CHAPTER ONE
September 15th was Kevin’s birthday, and he got
exactly what he wanted: a Sun.
The Kevin in question was Kevin Delevan, the
birthday was his fifteenth, and the Sun was a Sun 660, a Polaroid
camera which does everything for the novice photographer except
make bologna sandwiches.
There were other gifts, of course; his
sister, Meg, gave him a pair of mittens she had knitted herself,
there was ten dollars from his grandmother in Des Moines, and his
Aunt Hilda sent—as she always did—a string tie with a horrible
clasp. She had sent the first of these when Kevin was three, which
meant he already had twelve unused string ties with horrible clasps
in a drawer of his bureau, to which this would be added—lucky
thirteen. He had never worn any of them but was not allowed to
throw them away. Aunt Hilda lived in Portland. She had never come
to one of Kevin’s or Meg’s birthday parties, but she might decide
to do just that one of these years. God knew she could;
Portland was only fifty miles south of Castle Rock. And suppose she
did come ... and asked to see Kevin in one of his
other ties (or Meg in one of her other scarves, for that
matter)? With some relatives, an excuse might do. Aunt Hilda,
however, was different. Aunt Hilda presented a certain golden
possibility at a point where two essential facts about her crossed:
she was Rich, and she was Old.
Someday, Kevin’s Mom was convinced, she might DO
SOMETHING for Kevin and Meg. It was understood that the SOMETHING
would probably come after Aunt Hilda finally kicked it, in the form
of a clause in her will. In the meantime, it was thought wise to
keep the horrible string ties and the equally horrible scarves. So
this thirteenth string tie (on the clasp of which was a bird Kevin
thought was a woodpecker) would join the others, and Kevin would
write Aunt Hilda a thank-you note, not because his mother would
insist on it and not because he thought or even cared that Aunt
Hilda might Do SOMETHING for him and his kid sister someday, but
because he was a generally thoughtful boy with good habits and no
real vices.
He thanked his family for all his gifts (his mother
and father had, of course, supplied a number of lesser ones,
although the Polaroid was clearly the centerpiece, and they were
delighted with his delight), not forgetting to give Meg a
kiss (she giggled and pretended to rub it off but her own delight
was equally clear) and to tell her he was sure the mittens would
come in handy on the ski team this winter—but most of his attention
was reserved for the Polaroid box, and the extra film packs which
had come with it.
He was a good sport about the birthday cake and the
ice cream, although it was clear he was itching to get at the
camera and try it out. And as soon as he decently could, he
did.
That was when the trouble started.
He read the instruction booklet as thoroughly as
his eagerness to begin would allow, then loaded the camera while
the family watched with anticipation and unacknowledged dread (for
some reason, the gifts which seem the most wanted are the ones
which so often don’t work). There was a little collective sigh—more
puff than gust—when the camera obediently spat out the cardboard
square on top of the film packet, just as the instruction booklet
had promised it would.
There were two small dots, one red and one green,
separated by a zig-zag lightning-bolt on the housing of the camera.
When Kevin loaded the camera, the red light came on. It stayed on
for a couple of seconds. The family watched in silent fascination
as the Sun 660 sniffed for light. Then the red light went out and
the green light began to blink rapidly.
“It’s ready,” Kevin said, in the same
straining-to-be-offhand-but-not-quite-making-it tone with which
Neil Arm-strong had reported his first step upon the surface of
Luna. “Why don’t all you guys stand together?”
“I hate having my picture taken!” Meg cried,
covering her face with the theatrical anxiety and pleasure which
only sub-teenage girls and really bad actresses can manage.
“Come on, Meg,” Mr. Delevan said.
“Don’t be a goose, Meg,” Mrs. Delevan said.
Meg dropped her hands (and her objections), and the
three of them stood at the end of the table with the diminished
birthday cake in the foreground.
Kevin looked through the viewfinder. “Squeeze a
little closer to Meg, Mom,” he said, motioning with his left hand.
“You too, Dad.” This time he motioned with his right.
“You’re squishing me!” Meg said to her
parents.
Kevin put his finger on the button which would fire
the camera, then remembered a briefly glimpsed note in the
instructions about how easy it was to cut off your subjects’ heads
in a photograph. Off with their heads, he thought, and it
should have been funny, but for some reason he felt a little tingle
at the base of his spine, gone and forgotten almost before it was
noticed. He raised the camera a little. There. They were all in the
frame. Good.
“Okay!” he sang. “Smile and say Intercourse!”
“Kevin!” his mother cried out.
