Chapter 19

Had Elizabeth’s opinion been all drawn from her
own family, she could not have formed a very pleasing picture of
conjugal felicity or domestic comfort. Her father, captivated by
youth and beauty, and that appearance of good-humour which youth
and beauty generally give, had married a woman whose weak
understanding and illiberal mind had very early in their marriage
put an end to all real affection for her. Respect, esteem, and
confidence had vanished for ever; and all his views of domestic
happiness were overthrown. But Mr. Bennet was not of a disposition
to seek comfort for the disappointment which his own imprudence had
brought on in any of those pleasures which too often console the
unfortunate for their folly or their vice. He was fond of the
country and of books; and from these tastes had arisen his
principal enjoyments. To his wife he was very little otherwise
indebted than as her ignorance and folly had contributed to his
amusement. This is not the sort of happiness which a man would in
general wish to owe to his wife; but where other powers of
entertainment are wanting, the true philosopher will derive benefit
from such as are given.
Elizabeth, however, had never been blind to the
impropriety of her father’s behaviour as a husband. She had always
seen it with pain; but respecting his abilities, and grateful for
his affectionate treatment of herself, she endeavoured to forget
what she could not overlook, and to banish from her thoughts that
continual breach of conjugal obligation and decorum which, in
exposing his wife to the contempt of her own children, was so
highly reprehensible. But she had never felt so strongly as now the
disadvantages which must attend the children of so unsuitable a
marriage, nor ever been so fully aware of the evils arising from so
ill-judged a direction of talents— talents which, rightly used,
might at least have preserved the respectability of his daughters,
even if incapable of enlarging the mind of his wife.
When Elizabeth had rejoiced over Wickham’s
departure, she found little other cause for satisfaction in the
loss of the regiment. Their parties abroad were less varied than
before; and at home she had a mother and sister, whose constant
repinings at the dulness of every thing around them threw a real
gloom over their domestic circle; and, though Kitty might in time
regain her natural degree of sense, since the disturbers of her
brain were removed, her other sister, from whose disposition
greater evil might be apprehended, was likely to be hardened in all
her folly and assurance, by a situation of such double danger as a
watering-place and a camp. Upon the whole, therefore, she found,
what has been sometimes found before, that an event to which she
had looked forward with impatient desire, did not, in taking place,
bring all the satisfaction she had promised herself. It was
consequently necessary to name some other period for the
commencement of actual felicity; to have some other point on which
her wishes and hopes might be fixed, and by again enjoying the
pleasure of anticipation, console herself for the present, and
prepare for another disappointment. Her tour to the Lakes was now
the object of her happiest thoughts: it was her best consolation
for all the uncomfortable hours which the discontentedness of her
mother and Kitty made inevitable; and could she have included Jane
in the scheme, every part of it would have been perfect.
“But it is fortunate,” thought she, “that I have
something to wish for. Were the whole arrangement complete, my
disappointment would be certain. But here, by carrying with me one
ceaseless source of regret in my sister’s absence, I may reasonably
hope to have all my expectations of pleasure realised. A scheme of
which every part promises delight can never be successful: and
general disappointment is only warded off by the defence of some
little peculiar vexation.”
“When Lydia went away she promised to write very
often and very minutely to her mother and Kitty; but her letters
were always long expected, and always very short. Those to her
mother contained little else than that they were just returned from
the Library, where such and such officers had attended them, and
where she had seen such beautiful ornaments as made her quite wild;
that she had a new gown, or a new parasol, which she would have
described more fully, but was obliged to leave off in a violent
hurry, as Mrs. Forster called her, and they were going to the camp;
and from her correspondence with her sister there was still less to
be learnt, for her letters to Kitty, though rather longer, were
much too full of lines under the words to be made public.
After the first fortnight or three weeks of her
absence, health, good-humour, and cheerfulness began to re-appear
at Longbourn. Every thing wore a happier aspect. The families who
had been in town for the winter came back again, and summer finery
and summer engagements arose. Mrs. Bennet was restored to her usual
querulous serenity; and by the middle of June Kitty was so much
recovered as to be able to enter Meryton without tears,—an event of
such happy promise as to make Elizabeth hope, that by the following
Christmas she might be so tolerably reasonable as not to mention an
officer above once a day, unless, by some cruel and malicious
arrangement at the War Office, another regiment should be quartered
in Meryton.
