With Other Eyes

by F. Alexander Brejcha

I.

Even if I couldn’t see it anymore, I could almost feel the alien space ship hanging expectantly only a few kilometers away from the Hawking space station. The Travelers, as they called themselves, had arrived four days earlier and they were waiting for me—but I wasn’t ready!

I slammed my fist against the bulkhead in frustration. “Damn it, Lazz! Why can’t I get the hang of using these damned eyes? It’s been week and I can barely tell a doorway from a wall. It only took you a couple of days.”

A shadow moved across my virtually non-existent vision and I smelled the tantalizing scent of a fresh orange as it was peeled.

“Relax, Mitch. You’ll get it in time. It was easier for me because I’ve been blind for almost twenty years. I didn’t have a lot of un-learning to do—”

“I know.” I sighed and repeated his constant litany of reassurance over the past week: “ ‘You only had your eyes removed a few weeks ago, and you’re still trying to focus and see the way you used to’. But it isn’t working!” I complained.

Lazz slapped me on the shoulder, his voice suddenly muffled. “Wait here. I can see I was right. I had a feeling this might be necessary.”

With those ominous words, I heard a hiss from the automatic door as he left the room without explaining what ‘this’ was.

He could at least have left me some of the orange.

I turned back to the training room for another vain attempt to see the objects Lazz had set up for me. My implanted eye-set was an incredible device; a four-part system actually. It consisted of a controlling computer worn on my belt, a tiny transmitter array I wore on my forehead, and twin receivers implanted in my eye sockets and cosmetically made to approximate the appearance of my own eyes, even turning as reconnected eye muscles simulated natural eye movements. The system used some alien forms of sonar and light receptors to give an approximation of the way the aliens’ vision worked. It was a different version of something Lazz had already been developing as an alternative sight-system for himself and other blind individuals unable to tolerate eye transplants. The aliens had provided input to modify Lazz’s design to meet their criteria.

But it had proved a lot harder to use than I had expected and I was still almost totally blind—and I was supposed to be able to see with this system when I went onboard the alien ship to make personal contact. The Travelers had insisted on it for some reason. Lazz couldn’t go because I was the one who had decoded the Traveler signals and made first contact, and the aliens only wanted to deal with me. So I could be a “witness” to something. They had continually refused to answer any questions other than technical ones associated with setting up the meeting. They had said that everything would be explained to me and on my return, I could pass on all my knowledge.

But if I was going to witness anything, I would have to learn to use my new eyes!

The sound of the door interrupted my useless efforts and I heard Lazz come in. And he wasn’t alone, I realized as I smelled a delicate floral perfume.

“All right, buddy, I’m tuned in to your frequency again and seeing with your eyes. Now, one more time, focus, this way!”

I sighed and concentrated. Still, there was nothing there… no, I could just sense a teasingly vague outline that shifted in and out of focus. I tilted my head, fighting to keep the image clear. The perfume was familiar and I wanted to know if I was right.

“Good! You’re starting to get it,” Lazz encouraged. “Now relax and… imagine you’re a little drunk and looking at something… There, keep that up and you’ll get more detail.”

Suddenly the outlines sharpened and I saw an incredibly detailed topographical image of…

“Whoa, Lazz! Who is that!”

“Janice Wills. Shame on you for not recognizing one of your co-workers.”

“But she’s naked!”

“No,” Lazz chuckled. “She’s wearing a bikini, or so she said.” He suddenly sounded doubtful. “Wait a minute, let me break our link and look for myself. After a moment, he spoke up again. “Yup. It must have been designed by Drexler’s of Hollywood, but it’s there. I thought a little positive reinforcement might help you since Janice was kind enough to offer her—”

“I know what it looks like she’s offering.” I felt my face burn and I was afraid to look closer. “But this from a woman who turned me down when I asked for a date?” And that had taken one hell of an effort. At forty, and widowed only three years earlier after twelve years of marriage, I had been sorely out of practice and feeling guilty over the way I had been attracted to Janice.

“Gee, I just love to be discussed in the third person,” Janice muttered darkly. “And I’m still ‘involved’ with someone. But our beloved leader has quite a talent for blackmail—”

“I prefer to think of it as creative persuasion,” Lazz cut in.

“Blackmail,” Janice repeated firmly. Then she turned back to me.

“Besides, he can make himself look even more pitiful than you. He’s been pestering me non-stop ever since he thought of this idea and I finally gave in since we’ve removed the last of the hidden media Mini-Casters.” She moved closer, and I felt a light touch on my arm. “But, we really work well together and I just hated seeing you so down in the dumps.” She kissed me lightly on the cheek. “You’re on your own now, Mitch. Good luck.” Then she spun away to pick up a robe she had draped over a chair.

I struggled to keep her in focus as she slipped it on, and then waved and slipped out the door. Then Lazz grabbed my arm and pulled me back to the exercise table.

“Okay, buddy. Now that I finally have your attention, let’s try this again!”

I struggled to focus on the various cones, cubes and pyramids he had put out for me and began describing them. I had not realized how much detail my new ‘eyes’ could yield until now, but as I worked, I started to get the feel for using them and I marvelled at the dizzying depth they gave the room. I had a feeling that with practice I would be able to judge distances with millimetric precision. But Lazz had been right: the eyes did require using a whole different set of muscles.

I was just getting into it when the overhead speaker buzzed and Commander Elizabeth Josarro’s voice called down.

“Mitch, we’ve got a problem—”

“The Travelers are insisting I come over now,” I guessed, interrupting her.

“How the hell did you know?”

“It makes sense.” I fought a sudden queasiness. “They were insistent on no official presence at our meeting, and since they’re probably monitoring me the same way Lazz is they know I’m getting the hang of my eyes. And they know no one from the U.N. is on the station at the moment.”

“True… no one expected you to have a break-through so soon.”

I grinned. “Blame it on your husband. He’s a good teacher.”

“How did he… Never mind.” She sighed. “I can only imagine. But it puts us in a bind because the Travelers want you over there NOW!”

I could only imagine the frantic scrambling going on in Geneva, Houston, and the Cape—and at the eavesdropping Global News headquarters. The U.N. people and the media had been totally rebuffed by the Travelers, and had been asked to leave the station so I could concentrate on learning to use my new eyes. We had thought I would be ready by the time the aliens arrived, but fine-tuning the combination of alien and human design had taken longer than expected, and then I had proved less than adept in learning how to use them. And now, the U.N. observers who had been planning to sneak back up when I went onboard the alien ship were stuck down on Earth until Friday’s SSTO launch, or until a shuttle could be prepped.

I looked up to ask: “What about my atmosphere suit and supplies?”

“Everything is already on the Transport. The extra air tanks and supplies for a week are loaded into external-access compartments. We’ll control the Transport from here until they take over to guide you into a pressurized bay. They’ve prepared an environmental chamber for you with our specs, so you should be fine.”

Conflicting emotions came over me as I thought about the coming days, but before I could say anything, I saw Lazz reach for a wall-com.

“He can’t go yet, Liza. I’m not finished training him.”

“They seem to think he’s ready, so he’s going to have to deal with it.”

“I’m telling you,” Lazz protested. “He’s not ready. He’s starting to get the hang of the eyes, but he needs more time. What’s the harm if I come along? There’s a spare suit, and they’re adjustable. And there are more than enough supplies.”

“No.” Liza was firm. “The Travelers said he has to come by himself.”

“Actually,” I corrected her. “They only said that no government representatives were to be along. If they want parity, Lazz really ought to come since he’s right: I’m still not fully trained and I need his help. I can explain his presence without too much trouble.”

I wasn’t being quite truthful about needing Lazz because it was getting easier and easier to use the electronic eyes now that I had found the right mental buttons. But I owed Lazz for all his help and I knew he was dying to go. The whole time he had been training me, he had been pumping me for information on the Travelers, wistfully admitting he wished he had been the one to make contact. But through a series of coincidences, I had been the lucky one.

I had been working as an advanced A.I. programming instructor at M.I.T., and I had always been an amateur astronomer and a SETI buff, and in studying newly released deep-space probe data from the Farside monitoring station on the Moon, I had come across some intriguing signals that had seemed to correlate with similar ones from the Arecibo SETI site. Along with other ranges, I had originally been working with data in the 1.42 and 1.65 gigahertz range from Arecibo since the hydrogen and hydroxyl ranges seemed like good potential sign posts for any alien transmissions, and I had found the hint of a pattern. But I had been unable to do anything with it until I had seen the Farside Station data where I had found anomalies at around 15 GHz that seemed to echo the lower frequency ones. They higher frequency signals had not been picked up by Arecibo since the atmosphere interfered with anything over 10 GHz. But unfortunately the data from Farside had been so watered down and disjointed that they were hard to piece together and coordinate with those from Arecibo.

If it had been mid-semester, everything might have ended there since it was a very weak correlation, but it was summer and I had time on my hands. Too much time in fact, with Ellen gone. Figuring out the meaning of the teasing signals had become a mental challenge to help me keep my mind off the usual summer trips we had always taken. But ironically, in my efforts to hide from memories of Ellen, I had been forced to turn to those same memories to solve the puzzle.

Ellen had been a linguistics professor at Harvard, and in order to keep up with her, I had made a hobby of language puzzles. From that perspective, the anomalies I had noted had started looking more and more like an encrypted message. Deciphering them had gradually grown from a hobby to a near obsession, and I had finally put in for a leave of absence and applied for a SETI research grant to study the data further.

With a little help from friends in the right places, I had obtained both the leave and a modest grant to spend time on Hawking to study the raw data coming in from Farside and deep space probes. It was in analyzing those data and combining them in real-time with the Arecibo signals, that I had finally found the complete Traveler message and eventually decoded it. It had become apparent that the signal had been divided up in three parts. My guess had been that all three parts were meant to be coordinated as a test of our problem-solving skills and to see if we were a space-faring race, since part of the signal had only been detectible to space-based observatories.

My luck in piecing it together must have been frustrating for Lazz. As a SETI buff himself, it would have been equally possible for him to find and decode the signal, had he only been looking in the right frequency ranges. But now I was the one heading for a historic meeting, even if I did want to share it with him.

The speaker linking us with the control-room had been silent. Liza knew very well how Lazz felt, and she probably agreed with me, personally. But I knew her well enough to know that ultimately she would have to make her decision as station commander, not as Lazz’s wife.

