CHAPTER FOURTEEN
 
Ingredients
 
I tried to call home from college every Wednesday around dinnertime. It was my father’s early night at the store and he and my mother tended to be home. One particular night, though, I called and got Iris on the other end.
 
“Chase is in the shower and your mom and dad decided to go out on a date,” she said. “Your mother left us a pot roast for dinner.”
 
“A specialty of the house.”
 
“So I’ve heard. Your mom’s a pretty good cook.”
 
“She likes doing it and we like eating it. It works.”
 
A Suzanne Vega album was playing in the background. It had to be one of Iris’, as it definitely wasn’t Chase’s kind of music.
 
“How’s the semester going?” she asked.
 
“Great so far. I have a lunatic philosophy teacher who’s sort of ‘all Kant, all the time,’ and I finally had to give in and take the physics class I’ve been avoiding since my freshman year. But my media classes are very good. I especially like the documentary video course.”
 
“Do you make them or watch them?”
 
“Make them and watch them. The making part is the final.”
 
“Let’s see; you’re going to do a video on John Belushi as the best suicidal comic of his generation.”
 
“Actually, I was thinking of doing it on you and Chase as the best couple.”
 
“Best couple of what?”
 
“Yet to be determined. I haven’t finished my research.”
 
“Can you hang on a second?” Perhaps a quarter of a minute passed and then Iris was on the line again. “God, I love that part. The rim shots toward the end of ‘Luka’ get me every time.”
 
I found myself smiling broadly. “Are you coasting through the second half of your senior year?”
 
“Semicoasting. I actually have to work in my AP English and AP World History classes. I’m also involved in the school play. We’re doing Streetcar.”
 
“That’s serious stuff for high schoolers.”
 
“The director wanted to do Judgment at Nuremberg.”
 
“Give me a break.”
 
“I mean it. I think the PTA talked him out of it.”
 
“Do you have a big role?”
 
“Decent role. I’m Stella.”
 
You’re Stella?”
 
“Are you suggesting that you don’t think I can handle the role?”
 
“You just don’t seem to be the Stella type to me.”
 
“I guess we all have our secrets.”
 
“Stella, wow. I can’t wait to see it.”
 
“I’ll save you two on the aisle.”
 
“One on the aisle will be fine. Unless I’m taking Chase as my date.”
 
“I think he’ll be waiting in the wings for me. So when are you coming down again?”
 
I hadn’t actually planned to come back to Amber anytime soon. I needed the weekend time in the studio and there was the woman at the record store. But when Iris asked, I realized that I really wanted to see more of her and Chase.
 
“I was thinking about coming down this weekend. Are you guys going to be around?”
 
“Well, I can’t ever be sure what Chase is going to want to do. For all I know, he could be planning to go up to see you. But yeah, I think we’re going to be around.”
 
“Great, we’ll hang out.”
 
“Sounds good. Want me to see if Chase is out of the shower yet?”
 
“No, it’s not necessary. I’ll catch up with him on Friday. Just let him know I called.”
 
022
The next time I went up to Lenox, Iris and I spent the afternoon on our usual walk through town. There was nothing redundant about this – there always seemed to be something new going on – and it had become a very pleasant ritual. On this particular trip, a farmers’ market had opened and we browsed the local corn and zucchini, the wide array of herbs, and the handmade breads, pies, and fresh pastas.
 
“I’m making dinner for you tonight,” I said as I reached for a summer squash.
 
“You cook?”
 
“I have cooked.”
 
“Successfully?”
 
“Triumphantly at times. You obviously don’t know about me and the sandwich shop in Columbus. And thanks for having so much faith in me, by the way. Yes, I have cooked successfully and I’m going to do so for you tonight.”
 
Not entirely sure what I was planning, I wandered around the market gathering ingredients for the meal. Other than my stint at that deli, I’d never spent very much time in a kitchen, though I liked cooking and I especially liked the satisfaction of making a meal for someone else. I decided to keep it fairly simple, planning pasta with yellow squash, tomatoes, and basil, and a salad, accompanied by a baguette and a peach tart we purchased from the bakery.
 
When we got back to Iris’ house, I set to work immediately, chopping vegetables and herbs, putting a pot of water on to boil. Iris opened a bottle of wine for us and sat at the kitchen table watching me. I accidentally put the squash into the pan before the oil and hastily removed it before it stuck.
 
“Were you searing?” Iris said playfully.
 
“I was screwing up.”
 
“Is that part of the recipe?”
 
I smirked at her and she took a sip of her wine in an attempt to hide her grin.
 
“You know, the last time a man made dinner for me, I was sick for two days afterward.”
 
“You hang around with the wrong men.”
 
“So I’ve been told.”
 
“It’s unlikely that this meal will make you sick. It may make you lose your appetite, but it won’t make you sick.”
 
“I’ll take my chances. You look good at a stove. Almost like a natural.”
 
“Was that meant to be a compliment?”
 
“Absolutely. It smells good, by the way.”
 
Twenty minutes later, dinner was on the table. Iris seemed tickled when I set the plate in front of her. The food turned out fine. Maybe even a little better than fine.
 
“Um, delicious,” she said. “Will you be making all of our meals from now on?”
 
“Don’t count on it.”
 
“Even if I compliment you profusely?”
 
“Compliment me profusely and I’ll think about it.”
 
Iris twirled a forkful of linguine and said, “Nah, you’ll just get a big head. We’ll eat out.”
 
We talked about little things while we ate: reviewing the day, anticipating the work challenges of the coming weekend, touching on items in the news. Though this was the first time we’d had dinner in a kitchen together, we fell into it like people who had been doing this kind of thing for years.
 
Iris insisted on cleaning up and I didn’t argue with her. While she did, I dialed up the new Beck album on her iPod. When she was finished, Iris brought in the remainder of the wine and sat with me on the couch. Other than commenting on a couple of the songs, we didn’t talk at all until the music ended.
 
“What should we do tonight,” I said, looking over at the clock. It was just past 8:30. We’d still have time for a movie or we could wait a while and head to one of the clubs for some live music.
 
“I’m okay just staying here,” Iris said.
 
Ever since I’d been coming to Lenox, we’d always done things. The idea of simply staying in her house felt foreign, as though she had said she wanted to go line dancing or something. At the same time, it was very appealing to think of putting on some more music, finishing the wine, and either talking or not talking for the rest of the night.
 
“You don’t mind?” I said.
 
“I’m actually feeling very settled tonight. Must have been the meal.”
 
“You’ll be closer to a bathroom this way.”
 
“Yeah, I thought of that, too,” she said, pushing my knee with a bare foot.
 
I settled back into the couch, not realizing until that moment that I’d been planning to get up. As we listened to a Tim Buckley album recorded before either of us were born, my thoughts wandered back to the kitchen.
 
I started thinking about what I would make the next time I cooked for Iris.