Chapter 1
While everyone at home in Michigan was busy
carving pumpkins and munching on candy corn, Jenna was stepping off
a plane at the Miami International Airport. Miami—seemed like a
probable-enough place for a hotel specializing in sexual
gratification. Although the website made a big deal about the Hotel
Erotique being in an undisclosed location—probably because the very
concept was so kinky and “out there.” And if customers were more or
less paying for sex, well, wasn’t that illegal? So no wonder the
hotel’s address was a Miami PO box and the site was so cryptic
about the exact locale.
That still didn’t prepare her, though, for what
happened next.
She’d been told an escort would meet her at baggage
claim, and sure enough, there he was—a man in his thirties, blond
and mildly handsome with an endearing smile, holding up a card with
her last name on it. And the moment they made eye contact, a
horrifying thought struck her: He thinks I’m here for sex! He
thinks I’ve come to live out hedonistic fantasies with strangers!
Ugh.
She thought about defending herself, explaining the
situation—but that would just seem childish, and even prudish, to a
guy who delivered people to the Hotel Erotique for a living. Still,
as she identified herself and he said, “Hi, I’m Gabe,” smoothly
taking her bags, her face heated with embarrassment.
Oh brother. This was not a good start. How are
you going to spend two weeks at this place if you can’t look at
anyone without blushing? Unfortunately, though, this was the
first moment she’d thought about the other people she would
encounter there, or how they would perceive her.
She’d—stupidly—envisioned herself sunning and swimming all alone,
in complete solitude. Damn Kevin and Shannon for getting her into
this.
The part that really threw her, though, was when
she followed Gabe through the airport, traversing hallways, going
through doors, until finally he led her out into the hot south
Florida sun—not to a limo or shuttle bus, but onto a tarmac, where
a small private jet waited, suspiciously devoid of color or
markings.
“Um, where are we going?”
Gabe didn’t appear taken aback by the question—she
must not be the first guest to get confused at this point. “To the
Hotel Erotique, of course,” he said with a carefree smile. “It’s
just a short flight away.”
“How short?”
“Once we’re in the air, thirty minutes.”
“So it’s . . . on an island?”
He nodded easily over his shoulder as they
approached the plane, then bent to stow her luggage in an open
compartment, which she noticed was empty but for hers. Well, that
much was good. She didn’t want companions on this flight—people
going there for sex who also thought she was going there for
sex. Yuck.
“A private island between the Keys and the
Bahamas,” Gabe clarified. “Self-contained. The whole staff lives on
the island full-time.”
Wow. A private jet and staff accommodations. She
was starting to get why this place was so high priced—even if a
large portion of the fees did go to executing sex fantasies.
“We’ll have you soaking up the sun in an hour or
two,” Gabe said with a wink that made the juncture of her thighs
tingle. Just a little. Because of all the thoughts and worries and
concerns about sex surrounding this trip, she supposed. Even if she
wasn’t partaking, the whole concept made it difficult not to have
sex on the brain. And Gabe was cute. Tan. Well built. “Then,
after you get a chance to unwind, you’ll meet with your guide over
dinner.”
Her guide. She’d read about that in the folder of
information they’d sent her. Each guest was assigned a guide to
orchestrate his or her “experience” at the Hotel Erotique. The
guide was always the same gender as the guest and served not only
as confidant and advisor, but also analyzed the guest to design his
or her sexual fantasies. Of course, as Jenna had read more of the
resort’s literature, it had sounded less like a place where you
lived out your fantasies and more like a place that came up with
the fantasies for you. Which seemed, to her, even weirder.
But each guide also possessed a degree in psychology, so maybe it
made sense to have someone like that to sort of . . . direct
one’s casual sex.
Geez—casual sex. Gabe still thought she was here
for that. Upon remembering, she found herself mumbling a
noncommittal, “Oh, okay,” and again feeling embarrassed.
“You’ll love Mariel,” he went on as he followed
Jenna up the small jet’s stairway. “She’s great. Really easy to
talk to.” She’d already been given the name of her guide, and
apparently so had Gabe.
“Wow, seems you’re in the know about everything.
Next, I’ll find out you’re the pilot,” she teased, stepping onto
the luxurious plane.