“I’m sorry, Lazz, but I can’t spare you,” she finally answered. “Mitch, you’ll just have to make the best of it. Aside from the fact that I would probably be hauled up in front of the U.N. General Assembly and publicly lynched for breaking the guidelines they set, I need Lazz here. What if the main processor goes down again? We won’t get the new unit up from the surface until Friday, and I can’t lose two of my best computer jocks.”

Lazz tried again. “Come on, Liza! Janice knows the system well enough… hell, she’s already been running things solo while I’ve been training Mitch. The new program they developed doubled the throughput.”

“No.” The line went dead.

“Shit!” Lazz turned to me, eerily outlined in a sensory halo as our beams intersected.

I had avoided looking at him too much before because the crossed signals gave me a bit of a headache, but I faced him now and held out my hand.

“Well, Lazz. I guess it’s goodbye, for now.”

“That’s what you think!” An extra burst of reflected signal from his teeth lit up as he smiled. “I don’t care what my dear wife says, I’m not letting you go over there alone and fuck up our reputation—”

“You mean ‘hog all the glory’.”

“Touché.” The teeth flashed again and he chuckled. For a moment he was quiet, and then he started nodding. “Well, when all else fails… persuasion, usually works. I haven’t used this one since I proposed to her, but I think it’s time to pull out the heavy guns again.”

The tone of his voice was enough to start me thinking about running for cover.

I saw him pull out his Braille-pad and his fingers flashed over the tiny seven-button keyboard, the speech feedback set too fast for me to follow. Then he stabbed the ‘send’ chord firmly with a threatening little chuckle. I knew his pocket computer was linked with the station mainframe and I looked around nervously.

Then I discovered the awful thing he had unleashed.

It began innocently enough. From all around us, the gentle music of Chinese temple chimes stroked our ears, but then a deep roar began to unfold itself, spreading with visceral power. It was the beginning of his belch-collection. I had never heard it, though I had heard of it, of course. It was legendary on the space station and I knew Liza despised it, but I was discovering that its amplified and omnipotent presence was beyond my wildest imaginings. What beer had spawned such awesome scope? What combination of spiced foods and beverages? And this was only the first in the collection!

Beginning with an almost sub-audible vibration, it climbed into the audible threshold quickly and then added harmonic frequencies that chilled me. Amazingly enough, the gentle bells remained clear and distinct throughout. But that first blast lasted for hours, it seemed. As it finally faded away, leaving only the innocent chimes, I stared up at the ceiling speaker and shook my head in admiration. Digital recording at its best.

A weary sigh filtered down from above. “All right, Lazarus. No more. Stay there.”

Lazz clenched a fist and popped it up in the air, spreading two fingers in victory sign as the speaker clicked off. “Yes!” He turned back to me. “I knew that that would do it. She survived the first three when I wouldn’t take no for an answer to my marriage proposal ten years ago, but that was a tough problem for her. After her first shit-for-husband, she was gun-shy.”

I could literally hear him growling as his whole posture changed, but I was curious: “So after that you terrorized her to get her to marry you?”

“It was done with love,” Lazz defended. “She needed someone a little bit crazy, and we were meant for each other.” He grinned. “Elizabeth and Lazarus, Liza and Lazz. See?” Then he turned serious. “I had to get her to get her to look at life, and herself, differently. When that freak she had been married to wasn’t drunk and beating her up, or taunting her about her weight, he was a sullen bore who didn’t believe a woman could do anything worthwhile. First she needed to know that she was a wonderful and talented lady, but then she needed to know life isn’t always serious—”

“Hence the belch recording.” I shook my head.

“Hey, it worked, didn’t it? And she went from a wimpy glorified clerk to running a space station, with some impressive stops in between. I’d like to think I had a little something to do with that.”

I laughed. “Okay, maybe. But I’m not sure that was a wise move this time.”

“Maybe not, but I am going with you,” he pointed out, clapping my shoulder.

“Not to interrupt this mutual admiration society,” a new voice broke in. Liza had just entered the room and stood by the door, shaking her head. “You two are quite the pair.” She moved in on him and grabbed his shirt. “Okay, hon, you can go. I’ll look the other way—not because of the recording,” she warned. “But because I trust Mitch when he says he can explain it.” She turned to me. “But I’ll warn both of you right now: when the U.N. team gets up here Friday and starts asking questions and screaming in outrage, I’ll know nothing about this. As far as I’ll be concerned, Lazz was a stowaway on the Transport. Got it?”

“I got it,” I promised. “And, thank you.” I knew it wouldn’t be that easy and that she was sure to take some heat for Lazz being along.

“Thanks, hon,” Lazz echoed. “And don’t worry. I’ll face the music when we get back. I just don’t want to miss—”

“I know,” Liza admitted softly. But then her tone turned dangerously sweet. “But, Lazz, honey? There a catch.”

“A catch?” He sounded worried for the first time.

“Yes, dear. You’re not going unless you give me the access codes to the hidden computer files where you have that recording stashed. I thought I found and deleted every copy, but apparently I was wrong. I will be rid of it!”

She was joking, but she was also dead serious, and I could see that Lazz got the message because his hands had been flashing over his Braille pad as she spoke, and with a final, firm press of the send chord, he looked up.

“There were two encrypted files, stashed in different sub-systems, and they’re both gone. I sent verification to your mailbox.”

“Thank you.” Liza’s voice turned genuinely intimate as she moved close to him. “And, Lazz?”

“Yeah, hon?” His hand cupped her face lightly.

“Be careful?”

“I will. And I’ll behave.”

I turned away, feeling like a shit for intruding as they kissed briefly. But “Commander Josarro” was back in charge before I knew it.

“Now, both of you,” she ordered briskly, “get your asses to the Transport bay, into your atmosphere suits and onto the Transport. Geneva is going crazy trying to reach you and I can only stall them so long. I’ve politely told them to buzz off since you’re getting ready for your meeting and can’t be disturbed because you don’t want to ‘overlook any of your protocol instructions’.” She rolled her eyes. “But remember,” she warned. “I know nothing!” And with that she left us to get ready.

“Yes!” Lazz let out an ecstatic drawl. “We’re off to see the Wizard.”

II.

The rotating ship we were approaching was obviously a deep space vessel. It consisted of a slender triangular shaft that was nearly a kilometer long and thirty meters in diameter, and it was capped by a three-sided and trunctuated pyramid, base forward and facing us. The instrument-dotted, thirty meter-wide base of the front pyramid was pitted and scarred in contrast to the shiny sides which narrowed until they merged with a circular plate in the front end of the central shaft. The plate and bow-unit were counter-rotating to be stationary relative to us.

Just aft of the bow-unit were three enormous equilateral and pyramidal pods extending base out from the central shaft, and rotating to provide maximum gravity at their triangular two-hundred-meter bases now that the ship was at rest. Each of the huge rotating pyramids was perfectly smooth and unmarked, fusing seamlessly with the central shaft about thirty meters from where their tips would have been. At the far end of the smooth central shaft loomed a large dish, nearly half a kilometer in diameter, that faced away from us. The circular shape of the dish was in jarring contrast to the angular shapes and straight lines of the rest of the ship.

We were both plugged into the control board since sonic signals wee obviously useless in space. Instead, a sophisticated radar set-up was being translated and fed into computers controlling our eyes, and we ‘saw’ the alien ship thanks to them. It was a slightly different type of vision, but the Traveler ship clearly visible—and an awesome sight. It was the first time I had seen the ship with my new eyes, and it was almost more impressive than the relayed probe pictures I had seen before the operation. Looking at it this way, the ship seemed somehow more sharply etched and intensely real.

“It’s incredible,” Liza’s voice commented from the overhead speaker in a hushed tone as we approached. She was plugged into a set of standard monitors and following our progress from the station. “I’d love to know what the hell type of propulsion they use. They used reaction thrusters for the final approach, but their main drive system is something out of this world.”

I nodded silently, remembering the relayed probe photos that showed the ship decelerating stern first at a constant .8 gravity, the huge pyramids lying parallel to the sides of the central shaft so that the deceleration supplied the gravity the rotation now provided. The tips of the pyramids had been pushed out by some sort of extension rod arrangement.

Lazz was at the controls of our van-sized Transport, and at the Travelers’ direction we were approaching the motionless bow-pyramid where a large opening gaped. As we entered the cargo bay and slowed to hang several feet over the deck, unseen grapples reached up to snag the bottom of the Transport to pull it down to rest on the deck with a solid, echoing thunk. The wide bay doors behind us had already closed, and a slight hazing of our vision revealed that air of some sort was being pumped back into the cavernous chamber of the Traveler ship.

After a seeming eternity, external sensors indicated that the air pressure outside was almost up to normal and I recorded the external pressure and took an air sample as a signal came for me to exit. I closed my helmet and switched to suit-air, seeing Lazz echo my actions.

I toggled my radio. “Well Liza, here goes! Keep your fingers crossed.”

I wasn’t sure if she could still hear my signal or not—I doubted it—but the pretense of outside contact was comforting. Lazz’s soft chuckle let me know he understood. Cycling through the airlock, we stepped out of the Transport nervously and blessed our good fortune that our magnetic boots were holding onto the plain and unmarked deck of the hold. I had wondered about the lack of decontamination procedures, but when I had passed on questions about it from nervous U.N. Science Team staffers, a curt, “not necessary, you are no source of contamination,” had been the only response before the Travelers had pressed on to other preparations for our meeting.

I had a feeling our return wouldn’t be so informal.

But we had no sooner left the Transport, Lazz letting me go first, than it was as if someone had flipped off a light switch. I almost tripped and fell flat on my face in surprise and I heard a soft curse behind me as Lazz grabbed my shoulder briefly.

Darkness. Once again, a blackness so complete that I couldn’t describe it. It was a double shock now because the first time I had expected it. But here on the Traveler ship, I had been counting on my electronic eyes and signal-permeable visor. The darkness seemed even more threatening because of the insulating layer of our atmosphere suits. The sound of my breathing seemed unnaturally loud and after my initial moment of panic, I reached behind me for Lazz, getting angry. I’d need his guidance again—just as I had become comfortably independent. For Lazz, this wouldn’t be as much of a shock because he had been blinded in a plane crash twenty years earlier and had only used his invention for the past six months, as the first test case of them. I was the second.

