12
Lauryn’s Heart

Alyssa and Saxon pulled their cloaks tighter about them against the rain, glad to have sensible horses who happily moved alongside one another at a demure walk. It was muddy underfoot and the Kloek was not taking any chances of being thrown.

Queen no longer, he reminded himself, glancing at the petite figure in her deliberately nondescript clothes. She moved from the role of royal back to commoner with ease. Alyssa was never one for vanities and this quality helped her now as she cast away her immediate past and rebuilt yet another identity for herself as a travelling noblewoman, her private bodyguard in tow. He noticed a new shine in those soft grey-green eyes and he hoped it was not for Tor, worried that this splendid and courageous young woman might be about to get her heart broken yet again. He pushed the thought to one side—it was not his business and Alyssa would be quick to remind him of this. She maintained this journey was necessary because of her passionate need to find her son.

‘I wish I could link with him,’ she suddenly said into their comfortable silence. Her voice sounded just a little too wistful for his liking.

‘With Rubyn?’ He hoped she might agree.

‘I meant Tor,’ she replied, a little self-consciously.

Perhaps it was time to counsel her. ‘Alyssa, it could be unwise —’

He was not allowed to finish his sentence. ‘Don’t, Sax. That he is alive fills my heart to bursting. I feel more fortunate than I deserve. This is about finding Rubyn and bringing our three children together. It is not about Tor and myself. Our affections for one another have nothing to do with this.’

He took a chance. ‘Nevertheless, may I suggest caution.’

She threw him a stern glance of admonishment. ‘No, you may not, Kloek.’ It was a flash of the Queen she briefly had been. ‘You forget he is still my husband but that does not mean I rush back to his bed.’

Alyssa could be fierce when her temper was inflamed. He wished he had not fired it so early in their journey. Now they would travel in an uncomfortable silence.

‘I had forgotten that, your majesty,’ he said, hoping the formality might remind her that he did respect her.

Her pinched expression relaxed. It softened into a ghost of a smile. ‘Call me Alyssa now. Sorry, Saxon. I feel very jumpy. Husbands dying, husbands returning from the dead, sons coming back from the dead, children I didn’t know I had presenting themselves…and perhaps another heart hurt when it should have been avoided.’

‘Gyl?’ he asked gently.

She nodded. ‘He is in much pain.’

‘He has all the raw stuff to make a good King,’ Saxon assured her.

‘But who will guide him? He has no one, and now even I have deserted him.’

‘Gyl will make his own way, I’m sure. He will surprise all of us.’

‘You’re worse than a doting mother,’ she teased.

Saxon shrugged. ‘He will make a fine ruler for Tallinor. Let’s not ignore the fact that Old King Mort’s blood runs in his veins.’

She smiled. ‘Gyl is fortunate that we all place such faith in him.’ She bit her lip. ‘I hope he will look after Lauryn.’

‘King he may be these days, but barring Herek there is no finer soldier in all of Tallinor than Gyl. There is certainly no finer swordsman. She is safer with him than here with us.’

She arched her eyebrows. ‘You were so merciless with him in the practice yards. Always telling him how terrible he was.’

The Kloek spat. ‘No good swelling a young lad’s head with notions of grandeur, Alyssa. You were too soft on the lad. Someone had to be the grouchy man about his life.’

He noticed the wistful expression cross her face once again. Had he said the wrong thing?

‘Yes, I deeply regret withholding the information of his birthright from him but Lorys insisted. He could have achieved so much with Gyl over the years.’

‘What’s done is done. Now,’ he said, deciding to put an end to any grim thoughts, ‘let us see what these sturdy mares can do for us. The Heartwood calls.’

An organised chaos had gripped Tal as it prepared to crown its new King. News of Gyl’s birthright had raced around the realm and was welcomed with great enthusiasm. It was understandable. Gyl was a popular man in the city, especially with the local gentry who had daughters of marriageable age. Being the Under Prime had taken him around the Kingdom several times in his career already and that meant he was a familiar and well-liked face within its far reaching districts. He was someone the realm knew and that immeasurably softened the anxiety of having a new ruler, particularly as they knew him to be a just and courageous man.

