CHAPTER 10
ON THE OPPOSITE side of
the closet from her office, Laura dropped her bag on the bed of her
private room. A work space occupied one wall. Ranks of storage
boxes lined the surfaces of two tables. Jewelry-making tools were
scattered over the work spaces, everything she needed to make a
glamour. Over the years, the wall above the tables had become
covered with photographs—some of herself under glamour, some as
reference for creating new ones. Her unmade bed filled most of the
room, the remaining space crammed with a bewildering array of
outfits, hats, and footwear. Throughout the city, various
apartments held the clothes only for individual personas—like the
nearby corporate suite for Mariel Tate or her condo in
Alexandria.
The hidden room, though, was a refuge. No one else
entered. Terryn had arranged for the office behind her own to
“disappear” from the building’s floor plan. The only other person
who knew about it was Cress, and that was on the off chance Laura
had an emergency. Not even Saffin knew, or at least Laura thought
she didn’t. But Saffin always surprised her with the things she
picked up on.
Laura slipped into the chair at the worktable and
opened a drawer in a small storage container. A collection of
rubies shifted against each other, some polished enough to catch
the light with a deep red wink, some dulled by long disuse. The
storage container held dozens of gems, mostly rubies, diamonds, and
emeralds. They worked well for persona templates and were common
enough gemstones that they didn’t attract curiosity when she wore
them. The dollar value of the collection was not something she
thought about. InterSec had paid for some, but others, like the
emerald for Mariel Tate, were her own. As with most fey, money
became less of an issue as time went on.
She trailed her finger through the pile of rubies,
pushing most to the back of the drawer before deciding on a
quarter-carat stone. She dropped it on the tabletop, then retrieved
it with tweezers to examine it through a jeweler’s loupe. Minor
blemishing marked the stone, and the soft shapes of trapped air
bubbles marred it here and there. She recognized the patterning
from having used the stone years ago. She liked it, not too flawed
and small enough in size not to raise eyebrows if someone noticed
it. The advantage of her skill was that she did not always need
large stones to make realistic glamours but stones that enhanced
what she intended.
From another drawer, she sorted through empty
pendant bezels. Resetting the stone in the same bezel it had been
in once before would save time. Pleased at her luck, she found the
piece and placed it next to the ruby on the table. Lowering the
ruby into the bezel, she used her stone pliers to crimp the prongs
into place little by little, turning the setting with each pass.
Retrieving the loupe, she examined the gem again, checking for any
gaps. She gave a prong another firm press for good measure, then
threaded the bezel onto a thin gold chain. Sliding her hands
beneath her hair, she clasped the necklace around her neck.
From a small plastic envelope, she retrieved a few
strands of wheat blond hair. Cress had collected them from Fallon
Moor’s cell while Laura had been interrogating her. Holding them up
to the light, she coiled the strands around her fingers. She
pictured Fallon Moor as she scanned the hair for the faint traces
of her body signature.
Everyone and everything generated essence. Body
signatures were unique to individuals, with an underlying resonance
of their species type. Brownies—like Saffin or Moor—were Celtic
fey, who moved in and out of stories like far-flung cousins
stopping by for a visit. No one disliked brownies in particular.
They weren’t powerful like the Danann or Inverni fairies. They
didn’t have ancient political rivalries with other species. They
had little interest in politics and less patience for class
distinctions. What they were, thought Laura, were brilliant
organizers with a touch of obsessive-compulsive disorder who had no
patience with sloth. When brownies became interested in something,
they absorbed everything they could about the subject.
She found the hint of Moor’s signature, too subtle
for most druids to trace. With practiced skill, she infused a
mental image of the brownie’s face with her own essence, bound it
to Moor’s body signature, and pushed the result into the ruby. The
essence bonded to the structure of the stone, forming a template to
build an entire persona upon. In the mirror over the worktable,
Laura’s reflection shimmered and settled into a rudimentary version
of Moor. Her skin tone darkened to a warm fawn color, hair shifted
to a warm blond, and her features flattened. With the framework in
place, she turned to the real work of building the glamour.
The first order of business was the eyes. Laura’s
natural green eyes blazed against the dark skin, but with a few
nudges in the essence pattern, the color darkened to a hazelnut
with a touch of red. She rounded her cheekbones and chin, turned
the nose up a bit, and pushed the eyebrows higher on her forehead.
The process worked liked sculpting, refining the essence here and
there to bring out a natural form that would fool the sharpest eye.
With a slight dampening, she softened her voice. Moor wasn’t a loud
talker. With the image complete, she added the final touch—dropping
almost a foot off her frame. Watching the effect amused her, as if
she were a character in some child’s story caught in a spell. She
leaned back and appraised the result. For all intents and purposes,
Fallon Moor, a moderately attractive brownie, looked back at
her.