“Relax, Mitch. It’s okay.” Lazz grabbed my arm as I touched him, mistakenly thinking that I was nervous.

“I’m fine, buddy. Just pissed off because I’m suddenly back to lesson one!”

“Just think back to the first few days,” Lazz advised. “Remember the visualizing lessons?”

I did. We had an advantage, he had lectured: we had lived some or most of our lives sighted and had a vast storehouse of visual memories to draw on. If we knew what we were looking at, then the use of other senses, combined with imagination and memory, could fill in the blanks, even removing any imperfections that might exist. If we didn’t know what we faced, we could select an appropriate memory image and work from that, modifying it as we learned more. Feel the texture, hear the sound, breathe in the scent, and use all available clues to build a comfortable image.

I relaxed and started ‘feeling’. I whistled, and from the feedback from the external speaker and microphones, confirmed the size and emptiness of the large cargo bay. And turning up the microphone gain, I could hear our escorts. I concentrated. Slight rustling up ahead and to the left, and also to the right. Two Travelers. No scent clues obviously, other than my own lingering nervous perspiration that was quickly removed by the environmental control of my suit. It helped that the suit was loose around me because of the slightly lower external pressure.

“That’s better.” Lazz must have realized I was thinking clearly. “Now, think about what they look like and make that image clear in your mind. There are two of them—”

“Eleven and one o’clock, I know, but did I mention that I have no idea what they look like? They never sent any pictures or self-description.”

“Oh.” A moments silence, then: “Well, you also collected classic comics, so picture pink Shmoos or anything else ridiculous that you can think of. It’s better than building up scary images. If all else fails, improvise. Hell, I’ve been married to Liza for ten years and I still don’t know what she really looks like. But she’s beautiful to me. From her voice and what I can feel, I picture a lush Marilyn Monroe. I’ve always had a thing for her old movies.”

His advice made sense, and instead of the shadowy and looming predators my imagination had been trying to tickle me with, I saw two of Al Capp’s bowling-pin-shaped beings with tiny little feet and happy grins and big eyes. How the hell could anyone be afraid of them?

“Got your braille-pad handy?” Lazz broke in.

“Yes.” I nodded, feeling briefly stupid. “A good thing I learned this before I was blinded.” Speech recognition, as good as it was, had been vetoed because of fear that an accidental homonym error might confuse things in real-time conversation.

I reached down and pulled up the pad, feeling the locations of the buttons out before I started typing in my question so that the tiny computer could vocalize my question in halting Traveler speech. The six character buttons and space bar of the Braille pad were a hell of a lot easier to handle than a full keyboard, now that I had learned to use it.

We had painstakingly worked out a compromise language based on the audible portion of the Traveler language since they were unable to communicate as we did. It was limited and dependent on a sophisticated parser and on fill-phrases to try to simulate a more normal conversation, and it meant that there were major nuances of their language we were totally missing. For one thing, much of their ‘speech’ consisted of visual and tactile sonic imagery incorporated into their ‘words’. Our eye-sets were simply not sophisticated enough to perceive that degree of complexity. But as basic as our translation program was, it was the best we could do, and I let my fingers do the talking.

“Why are you blocking our ability to ‘see’?” I asked. The speaker on my suit echoed what I was typing with a warbling squeal combined with a rhythmic clicking.

The return squeal was immediate and my helmet speaker responded after a split second with a stiff male voice.

“You are a race of one, and I invited one. You are two. What other violations?”

“Okay, you said you could explain,” Liza’s voice cut in with a burst of static. “Now’s your chance. Do it.” Apparently she was still able to monitor us.

“Yea, go to it,” Lazz chuckled nervously. “What a marvelous way to start first contact!” I heard him swallow. “I’m starting to regret crashing this party. And… ah… shouldn’t we be answering them?”

I had actually been prepared for a negative reaction, and I reached down for the keyboard again as my idea focused.

“There are no violations. Only balance. The second one is here because I am not fully trained in your type of seeing yet. There are two of you, there are two of us. If I was alone, there would be no balance and I would be at a disadvantage instead of you. I let myself be injured to assure balance. My teacher must remain to preserve it. I will allow the imbalance of two of your crew who are able to see better than I am. But as long as you block all of our vision, there is no balance. You asked to speak to us. I say restore our vision or we leave.”

“Hot damn, kick ass,” Lazz muttered next to me.

“Well, they do say that the best defense is a good offense. I hope they’re right! Whoever ‘they’ are. But I do know that the Travelers want me here for some reason.”

I wasn’t sure exactly what had come out of the speaker, but the darkness around us vanished and I reeled as I was suddenly surrounded by the eerie three-dimensional vision my new eyes gave me. It felt strange since the signal I was now using came from external transmitters and receivers installed on the suit, and it was is if my eyes were a couple of inches ahead of me and unable to look anywhere but straight ahead.

“They do look like Shmoos!” Lazz exclaimed, trying not to laugh. “Sort of.”

It took me a second to focus on our hosts, but I had to agree with him and face the fact that I had lost my mental bet. Based on the preponderance of triangles, I had expected some kind of three-legged critter like in a couple of classic science fiction books, but Lazz’s “Shmoo” joke had a certain accuracy to it.

The Travelers were only around two-thirds our height and had very stable-looking and bulbous lower bodies with six thin, stubby legs with broad flat feet that had multiple fringed toes. The apparently naked body narrowed about halfway up and the long neck extended up to a top crowned with a bush of short cilia-like hairs. I could ‘see’ no mouth or eyes, no matter how hard I focused my vision, but there seemed to be a large round organ in the center of the body that gave me the same sick headache from looking at it that I got from facing Lazz when he was looking at me. I really couldn’t make out a great deal of detail, though. When I described what I was seeing to Lazz, he couldn’t add much. I guess he was right about us facing a pair of multipedic alien Shmoos. Except that they had a single folding arm that extended up from the lower front of the body, tipped with tentacle-like ‘fingers’. I wondered if the Travelers were pink.

But as I thought about their comics counterpart, I was suddenly a little worried.

“We better not tell them what we think they look like!” I had just remembered that Al Capp’s Shmoos were very obliging in turning themselves into anything edible that was desired.

“Ouch!” Lazz obviously realized what I meant. “You’re right. I forgot about that. When I was collecting, I was more into the Japanese comics.”

“Violence and sex. That figures.”

“Well,” he defended. “We all need our little distractions. Of course, I have Liza now.”

Another burst of noise from one of the Travelers interrupted, I couldn’t tell from which one, but after a moment we heard: “Balance is restored. You can stay.” It was a new voice this time; an equally mechanical female one. My computer gave a different, randomly selected, ‘voice’ to each new Traveler speech input.

I was suddenly reminded of the fact that there was no difference between the collective and the singular “you”, but Lazz just grumbled.

“Gee, very nice of you.”

I nudged him with my elbow and typed: “Thank you. May we meet with your leader, now?”

Lazz gave a snorting laugh. “Gee, I never thought we’d be the ones to say that!”

“Hey guys, your signal is fading…” Liza’s voice disappeared with a final popping sound.

“Now what?” Lazz asked nervously. “Pitch a bitch again?”

I shook my head, wishing I could see through the face-plate of his suit. “No, I can just hear the answer. Our having contact with the space station is an advantage for us. They’re just maintaining parity. We’re on our own.” I reached down to type: “What is next?”

Squeal, and then: “You must follow.” They spun in unison and headed for the back wall of the hold, where a large triangular door waited. The shape was beginning to make a little sense now that we had seen what the Travelers looked like: they were also tiny on top and wide on the base.

The doorway turned out to be the first in a pair of heavy, automatic doors leading into a large room about six by ten meters in floor area. I began to suspect what it was and I warned Lazz to hold on, since we didn’t have the lower body stability of the Travelers. Sure enough, without warning I found myself lurching to the side as my feet tried to pull away from me and I grabbed for the door frame as Lazz locked onto my arm with an iron grip.

“We’re in a spin coupler,” I explained belatedly. “We’re matching up with the rotation of the rest of the ship, and I guess the next step is to go down into one of the pyramids.”

Before long, my feet stopped trying to escape from me and I was able to let go of the doorway. The Travelers had been oblivious to our imbalance, and as the far doorway opened they led the way out into a large room where we found ourselves drifting up into the air, our magnetic boots no longer gripping. The room had three triangular corridors about four meters in diameter extending out, one in each wall—now that we were floating, the term “floor” didn’t really apply to any of the surfaces around us. Our hosts continued to ignore us, and used fine guide-wires crossing the room to rotate and float gracefully towards the right, turning to push themselves, feet first, into one of the corridors. As they turned in mid-air, I noticed that they were also wearing some sort of boot arrangement made of metal.

Feeling light-headed, I turned to Lazz. “Here we go, buddy: down and out.” I followed the Travelers’ example only to find that the corridor was apparently an elevator, because my feet quickly touched floor, adhering as they found magnetic grounding again. And as soon as Lazz snapped in place next to me, we began to drop outwards. It felt strange to be so close to our bizarre hosts, but I quickly found a distraction.

After we had been dropping a little while, I discovered that our ‘elevator’ was nothing more than a guided platform provided with guide-rails that kept it on track and powered it. Instead of continuing down a shaft as expected, we were suddenly in mid-air, dropping down towards a wild jungle that occupied the inside of the pyramid.

With all the open air around me I suddenly felt almost as nauseated and disoriented as on my first shuttle trip, and my hand clenched on Lazz’s arm as I backed towards the center of the platform nervously. Compounding the effect of the dizzying view around us was a familiar sensation: the mild disorientation one felt in moving from hub to rim on the station that was the combined effect of Coriolis force and change in gravity. I couldn’t help myself but swallowed hard as I squeezed my eyes shut, relieved that the action cut off the eye-set input. Technically, I could easily have been able to keep seeing almost as well with my eyes shut as open, but to my relief the programming of my eyes simulated reality.

Within minutes I grew aware of a welcome feeling: increasing pressure against the soles of my feet again as we moved down into the pyramid. Steadied by the return of gravity and prompted by curiosity, I opened my eyes.