“Co-pilot,” he said with a shrug, and she turned to
him in surprise. Was he kidding? “Really,” he added, as if reading
her mind. “As soon as I get you a drink from the bar and get you
buckled in, we’ll be ready for takeoff.”
A few minutes later, Jenna sat in a plush chair
next to a window, peering out over aqua Caribbean waters, sipping a
fruity drink Gabe had called “erotic rum punch,” and getting more
and more nervous as she approached her final destination. Odd, she
hadn’t been nervous before meeting Gabe and climbing aboard this
plane—but somehow that had made it all real to her. Lord, she was
going to the Hotel Erotique!
But stay calm. You’re just going for the beach
and the sun.
Only now she was regretting a few things, such as
the online questionnaires she’d filled out at Mariel’s request. She
wasn’t sure why she’d done it. Maybe she was curious to find out
what her answers meant. Although some of the questions were about
sex and fantasies, mostly they had been about less risqué subjects,
from her childhood to her current hobbies, and seemed to point
toward something like a personality profile.
She supposed she’d also feared if she told them up
front she didn’t want the sex part of the prize that maybe, despite
Kevin’s theory, they’d take it back. And by that time she’d made
firm plans to go, even buying some new beachwear—slightly sexier
than her usual wardrobe, just to kind of . . . fit in and not feel
like a freak among the sex-seekers.
Now she wished she hadn’t completed the forms, nor
been so honest on them. Not that she’d had all that much to share.
Maybe that was part of the regret. Maybe she would appear to be a
classic case of someone who needed help in the sex department, just
like Kevin thought. When she’d been sitting at home, looking at her
computer screen, it had felt like a game—something to do when she
needed a break from work. Now it was feeling very real.
But stop worrying—this will be fine. Nothing
had actually changed, after all. Tonight at what the brochure
called her “orientation dinner,” she would tell Mariel her
decision—not to partake in the sex—and surely the woman would
understand, especially if she was as great as Gabe claimed. Then
she’d perhaps, out of curiosity, ask Mariel what the analysis had
revealed about her. Because who didn’t want to know stuff like that
about themselves?
After that, she would embark on two full weeks of
sun and relaxation. She was already looking forward to some of the
spa treatments, and she’d packed a few books she’d been wanting to
read. All this would turn out . . . okay. Better than okay, in
fact. It was a free vacation, after all. In a tropical paradise.
What more could a girl ask for?
Four hours later, Jenna actually felt
relaxed.
Of course, maybe that had to do with the numerous
“erotic rum punches” she’d consumed throughout the afternoon. But
better to be a tiny bit intoxicated and relaxed than strung out and
nervous.
She’d found that, in keeping with the pictures on
the Internet, the hotel and grounds were immaculate—luxurious with
just a hint of casual island flair that meshed nicely with the tall
palm trees swaying in the breeze. After landing on a private
airstrip, Gabe had loaded her baggage into a lavish
golf-cart-for-the-rich-and-famous, complete with a polished wood
dashboard and leather seats. Then he’d driven her up a meandering
stone pathway lined with lush tropical foliage to the open-air
lobby, where checking in had been surprisingly . . . normal, like
at any other hotel.
Her deluxe suite, she soon discovered, came with an
enormous bathroom and balcony, along with a spacious sitting area.
And after unpacking, she’d put on a new bikini—leopard print, and a
bit more scant than what she wore at home—and nervously made her
way down to the pool. Because even if the lobby and room seemed
normal, she’d decided that surely there’d be some heavy sexual
vibes at the pool.
Yet as she stretched out on a lounge chair beneath
the sun and started reading some more literature the desk clerk had
given her, she learned that the main pool was a sex-free zone, one
of many areas at the resort where guests could retreat during their
stay to have an experience like they’d find at any ordinary beach
destination.
She couldn’t have imagined more welcome news. And
that was when she finally quit being nervous—delighted to
learn she could indeed bask in the sun here every day without
worrying about sexual . . . creepiness invading her
space.
And to celebrate, she started indulging in more of
the same drink she’d been served on the plane, even if it
embarrassed her just slightly at first to order “erotic rum punch.”
But her handsome poolside waiter, Josh, quickly put her at ease
with his friendly manner, soon explaining that the punch was a
trademark Hotel Erotique concoction.
