or morals. He knew only too well that even a knight like Lancelot could be
destroyed by passion, and a woman pure as Guinevere could betray her own
ideals.
Modred had seen how easily principles could be perverted and morality
manipulated. He had known the self-righteous hypocrisy of Camelot, where
might
made right and adultery was tolerated so long as the appearance of virtue
could
be maintained. He wanted no part of chivalry or honor. He cared even less for
love and glory. The consuming emotions of his youth were banished utterly, to
be
replaced by the ruthless pragmatism of a black knight errant ruled only by
cold
logic.
He traveled the world and watched it change throughout the centuries. He
became
the consummate master of invisibility, living many different lives under
countless aliases, hiding his vast wealth and his true identity in an
impenetrable cloak of secrecy. He made his way by means of his physical and
intellectual powers rather than thaumaturgic skill. His mother's training and
the natural gifts he had inherited from her had made him an adept, but magic
was
Morgana's way, and Merlin's. Modred wanted no part of it.
Yet the choice was never really his to make. He had learned that he could not
escape his destiny. He rubbed his chest and felt the hardness of the small
ruby
embedded in the skin over his heart. He unbuttoned his lace-trimmed shirt and
glanced down at the enchanted runestone set into his chest. It was glowing
softly.
He did not know why it had started glowing, or why it throbbed the way it
did.
It seemed to pulse like a small heart.
He emptied the bottle of Scotch, picked up the phone, and ordered another
sent
up from room service. He rubbed his chest once more. It felt sore from the
strangely throbbing runestone. He felt an intense anxiety that he could not
define. He did not understand what was happening, and it worried him. He lit
another cigarette. Smoking and drinking were destructive human vices, yet
they
had no visible effect upon him. At one point or another he had done just
about
every self-destructive thing a man could do. It was as if he had been playing
a
game with Death for all those years, daring the Grim Reaper to come and try
to
claim him. Many times the Reaper had almost done just that, but Modred had
always managed to elude him. He had started to believe that he was
indestructible, but Merlin's death at the hands of the Dark Ones had firmly
convinced him otherwise. If Merlin could be killed, then he could die as
well.
That knowledge had given life a sharper edge. That, and the knowledge that he
now had a purpose that was greater than his own survival. A quest, of sorts,
not
unlike Galahad's relentless search for the Holy Grail.
Modred smiled as he thought of his old tutor. He finally understood him how,