As we plunged into the tree tops we stared out in awe, admittedly a little nervous, but also fascinated by the organic tapestry weaving itself through the air around us. An invisible barrier kept the lush growth at bay, several meters from the path of our lift. Apparently the top of this pyramid—and also the others? I wondered—was reserved for vegetation that grew almost unchecked in the low gravity this high up. I also noticed a fine network of wires laced through the branches and realized that they were there to support the jungle during acceleration and deceleration since the entire pyramid would be under gravity during those times.

Edging carefully forward, I moved closer to the edge and tried to spot the floor of the jungle below us, but I only saw increasingly dense and interwoven branches that grew more disciplined the further we dropped from the central shaft of the ship. I was starting to wonder if there was anything in this pod but forest. I tried to spot movement, curious to see if there would be any animal life up here, and Lazz must have guessed what I was thinking.

“There!” He pointed at a swarm of tiny shapes that were making flying leaps from branch to branch. They had small glistening bodies shaped a little like a pair of dumb-bells, large antennae-like fronds on the top of the front body bulge, and an indeterminate number of legs.

“Traveler monkeys,” I decided.

“Kinda’ purty,” Lazz drawled with a New England twang that made me cringe.

“True.” I looked around. “But all this makes me wonder how long this ship has been traveling.”

“You think it’s a generation-ship?” Lazz looked dubious. As big as these pods are, if they’re like this, I don’t think the ship’s big enough.”

“Maybe not, but we don’t know what the other pyramids hold. Maybe cryo-chambers? Maybe these guys just woke up. It could be an automatic sleeper-ship and this is some sort of recreational area they use when awake. Who knows how many solar systems they’ve explored?”

Lazz yielded and looked at our hosts with new interest. “Want to ask them?”

I shook my head. “Not yet. These two are only crew. I want to wait until we meet the ones I originally contacted.”

A sudden shift in movement interrupted me and I realized that our ride was over. The platform had landed on top of a metal pad in the middle of a jungle. There were no buildings, paths or artificial structures in sight, other than our elevator platform and the guide-rails disappearing up to merge with the shaft we had come out of.

I looked up, trying to guess the distance we had descended. “How far did we come?” I asked Lazz, since he was more experienced with the eyes and had a good sense of distance.

“One hundred-fifty meters,” he answered immediately. “Which means that there are another twenty below us. Support infra-structure for the jungle? Or living quarters?”

An abrupt squeal interrupted, and then we heard: “Follow.” Our bowling-pin escorts walked off the metal platform, somehow managing to walk right out of their magnetic shoes as they stepped onto the gently rolling ‘grass’ that covered the ground between massive one to two meter-thick tree trunks. Seen through my eyes, I could see that the trees were highly dense but covered with a rippling bark-like covering that was the consistency of foam rubber.

Kneeling, I inspected the grass, cursing my still variable control of the eyes. But after struggling to focus at this close distance, I saw that the tubular ‘grass’ stalks were crowned with a fine network of fibers that seemed to flex to reach the light as my shadow blocked the powerful, but diffuse illumination from above. My sensitivity to visible light was marginal with my eye set, and it dawned on me that if I was able to see such a difference, the light above us had to be bright! I started to mention it to Lazz, but he was already stumbling after our guides, almost tripped by the unfamiliar roughness of the terrain and the lower than normal gravity. I hurried after them, almost falling flat on my face myself.

As I caught up with them, I tried to mentally trace our movements, concluding that we were heading for the leading edge of the pyramid—literally an edge given the orientation of the three pods slicing through space. It took several minutes of weaving our way through the dense… forest—down here the growth was much more disciplined than above—but before too long we broke out into a large clearing that took our breath away.

It was obvious from the way the walls were closing in and getting closer to our heads that we were nearing the front of the pyramid, but where we should have faced a sharp corner, we found instead a flat, triangular wall about twenty meters high at its peak, filling in the front corner of this pod. The location of the control room and quarters for other ship’s functions? But what had made me stop and stare was the way the wall was decorated. Seen with my new eyes, the entire wall was a giant work of art combining different textures and shapes. Without any off-set lighting to highlight the subtle bas-relief sculpturing, most people with normal vision would probably not have noticed the beauty of the wall—I instinctively knew that Liza would not even have done more than glance at it. The true nature of the wall was visible only to eyes like the Travelers’, and to the eye sets Lazz and I were wearing.

I suddenly realized Lazz’s hand was clamped around my arm with a vice-like grip and that the sound of his breathing was harsh and strained. I had been so distracted by the wall that I had not noticed.

I took his hand. “What’s wrong?”

He eased his grip and his breathing relaxed.

“Sorry ’bout that, buddy. Just a momentary flashback.”

“To what?”

“Did I ever tell you how I was blinded?” he asked.

“A plane crash, wasn’t it?”

“Yeah… in South America. I was nineteen; a spoiled little rich boy on a treasure-hunting expedition looking for ruins and hidden gold. There were four of us in a small Beech Hover-Jet, and we lost power over the jungle. We were going pretty fast, too fast, and we went ripping through the tops of the rain forest… until we broke out into the open at the edge of a canyon, and we went smashing into the opposite wall. I woke up in the hospital four days later; the only survivor, and blind, courtesy of massive head trauma. A piece of metal went right through my brain. A sixteenth of an inch to one side and I would have been dead on the spot.”

He looked up at the massive wall facing us. “Breaking through this jungle,” he waved around us, “and then coming up on this all at once—”

“Brought it all back,” I finished with a shudder.

“With a vengeance!” He let go of my arm with a weak chuckle. “Like a couple of bad dreams I had after starting to work with you—”

“Gee, thanks a lot.”

“Well, you’ve shaped up okay, finally,” he teased me, and then turned serious. “But like I said, when they first asked me to work with you, it brought back a lot of bad memories of when I lost my sight. Both the accident and the years of denial and self-pitying isolation afterwards where I blamed everybody but myself.”

“What changed your attitude?”

Lazz laughed. “Believe it or not, it got boring. I had always loved to read all sorts of trashy horror and enjoyed writing it for fun, but after the accident I couldn’t do it anymore—”

“But what about—”

“I know: what about all the adaptive systems there are?” I could hear a strong vein of bitterness in his voice. “But to learn how to use those, I had to admit my problem.” He relaxed. “But, once I did that, it was a breeze. I took to computers like the proverbial duck to water when I realized that it was fun. Beat the hell out of the gold-plated pity-palace I was living in. And computers led to other research fields, and eventually to moving out and living on my own. I was never stupid. Just lazy,” he admitted. “I hadn’t thought of those years for a long time, until I started training you.”

“And I brought it all back to mind?” I felt almost guilty as I remembered my own bitching and moaning after the operation, when I had realized that I didn’t have the near approximation of normal sight I had conned myself into believing I would have.

Lazz shook his head. “Just at first, Kimosabi. I was getting over it fine—”

“Until you found yourself face to face with this.” I nodded towards the sculptured wall, mentally seeing a small Hover-jet smashing into it, bits of flaming wreckage sprinkling down to burn the odd grasses at the base of the wall as crumpled metal buckled and spilled battered bodies…

I blinked to clear the vivid image that had overwhelmed me.

“Are you okay?” Lazz’s turn to be concerned. “I thought I was the over-reacting one, here.”

“I’m fine.” I felt my face burn as I moved forward. “Just an over-active imagination.”

The Travelers had moved aside to give us a good view, and I had a feeling that they were observing us very carefully as we approached the wall. The closer we got, the more detail revealed itself and I hoped that the recording circuits built into our suits were working. Everything we saw was also being recorded by the eye-set computers for later review, synchronized with the audio signal from the external suit microphones and my translation system.

We didn’t disappoint our hosts as we stared in fascination.

It was clear now that the wall was actually a collection of triangular picture frames, alternating vertical orientation to fill the large wall. I had focused immediately on the very top picture, which depicted a large number of space ships like the one we were in departing from a planet orbiting an angry looking star. The implications intrigued me and I studied it intently, until Lazz tapped me on the shoulder.

“You’re looking at them wrong. It’s reversed.” He pointed to the bottom right picture. “Bottom to top, right to left.” He shrugged. “Sue me. I always check out the last screen or page of a book, too. That’ll teach me.”

Now that I knew where to start, I appreciated the symmetry of the historical mural. The picture I had been looking at was the final in the series. I wondered if it was the beginning of exploration, or an exodus; a flight from a dying star? I looked back up at the frame. Unlike the highly realistic images in all the other frames, the star in that final picture looked almost abstract. It was menacing to be real.

I went back to the beginning: a roiling ocean that seemed to cover nearly an entire planet. Moving over to the next pictures, I saw the ocean begin to fill up, first with tiny, unidentifiable shapes, and then with small jellyfish-like shapes that swam in pairs. Gradually, the jellyfish grew in size and complexity, and by the fourth frame, I could see the beginnings of the round sense-organ in the middle of the body.

Lazz had been following along with me. “Early sonar, like dolphins.”

I nodded. “Once they left the ocean, the organ evolved.”

Gradually, the Travelers—I couldn’t think of them as jellyfish anymore—grew larger and lost their earlier etherial look. The oceans were shrinking, too. Comparing pictures, I realized that the sun was growing larger in the pictures. Only in small increments, but it was noticeable. Apparently that was the impetus for a migration to the land, because one of the next frames showed denser Travelers making their first forays onto land, struggling to move as they were propelled by dozens of thick tentacles.

I glanced over at Lazz. “Increasing mineral concentrations in the water, less living space—”

“Less food, etc.,” he continued. “Classic evolutionary forces.” He looked back at the patiently waiting Travelers.

“I wonder if this is why they wanted you to have the same type of vision: so you could see this? It seems like we’re expected to study this.”

“I have the same feeling,” I agreed, looking back at the mural.

Subsequent panels showed various stages in Traveler evolution, social and technical. One thing I found interesting was that it was not until after the beginning of an industrial age that any type of buildings appeared. Shelter from rain was apparently not a concern, but with the advent of scientific experimentation in chemistry and metallurgy, buildings began to appear. Almost exclusively to house laboratories at first, it seemed. And even after population density increased, the dwellings I saw depicted were minimal and very open to the elements.

“This is starting to make sense.” Lazz waved around us. “They’re not used to living inside.”

“Apparently not,” I agreed. The Travelers stood motionless, patiently waiting… No! Just waiting. I would have to be careful not to anthropomorphize their actions. I turned back to the wall.

