Chapter Twelve
"A deserted house."
"Where?"
"On the edge of the ville."
"Who knows we're here?"
"Nobody."
"Sure nobody saw us?"
"I'm sure."
"Feels cold and damp."
"It is. But most of the roof is on, and it looks like someone lived
here for a while. Some of the broken windows have been shuttered,
and the back and side doors have both been barricaded. There's
remains of a fire."
"Don't light it!"
J.B. patted him on the arm. "Relax a bit, Ryan. We aren't virgin
stupes."
"Yeah, I know that" There was a long, long silence between the two
old friends. "Just that"
"I know, Ryan."
"Mildred there?"
"Up the stairs. Keeping watch."
"How about food?"
The Armorer cleared his throat. "Jak and Dean are going out
scavenging a little later."
"Tell them to be careful and" He laughed quietly. "Being blind
makes you stupid," he said. "Course they'll be careful. What's the
time?"
J.B. rolled his sleeve back to check his wrist chron. "Closing in
on three, near as I can figure it. Light's still good."
"Not for me." Ryan sighed. "Fireblast! Swore I wouldn't say that
kind of shit, and here I am pouring it out all the rad-damned
time."
He heard feet moving down the stairs, recognizing the footfalls as
Mildred's.
She entered the room where he was lying on an old mattress that
smelled of cat piss.
"How's it going, Ryan?"
"Like you'd expect."
"Tough?"
"Yeah."
"How's the eye feel?"
He was aware that she had knelt by him, studying him. It
accentuated the feeling of helplessness, and he half turned his
face away from her.
"Still sort of burns."
"No sight?"
"Kind of speckling lights, like miniature jewels scattered on a
black rug. But they keep moving. Can't focus on them. Can't see a
bastard thing."
"Freak accident," she said.
Ryan didn't know that his son was also in the room. The boy had
been keeping very still and silent. "Paid the bastards for doing
it, Dad."
"I know."
Despite the pain from the blow on the head and the white agony of
his damaged eye, Ryan's combat reflexes were still functioning in
the totem shack.
He'd heard the scream from Krysty, riding on the heels of the
explosion from the flintlock pistol; the angry, freaked voice of
the woman, crying out against her husband; the unmistakable thunk
of one of Jak's leaf-bladed throwing knives finding its target in
the throat of Baptiste, the old man; the sharp crack of the Uzi,
firing a single round; a yell of shock and pain and the muffled
sound of the sawed-down, filthy shotgun; blood fountaining from the
severed carotid artery in Baptiste's neck, pattering on the greasy
floorboards; the woman going down, kicking and thrashing, trying to
scream, but the 9 mm bullet had done its work, striking her in the
upper chest, the angle of the round drilling through both lungs.
She died quickly, drowning in her own blood.
After that, Ryan remembered only the silence, for what seemed an
eternity.
Then the disbelieving realization of the disaster that had struck
at him.
MILDRED HAD EXAMINED HIM with a scrupulous care, giving a running
commentary as she did, so that he knew exactly what the damage
was.
"Skin blackened and scorched around the eye. Extensive burning of
the hairs on the eyebrow and the lashes. Pitting with some powder
impregnation to outer surface of the forehead and the top of the
nose, as well as all around the eye and down onto the cheek. All of
this is superficial and gives absolutely no cause for medical
concern, though it should be carefully and thoroughly cleansed as
soon as possible."
That had been the end of the good news.
Ryan had picked up on the change in the doctor's voice as she
examined the damage to the eye itself.
"Not so good. The impact from the blast from the flash in the pan
has obviously been serious. The lid of the eye is badly swollen and
tender. Until this has subsided it's impossible to give a definite
diagnosis. Also, I don't have any proper ophthalmic instruments to
check deep damage. But I think there's scarring of the cornea and
also injury to the surface of the eye."
"You mean I'm fucking blind!"
"Yes." She squeezed his hand. "No point in bullshitting you,
Ryan."
"For good?"
Mildred hadn't answered him for a while, and Ryan could almost feel
her gathering herself together. "I truly can't tell you."
"But?"
"It was a bad burn, and it was very close to your good eye. If only
you'd been facing the other way."
"Then I'd have needed a new patch."
"Right. Truth is, the odds aren't good."
"But there are odds?"
"There's always odds, Ryan."
"Tell me what they are. Fifty-fifty? Sixty-forty? Ninety-ten?
What?"
He had heard her shaking her head. "Not like that. This sort of
injury sometimes gets better as the eye slowly heals itself. If the
damage is too deep, then then it doesn't ever get any
better."
"How long before we know?"
"About a week? If your sight's recovering by then If not, then it
likely won't come back at all."
"Thanks." He still held her hand, squeezing it and holding it
tight.
"IS IT NIGHT?"
Krysty had been sitting by Ryan, watching while he fell into a deep
sleep, his body trying to patch itself up after the clinical
shock.
"Nearly, lover. How's it feel?"
Ryan sat up, aware of how totally helpless he was. Even the act of
moving brought a kind of vertigo that made his head swim. He
reached out, grabbing at Krysty's shoulder, making her gasp with
pain.
"Not so hard!"
"Sorry. Just trying I want to say it right now, and you can tell
everyone else. Don't keep asking me how I feel. I feel like I'm
blind . If I get any fucking hint that my sight might be sneaking
back, then you'll all know about it. Until then I'd rather not get
asked."
Krysty didn't respond.
