14
And he went down, and talked
with the woman; and she pleased Samson
well.
well.
JUDGES 14:7
KANE WAS EARLY FOR HIS DINNER WITH RUTH HUNT, SO he decided to stop in the bar to hear what Devil’s Toe was talking about. From the looks of the place, everyone within a hundred-mile radius had made the same decision. Small-town Friday night, Kane thought. The only thing thicker than the crowd was the cloud of cigarette smoke that filled the room. The only thing thicker than that were the rumors flying around.
Kane felt something like panic crawling up his
throat. Too many people, too much noise. He took a deep breath and
got a lungful of smoke. Coughing, he forced his way toward the
bar.
I’ve got to get past this, he thought, or I’m not
going to be worth a damn at anything but sitting in my apartment
staring at the walls.
As he shouldered through the crowd, Kane
overheard snippets of conversation. Everybody was talking about one
thing.
“I heard there was a half dozen mine guards
killed,” one man said.
“The payroll was more than a million,” said
another a little farther along.
“They’re sending in some kinda strike force,” a
woman with a snake tattooed on her left shoulder told a long-haired
guy with a ring in his nose. The woman had clearly been spending a
lot of time pumping iron, and the long-haired guy was muscles from
head to toe.
“I heard,” the guy said. “Maybe a SWAT team, too.
That kid trooper ain’t up to this.”
By the time Kane reached the corner of the bar,
his nerves were twitching like live wires. I really need a drink,
he thought as he caught the bartender’s attention.
He wanted to order a beer, just one, but he knew
there couldn’t be just one for him. He forced himself to say, “Club
soda with a twist.”
The bartender, a thin, greasy-haired,
shifty-looking character who had a scar of his own on his right
cheek, gave him a pitying look.
“Sure you don’t want a glass of milk?” he asked
with a sneer in his voice. “That what the fast crowd in Anchorage
is drinking now?”
Kane reached across and laid a hand on the
bartender’s shoulder, pulling him close.
“Believe me, pal,” he said in a low voice, “the
last thing you want is for me to start drinking.”
The bartender drew back, rubbing his
shoulder.
“No need to be acting so tough,” he said, moving
away.
Actually there’s every need, Kane thought. Act
soft in a place like this, and they’d pull you down like a pack of
wolves. The only difference between this place and prison is that
there weren’t any guards in gun towers to make them think
twice.
The bartender returned and set a glass in front
of Kane.
“That’ll be three dollars,” he said.
“For club soda?” Kane asked.
“It’s the freight,” the bartender said.
Kane smiled at the punch line to the old Alaska
joke, handed him a five-dollar bill, and said, “How do you know I’m
from Anchorage?”
The bartender gave him another pitying
look.
“This here is Devil’s Toe,” he said, laying a
couple of wrinkled one-dollar bills on the bar in front of Kane. “A
half hour after you take a dump everybody knows what color it
was.”
Kane stood there drinking his club soda and
taking in the scene, wishing that his fellow drinkers smoked less
and bathed more. He wondered which of them, if any, had been
involved in the robbery or knew something about it. Or knew
something about Faith Wright’s whereabouts. Anyone who did would be
unlikely to simply walk up and tell an outsider.
The crowd ignored him until the woman with the
snake tattoo forced her way over and stood next to him. Up close,
she had a flat face that was cracked and seamed like the face of a
glacier, a big nose that had been broken and badly reset, and
eyebrows that had grown into one. There was a cluster of rings on
one side of that brow.
“You’re some kinda cop, ain’t ya?” she asked, her
voice loud to be heard over the noise of the crowd.
“Some kinda cop,” he replied. “That’s about
right.”
“What you know about the robbery?” she
asked.
Kane set his empty glass down on the bar.
“Robbery?” he said. “There’s been a
robbery?”
The woman examined his face.
“You just being funny?” she asked.
“I’m here looking for Faith Wright,” he said.
“You know anything about that?”
“You mean that little Angel that disappeared?”
the woman said. “No, I wouldn’t be knowing any of the Angels. I’m
sort of on the other team.”
