The gate buzzer rang as he was standing in the kitchen and Thomas hurried to the video screen by the front door, watching the blond man hang out of his Merc window and shout into the microphone.
“Hello?”
Thomas dropped his voice to make himself sound older. “Who is this?”
“I’m Dr. Hollis.” He looked Scandinavian, big, nice discreet black car. “I have an appointment with Mr. Anderson this morning.”
Thomas pressed the entry button and watched the gates swing open in front of the car.
The doctor slid back into his seat and the car pulled out of shot.
Thomas used the joystick to move the camera around the entrance. There was no one else there. He’d half expected a gang of angry protesters to reassemble there now that Lars’s suicide was off the front page but they must have someone else to hate now. There wasn’t even any new graffiti, so they hadn’t been back.
While he was standing there he heard the car draw up, heard a door open and shut and a leather sole scuff the steps. He opened the door.
“Mr. Anderson?” Dr. Hollis had white hair and eyebrows, though he was young. He had a mustache as well, but a cool mustache, and a little tiny bit of beard under his bottom lip. He was dressed in country casuals, in a gray tweed overcoat with a flash of pink lining and a nice white shirt. He looked clean and friendly.
Thomas opened the door wide. “It’s good of you to come so early.”
“It’s not a problem.” Hollis brushed his feet on the doormat and stepped into the hall. “How are you today?”
“Fine,” said Thomas, wary the psychiatrist would see his past or his future or something.
Dr. Hollis wasn’t trying to see through him. He dropped his satchel and let his overcoat glide off his shoulders.
“Um, my sister’s upstairs.” He led the way, taking the steps two at a time.
Dr. Hollis followed, hurrying at his back. “Have you seen her this morning?”
Thomas nodded. “Yeah.”
“Has she eaten?”
Thomas stopped at the top of the stairs, looking back at the fit mountaineer coming after him. “No.”
Hollis took the last three steps in one. “You said on the phone that you think this is ongoing, why did you say that?”
Thomas didn’t want to say why. Everything he’d hated about Ella was why: the many visits by his parents to her school, her coming home in the middle of term, family holidays he wasn’t invited on. He wasn’t sure he could say those things without sounding like a bitter twat. So instead he said, “Well, she’s got scars,” and he gestured weakly to his wrist.
“Nothing else?”
Thomas shrugged. “She’s weird?”
Hollis nodded, as if he didn’t understand but was trying to. “And your father has recently…”
Thomas slumped against the banister, mumbling, “…isn’t an easy way to say it…”
So Hollis just said it the hard way: “Killed himself?”
“Yeah.” Thomas was aware that his mouth was hardly moving. “On Monday.” He looked at the carpet and couldn’t think of anything else to say about that. “So…”
Hollis waited for a moment and then nodded once, not making a big thing about it. He grunted and dipped his head up the landing, telling Thomas to get on then.
They went through her sitting room to the open bedroom door. They could see her tiny form in the big bed. Thomas knocked and waited and turned back to explain, “In case, she’s decided to talk…”
But she hadn’t. He pushed the door further open.
Ella was in bed, on her side, facing away; it wasn’t clear if she was awake.
Hollis was looking at the room, at the big window and the furniture. His mouth was open in a little appreciative smile. Lovely place. Thomas had to gesture him to Ella, to remind him why they were there.
Hollis walked around the bed and pulled up a chair.
“Hello, Ella, my name is Jergen. I’m a psychiatrist.” He had changed the tone of his voice, dropped it, and it took on a special quality, a kindness about it that Thomas found unbelievably touching. He had to blink back tears as he listened, move himself from the door to a position near the windows where Hollis wouldn’t see him unless he looked up.
“Now, Ella, we haven’t met before, have we?”
She didn’t speak or move but she must have given some signal because he took it for a no.
“Have you seen a psychiatrist before?”
Again, Thomas could see no response.
“And who was that?”
She mumbled something. Hollis wrote it down and showed it to her. He corrected it and showed it to her again. “If you would like I can arrange for that person to come and see you again.” He left a moment for her to blink or knock or whatever. “Or I could see if I can help. Do you have a preference?”
He watched her for a long time, expressions flickering across his face as if he was having a silent conversation with her. Then he leaned in and said something quietly and stood up, looking over to Thomas, stepping around the bed.
