Twelve

Gregorio came home for dinner.
Anatol watched Evangeline take a sip of her wine
and cast a cold glance at Gregorio when the man wasn’t looking. It
was clear that her burst of good feeling toward him had long since
faded. Gregorio cast looks at Evangeline when she wasn’t looking,
too—though his were not cold, not by anyone’s measure.
Gregorio coveted Evangeline; that would be obvious
to anyone, even someone who didn’t have the insight into people
that he did. He wondered why Evangeline couldn’t feel it, but maybe
she could—maybe that was part of why she seemed to detest him so
much.
Although Anatol suspected that abhorrence didn’t go
very deep. Every exchange between Gregorio and Evangeline seemed
heated with an underlying current that had nothing to do with
anger.
“More asparagus?” Gregorio offered the plate to
Evangeline.
“No, thank you. I’ve had enough,” she responded in
an icy tone without looking up from her food.
“You’ve hardly eaten anything.” Gregorio put the
plate back down on the table. “And you seem displeased. I came home
tonight for dinner as you asked. Should I have stayed away?”
“Of course not. This is your home. We’re only
guests here.”
“Then why the change in your attitude toward me?
This afternoon you seemed to want me here and now you don’t.”
Anatol put his fork down and watched Evangeline
carefully. She raised her head and looked at Gregorio. “I’m trying
to be a good guest, Gregorio. You’re putting a roof over our heads
and I’m grateful for that.”
Gregorio blinked slowly. “But?”
Evangeline sighed and put her napkin on the
table.
“You can’t get past who I am and what I began.”
Gregorio spoke the words that Evangeline didn’t want to voice. “You
think I’m responsible for the deaths of your friends.”
“You are responsible for their
deaths.”
“He’s not, Evangeline,” Anatol broke in. “He was
the tool that set the people free, but it wasn’t his hand who
lopped off heads. You know this.”
Evangeline looked down at her plate and shook her
head. “When an animal keeper lets loose a pack of ravening hyenas
that mindlessly rips the throats from a bevy of swans, do you blame
the hyenas or the keeper?”
“That’s not a fair analogy, Evangeline. You can’t
compare—” Anatol stopped speaking when Gregorio raised his
hand.
After a tense moment, Gregorio laid his napkin to
the side of his plate, rose, and went down on his knee next to
Evangeline’s chair. “Please believe me. I never intended the
bloodshed, though I should have known it would happen.” He paused,
bowing his head. “I should have known.”
She remained still, staring at her plate.
“But, Evangeline,” Gregorio continued, “you must
see that even though I was the tool that broke the floodgates, the
floodgates would eventually have broken without me. The Edaeii
family could never have held power when their people were so
dissatisfied, starving, dying the way they were. When that
happens, the people rise up, they throw off their oppressors.” He
paused. “It was inevitable.”
Finally, she shifted in her chair to look at him.
“You destroyed our way of life, Gregorio. How do you expect me to
feel about that?”
“Yes, I did, and I’m glad!” Gregorio made a
frustrated sound and stood. “Don’t you see that your way of life
impinged on the rights of most everyone around you, Evangeline? How
can you defend setting your table with feasts every night while the
rest of the people in the country starved? How can you think it was
right to clothe yourself in finery stolen from the backs of
children who went cold in the winter?” He shook his head. “I know
you’re not cruel, so you can’t possibly think the former way of
running this country was the right way. You don’t have that in
you.”
She fidgeted and then stood. “I don’t like being
told what I should think and feel.”
“Admit you think your former life was unfair to
everyone but you.”
“Gregorio—”
“Admit it.”
She opened her mouth, closed it, and her jaw
locked. “I will admit that equality is not a bad thing and that
perhaps there might be a better way.” Her eyes flashed. “But how it
was done was brutal and merciless and came from the depths of hell.
There was a better way to do that, as well.”
Inclining his head, he slid back into his chair.
“Maybe.”
“These people need to be told what to do, Gregorio.
You’ll see. You’ll have chaos on your hands with the will of the
commoners leading the way.”
Gregorio raised his head, his eyes glittering with
challenge. “Do you really think so?”
“Yes. People are sheep. They need a strong shepherd
and you, you want to let them vote! It’s insanity!”
Gregorio’s lips curled in a mirthless smile. “I
guess we’ll see just how insane it is together, Evangeline.”
“You’re infuriating!”
“I’ve been told.”
She made a frustrated sound, and then nodded at
Gregorio. “Thank you so much for the dinner. Thank you so much for
. . . well, everything.”
“Don’t thank me. I like having you both
here.”
“I can’t imagine why.”
He swirled the drink in his glass and leaned back
in his chair. “I’m lonely, if you must know the truth.”
