Chapter 4
The map led Jenna along a series of winding
paths across the grounds that soon felt like a maze. But each path
was marked with small signs that told her she was going the right
way. As she walked, she felt herself becoming more and more
isolated—she heard no voices or movements other than the occasional
bird in the palm and banyan trees overhead. And with each step, the
lace of her thong rubbed against her, heightening her
arousal.
Finally, she emerged from a foliage-lined path to
find herself face-to-face with a non-descript brick building that
didn’t seem to fit the surroundings. Consulting the map, she saw it
labeled simply as SCHOOL—and her fantasy was to take place inside
it.
Pulling open the heavy front door, she followed a
dark hallway lined in old-fashioned green tile, passing numbered
doorways, then made her way up a set of stairs to the second floor,
finally reaching room 222.
Biting her lip, her stomach churning a bit, she
twisted the doorknob and stepped inside—only to find herself in a
tiny room, not larger than a walk-in closet. It contained a padded
bench, a row of hooks on the wall above, and a large oak wardrobe.
As well as another door.
A white card rested on the bench, so she snatched
it up.
Change into the items in the chifforobe,
leaving the lingerie on underneath.
After you’ve dressed, come inside, prepared for class.
Don’t be afraid. Be ready.
After you’ve dressed, come inside, prepared for class.
Don’t be afraid. Be ready.
Jenna sucked in her breath. So there were more
props here. She began to get nervous again.
At the same time, though, the juncture of her
thighs still tingled and she suffered the sense of having come too
far to turn back, the sense that whatever pleasure he’d laid out
for her, she owed it to herself to experience.
Still, when she opened the wardrobe, she gasped—at
the sight of a small white blouse and short plaid skirt, à la
naughty Catholic schoolgirl.
Okay. So she’d been wrong, as in ridiculously
naïve. This wasn’t a soft, romantic fantasy. This was . . . kinky.
And she clearly should have paid more attention to the emerging
school theme. What was that about?
Yet he’d told her there would be costumes involved
and roles to play, so maybe she shouldn’t be so surprised.
And it could be worse. He only wants you to be a
sexy schoolgirl. And at least she’d been a schoolgirl
before, even if not a sexy or Catholic one.
As she reached for the skirt, she started to wonder
why she wasn’t stopping this now, why she wasn’t backing out and
changing her mind, screaming, “Marie Antoinette!” through the door
and running like mad in the other direction.
But she didn’t allow herself to go there. Since
something was telling her to put on the outfit.
Lust, she decided. It was lust. It was wanting to
be with Brent Powers again. It was the way her feminine mound
pulsed from all the anticipation, the way desire stretched all
through her now, the same as last night at dinner. And maybe, just
maybe, it was . . . realizing that she’d never again in her life
have this unique opportunity, at a place where no one knew her or
would judge her, and maybe she actually wanted to have the
experience.
Of course, she knew what happened at the Hotel
Erotique wouldn’t really stay at the Hotel Erotique—it would
come with her and be a part of her for the rest of her existence.
So if she ended up with regrets . . . well, she’d had very few in
life so far. So if that happened, she would simply push it aside
and consider it an honest mistake.
Thus it was lust and curiosity and the invisible
sense of arousal permeating everything here that had her zipping up
the scandalously short skirt, which began well below her navel yet
barely covered her butt, and tying the tight white, short-sleeved
blouse—no buttons—under her breasts.
Then she spied the shoes on the floor of the
chifforobe—white strappy platform heels like strippers wore. Oh my.
She’d never even thought about putting on such a pair of shoes
before, and she questioned whether she could walk in them, but . .
. she’d decided to do this, right? So she sat down on the bench and
slid her feet into the ultra-sexy heels, then stood to look in the
long mirror inside the wardrobe’s open door.
Whoa.
She blinked, studying herself from head to toe,
trying to adjust to this new image of herself.
She looked downright sinful. Naughty indeed.
And . . . oh God, she liked it.
She’d just become . . . every man’s dirty fantasy.
Fresh moisture pooled in the area she’d so recently shaved, and she
was stunned to discover she could get so hot looking at . . .
herself.
And she knew instantly, she wanted Brent to see her
this way. She wanted him to know she could look like this.
Not that she didn’t remain nervous as hell. She was
nearly as nervous as she was turned on. But in this moment, she
wanted to find out what waited on the other side of that closed
door more than she could have imagined a few hours ago. Brent had
seduced her again, it seemed—this time with risqué clothing and
written commands. But that was who he was—a wildly seductive man.