His father burst out laughing, and Meg screeched
the sort of mad laughter not even bad actresses often essay; girls
between the ages of ten and twelve own sole title to that
particular laugh.
Kevin pushed the button.
The flashbulb, powered by the battery in the film
pack, washed the room in a moment of righteous white light.
It’s mine, Kevin thought, and it should have
been the surpassing moment of his fifteenth birthday. Instead, the
thought brought back that odd little tingle. It was more noticeable
this time.
The camera made a noise, something between a squeal
and a whirr, a sound just a little beyond description but familiar
enough to most people, just the same: the sound of a Polaroid
camera squirting out what may not be art but what is often
serviceable and almost always provides instant gratification.
“Lemme see it!” Meg cried.
“Hold your horses, muffin,” Mr. Delevan said. “They
take a little time to develop.”
Meg was staring at the stiff gray surface of what
was not yet a photograph with the rapt attention of a woman gazing
into a crystal ball.
The rest of the family gathered around, and there
was that same feeling of anxiety which had attended the ceremony of
Loading the Camera: still life of the American Family waiting to
let out its breath.
Kevin felt a terrible tenseness stealing into his
muscles, and this time there was no question of ignoring it. He
could not explain it ... but it was there. He could not seem to
take his eyes from that solid gray square within the white frame
which would form the borders of the photograph.
“I think I see me!” Meg cried brightly. Then, a
moment later: “No. I guess I don’t. I think I see—”
They watched in utter silence as the gray cleared,
as the mists are reputed to do in a seer’s crystal when the
vibrations or feelings or whatever they are are right, and the
picture became visible to them.
Mr. Delevan was the first to break the
silence.
“What is this?” he asked no one in particular.
“Some kind of joke?”
Kevin had absently put the camera down rather too
close to the edge of the table in order to watch the picture
develop. Meg saw what the picture was and took a single step away.
The expression on her face was neither fright nor awe but just
ordinary surprise. One of her hands came up as she turned toward
her father. The rising hand struck the camera and knocked it off
the table and onto the floor. Mrs. Delevan had been looking at the
emerging picture in a kind of trance, the expression on her face
either that of a woman who is deeply puzzled or who is feeling the
onset of a migraine headache. The sound of the camera hitting the
floor startled her. She uttered a little scream and recoiled. In
doing this, she tripped over Meg’s foot and lost her balance. Mr.
Delevan reached for her, propelling Meg, who was still between
them, forward again, quite forcefully. Mr. Delevan not only caught
his wife, but did so with some grace; for a moment they would have
made a pretty picture indeed: Mom and Dad, showing they still know
how to Cut A Rug, caught at the end of a spirited tango, she with
one hand thrown up and her back deeply bowed, he bent over her in
that ambiguous male posture which may be seen, when divorced from
circumstance, as either solicitude or lust.
Meg was eleven, and less graceful. She went flying
back toward the table and smacked into it with her stomach. The hit
was hard enough to have injured her, but for the last year and a
half she had been taking ballet lessons at the YWCA three
afternoons a week. She did not dance with much grace, but she
enjoyed ballet, and the dancing had fortunately toughened the
muscles of her stomach enough for them to absorb the blow as
efficiently as good shock absorbers absorb the pounding a road full
of potholes can administer to a car. Still, there was a band of
black and blue just above her hips the next day. These bruises took
almost two weeks to first purple, then yellow, then fade ... like a
Polaroid picture in reverse.
At the moment this Rube Goldberg accident happened,
she didn’t even feel it; she simply banged into the table and cried
out. The table tipped. The birthday cake, which should have been in
the foreground of Kevin’s first picture with his new camera, slid
off the table. Mrs. Delevan didn’t even have time to start her Meg,
are you all right? before the remaining half of the cake
fell on top of the Sun 660 with a juicy splat! that sent
frosting all over their shoes and the baseboard of the wall.
The viewfinder, heavily smeared with Dutch
chocolate, peered out like a periscope. That was all.
Happy birthday, Kevin.
Kevin and Mr. Delevan were sitting on the couch in
the living room that evening when Mrs. Delevan came in, waving two
dog-eared sheets of paper which had been stapled together. Kevin
and Mr. Delevan both had open books in their laps (The Best and
the Brightest for the father; Shoot-Out at Lare-
do for the son), but what they were mostly
doing was staring at the Sun camera, which sat in disgrace on the
coffee table amid a litter of Polaroid pictures. All the pictures
appeared to show exactly the same thing.