Josh kept the rum flowing all afternoon, until
Jenna was so relaxed she even napped a bit. Then went for a
dip. When, for the first time, she grew brave enough to look around
her at the other people at the pool—some couples, other singles—and
had that same odd feeling as when she’d met Gabe: They think I’m
here for sex. But then she remembered they were here for
sex, and that suddenly seemed a more interesting thought. Walking
up the steps out of the lagoon-type pool in her leopard print
bikini, water sluicing from her body, she found herself wondering
if anyone saw her and wanted to have sex with her.
That was when she realized she’d had too much rum
punch—and she quickly tried to banish the thought. But it stayed
with her—and was suddenly a lot easier to ponder under the
influence of rum. It was easier to look at the attractive couple a
few chairs away and wonder what their fantasies were. Easier
to surreptitiously spy a hot blond surfer-looking guy stretched out
under a small palm tree and wonder if he’d noticed her bikini, if
anything about her meshed with the reasons he’d come
here.
And when Josh delivered another drink, she couldn’t
bring herself to turn it down. “But this is the last one,” she told
him with a smile—maybe even a flirty one. Unintentionally,
of course, because unlike everyone else at the Hotel Erotique, she
wasn’t here for sex. And she didn’t want to send Josh the wrong
message. Yet at the same time, she wondered if he might be admiring
her body at all. Because, according to Shannon and past lovers, it
was a good body. And one not normally this much on
display.
“I mean it,” she added when Josh cast a doubtful
grin.
“If you say so,” he’d replied teasingly. “But you
know where I am if you change your mind.” The cute waiter had
pointed to a thatch-covered tiki hut bar on the opposite side of
the pool before departing with a wink that—just like talking with
Gabe earlier—had made her a little wet.
Now, she’d just showered in the luxurious marble
bathroom in her suite and was off to dinner with her guide.
Following the map she’d been given upon her arrival, she took in
the beach to her right, the sky turning blush-colored as the sun
began its descent. And as she started across a long wooden
boardwalk, sea oats sprouting up from the sand beneath, she spied a
gazebo in the distance—which her trusty map marked as the spot for
her orientation dinner.
She’d worn a pretty pink sundress with a low-cut
halter neck—like the bathing suit, sexier than what she’d choose at
home. Because she didn’t want Mariel to think turning down the sex
part of her prize meant she was prim, or repressed, or anything
else. She wanted Mariel to see her as a confident woman who had
made the right decision for herself.
She walked slowly to ensure not losing her balance
on her sexy, strappy cork wedges—and again couldn’t stop herself
from thinking about sex. How many people were having sex right now
somewhere on this island? She felt warm in her panties, imagining,
wondering, as vague, shadowy images of sweaty bodies moving
together wafted through her mind.
Damn—she’d finished her last rum punch nearly an
hour ago, but she still felt it. Otherwise, she surely wouldn’t be
thinking about sex so much—or suffering the response between her
thighs.
But don’t worry—this really will be
okay. Eating would help sober her. And after dinner, she could
turn in early, then get up tomorrow and enjoy a lazy day on the
beach.
The setting sun cast shadows over the interior of
the gazebo as she approached, but she stepped boldly inside, ready
to show Mariel how self-assured she was. Until she saw a completely
scorching-hot guy sitting at a table for two—and flinched, halting
in place on her wedge heels. “Um, sorry—wrong gazebo.”
His dark hair was thick but well kempt, contrasting
slightly with the sexy stubble on his chin—and a slight smile made
him even more handsome. Everything about him looked strong,
confident, powerful—like she wished she really felt right
now. “No—right gazebo, Jenna.”
Oh, shit—he knew her name. She stood up straighter,
her spine going rigid. “I’m supposed to meet Mariel. And you’re . .
. not her.”
His smile deepened—he looked amused at how
flustered she appeared—and she couldn’t help noticing, even in the
dim light, that he possessed deep gray eyes, sexy and captivating.
He stood and walked around the small table—set for dinner, complete
with ensconced candles and wineglasses—to pull out the chair on the
other side. “Sit down,” he said, “and I’ll explain over some pinot
grigio.” Her favorite wine. Had that been on a questionnaire
somewhere?