She’d accepted that about him quickly and surrendered to it. And
she felt like Alice in Wonderland as she reached for the doorknob,
gently turned it, and stepped through the metaphorical rabbit
hole.
She found herself in a large schoolroom. She could
even smell old books, aging wooden desks, and the scent of chalk.
Moving farther into the space, she glanced down at the teacher’s
desk to find props that made it feel all the more real: a teacher’s
gradebook, a pencil holder, a couple of history textbooks, and a
wooden bin filled with tests, marked with red ink. When she noticed
the one on top bore the name Jenna and had received an F, written
in angry red strokes, she fought to conceal a smile. She was
beginning to understand her role here.
Except that it still surprised her to walk around
the front of the desk in her sexy heels, clicking loudly on the
tile floor with each step, and see a nameplate that read: FATHER
POWERS. “Oh,” she murmured, discovering his role as well.
“Do you know why I made you stay after school
today, Jenna?”
At the sound of the deep, sexy voice, she looked up
with a start to see Brent had entered the room through another door
in the back, wearing the black suit and collar of a priest. And—oh
God—if it was possible, he looked even hotter than he had last
night, a mere glimpse of him making the mound beneath her short
skirt flutter. But maybe it was just because she hadn’t seen him
since then—maybe she’d forgotten exactly how good-looking he
was.
“Answer me!” he snapped. “Do you?”
“Um . . . no.” Lord, she was flustered. She’d never
been much of an actress and hadn’t had a chance to think about this
aspect of things.
He proceeded up an aisle between rows of desks
until he stood only a few feet away, after which he gave her a
once-over that told her he liked what he saw. When their eyes met
again, her breasts seemed to swell within the tight cups of her
bra. “You’re consistently late for class,” he said without breaking
the gaze, “you fail all your tests, and you try to tease and
distract me with your body. You’re a very naughty girl,
Jenna.”
Again, she felt the response between her thighs,
even if she didn’t quite understand why.
“Do you have anything to say for yourself?” he
asked, eyebrows raised. And wow, he was good in his role, since she
actually felt a little intimidated by his brusque manner—nothing
like the man she’d met last night.
“Um . . . I’ll try to do better?” she
managed.
“Not good enough, Jenna. I’m going to have to teach
you a lesson—you’re going to learn who’s in charge here once and
for all. You need to be punished.”
Punished. She swallowed, not sure what he meant.
“How?” she whispered.
He never took his eyes off hers. “Bend over my
desk,” he said. Then he stepped past her and used one arm to sweep
half the desktop’s contents to the floor in a loud clatter that
made her flinch—which she felt in her panties as much as everywhere
else.
God. Despite her arousal, well . . . this changed
things. It was a far cry from the romantic sex she’d hoped for. And
maybe the schoolgirl outfit had made her anticipate something . . .
well, at least playful—but they’d just left playful behind.
“Seriously?” she asked.
He looked positively outraged by the question, his
expression actually making her take a step back as her heart
pounded against her ribs. “When I give you an instruction, you do
it. Do you understand? Now, bend over!”
Jenna sucked in her breath and slowly moved to
where he stood. Biting her lip, she leaned over the big desk until
the upper half of her body rested on it. She turned her head
sideways, toward him, to try to see what was coming, not at all
sure she was ready for it.
“Lift your skirt up over your ass,” he
demanded.
In response, even in her subdued position, lust
continued to flow through her veins. After all, she’d wanted
to show him—all through her preparations, she’d wanted him
to see her. And despite the weirdness of being bossed around this
way, as she reached behind her to flip up the tiny skirt, revealing
the strip of lace there, her arms felt heavy, warm.
Upon seeing her bottom, he let out a low sound of
approval that ran all through her.
But when he brought the flat of his hand down on
her rear for a stinging slap, she cried out, stunned. Maybe she
should have understood that was coming, but somehow she’d gotten
too caught up in the moment to really expect it.
“Tell me you’re a bad girl, Jenna,” he instructed
her from above.
She let out a breath and said the words. “I’m . . .
a bad girl.” But it sounded so odd coming from her throat, in a
voice too meek, disbelieving.
He brought his palm down to deliver another slap.
“Again,” he commanded.
“I’m a bad girl.” Better this time. Stronger. Not
that she was sure why that mattered to her. But at the moment, she
found herself compelled to appease him.
