CHAPTER 21
IT was the fourth day of the journey south.
Ted was tired. He had not had enough rest since they started, what
with setting up camps, and tearing them down; and Randolph’s being
in a hurry without saying why; and the toll taken by perplexing a
conversations. It was a good thing the setting sun was shining in
his eyes, or he would be asleep where he sat and the perspicacious
horse would be plotting its revenge.
Ted sat up with a start, and the perspicacious
horse twitched and stretched its neck hopefully. West. Why were
they riding west? The road went south. The domains of the Dragon
King were south of the Hidden Land—weren’t they? The army of the
Hidden Land had traveled south to fight the Dragon King, but its
aim had been to get out of its own territory, not necessarily to
get into the Dragon King’s. Maybe the Dragon King’s domains were
west, and he had missed a crossroads, being so sleepy.
“Ruth?” he called.
Ruth, a little ahead of him, looked inquiringly
over her shoulder and then slowed her horse until they were riding
abreast. She looked tired and pale herself. This morning, when she
could have been helping them strike camp, she had wrestled her
crazy hair into a knot at the back of her head and crammed
somebody’s straw hat over it. It made her look older and a little
silly. Nor could Ted see the point of the arrangement; the weather
was cooler than it had been the day before. He tried to remember
how Lady Ruth had looked in the land of the dead. He thought she
had worn her hair down, but couldn’t be sure.
“What do you want?” said Ruth, patiently. Well, at
least that wasn’t a reaction of Lady Ruth.
“Why are we riding west?” said Ted.
Ruth smiled faintly. “Andrew says it’s misdirection
disguised as sorcery.”
“I suppose that means it really is sorcery.”
“Probably. He says Randolph is doing it, though; I
wasn’t sure Randolph was allowed to do sorcery anymore.”
“This does seem more serious than making the rain
stop.”
Behind them, Stephen and Dittany were involved in
some discussion that created a great deal of laughter. Ahead of
them, Randolph rode alone, his hood up and his shoulders tired;
ahead of him, Andrew and Julian were talking earnestly, while the
breeze blew their hair about; and ahead of them, Jerome rode by
himself, and rather faster. Ted realized that the character of the
plain had changed. The grasses were shorter, and the land went up
and down like a sine wave. It was all scattered with clumps of
trees and gleams of water. And on the far edge, below the reddening
sun, where yesterday the flat land had met the flat sky, there was
a tiny, irregular line of purple.
“Ruth. Mountains.”
“I saw them yesterday,” said Ruth.
“This may be the way to the Gray Lake, but isn’t it
taking us the long way around for the Dragon King?”
“They said the Gray Lake was on the way.”
“Well,” said Ted, dubiously, “I guess what sorcery
is getting us into, sorcery can get us out of.”
“Do not meddle in the affairs of wizards,” said
Ruth, sepulchrally.
“Cut it out. We are the affairs of
wizards.”
“What a very uncomfortable thought,” said
Ruth.
“You ought to be used to it by now.”
“Well, there are affairs and affairs.”
Oh, thought Ted. “Andrew,” he said, firmly, “is not
a wizard.”
“I wish,” said Ruth, suddenly sounding furious,
“that I could get blasted Lady Ruth to come into the front of my
mind. She knows what Andrew is.”
“Randolph and I wanted to ask you about that,” said
Ted. “Come on.” He asked the mare to catch up with Randolph’s
horse, which pleased her, and then held her to Randolph’s slow
pace, which she didn’t like at all.
Ruth rode up between them. “Since I’m to be
interrogated,” she said.
Randolph shook his hood back, and Ted saw Ruth
smile at him. Randolph didn’t smile back. He was getting a tan from
all this traveling in the sun, so he no longer looked so white and
strained; but he still had hollows under his eyes. Oh heavy
burden! cooed the voice in Ted’s mind, unkind and ironic. Oh
my offense is rank, it smells to heaven.
“Shut up!” said Ruth.
Ted and Randolph stared at her, Randolph in simple
bewilderment and Ted with uncomfortable surmise.
“I’m sorry,” said Ruth. “The one who isn’t Lady
Ruth is acting up. Smells to heaven indeed!”
“You’re hearing my back-of-the-head voice,”
said Ted.
“Leave the voices,” said Randolph, patiently. “You
did but look upon me and have a like thought. Your blood, your
training, your—” He stopped.
“Exactly,” said Ted. “Wrong blood, no training. So
why?”
“The whispers of your others confound me,” said
Randolph. “But those neutral voices that take a chance word in your
thoughts and expound on it as sorcerer to his apprentice—those our
proximity to the Gray Lake doth explain.”
