Six
Eve walked him to the elevator and waited
until he got in and the doors closed behind him. She wanted to make
sure he left and that no one stopped him along the way to chat.
People who were drawn to the news biz liked to ask questions, and
they were good at eliciting answers. She had no idea what might
come out of Hazard’s mouth if he were asked who, what, where, when
or why, and as much as she’d love to find out more about him, she
wasn’t crazy enough to let it happen in public.
The trek back to her office was a gauntlet of
surprised smiles, speculative stares and knowing winks from the
newsroom staff. The communal reaction was galling, not to mention
unwarranted. It wasn’t as if she were a nun, for heaven’s sake.
True, men didn’t stop by to see her unannounced or unrelated to
work, but for all anyone knew Hazard’s visit could have been
business. And the fifteen dozen roses he brought her could have
been . . . all right, maybe it was a stretch to expect anyone to
believe the roses were strictly business. Still.
Peggy, a sweet, sixtyish secretary from Human
Relations gave Eve’s elbow a squeeze as she passed. “Morning, Eve.
Your new boyfriend is so handsome.”
“He’s not my boyfriend.”
“Well, whoever he is, I’ve got just four words for
him: va, va, va, voom.”
Tiffany, assistant to a production assistant and
nearly forty years Peggy’s junior, needed only three. “Hot. As.
Hell.”
“Ditto,” agreed the young woman beside her who Eve
seemed to recall worked in sales, one floor down and all the way
over on the other side of the building. With a look of grudging
admiration she added, “Men are suckers for you uptight, brainy
types because they think you have a hidden wild side only they can
unlock.”
While Eve considered whether to be flattered or
offended, Tiffany growled, and the two women giggled
wickedly.
Sobering, Tiffany crossed her arms to study Eve
with a critical frown. “You should lose the glasses when he’s
around, though. A little of that smart-girl look goes a long
way.”
“I’ll keep that in mind,” Eve muttered. “Did you by
any chance have time to find those transcripts I asked for?”
Tiffany shuffled some papers and came up with a
folder. “Voila.”
“Thanks,” Eve said as she turned away. She was a
few feet from her office when her phone started to ring, and she
hurried to grab it.
“Eve Lockhart.”
“You’ve been holding out on me,” said a familiar
voice.
“Hey, Jenna. What are you talking about?”
“I’m talking about the man who just left your
office. Mr. Tall-Dark-I-Come-Bearing-Roses.”
“I don’t believe it. I know news travels fast, but
you don’t even work in this building for pity’s sake.”
“Honey, how many times do I have to tell you that
when it comes to romance Jenna sees all, knows all? Actually, I had
to call over there to talk to Cindy in archives about some cuts I
want to use from that piece on underage drinking you guys ran a
while back, and she told me all about it. She said that Tiffany
somebody-or-other put out the word that your mystery man strolled
in like he owned the place and brought you a gazillion red
roses.”
“Tiffany’s an airhead. It was nowhere near a
gazillion.”
“Really? How many was it?”
Eve hesitated and then gave a resigned sigh. “Only
one hundred and eighty.”
“Lordy. That’s close enough. Any particular
significance to that number?”
“Long story.”
“I have time. Dish.”
“Can’t. I’m taping an interview with the dean of
Newberry College at one, and we’re planning to shoot some
walk-and-talk around campus first . . . which I still have to write
script for. And before that I have to return calls and squeeze in a
meeting with Angela.”
“Lucky you.”
Eve smiled at the way Jenna’s tone soured at the
mention of her boss. Angela Beckett, the station’s
straight-shooting, hard-driving and very glamorous news director
was not on Jenna’s list of favorite people. Eve sensed the chill
was mutual and that it had something to do with it being impossible
for two larger-than-life personalities to hold center stage at the
same time.
“Why don’t we have lunch sometime this week and
I’ll fill you in?” By then she should be able to come up with a
story that would satisfy Jenna’s craving for details without
revealing too much of the actual truth.