She couldn’t figure out a graceful way to
not sit down, even though her impulses immediately told her
to run, to extract herself from this situation. But for heaven’s
sake, calm down—he’s only an incredibly hot guy, not a demon from
hell or anything.
Although she feared she was probably looking at him
as if he were indeed Satan himself. Because she’d had a plan, and
whatever it was he had to explain, this changed it. And suddenly
everything felt different. Despite how calm she’d been through the
afternoon, now she sensed sex all around her, in a pervasive
way.
But then, wait, no—maybe it was only . . . him. His
eyes. His body. He dripped sex. He made her tingle between her legs
even amid her unaccountable fear. He looked like a guy who could
steal a woman’s soul.
“Sit,” he urged her again. “I won’t bite. Promise.”
Then he winked.
And there it was again, that undeniable pulse at
the juncture of her thighs.
Jenna sat, but only because she didn’t know what
else to do. And since she’d already acted totally weird in front of
Mr. Soul-Stealing Hottie, she now experienced the urge to make him
see what she’d wanted Mariel to see—a confident, in-control woman.
With Mariel, it had been to prove she didn’t need the sexual
offerings here—yet with this guy, it was simply to redeem
herself.
After pushing in her chair, he returned to his
own—which meant they were face-to-face again and it was time to
meet his gaze. Her chest tightened as she forced herself to do so.
She simply wasn’t accustomed to dealing with a man so attractive.
In a world designed for sex. Where had her pleasant sense of
intoxication gone? Its departure left her feeling vulnerable, for
reasons she couldn’t understand.
“First,” he said, still smiling that sexy smile,
“congratulations on winning our grand prize, and welcome to the
Hotel Erotique. I hope you’re enjoying your stay so far.”
“Thank you, and yes, it’s lovely.” Get to the
point already.
Before continuing, though, he paused to lift an
open bottle from an ice bucket to pour two glasses of wine.
“Second,” he finally went on, “I have some unfortunate news. Your
guide, Mariel, has just been called away on a family
emergency.”
Oh God. I know I should feel bad for Mariel, but
right now, I’m more worried about me. “I’m . . . sorry
to hear that. Nothing too serious, I hope,” she managed to
add.
“Her father had a heart attack, and he’s expected
to have a complete recovery, but she still needs to be with
him.”
“Of course,” Jenna replied, nodding.
“And as luck would have it, the only other female
guide on-site this week is already very overbooked. We have two
more, but both are on vacation.”
“I see,” was all she could say. So what did that
mean? Well, maybe she should simply go ahead and tell him her
decision and this wouldn’t even matter since she didn’t actually
need a guide. But before she could figure out how to broach
the topic of sex, he went on.
“I know our literature promises a same-gender guide
for each guest, but these are unusual circumstances, so I apologize
and hope you won’t mind being stuck with me.” His enticing
grin widened, making her thighs melt even as her jaw went
slack.
“You,” she repeated numbly.
“Brent Powers,” he said, extending a hand across
the table.
She forced herself to shake it. It was big.
Strong.
“And I can assure you that, despite this being
unusual, I’m committed to ensuring your stay with us exceeds your
expectations,” Brent went on. “I’ve been with the Hotel Erotique
for fifteen years and have spent ten of those as a guide. I have a
BS in social psychology and a PhD in clinical sexology. I’m also
part owner of the resort, so I hope all that will convince you
you’re in safe hands.”
Clinical sexology, huh? And he even had a doctorate
in it—which she supposed made him an official doctor of sex. It was
strange to know she sat across from a man who was not only hot as
hell but who also knew more about sex than she could possibly
fathom.
But none of that mattered. What mattered was . . .
“Actually, I was planning to tell Mariel that . . . I’d like to
decline the, uh, sex portion of my prize. So I don’t really need a
guide. I’d just like to enjoy the rest of what the resort has to
offer.”
Across from her, Brent Powers blinked, looking
truly surprised. “May I ask why?”
She sucked in her breath. This part would have been
easier with a woman. Or even with a less-attractive man. She found
she couldn’t quite meet his eyes as she spoke. “Well, I simply
decided I’m not comfortable having sex with strangers. No
offense—I’m sure it brings many people a lot of, um, pleasure—but I
just don’t think it’s right for me.”