The household staff moved like worker bees in their dedication, whilst the head of the household kept up a steady stream of instructions. The palace was stripped, cleaned and refreshed from top to bottom. Everything, from the palace silver to the King’s Guards’ armour, was polished to gleaming. Cook’s team swarmed around the kitchens and whole wings of the castle were reopened, aired and brought back to life. A seemingly unending convoy of carts and wagons brought enormous bunches of herbs and lavenders to restuff beds and strew across the floors of all the guest chambers which would be packed to brimful within a day or two. In fact Gyl had already been advised that his first royal guests were due to arrive by nightfall. Animals were slaughtered, gutted, skinned, plucked, boiled, or hung.

Lauryn felt a little useless amidst the frenzy of industry. She did not know how to go about offering her help because everyone was just too busy—it seemed rude to interrupt them. And so she found herself this day strolling around the grounds somewhat aimlessly until she noticed Rolynd trying to entice old Drake deeper into one of the tiny courtyards where she could see preparations were underway to bath the King’s hound. There was a team of page-boys ready to do the deed but none were game enough to begin. These days, apart from Alyssa and Gyl, Rolynd was the only other person Drake genuinely liked—everyone else he simply tolerated. But it seemed that not even for Rolynd was the dog going to subject himself to the insufferable humiliation of a bath. Too long in the tooth to be tricked or even bribed, the huge hound sat very still, as if rooted to the ground where he sat, and regarded his enemy.

Lauryn only caught sight of this merry theatre because one of the older pages, who obviously had many other tasks to perform on his list of today’s duties, became impatient and rather bravely approached the dog with a length of rope. Drake, famous for his enormous bark, let rip with one of his best which sent all the other younger pages scuttling backwards, rather swiftly followed by their elder.

Rolynd shook his head and then noticed Lauryn standing nearby, her amusement evident. ‘My lady, may I introduce you to Tallinor’s most stubborn and indeed most grubby royal hound, Drake.’

She laughed. ‘Whom does he belong to?’

Rolynd sighed. ‘King Lorys, may the Light shine upon him. But this dog is exceptionally fond of your mother. She had a genuine way with this beast. He is Gyl’s dog now. They are inseparable, but the King has given very strict instructions that the hound is to be bathed. It only happens for coronations so I would imagine this is his first—and hopefully last—ever bath.’

Lauryn was now truly amused and walked towards the dog, still laughing. ‘Does he have to?’

‘King’s orders.’

‘Well then, Drake,’ she said, hands on hips, ‘let’s blame the King and not these nice young lads here.’

Rolynd was astounded to see the huge dog stand up and wag his tail at the young woman. She grinned and beckoned him to her and, as if he were her own pup, he came to her call and allowed her to pet and cuddle him.

‘My lady. You have a way with animals just like your mother.’

She smiled. ‘Can I help you in this task?’

‘But you’ll get all wet and muddy.’

‘Oh please, Rolynd. Give me two minutes and I’ll change and you can dismiss the pages. I can do this for Drake without any help.’

With his mouth still open in surprise, Rolynd watched the young woman lift her skirts and run back into the palace. The dog sat down again and eyed them balefully. The palace secretary shook his head.

‘Dismissed boys. Get on with your other duties.’

They did not require a second telling and had dispersed within seconds. Drake growled for good measure as they left.

Rolynd scolded him and was still berating the dog, albeit rather gently, when Lauryn reappeared kitted out in a man’s loose shirt and breeches she had pulled in tight to her waist with a length of leather.

‘I borrowed these old clothes,’ she said gleefully. ‘Come on, Drake. You’ll love us for making you all clean and then I shall comb you until your coat gleams.’

Whether the dog understood her or not he obediently crossed to the horse trough where Lauryn began scooping up water with a large pot and pouring it over him.

It was not a pleasant time for Drake but he submitted to her ministrations with calm and good grace. Even the soaping and the rinsing he accepted with only the slightest show of indignation. Rolynd listened to the constant soft stream of chatter coming from Lauryn as she spoke gently to the dog of how all the itches would be gone and the burrs which poked him as he slept would be combed out. Her tone soothed the secretary as much as the hound, which is probably why he didn’t notice the King strolling into the courtyard.