Jenna sighed theatrically. “Oh, all right. But at
least throw me a crumb to hold me till then. Who is he? Where did
you meet? Is he really as young as he looks? Not that there’s
anything wrong with that.”
“I honestly don’t know how old he is. And it
doesn’t matter, becau—”
Jenna broke in. “I totally agree. In fact, I say
the younger the better; that way they don’t have time to form any
annoying bad habits. And besides, no one bats an eye when men date
younger women. Turnabout’s fair play. Go, cougars. Hey, wouldn’t
this make a great topic for my show? I can already hear the phones
ringing off the hook. You could be my star guest!”
Eve winced at the thought. “What I was going to say
was that his age doesn’t matter because this . . . thing is no big
deal. Really. In fact, there is no thing. He’s just someone
I met last night at the auction.”
“I knew it,” Jenna crowed. “As soon as Diane
described him, I knew it had to be the same yummy guy who was
checking you out last night. I was going to mention it to you, but
you took off in such a hurry I didn’t have a chance. And speaking
of, I still want to hear what gives with you and that necklace. I
mean, good God, that was a lot of money. Anyway, when I saw him
follow you out I thought to myself, hmmm. And now he shows
up with a hundred and eighty roses. Hot damn, Eve.”
“Like I said, it’s no big deal.”
“If you say so.”
Eve could hear the grin in her friend’s sing-song
tone. “I’ll check my schedule and get back to you about lunch. Try
not to let your imagination run amok in the meantime.”
“Sorry, amok is my imagination’s natural habitat.
As for lunch, sooner works for me.”
“I’ll see what I can do.” Eve hesitated before
saying good-bye. “Hey, Jenna, you’re a good judge of people. Would
you describe me as brainy and uptight? Be honest.”
“Brainy as in smart and insightful? Yeah, that’s
you all day. As for being uptight, well . . . ‘uptight’ is such a
harsh word, with really negative connotations. If you think of it
as being careful and highly structured, then I suppose some people
might consider you a teensy, tiny bit uptight . . . in a charming
sort of way,” she hastened to add.
“Charmingly uptight,” Eve muttered. “Terrific. I
have to run.”
“Lunch. Soon. Don’t forget.”

Around the station, the news director’s spacious
corner office was known as “the fishbowl.” Exterior windows
overlooked the bustling center of downtown Providence, and a wall
of glass provided a view of the newsroom, where the tempo ranged
from busy to frenetic depending on how close it was to broadcast
time. Phones rang, police scanners hummed, printers spit out an
endless stream of fresh copy and everywhere there were monitors to
monitor the local and national competition.
There were more monitors inside the fishbowl, a
half dozen of them mounted in a row close to the ceiling. At the
moment they were all muted, but at regular intervals Angela scanned
them, and Eve knew that if anything exploded, crashed or declared
war anywhere in the known world, her boss would have the sound up
in one heartbeat and a reporter working the story in two.
Angela was a master of the game of television news.
The average tenure for a news director in a midsize market was
eighteen months; Angela had been at WWRI for nearly three years and
things were still rosy. Her arrival had been akin to tossing a live
grenade into the studio. With management’s support, she’d
overhauled the existing sets, played to the stations’ strength by
focusing resources on local news, and defied convention by axing
such formula relics as the one-two punch of running an
attention-grabbing prime-time tease followed by the irritatingly
coy “details at eleven.” Angela had little in common with average
viewers, but she was shrewd enough to get them; she
understood what interested them and what pissed them off, and she
proceeded accordingly.
Initially, she and Eve were wary of each other. Eve
didn’t want the new boss trying to clip her wings, and the new boss
didn’t want Eve thinking longevity entitled her to coast. However,
it didn’t take long for each of them to recognize a kindred spirit
in the other. They were both ambitious, unafraid to take chances
and willing to do whatever was necessary to get the job done right.
On the personal side, neither of them had to balance her career
with a husband and children. And neither of them lived with one eye
on the next rung of the ladder, a rarity in the world of television
journalism.