Water still covered large parts of the planet, though islands and sections of land were more and more in evidence. But the Travelers never ventured far from the water. The first vehicles I saw evidence of were ships, and commerce and transportation seemed to be exclusively by water. Then I saw the Travelers return to the depths of the ocean, but this time in diving suits and submarines.

Skipping a few frames, I saw the sun continue to grow and the oceans to shrink. Now the Travelers were turning their attentions upwards. Telescopes, at first, then crude exploratory rockets, and finally, the first Travelers in space. More and more telescopes appeared, evenly divided between examining the sun, and searching deep space. And simultaneous with their first steps into space, huge floating dishes appeared on the seas and on the highest land areas available. Radio-astronomical observatories to scan the skies, I presumed, and Lazz mumbled an agreement.

“Looks like they’re figuring out that something’s going wrong with their sun, and they’re also trying to see if anyone else is out there. They’re probably trying to call for help.”

We both glanced up at that final frame momentarily, eyes skipping away as the finality of what we were seeing sank in.

The succeeding frames showed an increasing focus on space, with larger and more complex space ships, reaching out to plant bases on the two moons, and then on larger asteroid bodies scattered through the system. There were no other planets to colonize. Then a framework appeared in space: a monumental manufacturing facility floating at what had to be one of their Lagrange points. The resources of the whole world were apparently focused on it, and construction began on a vast fleet of ships such as the one we were in. Frame by frame, I saw the world change as the oceans continued to recede.

The final picture was the one I had focused on first, where the exodus from the Travelers’ home world had begun, and my eyes returned there. But with my new perspective, I noticed something else as my eyes brushed its way to the apex of the triangle: I had thought that the last dozen frames were decorated with a border along the base, but I realized now that there was a much more somber reason for the detailing. Focusing until my eyes hurt—or were those tears trying to come out but finding no place to go?—I saw that the border decorations consisted of long rows of tiny stylized Traveler pairs. But panel by panel, approaching the final picture on the top, the number of rows diminished. From twelve rows of tiny figures on the first panel to use the population census, the final one had only a fraction of a single line.

My chest was hurting in a way I had not felt since Ellen died as I realized that that final frame probably was showing an exodus. There were a huge number of ships launched, but only a tiny percentage of the population remaining, so perhaps everyone was leaving?

“I wonder how many were left at the end?” Lazz asked, his voice choked.

I looked at him a bit surprised. The whole time I had known him, he had always been a split second from a wise-crack; never serious, except where Liza was concerned.

“Not many,” I answered, realizing my own voice was as broken as his. “God! Can you imagine what it must have been like, living all your life with that sun overhead, the radiation getting stronger and stronger, baking away the ocean and the life around you?”

“No,” Lazz answered quietly. “But it sure makes me ashamed when I remember the things I’ve bitched about!”

“At least we know why they’re here.” I looked back at our guides. They were still standing motionless, waiting. “They’re looking for a new home!”

“Boy, did they come to the wrong neighborhood!” Lazz shook his head. “They obviously can’t come down to Earth, even if the politicians would let ’em, and what else can we give them? Venus is too hot, and Mars is too cold. Never mind their atmospheres.”

“I don’t know.” I looked around. “They’re ahead of us, technologically, maybe they can do something. But, boy, do I wish I had a line to Liza right now. If the Travelers want me to negotiate some kind of landing rights somewhere, I am in deep… shit.”

“About time you loosened up,” Lazz teased, trying to fight the gloom that had overwhelmed us. “But you’re right: you can’t okay anything like that.”

We both turned to the Travelers as I reached down shakily for my Braille pad. On the one hand I was still close to crying for the Travelers, but on the other hand, I was feeling dizzy and excited by everything that was happening. From a sheltered university teaching position to having my eyes cut out and being picked as mankind’s sole… well almost sole, representative to meet aliens—what a change of life! Part of me wanted to crawl back in a hole and zip it shut, but the other part wanted to climb up on a building and shout. I felt moved by forces greater than me to find out about our visitors. All through history, the mass perception of aliens had either been as God-like saviors or as conquering demons; both views doing little to flatter us as a species. But here was a chance to redeem ourselves in our own eyes and I didn’t want to screw it up.

I couldn’t believe it, but I was suddenly wishing for the presence of the very same bureaucrats I had been endlessly cursing before.

Restraining a morbid laugh, I typed: “Take us to your leaders.”

The Travelers quickly passed us and headed towards the solid wall we had been studying, unflinching as a large triangular section retreated a few centimeters and silently slid aside just as it looked as our guides were about to run into the wall.

Lazz waved a hand, the signal flash from his teeth clear even through two helmets as he grinned silently, bidding me to go first.

I did, and we hunched down to follow the Travelers up a claustrophobic hallway, their twin figures swaying back and forth like unsteady bowling pins.

It wasn’t long before we came into a large room with six other Travelers perched in pairs on odd, low stools around the edges of the room. In the middle there was a raised platform with two slightly more elaborate stools occupied by another pair of Travelers who reflected differently: they were denser. As Lazz and I entered, they stood up and the one on the right let out a rapid run of speech as it faced the others.

Whatever was said wasn’t translated, but all the other Travelers immediately got up and filed out, leaving the four of us alone in the room. As the door slid shut, the Traveler on the left spoke.

“I guide this vessel. This unit is…” An untranslated squeal I tagged as ‘One’. “And—”

“—and this unit is…” the one of the right finished with a different squeal I tagged as ‘Two’. The numerical designations would be spoken now, whenever the Traveler names were used.

I thought quickly and reached down to type: “This unit is Mitch and the other unit is Lazz. We combine to see, to learn.”

“You are the witness,” One and Two said simultaneously.

“Witness to what?” I asked.

“To my journey,” the chorus responded and I was reminded again that there was no difference between any of the personal pronouns; the singular or plural you, ‘me’ and ‘us’, or ‘our’ and ‘my’. But they had individual names. I wondered if the collectivization was due to the increasing focus on species survival rather than individual survival towards the end.

Lazz must have been thinking along the same lines, because he leaned over to whisper: “I just thought of something. They only have one arm and hand. Maybe that’s why they’re always in pairs?”

“That’s a chicken and egg issue,” I decided. “They were always in pairs in the pictures. I just wonder if they are breeding units also, or if they are working pairs that breed differently. They never answered any of the questions about their biology.”

I also wanted to know more about their “journey”, but my question about that was ignored.

“You are here to see and learn about us,” was the only response I got. “An environmental chamber has been prepared from your directions. It has been sterilized and filled with gases compositionally equivalent to your sea level atmosphere. Follow.” They turned and headed for the right wall, part of which also slid aside obligingly for them, and remained open for us.

“I think I’ve got it,” Lazz whispered as we entered another tight corridor. “They found us, and they can obviously see we don’t have any place for them, so before they go on, they want us to learn as much about them as possible. They want to open the door to later contact when they do find a new home. Look at how intent they were on finding other life. And it would explain the eye bit, too. They want us to see them, and their ship, with their eyes so we can understand them better.”

“Could be…” But something didn’t feel quite right. “I wonder if there isn’t more to it. This pod alone could hold a lot more than the few Travelers we’ve seen. Even if this is a sleeper ship, don’t you think there would be more up and around for something like this? All their lives they’ve been searching for alien life, and now that they’ve found it, they don’t seem too terribly excited.”

“You think these might be the only ones left?” Lazz fell silent for a moment, but I could almost hear his mental circuits firing.

“Depends on how long they’ve been traveling. We don’t know if they have any kind of ‘hyper’ drive, or if they’ve been traveling sub-light—”

“In which case this almost has to be a sleeper ship,” Lazz interrupted.

“Exactly. Maybe they’ve had problems?”

I was feeling totally morbid. Death had been circulating in my mind a lot for the past few months. My fears about having my eyes removed had sparked a desperate and failed attempt to reach out to Janice, and then misplaced guilt over that had brought back all the horror of losing Ellen, and now I was confronted by a species having fled a dying star.

But Lazz felt it too. “You think they’re close to the end, and they want to pass this on to us before they die.”

I nodded. “It would fit, and it would explain why there aren’t more of them around.”

I turned to the Travelers and reached down to type: “What is in the other rotating pods?”

“Those who lived,” was the immediate answer from ahead of us.

“Bingo,” Lazz offered. “You were right.”

“Yea, whoopie,” I grumbled. “I wish I wasn’t.” But as we approached an intersection of hallways to stop in front of an obviously jury-rigged airlock, I wondered which of us really was right. I had to be careful not to assume they would behave the way we would. Maybe what we were seeing was their version of jumping up and down with joy. And “those who lived” didn’t have to mean “those who died”.

“Enter,” one of the Travelers commanded as the outer airlock door opened.

“’Come into my parlor’, said the spider to the fly,” Lazz mumbled. “Maybe instead of worrying about whether or not they look like something edible, we should be worrying about how edible we look. Maybe they’re out of food and this is the fridge… just kidding,” he added in a hurry as I punched his arm and pulled him into the airlock.

The door closed behind us, and our suits started billowing wildly after a moment as the air pressure dropped. We were briefly blasted with heat and a strange intense light, and then the suits settled down and the far door opened to reveal a large room with a wide wall panel that reflected in a strange way. An uncomfortable-looking bed had been added over against one wall.

“Sanitary facilities are in the next room as specified,” a disembodied voice announced as we entered the room and the airlock door closed behind us. “Your suits and this chamber have been sterilized since you fear contamination.”

“Uh, Kimosabe, we’re not working on the seniority system here, are we?” Lazz sounded a little nervous. “I’m worried enough about the air, but I really don’t want some alien Montezuma’s revenge hitting my system when I don’t even know what a bathroom looks like here.”

“Relax,” I offered. “Even if Traveler germs could survive in our systems, the waste systems in the suits can handle even that. But you heard them—”

“Yes: we’ve been sterilized,” Lazz grumbled.

“I’ll go first.” I reached up for the release catches on my helmet and cracked the seal. Pulling my head free, I wrinkled my nose as the neck seal got caught on it, ripe with the sweaty smell of damp rubber. Lazz hissed expectantly and I realized I was holding my breath. Feeling my pulse race a bit, I breathed out and then drew in the room air tentatively to find myself inhaling scentlessly clean and cool air.

“Come on in, the air is fine.” I slapped Lazz on the shoulder as I turned off the now needless air regulator for my suit and took some cleansing breaths to clean out the taste of canned air.