“But why can we hear them, without the blood or the
training?” said Ted.
“You have the ear for sorcery,” said Randolph.
“Anyone can have it, though few untrained could hear those voices
at this distance from their abiding.”
“Did Edward and Lady Ruth have it?” said Ted.
“Aye, both.”
“Yes, that’s an idea!” said Ruth to Ted. “Maybe
we’re just hearing what they hear.”
“Not if what you hear correspondeth to your inmost
thoughts,” said Randolph.
“But if Edward and Lady Ruth hear our inmost
thoughts—”
“That,” said Ted, ruthlessly interrupting this
theoretical discussion, “is what we wanted to talk about. What
happened to you last night, when Andrew asked you to play that
song?”
“She sang the tune under her breath, and I
recognized it.”
“Ruthie, you got such a look on your face. Why did
you?”
“Because I—” Ruth stopped. “It’s all muddled,” she
said. “She knew that Andrew thought she couldn’t play that song;
but she could, because it’s necessary for some rituals of the Green
Caves. And I could, and I could play it better than she did. So he
was trying to embarrass her and it backfired on him; and it
backfired doubly because I’m not Lady Ruth.”
“That song’s a spell?” said Randolph, seeming to
wake up.
“I’m not sure. Conrad did go to the Green Caves, so
it might just be a piece of history.”
“Do you think she took over your actions?” said
Ted.
“No,” said Ruth. “We both wanted the same thing, to
discomfort Andrew.”
“But would you have wanted to discomfort Andrew if
she hadn’t been angry that he was trying to embarrass her?”
“Yes! He scares the living daylights out of
me.”
“Or out of Lady Ruth?”
“No,” said Ruth. “As far as I can tell,
nothing scares Lady Ruth. If she wants to help me keep
Andrew at bay, why should I kick?”
“Because for all we know, she could take you
over.”
“I’ll be careful,” said Ruth, patiently. “It would
help to know what she was up to with Andrew.”
“When we get to the Gray Lake,” said Ted, “you can
ask her.”
He thought Randolph had stopped listening some time
ago, but now that lord remarked, “She may refuse thee.”
Edward said, I thrice presented him a kingly
crown, which he did thrice refuse: was this ambition?
“Did you hear that?” said Ted, sharply.
“Hear what?” said Ruth.
“Nay, I heard nothing,” said Randolph.
Ted looked at him, but he seemed perfectly
tranquil. Ted rode on silently, trying to compare the cooing voice
they had all heard with the one he thought of as Edward’s.
Before the sun set, the land had begun to change
when Ted looked down at his horse, or closed his eyes for a moment,
or put his gloves on. Before the twilight became darkness, the land
changed while he looked at it. He would see that the plain he was
riding across ended in a steep, forested slope; and the next moment
he would be halfway up the slope; and the moment after that, across
a brook he hadn’t even seen yet, on the slope’s far side. And yet
he and his horse had crossed the brook; the horse’s legs were
dripping. It made Ted feel sick, but it didn’t seem to bother the
horse at all.
“Some misdirection!” he shouted at Ruth.
Ruth shook her head without looking around; and in
front of her, Andrew turned and glared at him. Ted grinned back,
and hoped Andrew felt sick too.
It was almost dark when they rode to the top of a
hill, and saw the road running down its other side to yet another
little stream. Across the stream there was no road, only a vast
gray shadow on the far bank. Ted looked behind him. The hill showed
clear against the darkening sky, and one small tree was faintly red
in the lingering light. So that gray shadow before them was not
darkness only. Ted looked around at his companions. Everybody
seemed blank, except for Andrew, who had the dour expression of
somebody who has been trifled with long enough, and Ruth, who
smiled at Randolph and said, “Well done.”
“Fence had done it swiftlier,” said Randolph.
Ruth caught Ted’s glance and rolled her eyes.
Jerome said, “What now, my lord?”
“I think some of us must make a camp and wait,”
said Randolph. He looked at Ted. “Whom will you have to accompany
you, my prince?”
Oh, wonderful, thought Ted. And after that,
said Edward, out of all whooping. Ted ignored him and
considered the question. “How many know the way to the Gray
Lake?”
“I alone,” said Randolph.
“You, then,” said Ted to Randolph. “And Lady Ruth.
Do any of the rest of you earnestly desire this journey?”
Stephen looked hopeful, but Andrew spoke first. “As
my next lesson in the sensibility of magic,” he said, “I dare not
omit it.” His tone was ironic.