“Thousands of people look up to you.” She walked to
the doorway.
“Thousands of people make me feel alone.”
She studied him for a long moment, her face
softening a little. “You’re not alone now.” Then she disappeared
into the hallway.
Anatol had spent the conversation watching Gregorio
watch her. It had been easy since suddenly neither of them had
seemed to remember he was in the room. Gregorio’s eyes had been
focused, sharp, and deep, soaking in every little movement she
made. Once she’d left the room, the light had left his eyes. Now he
was gazing down at his wreck of a dinner plate.
Anatol spoke. “You want her, don’t you?”
“What?” Gregorio’s gaze snapped to
his.
“It’s in the way you watch Evangeline. You covet
her.”
Gregorio looked away, wiping his mouth with his
napkin. “I’m a man and she’s a beautiful woman, of course I want
her. Don’t worry, I know she’s yours.” The words came out with a
trace of bitterness.
But that was just it, Evangeline wasn’t his. Not
completely. Anatol was no fool. Evangeline had only recently begun
to feel emotion again. She wasn’t ready to lock herself into a
relationship with only one man, no matter how much Anatol might
wish it. If she did, he would lose her.
As much as it pained him, he needed to leave her
free to explore her emotions as they arose and to give her the
ability to act on them. Anything else would drive her away.
“She’s not mine.” The words hurt to say, but they
were the truth. “I’m not her keeper. We have sex, that’s
all.”
Gregorio gave a decidedly unamused laugh and turned
his face away. “You love her. I can see it on your face. We have
sex, that’s all. For someone who can purportedly see truth,
that’s a pretty big lie.”
“I do love her. I love her more than I’ve
ever loved anyone else, and I suspect she loves me though I don’t
know for certain. I understand her, too, probably better than
anyone in the world, much better than she understands herself. Her
magick is a gift, like you say, but it’s also been her curse. My
gift is illusion, but it has a flip side. It means I can see into
the truth of things and people. Her gift is giving other people
emotion, and that gift robbed her of her own for nearly her whole
life. She’s only just started to feel again, and she barely knows
what love is yet.”
Gregorio rose from the table and crossed the room
to the fireplace. He leaned heavily against the mantel, one hand
clutching the edge. “That’s all fascinating, but what does it have
to do with me wanting to fuck her?”
“It means that Evangeline is free to do as she
wishes and she might wish to sleep with you.” Anatol rose from the
table. “You might get to fuck her, Gregorio, but never expect her
heart. She’s not ready.” He strode from the room.

Anatol slipped into bed beside Evangeline and
pulled her close to him. She sighed in her sleep and cuddled
against his chest. Her hair, damp and fragrant from her evening
bath, brushed his nose. Her warm, soft body fit perfectly to his,
as though they’d been made for each other.
Her hand strayed to his cock and it went hard
against her palm. Groaning, he nuzzled the back of her head and
found her breast under her nightgown. Her nipple went hard against
his palm and she let out a little sigh that went straight to his
blood like the finest liquor.
After seeing that flash of attraction between her
and Gregorio, he needed to claim her. He would free her emotional
will, but also put his mark on her body. If she strayed to another
man, he would always be here waiting for her to come back.
He would never give up on her.
She shimmied the hem of the gown up and thrust her
sweet backside against him, wanting his shaft. A ragged breath
escaped him. He could never resist when she did that and she knew
it, the minx. He freed his cock and gave it to her, slipping the
head into her entrance and pushing deep. They both sighed into the
cool darkness of the room as they moved together, their bodies
straining gently toward climax in the dark.
He cupped her breast, rolling her nipple between
his thumb and forefinger as he thrust slowly in and out of her. “I
care very much about you, Evangeline,” he whispered near her ear,
then dragged the lobe through his teeth. He didn’t use the word
love, knowing it might drive her away. “I also know that you
are not mine to command.”
Her movements faltered. “What are you
saying?”
He slipped his hand between her thighs and found
her clit, pressing and rotating until he heard her breath catch.
“You are free to do what you wish with whomever you wish.”
“Anatol, I don’t know what you’re talking
about.”
“I can see what you can’t yet.” But soon, she would
see. She would recognize that her animosity for Gregorio was, in
fact, attraction.
She opened her mouth to reply and he thrust his
hips forward slowly, impaling her deeply on his cock and making her
moan. He moved over her, dragging her beneath his body, parting her
thighs and sliding deep inside her so he could look down at her
face. He searched her beautiful eyes.
She reached up and pushed his hair behind his ear.
“I can see just fine, and I see you, Anatol. Only
you.”
He knew those words were true.
For now.