A panel slid open on the wall, revealing a spare set of air canisters.

“These are from your Transport,” the anonymous voice explained. “Exchange them and place the used ones here. They will be recharged for use.”

“Why are we here?” I felt silly looking up as I switched my tank as instructed, but it was as good a direction as any. And at least this room had a higher ceiling.

“To learn where your eyes can see better,” came the immediate answer. The strange wall panel I had noted before was alive all at once with images of incredible depth and clarity. Traveler display technology obviously took full advantage of their sense of vision.

“Will your recording system work at higher than real time speeds?” our guiding voice asked. “The capacity was stated in the data you sent.”

I looked over at Lazz. That was his specialty, and he nodded.

“As if they don’t know,” he grumbled. “We sent them the specs.” But he looked up to speak as I transcribed on the keyboard.

“Up to about thirty times normal speed given a high resolution image… well, you’ve been using this type of vision a lot longer than we have, so I guess I can assume you’ll give us a good image…” He broke off in embarrassment. “There will be no problem,” he amended.

I debated getting out of my suit to get comfortable, but before I could suggest it, our hosts spoke up again.

“Focus on the display,” came our next order. “Use the seats.”

I noticed the stools that seemed to be built into the floor in front of the screen. There were six of them arranged in pairs in a semi-circle, and we squatted awkwardly on two.

“I have a feeling we’re going to be sitting here a while,” Lazz whispered. “I could sure use a beer right about now.”

I was more worried about something else as I thought about hours of watching a video record passing too quickly to keep track of. “Is there a way to make sure the eye-sets don’t turn off if my eyes close?” I had a sudden panic image of dozing off in the middle of a prime period of Traveler history and my eye-set recorder shutting off because my eyes closed.

Lazz chuckled. “Open up,” he ordered as he reached for his belt to pull out a small tool from a kit as I undid the front of my suit to give him access to my computer. He bent down for a moment and opened a small panel, and then made some invisible adjustments before straightening.

“There. If you do happen to disgrace mankind by nodding off there will be no witnesses… except me,” he concluded ominously. “And I locked the focus on the distance of the screen, just in case.”

“How about your eyes?” I whispered needlessly.

“I’ll be okay. I’m used to this, from one of my data processing instructors.” His voice suddenly took on a droning, monotone voice as he slowly said: “He… had… this… incredible… monotone… way… of… lecturing.” He shook his head. “But God help you if you nodded off. In his classes you had to pay attention! And he loved to give pop quizzes” Lazz laughed. “No, don’t worry about me.”

As we turned to face the display, the screen shimmered and apparently reset, because we were looking in on a vivid image of the ocean in the frames on the wall outside, shifting as we watched, and alternating with teasingly brief images of close-ups within the water. I restrained a smile as I realized we were watching the Traveler equivalent of a PBS documentary. Accompanying the fluid flow of images was a rapid, high-pitched squeal which when slowed down would probably prove to be a narrator’s voice.

After a while, as I had expected, my attention drifted and the swirling images on the screen blurred, even if it stayed in focus. It was a weird feeling. I was locked at attention—I mustn’t shame humanity!—but I wasn’t really seeing the hypnotically blurred screen. Instead, I saw sheeting rain on the windshield of Ellen’s car as we drove home after a late dinner at Fleur de Lies. It had been our twelfth wedding anniversary, May 20th, 2017… the last one we had shared…

I had gone all out to reserve one of the dining rooms just for the two of us, and hired a classical trio from a nearby college to play. I wanted this to be an extra special anniversary because Ellen had just sold her first fiction novel. While I had astronomy for a hobby, hers had been writing mysteries. She had been writing and selling short stories for years and had finally—after much urging on my part—decided to try a full-length novel. And she had sold it to a mid-sized publisher, with a fair advance for simultaneous CD-Text, Electronic and Print rights.

That deserved a celebration.

The candle-lit dinner was perfect: a falling-apart tender trout aux amandes, broccoli with Hollandaise sauce, new potatoes simmered with an incredible fresh herb seasoning, fresh warm rolls on the side, an incredible Chenin Blanc—only a single glass apiece because we wanted fully clear heads for the rest of the night—and a sinfully rich chocolate cake for dessert. Gentle music of Mozart, Dvorak and Bach eased our digestion, and we left the restaurant walking on air. A sudden rain shower did nothing to dampen our spirits.

Since my car was in the shop, we were using Ellen’s and naturally she was driving. Her convertible was her baby. The rain was light but we took it easy as we headed home, anxious to get more intimate. I was trying not to look too anxious as I pictured her finding her present on her pillow: I had found a first edition of an early Agatha Christie novel that I knew she had been dying to get to add to her collection. It had cost me an arm and a leg, but after our last anniversary when she had bought me an antique telescope I had been eyeing, I had been determined to find her something equally appropriate.

With the fogging up of the inside rear window, neither of us had seen the dark blue van that had been behind us until it was right on our rear bumper. It was running without headlights in the early evening gloom, the driver obviously impatient over Ellen’s careful driving at the speed limit. The driver of the van didn’t seem to care about the fact that the small manual-control road we were on was a two-lane one with no-passing markings laid down, because as soon as a gap opened in the oncoming traffic, he floored it to pass us, ignoring the blaring alarm that was certainly coming from his dashboard as he crossed over the electronic road-markers; an alarm already logged in his violations-box, unless it had been disconnected.

Ellen had seen it, and she calmly moved over as much as possible and slowed down to give him room, but we were approaching a curve and unseen to the van, a large truck was just coming around it, lights flashing angrily on high as the truck driver slammed on the brakes. The van driver panicked and swerved right into us, the shock throwing me against side window hard enough to stun me.

The next few moments passed in a blurred haze as our car ran up on a stone wall to our right and flipped, spinning and sliding to slam into the oncoming truck with a numbing crash that blacked me out.

I had awakened in the hospital almost ten hours later. I had had three broken ribs, a broken leg and a concussion, but all that had been forgotten in the agony of learning the Ellen was dead. It had been her side of the car that had hit the truck, and while the roll-bar had saved us when the car had flipped, the windshield frame had been ripped loose to plunge into Ellen’s chest, driven by the impact to kill her instantly.

And the van driver had not even been bruised! And to make it worse, he had not shown the slightest sign of remorse on sobering up. He had laughed at the life-time sentence imposed on him and sworn that he wouldn’t even spend a week in a cell. And he had been right. Three days later, due to jail-crowding, he had been remanded to house arrest at his home with electronic surveillance as his only guardian.

I had been a basket-case for months, unable to imagine a life without her. For twelve years, our lives had revolved around each other. Sure, we each had had our own interests and we had not spent every moment together, but there had always been the subliminal knowledge that the other was there; within reach with a raised voice or the push of a speed dial button. But suddenly that had been over.

I was alone.

The screen in front of me took on a new poignancy as I realized that for all the pain I was feeling, and had felt, the beings in this ship had lived with a far greater horror all of their lives. What was my loneliness to theirs?

The subliminal squealing stopped and the screen stabilized with a vivid image similar to one of those on the panel in the mural. During early mechanization. Then the panel went blank. I decided that the wall outside was an abridged Traveler history text, and that we had been shown it first so we would appreciate the full class room course we were being exposed to now.

My muscles and my bladder were all screaming for relief, and I stood up to stretch, grateful for the sanitary functions of the suit. Glancing at my watch, I realized in amazement that we had been sitting motionless for almost five hours!

Next to me Lazz rose, managing to pop some joint or other with a loud crack that echoed in the small room. “Next time,” he groaned. “Remind me to bring some Relax-Tabs! Nutrient bars and water just don’t do it.” Then he reached over to reset my eye-set computer. “Now what?”

Our answer came as the same panel that had provided fresh air canisters slid open again, but this time, the compartment behind it was piled high with the supply containers from the Transport.

“Eat and sleep,” came a new order. “When you are ready for the next viewing, tell me.”

“Hey,” I heard Lazz call as he sorted through the pressure cases. “This one’s got my name on it.” He opened it and pulled out a uni-suit rolled up next to a deflated air-mattress, a small case, and two other uni-suits. “Bless her heart! She managed to sneak this on…” He looked over at me, wide-eyed. “She knew all along! There wouldn’t have been time for her to slip this along after we left her. He shook his head and then looked up. “I know you can’t hear me, sweetheart, but thanks.” He blew a kiss at the ceiling before turning back to me.

“Okay, Mitch: C’mon. You heard our hosts. It’s break time. Considering where we stopped, we’ve got a lot of history left to cover.” He grabbed his uni-suit and headed for the doorway to our ‘sanitary facilities’.

The door opened automatically as he approached it, and he peeked in suspiciously before turning to me with a flash from his teeth.

“Standard station bathroom. I’ll be out in a few minutes.

After eating some rehydrated low-residue rations and stretching out for a nap—Lazz won the toss for the minimally padded cot and I used the air mattress Liza had slipped into the container for Lazz—we were ready to go again. Since we were no longer in our suits, I warned our hosts we might have to stop the display from time to time, but then we settled down for another session in front of the screen.

For the next day, our time was split between naps, meals, and bathroom breaks, each pause bringing us closer to that final tragic frame we had seen.

Finally we found ourselves looking at a vivid frozen frame that was a virtual duplicate of the exodus picture. The roiling sun dominating the picture actually did look every bit as daunting as the sculpture. I realized that the Travelers were probably living their lives in shielded suits and homes towards the end. It made the forest outside that much more understandable: a defiant return to better times; probably using carefully nurtured plants grown in a shielded environment.

We got up to stretch, curious over what was next, but then we froze, because the screen had come to life again and a different squeal took over the narrating duties as new, speeded-up images were displayed. From to time, I caught a glimpse of a single ship along with various passing star fields and planetary bodies.

I was afraid to move until this shorter display ended, but after about ten minutes, the screen went dark and I turned to Lazz, excited.

“That last bit was the trip this ship made! We can back-track to their home system and see where else they’ve been.”

“The witnessing of history is over,” our hosts’ voices interrupted. “Put on your suits and prepare to leave this chamber.”

“That’s it?” Lazz burst out. “Come look at my etchings and then out the door?”

I reached out to take his arm. “I think we’ll find that we’ve gotten a little more than that once we take a look at the recording in real-time. Let’s not push it.” But one thing bothered me and I looked up.