Only when he didn’t answer right away did she
manage to lift her gaze from his white button-down shirt to his
face—to see him appearing unduly concerned. So she rushed on.
“Maybe I should have given the prize back—I’m sorry if that’s what
you would have preferred. But I really could use a vacation, and
when I discussed this with some friends, they suggested I simply
enjoy the other aspects of the prize—like the pool, and the spa.”
She decided to blame at least part of it on Shannon and Kevin since
this was actually all their fault. “Is that okay? Or should
I leave?”
At this, Brent Powers reached out to touch her hand
where it rested on the table near her untouched glass of wine,
and—yikes, the simple connection sizzled through her like
electricity, skittering all the way up her arm. “Jenna, we would
never ask you to leave. But I’d like to talk more about your
decision.”
Oh boy. She finally took a drink of her wine. A big
one. She needed it. “What’s to discuss?” she asked, trying for an
easy, confident expression.
Brent lifted his wine for a sip, too—then smiled
that killer smile again. “Well, to begin with, what we do here is
more than ‘sex with strangers.’ ”
Oh? Could have fooled her.
He went on. “People come here for a lot of
different reasons, and we welcome them all, but by and large, I see
what we do here as being therapeutic.”
Hah! Was he serious? It was truly hard to
hold in a sarcastic laugh, but she contained it somehow.
“There are many reasons people seek out new sexual
experiences, and I’m sure you know we design a series of
individualized fantasies based on what we’ve learned about each
guest from our questionnaires. And we usually fine-tune it a bit
after the guest arrives. If we saw our job as nothing more than
supplying ‘sex with strangers,’ we wouldn’t go to so much trouble,
nor would we have a full staff educated and trained to give our
guests the optimal sexual encounters while helping them attain
their sexual needs and, in some cases—like yours—resolve their
sexual issues.”
She hadn’t thought about that, she supposed—they
truly did seem to take great care in creating each person’s
fantasies. Except . . . wait. Sexual issues? What was he
talking about?
“If people just want casual sex, there are other
resorts that offer that, with less-expensive price tags. When
people come here, we know they desire more—we’re unique in
the service we provide. And I’m not telling you this to change your
opinion of the Hotel Erotique so much as to suggest you reconsider
your decision.”
Okay, so it was official—he was trying to talk her
into going through with the sex part. Which she really hadn’t
expected. Kevin had been so sure they’d be happy to let her skip
it—damn him.
“The thing is,” she began, “I don’t have
sexual issues. I think you just said I do, but I don’t.” Maybe
clarifying that would make Mr. Sexology back off.
Across from her, though, his eyelids lowered
slightly, shading his gaze and making him look even more seductive.
“Jenna, I’ve read your questionnaires, as well as the profile
Mariel prepared after receiving them. I was under the impression
you realized . . .”
“What?” she asked when he trailed off, her heart
beating too fast.
He tilted his head, peering at her as if they
shared a secret. “I know you haven’t had sex in more than a year,”
he said, his voice so smoky he made even that sound
alluring. “Although you characterize the sex you’ve had as ‘good,’
nothing in the way you described it was very convincing. And I
know, too, about your parents’ view of sex—and also about your
cousin.”
All the blood drained from Jenna’s face. Sexy voice
or not, she couldn’t have been more dumbfounded. He, or Mariel, or
both of them, had taken bits and pieces of information scattered
throughout those online forms and cobbled them together in such a
way that . . . oh God, they thought she had sex hang-ups! They
thought that was why she’d come here, why she’d entered their
stupid contest. If she’d felt vulnerable a few minutes ago, it was
nothing compared to now.
Just then, a handsome, dark-skinned waiter entered
the gazebo bearing a large tray, and Brent looked up. “Good
evening, Rico.”
“Mr. Powers,” the waiter said with a nod, then also
smiled politely in Jenna’s direction—which made her blush. This was
one more person who thought she’d traveled here for sex—and now it
was worse; now it was assumed she’d come here to solve sexual
problems!
Rico lowered two dishes—fine china from the look of
it—overtop the larger plates already on the table. Glancing down at
hers, Jenna saw chicken cordon bleu and didn’t remember choosing it
from a menu at any time, despite it being one of her favorites.
Unless it had been on some questionnaire she couldn’t
remember—she’d filled those out weeks ago.