The time fixed for the beginning of their northern
tour was now fast approaching; and a fortnight only was wanting of
it, when a letter arrived from Mrs. Gardiner, which at once delayed
its commencement and curtailed its extent. Mr. Gardiner would be
prevented by business from setting out till a fortnight later in
July, and must be in London again within a month; and as that left
too short a period for them to go so far, and see so much as they
had proposed, or at least to see it with the leisure and comfort
they had built on, they were obliged to give up the Lakes, and
substitute a more contracted tour; and, according to the present
plan, were to go no farther northward than Derbyshire. In that
county there was enough to be seen to occupy the chief of their
three weeks; and to Mrs. Gardiner it had a peculiarly strong
attraction. The town where she had formerly passed some years of
her life, and where they were now to spend a few days, was probably
as great an object of her curiosity as all the celebrated beauties
of Matlock, Chatsworth, Dovedale, or the Peak.10
Elizabeth was excessively disappointed: she had set
her heart on seeing the Lakes; and still thought there might have
been time enough. But it was her business to be satisfied—and
certainly her temper to be happy; and all was soon right
again.
With the mention of Derbyshire, there were many
ideas connected. It was impossible for her to see the word without
thinking of Pemberley and its owner. “But surely,” said she, “I may
enter his county with impunity, and rob it of a few petrified
spars,ba
without his perceiving me.”
The period of expectation was now doubled. Four
weeks were to pass away before her uncle and aunt’s arrival. But
they did pass away, and Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner, with their four
children, did at length appear at Longbourn. The children, two
girls of six and eight years old, and two younger boys, were to be
left under the particular care of their cousin Jane, who was the
general favourite, and whose steady sense and sweetness of temper
exactly adapted her for attending to them in every way—teaching
them, playing with them, and loving them.
The Gardiners stayed only one night at Longbourn,
and set off the next morning with Elizabeth in pursuit of novelty
and amusement. One enjoyment was certain—that of suitableness as
companions—a suitableness which comprehended health and temper to
bear inconveniences—cheerfulness to enhance every pleasure—and
affection and intelligence, which might supply it among themselves
if there were disappointments abroad.
It is not the object of this work to give a
description of Derbyshire, nor of any of the remarkable places
through which their route thither lay; Oxford, Blenheim, Warwick,
Kenilworth, Birmingham, &c. are sufficiently known. A small
part of Derbyshire is all the present concern. To the little town
of Lambton, the scene of Mrs. Gardiner’s former residence, and
where she had lately learned that some acquaintance still remained,
they bent their steps, after having seen all the principal wonders
of the country; and within five miles of Lambton, Elizabeth found,
from her aunt, that Pemberley was situated. It was not in their
direct road; nor more than a mile or two out of it. In talking over
their route the evening before, Mrs. Gardiner expressed an
inclination to see the place again. Mr. Gardiner declared his
willingness, and Elizabeth was applied to for her
approbation.
“My love, should not you like to see a place of
which you have heard so much?” said her aunt. “A place, too, with
which so many of your acquaintance are connected. Wickham passed
all his youth there, you know.”
Elizabeth was distressed. She felt that she had no
business at Pemberley, and was obliged to assume a disinclination
for seeing it. “She must own that she was tired of great houses:
after going over so many, she really had no pleasure in fine
carpets or satin curtains.”
Mrs. Gardiner abused her stupidity. “If it were
merely a fine house richly furnished,” said she, “I should not care
about it myself; but the grounds are delightful. They have some of
the finest woods in the country.”
Elizabeth said no more; but her mind could not
acquiesce. The possibility of meeting Mr. Darcy, while viewing the
place, instantly occurred. It would be dreadful! She blushed at the
very idea; and thought it would be better to speak openly to her
aunt, than to run such a risk. But against this there were
objections; and she finally resolved that it could be the last
resource, if her private enquiries as to the absence of the family
were unfavourably answered.
Accordingly, when she retired at night, she asked
the chambermaid whether Pemberley were not a very fine place, what
was the name of its proprietor, and, with no little alarm, whether
the family were down for the summer? A most welcome negative
followed the last question; and her alarms being now removed, she
was at leisure to feel a great deal of curiosity to see the house
herself; and when the subject was revived the next morning, and she
was again applied to, could readily answer, and with a proper air
of indifference, that she had not really any dislike to the
scheme.
To Pemberley, therefore, they were to go.