I listened to his footsteps on the snow behind me. I seemed to be crunching more than he was: perhaps he was walking in the hollows I was leaving, putting his feet exactly where I had placed mine. It would look rather comic, like a couple of ducks on their way to the pond, picking their feet up and putting them down at orderly intervals. But there was no one here to see. He would be the last person on earth I was going to see, a dough-faced plodding man with a wife and three little children and a gash on his temple and a gun in his - 'Keep walking.' The sound of his voice jarred my nerves. Why had he said that? Had I been slowing? I must have. Perfectly understandable, as Schrenk would have said, squinting through the cigarette smoke: you don't run to your funeral. 'Which is your car?' I asked him. 'You know which one it is. It's the brown Syrena, near the entrance.' I nodded and walked on. Just sit and stare at them for God's sake? After twenty-four hours she wouldn't even be able to stand the smell, because it would remind her of what had happened. She'd go out and get stinking, that was all she'd do, or take her Lotus up the Mi flat out in the dark with the headlights swallowing up the night and everything she could ever remember of me, and when she got back to the flat she'd just think oh my God what am I going to do with all these bloody roses. The snow crunched under our shoes. I think one of my shoes was leaking, or some snow had got in over the top: my left foot felt wet. Useless enough sensory data, if you like. I began turning my head very gradually, so that I could trap the sounds from behind me in the auricle of the right ear; his footsteps loudened slightly. I estimated he was still a good six feet behind me, so that there was no chance of turning on him. But I kept my head slightly to one side, exposing the right ear to the auditory source for the left hemisphere to process. I could hear his breathing now; he was a heavy man, too well fed by his loving wife. So in fact the rose thing wasn't really going to work out after all - it was just a grandiose gesture, a juvenile urge to make an impression from out here in the never-ending dark. It would have been subtler to send one rose, one sublime and perfect rose to remember me by, not an ostentatious barrowload. Ignatov, old boy, do you mind if I just phone Harrods before we wind up the evening? Something like laughter, a long way down in the psyche, a neural reaction perhaps, while the slow cold wave went down the spine and the sweat gathered and ran, the reaction of the beast that smells the slaughterhouse: he was squeezing his finger at every step we took and I could feel the impact and hear the shrill jangling of the nerve system as the organism took the shock. I believe I've got another thirty seconds to live. But there's nobody I can tell. We're born alone and we die alone and no one really notices. Headlights swung across the facade of the building opposite and sparked light from the windows. Sound of a vehicle, smell of exhaust gas. 'The Syrena,' the man behind me said. 'Oh yes. Sorry.' I hadn't meant to go off course; it was the organism again, not wanting to go near that particular car because it was a hearse. The headlights swung in a half circle and I saw the vehicle turning in from the street, a small dark Moskvich bumping over the ruts with its snow chains clanking and the bodywork rattling - a kind of mad toy that some joker had wound up and sent into the car park to raise a laugh. It obliterated the slight sounds Ignatov was making and of course I couldn't see him because he was behind me, and for a moment the idea came to me that he wasn't there any more, that I'd let my nerves get out of hand to the point where I'd imagined him. It was an enormous relief and I took a deep breath and remembered the reports of people who had come back from the edge of death; they all said the same thing: first you panic, then you try to do something about the situation, then when you realize it's all up you get the feeling of euphoria as the organism anaesthetizes the final awareness of death. But I wasn't at that stage yet and I'd better wake up to the fact that Ignatov was in fact still behind me and all he had to do was stumble a bit on the frozen ruts and his finger would tighten and I'd be finished. 'Ignatov,' I said. 'You didn't understand what we were saying, did you, Viktor and I?' 'No.' The little Moskvich rattled to a halt a dozen yards away and its lights went out.