Goering loomed over Thomas’s shoulder as they walked the dark corridors to the residents’ block. He stayed in Thomas’s blind spot, his face a soupy blur, down dark corridors, into a part of the building forbidden to the boys during school hours. His presence was well meant but a portent of disaster, like a bodyguard.

Thomas tried not to think, just to walk, one foot, then the next, open a door, one foot, then his father hanging from a beam, then a woman’s vagina and scarlet blood splashing onto Squeak’s shin, turn the corner, open the fire doors, a heel crushing a nose, the bleached white cartilage and scarlet freckles. He wanted to stop and concentrate on breathing, to get into a scorching bath and slough off the oily slick, but he kept thinking of Stander. Stander in the showers, not of his erection but his face, young, spotty, dismayed. One moment of weakness stamped onto you forever. Thomas should just get home. Swallow it down and not think until he got home.

A connecting corridor to the dorms, a long cold strip of concrete floor with windows on either side. Glancing up he saw into the science labs, a group of boys in safety glasses gathered around Mr. Halshall. A face looking at him, mouth open, eyes warped by the thick plastic lens. Toby was in the year below them but he was an altar boy with Squeak. Toby’s magnified eyes strayed behind Thomas to Goering: it must have looked as if Thomas was being frogmarched to his dormy.

He walked through the fire doors, punched in the code to the security door and onto the nylon carpet that sparked against slipper soles in the dark. Up three stairs, past four bedroom doors to his own room. He opened the door.

It smelled funny. He always got a waft of it when he opened the door and he was aware that it was his own smell, the smell of his body and his hair and his habits. He usually liked it but now that Goering was here he was suddenly conscious that it was disgusting and pathetic. The cleaner hadn’t been yet so his bin was full of wipes and they looked like tissues he’d been wanking into. He glanced back as he walked in and snapped on the light. Goering had no expression on his face but he knew he was taking it all in.

“Just the basics, Thomas. The plane will be ready to take off in half an hour.”

Goering held the door open, fitting the rubber doorstop under it. School rules: the door was to be left open if more than one person was in a bedroom. Failure to comply meant instant suspension and it applied to staff and pupils. They were always watching.

The room was tidy, the bed was made, nothing was out that shouldn’t have been and yet Thomas felt naked. He pulled out his desk chair and stood on it, reaching up to the top of the cupboard, yanking at the canvas handle of his duffel bag and dragging it over the edge, pulling a shower of dust on himself. He stepped down and threw it on the bed.

Goering leaned over and undid the zip, quite tenderly, sitting the bag open as Thomas watched. Thomas looked at him and Goering almost smiled.

“Now you can just put your stuff straight in,” he said.

Suddenly Thomas couldn’t remember what they were doing here, or what the stuff was or why the dormy was so quiet. He looked at Goering for guidance.

“Get your underwear from your drawer.”

Thomas did as he was told and Goering pointed him at the bag. He put in the pile of pants and vests, still stiff from the laundry, still with their scratchy ironed-on identification tags on the front.

“Now toiletries.”

The bathroom was at the foot of the short boxy bed. Thomas opened the door, felt for the light switch and found himself startled by a blaze of white light from the bare light bulb above, as if he had woken in the dark, come in for a pee and blinded himself. He shut his eyes and opened them to the mirror. An angry kid with wide eyes, flushed. Vulnerable, Stander. He hadn’t been able to look at himself this morning. It wasn’t psychological, it was a physical inability to raise his head and look at himself. But now Lars was dead and he was looking at himself. He blinked, looked again and found his stance improved: harder, cold, mouth tight, better.

“Toiletries.” The edge was back in Goering’s voice.

Thomas reached forward and grabbed his toothbrush, his soap, his spot cream, the inhaler he never used. He walked out of the toilet and dropped them into his bag.

“Books?”

“No,” said Thomas firmly.

Goering was surprised by the change in him. “Games? Address book?”

“No.”

Goering hesitated. “OK. You have a look around and see if you want to take anything else with you. I’ll go and get your mobile phone from the housekeeper.” He stepped out of the room, taking out his own phone, walking off down the corridor with a little tinny ring tone sounding from it. He was calling ahead, calling a car, making some arrangement. Thomas wished he hadn’t gone. The fire door slapped shut behind him and Thomas was left alone in the hissing quiet. He looked at his bag. Jumpers.

His home clothes were in the wardrobe. He heard his father’s voice angrily ordering him to put his home clothes on. Thomas stood still, staring at the floor. Lars had killed himself. He couldn’t give orders to anyone anymore.

Thomas looked up at the window and his throat let out a tiny squeal of joy.

Across the gray concrete forecourt, in the gathering dark, stood Squeak. Thomas had his eager hand on the window before his eyes adjusted and he saw Squeak properly, the stern look on his face, the clenched fists at his sides.

Squeak must be between classes. He’d have skipped off from the crowd of boys meandering slowly through the school, he’d be late but say he’d gone somewhere for something, wouldn’t be missed. He must have heard that Thomas had been taken out of Library. That was all he knew, Thomas had been frogmarched out of Library and Goering took him to the dormy. He must be shitting himself.

Without a signal, Squeak bent over, running but keeping below the windows of the long corridor, his fingers touching the ground, galloping on all fours like a gangly monkey. He skirted the building, keeping low until he reached Thomas’s window.

Thomas saw Squeak’s crown appear at the edge of the rectangle of light on the concrete, stop, look up. Thomas broke eye contact immediately but reached over to the window latch, unscrewing the lock and swinging it open as little as possible, flicking the lock on to let Squeak know he couldn’t come in.

“Goering about.”

He reached under the sill to the books on the shelf and lifted them out, putting them on the sill and separating them into two random piles, pretending to choose between them.

Thomas and Squeak spoke then, simultaneously, in the same mumbled undertone. “My dad hung himself and I’m going home.” “I won’t tell what you did to her.”

Shocked, Thomas looked up.

Squeak was on all fours below the window, leaning on his fingertips, looking up at him, a dog ready to spring. His lips were damp and slightly parted. He looked as if he was smiling.

Squeak was a complete stranger to him. Thomas knew him as well as he would ever know another human being and yet he didn’t know him at all.

Now Thomas stood with a book in each hand, poised over the meaningless piles of meaningless books and looked down at the corner of the window. Staying out of the rectangle of light from Thomas’s room, Squeak craned his neck up and met his eye.

Thomas looked out and saw the dog that he was bonded to, wet-lipped and smiling up at him out of the dark.