Most journalists and news directors were always
looking ahead to the next job in the next biggest market, ready to
pounce on any opening that would bring them more exposure and more
money, with the ultimate prize of being tapped by one of the major
networks. Eve had never viewed her job as a stepping stone. She’d
always intended to stay put in Providence. In the beginning it was
because Grand and Chloe and Rory were depending on her and she
wanted to be there for them, even if it meant letting go of her own
dreams. But as time went on she discovered other reasons to stay.
Not that a fatter paycheck wouldn’t come in handy; Rory’s college
tuition was right around the corner, and for all she knew there
were other expensive family talismans to be rescued. But there were
things that mattered more to her, personally and
professionally.
Providence wasn’t simply her hometown; through the
years and through her work it had also become an old friend, one
with quirks and flaws along with all the things that made it shine,
a friend with the power to make her laugh and make her cry. She
knew Providence the way you came to know a cherished friend;
she knew its hidden pleasures and its dark alleys and its secrets,
and that gave her an invaluable edge as a journalist.
It was a perfect fit. Her home beat was big enough
to continue to interest and challenge her professionally and small
enough that she could see the effect her work had, small enough
that every once in a while something she reported made a
difference. Not a huge difference and maybe only a difference in a
handful of lives, or even in just one life, but that was enough.
Because when it happened, for just a little while, she felt like
Superman, champion of the little guy, able to right wrongs and leap
buildings in a single bound.
It was an amazing feeling, one most folks never got
to experience and that even the most lucrative job offer couldn’t
promise to deliver. And even if it could, she wouldn’t leave. She
felt too strong a connection to the city; if she could do good
through her work, she wanted to do it there.
It was the reason she’d become a journalist in the
first place, to make a difference. Once, she’d dreamed of doing it
on a grand scale. That wasn’t meant to be. But even if she wasn’t
reporting from a war zone or famine-ravished country, she stilled
needed to know that what she did mattered somewhere besides her
bank balance, that she wasn’t simply marking time at WWRI or
temporarily filling a space on a giant chessboard. If she felt an
occasional stab of restlessness, a niggling sense that there was
something else, something more she could be doing, or should
be doing, she tried not to let it bother her. Most of the time, she
was too busy for prolonged navel-gazing or soul-searching.
And her dedication had paid off. After years of
honing her own style and approach to the news, she was no longer
hostage to the daily assignment desk; instead, she was in charge of
Special Projects, which meant freedom to enterprise her own ideas
for longer, magazine-style stories that ran over several broadcasts
and allowed for more nuanced coverage of a subject.
Practically speaking, she didn’t just head the
Special Projects Department, she was the department, and
that was just fine with her. She liked having control of every
aspect of a story, from inception to broadcast. And she had free
rein to tap whatever support staff and equipment she needed as long
as she kept Angela up-to-date with what she was working on, brought
the package in on time and continued to deliver in the
all-important ratings department.
Today’s meeting was of the keep-Angela-up-to-date
variety.
“Yes. Yes. Yes,” Angela said, with brisk nods of
approval as she ran down Eve’s list of bullet points for a
follow-up that was the biggest of several projects she had in the
works. A year ago, fire had ripped through the top floor of a
Newberry College dorm, claiming the lives of six students and
leaving a dozen others seriously injured. Fire stories were
something Eve usually avoided; that brand of pain and loss struck
too close to home. But something about this story had drawn her in.
Or rather, someone.
Freshman Allison Snow, one of the burn victims,
also lost her twin sister, Cassidy, in the fire. She was struggling
to survive an avalanche of trauma and grief and physical suffering
that would crush most people when the fire marshall’s report
delivered another blow. The report concluded that the fire had
started when sparks from a frayed electrical cord ignited flammable
decorations hanging nearby, decorations Allison had hung for a
party that weekend. The revelation touched a deep personal chord in
Eve and she’d been unable to turn away.