Another hard, spanking blow—and again, she yelped
slightly. He wasn’t being gentle and it hurt. “Tell me you like
showing me your ass.”
“I like showing you my ass.” As she said it,
though, her eyes fell shut. She just didn’t usually think of her
rear as her ass. And to tell him such a truth, because it
was true . . . felt strangely difficult.
He spanked her again, and this time, his voice
deepened slightly—she could hear the stark lust in it. “Tell me you
want to show me your tits.”
Another word she never used. And another truth she
felt at her core but found it painful to admit. Yet as a writer,
she knew words were only words—she wasn’t offended by them, just
not accustomed to using certain ones. She knew guys liked that
particular word, so if he wanted to hear it, if it would keep him
from being angry, fine. “I want to show you my tits.”
An additional slap of his hand made her wonder if
her . . . ass was turning red, and if that turned him on.
“Tell me you want me to play with your wet pussy,” he
instructed—and for some reason, she felt that one in her gut.
“I—I never talk that way, so . . .”
“You do now. What I command, you do. Now say
it!”
She let out a breath. She’d realized he was a
know-it-all, but she hadn’t foreseen him being so . . . mean. Words
so foreign-feeling had never left her mouth, but she focused on
getting them out in a calm, obedient manner. “I . . . want you to
play with my pussy.”
Behind her, he went quiet and she wondered if her
acquiescence excited him. She wondered what the hell all this was
supposed to accomplish in terms of her sexual education. And she
didn’t want to be aroused anymore—she wanted to be angry. But
despite her wishes, her crotch still throbbed against the desk as
she waited . . . for something, and sort of wished this were over.
Her heart beat too hard.
This wasn’t what she’d hoped for when she’d put on
the bra and panties—at all. She even considered using the
safeword—just to end it.
Yet she didn’t. Maybe because her crotch
throbbed. And her breasts felt full, needy, pressed against the
desk. Part of her was appalled by this, by what he thought
qualified as a fantasy for her . . . and yet, wasn’t she aching for
more? Wasn’t she excited?
So she lay there, nervous, pulsing, anxious,
torn.
That’s when he eased one finger inside the narrow
band of lace stretching downward over the center of her bottom. She
bit her lip at the touch—and sharply pulled in her breath as his
fingertips moved slowly over her anus. They felt damp, as if maybe
he’d moistened them first. She tensed, waiting for the pleasure of
his fingers stroking lower, through her wetness—so it shocked the
hell out of her when his touch didn’t stray from the small fissure
and he instead slid one finger smoothly, firmly inside it.
A startled cry lurched from her throat at the
strange, uncomfortable sensation. “Wh-what are you . . . ?”
“Punishing you, naughty girl.”
“B-but . . .”
“Quiet,” he told her, and began to move his finger
in and out.
Jenna had never felt anything like it. She wanted
to think it hurt—the initial entry had been distressing—but . . .
it didn’t. In fact, she began to squirm, almost involuntarily, and
she heard her own breath growing ragged. With pleasure? She
couldn’t figure that part out, but something was definitely
making her hotter inside. She suffered the sense of being invaded,
never having expected anything to enter her there, yet she never
said the safeword or anything else that equated to asking him to
stop.
Then he used his free hand to spank her
again—harder now, in a faster rhythm. Jesus God. She yelped at each
strike of his palm, overcome by the combination of odd feelings
vibrating through her. Did it hurt? Or did it feel good? She
couldn’t even tell. But each unyielding slap echoed through her
body, seeming to heighten every other sensation: the finger moving
in and out of her anus, the hardness of the desk beneath her hips
and breasts, the pulsation between her legs.
“Have you had enough?” he finally asked.
“Yes,” she burst out. Because her bottom was sore,
and inexplicable feelings wracked her from head to toe.
Yet even as he withdrew his finger, making her yelp
yet again, he said darkly, “I don’t think you have. I think you
need to be punished much, much more, Jenna.” And with that,
he grabbed her hip and rolled her to her back on the desk.
It shook her to see him again, face-to-face, after
what he’d just done to her, yet his expression held nothing but
intense desire mingled with power. Stepping between her legs, he
leaned over, brusquely curled the fingertips of both hands into the
cups of her bra, and yanked them down, causing her breasts to
tumble free.
“Damn,” he murmured then, for a brief second
sounding more like the Brent of last night than Father Powers, and
his reaction reminded her it was the first time he’d actually seen
them. His response warmed her cheeks and made her glance down to
where the two mounds emerged from a frame of white knotted blouse
and askew lace, large and round, nipples pointed.