“You work here?” Kane asked.
“Me?” the woman said. “Nope, you won’t find me
making beds or slinging hash.”
“How about at night?” Kane said.
The woman gave a hoot of laughter and examined
his face again.
“You’re kidding, right? Who’d pay money to fuck
me?” she said.
She giggled and punched Kane on the shoulder. The
blow sent a bolt of pain shooting down his arm.
“You got a pair on you, asking me a question like
that,” she said, turning to leave. “I told Herman what you said,
he’d pinch your head off. See you later, Mr. Some Kinda Cop.”
Kane waved the bartender over and handed him a
twenty.
“Get those two whatever they’re drinking on me,”
he said, nodding to the tattooed woman and her companion, “and keep
the change.”
He wriggled his way through the crowd and through
the partition into the café.
The café was full. Ruth Hunt was sitting at a
corner table, chatting with the waitress named Tracy. The two of
them were laughing. Ruth put her hand on Tracy’s arm. The waitress
responded by reaching down and stroking aside some hair that had
fallen over Ruth’s face. She looked up and saw Kane watching
them.
“Oh, Mr. Kane, right on time,” she said. “Meet
Tracy, our waitress.”
Kane nodded at the waitress as he slid into a
chair opposite Ruth.
“Tracy and I have met,” he said. “In fact, I was
an overnight guest in this establishment.”
“I’d better get back to work,” Tracy said. “That
was a G-and-T for you, Ruth. And what are you having, Mr.
Kane?”
“Nik,” Kane said. “I’m drinking water.”
The waitress went off and Kane looked over at
Ruth Hunt. She was wearing a long-sleeved black mock turtleneck
sweater, just a touch of makeup, and no jewelry. Her long, black
hair had been brushed until it shone. The overall effect was
neither provocative nor frumpy.
“How do you do that?” Kane asked.
“Do what?”
“Manage to be so much yourself wherever you
are?”
“Is that good or bad?” she said, arching an
eyebrow.
“Oh, it’s good,” Kane said. “Very, very
good.”
She smiled at him.
“Thank you,” she said.
They talked for a while about the mine robbery,
Kane giving her the pertinent facts and Ruth recounting the rumors
she’d heard. Ruth set her nearly finished drink down and said, “So,
when you stayed here did you use all of the amenities?”
Kane could see slyness creep into her
smile.
“You mean, did I order up a woman?” Kane said.
“No, I didn’t, and I’m surprised that someone from a religious
community would be interested in such things.”
“Sin always interests the religious,” Ruth said,
laughing. “Sometimes it interests them too much. If you don’t
believe me, just listen to Moses Wright preach about the sins of
the flesh. It’s practically pornographic.”
“Is that why you’re friends with the waitress,
who I have reason to believe has firsthand knowledge of those
sins?” Kane asked.
“No,” Ruth said, “I know Tracy from another
life.”
The waitress returned to take their orders.
“I’ll have another one of these, too,” Ruth said,
rattling the ice in her glass. The waitress looked at Kane, who
shook his head. She went off.
“Why are you drinking water?” Ruth asked.
“It’s a long story,” Kane said. “The short
version is that when I start drinking, I have a hard time stopping.
But I’d rather hear about you and our friend, Tracy.”
Ruth looked at him for a moment and
shrugged.
“Okay,” she said. “I met Tracy again right after
I came to Rejoice. It was summer, and I made a point of introducing
myself around. Small towns are supposed to be friendly, and I
thought it would be a good way to establish myself, to start
fitting in. But when the residents of Rejoice heard about it,
several of them decided to counsel me about staying away from the
unbelievers. I decided to counsel them about minding their own
business. So I guess you might say that Tracy is part of the reason
I sort of got off on the wrong foot in Rejoice.”
“And have you gotten back on the right
foot?”
Ruth shrugged.
“I’m not sure what foot I’m on there,” she said.
