CHAPTER 13

Luther went into the house, and a silence as cool and navy blue as the sky settled over the land.

“How do you plan to pay me, Phoenix?”

I turned, half-expecting Sawyer to be right behind me, so close my breasts would brush his chest. I’d gasp, stumble back, nearly fall, and he’d catch me.

But Sawyer wasn’t there, and he wasn’t standing in front of the hogan or in the doorway of the house or anywhere that I could see.

“How were you paid in the past?” I asked.

“The usual way.”

His voice seemed to come out of the darkness, seemed to be the darkness, and I shivered. His mother had been the darkness. Sawyer had warned me often enough that she was a part of him. I should probably kill him, but I didn’t know how.

I moved toward the hogan. “When you say ‘usual,’ where are you headed with that?”

“Blood, guts, the souls of children.”

“You aren’t funny,” I said.

“I didn’t mean to be.”

“You aren’t ready to turn over a new leaf?” I asked. “Start helping us out of the goodness of your heart rather than . . .” I paused.

Jimmy had said Sawyer trained federation members for money, but Sawyer didn’t seem the type, and I knew now that Jimmy lied.

I reached the arched dwelling, pulled back the woven mat that served as a door and peeked inside. The place was empty.

Sawyer hadn’t disappeared into thin air, as much as it might seem so. I’d been distracted. So had Luther. Our gazes had not been on the hogan the entire time, and Sawyer only needed an instant to turn into whichever one of his beasts he desired; then in a blink he’d be gone.

“Can’t do that.”

His voice came from farther away. He still sounded as if he were all around me, but fainter. More the wind than the night. Could he turn into the wind? I had no idea.

“Can’t do what?” I backed out of the hogan.

“Help you out of the goodness of my heart.”

“Why not?”

“I don’t have one.”

“Goodness or a heart?”

“Exactly.”

I rubbed my forehead. Whether I was woman or wolf, talking to Sawyer always gave me a headache.

“What are you going to charge for training Luther?” I demanded.

I had a pretty good idea. With Sawyer it was always about sex. His powers were based in sex. His body was built for sex. His mind was filled with sex.

Or perhaps that’s just what he wanted everyone to think. If he were dismissed as a supernatural nymphomaniac, he didn’t have to connect with anyone. He didn’t have to put himself out there. He didn’t have to risk rejection or heartache. If Sawyer was all about sex, then no one ever expected love. I certainly didn’t.

Besides, according to legend, loving Sawyer, or having him love you, was a one-way ticket to Deadsville.

“I’ll put it on your account,” Sawyer answered.

I didn’t like the sound of that. I already owed the Dagda a favor.

“Can’t I just . . .” I paused. What? I had very little money. My power was minuscule compared to his. The only thing I had that he wanted was me, and he’d already had that. Many times.

“I think you already did,” he said, seeming to echo my thoughts.

“Then we should be even.”

“Not yet,” he whispered.

“Great. Put it on my account,” I snapped. “At this rate, I’ll be doing you until the end of the world.”

“That should work.”

My only consolation was that the end of the world appeared to be right around the corner.

As we’d been talking, I’d been strolling around the yard, behind the hogan, the house; I’d peeked into the sweat lodge and the ramada. No Sawyer. I gave up.

“Where are you?” Supernatural hide-and-seek just wasn’t my thing.

“Remember the lake? On the mountain?”

I turned, staring up at the shadowy expanse of Mount Taylor, and as I did so, thunder rumbled in the west. “Yes.”

“We need to do something about that lightning.”

“What kind of something?”

“Bring it forth.”

“You said we had to wait for it.”

“I say a lot of things.”

Not really. Sawyer was the least likely sayer of a lot in this world.

He took a breath, let it out long and slow. “I don’t want the boy to know, to follow. He should stay here.”

I glanced uneasily at the house where Luther had disappeared. “But—”

“He’s safe. He’s a lion when he wants to be.”

“There are so many of them now.”

“And so few of us,” he agreed. “He’s going to have to go out on his own soon. I’ve nearly taught him all that I know. All he lacks is practice.”