The first time they met, Allison was still
hospitalized with second- and third-degree burns from face to knee
on her left side. She was past the early stages of treatment, the
agonizingly painful scrubbing and removal of dead tissue, but she
still faced months of skin grafts and surgery and physical therapy,
and then, in all likelihood, a lifetime of scars, physical and
psychological, to remind her of that night. Eve was working on a
series of reports on the aftermath of the fire, intended as a
tribute to those who’d been lost and to show how the entire
community had been touched by the tragedy. She started with the
victims and their families, then the firefighters who’d saved lives
and the doctors and nurses who’d worked around the clock to keep
the injured alive, and she followed the ripples outward, through
the Newberry faculty and student body, and finally to the community
at large.
She wanted Allison and Cassidy’s story to be part
of it; she wanted to give Allie a chance to memorialize her sister
as only she could. But she made it clear from the start that it
wasn’t her only reason for reaching out and that even if Allie
never agreed to an interview, she would keep coming back. It was
important to Eve that Allie know there was someone around who
wouldn’t try to brush aside what she was feeling, someone in a
position to understand in excruciating detail because she knew
firsthand what it was like to be trapped inside that tangled web of
grief and guilt and regret.
The instant she walked into the hospital room, Eve
had recognized the look in the girl’s eyes. It was the same lost
and haunted look she’d seen in her own eyes for years after the
fire that killed her parents and laid waste to life as she’d known
it. She knew that behind that look an endless loop of “what if?”
and “if only” was running inside her head. She knew what a dark and
lonely feeling it was to hold yourself responsible even when no one
else did.
Angela finished reading Eve’s notes and looked up.
“I like it. I especially like your idea of fading from clips of
earlier interviews to new tape of the same subject. Have you been
able to get in touch with everyone you spoke with last year?”
“Pretty much. One professor retired and moved to
Florida, and a few kids have transferred to other schools. I have
someone trying to get new contact info for them, but it’s nothing I
can’t work around if I have to.”
“Good. I’ve checked out some of the raw tape you’ve
logged. You’ve developed quite a rapport with Allison Snow.”
“Unfortunately, we have a lot in common.”
Angela nodded without comment. She knew a little
about Eve’s background, but she wasn’t given to extraneous prying
or sentiment and Eve blessed her for it.
“When do her bandages come off?” she asked
Eve.
“Next week. She wants me to be there. For moral
support.”
A gleam appeared in Angela’s dark eyes. “Any chance
she’d let you bring along a photog?”
“I wouldn’t even ask.”
Her boss shrugged. “Just a thought.”
Eve sometimes thought that if Snow White had an
evil twin, it would be Angela. She had the right look—wavy black
hair, pale porcelain skin and ruby red lips—and, at least when it
came to business, a heart of pure, calculating ice. And she’d made
good use of all of it to get as far as she had on a playing field
that still pretty much favored men. Angela didn’t pretend to be one
of the boys. Far from it. Like Eve, she preferred to do things her
way. In Angela’s case that meant wielding her femininity like any
other weapon at her disposal, ruthlessly and with a style all her
own. She dressed for the daily battle in defiantly girly colored
suits, raspberry and lavender and lemon yellow, with jackets nipped
at the waist and skirts that were straight and narrow, showing off
a figure many younger women would covet. A hint of cleavage was not
unheard of . . . but comfortable shoes definitely were. Comfort,
her own and others, was not a priority for Angela.
“We really don’t need anything sensational to hype
this anyway,” she assured Eve. “The latest viewer survey shows
there’s still mega interest out there. I don’t want to sound . . .
callous, but we really lucked out having the one-year anniversary
fall during sweeps. We’ll tease it—tastefully—during every
broadcast the week before. With any luck we’ll pull a forty share
on at least a couple of nights.”
A forty share meant that forty percent of
households in the viewing area were tuned in. Once that had been a
fairly common occurrence, but with all the competition from cable
networks and online news sites—including their own—pulling a forty
these days was like hitting a grand slam. That made Angela’s
expression of confidence even more significant, and Eve made a
mental note to remember it when contract negotiations rolled
around.
“Tell me more about this other idea,” Angela said,
moving on. “What do pets have to do with finance and
foreclosures?”