She raised one hand, palm up. “On the one hand, I have my
differences with the more saintly element in Rejoice.” She raised
the other hand, palm up. “On the other, I’ve lowered the cost of
their food service by eleven percent.” She made a rocking motion
with her hands. “So I guess I’d say Rejoice has learned to live
with me.”
Their conversation was interrupted by the arrival
of her drink. They chatted for a while about Kane’s police days,
and he found himself telling her things he had never told anyone
but Laurie about the life, about the challenges, the scrapes, the
satisfactions, and the camaraderie.
“You make police work sound like fun,” Ruth said.
Then, after a pause, “I don’t imagine prison was as
enjoyable.”
“I don’t talk about prison much,” Kane said. “I’m
trying to put it behind me, in more ways than one.”
“More ways than one?” she asked.
So Kane found himself telling her about his
problems with open spaces and crowds and all the uncontained
vitality of life outside the prison walls. She nodded and made
encouraging noises and, when he’d finished, put a hand on his
arm.
“I’m sure there are people who live in Rejoice as
a way of dealing with just those problems,” she said. “I know life
here is much simpler than it was in other places for me. But you
seem to be a strong person. I’m sure you can overcome this.”
Logically, her words made no sense to Kane.
They’d just met; she couldn’t have any informed opinion about his
capabilities. But what she said made him feel better just the
same.
The waitress brought their meals and looked at
Ruth Hunt’s empty glass.
“I shouldn’t,” Ruth Hunt said. “I’m already
feeling light-headed. But then I’m not driving.”
“Not driving?” Kane said. “How did you get
here?”
“I skied over.”
“In this weather?”
“If you wait for it to warm up before you do
anything, you’ll never do anything. Lots of people ski here, all
the time. Why, even Moses Wright skis.”
Kane tried to imagine the old man on skis and
failed.
“I suppose that’s all right,” Kane said. “Still,
skiing in this weather is dangerous. I’ll give you a lift home, so
if you want that drink, go ahead.” At that, Ruth nodded and the
waitress went off.
“Let’s talk about you for a while,” Kane said.
“What brought you to Rejoice?”
The woman chewed and swallowed a forkful of
vegetables.
“Well, I suppose you could call it lust,” she
said, laughing.
“Do tell,” Kane said.
She did.
She was born and raised in North Pole, just
outside Fairbanks, the youngest of the six children of devout
Christian parents. Her dad was a civilian employee of the Air Force
and her mother a stay-at-home mom.
“We went to the public schools—this was back
before home schooling became popular—but religion was really the
major force in our lives,” she said. “We listened to KJNP—you know,
King Jesus North Pole—and went to Bible study twice a week and
church on Sundays and Bible camp in the summers. We didn’t smoke or
drink or date.” She stopped to take a drink of her new G-and-T. “We
were damned holy, is what we were.”
But the older she got, Ruth said, the less
appealing all of that was.
“I couldn’t help but notice that women held only
subservient roles,” she said, “and that just didn’t look like
enough for me.”
So when her parents were ready to send her off to
a Christian college, she rebelled and joined the Army.
“I wanted combat infantry,” she said, “and the
Army, in its wisdom, taught me how to run a food service. I ran a
mess tent in Saudi during the Gulf War. My biggest problem was
keeping sand and scorpions out of the food. That wasn’t why I’d
joined up, so when my commitment was up, I left.”
“I didn’t know what I was going to do next. I was
still in my twenties and kind of floating. I thought about college,
but it didn’t really appeal to me. Nobody was much interested in
somebody who knew how to run a mess tent, so I was waitressing to
pay the bills. That’s where I met Tracy. We had some fun.
Out-all-night, sleep-all-day kind of fun.”
“Doesn’t sound like the life for a Christian
girl,” Kane said.
“It wasn’t,” Ruth said, “and after a while it got
to be not so much fun. Seemed kind of hollow, really. So one Sunday
I decided to go back to my old family church. And the man giving a
guest lecture about life in an isolated religious community was
Gregory Pinchon.”
She stopped to eat for a while, shaking her head
from time to time, then resumed.