Evangeline watched Gregorio’s blunt fingers move
pieces across the strategia board. Every evening for the last week
Gregorio had been home in time for dinner and not returned to work
afterward, instead choosing to play the game with herself and
Anatol at night before bed. Tonight Anatol had gone to sleep early,
complaining of lingering fatigue from his injuries, leaving her
alone with Gregorio.
She tried—and was mostly successful—to keep her
emotions under control and her tongue civil when in Gregorio’s
presence. She’d seen firsthand the misery the beheadings had caused
him. The tension sat in his shoulders and deepened the lines of his
face. She also was well aware—and grateful—that he’d saved Anatol
from the kiss of the executioner’s blade.
So they avoided the subject of the revolution
completely. Instead they talked of history, literature, and art.
All the things that Evangeline had neglected to learn at the palace
because she’d been too busy scheming to get ahead and then sleeping
with her tutors so they would give her a passing mark for doing
nothing in her studies.
Gregorio had a way of teaching her that made it
interesting, too. He did it in a conversational way, through
stories, avoiding the high-handed, superior, pompous way of
teaching that she was far more familiar with.
“Have you seen the steam transport that is taking
passengers from Milzyr to the provinces?” he asked as he capped her
empress.
She suppressed a sigh of resignation at the move.
He had this round of the game sewn up. “Oh, yes, the nobles were
enraptured with it. I took several sightseeing tours out to the
station to watch it pull in, though I never rode on it.” She tapped
her index finger on her lower lip, contemplating her next move. “I
figured it stopped working once the rev—” She looked up at him,
realizing she’d almost broken their unspoken law. “Now that
everything is different.”
“It was out of commission for a while, for a lack
of travelers. They’ve lowered the fares they charge and now many
can afford to travel by rail.”
“Have you ridden on it?” She moved her iron
soldier, hoping to block his gold horseman.
He nodded idly. “I have. Several times. It’s a much
more efficient way to travel than by carriage or even by
balloon.”
She looked up at him, game forgotten. “Balloon?
You’ve traveled by balloon?”
He smiled. “Many times. It’s incredible. You can
see everything from up there. Incredible, but slow.”
“Slow.” She snorted and looked down at the board.
“You’re always moving. Don’t you ever slow down and just enjoy the
view?”
“Sometimes I do,” he murmured.
She looked up and he was rolling a game piece
between his fingers, staring at her with heavy-lidded eyes.
Something in her stomach fluttered and rolled. It was not
unpleasant. If she tasted his emotions right now she was certain of
what she would find. Desire.
Suddenly flustered, she studied the game board for
a moment, then stood. “You’ve got this won, I think. There’s no
sense in continuing. If you’ll excuse me—”
“Do you bear me even the slightest bit of
attraction, Evangeline?”
Her eyes flew to his. “What do you mean?”
“You know what I mean. Surely you’ve felt mine for
you.”
“I’m with Anatol.” She’d gone for a scandalized
tone of voice, but it had come out thick and heavy because a part
of her did crave this man.
He nodded. “Yet Anatol tells me you two are not in
a committed relationship. He tells me you’re free to live, and
love, as you will.”
Swallowing hard, she looked away from him. Why had
Anatol and Gregorio had that conversation?
And why had Anatol said such a thing?
“What Anatol said has no bearing on our
relationship. It’s true Anatol and I have no formal understanding
of commitment”—and clearly he didn’t want one—“and I’m free to
love as I choose. I’m sorry, but I don’t choose you.”
Gregorio looked for a moment like she’d physically
slapped him and, just for a heartbeat, she felt bad about it. Then
she turned and went for the door—safety. Fleeing her suddenly
hard-beating heart and her body that was reacting in an unwelcome
way toward the prospect of having Gregorio touch her.
But he came after her, not letting her run away. He
whirled her around to face him and her body tensed. If he touched
her, she might lose her resolve, if—
He handed her a book.
It was thick and leather bound. She looked at the
spine, A History of Inventions. “Why are you giving me
this?”
“You seem interested in such things, like the steam
transport and the helium float. You’d be amazed at all the things
the Edaeii family suppressed during their reign in order to keep
the people under their thumb. All the inventions were put back into
production as soon as the mob hit the gates of Belai. Read it. I
think you’ll enjoy it.”
Flustered, and a bit uncomfortable, she hugged the
book to herself. “I’ll give it a try,” she said slowly. Then her
anger snapped. “But don’t expect me to finish it if it bores
me.”
He smiled at her, but there was something hungry,
almost predatory, in his eyes. “Of course not.”
“Good night.” She nodded at him and turned to leave
the room.
“Sleep well, Evangeline.”
As she turned, his words swept over her, laden with
innuendo. They seemed to stroke her bare skin like a hand in a soft
leather glove.