“Pets cost money. If you get laid off and have to
cut expenses to the bone, pets sometimes have to go. Or if a family
loses their home and has to crash with relatives for a while, the
invitation might not include the family pooch or kitty and so they
end up in a shelter. It was a volunteer at a local animal shelter
who tipped me off to it. I made a few quick calls to other shelters
and heard the same thing over and over; they’re filled to
capacity—and beyond—and more animals arrive daily.”
“So do they . . . ?” She made a slicing motion
across her throat.
Eve gave a grim nod. “Eventually. But most of them
are trying to hold out as long as they can to give owners a chance
to get settled somewhere and come back to claim them. It’s
heartbreaking—these aren’t strays with health problems, three
strikes against them and no place to go; they’re members of the
family.”
“We had a little black poodle when I was a kid,”
Angela recalled. “Mitzi. She chased the mailman until the post
office threatened to cut off delivery if it didn’t stop, and
whenever it thundered, she’d get nervous and throw up on our feet.”
She sighed, as close to misty-eyed as Eve had ever seen her. “She
was a real pain in the ass, but I still would have hated to have to
give her away.”
Eve nodded. “Some shelters have started Foster
Friend campaigns, asking for volunteers to help ease the
overcrowding by taking in an animal—or two—on a temporary basis.
Best-case scenario, the pets get reclaimed by their owners. Worst
case, they get a few extra weeks, or months. And maybe, if they’re
lucky, that’s enough time for their foster friend to fall in love
with them and they get a new home.”
“Hmm. It has possibilities. And it’s sure as hell
timely. Maybe we could spin it off the financial segment . . . give
the C block a softer edge. Or maybe . . . maybe . . .” She paused,
her gaze sliding past Eve to focus on the clear blue sky outside
the window. Eve could almost hear the wheels turning inside
Angela’s head. “Maybe we could do a version of the Tuesday’s Child
spot, only instead of featuring a kid each week; we spotlight a pet
in need of a foster home. We could get an existing advertiser to
sponsor it . . . or better yet, pick up a new sponsor. One of those
big pet-store chains would be perfect.”
“That’s actually not a bad idea,” Eve told her.
“Just getting the word out is bound to spur adoptions . . . and
hopefully donations too.”
“And create good word of mouth for us,” added
Angela, cutting to the heart of the matter from her standpoint. “I
mean, who the hell doesn’t love snips and snails and puppy dog
tails? This could be big. I say we toss it to Promotions and see
what they come up with. Okay with you?”
Eve sort of nodded and murmured agreement. A second
earlier she’d glanced at the monitors and her attention had been
instantly shanghaied by the image on one of them. A square-jawed,
sun-bronzed, tawny-haired man was being interviewed by the ladies
of The View. And, judging by the fawning expressions on the
faces of all four women, he was charming the pants off them. It
was, she recalled, something he was very good at.
She couldn’t be sure how long she sat there,
staring up at the screen, heart pounding, chest constricting,
memories popping in her head like tulips in springtime. It finally
penetrated that Angela was speaking. To her. And she managed to
drag her attention away from the monitor. Slowly, as if freeing
herself from mental quicksand.
“Hmm?”
“Friend of yours?” Angela inquired, the measured
cadence of her words suggesting she’d asked once or twice already
and wanted to make sure she got through this time. She supplied a
visual aid by aiming a crimson-tipped finger at the monitor. “Nick
Trevino. Is he a friend of yours?”
The sudden warming of her cheeks when his name was
spoken out loud was enough to snap Eve back to full awareness. She
had a feeling her face looked as ridiculously red hot as it felt,
and was appropriately mortified.
Angela wanted to know if Nick was a friend of
hers.
“Sort of. Maybe. A long time ago,” she stammered.
“I mean, we went to school together. So, yeah, I know him . . .
knew him. In school.”
God, now there was stammering to go along with the
blushing; was she thirty-six or sixteen?