The thought of ordering Luther—who insisted he was eighteen, but I had my doubts—to kill demons made me slightly ill. I’d sworn I wouldn’t send teenagers out to die. But once again, I didn’t have much choice.

“He’ll be fine, Phoenix.” Sawyer’s voice was soft, low, and he sounded so certain. “I need you here. We have to bring the lightning.”

“How is it that I can hear you?” I asked.

Not telepathy. I wasn’t a beast, and I was hearing him on the wind, or the air or the stars—who knew?—but not in my head.

“Magic,” Sawyer said. “I can do all sorts of great things.”

“If you’re so damn special, why do you need me to bring the lightning?”

“You’ll see.”

 

The last time I’d gone up the mountain to the lake I’d been on two feet. The trip had taken a good portion of a day.

This time I didn’t have a day. The storm was rumbling. I didn’t need Sawyer to tell me I had to move my ass. I didn’t need him to tell me to make my ass furry and run like the wind. I just did.

As a wolf, I loped up the overgrown path. Bushes and branches pulled at my mahogany coat, brambles stuck here and there. Tiny, wild things skittered out of my way. Because I was both wolf and woman, I could ignore them.

However, the spill of the moon dazzled. I found my gaze pulled to it, and my throat ached as I stifled the call. I wanted so badly to sing to that nearly full moon and to hear others like me answer.

I caught the scent of smoke and water long before I would have if I’d been wearing shoes. My paws dislodged rocks on the path that tumbled downward, spilling me out of the overgrown fir and pine boughs and into the small clearing that fronted the clear mountain lake.

The moon flared off the water like a spotlight, the glow illuminating the hogan at the base of a mound of rock. A fire blazed higher than Sawyer’s head, turning every color seen upon the earth.

He was naked. What else was new? He kept extra clothes in the hogan, but Sawyer preferred to walk around with only his tattoos for adornment. He always had.

I reached for myself, and in a blast of light and ice I became a woman. I headed for the hogan and Sawyer lifted a hand.

“No,” he murmured.

“No what?”

“No time,” he said, then lifted his arms to the starry sky.

I expected the fire to leap higher, to swirl, perhaps to speak. He’d done funky things with fire before. Tossed in strange Navajo herbs that had made me do . . . him. Conjured a woman from the smoke who had turned out to be the mommy dearest of all time.

But the fire remained the same—too high for safety, too colorful to be only fire—and when his fingers pointed heavenward, the sky split wide open.

I tensed, expecting lightning to spark. Instead rain tumbled down, drenching us in seconds as the fire continued to dance on unharmed.

“Come closer,” Sawyer whispered, and I did, drawn by his deep, commanding voice as well as the warmth of the flames against the sudden chill of the night.

Xander’s hat sat on the ground near his feet, a circle drawn in the dirt around it.

“What . . . ?” I began.

“Touch me.”

“Huh?”

Sawyer’s dark gaze swept to mine. “Touch me.”

“I don’t—”

“Now. I need help.”

“You’ve never needed anything or anyone. Ever.”

In his eyes, something flared. Fire? Fury? I couldn’t tell. “You’re wrong.”

The earth trembled. Sawyer’s mouth thinned, and he seemed to tremble too.

I glanced up, but the sky was as clear as a sterling winter night. The moon and the stars continued to shine through the falling rain. However, the wind began to swirl and the rain began to sting. Strangely enough, Xander’s hat stayed right where it was.

“Phoenix,” Sawyer said between gritted teeth. “I can only do so much on my own. I’m bringing the storm when there is no storm. The lightning is going to require more power than I have.”

“Nothing requires more power than you have.”

“Touch me,” he ordered, and his eyes blazed silver.

I slapped my hand to his waist. The sharp smack of flesh on flesh was followed by a sharp hiss, and steam rose from his skin as thunder rumbled ever closer.

As always, when I touched him the essence of his beasts called to me. They wanted out—every last one of them. Sawyer’s tattoos were predators; hell, so was he.

Sometimes when we came together, those animals seemed to swirl in the shadows, waiting to be called at his command. I looked for them now where the light met the darkness and saw nothing. They didn’t dance in the flames or float through the smoke, yet still I sensed them hovering.

