F iona knew that she and her father had made a mistake as soon as they reached the theater district. They’d timed their arrival to coincide with intermission, so the ushers would no longer be checking tickets, but they hadn’t taken into account that the people milling around in the lobby and streaming outside into the warm summer air would all be wearing formal evening clothes.
“We’d better leave,” she told her father. “You don’t have a tuxedo.”
“Never mind about that. Just hold your head high and walk into the lobby. No one will care.” She did as she was told, pushing past the people who were drifting outside to light up cigarettes and fat cigars. The lobby was crowded, as well, and she smelled the aroma of coffee.
“Now what?” she asked her father. He was glancing all around, taking everything in.
“Find a man who’s alone. Like that gentleman over there.” He tilted his head to one side, indicating where Fiona should look. A group of people had lined up to buy coffee at a kiosk off to her left, and standing all alone at the end of the line was a tall, elegant-looking man who appeared to be in his forties.
“He’s too old,” Fiona whispered. “Can’t you pick someone younger?”
“Go on with you, girl! Just meet him before you decide. If you make a good impression, maybe he’ll introduce you to a younger friend. Hurry up, now. He’s still alone. “ Fiona mustered all her courage as she made her way over to the man, telling herself that this was just for practice. Several more patrons had joined the line behind him by the time she got there, and she wasn’t sure what to do. It would be awkward to cut in line alongside him. But her father was watching; she felt she had no choice but to follow through.
“Excuse me, sir,” she said, touching his arm to get his attention. “Is this the queue for coffee?”
He turned to face her. “Pardon? The… what?”
“The queue—or I suppose they call it a ‘line’here in America.”
“Oh, yes. Yes, we do call it a line. But don’t go to the end of it,” he said, glancing back at the lengthening line. “Please, allow me to buy you a cup.”
“Thank you. That’s very kind of you, Mr. …”
“Bartlett. Arthur Bartlett.”
“Fiona Quinn,” she said, smiling. “How do you do?”
“Fine, thank you.” He smiled in return—a charming, lopsided smile that went all the way to his eyes. They were wide and expressive and a very deep shade of brown. “You have a lovely name, Fiona Quinn, and a lovely voice. Are you… English?”
“From Dublin, actually. I’m visiting America with my father.”
He studied her with interest while they talked, stroking his neatly trimmed mustache as if petting a small animal. Fiona studied him, as well. Mr. Bartlett had a pleasant, oval-shaped face, and he wore his thin, lightbrown hair combed back from his high forehead. His full, pouting lips and somber eyes gave him a mournful look—until his smile lit up his face. He had a nice voice, too, deep and resonant. But he was too old. Fiona wanted someone young and handsome.
“How many coffees would you like?” he asked. They had reached the front of the line.
“Just one—for me.” She was surprised when he ordered only one for himself. She would have guessed that he was fetching coffee for his wife or theater companions. Surely an elegant, well-to-do gentleman like Mr. Bartlett wouldn’t attend the theater alone. He paid for both coffees, then moved aside to the counter where the cream and sugar were served.
“How do you take yours?” he asked.
“A little of each, thank you.” Fiona hated coffee and wondered how she would manage to choke it down. She watched his hands as he stirred in the cream and sugar; the ring finger on his left hand was bare.
“Did you come to the theater all alone?” Arthur asked as he turned from the serving table, carrying her coffee.
“No, actually, I came with my father. He’s around here someplace, talking to friends.” She looked around as if searching for him, then turned back to Arthur. “I don’t see him right now.”
“Well, since your father is missing momentarily, might I have the pleasure of joining you for coffee? I hate to think of such a lovely woman sitting all alone.”
“I would like that very much.” He chose one of the little tables that surrounded the coffee bar and held the chair for Fiona before taking a seat across from her—a true gentleman. She scrambled for something to say.
“Are you enjoying the show, Mr. Bartlett?”
“It’s so-so,” he said, waving his hand. “There’s too much talking and not nearly enough action for my tastes. And the actors aren’t very good, either. But what do you think?” Arthur leaned toward her, giving her his full attention.