“I’d never seen a more gorgeous man. He was such
a babe and he made Rejoice sound so good, kind of like North Pole
when I was growing up, that I was just sort of swept away. I moved
here. A year later we started walking out, and a year after that we
were married.”
She ate some more, still shaking her head. Kane
finished his steak and set down his knife and fork.
“So you’ve been married for—what?—seven years?”
he said. “How is it going?”
Ruth finished her dinner, taking her time, not
speaking. Tracy cleared the dishes away and brought them
coffee.
“I haven’t told anyone this,” she said at last.
“I can’t imagine why I’m telling you, except that you make me feel
comfortable somehow. Plus I’ve had too much to drink. But the truth
is, it’s not going well at all. Matthew has never accepted me, and
his father and I have less and less to do with each other. Maybe
I’m telling you too much, but we don’t have physical relations very
often.”
“What’s wrong?”
“I don’t know what’s wrong. Greg is very
immature. His first wife was much older than he. She mothered him
and then left him, which must have been confusing, and he just sort
of retreated into his work and worship. I thought he’d make room
for me, and I think he thought he would, too. But after a while he
just quit trying, particularly when my independence became an
embarrassment. Plus, we don’t really agree on religious matters,
which is so much more important in Rejoice than anywhere
else.”
She was quiet for a moment.
“Listen to me, pouring my heart out. I knew that
third G-and-T was a mistake. Anyway, I decided a couple of months
ago to leave him, and Rejoice, and I’ve been living with that
decision since, sort of seeing how it feels.”
“And?” Kane said.
“And it feels more right all the time. I should
have my replacement trained in another month or two, and then I’m
gone.”
“Where will you go?”
“I don’t know, and that’s one of the things that
keeps me here. That sounds sort of low, but it’s true.”
“I think inertia is a much underestimated force
in human affairs,” Kane said. “I suspect it’s part of the reason
Laurie stuck with me for all those years.”
“Laurie?” Ruth said.
So Kane, to his surprise, told her the story of
his own marriage and how it was ending. Once he started, he found
himself telling her things he’d never told anyone else, about his
bad behavior and his hurt and his regrets. The story lasted through
coffee, through Kane paying the bill, through warming up his truck,
through loading the woman’s skis and boots into the back, and
through setting out for Rejoice. When he’d finished, they drove
along in silence, listening to the heater and their own
thoughts.
He drove across the river and along the road,
past the airstrip and Moses Wright’s house, past the community
building, and toward Ruth’s house. Just short of it, she said, “I’d
like to see the flowers.” So Kane drove to the big greenhouse, and
they let themselves in.
“It’s just so . . . so glorious in here,” she
said. She took off her coat, dropped it, and walked along the
aisles with her arms held out, turning slowly in full circles. “I
wish my whole life was as wild and beautiful as this.”
She ran back to Kane, threw her arms around his
neck, and kissed him. The first kiss was tentative. The second
sizzling. The third molten.
“I knew it,” she said, pulling her face away from
his. “I knew it would be like this.”
They stood looking at each other. Kane felt
light-headed and a little dazed.
“I so want to make love right now,” she said. “I
so want to take you home with me, but Matthew is there. Do you
think we could make a bed here somehow?”
Kane took a deep breath and tried to slow the
blood racing through his veins.
“That might not be the wisest thing,” he said.
“I’m sure people saw us driving out here and will notice how long
we stay. I can’t afford to let something like that get in the way
of my investigation and you . . . you just can’t afford it, period.
Besides, I’m not sure my heart could stand it, anyway.”
Ruth smiled and started to move away, but he held
her there and kissed her again. The kiss seemed to last an hour.
Kane could feel his self-discipline melting like snow in the hot
sun, so he pulled away. He wasn’t sure what would happen if he lost
control, and he didn’t want to find out. Besides, he was too old to
get involved with a married woman, and old enough to know they’d
never get away with it in a place the size of Rejoice.
Boy, he thought, I seem to need a lot of
convincing about this.
Ruth stepped back and ran her fingers through her
hair, shaking it out.