In the hallway Hollis told him that his sister wasn’t well and he would like permission to contact the doctors she had seen before, to get some background.
“What’s wrong with her?”
“I can’t tell yet. Do you know if she’s on any medication?”
“I don’t know. She’s all over the place though, she laughs a lot. I hear her talking to people who aren’t there. Mood shifts…”
“And your mother?”
“Yeah, she’s a bit nuts too.”
“No, I mean where is she?”
“Oh, she took a cab into Sevenoaks.”
Hollis nodded. “I see. I need her consent to access Ella’s medical records. When will she be back?”
“She’s making arrangements for the funeral, so, I don’t know.” Thomas didn’t want Hollis to think he’d been abandoned and he certainly didn’t want his pity. “Dad’s funeral’s in three days…”
But there wasn’t a flicker of pity on Hollis’s face.
“We all have needs,” he said seriously. “It must be a difficult time for you, all.” He said it like that, with the emphasis on all, but Thomas knew that he’d added it on so that Thomas didn’t feel singled out. He sounded a bit like Theresa, saying just the right thing at the right time. It made Thomas uneasy. He suddenly considered the possibility that Hollis might be an undercover journalist, snooping around the house, secretly taking photos. It didn’t seem likely but the possibility made him want to get him out of the house.
He stood tall and looked away. “You leaving…?”
“Come downstairs with me, please.”
Hollis led the way this time, along the long hall, down the stairs, hurrying as if he was in a hospital corridor, on his way to somewhere urgent. At the bottom he waited for Thomas, swiveling his head, looking for directions. Thomas held his hand up to the front door but Hollis said, “I want to talk to you.”
Thomas took him into a big blue day room and they sat at a corner of a huge white dining table.
“Thomas,” said Hollis, “your sister is very unwell. Those scars on her wrists. What do you know about them?”
“Nothing.”
“How old are you?”
“Fifteen.”
“I need to speak with your mother right away. Do you have her mobile number?”
“She hasn’t got a mobile.”
“Well, what’s the name of the undertakers?”
“I don’t know. ‘Brothers.’ Something ‘brothers.’”
Dr. Hollis searched “undertakers,” “brothers” and “Sevenoaks” on his mobile, called a number, asked for Moira and found her.
“Mrs. Anderson, this is Dr. Hollis, I am here with your son. I’m afraid you must come home now.”
As she answered, Hollis’s eyebrows crept slowly up his forehead.
“I need consent and a medical history—I see…yes…it is—I see. Can you possibly—I see, yes.” He looked at his watch. “Five? But just now Thomas is alone. Can someone else—” He turned away from Thomas, turning his face to the wall. “He is far too young to do that. No—yes he is. He is far far too young to be left alone with this situation…No.” Suddenly he was very firm. “I can do nothing until I have seen her medical records—I really don’t care, Mrs. Anderson. I don’t care about your husband’s funeral. You must come home to your children at once.”
She hung up on him. Thomas could hear the dead tone. Hollis held the phone to his ear and sort of pretended she was still there for a moment. Then he looked at the phone, tutted and was a bit pink, a bit angry when he spoke to Thomas.
“Thomas, I have said to your mother that you are far too young to be left with this situation. It’s—it’s really not good.” He looked angry. “So she is coming as fast as she can back to the house.”
He looked around, sucked his teeth in frustration, slapped his hands against his thighs. Thomas understood. He said quietly, “Look, you can go.”
“I have a patient that I have to see,” explained Hollis. “But I must say, if your sister is not under adult supervision in this house then I will have to take her to hospital for observation because I cannot leave a child in charge of a suicidal child.”
“Look, it’s OK to leave me.”
“No, it really isn’t. You’re misunderstanding me. I am not asking for permission, I am telling you: it really isn’t OK. I may have to telephone the social services department. Ella might not be OK. She has tried to kill herself before, a serious try. She has cut her wrists, she knows what she is doing.”
All Thomas could hear was “social services department.” They’d take them away. The papers would hear. “She won’t kill herself.”
Hollis stood up, readied to leave. “You know, in a family, if a parent kills themselves a child is much more likely to do it. Much more likely.”
“Please…” Thomas’s voice was high and wavering, “don’t phone the social services department…”
Angry, Hollis fixed on Thomas as if he had done something to Ella. “I would ask you to stay with your sister until I get back. I will be as quick as I can.”