His eyes remained locked there, too, as he
closed his hands over them, massaging roughly. A moan escaped her
throat when, below, his hardened length connected with her crotch
through his pants and her thin undies. Her body felt supercharged
now, as if everything up to this moment, from the shaving to the
spanking to the anal play, had all been priming her . . . for
whatever happened next.
Brent aggressively twirled her nipples between his
fingertips, then pulled on them, gentle but firm, the move seeming
to elongate them further. Soft cries and mewls left her and she
suddenly felt out of her head with pleasure—and the need for
more.
Next, he bent over her, taking one turgid peak in
his mouth, sucking it in hard. “Oh!” she cried. “Oh God!” It
hurt—and yet it didn’t. Because it made her throb still more wildly
below. He rubbed against her there now, and her head dropped back
in abandon. She felt her back arching, urging him to take as much
of her breast into his mouth as possible. She’d had no idea she
liked things a little rough.
She wanted to protest when he released her breast
and stepped back, disconnecting their bodies completely, but she
held her tongue when he reached under her tiny scrap of a skirt to
pull the lace thong down and off, over her sexy shoes.
Once it was gone, he moved back between her legs
and flipped the skirt up again to look at her—there. She tingled
madly, pulsated almost violently. But then—oh no—he looked furious.
What on earth was wrong?
She didn’t have to wonder long. “You disobeyed me
again, Jenna! I instructed you to shave your pussy completely, yet
you didn’t.”
She simply blinked, surprised—and still crazily
aroused, as well as a little freaked out because he seemed so upset
again. “Yes, I did. Mostly,” she insisted, realizing he was
referring to the small thatch of hair she’d left, despite its being
located well above the area that mattered. “I mean, I just thought
. . .”
“You just thought you’d do what you wanted
to do,” he boomed at her. “How many times do I need to make this
clear? When I tell you to do something, you do it—or you suffer the
consequences. Do you understand that?”
Quietly, she nodded. She didn’t know how else to
reply.
“I don’t think you do,” he groused. “And I think I
need to teach you a lesson the hard way!”
Lying half dressed yet fully revealed before him,
she shuddered. “How?”
“I’m going to fuck you until you scream.”
Oh. My. That didn’t sound much like
punishment.
But then she got it . . . sort of. He was
pretending sex was punishment. He was doing what she’d asked
him to do last night—take the choices away from her, and at the
same time give her what they both knew she wanted.
Why did that make it so much easier?
And yet, for her, it did. It felt so much more
instinctive to act dismayed at the words than show her delight. She
even managed a gasp and drew her knees up, closing her legs
tight.
Their eyes met and she realized he understood—all
of it. That it was her natural, normal reaction, even when she
desired sex. That all her life, it had felt easier to make a
guy part her legs than to do it willingly. And that’s what felt
better now, too—as he placed his hands firmly on her knees to
briskly pry them open.
She let out a breath of excitement, surging with
still more moisture when his gaze dropped again to where she’d
shaved for him.
His palms skimmed swiftly up her inner thighs,
coming to rest where they met, framing the part of her that
glistened wet and open there. It was another way in which she’d
never quite seen herself, but like him, she was looking. His
expression made her feel obscenely beautiful. And she almost wanted
to beg. Please, please touch me. But she didn’t. Because she
couldn’t. Because it was just like everything else—so much easier
if the guy just did it, if she never had to worry about
letting him know her desires.
That’s when Brent stroked two fingers down through
her moist folds—thank God—making her whimper and quake. He smoothly
pushed the same fingers into her drenched opening and a low sob
left her.
Rather than move his fingers in and out then, he
instead began to turn them in a slow and more circular motion, as
if reaching around inside her, exploring her inner walls. The odd
sensation gave her chills, despite the room being comfortable, and
she breathed unevenly, audibly. With his free hand, he reached to
undo his pants, his zipper, and she bit her lip when his erection
burst free.
Oh—oh God. She’d not seen it last night, only felt
it. Long and straight and undeniably hard, the straining veins
along its length made it look like a powerful, dangerous tool. Even
having taken it into her already, the sight made her nervous
now—because he looked bigger than any other guy she’d been
with.
“Get ready to take your punishment, Jenna,” he
said, his voice low and threatening.
In response, she lay back more completely on the
desk and shut her eyes.