“I haven’t seen many plays to compare it to. And it’s the first one I’ve seen here in New York.”
“I take it you haven’t been here very long. Are you enjoying the city?”
“Oh, yes—so far. I’ve been wanting to see some of the galleries and museums and attend some social events, but my father’s business has kept him tied up much of the time.”
“And you’re left on your own?”
“I’m afraid so.” She gave a little shrug and flipped her bobbed hair from her eyes, flirting shamelessly. She could see that he was smitten. She sat sideways in her chair with her legs crossed daintily, her exposed ankles where he could see them. His eyes wandered from her face to her figure and back again as if he were reading a map, memorizing her. She enjoyed the power she had over him, even if he was an older man.
“I’ve lived in New York all my life,” he told her. “I would consider it a privilege if you would allow me to show you around the city. Shall I speak with your father and arrange it sometime?”
“That would be lovely, Mr. Bartlett.”
They talked for a few more minutes before the house lights flickered.
The show was about to resume—and just when she was finally getting somewhere with a man. Arthur stood and held her chair again.
“May I escort you back to your seat, Miss Quinn?”
For a moment, Fiona panicked. She had no seat. He would find out she was an imposter.
“I… um… I haven’t been enjoying the play very much, either. Perhaps I’ll leave. But thank you anyway.”
“Then I would like to offer you and your father a ride to your hotel, if I may. It’s not often that I get to meet such a charming woman. I really don’t want to say good night.”
She took a moment to consider his offer and couldn’t see the harm in accepting a ride with him. “That would be very kind of you.”
“Wonderful. If you’ll excuse me for just a moment, I’ll tell my friends I’m leaving. I’ll be right back.”
As soon as Mr. Bartlett was out of sight, Fiona hurried over to where her father was watching from a distance. “He wants to drive us home, Dad. What should I do?”
“Exactly as we planned. Tell him we’re staying in the Chelsea Hotel and let him escort you as far as the lobby. Tell him you’d like to walk there—that it’s a lovely night and all that. I’ll follow you to keep an eye on him and meet you in the lobby. We’ll go back to the tenement when he’s gone.”
“Right, Dad. Wish me luck.” She turned to hurry away but he called her back.
“Did you find out if he’s married?”
“He isn’t wearing a ring.”
“Ask him.”
“Isn’t that a rather rude question to ask someone I’ve just met?”
“He looks to be in his forties. I don’t want to waste our time on him if he’s married.”
Fiona nodded and hurried back to wait for Mr. Bartlett, wondering how in the world she would find out if he was married. He broke into a wide smile, as if he couldn’t help himself, as soon as he saw her waiting for him.
“There you are. I’ve managed to free myself,” he said. “Did you find your father?”
“Yes, but he has decided to stay until the end of the show.”
“Splendid. I have you all to myself, then.” Arthur held the door for her and they walked outside. “I’ll hail a cab.”
“Wait… It’s such a lovely evening, isn’t it? Why don’t we walk? My hotel isn’t far.”
“That’s a wonderful idea. It will give us more time together.” He offered his arm, and she held it the way society ladies did when walking with their escorts. Arthur was at least a foot taller than she was, and Fiona had to look up to talk to him. She liked the feeling.
“Did your friends mind you leaving, Mr. Bartlett?”
“Please, call me Arthur. And may I call you Fiona?”
“Yes, of course.”
“No, my friends didn’t mind my leaving at all. I was the odd man out anyway, since the others came with their wives.”
“And you aren’t married?” He hesitated for a moment, and Fiona saw him wince.
“I was at one time. I’m divorced.” He looked down at her, his dark eyes sorrowful, and she thought she glimpsed pain in them. Her father would be glad to learn that he wasn’t married, but she wondered if she dared pursue Arthur any further, knowing her church’s position on divorce and remarriage.
“Divorce isn’t allowed in my country,” she told him. “Is it very common here in America?”
“No, not really. But our marriage was never a very happy one, I’m sorry to say. Our families arranged it when we were quite young—for social reasons, you understand. Love was never a factor. We both realized after only a few years that it was a mistake.”