Gyl stopped with amazement at this scene and then, not wishing to interrupt its progress, he leaned against one of the walls and watched Lauryn. She looked exactly as he remembered his mother when she had lived a more carefree life. Lauryn’s golden hair, which she had unsuccessfully tried to pull into a hurried plait had worked itself loose and now strands, glinting in the midday sun, were hanging down her face which glowed with her efforts. She was altogether lovely. He too admired her gentle talk to the animal and he was reminded of that day when he had first met her. She had found Bryx for him and yet Bryx was not a horse who came to anyone. She obviously spoke the language of animals. And that day she had been covered in mud and now here she was dressed like a man and completely indifferent to the normal vanities of women. As he was thinking how gorgeous she looked in her simple garb with her hair flying around her, Drake decided he had had enough and stood up to shake himself. He did this with particular care to not only expertly drench the unsuspecting Rolynd but to shower his carer with as much water as possible. Lauryn screamed throughout the ordeal and then began to laugh at Rolynd and then at herself.

Drake trotted off, longing to roll in the dust but Gyl was too fast, knowing precisely what dogs like to do when their coats are damp. He grabbed the hound, laughing as he did so. This was the first moment that either Rolynd or Lauryn had realised the King was present. As one they bowed, looking rather ridiculous in their wet clothes.

When Lauryn stood up, she looked self-conscious. And well you might, the King thought, unable to drag his stare from the now suddenly transparent white shirt which clung to her breasts rather splendidly.

Gyl cleared his throat. ‘I presume this is the fashion where you come from?’

She followed his gaze and then shrieked, horrified at her indiscretion and desperately trying to cover herself. ‘Excuse me, your majesty. I…er…I must change my clothes.’ She did not bother with a bow but fled into the palace, cheeks burning, no longer from her labours but from her sense of humiliation.

Rolynd said nothing but his look told Gyl he should not have embarrassed his mother’s daughter in such a manner. Gyl had far too much respect for the old secretary to ignore the warning in that carefully expressionless face.

‘Sorry, Rolynd. She’s too easy to tease.’

‘No apology due me, your highness, though might I mention that the girl is feeling intensely lonely.’

Gyl considered this. ‘Have I made it worse?’

‘No, sire. I think she just wishes to help and be a part of palace life. She just wants to fit in…like most of us.’

The King nodded. ‘I must make it up to her.’

Later that day, as Lauryn stared out of her window towards the moors to where she imagined Brittelbury might be, wishing desperately she could have gone with Gidyon, she heard a tap on the door. Behind it she found a page with a message from the King requesting her to join him for a ride that afternoon. She assumed it was with a party and grudgingly gave her acceptance. She did not particularly want to see the King again today— her cheeks still burned each time she remembered her nakedness—but at least amongst a group she could avoid him. Also it gave her something to do and meant another few hours of loneliness had been killed.

After the morning’s debacle, Lauryn took care with her preparations. Rolynd had filled her wardrobe with dozens of garments she would probably never wear but he had eased her discomfort with the news that her mother had insisted she have a full range of clothes to wear during her stay at the palace.

At the appropriate hour she presented herself in the main courtyard and was surprised to find herself greeted by a single horse and its handler.

‘Where are the others?’ she said.

‘They’ve gone ahead, my lady,’ he demurred, helping her onto her horse. ‘Her name’s Firefly. She’s really a very gentle beast to ride once you get to know her. I might add, my lady, she can be just a little feisty for new riders but you’ll soon get her measure.’

‘Thank you. How do I find my way to the rest of the party?’ she asked, seething at the affront of being specifically invited and then left behind.

‘I shall lead you, my lady. It’s not far.’

They headed towards the back of the palace in silence with Lauryn too furious to even make polite small talk. She could see a few soldiers ahead standing around with a couple of horses, but there were no finely dressed men ready for a genteel ride—nor women for that matter. How rude of the King.

‘What is your name?’ she finally said to the man who held the reins.

‘Barkly, my lady.’

‘Well, Barkly, I do not wish to ride this afternoon. Take me back.’ She hated the haughty tone in her voice but it was either that or rage.

Barkly hesitated. He was only yards away now from the other men.

‘But, my lady. The King—’

‘The King is not here, I see. He will not miss me,’ she said loftily, unable to drag herself back to a level of politeness for the poor, rather red-faced man standing below her.