Yet as Brent’s hands closed tight over her bare
hips, he leaned over and rasped, “No. Open your eyes and watch me
fuck you.”
She forced them wide in response, but focused on
the ceiling.
And then felt him waiting—waiting for her to do
what he’d said.
So she lightly clenched her teeth and drew her gaze
slowly, uncomfortably downward, until she met his—and he said,
“Lower. My cock.”
She sucked in a breath, felt her chest heave.
Dragged her gaze downward, over the priest’s collar and the black
fabric of his suit. Until she again saw the large male appendage
jutting from it like a steel girder.
She watched him close his fist around the base. She
watched him guide the engorged head, a dot of shimmering moisture
at its tip, to where her pink folds lay parted, ready. She watched
him push the head inward—her body braced for the impact, which
came, hard.
As his length drove slowly, deeply, into her, they
both let out long, low groans, and Jenna continued witnessing the
amazing way her body swallowed that part of his. Until her eyes
fell shut again, out of pure pleasure, fullness—and this time he
didn’t insist she open them just yet.
With his big hands back at her hips, he began
thrusting in earnest. He didn’t go slow like last night—instead he
found a brisk, hard rhythm, and she felt every stroke at her very
core. Each made her cry out as it jolted her body—her breasts
jiggled within the tight lace still outlining them, and she found
herself gripping the bottom edge of the desk with both hands to
hold herself steady.
“Open your eyes, Jenna,” he said, his voice warm,
dark.
She obeyed, meeting his as their bodies collided,
again, again.
Then he released one of her hips and reached down
for her hand, removing it from the desk’s edge. He drew it up over
where he entered her—hard, so hard—and pressed her fingertips to
her clitoris, holding them there. “Touch yourself while I fuck
you,” he said, his gaze still steady and commanding on her.
Impulsively, she tried to pull her hand away, but
he wouldn’t allow it. He pushed her fingers back down, even moving
them over the sensitive nub to send an unbidden pleasure expanding
outward.
“I don’t want it to happen that way,” she protested
as he continued to pound into her flesh below. “I want you
to do it.”
He simply gave his head a short, definite shake.
“Rub your clit,” he insisted. “Do it!”
But the second he began to remove his hand, she
did, too—so he shoved her fingers back down, rougher this time,
forcing her to feel her own wetness.
She bit her lip, their eyes still locked. “This . .
. doesn’t . . . make me . . . feel good,” she managed between the
hard strokes of his erection.
“It will if you let it,” he assured her. “You can
even close your eyes if you want.” He suddenly sounded a little
more like Brent than Father Powers, and she immediately accepted
the offer to shut her eyes, shut out all the shocking, erotic
images assaulting her. But she still didn’t want to touch herself.
It wasn’t that she never did—she did sometimes; it was that she
couldn’t bear to do it in front of someone. Even during sex. It
felt so . . . private, personal.
Yet Brent still held her fingers down into her
folds, and even just the friction created by his thrusts succeeded
in moving her clit against her hand. And soon she heard her breath
begin to change, deepen, felt her chest begin to expand and
contract as she bit her lip and lifted her hips to better meet his
hard drives—and her own fingers.
Oh God. Oh God, it would happen soon. Still, Brent
flattened his fingertips over hers, moving them in a hot little
circle that made her begin to moan.
And as his touch grew gradually lighter, she wanted
to lift her hand away, too—but she didn’t. Couldn’t really.
Because—dear God—she was so close, everything inside her pounding,
pulsating, reaching. And then she exploded in orgasm, crying out,
lifting to meet his big erection and her own wet fingertips, again,
again, again.
Oh God.
When the hot waves passed, she felt spent.
Above her, Brent was saying, “That was good, baby.
So hot. You did so well.” And she opened her eyes to find his gaze
on her—and it somehow made her thrust harder against him, wanting
more and more of him, deep inside her, wanting him to make her feel
everything, everything there was to feel in the
world, in sex, in passion.
Until he was moving in her so violently, fucking
her so hard, that she couldn’t think straight, screaming at every
powerful plunge, and he began to growl, to groan, and then his eyes
fell shut and he began murmuring, “Fuck, aw fuck, I can’t stop.
Here I come, baby, here I come.”
And the thrusts he delivered then, accompanied by
still more fierce growls, nearly nailed her to the desk—and she
liked it.