Fiona saw the sadness in his eyes and quickly changed the subject.
They talked about New York City for the rest of the way, and after he escorted her inside the hotel, they stood in the lobby and talked some more.
“This has been so much more interesting than the play,” Arthur said with a smile. “In fact, I still don’t want to say good night.”
“Me, either,” she said, laughing.
“Then, shall we walk some more? I’ll show you some more sights of New York on the way. … Or am I being too forward?”
“Not at all. I’d love to.”
“Will your father mind?”
Fiona couldn’t think what to do. “I… um… I’m not sure. He’s still at the theater.”
“Why don’t you write him a note and leave it in his mailbox?”
“Yes… yes, of course.” Arthur walked with her to the front desk and asked the clerk for paper and a pen. Fiona scribbled a vague message on it and folded it in half, then wrote a random room number on it, shielding it with her hand so Arthur wouldn’t see it. She handed it to the desk clerk.
Arthur smiled and offered his arm again as he escorted her outside, and this time he rested his hand on top of hers. She felt the warmth of his touch all the way to her toes.
He walked with her around a couple of city blocks near the hotel, giving her a tour of the landmarks along the way, and she learned that he worked on Wall Street as an investment banker. Arthur was very charming and surprisingly funny. She began to forget that he was divorced and at least twenty years older than she was.
“Thank you for a wonderful evening, Arthur,” she said when they reached the hotel once again.
“I still don’t want to say good-bye,” he said, sighing as he took her hand. “Would you have dinner with me tomorrow night?”
“I would like that very much.”
“Good. Let’s say… seven o’clock? And please tell your father that I haven’t forgotten my manners. Perhaps I can meet him when I call for you tomorrow? It’s only proper.”
“Of course. Until tomorrow…? ”
“Until tomorrow.” He gave her hand a gentle squeeze before releasing it.
Fiona and her father were waiting for Arthur in the hotel lobby when he called for her the following night. They had both worked a full day— Rory at the docks and Fiona at the hat shop—and they had barely made it to the hotel on time after racing home, bathing, and changing into their stolen clothes and shoes. Fiona still felt a little frazzled as she introduced her father to Arthur. When Arthur asked Rory to join them for dinner, he declined.
“No, thank you, Mr. Bartlett. I have business to attend to this evening. Perhaps another time?”
“I’ll look forward to it.” Arthur had a beautiful 1920 Packard, and he drove Fiona to a little restaurant away from all the crowds and Saturday night activity. She felt a little disappointed that he hadn’t taken her someplace famous where the upper class dined, but the food was so delicious, the atmosphere so cozy and romantic, that she soon forgot her disappointment. They sat across from each other at a diminutive table, and Arthur’s long legs brushed against hers from time to time, sending a pleasant shiver through her. His eyes held hers as they talked, and she saw his admiration in them. He looked almost handsome as he stroked his mustache in the soft candlelight.
“Do you like to dance?” he asked as they finished their dessert. “I know a place we can go that has a wonderful band. And we can get a martini or a glass of wine there, if you’d like.”
“I thought all the pubs in America were closed. My father’s quite put out that he can’t have a pint now and then.”
“They are closed,” Arthur said, laughing. “Officially, that is. But you can get a drink in just about any building on Fifty-second Street between Fifth and Sixth Avenues if you know where to go. They’re called speakeasies, and there are thousands of them in New York.”
“You mean, they’re all breaking the law? How do they get away with it?”
“Bribery, my dear. Most officials will simply look the other way if you pay them enough—federal prohibition agents, the police, district attorneys, they’re all on the take. Even the beat cop will turn his back when the beer is being delivered if you give him forty or fifty bucks.”
“Really.” She smiled. The idea of such widespread corruption made her feel a little better about her own wrongdoings.
“Sure. All the best clubs serve liquor on the sly. Club Gallant in Greenwich Village is one of the fanciest. I also have a membership card to Club New Yorker on Fifty-first Street. And you should see the elaborate system of alarm buttons they have at the Twenty-One Club. I was there one night when the place was raided, and it was amazing how quickly the whole place swung into action. They have trapdoors and secret compartments everywhere, and in a matter of moments, all traces of liquor had simply vanished.”