She became aware of a third person approaching behind on a horse, but she ignored them. ‘I wish to return to the palace immediately.’ It was a command now.

Lauryn saw Barkly’s eyes flick beyond her which she interpreted in her irritation as a lack of respect for her wishes. That combined with her anger at being treated with disdain by the King fired something in her. She pulled at the reins to release Barkly’s hold. Lauryn decided she would find her own way back to the stables if she had to. Her sudden movement and Barkly’s equally strong grip on the mare meant the horse’s mouth took the impact and, in her pain, Firefly bucked and then in an instant was galloping. Lauryn screamed. She was competent in the saddle but was no expert and a startled horse was definitely beyond her riding skills. The horse suited her name very well…it felt like she was flying.

Lauryn could hear the sound of hooves behind her and begged for them to catch up before Firefly entered the small copse she seemed doggedly targeted towards. Too late—they crashed into the branches of trees which whipped at her. She let go of the reins to protect her face, feeling her hair grabbed and ripped.

The rider behind must have caught up and as Firefly lurched to a halt, Lauryn lost her seat and fell hard to the ground. She saw stars as she regained her wits a minute or so later, opening her eyes to look into the concerned face of the King.

‘Hush, don’t move. Do you hurt anywhere, Lauryn?’

There were other faces. All anxious. It was rather nice to have the attention of all these men. ‘I hurt everywhere,’ she croaked and unhappily accepted the King’s help to sit up.

‘Take it slowly, my lady. Please don’t injure yourself further,’ Gyl said gently. It was a lovely voice. But she had been so angry with him, hadn’t she? Lauryn frowned, thinking back to why that had been. And then it all returned to her as the fuzziness in her head cleared. Her back and ribs hurt.

‘You left me alone,’ she said. At some given signal she did not catch, the men began to disperse. ‘Where’s everyone going?’

Gyl’s mouth tweaked with the beginnings of a grin. ‘I thought you may appreciate some privacy. Can you stand, my lady?’

With an effort she could.

‘Nothing broken then?’ he asked, his face still showing traces of how scared he had been that she had sustained a real injury.

‘No. Just plenty of bruises I’m sure,’ she admitted, feeling very sore and sorry for herself. ‘I must look a fright,’ she added, noticing her hair torn once again from its neat plait.

‘You look as gorgeous as you did this afternoon. Sadly, you chose not to wear that delightful damp blouse again,’ he said, now battling to keep the grin from his face.

She looked at him, realising he still had his arms around her from helping her up and somehow, looking up into that boyish, handsome face, she found her sense of humour. Her amusement through her aches and groans was genuine, laced with relief that her perceived humiliation had been an overreaction. ‘I’m so sorry about that. I am still burning with embarrassment.’

He helped her over to a tree and encouraged her to sit down again. ‘Don’t be. Most women in the court would gladly give an arm or a leg —both in fact—to look as good as you did this afternoon, even without the water effect.’

Lauryn covered her face with her hands. She wasn’t sure now if she was still embarrassed by the event or by his unexpected flattery. ‘Oh, please don’t let’s talk about it any more—I’m so ashamed.’

He gave a full throaty laugh. ‘I’m afraid I shall never be able to forget it. Shall probably dream about it for years to come.’ He changed the subject. ‘Why did you kick your horse into a gallop by the way?’

‘I didn’t,’ she admitted, forlornly. ‘I was so angry at you for deserting me I decided I would refuse to be led to where the party was and when that Barkly fellow did not turn the horse around, I thought I’d find my own way. It seems I startled Firefly.’

‘What party?’

‘Hmmm?’ she said, trying to tuck the loose hair back into some order. It didn’t work.

‘The party,’ he repeated. ‘I’m wondering which party do you speak of?’

She gave up on the hair and began to realise she had made another mistake. ‘Oh, I just assumed your invitation meant a group of us were heading out for an afternoon ride.’

‘Why?’

‘Why what, sire?’ she said, now unnerved by the steady green gaze. He was sitting close enough that his knees touched hers. Why was her heart suddenly racing?

He rephrased his question. ‘Why would you assume we were to travel in a party?’