Time drifted by, the silence finally broken by Ryan.
"Smell burning."
"Jak went back to the store with Doc a half hour ago. Said he was
going to fire it. Thought that it would be less suspicious if any
of the locals went there and found the corpses. Fire covers it all
up."
"Good idea. I should've thought of that."
"There's no sign of any life. This place is up a road off the main
drag of the ville. Forde spotted it from the height of the wag
seat. The trail was overgrown, and we dragged some brush across
it."
Doc spoke, making Ryan start. "So, we have closed off the road
through the woods, and now there is no road through the
woods."
"Made me jump, Doc. Didn't hear you come in. Mebbe the blast of
that flintlock made me deaf as well as blind."
"I have been here for some little time. There is an old chaise
lounge that fitted itself to my angular frame with surprisingly
small discomfort. From its design and fabric I suspect that it
might be almost as old as me."
"Anyone carried out a recce of the ville?"
Krysty shook her head automatically, then realized how pointless
that was. "No, not yet, lover. Soon as it's dark, then Dean
and"
"You already told me that," Ryan said.
He lay down and within a couple of minutes had dropped off to
sleep.
"EASY AS TAKING small jack from a young child," Dean
boasted.
He and Jak had returned an hour after dark, bringing two gunnysacks
loaded with food and drink. They unloaded them together in the room
where Ryan lay in his darkness, the boy giving his father a running
commentary on their expedition and its results.
"Bramton's oddest ville I ever saw. Only just gone dusk, but it's
locked up tighter than a gaudy slut's heart. Not a place that
wasn't locked and bolted, and only masked lamps showing through
gaps in their drapes."
Jak supported him. "Almost taste fear."
"But no guards?" Ryan asked, wrinkling his forehead as he tried to
puzzle it out.
"Not one. Also, dogs shut up in houses and barns. Few scented us
and began barking. Not soul showed nose out doors."
"Fires?"
"Indoors," the albino replied.
"Then how did you get the food and stuff?"
"Mostly in sheds out back. Brain-dead lemming could've broken
locks."
Dean recited what they'd taken.
"Two chickens, ready-plucked. Three parts of a big smoked ham. Some
dried fish. Jars of preserves. Cherry and strawberry.
Boysenberry."
Mildred took it from the boy. "I think that I prefer boysenberry
more than any ordinary jam," she said, waiting for a moment as if
she expected a response from the others. But none came. "Let it
lie," she muttered.
"And there's a couple of jugs of home-brew beer and one of
whiskey," Dean said.
"Bread, cheese and crock-salted butter. Milk. Fruit. Apples and
pears."
"Right feast," J.B. said. "You did well."
"Yeah," Ryan agreed, a beat late. "Good. Real good."
EATING HAD BEEN a more humiliating experience than Ryan had
imagined. Despite his efforts, with everyone else studiously
ignoring his clumsiness, he finally had to give in and ask Krysty
to help him.
"No sweat, lover. You want me to just cut it up and leave you to
it?"
"No," he replied, almost choking on his own voice. "Even with a
spoon I still can't get a fucking handle on it. Sort of slips
away." He took a deep breath. "Can you feed me, Krysty?"
"Sure."
"Just for tonight. I'll get the hang of it in the end, I guess. But
for now"
KRYSTY HAD LED HIM by the hand out back to where the bathroom still
stood. There was a copper-sheathed rain barrel, and she used an old
pan to scoop up some of the water, carefully washing his
food-splattered face with it, avoiding the burned part around his
right eye.
"Messy eater," he said.
"You wouldn't know it now. There. Clean and smart again. Go back
inside?"
"Not yet."
"Want to catch some fresh air?"
"Yeah. Feels overcast."
Krysty looked up at the cloudless sky, seeing the sprinkling of
bright stars. "You're right," she said.
"Dull and dismal. Ten-tenths cloud cover. Looks like it might rain
later."
Ryan smiled for the first time since the blinding. "I could feel
it."
"Stay awhile longer?"
"I need a piss."
"Sure. Least you don't need me for that. Though I'd be very happy
to grab hold and"
"Just point me away from anything, lover. Don't want to do it on my
boots."
"Right." She watched him in the filtered moonlight.
"You can see all right? In the dark?" he asked.
"Just about. Go ahead."
Ryan did it safely, the stream of liquid, silver-black in the moon,
splashing against the trunk of a tilted alder, running into the
dirt.
RYAN FELL ASLEEP QUICKLY, his body wanting to close down and shut
off the horrors of one of the worst days of his life. Krysty had
placed their mattress in the upstairs back room. J.B. and Mildred
were sleeping in the next room, while Doc, Jak and Dean each had an
attic. Johannes Forde had elected to sleep in his wag in the
overgrown cottage garden.
The Armorer had discussed with Ryan whether he thought they needed
a watch placed. But it was agreed that, as the house was well
hidden from the rest of the ville of Bramton, they could reasonably
take a chance and go without.
Ryan dreamed that he could see.
He had once known a severely disabled young woman who told him that
she dreamed herself whole and well, running through fields of
flowers. And she described the cold chill of the waking to grim
reality.
He had never quite appreciated the sheer deathly impact of
that.
It felt like the small hours and he nudged Krysty, his eye open,
seeing only blackness.
"Is there moonlight?" he whispered.
"Yes, there is, lover." A note of hope entered her voice. "Can you
see it?"
"No." He turned over and tried to get back to sleep.