Ted looked at Randolph. Randolph ran both hands
through his hair and said with perfect seriousness, “He hath the
right of it, my prince. I would not impede such a progress as
this.”
This made no sense to Ted, but he understood that
Randolph either wanted Andrew or despaired of keeping him from
coming.
“Okay,” he said. “Four to go and four to stay.
Ought we to camp here also, my lord, and ford the stream in
daylight?”
“No,” said Randolph, “time presseth.”
There was some complicated trading around of
baggage; about halfway through it Ted realized that Randolph meant
them to leave their horses with the camp. He put on the pack he was
given. It was no heavier than his typical load of schoolbooks for a
weekend. He watched Ruth settle hers on her shoulders. She bounced
it experimentally and said to Randolph, “How far is it to the Gray
Lake?”
“We can’t get there by candlelight,” said
Randolph.
“Nay,” said Ruth, disgustedly, “nor back again.”
Randolph, rummaging through his fourth saddlebag in search of
something he couldn’t find, looked up with a startled face. “Whence
cometh that?”
“It’s a nursery rhyme,” said Ruth.
“But—”
“Only in so strange a nursery as thine,” said
Andrew.
Ruth gave him a freezing look of a sort Ted had
seen on her face exactly once, when the boy who drove the ice-cream
truck past the farm had implied that her father was crazy. Ellen
had thrown an unpaid-for ice-cream sandwich at him and followed it
up with a handful of gravel; but Ted thought it was the look on
Ruth’s face that made the boy drive his truck away without even
swearing at them, let alone running them over.
Andrew was less impressionable than the ice-cream
vendor. He smiled, and Ruth looked away.
“Ah!” said Randolph, and pulled from the fifth
saddlebag a dull gray globe about the size of an orange. “Now are
we well victualled.”
Ted hoped he was being metaphorical. The gray globe
was less than appetizing. Your worm is your only emperor for
diet, said Edward, with a nasty chuckle. We fat all
creatures else to fat us, and we fat ourselves for
maggots.
Ruth shivered suddenly, and Ted caught her hand and
pulled her away from the others, onto the gravelly edge of the
stream. “What’d Lady Ruth say just now?” he said.
“It was the other one. It said, ‘Your worm is your
only—’ ”
“ ‘Emperor for diet.’ ”
“And so on. Edward said it too?”
“Maybe it isn’t Edward in the back of my mind after
all?”
“How would you know?” said Ruth. “I can only tell
mine apart because Lady Ruth has an accent.”
“Lucky you,” said Ted, gloomily.
They looked back at the others. Andrew was talking
to Jerome; Randolph was addressing the rest of them. It was cold
down here by the stream. Ted started to move back toward the
others, but then Randolph came down the slope, Andrew behind
him.
“Now,” Randolph said. “This is the Owlswater. ’Tis
neither deep nor strong, but ’tis otherwise treacherous. Do we hold
to one another.” He held out a hand to Ruth, who hesitated, then
took it and quickly gave her other hand to Ted. Ted was therefore
obliged to offer his hand to Andrew; Andrew didn’t seem to mind.
Everybody was wearing gloves or mittens anyway. Ruth was too
picky.
“Come on,” said Randolph, and stepped into the
stream, followed by Ruth.
Ted held tightly to Ruth’s hand and went after
them. The water was less than knee-deep and as cold as snow. The
bed of the stream was rocky and uneven, but none of the rocks
shifted as he stepped on them. The mist slid around him; he could
no longer see Ruth, or even hear her splashing, though her hand
still pulled him on. The water is wide, said Edward, if it
was Edward. I cannot get o’er. “You’ve been o’er,”
muttered Ted. That undiscovered country from whose bourn / No
traveller returns, said Edward, in the tone of one answering an
argument.
Ted bumped suddenly into Ruth, who dropped his hand
and said, “Watch it!” The mist cleared ahead of them. Ted moved to
one side quickly, and let go of Andrew as Andrew came out of the
water. They stood on a wide beach of round, smooth pebbles, beside
a wider stretch of running water whose far side was veiled in gray
mist. It was quite dark; the sky on this side of the stream was
overcast. How is it, said Edward, that the clouds still
hang on thee?
“Ruth?” said Ted.
“Time, like an ever-rolling stream, / Bears all its
sons away,” she said.
“No. How is it that the clouds still hang on
thee?”
“Oh, no, my lord,” said Ruth, her voice all lit up
with mischief, “I am too much i’th’sun.”
“Don’t you start!”