“What about our history? Information about us. You have already received some from our exchanges, but—”

“The witnessing of history is over,” the disembodied chorus repeated, the mechanical tones of the computer lending an air of finality to the words.

After Lazz reset my computer, I retrieved my flushed-out suit, changed into my undersuit, reconnected all my plumbing, and then closed up. I grabbed my helmet with a sigh and forced myself back into it, wrinkling my nose as the stale canned air hissed in once again. It reminded me that we would not only be in deep shit once we got back, but also in quarantine because we had breathed air here, even if in a “sterile” room with pure gases.

Lazz seemed to read my mind as he sealed his own helmet. “Time to face the music, huh?”

“Not yet. It’s only been about twenty-eight hours and I was told it would be several days. I guess there’s more to this show and tell. But look at it this way: we’re going to be employed for some time. Just think about how long it’s going to take to sort through and analyze the recording we just got.”

“So true, so true.” Lazz seemed to take great delight in that.

The inner airlock door opened as we approached it, and we were quickly cycled through and back out in the corridor to face the two leading Travelers. I wanted to know more about why I had been brought onboard, but my every attempt to ask anything was ignored and we were efficiently herded down a new corridor to return to the doorway that opened out to the jungle. However, when we passed though it, we were greeted by a surprise.

A huge crowd of Travelers had gathered outside. They seemed to fill the open field in front of the sculpture wall, only leaving a narrow corridor towards the elevator platform. As we followed our guides past the other aliens, their massed attention was overwhelming and I felt my focus slipping.

“They must have been revived while we had our screening,” Lazz whispered. “I guess we were wrong?”

I didn’t answer right away but looked back in amazement as we eventually stepped onto the elevator again. I had lost count of the number of Travelers who were gathered to see us off, but as I forced myself to examine them more closely, I started to realize that there was something wrong. The ten Travelers we had seen first had been virtually identical in size and appearance, as were some of the newcomers, but there was a variance in shape among many in the watching rows, and the signals reaching me were not all as focused or strong as the first ones.

“Obviously we were wrong about them dying out.” I finally said. “But take a good look at them. You’re better with your eyes.”

He did, and after a while turned back to me somberly. “I see what you mean. This is a tired bunch! I hope they have better luck at the next stop.”

“But they all woke up to see us. There must be hundreds of them!” I looked back at them. “That makes sense. After all the effort they went to try to find… alien life, I just knew they couldn’t just sleep it all away!” I thought about the last piece of recording we had been shown and grinned. “And if they’re kicking us out before they go on—they might have made other alien contacts which—”

“Will be on the last recording!” Lazz finished, just as excited as I was.

The elevator had started to rise while we had been scanning the crowd, but instead of continuing up to the top, we stopped, about ten meters up in the air. Looking down from where we were was an odd experience. Because of all the foliage, we could only see a few dozen Travelers scattered around the base of the elevator, but somehow we knew that we were the center of attention of the whole ship.

Our new escorts moved to the edge of the platform, blithely perched millimeters from a fall, and faced in opposite directions to speak in ringing squeals that echoed all around.

“This is the Witness. Our Journey has purpose.”

Then the elevator began to drop again and Lazz and I both looked up helplessly. Now what?

We returned to ground in moments and reversed our parade-like trek to return to the sculpture wall, and then it was back through the claustrophobic corridor to the airlock leading into the screening chamber, and we were issued a peremptory command: “Enter. The Journey continues.” The outer airlock door opened.

I was starting to get more than a little nervous for some unknown reason, and I could tell by Lazz’s tensed posture that he felt the same way.

“No,” I countered. “We must return to our home.”

“You are here to witness. Then you will be returned.” One and Two were taking turns. “The Witness is honored and must not be harmed.” A pause and then again: “Enter so we may continue.”

Lazz and I locked eyes. I nodded towards the waiting airlock.

“What do you think?”

After a moment he sighed. “Well, this is the price I pay for black-mailing my way along. It’s your call. I’ll do it if you will… besides, I have to admit, my curiosity cat is looking to loose a few lives.”

“I have to know,” I admitted. “Besides, I really don’t feel worried.” Lazz mumbled something and I asked: “What?”

“Umm… never mind.” Lazz shook his head. “I was just thinking about some land sales in a geographically disadvantaged area… Go ahead. After you.”

Once again we entered the viewing room and stripped off our suits before settling in expectantly in front of the screen.

Lazz leaned over. “Well, at least we’re ‘honored’ and ‘not to be harmed’. I just wish I could let Liza know I’m okay.”

I heard the edge in his voice, but I could understand it. He knew what Liza had to be going through, and I knew it also.

I remembered well how I had felt one night when Ellen had been late coming home. We had had plans to go out to dinner, and when over an hour had passed without a call, I had begun to seriously worry. Ellen had had a thing about being punctual, or calling if detained. If she was due someplace where she had never been, she would prefer to sit for ten minutes outside the building and wait rather than risk being late. I had tried calling her personal phone several times but had only reached a recording that kept repeating that the carrier was “unable to connect due to network difficulties”.

When she had finally called, from a land-line at a service station, her first thought had been to reassure me, because she had known how much I had been worrying. Then she had explained that her car had broken down in the middle of a record thunderstorm and on a back road. And by a supreme act of cosmic malice, the road had been washed out both ahead of her and behind her. On top of that, the storm had knocked out power to the cellular towers in the area, and she had been forced to walk several miles in the pouring rain to get to a service station.

When she had finally come home, drenched and miserable, I had immediately scrapped our restaurant dinner plans and sent her packing to a shower, while I had cooked a good hot meal for us to eat by the fireplace. It had always amazed me that she had been worried about me! But that night had turned into one of the most wonderfully intimate evenings we had ever shared.

As I sat next to Lazz waiting for the aliens’ next move, I envied him again and wondered if I’d ever have any evenings like that again.

The screen suddenly flashed back to life and we found ourselves looking out into space from a vantage point I presumed was the front of the ship, since the space station was off to the side as expected. But as we watched, the station moved, or rather we did.

“This is what was,” came a simple explanation from above.

The scene speeded up and we moved away from the station. The massive globe of the Earth brushed the upper portion of the screen momentarily, but disappeared behind us. Our vantage point changed and we were looking back from the same place and I saw that the pyramids were back down in travel position as we accelerated away from the space station.

“Son of a bitch!” Lazz blasted and got to his feet. “They space-napped us!”

I realized immediately what had happened. While we had been starting down that elevator, they had been folding down the pyramids and launching us gradually to simulate the increasing gravity as we descended on the elevator. We had never noticed it because once underway, we had been under the same level of gravity as we would have been from the rotation of the ship.

Lazz’s jaw was clenched and he was glaring up at the low ceiling, but before he could say anything I grabbed him and tried to pull him back down into his seat.

“Sit down!” I wasn’t alarmed. Even if we were a long way from understanding each other, I had a gut feeling we had nothing to fear from the Travelers. And in a strange way, the maneuvers we had been going through were very reassuring, because they reminded me that the Travelers were not some sort of super-beings able to control gravity and all sorts of unimaginable forces. They were more advanced than we were, but not so much that we couldn’t catch up.

Lazz was resisting me and I pulled harder. “Will you relax? They said we would be safe and that we would be returned, and I believe them. Obviously they’ve got something else to show us.” My eyes were locked on the screen. I looked up as Lazz finally calmed down and dropped back to his seat.

“What is now?” I asked.

The scene shifted and I found myself staring into what had to be the sun.

“How close are we?” I asked, feeling like an idiot as I did for not being more specific.

But our hosts knew what I meant, and the screen changed to show a diagrammatic representation of the solar system that looked like it could have come out of any elementary school book on Earth. A small pyramid was almost halfway between the orbits of Earth and Mercury and heading towards the sun. If I strained, I could almost imagine that I saw it move.

“Slingshot effect?” Lazz murmured next to me, yielding to curiosity. “Even if our sun is a wimp compared to theirs, it’s got a pretty good gravity well to use.”

“Yeah, but how good is their insulation?” I wondered. “And how come we’re along?” But something else bothered me. “And if they have such a good drive, whatever the hell is powering this thing, why do they need a gravity well for acceleration?”

“Maybe they use the sun for a different kind of boost?” Lazz wondered. “I’ve read several old science fiction books about that.”

“And maybe we were right before.” Something kept nudging my mind and I reached down to type: “Please show an image of the history wall outside. The last six panels.”

“Huh?” Lazz stared at me. “What are you up to?”

As the screen changed obligingly, I bent forward to ask: “Please display only the bottom portions of each panel and expand them in size.” Again the screen cooperated, and I peered closely at the declining numbers of Traveler figures at the base of each panel. At first, I didn’t see anything new; just a tragically shrinking population as resources declined, and the Travelers cut their population. But finally I saw what I had been missing.

Not only were the number of the Travelers shrinking, but in each of the final panels, there were an increasing number of figures that were misshapen, even if just slightly. Perhaps just with a smaller or missing ‘eye’, or with no arm at all, or with legs missing—small differences that had been impossible to spot on unmagnified images, but there were more and more of these mutant Travelers among the population census figures. The angry sun was doing more than damaging the planet!

“They’re mutating from the radiation,” Lazz said numbly as he also spotted the changes. “Dying out.”

“Looks that way, doesn’t it.” I had suspected that radiation had been a problem, but this was worse than I had thought. “If this has been going on for a long time—we won’t know how long until we go through the first recording—and the whole time they have been trying to find other life forms—”

“—and now they’ve reached that goal, and we’ve been ‘witnesses’…” Lazz continued my thought but left the implication unvoiced.

“Exactly.” I saw he understood, and asked needlessly: “If you were very tired, dying, had no possible future really to expect, and had finally realized your one life’s ambition, what might you do?”

“What I tried, twice,” Lazz answered bitterly. “The first time with pills, except I took too many and threw them all up before they could work. And the second time with a gun, but I got caught before I could pull the trigger. And I didn’t even have a ‘life’s ambition’.”

I swallowed. “I’m sorry.” I felt like shit.

He squeezed my arm. “Don’t worry about it. Like I told you: I was a poor little rich boy who couldn’t handle reality too well at first. It took me a while to wise up, but I did. But what I want to know is how far this ‘witness’ thing is going to go?”