Meg was sitting on the floor in front of them,
using the VCR to watch a rented movie. Kevin wasn’t sure which one
it was, but there were a lot of people running around and
screaming, so he guessed it was a horror picture. Megan had a
passion for them. Both parents considred this a low taste (Mr.
Delevan in particular was often outraged by what he called “that
useless junk”), but tonight neither of them had said a word. Kevin
guessed they were just grateful she had quit complaining about her
bruised stomach and wondering aloud what the exact symptoms of a
ruptured spleen might be.
“Here they are,” Mrs. Delevan said. “I found them
at the bottom of my purse the second time through.” She handed the
papers—a sales slip from J. C. Penney’s and a MasterCard receipt—to
her husband. “I can never find anything like this the first time. I
don’t think anyone can. It’s like a law of nature.”
She surveyed her husband and son, hands on her
hips.
“You two look like someone just killed the family
cat.”
“We don’t have a cat,” Kevin said.
“Well, you know what I mean. It’s a shame, of
course, but we’ll get it sorted out in no time. Penney’s will be
happy to exchange it—”
“I’m not so sure of that,” John Delevan said. He
picked up the camera, looked at it with distaste (almost sneered at
it, in fact), and then set it down again. “It got chipped when it
hit the floor. See?”
Mrs. Delevan took only a cursory glance. “Well, if
Penney’s won’t, I’m positive that the Polaroid company will. I
mean, the fall obviously didn’t cause whatever is wrong with it.
The first picture looked just like all these, and Kevin took that
one before Meg knocked it off the table.”
“I didn’t mean to,” Meg said without turning
around. On the screen, a pint-sized figure—a malevolent doll named
Chucky, if Kevin had it right—was chasing a small boy. Chucky was
dressed in blue overalls and waving a knife.
“I know, dear. How’s your stomach?”
“Hurts,” Meg said. “A little ice cream might help.
Is there any left over?”
“Yes, I think so.”
Meg gifted her mother with her most winning smile.
“Would you get some for me?”
“Not at all,” Mrs. Delevan said pleasantly. “Get it
yourself. And what’s that horrible thing you’re watching?”
“Child’s Play,” Megan said. “There’s
this doll named Chucky that comes to life. It’s neat.”
Mrs. Delevan wrinkled her nose.
“Dolls don’t come to life, Meg,” her father said.
He spoke heavily, as if knowing this was a lost cause.
“Chucky did,” Meg said. “In movies, anything can
happen.” She used the remote control to freeze the movie and went
to get her ice cream.
“Why does she want to watch that crap?” Mr. Delevan
asked his wife, almost plaintively.
“I don’t know, dear.”
Kevin had picked up the camera in one hand and
several of the exposed Polaroids in the other—they had taken almost
a dozen in all. “I’m not so sure I want a refund,” he
said.
His father stared at him. “What? Jesus
wept!”
“Well,” Kevin said, a little defensively, “I’m just
saying that maybe we ought to think about it. I mean, it’s not
exactly an ordinary defect, is it? I mean, if the pictures came out
overexposed ... or underexposed ... or just plain blank ... that
would be one thing. But how do you get a thing like this? The same
picture, over and over? I mean, look! And they’re outdoors, even
though we took every one of these pictures inside!”
“It’s a practical joke,” his father said. “It must
be. The thing to do is just exchange the damned thing and forget
about it.”
“I don’t think it’s a practical joke,” Kevin said.
“First, it’s too complicated to be a practical joke. How do
you rig a camera to take the same picture over and over? Plus, the
psychology is all wrong.”
“Psychology, yet,” Mr. Delevan said, rolling his
eyes at his wife.
“Yes, psychology!” Kevin replied firmly. “When a
guy loads your cigarette or hands you a stick of pepper gum, he
hangs around to watch the fun, doesn’t he? But unless you or Mom
have been pulling my leg—”
“Your father isn’t much of a leg-puller, dear,”
Mrs. Delevan said, stating the obvious gently.
Mr. Delevan was looking at Kevin with his lips
pressed together. It was the look he always got when he perceived
his son drifting toward that area of the ballpark where Kevin
seemed most at home: left field. Far left field. There was a
hunchy, intuitive streak in Kevin that had always puzzled and
confounded him. He didn’t know where it had come from, but he was
sure it hadn’t been his side of the family.
He sighed and looked at the camera again. A piece
of black plastic had been chipped from the left side of the
housing, and there was a crack, surely no thicker than a human
hair, down the center of the viewfinder lens. The crack was so thin
it disappeared completely when you raised the camera to your eye to
set the shot you would not get—what you would get was on the coffee
table, and there were nearly a dozen other examples in the dining
room.