“Order, if you please,” said Randolph, mildly. “We
must walk yet awhile tonight.”
They walked beside the stream, sliding a little on
the round stones. The stream grew wider and noisier, and wound
about so much that Ted wondered why they bothered to follow it.
Maybe there was no straighter way. On their right a profound
darkness topped with pale points stood up against the dim sky:
mountains. One wouldn’t want to climb among those in the
dark.
Ted was lagging behind. His legs ached. He made an
effort to catch up, and saw Ruth stumble. Andrew caught her. Ted
came panting up in time to see her thank him politely, and remove
her arm from his grasp after a decent interval.
“Randolph, we seem to be getting tired,” said
Ted.
“I am not,” said Ruth, a little raggedly. “I just
can’t see.”
“That can we remedy,” said Randolph. He pulled
something out of the front of his cloak, held it up in both hands,
and said thoughtfully, “The morn in russet mantle clad walks o’er
the dew of yon high eastward hill.”
A dim red light filled his hands, and warmed and
lightened and spread until he held a glowing golden globe the size
of a grapefruit. Ted recognized the color, and repressed sternly a
desire to ask Andrew what misdirection he thought had produced such
an effect.
“That’s better,” said Ruth.
“Do you carry’t, then, and lead the way,” said
Randolph.
Ruth took it promptly in her mittened hands. “It
isn’t warm,” she said.
“That’s a second spell,” said Randolph, reaching
for the globe.
“No, don’t bother,” said Ruth.
Edward said, The air bites shrewdly; it is very
cold. “Maybe where you are,” said Ted, under his breath.
They followed Ruth along the stony shore. It was a
very quiet night; or maybe, thought Ted, everything in that circle
of golden light had fallen silent. The little globe lit up the
landscape for an amazing distance all around. Ted could see on his
right where the tumbled rock gave way to grassy slopes, and on his
left how the river widened and widened, while the mist slowly
dispersed from its far shore, which was revealed as a narrow, stony
beach overhung by crumbling dirt banks with the grass hanging over
them like uncut hair.
They went on. The dark, irregular shape of a clump
of trees loomed up against the left-hand banks. Randolph, who had
been walking next to Ruth, turned around and held up his hands to
the rest of them.
“We must cross the water again,” he said. “Here
’tis no sorcerous boundary, but a shallow water merely.”
He turned around and splashed into the river. They
followed him. This water was not so cold, and under it was firm
sand. Ted trudged along next to Ruth. The dazzling globe turned the
rippled water and the air itself to gold, and shone in her hair and
eyes like the shining from shook foil.
Edward said, Ask me no more where Jove bestows,
/ When June is past, the fading rose; / For in thy beauty’s orient
deep / These flowers, as in their causes, sleep.
Ted went on walking through the water, and even
scrambled up the opposite shore without mishap; but he did it all
staring at Ruth. At the way her hair sprang from a peak in the
middle of her high forehead, and wound in hundreds of curling
tendrils around her pale face; at her thick black eyebrows arched
like the ears of a cat over her huge, black-bristled green eyes; at
the severity of her nose and the delicacy of her mouth; at the scar
on the back of her thin hand where he had dropped a candle on it,
unintentionally, when she tickled him.
“Ruth,” said Ted.
“What?”
“Edward’s in love with you.”
“Shhh,” said Ruth. “Lord Randolph, of your
courtesy, would you carry this globe awhile? My wrists ache.”
“I’ll take it,” said Andrew, doing so.
“Thanks,” said Ruth, and fell back with Ted to the
end of the procession. They were in among the trees now, on a
broad, smooth path. Ruth said, “Now what’s all this?”
“Edward’s in love with Lady Ruth.”
“Poor fool,” said Ruth, bitterly.
“Where’d you get that scar on the back of your
hand?”
“Bumped up against a baby-sitter’s cigarette,” said
Ruth. “That was the last we saw of him. Patrick was furious;
the guy was reading him Gödel, Escher, Bach. Not that
Patrick was old enough to under—” She seemed to shake herself, and
said, “Why do you ask?”
“Lady Ruth’s got one too. Edward spilled candle-wax
on it. Edward,” added Ted, on reflection, “is getting to be a
nuisance.”
“He’s got to be better than Lady Ruth.”
Edward said, Comparisons are odious, and Ted
shut his mouth on what he had thought of saying.
They walked in the woods a long time. Finally they
found a huddle of rocks, wrapped themselves up in their bedding,
and slept without setting a watch or even consulting about it. Ted
hoped that if anything came to kill him it wouldn’t wake him up
first.