Soon he fell forward onto her, collapsing in
exhaustion, and she noticed for the first time that her legs were
wrapped tight around him, the tall heels of her shoes digging into
his ass. And as she lay there beneath him, she realized in pure
horror that somewhere along the way she’d begun to think in the
terms he used: ass, fucking, clit. How the hell had
that happened? It made her feel like . . . someone else,
someone she wasn’t. Or at least she didn’t think she was
that person.
She could smell him, the musky male scent of him,
and suffered the urge to wrap her arms around him, too, or maybe
run one hand through his thick hair, his head resting gently on her
shoulder now—but she didn’t. Because she wasn’t sure how this part
worked. And she wasn’t at all sure she should let him know,
that despite the fantasy situation here, she was feeling a little
connected to him just from being so close, so weirdly
personal.
Finally, he rolled off her, onto his side on the
desk, withdrawing his erection—a move that left her feeling oddly
abandoned.
“You okay?” he asked, suddenly back to being Brent
now.
She hesitated, weighing her answer. “I think.” Then
she gave her head a soft shake. “It . . . wasn’t what I
expected.”
When she found the will to meet his gaze again,
he’d propped up on one elbow. “What were you expecting?”
The question made her shift her eyes back away,
embarrassed by the more innocent visions in her head. “It was
silly, really.”
“Tell me.”
She took a deep breath and tried to be honest.
“Something . . . softer. Satin sheets and violin music, maybe? Some
kind of romantic beach tryst. Something I might . . . really
fantasize, like you said.” Then she sighed. “Something that, now, I
don’t think you’d ever arrange for me—since your goal here
is fixing whatever you think is wrong with me, not just making me
feel good.”
“My goal is to do both,” he clarified.
Jenna found herself blinking uncomfortably. “I’m
just not sure this was . . . me.” She motioned around the room,
then peered down at the clothing she only half wore.
“You came. Hard,” he pointed out, sounding
just a bit arrogant.
She pulled in her breath, unable to deny it. “I
just don’t know . . . what all that was about.”
Brent couldn’t explain it to her—too much
information, too much detail, would only screw up the effects of
the sex. Still, he found himself wishing he could, because she’d
been brave coming here today and he felt a little bad for her now.
He probably should have anticipated an uncertain reaction—but
again, he just wasn’t used to fucking anyone who wasn’t thrilled to
be here. Usually, people were happy after fantasies—sometimes
exhausted but replete, other times delighted and giddy, and
everything in between. “Remember I said you have to trust me,” he
reminded her.
“I did—and I’m not sure I liked what
happened.”
He thought about going soft on her, but the truth
would be better for her in the long run. “You just don’t
want to like it. Because it’s a lot dirtier and more complex
than satin sheets and violins.”
She tilted her head. “Are you implying there’s
something wrong with satin sheets and violins?”
“Not at all. But you wouldn’t have felt half as
much. And you wouldn’t have come nearly as hard.”
“It would help if I knew what I was supposed to
take away from it.”
Maybe, maybe not. She might not appreciate knowing
that a big part of this was about making her obey him—so that he
could get her through her fantasies without her balking at his
every instruction.
He’d also wanted her to start playing with the
concept of being a bad girl. Girls like Jenna, who’d absorbed a lot
of negative sexual content growing up, usually went one of two
ways—all the way bad or all the way good. Jenna had been a
hard-core good girl, the kind who would be mortified if anyone ever
thought she was bad—but he’d just shown her that she could
be a bad girl and the world wouldn’t stop spinning, the sky
wouldn’t fall. Right now, she saw things too much in black and
white, not appreciating shades of gray—and there were lots
of shades of gray in sex.
“I can’t go into it with you,” he explained. “But
you need to loosen up and feel what it made you feel. Not the
I-wanted-satin-sheets part. Forget what you wanted and feel what
you got. Not just the orgasm. All of it.”
Next to him, she took a deep breath and he could
sense how hard she was thinking. Finally, she said, “I . . . wanted
you to make me do it. I didn’t . . . want to want it.”
“I know that,” he said simply.
“Well, isn’t that a bad thing? I mean, I’m
smart enough to know that probably isn’t the healthiest sexual
desire in the world.”
“It’s one of the things we’re going to be working
on,” he told her, then heard himself confiding a little more than
he probably should. “But for now, it’s something that satisfies
you, so I used it to help get you . . . into the game.” Part of
this had indeed also been about making her take what she
subconsciously needed him to give her. She’d made it clear last
night that she wasn’t comfortable admitting what she craved, that
she wanted the guy to take the lead, so if that made her do what he
wanted for a while, he would play to that. Then later, he’d make
her advance beyond that attitude.