Fiona leaned across the table toward him, resting her chin on her fist. “And here I thought everyone in America was a teetotaler.”
“Hardly! Tell your father he can make an appointment with a doctor and ask for a prescription for alcohol for medicinal purposes. It’s perfectly legal for a druggist to dispense gin or brandy and so forth if you have a prescription.”
Fiona laughed with delight. “America certainly is an interesting place.
I think I’d like to see one of these… What did you call them? A speaksoftly?”
“A speakeasy,” he said, laughing with her. “All right, then. Let’s go find one.” Arthur drove to an ordinary-looking brownstone in midtown, then led Fiona down a flight of stairs to the basement door. A peephole opened after they’d knocked, and Arthur gave his name. A moment later the door swung wide and Fiona heard music and laughter and the tinkle of glasses. It took a moment for her eyes to adjust to the dim light and see that the entire basement had been converted into a nightclub. The doorman led them to a small table for two in a cozy nook, and Arthur ordered them each a drink. Fiona sipped hers slowly as they talked. She had never drunk alcohol before, but she liked the pleasant, swirling feeling it gave her. The band music was so lively she couldn’t help tapping her feet.
“Care to dance?” Arthur soon asked. Fiona had been watching the other couples. All she had to do was imitate them.
“I’d love to.”
Arthur was a wonderful dancer, so smooth and graceful that she saw other people watching him with admiration. And she felt graceful herself as she floated around the dance floor in his arms. By the end of the evening she longed for Arthur to hold her closer, remembering how wonderful it felt when Kevin held her tightly in his arms. But Arthur was a gentleman, holding her chastely while they danced, kissing her lightly on the cheek when he said good-night to her at the hotel, the way she’d seen upper-class people saying farewell to each other.
“I had a marvelous time,” she told him. It was the truth.
“I didn’t show you much of New York, did I? We’ll have to make another date for next Saturday night.”
“I’d like that very much.”
She was waiting for him in the lobby again a week later. Fiona watched as he strode through the door like he was the lord of the manor, looking all around for her.
“Fiona! There you are!” She loved the way his face lit up when he saw her. It made him look dashing and young. He took both of her hands in his and greeted her with a soft kiss on the cheek. He smelled wonderful. His after-shave permeated his skin and his clothing, and the manly scent was as intoxicating to Fiona as the drink he had bought her at the speakeasy.
“I thought we would go sailing tonight,” he said as they walked to his car.
“Sailing? At night?”
“Well, not exactly,” he said with a grin. “I’ve made reservations for us on a ship that’s anchored three miles offshore. There will be dining and dancing—and liquor is legal, of course, out in international waters.”
“Don’t tell me! Is this another way to skirt around the prohibition laws?”
“Of course—and a very lucrative one, too.” His eyes sparkled as he glanced down at her. “There are hundreds of ships, in fact, anchored off the U.S. coast from Maine all the way to Florida.”
He parked near the river, where a speedboat was waiting to ferry passengers to and from the ship. The air was cool on the ride out from the harbor, and Arthur wrapped his arm around Fiona’s shoulders, cuddling her close to help her stay warm. The ship Arthur had chosen was magnificent, with mahogany paneling in the dining lounge, linen tablecloths, fine china, and crystal chandeliers. They dined on thick steaks and drank wine and gazed across the table at each other.
“You’re the most beautiful woman I’ve ever met,” Arthur murmured. She smiled, not knowing how to reply.
Later they danced until their feet ached. Fiona didn’t need to drink much liquor in order to feel light and giddy; the lush music, the look in Arthur’s eyes, and the feel of his arms around her were intoxicating enough. She couldn’t imagine how she ever thought he was too old for her. He was so gentle and attentive, always impeccably dressed in bow tie and evening clothes. She loved the way he looked at her with his deep brown eyes and slow, sad smile; loved the warmth of his hand on her waist as they danced or on her back as he escorted her to her seat. He had smooth hands with long, elegant fingers and buffed nails. He held her hand as they sat at their table and sipped drinks, and sometimes he lifted her fingers to his lips and kissed them. But as he said good-night, he once again kissed her softly on the cheek, leaving Fiona longing for more.