What you got was something that looked like a
refugee from the local animal shelter.
“All right, what in the devil are you going to do
with it?” he asked. “I mean, let’s think this over reasonably,
Kevin. What practical good is a camera that takes the same picture
over and over?”
But it was not practical good Kevin was thinking
about. In fact, he was not thinking at all. He was feeling ... and
remembering. In the instant when he had pushed the shutter release,
one clear idea
(it’s mine)
had filled his mind as completely as the momentary
white flash had filled his eyes. That idea, complete yet somehow
inexplicable, had been accompanied by a powerful mixture of
emotions which he could still not identify completely ... but he
thought fear and excitement had predominated.
And besides—his father always wanted to look
at things reasonably. He would never be able to understand Kevin’s
intuitions or Meg’s interest in killer dolls named Chucky.
Meg came back in with a huge dish of ice cream and
started the movie again. Someone was now attempting to toast Chucky
with a blowtorch, but he went right on waving his knife. “Are you
two still arguing?”
“We’re having a discussion,” Mr. Delevan said. His
lips were pressed more tightly together than ever.
“Yeah, right,” Meg said, sitting down on the floor
again and crossing her legs. “You always say that.”
“Meg?” Kevin said kindly.
“What?”
“If you dump that much ice cream on top of a
ruptured spleen, you’ll die horribly in the night. Of course, your
spleen might not actually be ruptured, but—”
Meg stuck her tongue out at him and turned back to
the movie.
Mr. Delevan was looking at his son with an
expression of mingled affection and exasperation. “Look, Kev—it’s
your camera. No argument about that. You can do whatever you want
with it. But—”
“Dad, aren’t you even the least bit interested in
why it’s doing what it’s doing?”
“Nope,” John Delevan said.
It was Kevin’s turn to roll his eyes. Meanwhile,
Mrs. Delevan was looking from one to the other like someone who is
enjoying a pretty good tennis match. Nor was this far from the
truth. She had spent years watching her son and her husband sharpen
themselves on each other, and she was not bored with it yet. She
sometimes wondered if they would ever discover how much alike they
really were.
“Well, I want to think it over.”
“Fine. I just want you to know that I can
swing by Penney’s tomorrow and exchange the thing—if you want me to
and they agree to swap a piece of chipped merchandise, that is. If
you want to keep it, that’s fine, too. I wash my hands of it.” He
dusted his palms briskly together to illustrate.
“I suppose you don’t want my opinion,” Meg
said.
“Right,” Kevin said.
“Of course we do, Meg,” Mrs. Delevan said.
“I think it’s a supernatural camera,” Meg
said. She licked ice cream from her spoon. “I think it’s a
Manifestation.”
“That’s utterly ridiculous,” Mr. Delevan said at
once.
“No, it’s not,” Meg said. “It happens to be the
only explanation that fits. You just don’t think so because you
don’t believe in stuff like that. If a ghost ever floated up to
you, Dad, you wouldn’t even see it. What do you think, Kev?”
For a moment Kevin didn‘t—couldn’t—answer. He felt
as if another flashbulb had gone off, this one behind his eyes
instead of in front of them.
“Kev? Earth to Kevin!”
“I think you might just have something there,
squirt,” he said slowly.
“Oh my dear God,” John Delevan said, getting up.
“It’s the revenge of Freddy and Jason—my kid thinks his birthday
camera’s haunted. I’m going to bed, but before I do, I want to say
just one more thing. A camera that takes photographs of the same
thing over and over again—especially something as ordinary as
what’s in these pictures—is a boring manifestation of
the supernatural.”
“Still ...” Kevin said. He held up the photos like
a dubious poker hand.
“I think it’s time we all went to bed,” Mrs.
Delevan said briskly. “Meg, if you absolutely need to finish that
cinematic masterpiece, you can do it in the morning.”
“But it’s almost over!” Meg cried.
“I’ll come up with her, Mom,” Kevin said, and,
fifteen minutes later, with the malevolent Chucky disposed of (at
least until the sequel), he did. But sleep did not come easily for
Kevin that night. He lay long awake in his bedroom, listening to a
strong late-summer wind rustle the leaves outside into whispery
conversation, thinking about what might make a camera take the same
picture over and over and over again, and what such a thing might
mean. He only began to slip toward sleep when he realized his
decision had been made: he would keep the Polaroid Sun at least a
little while longer.
It’s mine, he thought again. He rolled over
on his side, closed his eyes, and was sleeping deeply forty seconds
later.