‘Why not?’ she retorted defensively, noticing the short cut of his hair and how the ends seemed tipped in gold. They were much too close for her comfort.

He laughed at her evasiveness and took her hand. She stared at the large hands which held hers and noticed how carefully he took care of them, for a soldier. Mind you, they were suited for the King he now was. The nails were clipped short and filed smooth with perfect half moons at the cuticle. They were scrupulously clean. She shocked herself with the powerful urge to feel those hands on her. Lauryn immediately dragged her eyes away from the offending hands and back to the green gaze.

‘Pardon?’ she asked, suddenly, thrown by the vision of him caressing her through her water-drenched blouse. She shook her head to rid her mind of it.

The King smiled. It was a wicked and knowing look. ‘I didn’t say anything. Your hand feels suddenly moist, Lauryn. Are you all right?’

She snatched it away, rubbing it on her skirt. ‘I’m fine. Perhaps we should go,’ she said, eyes darting around in case someone had glimpsed them together. All at once they seemed to be sitting so close their heads almost touched.

‘Are you really fine?’ The gentle concern was back in the voice of the King.

‘I am, I promise. I was winded and I’m sure I’ll sport some superb bruises but otherwise, I feel well. Shall we go?’

She made to stand but the wretched beautiful hand had hers in its clutch again.

‘If you are well, then I would be honoured if you would continue with the ride and the picnic I had planned.’

‘Picnic?’ she said, feeling and sounding like a pet parrot she had seen at the palace in a gilded cage. She promised herself she would not repeat nor make him repeat another word.

‘Yes, our picnic. Yours and mine.’

‘I don’t understand.’

‘Well, I invited you to join me for a ride this afternoon. I thought we could take a quiet picnic together and I could make use of your sound advice and practise using my smile again.’

‘Oh, Gyl, I didn’t mean it…’

His grin faltered and the vulnerability was back. She found it rather endearing now. ‘I know. I know. But you’re right. These past weeks…well, I feel as though some sort of grim countenance has fallen upon me as catastrophic news blended with strange news. I really have forgotten what it is to smile but you reminded me. I’m grateful. So…will you join me?’

She looked around, confused. ‘You mean just us?’

‘That’s all it ever was going to be. Those men are my guards. They were waiting for me as I went to check on something. You arrived and obviously decided I was not in attendance. But I promise you, I was there all along and simply went ahead to see to some kingly decisions,’ he said with faked importance. They shared a smile. He nodded at the men. ‘They will keep watch but at a discreet distance. We’ll be essentially travelling alone, but not far, I promise.’

And with that, he lifted her hand and kissed it. It was so soft and so fleeting she had trouble convincing herself it had happened at all.

With no self-consciousness for what he had just done, the King stood, helped her to her feet and walked her towards Firefly, all the time one hand guiding her. His touch she felt burning through her clothes all the way to her skin which was now tingling.

Later, they sat beside a very small brook and shared a simple, delicious meal. They had talked at length during the ride, allowing the horses to set their own comfortable pace. Gyl had already decided that Lauryn was not up to anything swift that afternoon and deliberately permitted Bryx to stroll. They shared many laughs over trivial matters and Gyl noticed that Lauryn was a clever mimic…already, in the brief time she had been in the palace, she could produce hilarious impersonations of Koryn and Cook. And once again he chuckled and she cringed over the afternoon’s episode, and then he promised her he would never refer to it again. Inwardly, Gyl knew the vision would haunt him daily and he would not be able to rest until he felt her body against his.

As they had drifted into a companionable silence he began to wonder whether there was anything wrong with his desire for this woman. She was not his sister after all. Her birth mother was his adopted mother in truth and neither had been raised together as kin. As far as he was concerned she was a needy young stranger who had come into his life in the most unexpected way. She had intrigued him from the moment they met and she intrigued him even more now.

As they sat by the brook the mood deepened into something more sombre as Gyl began to speak about his father. In a short time Lauryn felt she almost knew the man through Gyl’s keen eyes and soldier’s attention to detail.

‘He loved your mother deeply, you know,’ he said.

‘I gather. How do you feel about my father?’

