
two-dimensional town of Polaroidsville had also been his last visit
there, but that was not the case. During the thirteen nights since
the first one, he’d had the dream more and more often. If the dumb
dream happened to take the night off—little vacation, Kev, but
seeya soon, okay?—he was apt to have it twice the next night.
Now he always knew it was a dream, and as soon as it started he
would tell himself that all he had to do was wake himself up,
dammit, just wake yourself up! Sometimes he did wake up, and
sometimes the dream just faded back into deeper sleep, but he never
succeeded in waking himself up.
It was always Polaroidsville now—never Oatley or
Hildasville, those first two efforts of his fumbling mind to
identify the place. And like the photograph, each dream took the
action just a little bit further. First the man with the
shopping-cart, which was never empty now even to start with but
filled with a jumble of objects ... mostly clocks, but all from the
Emporium Galorium, and all with the eerie look not of real things
but rather of photographs of real things which had been cut
out of magazines and then somehow, impossibly, paradoxically,
stuffed into a shopping-cart, which, since it was as
two-dimensional as the objects themselves, had no breadth in which
to store them. Yet there they were, and the old man hunched
protectively over them and told Kevin to get out, that he was a
fushing feef ... only now he also told Kevin that if he
didn’t get out, “I’ll sic Pop’s dawg on you! Fee if I
don’t!”
The fat woman who couldn’t be fat since she was
perfectly flat but who was fat anyway came next. She appeared
pushing her own shopping-cart filled with Polaroid Sun cameras. She
also spoke to him before he passed her. “Be careful, boy,” she’d
say in the loud but toneless voice of one who is utterly deaf,
“Pop’s dog broke his leash and he’s a mean un. He tore up three or
four people at the Trenton Farm in Camberville before he came here.
It’s hard to take his pitcher, but you can’t do it at all, ‘less
you have a cam’ra.”
She would bend to get one, would sometimes get as
far as holding it out, and he would reach for the camera, not
knowing why the woman would think he should take the dog’s picture
or why he’d want to ... or maybe he was just trying to be
polite?
Either way, it made no difference. They both moved
with the stately slowness of underwater swimmers, as dream-people
so often do, and they always just missed making connections; when
Kevin thought of this part of the dream, he often thought of the
famous picture of God and Adam which Michelangelo had painted on
the ceiling of the Sistine Chapel: each of them with an arm
outstretched, and each with the hand at the end of the arm also
outstretched, and the forefingers almost—not quite, but
almost—touching.
Then she would disappear for a moment because she
had no width, and when she reappeared again she was out of reach.
Well just go back to her, then, Kevin would think each time
the dream reached this point, but he couldn’t. His feet carried him
heedlessly and serenely onward to the peeling white picket fence
and Pop and the dog ... only the dog was no longer a dog but some
horrible mixed thing that gave off heat and smoke like a dragon and
had the teeth and twisted, scarred snout of a wild pig. Pop and the
Sun dog would turn toward him at the same time, and Pop would have
the camera—his camera, Kevin knew, because there was a piece
chipped out of the side—up to his right eye. His left eye was
squinted shut. His rimless spectacles glinted on top of his head in
hazy sunlight. Pop and the Sun dog had all three dimensions. They
were the only things in this seedy, creepy little dreamtown that
did.
“He’s the one!” Pop cried in a shrill, fearful
voice. “He’s the thief! Sic em, boy! Pull his fuckin guts out is
what I mean to say!”
And as he screamed out this last, heatless
lightning flashed in the day as Pop triggered the shutter and the
flash, and Kevin turned to run. The dream had stopped here the
second time he had had it. Now, on each subsequent occasion, things
went a little further. Again he was moving with the aquatic
slowness of a performer in an underwater ballet. He felt that, if
he had been outside himself, he would even have looked like
a dancer, his arms turning like the blades of a propeller just
starting up, his shirt twisting with his body, pulling taut across
his chest and his belly at the same time he heard the shirt’s tail
pulling free of his pants at the small of his back with a magnified
rasp like sandpaper.