The time she spent creating a glamour always
surprised her. Hours flew like minutes while she threw herself into
the process, focused on producing the perfect image. She took a
break with some fruit juice, staring at the reflection with a
critical eye. She liked the Moor image—self-assured without being
aggressive, competent without being arrogant. Thinner than her
usual preferences, but most brownies were. With a few tweaks to
disguise the original source, she thought she might be able to use
this particular glamour again.
With a final swig of her drink, she set out on the
final level of imaging. She needed a boggart version of Moor in
case a stressful situation arose, and she had to play the role.
Since she had observed considerable self-control in Moor, she
decided to create a more measured boggart, one that didn’t devolve
into complete savagery. Weaving in among the essence pattern in the
stone, she layered aspects of Moor’s physical characteristics that
she could activate if necessary. Like an inventory of spare parts,
she added alternatives to bulge her eye ridges, widen her mouth,
sharpen her teeth, and elongate her limbs. With luck, she would
need only to project the threat of going boggart to get her point
across. If she needed to produce a full transformation, having the
full template at hand would save her time and energy.
With a final infusion, Laura finished the template
and slipped off the necklace. She left an essence reserve in the
stone, enough to power the glamour on its own by wearing it. She
could always reabsorb it if she needed the energy, but given her
schedule, she didn’t think that necessary. She had plenty of time
to sleep and recharge her body essence naturally.
Tired, she stretched up and out of the chair. She
checked her watch. After midnight. Driving to the Laura Blackstone
condo in Alexandria didn’t appeal to her. It wasn’t like she needed
anything there. Her workroom served her needs more than any of her
apartments, and she had plenty of clothes to choose from. She
propped pillows against the wall, curled up on the bed, and turned
on the television.
She wasn’t a big fan of TV. Given her day-to-day
life, dramas didn’t interest her, and the humor of sitcoms was
often lost on her. She liked to watch with the sound off, trying to
parse the emotions from the visuals. After a while, her attention
wandered, and she thought of Sinclair.
He intrigued her. Working through her interest in
him seemed a lot like the way she watched TV, as if she were her
own voyeur. She didn’t have daily interactions with people and
didn’t seek them out. At some point, she had stopped having any,
pushing a personal life onto a dusty back shelf while she committed
herself full-time to work. Then Sinclair showed up, tangled in her
work and life. At first she felt obligated to help him succeed at
InterSec because he had ended up there because of her. Now, though,
she wanted to help because she . . . because she wanted to, she
admitted. On gut instinct, she felt a level of trust in him she
hadn’t felt with anyone in a long time.
He said he liked her. The cautious side of her, the
side she had spent most of her recent life cultivating, was always
suspicious of someone taking too much interest in her. Someone
taking interest was someone who might expose her. That was her work
brain thinking. Her attraction to him worried her. Laura Blackstone
didn’t trust anyone, she thought.
That was a lie right there. She trusted Terryn
macCullen. She had meant it when she said that to Sinclair. She
trusted Cress, no matter her nature. Maybe a few others.
She pursed her lips. More lies.
She trusted those people to do their jobs. Trusted
them to be there when she needed them to protect her. Trusted them
to do the right thing—or even the wrong thing—for the right reason.
What she didn’t do was trust them with Laura Blackstone—the real
Laura Blackstone. The person. The soul behind the image.
She murmured a laugh to herself. Laura Blackstone
wasn’t even her birth name. It was the best name she had for who
she was today. She had become so proficient at protecting herself,
she had nothing to protect anymore. Who was Laura Blackstone? Who
was she when she left the Guildhouse or InterSec or this hidden
room?
An agent. A cipher for a human being. No one.
She didn’t think she had given him a reason to
pursue her, but he had. At least, she thought she hadn’t encouraged
him. Maybe that was it. Maybe Sinclair was interpreting her joking
and dismissiveness differently than she intended. Maybe Sinclair
took it all as a playful challenge.
She sighed. More lies.
Trying to convince herself that what she was doing
was something other than signaling to Sinclair that she was
interested was another example of denying who she was. Lately, she
wanted more out of her life than her work. She needed something
more. She knew that. The constant forward motion of her jobs chafed
at her, and her recent vacation in the Caribbean hadn’t alleviated
it. Sinclair was opening her eyes to the fact that there was more
to life than hiding behind a mask.
Her gaze wandered to the worktable, trailed over
the neat boxes of gemstones, the reference photographs tacked to
the wall, the tools she used to create glamours. From where she
stood, she couldn’t see her reflection in the mirror, only the
empty space of the room aglow from the silent television. That
space, that small space in a hidden room, was the definition of who
she had become.
Her chest felt heavy as she realized that it was a
problem. Sinclair made her want to let it go. She rolled onto her
side—away from the empty mirror—and settled herself. She smiled at
the memory of Sinclair sleeping in the seat next to her in the car
and the impulse she had to touch him. He was making her care again,
and that wasn’t a bad thing.