CHAPTER ONE

HIS father had done it better, Derkh thought. As usual. To be killed all at once, have it done with—that was Col’s style. A soldier’s death. And Derkh? He would die slowly, without honor, forgotten in a cart at the arse-end of a battlefield.

The surgeons, busy with casualties from the night raid that killed his father, had not thought to check on the wounded boy they had given up on days before. No one had even brought food or water until sunset of the following day. He had asked that man to fetch a surgeon.

“I’ll tell ‘em,” the soldier had promised, but the accompanying shrug suggested, Don’t get your hopes up.

The next morning the fever was back—a hot/cold ache in his joints and behind his eyeballs—and a hungry flame licked at his belly. Still no one came. Derkh thought about trying to change the bandaging himself. He even forced himself to sit up despite the knifing pain and dizziness—but he would never manage to strike a fire and brew up the herbs Gabrielle had left him.

By the time a surgeon appeared in his tent, Derkh’s thoughts were drifting, unconnected fragments, but he tried to pull them together and relay Gabrielle’s instructions.

“There’s no time, soldier,” the surgeon replied. “We’re heading out now.”

Derkh hoped Gabrielle had made it out alive. It was the only hope he had left.

“DERKH? ARE YOU all right? Are you in pain?”

Gabrielle’s face, rocking back and forth with the motion of the cart, was inches from his. She must have been recaptured, he realized with sorrow. Then his head cleared, and he was in the present again.

“No, I’m fine. Sorry. I was dreaming, I guess.”

But was it a dream? Dreams were nonsense; this was memory so vivid it seemed real. Derkh wasn’t even sure he had been asleep. He knew he would just as soon forget the things his mind insisted on reliving.

But now he was waking, and it was the present that loomed large. They were nearing Chênier. Gabrielle had conveyed this news cheerfully, as though he should be glad of it. She didn’t seem to realize that the end of this long journey south was not a homecoming for him.

Derkh had seen the hard looks from the Verdeau men—not those who served under Gabrielle’s brother, Tristan, but others. They wondered, and rightly, why a prisoner of war was cosseted like a long-lost relative. He was a Greffaire soldier and before long would have to answer to that charge. And what then? Prison? Slavery? Execution, after Gabrielle’s long labor to save him? The rule of Verdeau and the will of the king’s officers would decide; a healer’s friendship would not be enough to protect him.

Derkh pushed himself to sitting, ignoring the protest in his belly. He would walk for a while, for as long as Gabrielle would allow, and he would savor each painful step. Whatever his fate, it seemed certain his days of walking free under the summer sun were coming to an end.

TRISTAN HAD TO rein in his horse at the sight of the familiar towers of the castle, gray stone outlined against the perfect blue of an early summer sky. Home. The banners bearing Verdeau’s green and white were playful in the breeze.

Only a season it had been since Tristan had headed out with the Verdeau army to meet the invaders from the north. One brutal spring, filled with more horror and loss than he had ever known. He had thought coming home would be the easy part.

But nothing he had faced had been harder than this: riding into his own courtyard a day ahead of the returning army, so that his mother would not have to hear from a messenger that her husband, King Jerome DesChênes of Verdeau, would not be coming home at all.

The road approaching Chênier was studded with sentries, Tristan noted with approval. No doubt his brother Dominic had undertaken the defense of the city with his usual competence.

Then it was his own gatehouse before him, and Yves coming forward to meet him. Yves knew better than to press for details, but Tristan gave him the basics: “It’s over, Yves. We won.” And then he looked ahead, to the wide oak doors that would lead him to his family.

“MATTHIEU, LOOK, THERE are lots of ripe strawberries. Come and try some.”

Matthieu DesChênes glanced over at his mother where she knelt among the low plants. He didn’t know why she liked to be in the garden so much. Matthieu’s father, Dominic, would be king one day. His mama could have servants bring her strawberries anytime she wanted, but there she was, pulling them off their stems and holding them out enticingly.

Matthieu liked strawberries, though, so he joined his mother and filled his mouth with the succulent fruits. A dribble of red juice escaped his lips, and Justine wiped it away with her thumb and smiled. “Yummy, aren’t they?” Matthieu nodded, but he wasn’t thinking about strawberries. He was thinking about the war. He leaned over and carefully disgorged the red, runny pulp onto the inside of his wrist.

“Matthieu! What in the world—?”

“If I got wounded in the war, it would look like this,” he said, admiring the effect. “But if your whole arm got cut off, that would be blood everywhere, wouldn’t it Mama?”

He had gone too far. He could tell by the way Justine’s face became closed in and hard. “That is enough, young sir! This is no kind of talk for a five-year-old boy.” She pulled a hankie from her skirt pocket and scrubbed the red stain from his arm.

“Mama.” Matthieu’s voice had gone all choky and quiet. It meant he might cry. He hated to cry, but he couldn’t help it. Justine heard, and her face softened. Her hands became gentle, smoothing open his clenched fingers.

“What’s wrong, then?”

“I want them to come home: Grandpa, and Uncle Tristan and Gabrielle.”

Matthieu still didn’t know exactly what the war was or where it was. But he knew he didn’t like how quiet and empty the castle was, how the grown-ups were always talking together in low, worried voices and then giving him pretend smiles when they saw him, like the ones painted on the faces on the dumbshow players that he saw last winter. He didn’t really like thinking about swords cutting off arms, either.

“Oh, lovey.” Justine knelt and held him close. “We all do. We just have to keep hoping they will come back soon. And safe.” Matthieu nestled against his mother’s shoulder, but his eyes, curious and alert as ever, were drawn to the gatehouse. Old Yves was talking to somebody.