“I’m sure you’re right,” she said, “but I had
those drinks and I’m just so horny. ”
She giggled and put a hand to her mouth, then
stood breathing for a while.
“I’m sorry,” she said. “I know I shouldn’t behave
this way.” They stood quietly for a minute. Then Ruth shook her
head again. “I don’t know why I’m apologizing. I’m sure there’s no
reason sex shouldn’t be important for Christian women, too.”
“I’m sure there’s not,” Kane said, helping her
into her coat.
They got into the pickup and drove along in
silence until Kane broke it.
“Why did Matthew stay home from the basketball
trip, anyway?” he asked.
“If only he hadn’t,” she said. She shrugged. “I’m
not sure why, unless it was to keep an eye on me. He said he wasn’t
feeling well, but I didn’t see any sign of it.”
“What kind of a kid is he?”
“Complicated. Self-assured one minute, full of
doubt the next. And, I think, beneath all that, pretty
angry.”
“Angry?” Kane said. “Why?”
Ruth was silent for a while.
“I suppose because his mother left him. And I
think his rejection by Faith hurt him more than he will say. He’s
talking about joining the military now instead of going to college,
and the way he talks about it makes me think he wants to do it
because there’s a chance he’ll get to hurt people.”
“Maybe I should talk to him,” Kane said, as if to
himself, “tell him that hurting people isn’t all that much fun.” To
Ruth, he said, “Do you think he’s capable of hurting anyone here?
In Rejoice?”
Ruth was silent again.
“I don’t know,” she said finally. “Maybe. Why, do
you suspect he had something to do with Faith’s
disappearance?”
“I don’t really think anything yet,” Kane said.
He paused. “No, that’s not true. I think Faith Wright is or was
hiding something, and that her disappearance wasn’t
voluntary.”
“Hiding something? In Rejoice? If she is, she’s a
much more complex person than I, or anyone else, thought. And why
would anyone want her to disappear?”
“I don’t know yet, but I’ll find out.”
“You sound confident.”
“I am,” Kane said. “There are a lot of things in
life I’m not good at, but I’m a damned good detective.”
They reached Ruth’s home, a prefab a couple of
houses down from his cabin. It was ablaze with lights. He pulled
into the driveway and helped her unload her skis. He could see
Matthew Pinchon’s shadow as the young man watched them through the
curtains.
“I’d invite you in,” she said, smiling, “but I’m
sure Matthew wouldn’t like that. Besides, Clarice is no doubt
watching us, and I’m afraid the sight of that would make her
eyeballs fall out of her head.”
“We wouldn’t want that,” Kane said.
Ruth reached out and gave his arm a
squeeze.
“Thanks for a wonderful evening,” she said. “And
take care of yourself. Whoever shot at you last night is still out
there.”
“Don’t worry,” he said, “I’m not about to let
myself get killed just when my life has gotten so much more
interesting.”
Ruth went into the house. Kane got back in his
truck and drove the short distance to his cabin. No one shot at him
as he plugged in his pickup and let himself into the cabin.
He flipped on the lights. The place had been torn
apart. His clothes and camping gear were strewn about the single
room, his CDs tossed all over. He stood looking at the mess for a
moment. Then he built a fire in the wood stove. He went around
picking up his belongings and putting them back into their bags. He
found his copy of Eric Clap-ton’s Unplugged
on the floor of the bathroom in two pieces. That had taken some
effort, so destroying it had been a calculated act of spite. Having
his stuff handled made Kane mad, but the fact that someone had gone
to the trouble told him he was on the right track.
I must be onto something, he thought as he got
ready for bed. Now if I could just figure out what.
He was actually happy the cabin had been
ransacked, until he came upon his coffee, dumped into the kitchen
sink with what looked like his shampoo poured all over it.
“I’ll get you for that,” he said aloud, thinking
of mornings without coffee stretching out into the future. “I’ll
solve this case and hunt you down, and God help you when I
do.”
But as he lay there waiting for sleep to come, he
found himself thinking not about Faith Wright, but about Ruth
Hunt.