Angela eased back in her big leather chair, raised
her perfect brows ever so slightly and said nothing. The silence
was more unsettling than a string of questions. Eve recognized the
technique; she’d used it herself hundreds of times during
interviews. Let the silence stretch long enough and most people
would grow uncomfortable and try to fill it, and in the process end
up revealing more than they wanted to.
She checked her watch, stood abruptly and tugged on
the hem of her sweater. “Wow, it’s later than I realized. I have to
go. To do an interview. This time I am bringing along a
photographer. Naturally. Since it’s for television.” She snatched
the paper from the center of Angela’s desk. “Thanks for your input.
I’ll just drop this off at Promotions on my way out.”
She went straight from the fishbowl to her own
office and closed the door tightly behind her so she wouldn’t be
interrupted. Her office didn’t have a row of monitors, only one
perched on a file cabinet in the corner, but one was all she
needed.
She quickly tuned in to The View. Good. The
interview was still running. She backed up until she hit the chair
at her desk and sank into it as she turned up the sound. She was
curious to hear what Nick had to say, and irritated with herself
for being curious and . . . something else. Something subtle.
The caption below his smiling face read, “Nicholas
Trevino, Journalist, Author of When All Else Fails: Memoir of a
Life Well-Traveled .”
Memoir. Give me a break, she thought,
recalling that besides being charming, Nick Trevino—journalist,
ex-friend, ex-lover, ex-fiancé—was also exactly one year, two
months and six days older than she was. What kind of
self-aggrandizing know-it-all writes a memoir before he even turns
forty? The answer was obvious, and also irritating. The kind who
led an adventurous, dangerous, fascinating, globe-trotting life as
a famous and highly respected foreign correspondent. She supposed
the fact that he looked and sounded like Indiana Jones’s smarter,
braver, more dashing brother probably wouldn’t hurt book sales
either.
Nick Trevino was living his dream, just as he
always said he would. What bothered Eve was that he was also living
hers.
Or maybe it would be more accurate to say he was
living their dream, the dream they’d once shared, the dream
they’d created together. She and Nick were working as summer
interns in Washington when they met and clicked. They dated long
distance until graduation, and then they both sought, and won, the
prestigious Wyler Fellowship to study international journalism.
Their plan was to finish grad school and then follow the story
wherever it took them. They were ambitious and idealistic and in
love. And they were certain—the kind of certain you can be only in
your early twenties—they weren’t going to simply write about the
world; they were going to change it.
They’d lay awake long into the night talking about
marriage and forever and how they were going to make it work, no
matter what. And about how, someday far, far away, after they’d
seen everything and been everywhere, they would write a book about
it. Together.
It was more than a dream for Eve; it was a chance
for a fresh start, and she had never believed in or wanted anything
so completely.
Then Chloe called with the news that she was
pregnant. Eve remembered the drive back to New York to collect her
things and how certain she’d been that Nick would understand her
decision to return home. He hadn’t. She’d been certain he would get
over his initial surprise and disappointment and remember their
solemn vow to make it work, forever, no matter what. But
that hadn’t happened either.
Nick stayed angry and she struggled to explain and
they argued, long into several nights. The more they talked, the
more it became all-about-Nick . . . about how his plans were being
trashed and how inconvenient it would be for him not to have her
around and how draining it would be to have to drive back and forth
to Providence to see her. It was as if she and Chloe were nothing
more than remote satellites revolving around planet Nick, useful
only as long as they remained on course. But with all the debris
flying around at the time, all those jagged pieces of her plans and
her dreams and her heart, Eve didn’t see that clearly until much,
much later.
Eventually Nick had cut off all discussion and
issued an ultimatum: he needed her with him, and if she left, even
for a year or two, if she put Chloe’s needs ahead of his, they were
finished, done, kaput. And Eve, hurt and desperate not to see her
dream disappear completely, had done the only thing that made sense
to her at the time: she told him the truth.
She’d always intended to tell him, of course. She’d
sworn not to follow in her mother’s misguided footsteps and spring
it on him after they were already married. She’d simply been
waiting for the perfect moment. That plan seemed to have blown up
in her face, leaving her no choice but to tell him everything right
then.