Matthieu squinted as a figure came into view. Maybe it was another messenger.

TRISTAN HAD TAKEN only a few steps across the courtyard when a small shape came arrowing toward him over the broad lawn. Matthieu didn’t stop running until he barreled into Tristan’s legs and wrapped both arms tight around his uncle’s thighs.

“Whoa, boy! You’re going to knock me right over!”

The boy gazed up with shining eyes. “Uncle Tris! Is the war over? Did you win? I’m five now, and look!” He grasped his lower lip and pulled it down to his chin. “I lost a tooth!”

Matthieu’s chatter stopped as he took in Tristan’s plaster cast. Silent, eyes wide, he touched it with a tentative finger. “Did you get your arm chopped off?”

Tristan guffawed, a heartfelt laugh that made him feel, for a moment, that perhaps nothing had changed after all, that the banners had every reason to fly gay and carefree in the sun. He ruffled Matthieu’s brown hair. “No, Matthieu. It’s just a break, and Gabrielle fixed it. When she takes off the plaster, I’ll be right as rain.”

“Ohhh,” the boy breathed, looking, Tristan thought, just a little disappointed.

But Tristan’s attention had turned back to the doorway, opening even now. It was time. He bent down to the tousled head. “I have to go talk to your grandma now, Matthieu,” he said gently.

He watched as his family emerged onto the landing: Justine, holding her daughter Madeleine by the hand, guiding her to one side to make room for Solange; Dominic hovering protectively behind. Tristan drew a deep breath. “Help me find the words, Gabi.” The whisper was a kind of prayer. He wished his sister were beside him now—she would know how to do this right.

Tristan strode up the long walkway and folded his mother into his arms.

GABRIELLE WOULD HAVE given almost anything to be at Tristan’s side at that moment—but not a man’s life. One of the wounded soldiers had spiked a raging fever in the night and lay too ill even to swallow the bonemender’s herbals. Gabrielle’s unique skills were his last recourse, and so she put aside regret and spent the day beside her patient in a rattling cart, pushing back the infection that threatened to overwhelm him.

By the next morning, when Verdeau’s soldiers marched into Chênier at last, her patient was out of danger. All around them, people were cheering, worried loved ones straining to catch sight of the sons and husbands and brothers to whom they had bid farewell a season ago. And there was Solange, clapping and waving for the troops, never again to stand with her husband by her side. The sight of her—a small, erect figure flanked by her two grown sons—all but broke Gabrielle’s heart.

“I can’t stand this. I have to go to her,” Gabrielle said to Féolan.

“Go,” he urged. “You are no soldier. Are you bound to linger here, awaiting dismissal?”

“I guess not. You, either.” She glanced up at the tall Elf walking at her side. She had not questioned his decision to make the journey home with her, only accepted it gladly. They belonged together now.

“Yet I will stay. Your mother needs family now, not a guest.”

And she had pushed through the thick ranks of men and taken her place with the DesChênes family—her family, always, whatever her actual parentage. Gabrielle could only imagine the effort of will that allowed Solange to stand so straight and composed on the high dais set up in the mustering grounds, welcoming the returning soldiers, praising their victory and sending her own condolences to those who had lost loved ones.

Only later, in their own home, had Solange allowed an embrace and the tears that must follow. And then, ensconced with Gabrielle in her chamber, Solange had insisted on the full, painful telling of Jerome’s death.

“He suffered very little, Mama,” Gabrielle ended miserably. “That much comfort I can give you.”

“More than that, my love,” assured her mother. “He died in his daughter’s arms, not alone, and though it was appallingly foolish of you to take that risk, I will be forever grateful for it.” She took Gabrielle’s hands in her own and squeezed them. “You go on downstairs now.” Her lips were trembling, but she shooed Gabrielle away. “You have guests to see to, I think. And a story of your own to tell, by the looks of it, which I will ask for tomorrow.”

DERKH WAS ALREADY tucked into bed in Gabrielle’s little clinic, with Féolan in attendance.

“Just like old times,” Féolan remarked, as she stepped into the room. He had spent a good part of the previous summer in that same clinic, watching over his friend Danaïs’s recovery.

Gabrielle stood in the doorway and let her eyes roam over the familiar shelves and cabinets, the four neat beds, the bright windows. Once, she thought, this orderly clean space had represented her image of a bonemender’s work: helping people through illness and the natural cycle of birth and death, the occasional setting of a bone or stitching of an accidental cut—not struggling in a sea of gore and filth to keep a man’s guts from spilling out of his body. It seemed a quaint little refuge now.

“This is where you live?” Derkh’s abrupt question cut short her reverie.

“Yes,” she replied, wondering at the tension in the young Greffaire’s voice.

“But this is the castle,” he said, pointing out the obvious. “Are you the Royal Surgeon?”

Féolan laughed. “Gabrielle, you’ve misled the lad. Confess, girl!”

Gabrielle caught Derkh’s anxious confusion and was instantly remorseful. “This is my family home,” she explained. “When I was your father’s prisoner, I didn’t want him to know who I was. And when we met up again later, after the battle, I never thought to tell you. King Jerome was my father.” And even that was not the whole truth, because she was someone else now, wasn’t she? But it seemed more than enough for Derkh, who was shaking his head in disbelief.

“Derkh,” she said, smiling as she pulled up a chair beside the bed. “I am not a different person because of my family.”

The young Greffaire considered this statement in baffled silence. Then he looked up at Gabrielle, dark eyes nearly black against the white pillow. “In my country you would be.”