When they had been dating for a month, Fiona finally got her wish. They had gone out to Arthur’s favorite ship again, and after dining and dancing for hours, he led her up on deck beneath a starlit sky. As the glittering lights of New York City flickered in the distance, Arthur took her in his arms and kissed her properly for the first time—not the goodnight pecks on the cheek he’d been giving her when they parted. Not the bruising, fumbling kisses that Kevin always gave her. This was a slow, wonderful kiss that left her breathless. He was a man in complete control, not simply taking something for himself, as Kevin had, but giving Fiona something in return—a man who knew how to really kiss a woman.
“I’m falling in love with you, Fiona,” he whispered when they finally drew apart. He rested his palm on her cheek and brushed her lips with his thumb. Before she could reply, he pulled her close and kissed her again.
As summer turned to fall, Fiona noticed that Arthur never took her to the theater or the symphony or to other society events. He always chose dark, cozy, intimate places where they could cuddle at their table between dances. He never introduced Fiona to any friends or acquaintances. In fact, Arthur never seemed to run into anyone he knew, until one night, as he and Fiona were leaving a speakeasy on Fifty-second Street, a gentleman on his way into the club stopped him.
“Arthur! Where have you been lately? I haven’t seen you in months.” The man reached to shake Arthur’s hand, and Fiona saw a look of surprise on his face when he noticed Fiona holding onto Arthur’s arm. “Oh, hello…” he said to her.
For the space of a heartbeat, Arthur seemed embarrassed. He quickly recovered. “Phil, let me introduce you to my guest, Fiona Quinn, from Dublin. Her father is here in New York on business, and I’ve offered to show her around. Fiona, this is Phil Holmes.”
“How do you do, Miss Quinn,” he said, bowing slightly. “I trust Arthur is showing you the very best of our fair city?”
“Oh, yes. He’s doing a marvelous job.”
“You always get the plum jobs, Arthur.” He nudged him in the ribs and winked. “Sorry, but I have to run. Will I see you and your wife at the mayor’s reception next week?”
“Yes, of course.”
“Good. Give Evelyn my regards.”
“I will. Good night.”
Mr. Holmes hurried off, leaving behind an awkward silence.
“Is Evelyn your ex-wife?” Fiona asked when they were outside in the street. Arthur nodded solemnly. “And are you really taking her to the mayor’s party?”
“I’m afraid so,” he sighed. “It’s still my duty to escort her to these things. She knows the mayor and all those other society people. It’s not the sort of event she would attend alone—you understand.”
“I’m not sure I do. Mr. Holmes referred to her as your wife. Doesn’t he know about your divorce?” Arthur stopped beside his car, gazing down at his feet, not at Fiona. He looked so uncomfortable that she decided to drop the subject, worried that she had upset him. “I’m sorry, Arthur. You don’t owe me any explanations.”
“Yes, I do, Fiona.” He finally looked up at her, his face grave, his eyes sorrowful. “Our divorce isn’t final yet.”
“What?” Fiona leaned against the car fender to steady herself. She didn’t want to believe that he had lied to her all this time. “Y-you mean you’re still married?”
“Yes… I’m sorry.”
Tears filled Fiona’s eyes. She didn’t want to cry, but she couldn’t seem to stop them from falling. Arthur opened the passenger door, then rested his hand on her back, gently guiding her inside. “Please, let’s sit in the car,” he said. “I’d like to explain.”
He walked around to the driver’s side and slid behind the wheel, but he didn’t start the engine. Fiona looked straight ahead through the windshield. The corner street lamp glistened through her tears.
“Everything else I told you about my marriage is true,” Arthur said softly. “It’s been over for years. I don’t love Evelyn, and she doesn’t love me. We agreed to divorce some time ago, but now she’s stalling, arguing for more money. My lawyer is handling it. In the meantime, we occasionally attend social events together—to keep up appearances. For the children’s sakes.”
