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TOO BIG
TO BE A GLASS COLLECTOR
BY SCOTT TAYLOR
‘You’re a bit big to be a
fucking glass collector, aren’t you?’ Those were the words that led
me into my 15 year love–hate affair with the door. They came from a
man called Ramsey, a huge highlander who worked as the bouncer in
the bar I had just got a job in. I was a 17-year-old, acne-riddled
boy working in a shit hole of a bar collecting glasses at weekends,
the first job that I’d managed to get since moving to Aberdeen from
a small town called Thurso in the far north of Scotland.
‘What in the fuck are you doing collecting glasses,
Scott?’ Ramsey said, flashing me his trademark huge grin whilst
knocking back his usual pre-shift treble vodka and coke. ‘You
should be on the fucking door with me!’
I couldn’t figure out what to say to him. How could
I explain that I was as timid as a field mouse and that the very
thought of standing at a pub doorway telling people that they
couldn’t get in scared the shit out of me? How could I explain that
I had no self-confidence thanks to a neglected upbringing by an
alcoholic mother and that I was terrified of confrontation thanks
to repeated beatings throughout my school years by older kids? I’d
been working as a glass collector for a month, and it was hard
enough to deal with people accusing you of stealing their drinks,
even though their glasses were empty when you picked them up, or
the assholes who wouldn’t move out of your way when you were trying
to manoeuvre through a packed crowd with armfuls of pint and shot
glasses.
Before I could tell Ramsey that there was no way I
could be a bouncer, he had stormed off toward the bar, where he’d
spotted the manageress. After a few minutes of arguing with her, he
walked back towards me with a big grin on his face, threw me a bow
tie and said, ‘You’re on the door with me tonight, lad. We’re going
to have fun!’
So that was it – I was a doorman. The only good I
could see in all of this was the big jump in wages, but then I
didn’t think that it compensated for the fear that was pumping its
way through me the first night working on the door. My voice was
squeaky, making me sound like Mickey Mouse whenever a customer
asked me a question. I must have run to the toilet for a
terror-induced shit about five times in that first hour, and I was
sweating more than Michael Jackson having a browse through
Mothercare.
Ramsey, however, loved the whole situation;
finally, he had a fellow highlander with him on the door – he had a
deep distrust of the city ‘lowlanders’. We also discovered that our
parents used to live a few doors apart in the same street, so most
of our chat was all about the home country that we’d left to find
work in the big city. Having Ramsey there made it easier for me to
relax, and over time he helped me (unwittingly, it appeared) to
develop my self-confidence and put my fears aside. No longer was I
frozen stiff when speaking to people I didn’t know; no longer was I
terrified of confrontation. Hell, being on the door was probably
the very best therapy I could have had, and it was thanks to that
big, usually drunk highlander who threw me a bow tie.
After a while, I discovered that I loved my job. I
loved meeting new people and working in new venues. I loved
watching the ebb and flow of a crowd as the night grew long,
watching and scanning for any possible ‘hot spots’. And as much as
I abhorred violence of any kind, I loved the ‘I survived that
shit!’ feeling you would get as you wound down from the adrenalin
surge you’d just had after you’d been in the middle of a massive
‘Battle Royale’. That’s if you managed to make it out unscathed, of
course.
In my 15 years working the doors, I’ve seen too
many good men and women getting seriously hurt because of the
stupidity of the half-pint heroes – people who can’t go on a night
out with friends and drink sensibly. I’ve seen friends go to
hospital after having their face sliced open by broken bottles,
being left with partial vision after being smashed in the face with
a stool or chair, or having their skulls fractured by a well-placed
kick when they’re down on the ground. These are people whose lives
have been irrevocably changed thanks to the actions of some
pissed-up bastard who thinks that it’s his God-given right to get
drunk and fight, and that a night out isn’t a good one unless they
come home covered in someone else’s blood or wake up in a cell
covered in their own piss, vomit and shit after ‘sleeping it off’
for the night. To these vermin this is the sign of a good night
out, a night out that they can boast about to their workmates the
next day over the water cooler. To me it’s the sign of a
deep-rooted problem with their upbringing and their psychological
make-up.
I have personally suffered numerous concussions,
broken fingers, broken ribs, 14 or more broken noses, several scars
thanks to glasses, ashtrays or bottles being raked across me,
attempted stabbings, one successful stabbing and teeth smashed out
thanks to several boots to the head. But if I bloody someone’s nose
in self-defence, suddenly I’m an out-of-control monster and a thug
who thrives on bloodshed and bullying – or at least that’s how I’ll
be portrayed in the newspapers, which will invariably carry the
story in big letters on their front page the next day.