The wind stirred my hair; the rain pattered against my cheeks and I lifted my face.

“Ah,” I murmured. There they were. Appearing and disappearing in the shapes of the clouds that now gathered. Behind them sparks flared, and the air sizzled.

“Almost,” Sawyer whispered. “Just need a little more . . .”

He shifted and his slick naked body slid against mine. He lowered his gaze from the sky to my face. That sizzle in the air seemed to scoot along every nerve ending I had.

“A little more what?” I managed.

“Power,” he said, and kissed me.

Static flared, a sharp spark between my lips and his. His tongue soothed the burn. I thought: Moisture and electricity. That can’t be good. Then all my thoughts disappeared as it became very good indeed.

The storm erupted. Wind whipped our hair; rain pelted our bodies; thunder shook the mountain. I held on to him more tightly, kissed him more deeply. He was the only warmth, the only reality, that I had.

His arms were still raised—calling down the lightning, controlling the wind, bringing the chaos. My lips opened, I welcomed him in. The man could do more with his mouth than most could do with their entire body.

I traced his tattoos. Whenever my fingertips skated over one, the image of the animal flared behind my closed eyelids, yet I felt no difference in the texture of his flesh. These tattoos had not been carved into his skin with a needle but emblazoned by magic and—

“Lightning,” I whispered into his mouth.

“Soon,” he returned. “Very, very soon.”

“You did them,” I murmured, catching for just an instant a flicker of the past. Sawyer on this mountain, the wind swirling, the rain falling, the storm raging.

“Mmm.” His voice was absent, his attention on my breasts, my neck, the curve where my waist became my hip, where my thigh became my ass.

I tried to focus, managed but barely. “You did those tattoos. You said they were made by a sorcerer wielding the lightning. It was you.”

He shrugged. The movement shifting his bones in ways bones should not shift.

“You’re a sorcerer,” I clarified.

“Medicine man, skinwalker. I’m many things, Phoenix.”

“Your powers . . .” I paused, uncertain what I meant to say, what I wanted to ask.

“Did you think murder would give me nothing?”

I jerked, the movement knocking me against him hard, though our wet bodies glided together so soft.

“What did it give you?” I asked.

His gaze met mine, and the centuries swirled. “Everything,” he whispered, “and nothing at all.”

Then he kissed me again, making me dizzy with his past, with his power. I was lost, couldn’t fight it or him any longer. Maybe later.

More kissing, more touching. The slide of my hands across his skin, my breasts skidded over his chest, my nipples pearling from the friction and the chill. His penis pressed against my belly. I couldn’t help it; I rubbed against the hard length.

His tongue mimicked the act I was considering committing on the wet ground. In and out of my mouth, in and out. I sucked on it, played tag too. He bit me, just a nip, so I bit him back. The sharp pain, the tang of blood, seemed to increase the wind; the rain became a torrent.

Everywhere we touched flared both hot and cold, sizzling and slick; the air buzzed. Something was coming.

I held on to Sawyer. I wouldn’t, couldn’t, let him go, so I kissed him harder, deeper, and suddenly everything stilled.

The ground jerked, as if the very dirt were a carpet about to be pulled from beneath our feet. My body and Sawyer’s too convulsed, shuddering and shaking as ozone, acrid and dark, burned all around us. The whole world seemed to go bright with silver light. I was afraid to open my eyes for fear my corneas would be fried to a crisp.

But the earth didn’t open and swallow us. The lightning didn’t strike us. The rain no longer rained down on us. Even the breeze had died.

As I came back to myself, I realized three things. Sawyer and I were still pressed together, the remnants of what felt very much like an orgasm tingling along my skin.

The air still smelled like something sizzled; I could almost hear it crackling.

And we were no longer alone; I sensed something, someone, very near.

Cautiously, I opened my eyes. The lake remained smooth as glass. The nearly full moon shone serenely on its surface. Mount Taylor loomed. Sawyer’s hogan remained exactly where it had always been.

However, the hat in the charmed circle was gone, and Xander Whitelaw now stood in its place.