“Put the map back on, please,” I asked. As it re-appeared, I could see that we were on a direct course with the sun.

I saw Lazz’s lips move as he stared at the chart, and I could almost hear him whisper: “Liza”. Like Ellen worrying about my fears when she had been late, he was thinking of her instead of himself; knowing that all she could see was a rapidly accelerating ship heading right for the sun, and carrying her husband with it.

It made me think again of Ellen, and death, and coping. And I thought about the Travelers. If we were right and they were heading for some grand self-immolation to end their journey: how long had they been in search of their ‘witness’? And if we were right, it also meant that we were the first alien race they had encountered; or at least the first technically advanced one. There was the reason for that three part signal again, since the final component would only have been detectable to a space-faring race. They were tired and wanted to move on, but they wanted witnesses who would appreciate their journey and the scale of their existence.

The requirement for me to use their language and to ‘see’ in their way was obvious now. I shook my head as I thought about the way I had fought the temporary sacrifice I had been asked to make. For Lazz, it had not been a choice and he had survived and prospered. And I thought about poor Janice: a target for my attempt to deny what was happening, what I was going to face, and what I had lost.

Grow up and stop feeling sorry for yourself! I chided myself. It was time to accept that Ellen was dead. Soon I would have my eyes back and I would be able to on with a new, exciting life uncovering Traveler secrets, knowing that I had been part of one of the greatest moments in human history.

I looked up as my fingers typed automatically: “Thank you.” But even though there was no reply and I had a strange feeling we were alone, I wasn’t afraid. I believed their assurance that we would be “returned”.

My thoughts were suddenly interrupted. “The separation comes,” the chorus proclaimed. “Witness our existence to your world.”

Somehow I had expected excitement, fear, some kind of emotion, but that was stupid. The artificial voice of my computer had no programming for it and no knowledge of Traveler emotions, whatever ones they had.

“Now what?” I wondered, but I braced myself because I suspected what was coming. “Hold on Lazz.”

The map disappeared and found ourselves looking at the Traveler ship from a vantage point several kilometers behind it. Apparently a remote probe with a camera. The giant drive dish had been glowing in some peculiar way with energies displayed on the screen, but suddenly the dish flickered and gradually went dark as we found ourselves weightless.

“What the hell?” Lazz grabbed for the stool.

“Turnover,” I answered, sure I was right. “And if the separation is what I think, we’ll soon see it.”

“Right… Turnover!” Lazz caught on immediately. “Constant acceleration… hmm.” He let go and pulled up his Braille pad, fingering the keys rapidly as he gradually drifted up off the stool. “How long since we left Earth orbit?”

“Around thirty hours or so.”

“Bingo. Assuming we burn—or whatever this ship does—at the same rate on an outward vector to slow down, and continue to do a lateral burn since we also have orbital velocity to contend with…” His fingers kept flashing some more as his computer kept rattling off figures too rapidly for me to understand. “We should stop somewhere just inside Mercury’s orbit.”

“Stop, and then begin burning again to take us home,” I guessed.

“The separation…?” He didn’t finish, but I could see his guess paralleled mine.

On the screen the drive dish changed. A single, intense beam burst out from it, lasting nearly ten minutes.

“The signal goes home, to any who find what remains,” came a explanation after a while.

“Nice completion there,” Lazz said. “If any of their own people return there, they’ll know where to look. Or anyone else who comes calling.”

“If we’re still around,” I pointed out. “I’ll bet you this is a sub-light ship and that they’ve been travelling a long time.”

“Still kinda’ nice. They’ll know we were around, too.”

The screen swirled as the signal beam cut off, and I grabbed for Lazz we felt pushed to the side and new activity started on the screen.

“Here we go!” Lazz burst out.

“Yep. Look.” I pointed to the screen where we could see that the huge Traveler ship was slowly turning on its axis, propelled by reaction thrusters, until the dish was towards the sun. Then came the ‘separation’, I had expected, but had been afraid to count on.

Two of the pyramidal pods were separating from the central shaft as we watched, propelled by short bursts of thrusters. Gradually they swung around until their trunctuated tips faced each other. Then, with additional blasts of the thrusters, they moved towards each other until they joined at the tips to form a sort of a dumb-bell shaped whole that floated above the shaft with its single remaining pod underneath.

“This one!” We looked at each other, reaching the same conclusion at the same time.

I reached up a hand to pull Lazz down next to me. “Hold on. We’re next, I think.”

And we were. No sooner had the two separated pods joined up, than new and powerful bursts of energy extended back from the dish that now faced away from us. Gradually the ship slowed to leave the joined pods to continue their plunge towards the sun. We immediately felt a rapid return of gravity and I stared at Lazz as my hopeful guess was verified.

“This has been planned from the beginning,” I guessed. “All the Travelers went up into the other pods to leave us here.”

It was the only answer, and Lazz hissed with surprise as it dawned on him it meant. “They’re leaving us the ship! They’re leaving us the whole bloody ship! Computers, drive system, transmitter… everything!” His voice was hushed and reverent as he stared at me. “And it’s on auto-pilot—heading back to the station?”

It seemed that way, because we were already at normal Earth gravity, which meant we were going to stop even sooner than expected, and then return the way we had come if it kept up.

My own mouth was dry as I realized what this would mean, and I stared at the rapidly separating shapes. Apparently the camera was keyed to the pods, because while the ship itself soon disappeared off-screen, the screen image kept pace with the pods.

“How long before they…?” I whispered. I couldn’t quite say it.

“About thirty-four hours,” Lazz answered after a moment, his eyes locked on the screen. “We’ll just have started back when they… hit the sun” He waved a hand uncertainly. “They’re all over there?”

I shrugged. “I guess so.” I reached down for my own keyboard.

“Has everyone left this part of the ship?” I typed.

“No,” a new voice answered after a moment, coming from the display screen. It was another stiff female voice this time. “There are two beings still onboard.”

“Who?” I asked just to make sure.

“The Witness.”

“You are a computer?” I added at Lazz’s prompting.

“Yes.”

Lazz gave a relieved sigh. “Well at least we’re not totally on or own. I’d hate to have to try to figure out how to fly this thing.”

I nodded. “That makes two of us.” But I wondered about something else and reached down again.

“Will you instruct us in how to access the information in your memory banks?”

“Yes. The Witness is now in command of this system.”

Lazz rubbed his hands together and chuckled. “Job security!” Then he hissed as his eyes focused on the screen. “Sorry.”

I got up, feeling strangely heavy after over thirty hours at reduced gravity. Looking towards the screen I asked: “Can I speak to you from anywhere on the ship?”

“Yes.”

I headed for the bathroom where we had hung our suits after flushing them out. “C’mon, Lazz. I’ve got to get away from that for a while.” I nodded to the screen where the featureless joined pods with the Travelers hung accusingly. I felt strangely guilty: as if we should have been able to help the Travelers somehow.

Lazz tore his eyes away from the screen. “Yeah, I’m with you. It keeps reminding me that we’re also still headed for the sun. What if they run out of gas, or whatever they use?”

After stocking our suits, we spent the next day exploring the Traveler ship with the guidance of the ever-present computer. We only returned to the viewing room to nap and eat, both activities done fitfully and with frequent glances at the growing sun on the screen. Neither one of us could bring ourselves to turn the screen off. We did direct the computer to display a split screen, showing the probe picture and the map diagram. The latter showed the joined pods drawing further and further ahead of the ship itself as we slowed.

But during the last hours we couldn’t leave the room, and we sat staring at the screen almost non-stop as the pyramid on the map slowed to a stop and then began an odd course outwards again.

I stared at the map, confused, but Lazz just slapped my arm.

“Relax, Kimosabe. We’re headed for where the Earth will be, not where it was, or is.” He sounded puzzled as he went on. “I do wonder why they went to all this trouble to slow us down, when a different trajectory could just have swung us around to hook up again, decelerating in another, more economical pattern. It would have been faster, too.”

“Yes,” I pointed out. “But we wouldn’t have been as empathetic as ‘witnesses’. They wanted us to really understand what they are doing and feeling.”

Lazz nodded after a moment. “That makes sense.” Then he let out a loud sigh, and with it went both of our unvoiced and lingering fears of the flaming sun and we turned our full attention to the Travelers.

Our eyes were fixed on the pods and the sun it was approaching, and I had no idea how much time had passed until static started breaking up the image. The pods were still fairly far from the roiling solar surface, but apparently the radiation was just getting too strong for the transmitter on the camera probe to overcome, because the right half of the screen went blank before restoring the solar system map that showed us on the way back out. And just touching the edge of the stylized sun was a small inverted pyramid.

“Do you think…?” Lazz asked softly, his voice broken.

“They’re gone. No one could survive that close to the sun.” I felt an overwhelming urge come over me and I cursed my eyes. Now I wanted to cry. But these eyes wouldn’t let me; they only released a pain that reached deep into my throat and gut.

“No,” Lazz corrected me quietly after a long silence. “They’re not gone. That’s our job.” He got up to stretch. “It’s funny that I didn’t think of it before, but I just remembered something from long ago reading. It made me realize why they only wanted you to witness this, as someone who had taken the first step to understanding them.”

“What’s that?”

“The ancient Japanese Samurai warriors had a ritual suicide custom very similar to this. A spectacular and brave death, sometimes witnessed by a close friend or retainer there for support. There is more to both, of course, but in either case, it is quite an honor.” He stared at the screen, his finger following a trace line that showed the course each part of the ship had taken, following the pods’ straight course into the stylized sun. His head bowed a moment in respect, and then he returned to sit beside me.

After a long pause, he asked: “Mitch, do me a favor? I don’t trust myself.”

“Sure. What?”

“I put an optical disk in your locker at work. Destroy it for me please?”

“The belch recording,” I realized. “You kept one!”

He nodded. “I didn’t lie when I said that I destroyed every computer file with it, but this is a straight digital audio recording: the original. But after what Liza’s been going through, I owe her freedom from that threat.”

“I promise.”

“Good.” He grabbed my arm. “And then we’ve got to get you a date!”

I only half-heard him as I saw the inverted pyramid disappear on the map. Closing my eyes, I thought about how the Travelers had faced their end—and how I had faced my own losses. The lesson was obvious, and I opened my eyes again to face Lazz.

“Yes, I think you’re right. This time, I think I’m ready.”