My views on the state of today’s drinking culture
and my complete disdain for the weekend whisky warriors aside (and
before I go completely off topic), I mentioned the elation you feel
after surviving a battle in your venue. The feeling you get as you
sit down with your team after your shift knowing that you’ve all
had your shit on the line and you’ve survived is one of the best
bonding experiences you can have. That’s a reason why I love the
job and all the crap that goes with it. You have to trust that the
guy beside you in the black tie can hold his shit together when the
proverbial hits the fan. When he does, it builds a trust between
you and your teammate that is, in my humble opinion, rarely found
in any other line of work. These are men and women you are counting
on to save your ass when you’re up the creek without a paddle, the
very same people who through their actions demonstrate that they
are to be trusted and in doing so become some of your closest
friends.
I have made friends through this job that I would
go to the grave for, people whom I would trust with my life – if it
came to the crunch, friends I would do anything for. I’ve travelled
the length and breadth of the country to help these people out.
I’ve kicked down doors with my big, black Magnum boots to stop
people threatening and intimidating those close to me, and I’ve
lent a shoulder to those friends whose lives have crumbled and
fallen around them. And never have I doubted that they would do
exactly the same for me or that they would go out of their way to
support and protect me. That’s what doing the doors means to me:
building friendships so intense that people become family. And
throughout my years of bouncing, I’ve built up a massive
family.
However, on the flipside, the job also brings you
into contact with people who will become your mortal enemy, the
weekend whisky warriors who take you throwing their drunken ass out
of a club as a personal insult and will hold that grudge against
you for a very long time. In the past, I’ve had to change my mobile
phone number more times than I can remember to avoid the prank
calls and death threats from those I’ve thrown out of bars,
sometimes for something as simple as them being too drunk to stand.
These people, who take being asked to leave as a slight on their
holier-than-thou character, will go out of their way to hound and
harass you. Most of the time, a quiet word in their ‘shell like’
normally stops the harassment quick sharp, but at other times it
goes well past the point of annoying phone calls.
I remember one time I came home to the flat I
shared with a former girlfriend to find my front door loose on its
hinges when I put my key in the lock and opened it. My girlfriend,
who’d been home alone, came running to me and dove into my arms,
sobbing uncontrollably into my chest. After a while of reassuring
her, she managed to tell me that she had been lying in bed at about
1 a.m. when she had heard someone pounding at the door, shouting my
name. She kept the lights off and looked out into the hallway
toward the front door. Back then, most flats in the area had
strengthened, frosted-glass doors, and she could see that there
were at least three people outside, pounding on the door. Luckily,
she had more sense than to go and answer it; instead, she sat down
in the hall and watched in terror as the three figures continued
shouting my name and booting at the door.
For about 15 minutes, they continued to pound on
the glass, trying desperately to break their way in – all the while
my ex sat on the floor, hugging her knees and sobbing quietly,
terrified that they might make it into the flat and too scared to
move toward the phone in case the three figures, which she guessed
to be all male, noticed the movement through the frosted glass and
intensified their attack on the door.
Finally, they gave up after realising that they
weren’t going to get through or that there really was nobody home.
It was about 15 minutes after they left until my ex finally felt
that it was safe to move. She got to her feet, double checked the
locks on the door were still secure and then ran to the bedroom,
where she fell to the floor beside the bed and sobbed
uncontrollably until I came home little over an hour later.
Initially, I was furious that someone would attack
my home, although I had no idea who had done this or why. I banged
on my neighbour’s door until they answered and demanded to know why
they hadn’t seen fit to call the police when they could hear the
commotion outside. All I got was apology after apology as the young
lady I was speaking to stood crying at her door asking if my
partner was OK. Sadly, this was an area of the city where incidents
like that happened all the time, and the residents who weren’t drug
dealers, prostitutes or junkies were too scared to report any crime
in case the criminals found out it was them and targeted them
next.
I was furious. Almost blind with rage, I stormed
out into the street, my ex-partner pleading for me not to leave her
in the flat alone. I stood in the road furious, yelling out for
whoever it was that attacked my home to come and get me, but apart
from curtains being twitched all along the road by concerned
neighbours, nobody responded to my call. There was nothing else I
could do that night except go back into the flat and reassure my
partner. Over the next few days, I put out feelers all round the
city trying to find out who the lads were, and it wasn’t until the
following weekend that the information I wanted came my way.
One of my good friends who worked at another venue
had found out that the three lads had come looking for me to give
me a beating. It seemed that I had thrown one of them out of the
club I worked in because he was drunk, and in doing so I had
embarrassed him in front of the lady he was with. In an attempt to
save face, he had orchestrated the attack on my home when he knew
that I would be at work so that the two friends he’d roped in to
help him out would think that he was some kind of hard bastard when
they beat up on my door.
