on a shocking clarity. The glint of the sun off the razor-sharp steel
blade; the faint whisper of the wind; the singing of the birds; his
very own heartbeat… Everything became sharp-edged and
amplified. His senses had never felt so acute. Death was looking
him right in the face and Kanno calmly met its gaze with a
profound sense of resignation. He had gambled all and he had lost.
He seemed to be drifting somewhere outside himself as he
watched his hand, as if it were somehow not a part of him, reach
down toward the knife. He felt his fingers close around the hilt, as
if they were doing so of their own accord. He picked up the knife.
The sun had never seemed so bright. The sky had never seemed
so blue. He opened up his shirt. He was profoundly sorry that he
had to die, but somewhere deep within, in a part of him that he had
never known existed, he had accepted it. He held the tanto by the
hilt with both hands, the blade pointing toward him. He took a deep
breath and let it out slowly. Quickly, he thought, do it quickly.
Resolve is everything. With all the force that he could muster, he
stabbed…
And the blade stopped, of its own accord.
His arms trembled with the shock. It was as if he had
encountered some sort of invisible wall, an impenetrable barrier…
but no, the blade had pierced his skin, only just barely. He looked
down, awestruck, at the tiny trickle of blood welling up out of the
small cut where the point of the knife had just barely broken his
skin and suddenly realization dawned.
Yohaku.
The master had been testing him. He had never intended for him
to die. He had only meant to measure the sincerity of his intent.
And in that moment Kanno had felt weak and dizzy, on the verge
of passing out, yet at the same time he had an almost
uncontrollable urge to break out in laughter. He stifled it, because
the significance of what had happened suddenly broke upon him
like a tsunami. Like a tidal wave, it overwhelmed him, because he
realized in that instant that he had prevailed over the master. And
that knowledge made him feel giddy with power.
He had fooled Yohaku. The master would believe in his sincerity,