Everything. Complete and unvarnished and as totally
preposterous sounding as she knew it was. She told him things she’d
never told anyone, truths buried so deep it hurt to drag them up
and say them out loud. She told him the reason she felt not simply
obligated but honor bound to help Chloe in any way she could was
because it was her fault their parents weren’t there to do it. She
told him about the Winter Rose Spell and the candles and the fire.
About blood magic and enchantresses and the time before time.
Nick had listened to it all, his expression
impassive throughout, like a good journalist’s should be. And when
she was finished, he told her he’d changed his mind and she could
forget about the ultimatum. It was off the table. And then, before
she had time to make the mistake of feeling relieved, he told her
to pack her stuff and leave, because she was a liability he
couldn’t afford.
He had to think about his future, he told her. If
she was telling the truth, if magic was real, then she was like a
time bomb that could at any moment detonate and destroy his
credibility and reputation, and he wanted no part of it. And if it
wasn’t real, then she was either lying or crazy, and he wanted no
part of that. Either way, he wanted no part of her.
Looking up and seeing Nick on the monitor had been
like a sudden, hard punch to her gut. Not because she still had
tender feelings for him. She didn’t. Watching him on screen,
hearing him talk about his recent marriage to a pretty young
photographer who traveled with him and was clearly the maraschino
cherry on top of his perfect life, the only thing Eve felt was
grateful that whatever she and Nick shared had ended when it
did.
For as long as she could remember she’d dreamed of
sharing her life with a man who understood and accepted and loved
everything about her. At fifteen she’d been so sure he was out
there, somewhere, waiting for her just as impatiently as she was
waiting for him, that she’d cast a spell to catch a glimpse of his
face. That hadn’t ended well. Then along came Nick, breathing new
life into her battered dreams, and in the end providing a glimpse
of hard, cold reality. For the second time, magic won and she lost.
Big time.
Eventually, as her heart slowly—very, very
slowly—mended, she reconciled herself to the truth. That even if
the man of her silly, romantic fantasies did exist, and they did
someday, by some miracle, stumble across each other, there was no
way she could ever know for certain it was him . . . not without
getting closer and risking far more than she intended to ever
again. And she needed to be certain. Before she opened her heart to
a man again she needed to know he was the right man, the man
destined to love her the way she longed to be loved. She wasn’t any
more willing to settle for less now than she was at fifteen.
Resigning herself to the truth was one thing; resigning herself to
the wrong man was out of the question. And Nick Trevino had proven
himself to be the wrong man.
As she watched Whoopi thank him and toss to
commercial, she was suddenly able to put a name to the other,
subtle feeling that had been tugging at her heart since she walked
out of Angela’s office. Sadness. The kind of sadness you sometimes
feel when looking at old photographs or reading old love
letters.
Seeing Nick had sent her hurtling back to a time
filled with endless possibilities and grand flights of fancy. But
time is always moving and shifting to let you see things from a
different perspective, whether you want to or not. She could see
now that nothing in this life was truly endless, and that even the
highest soaring flights eventually had to come back to earth and be
grounded in something more solid than a young girl’s hopes and
whimsy.
She wasn’t quite cynical enough to entirely rule
out the possibility of finding love, or having it find her. She
supposed it was still possible. She supposed anything was possible.
But these days she was a much harder sell. It would require a
pretty spectacular twist of fate for her to believe it was really
meant to be, and she wasn’t counting on that happening or holding
her breath waiting for it. And it certainly wasn’t the reason she
refused to part with the pendant for any price.
She might not be entirely convinced it was as
powerful a talisman as Grand claimed, or that it could change the
family’s historically dismal record in finding true love, but the
more she considered the possibility, the more she found herself
wanting it to be true. Not for herself. She wanted it for Chloe and
for Rory. She wanted them to have all the possibilities she’d lost
or surrendered along the way. With all of her own heart, she wanted
it to have enough magic to safeguard theirs.