The lad had taken the simple act of me throwing him
out of a bar as such an insult to his manhood that he attacked my
home and terrified the woman I lived with. My good friend supplied
me with the young man’s address, and he and I enjoyed a good talk
over tea and biscuits. Well, that’s maybe a slight simplification
of what happened, but I’ll leave you to do the colouring in.
This was one of the few times that nearly killed my
love for the door and almost wiped out any fondness I had for my
profession and nearly poisoned me against ever stepping foot on the
door again. I can deal with a lot in my life and have a very long
fuse when it comes to people attacking me either verbally or
physically on the door, but when it arrives at your home it’s a
different matter entirely. Luckily, with the support of those
around me, I put my anger behind me and got back to doing what I
love.
However, like any love, it’s constantly tested.
Time can pick holes in it and start to blur the parts that
encouraged your affection. Time erodes things that in the past
seemed new and vibrant, and outside influences spread a cancer in
the thing you love that force it to die in front of your eyes. I’ve
tried looking through rose-tinted glasses as the job evolves around
me, with promises from those in power that things are changing for
the better and that what will emerge out the other side will be a
more controlled, regulated, professional and better industry than
we have presently. However, all the signs so far look like the
industry is heading for an iceberg and we should man the lifeboats
as soon as possible.
Since the implementation of the SIA in the UK, good
stewards who’ve done the door for years have been told that under
the new regime they will no longer be able to work, as they picked
up an assault charge, for example, a couple of years previously.
Hell, one lad I know had his application for a licence turned down
and put to appeal because he was detained for a weekend by the
police because of a breach of the peace after having an argument
with his former girlfriend in their home. I’ve watched as lads
who’ve done the door for years hang up their boots and call it a
day rather than throwing nearly £400 at the SIA to get a little
badge that says they’re fit to do the same job they’ve done for the
last 20 years.
These are the very same men and women who put me
through my apprenticeship when I started on the doors. If you can
show me in black and white how certificates earned over a few days
sitting in a classroom make you more proficient on the door
compared to a rookie working with a team of experienced,
professional doormen who over time can show him exactly how to spot
trouble and deal with it proficiently and swiftly, then I’ll wear
my SIA badge on my chest with the pride and justification it
deserves. Until then, I’ll continue to piss and moan to anyone who
will listen about how the SIA are killing the doorman community and
making it near impossible for us to do our jobs.
I’ve sat back and watched as young students are
brought on board by security agencies, put through their courses
and then paid a damn near minimum wage for putting their safety on
the line week in, week out while the agency rubs its hands at the
increased profit margins. These are the very same agencies that
filter out the more experienced lads because the profit margin is
too low and then fill the gaps with young boys and girls who are
thrust clean into the firing line. I’ve sat back and watched the
SIA put the control of the UK’s pubs and clubs back into the hands
of the weekend whisky warriors, and it hurts me to see the industry
I love dying on its arse.
Modern stewards are now concerned about getting
involved in separating troublemakers in case one of the parties
reports their badge number and makes a false claim against them.
Hearing the words, ‘What’s your fucking badge number?’ from some
pissed-up asshole you’ve just thrown out for groping one of the
barmaids is guaranteed to make you think twice. And now that these
half-pint heroes know they’ve got control over you, there’s no
respect for the stewards in a venue any more. Effectively, the SIA
have tied our hands in political correctness. All we can do now is
sit back and watch the show while the monkeys take control of the
circus.
I still work on the doors and still suffer weekly
abuse from those whisky warriors who plague the city. I sit here
twiddling my thumbs waiting for the SIA to send me a badge in
Scotland, saying that I’m a fit and capable human being to stand on
a cold, wet doorway of an evening!
My love affair with the job is still there – for
the time being. However, as time goes by and the job becomes more
and more tied up by the politically correct brigade and the
wonderful SIA, I may have to cut ties with the old lady of my life
and move on to pastures new and find another job to love. When the
industry does die, would the last member of the SIA please put the
lights out after them?
BIOGRAPHY OF
SCOTT TAYLOR
As well as working the doors, Scott works for a
large entertainment company based in Aberdeen as the security
manager for their venues. In 2004, as a side project while he
taught himself web and graphic design, he built a
door-steward-related website called Door Network, which has over
1,000 registered members and is getting more and more popular by
the week. Scott uses his spare time training to compete in
strongman events, writing stories about his time on the doors and
spending far more time than is feasibly healthy on the
Internet.
At the time of writing, Scotland had followed
England and just implemented new rules regarding security-industry
licensing. Scott is still waiting for his licence to arrive, four
months after attending yet another SIA accredited course.
He can be contacted at [email protected]