He appreciated her directness. ‘I wish he’d never come but then I would never have met you.’ Gyl could not meet her eyes as he said this. ‘I am trying to keep an open mind about all that he apparently stands for. But Lauryn,’ he chanced taking her hand again, ‘I may be the King of Tallinor but I am still a simple soldier at heart. I deal with what my eyes can see and my ears can hear. All this talk of magic and angry gods and…you appearing from some different world to save this world—well it all befuddles me.’

She squeezed his hand. ‘I do understand. I hardly know what I’m doing here myself. Save the world? Ha! How? But Gyl, look at me.’ He did. Lauryn cast and aged herself by fifty years or so. She watched the horror come across his face as he shrank back from the touch of her gnarled fingers. Then just as fast she snapped the glamour off and she was Lauryn again.

There was no amusement in her face when she said: ‘How do you suppose that happens if there is no magic in this world?’

The King was clearly shocked. ‘What else?’

‘What else can I do? Lots. I have no idea of the limitations of this power. Remember the man you found lying by the tree not far from where we thought Sorrel died?’ He nodded. ‘I did that. And I did it by pushing out with my mind…no hands, no weapon…just my powers.’ He shook his head, half with disbelief and half with dread understanding. She continued. ‘And the lad you were looking for? Well, I think I broke several of his limbs when I cast out with my mind and threw him high into the air. He landed heavily.’ She looked sheepish but Gyl could not laugh.

‘I don’t know what to say,’ he admitted.

‘There is nothing to say. I feel as clueless as you but I trust my father. He has brought us back to do something. You must trust him too. If you care about me, if you care about our mother…Light Gyl!…if you care about Tallinor, we have to trust that Tor and Alyssa know things we do not.’

‘What should I do?’

‘Don’t be sceptical any more. Be open to suggestion. Allow yourself that magic is here and around us and that it can be used for good but there is a darker side and I believe that’s what we face now.’

He nodded. ‘My mother…our mother counselled me along the same lines before she left. I gave her my word I would make preparations for extra security in the Kingdom.’

‘Don’t hesitate. Something bad is coming. My father was forced to confront it before we came to Tal. Not here in Tallinor but somewhere else. This god’s intention is to destroy all of us and to raze Tallinor.’

‘How do I know who my enemy is?’

‘You don’t,’ she said. ‘None of us do. But my father will recognise him. For now, we must trust those who know more than us, who have been preparing longer.’

Lauryn looked towards the sun setting behind the hills. She sighed. ‘It’s getting late.’

‘Yes,’ he admitted, making no move to leave. ‘Lauryn, will you stay close over the next few days? I could use a friend around the place. This whole coronation business is daunting.’

‘Of course I will. It would be an honour. You’re going to be a brilliant King for Tallinor. I know it. And all the nobles will want to marry you off to their daughters.’

He pulled a face. ‘I know this. That’s why I’m asking you to remain close.’

‘To put them off?’ She laughed, amused by his sudden anxiety.

‘No,’ he said very deliberately. ‘Not to put them off. To let them know my heart is spoken for.’

It was as though a mighty wind had rushed through her and sucked all her breath away as it passed. She swallowed, trying to breathe, trying to find a voice…any sound.

He met her eyes. ‘I’m not sure where that notion came from but I’m glad that it is out and in the open between us. Have I disturbed you by saying it?’

She shook her head, still unable to utter a sound. A random thought passed through her mind; an echo from the past. She would catch herself a fine man one day. He would be strong and witty and a leader amongst men. They would be madly in love and he would never want any other but her.

Here was such a man. She could not deny that in the past few hours she had felt herself drawn deeper and deeper into his life. She would be lying if she did not admit that she was captivated by him and would be jealous of any other woman who held his desires. It would be folly to suggest—as tentative as it was—that it was not the strongest of desires she was feeling towards this man. And here he was boldly speaking her thoughts back to her.

‘Please say something,’ he said, quietly, looking at her hand in his.

Lauryn swallowed again and hoped her voice could be found. ‘I will stay close, sire. I will show all of Tallinor that our hearts are spoken for…by each other.’

He looked back at her then, his eyes literally sparkling in the dying pink light of dusk. ‘May I kiss you, my lady?’

‘What are you waiting for, your majesty?’ she said, pulling him fiercely towards her and no longer caring for prying eyes.