Then he was running back the way he came, each foot
rising slowly and then floating dreamily (of course
dreamily, what else, you fool? he would think at this point every
time) back down until it hit the cracked and listless cement of the
sidewalk, the soles of his tennis shoes flattening as they took his
weight and spanking up small clouds of grit moving so slowly that
he could see the individual particles revolving like atoms.
He ran slowly, yes, of course, and the Sun dog,
nameless stray Grendel of a thing that came from nowhere and
signified nothing and had all the sense of a cyclone but existed
nevertheless, chased him slowly ... but not quite as
slowly.
On the third night, the dream faded into normal
sleep just as Kevin began to turn his head in that dragging,
maddening slow motion to see how much of a lead he had on the dog.
It then skipped a night. On the following night it returned—twice.
In the first dream he got his head halfway around so he could see
the street on his left disappearing into limbo behind him as he ran
along it; in the second (and from this one his alarm-clock woke
him, sweating lightly in a crouched fetal position on the far side
of the bed) he got his head turned enough to see the dog just as
its forepaws came down in his own tracks, and he saw the paws were
digging crumbly little craters in the cement because they had
sprouted claws ... and from the back of each lower leg-joint there
protruded a long thorn of bone that looked like a spur. The thing’s
muddy reddish eye was locked on Kevin. Dim fire blew and dripped
from its nostrils. Jesus, Jesus Christ, its SNOT’S on fire,
Kevin thought, and when he woke he was horrified to hear himself
whispering it over and over, very rapidly: “... snot’s on fire,
snot’s on fire, snot’s on fire.”
Night by night the dog gained on him as he fled
down the sidewalk. Even when he wasn’t turning to look he could
hear the Sun dog gaining. He was aware of a spread of warmth
from his crotch and knew he was in enough fear to have wet himself,
although the emotion came through in the same diluted, numbed way
he seemed to have to move in this world. He could hear the Sun
dog’s paws striking the cement, could hear the dry crack and squall
of the cement breaking. He could hear the hot blurts of its breath,
the suck of air flowing in past those outrageous teeth.
And on the night Pop woke up to find he had not
only walked in his sleep but taken at least one picture in it,
Kevin felt as well as heard the Sun dog’s breath for the first
time: a warm rush of air on his buttocks like the sultry suck of
wind a subway on an express run pulls through a station where it
needn’t stop. He knew the dog was close enough to spring on his
back now, and that would come next; he would feel one more breath,
this one not just warm but hot, as hot as acute indigestion in your
throat, and then that crooked living bear-trap of a mouth would
sink deep into the flesh of his back, between the shoulderblades,
ripping the skin and meat off his spine, and did he think this was
really just a dream? Did he?
He awoke from this last one just as Pop was gaining
the top of the stairs to his apartment and resting one final time
before going inside back to bed. This time Kevin woke sitting bolt
upright, the sheet and blanket which had been over him puddled
around his waist, his skin covered with sweat and yet
freezing, a million stiff little white goose-pimples
standing out all over his belly, chest, back, and arms like
stigmata. Even his cheeks seemed to crawl with them.
And what he thought about was not the dream, or at
least not directly; he thought instead: It’s wrong, the number
is wrong, it says three but it can’t—
Then he flopped back and, in the way of children
(for even at fifteen most of him was still a child and would be
until later that day), he fell into a deep sleep again.
The alarm woke him at seven-thirty, as it always
did on school mornings, and he found himself sitting up in bed
again, wide-eyed, every piece suddenly in place. The Sun he had
smashed hadn’t been his Sun, and that was why he kept having this
same crazy dream over and over and over again. Pop Merrill, that
kindly old crackerbarrel philosopher and repairer of cameras and
clocks and small appliances, had euchered him and his father as
neatly and competently as a riverboat gambler does the tenderfeet
in an old Western movie.
His father—!
He heard the door downstairs slam shut and leaped
out of bed. He took two running strides toward the door in his
underwear, thought better of it, turned, yanked the window up, and
hollered “Dad!” just as his father was folding himself into
the car to go to work.