By the time Rico departed, Jenna’s irritation
finally superseded her nervousness with Mr. Hottie Sexologist and
allowed her to look him squarely in the eye, ignoring her food.
“You think you know a lot about me, don’t you?”
She was beginning to get the picture here. He not
only thought he knew about her in sexual ways—he was also showing
her he knew what she liked to eat, to drink. Were they meeting here
because he’d somehow discerned that she found gazebos quaint and
loved sunsets? She felt . . . utterly invaded.
“You told me a lot about you, Jenna,” he
reminded her matter-of-factly. “In the questionnaires.”
“I told Mariel,” she corrected him.
“And I’ve apologized for not having another female
guide available right now, but that’s not really what this is
about.”
“What what is about?”
“Your anger.”
“I’m not angry,” she snapped—then realized that
she, indeed, sounded pretty angry.
“We consider it a large part of our job to learn as
much about you as we can, in order to provide the experience you
need here. And you freely gave us the information necessary to do
that,” he pointed out.
Which pissed her off even more, because he was
right. She’d stu pidly filled out the forms, not thinking anyone
was going to analyze them that closely—simply thinking it
would be fun to find out if she was more type A or type B, more
creative or analytical, that sort of thing. “True, I did. But you
keep using the word ‘need,’ and I assure you I don’t need
anything. If I needed it so badly, why would I be turning it
down?”
“Because you’re afraid of it, Jenna,” he answered
without missing a beat. “Which is perfectly understandable,
considering your profile.”
She lowered her chin derisively. “So just what is
it you think you learned about me? What is it you think I need so
badly?”
Her sexy guide simply tilted his head, the move
making him appear almost arrogant. “If you don’t know, then I can’t
tell you, Jenna. You have to find out along the way.”
“Along what way?”
“By experiencing the sexual fantasies we’re going
to create for you here over the next two weeks.”
“That’s another thing,” she said, her dander rising
even more. “You and your brochures call them fantasies—yet
you design them? That doesn’t make any sense.”
“Sure it does,” he claimed. “We use only data you
give us to design your fantasies. Many people tell us that what
they experience here mirrors their own fantasies exactly. Others
say we help them live out fantasies they weren’t bold enough to
create in their own minds. Either way, we feel the term ‘fantasies’
is a good way to describe the experiences.”
Jenna simply gave her head a short shake. She
couldn’t believe this. Getting out of the sex part had sounded so
easy. But Brent Powers was making it pretty challenging—and
upsetting her in the process.
Until she suddenly remembered: It didn’t matter
what he said, or what he thought he knew, or even if some little
part of her wondered if, or feared, he could be right—she didn’t
have to do anything she didn’t want to. So that’s what she told
him. “I don’t have to do anything I don’t want to.”
“Of course you don’t,” he said smoothly. “But you
will want to, Jenna.”
She sat up a bit straighter, unnerved. “What makes
you so sure?”
“Because I’m going to make you want
to.”
For a second she couldn’t breathe. Because she was
pulsing in her panties again. Just from looking into his dark eyes
and listening to his seductive voice and oversure words.
But then she pulled herself together—again. Damn
it, this man possessed the ability to make her come undone at a
glance. “I don’t think so,” she simply said.
And at that, a small smile formed on her guide’s
face. “Tell you what,” he suggested. “How about you just eat dinner
with me, and if I haven’t proven to you I’m right by the time it’s
over, you win—you’re free to just enjoy the beach and the spa, and
I won’t bother you with this again. How’s that sound? Fair?”
Frankly, it sounded unsettling. Since it meant he’d
spend the next hour trying to talk her into something she
absolutely wouldn’t, couldn’t do. But she was a big girl—she could
just keep saying no as she had so far. And if she stormed out of
the gazebo in a huff, it was going to make it difficult to stay
here and have a relaxing, all-expenses-paid vacation. She could put
up with the arrogant “sexologist” over dinner if it meant she could
enjoy her vacation with his blessing. And besides, she was
determined to convince him he didn’t know as much as he thought.
And whatever needs he thought she had . . . well, he’d
clearly overanalyzed her. “All right,” she finally said.
“Fair.”
“Good,” he said with a short nod. Then he lifted
his wineglass in a toast. “To . . . what I suspect will be an
enlightening meal.”