Fiona’s breath caught in her throat as she turned to stare at him. “You never told me you had children.” She felt as if she were onboard a ship in storm-tossed seas and had slipped off the deck into the cold, dark water.
Arthur drew a deep breath, as if he were about to plunge into the frigid water with her. “Yes, I have a son and a daughter. The breakup has been especially hard on them.”
Fiona struggled to get it straight in her mind, to comprehend the truth. “You’re a married man, then? And you’re living with your wife, going places with her—and with me?”
He didn’t answer right away. He reached to take both of her hands in his as he gazed at her. “I’m so sorry if I’ve misled you, Fiona. I wouldn’t blame you for hating me. It was selfish of me not to tell you the truth right from the start. … But I was afraid you would have nothing to do with me if you knew—afraid you’d walk away from me that first evening and I’d never see you again. And I couldn’t bear the thought of losing you. Can you ever forgive me?”
She didn’t answer right away, shocked by the knowledge that she’d been involved with a married man all this time. “W-when will your divorce be final?” she finally asked.
“Any day.” He released one of her hands and smoothed her hair off her forehead. “That’s what my lawyer keeps telling me—any day. When I first started seeing you, I thought it would all be over with by now. It should be over. I never imagined that I’d have to continue misleading you this long. I’m so sorry, Fiona.”
“Maybe… maybe we shouldn’t see each other until it’s final,” she said, pulling her hand free. “Especially if you’re still required to attend social events with her.”
Arthur closed his eyes for a moment, as if her words had caused him great pain. “I understand,” he murmured. “I don’t know how I’ll bear it, but I understand.”
He started the engine and they drove back to the hotel in silence.
Fiona felt torn between her conscience and her longing. She knew that what they’d done was wrong, and she felt deeply ashamed that she’d been involved with a married man all this time. But she couldn’t bear the thought of never seeing Arthur again. Even now, all she could think about was kissing him, feeling his comforting arms around her, inhaling his rich scent. But that was wrong—so wrong. The sins of stealing and lying already stained her soul, and now she would have to add the sin of adultery to them. Arthur had a wife and children—two children.
He parked the car near the hotel but didn’t move to get out. Finally he turned to her. “Please… tell me I haven’t lost you forever. Will you let me call on you again when I’m free? Will you still be here?”
“Yes. Yes of course,” she said eagerly. But she realized that she wouldn’t be here. She didn’t live in this hotel. She had lied to Arthur the same way he had lied to her. If she said good-bye to him tonight, he would have no way to get in touch with her after his divorce was final. He could hardly call on her at her tenement on the Lower East Side or pay her a visit in the workshop above Madame Deveau’s hat shop. She saw tears in his eyes as he took her face in his hands and tilted it toward him.
“Let me memorize your beautiful face, Fiona. Until I see you again, it will be like living in darkness with no sunlight.” He ran his hands through her hair, over her shoulders, down her arms. Then he pulled her close for a final, tender kiss. When he pulled away, a single tear rolled down his cheek. “I love you, Fiona. I don’t want to lose you.”
“I love you, too!” she cried as she flung herself into his arms. It was true. In the beginning he had been nothing more to her than a wealthy man who could give her a comfortable life. But now she was genuinely in love with Arthur Bartlett. She wasn’t pretending.
“How long… until we can be together?” she asked as she buried her face against his neck.
“I don’t know. I wish I did. I would marry you now, tonight, if I were free. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.”
Against all her wishes, against all that she’d been taught about right and wrong, she had fallen in love with a married man. She couldn’t help herself. And now she couldn’t bear to be separated from him. In that moment, Fiona made up her mind.
“I don’t want to be apart at all, Arthur—ever. Forget what I said, before. It doesn’t matter if… if you aren’t free yet.”
“Oh, thank you, darling.” He pulled her closer, and she heard his sigh of relief. “Can I see you next weekend, Fiona? Shall we go dancing? Please say yes.”
“Yes, my darling, yes. Next weekend.”