In the meantime, though, if it pleasured her
and allowed him to take her in new directions, he’d be the
dominant lover she required. And he’d enjoy it, since being
dominant in bed came naturally to him. “The main thing, sunshine,
is what I keep telling you—you need to trust me. And you need to do
what I tell you. You need to understand that anything I demand of
you is ultimately going to pleasure you.”
“Maybe you make me do things that actually pleasure
you,” she suggested, switching on her argumentative side,
“but they really won’t pleasure me. Maybe people don’t take
pleasure in the same things.”
He only sighed. Did she really think he was that
dumb? “Of course they don’t—we all have certain things that get us
off more than others. But again, everything I’m doing is for your
own good.”
“Making me talk dirty? That’s something that turns
guys on—but not girls.”
At this, he couldn’t contain a small laugh. Poor
Jenna—she was so naïve in some ways. “Sunshine, I can assure you
plenty of women are excited by dirty talk.”
She pursed her lips and looked him in the eye,
appearing to weigh his words, deciding if she believed them. “Maybe
it does a little more for me when you’re doing it—but
I don’t enjoy doing it.”
He considered it progress that she’d even admitted
that much. But she was missing the point. “For your
information, making you talk dirty doesn’t have much to do with
whether or not you enjoy it—maybe you will and maybe you won’t.
Right now, it’s about getting over stigmas.”
She looked skeptical. “Stigmas? What do you
mean?”
“You know you avoid certain words,
sunshine.”
“Maybe I just don’t find them appealing,” she
argued.
“Or maybe you’re afraid there’s something wrong
with saying them.”
She rolled her eyes. “That’s stupid.”
“Then say them.”
“Why?”
“Because I said so. Because if you can’t even say
certain words, how are you ever going to attain real sexual
freedom?”
“I can say them. You told me to say them and I said
them.”
She had. But it had been a strain for her. And
purely mechanical. “Well, from now on, I expect you to say them a
lot more. I want you to start thinking of having sex as fucking, of
my penis as my cock, and of your vagina as your pussy—or your
cunt.”
She flinched, visibly.
And he said, “See? You’re afraid of the
word.”
“I’m a writer, Brent, and for your
information, words don’t scare me. But I happen to think of that
particular word as a very derogatory term for women.”
“Then that’s a problem,” he said matter-of-factly,
“because you should be thinking of it as what’s between your
legs.” He reached down and flicked a fingertip through her slit for
good measure, enjoying it perhaps a bit too much when she gasped in
unbidden delight. “This is another example of how you’ve let one
negative perception color your whole view. It’s a body part—a
fucking beautiful body part. That’s all. You’ve given the
word more power than it deserves, Jenna. Turn it into nothing but a
body part and you’ve taken the power back.”
She said nothing, looking both stunned and as
if—maybe, just maybe—she was realizing the truth in what he’d
said.
“Tell me what’s between your legs,” he
instructed.
“My . . . cunt,” she whispered.
“Very good,” he said softly in reply.
Just then, she drew in her breath, knit her brow.
“Were you really mad at me for not, you know, shaving the very top,
too?”
He grinned, conceding. “No. It looks incredible, by
the way.”
She smiled as if she’d just caught him at
something. “Aha! So that part was for you.”
He laughed at her sureness, then shook his head.
“No. That, too, is for you. To make sure you’re very familiar with
your body, comfortable with that part of yourself, fully in touch
with the parts that bring you the most pleasure. And by the way,
keep it shaved while you’re here.”
“Fine. But if you like it this way, how can you be
sure it’s not at least partially for your benefit?”
He tilted his head, thinking it was cute as hell
the way she argued these points, seemingly forgetting she wasn’t
all that comfortable talking about such things. “Okay, to be fair,”
he confessed, “let’s say it was for both of us.”
He thought she’d look happier about that—instead,
it appeared she already had something else on her mind.
“What?” he asked. “What’s going through that head
of yours now?”
“I guess I was just wondering . . . do I . . .
excite you?”
She had to ask? “Of course, honey. Did you not feel
that hard dick?”
She flushed slightly, prettily. “I mean, you’ve
been with a gazillion women and this is your job, so . . .”
He couldn’t help reaching up, brushing a long wisp
of hair back from her face. He hated that he’d somehow made her
doubt his true attraction to her. “If you think this is work for
me, sunshine, think again. When I walked in and saw you, I nearly
came in my pants, right then and there.”
“Really?”
He simply tilted his head and gave her a look.
Could she honestly not know how appealing she was, how hot? Then
again, maybe she’d never let herself be in many positions to find
out. “You make a bangin’ naughty schoolgirl, honey. And it’s
important to me that you know just how fucking sexy you
really are.”
“Important professionally or personally?”
“Both,” he said, without elaborating. Because it
was true, and he knew she needed to know that—but there was a damn
fine line here and he couldn’t cross it or they’d both end up
regretting it. Even beyond this fantasy, he was the teacher here
and she was the student. That was all there could really be. So he
changed the subject. “I’m going to give you some homework.”
She lowered her chin. “What makes you think I’m
going to continue with this?”
She could argue if she wanted, but he’d seen enough
to know without doubt—she’d come too far not to want to keep going.
“Because you’re starting to trust me. You’re starting to figure out
that maybe you do have a few issues to work out and you’re
willing to let me help you do it. Now, homework.”
She simply rolled her eyes again, so he went
on.
“I want you to spend some time thinking back over
everything that happened today, all of it, and examine how you felt
at each point. Figure out the things that excited you and those, if
any, that didn’t. If they truly didn’t physically excite
you, ask yourself why? Think about what made you feel sexy and hot.
Think about what made you nervous or afraid. Then make a list of
the positives—one list of things that made you feel sexy, and
another of things that turned you on. Even if they don’t seem PC—it
doesn’t matter. Be honest with yourself. Lesson number one—sex
isn’t supposed to be politically correct, sunshine. Pleasure is far
more complex than good taste allows for, so you have to let go of
all that when you’re in bed.”
“Is that it, on the homework?”
“Before you go to sleep tonight, call the front
desk and tell them you have something to deliver to me. Put your
lists in an envelope— there should be some in the desk in your
room—and someone will pick it up.”
“Ah, so you’re going to see the list. I
thought maybe it was just for my own self-awareness.”
“Afraid not, sunshine. It’ll help me know where we
stand in your, uh, tutorial. So, again, be honest. There’s nothing
you could say that would shock me or change my opinion of you.
Believe me, I’ve heard it all.”
She grinned. “I’ll just bet you have.”
He returned the smile, then began to push to his
feet and finally zipped up his pants. After which he took her hands
and pulled her to an upright position on the desk. “I’m gonna go.
You can stay here as long as you want, take your time. No one will
be in to tidy things up for a few hours.” Then he leaned a little
closer and lifted his hand to her face. “I’m proud of you,
sunshine. For letting yourself do this.”
She looked so pretty just then, so strangely
innocent. At some point while they’d talked, she’d pulled her bra
back into place, but she was still the naughty Catholic girl
sitting there with her pussy nearly on display—looking as pure as
the driven snow. “Can I ask you something?”
His voice came out too soft. “Sure—anything.”
“Are . . . we allowed to kiss? Because I’ve noticed
we haven’t.”
He drew a deep breath. How could he explain this?
“It’s not against the rules, but . . . given how many rules I’m
breaking here already, I don’t know if it’s the best idea.”
“Okay,” she said, clearly trying her damnedest to
sound as if it didn’t matter at all—but he felt in his gut how much
she yearned to be kissed right now, how much she needed what had
just happened on this desk to matter, even just a little.
And he shouldn’t validate it, because he
couldn’t ever let her believe the sex between them was more than
what it was—a phenomenally pleasant time between two people while
one of them educated the other. Yet something about the expression
on her face made his chest feel like it was caving in.
He started to go, but after two steps, heard
himself mutter, “Hell—fuck it.” Then he turned back, stepped
possessively between her thighs, and slid his hands around her
slender waist. He lowered his mouth to hers and kissed her hotly,
passionately.
Though after a minute, after that initial kiss or
two, the connection of their mouths slowed, their lips lingering
together for a long, still moment—which drove him into a drawn-out,
deliberate, deeper kind of kissing.
When his spine began to tingle, he knew it was time
to stop, so he pulled up, gently backing a step away.
Their eyes met and he once again felt like he was
seeing all of her: the sweet girl inside; the girl who was
frightened sexually but standing openly before him, exposed, both
physically and emotionally; the hot, dirty girl he knew hid within,
wanting to come out.
“Sweet dreams, sunshine,” he said, then turned and
exited the room.